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  Granicestoppedspeakingandlookedacrossthesmoke-fumesathislistener;butDenver\'sfaceremainedinscrutable。

  Atlengthhesaid:“Whydidyouwanttotellmethis?”

  ThequestionstartledGranice。Hewasabouttoexplain,ashehadexplainedtoAscham;butsuddenlyitoccurredtohimthatifhismotivehadnotseemedconvincingtothelawyeritwouldcarrymuchlessweightwithDenver。Bothweresuccessfulmen,andsuccessdoesnotunderstandthesubtleagonyoffailure。Granicecastaboutforanotherreason。

  “Why,I——thethinghauntsme……remorse,Isupposeyou\'dcallit……“

  Denverstrucktheashesfromhisemptypipe。

  “Remorse?Bosh!”hesaidenergetically。

  Granice\'sheartsank。“Youdon\'tbelievein——REMORSE?”

  “Notanatom:inthemanofaction。Themerefactofyourtalkingofremorseprovestomethatyou\'renotthemantohaveplannedandputthroughsuchajob。“

  Granicegroaned。“Well——Iliedtoyouaboutremorse。I\'veneverfeltany。“

  Denver\'slipstightenedscepticallyabouthisfreshly-filledpipe。“Whatwasyourmotive,then?Youmusthavehadone。“

  “I\'lltellyou——“AndGranicebeganagaintorehearsethestoryofhisfailure,ofhisloathingforlife。“Don\'tsayyoudon\'tbelievemethistime……thatthisisn\'tarealreason!”hestammeredoutpiteouslyasheended。

  Denvermeditated。“No,Iwon\'tsaythat。I\'veseentoomanyqueerthings。There\'salwaysareasonforwantingtogetoutoflife——thewonderisthatwefindsomanyforstayingin!”

  Granice\'sheartgrewlight。“ThenyouDObelieveme?”hefaltered。

  “Believethatyou\'resickofthejob?Yes。Andthatyouhaven\'tthenervetopullthetrigger?Oh,yes——that\'seasyenough,too。

  Butallthatdoesn\'tmakeyouamurderer——thoughIdon\'tsayitprovesyoucouldneverhavebeenone。“

  “IHAVEbeenone,Denver——Isweartoyou。“

  “Perhaps。“Hemeditated。“Justtellmeoneortwothings。“

  “Oh,goahead。Youwon\'tstumpme!”Graniceheardhimselfsaywithalaugh。

  “Well——howdidyoumakeallthosetrialtripswithoutexcitingyoursister\'scuriosity?Iknewyournighthabitsprettywellatthattime,remember。Youwereveryseldomoutlate。Didn\'tthechangeinyourwayssurpriseher?”

  “No;becauseshewasawayatthetime。ShewenttopayseveralvisitsinthecountrysoonafterwecamebackfromWrenfield,andwasonlyintownforanightortwobefore——beforeIdidthejob。“

  “Andthatnightshewenttobedearlywithaheadache?”

  “Yes——blinding。Shedidn\'tknowanythingwhenshehadthatkind。

  Andherroomwasatthebackoftheflat。“

  Denveragainmeditated。“Andwhenyougotback——shedidn\'thearyou?Yougotinwithoutherknowingit?”

  “Yes。Iwentstraighttomywork——tookitupatthewordwhereI\'dleftoff——WHY,DENVER,DON\'TYOUREMEMBER?”Granicesuddenly,passionatelyinterjected。

  “Remember——?”

  “Yes;howyoufoundme——whenyoulookedinthatmorning,betweentwoandthree……yourusualhour……?”

  “Yes,“theeditornodded。

  Granicegaveashortlaugh。“Inmyoldcoat——withmypipe:

  lookedasifI\'dbeenworkingallnight,didn\'tI?Well,I

  hadn\'tbeeninmychairtenminutes!”

  Denveruncrossedhislegsandthencrossedthemagain。“Ididn\'tknowwhetherYOUrememberedthat。“

  “What?”

  “Mycominginthatparticularnight——ormorning。“

  Graniceswungroundinhischair。“Why,manalive!That\'swhyI\'mherenow。Becauseitwasyouwhospokeformeattheinquest,whentheylookedroundtoseewhatalltheoldman\'sheirshadbeendoingthatnight——youwhotestifiedtohavingdroppedinandfoundmeatmydeskasusual……IthoughtTHATwouldappealtoyourjournalisticsenseifnothingelsewould!”

  Denversmiled。“Oh,myjournalisticsenseisstillsusceptibleenough——andtheidea\'spicturesque,Igrantyou:askingthemanwhoprovedyouralibitoestablishyourguilt。“

  “That\'sit——that\'sit!”Granice\'slaughhadaringoftriumph。

  “Well,buthowabouttheotherchap\'stestimony——Imeanthatyoungdoctor:whatwashisname?NedRanney。Don\'tyouremembermytestifyingthatI\'dmethimattheelevatedstation,andtoldhimIwasonmywaytosmokeapipewithyou,andhissaying:

  \'Allright;you\'llfindhimin。Ipassedthehousetwohoursago,andsawhisshadowagainsttheblind,asusual。\'Andtheladywiththetoothacheintheflatacrosstheway:shecorroboratedhisstatement,youremember。“

  “Yes;Iremember。“

  Well,then?”

  “Simpleenough。BeforestartingIriggedupakindofmannikinwitholdcoatsandacushion——somethingtocastashadowontheblind。Allyoufellowswereusedtoseeingmyshadowthereinthesmallhours——Icountedonthat,andknewyou\'dtakeanyvagueoutlineasmine。“

  “Simpleenough,asyousay。Butthewomanwiththetoothachesawtheshadowmove——youremembershesaidshesawyousinkforward,asifyou\'dfallenasleep。“

  “Yes;andshewasright。ItDIDmove。Isupposesomeextra-

  heavydraymusthavejoltedbytheflimsybuilding——atanyrate,somethinggavemymannikinajar,andwhenIcamebackhehadsunkforward,halfoverthetable。“

  Therewasalongsilencebetweenthetwomen。Granice,withathrobbingheart,watchedDenverrefillhispipe。Theeditor,atanyrate,didnotsneerandflouthim。Afterall,journalismgaveadeeperinsightthanthelawintothefantasticpossibilitiesoflife,preparedonebettertoallowfortheincalculablenessofhumanimpulses。

  “Well?”Granicefalteredout。

  Denverstoodupwithashrug。“Lookhere,man——what\'swrongwithyou?Makeacleanbreastofit!Nervesgonetosmash?I\'dliketotakeyoutoseeachapIknow——anex-prize-fighter——who\'sawonderatpullingfellowsinyourstateoutoftheirhole——“

  “Oh,oh——“Granicebrokein。Hestoodupalso,andthetwomeneyedeachother。“Youdon\'tbelieveme,then?”

  “Thisyarn——howcanI?Therewasn\'taflawinyouralibi。“

  “Buthaven\'tIfilleditfullofthemnow?”

  Denvershookhishead。“ImightthinksoifIhadn\'thappenedtoknowthatyouWANTEDto。There\'sthehitch,don\'tyousee?”

  Granicegroaned。“No,Ididn\'t。Youmeanmywantingtobefoundguilty——?”

  “Ofcourse!Ifsomebodyelsehadaccusedyou,thestorymighthavebeenworthlookinginto。Asitis,achildcouldhaveinventedit。Itdoesn\'tdomuchcredittoyouringenuity。“

  Graniceturnedsullenlytowardthedoor。Whatwastheuseofarguing?Butonthethresholdasuddenimpulsedrewhimback。

  “Lookhere,Denver——Idaresayyou\'reright。Butwillyoudojustonethingtoproveit?PutmystatementintheInvestigator,justasI\'vemadeit。Ridiculeitasmuchasyoulike。Onlygivetheotherfellowsachanceatit——menwhodon\'tknowanythingaboutme。Setthemtalkingandlookingabout。Idon\'tcareadamnwhetherYOUbelieveme——whatIwantistoconvincetheGrandJury!Ioughtn\'ttohavecometoamanwhoknowsme——

  yourcursedincredulityisinfectious。Idon\'tputmycasewell,becauseIknowinadvanceit\'sdiscredited,andIalmostendbynotbelievingitmyself。That\'swhyIcan\'tconvinceYOU。It\'saviciouscircle。“HelaidahandonDenver\'sarm。“Sendastenographer,andputmystatementinthepaper。

  ButDenverdidnotwarmtotheidea。“Mydearfellow,youseemtoforgetthatalltheevidencewasprettythoroughlysiftedatthetime,everypossiblecluefollowedup。ThepublicwouldhavebeenreadyenoughthentobelievethatyoumurderedoldLenman——

  youoranybodyelse。Alltheywantedwasamurderer——themostimprobablewouldhaveserved。Butyouralibiwastooconfoundedlycomplete。Andnothingyou\'vetoldmehasshakenit。“Denverlaidhiscoolhandovertheother\'sburningfingers。

  “Lookhere,oldfellow,gohomeandworkupabettercase——thencomeinandsubmitittotheInvestigator。“

  IV

  TheperspirationwasrollingoffGranice\'sforehead。Everyfewminuteshehadtodrawouthishandkerchiefandwipethemoisturefromhishaggardface。

  Foranhourandahalfhehadbeentalkingsteadily,puttinghiscasetotheDistrictAttorney。LuckilyhehadaspeakingacquaintancewithAllonby,andhadobtained,withoutmuchdifficulty,aprivateaudienceontheverydayafterhistalkwithRobertDenver。Intheintervalbetweenhehadhurriedhome,gotoutofhiseveningclothes,andgoneforthagainatonceintothedrearydawn。HisfearofAschamandthealienistmadeitimpossibleforhimtoremaininhisrooms。Anditseemedtohimthattheonlywayofavertingthathideousperilwasbyestablishing,insomesaneimpartialmind,theproofofhisguilt。Evenifhehadnotbeensoincurablysickoflife,theelectricchairseemednowtheonlyalternativetothestrait-

  jacket。

  AshepausedtowipehisforeheadhesawtheDistrictAttorneyglanceathiswatch。Thegesturewassignificant,andGraniceliftedanappealinghand。“Idon\'texpectyoutobelievemenow——

  butcan\'tyouputmeunderarrest,andhavethethinglookedinto?”

  Allonbysmiledfaintlyunderhisheavygrayishmoustache。Hehadaruddyface,fullandjovial,inwhichhiskeenprofessionaleyesseemedtokeepwatchoverimpulsesnotstrictlyprofessional。

  “Well,Idon\'tknowthatweneedlockyouupjustyet。ButofcourseI\'mboundtolookintoyourstatement——“

  Granicerosewithanexquisitesenseofrelief。SurelyAllonbywouldn\'thavesaidthatifhehadn\'tbelievedhim!

  “That\'sallright。ThenIneedn\'tdetainyou。Icanbefoundatanytimeatmyapartment。“Hegavetheaddress。

  TheDistrictAttorneysmiledagain,moreopenly。“Whatdoyousaytoleavingitforanhourortwothisevening?I\'mgivingalittlesupperatRector\'s——quiet,littleaffair,youunderstand:

  justMissMelrose——Ithinkyouknowher——andafriendortwo;andifyou\'lljoinus……“

  Granicestumbledoutoftheofficewithoutknowingwhatreplyhehadmade。

  Hewaitedforfourdays——fourdaysofconcentratedhorror。

  Duringthefirsttwenty-fourhoursthefearofAscham\'salienistdoggedhim;andasthatsubsided,itwasreplacedbytheexasperatingsensethathisavowalhadmadenoimpressionontheDistrictAttorney。Evidently,ifhehadbeengoingtolookintothecase,Allonbywouldhavebeenheardfrombeforenow……

  Andthatmockinginvitationtosuppershowedclearlyenoughhowlittlethestoryhadimpressedhim!

  Granicewasovercomebythefutilityofanyfartherattempttoinculpatehimself。Hewaschainedtolife——a“prisonerofconsciousness。“Wherewasithehadreadthephrase?Well,hewaslearningwhatitmeant。Intheglaringnight-hours,whenhisbrainseemedablaze,hewasvisitedbyasenseofhisfixedidentity,ofhisirreducible,inexpugnableSELFNESS,keener,moreinsidious,moreunescapable,thananysensationhehadeverknown。Hehadnotguessedthatthemindwascapableofsuchintricaciesofself-realization,ofpenetratingsodeepintoitsowndarkwindings。Oftenhewokefromhisbriefsnatchesofsleepwiththefeelingthatsomethingmaterialwasclingingtohim,wasonhishandsandface,andinhisthroat——andashisbrainclearedheunderstoodthatitwasthesenseofhisownloathedpersonalitythatstucktohimlikesomethickviscoussubstance。

  Then,inthefirstmorninghours,hewouldriseandlookoutofhiswindowattheawakeningactivitiesofthestreet——atthestreet-cleaners,theash-cartdrivers,andtheotherdingyworkersflittinghurriedlybythroughthesallowwinterlight。

  Oh,tobeoneofthem——anyofthem——totakehischanceinanyoftheirskins!Theywerethetoilers——themenwhoselotwaspitied——thevictimsweptoverandrantedaboutbyaltruistsandeconomists;andhowgladlyhewouldhavetakenuptheloadofanyoneofthem,ifonlyhemighthaveshakenoffhisown!But,no——

  theironcircleofconsciousnessheldthemtoo:eachonewashand-cuffedtohisownhideousego。Whywishtobeanyonemanratherthananother?Theonlyabsolutegoodwasnottobe……

  AndFlint,comingintodrawhisbath,wouldaskifhepreferredhiseggsscrambledorpoachedthatmorning?

  OnthefifthdayhewrotealongurgentlettertoAllonby;andforthesucceedingtwodayshehadtheoccupationofwaitingforananswer。Hehardlystirredfromhisrooms,inhisfearofmissingtheletterbyamoment;butwouldtheDistrictAttorneywrite,orsendarepresentative:apoliceman,a“secretagent,“

  orsomeothermysteriousemissaryofthelaw?

  OnthethirdmorningFlint,steppingsoftly——asif,confoundit!

  hismasterwereill——enteredthelibrarywhereGranicesatbehindanunreadnewspaper,andproferredacardonatray。

  Granicereadthename——J。B。Hewson——andunderneath,inpencil,“FromtheDistrictAttorney\'soffice。“Hestartedupwithathumpingheart,andsignedanassenttotheservant。

  Mr。Hewsonwasaslightsallownondescriptmanofaboutfifty——

  thekindofmanofwhomoneissuretoseeaspecimeninanycrowd。“Justthetypeofthesuccessfuldetective,“Granicereflectedasheshookhandswithhisvisitor。

  AnditwasinthatcharacterthatMr。Hewsonbrieflyintroducedhimself。HehadbeensentbytheDistrictAttorneytohave“aquiettalk“withMr。Granice——toaskhimtorepeatthestatementhehadmadeabouttheLenmanmurder。

  Hismannerwassoquiet,soreasonableandreceptive,thatGranice\'sself-confidencereturned。Herewasasensibleman——amanwhoknewhisbusiness——itwouldbeeasyenoughtomakeHIM

  seethroughthatridiculousalibi!GraniceofferedMr。Hewsonacigar,andlightingonehimself——toprovehiscoolness——beganagaintotellhisstory。

  Hewasconscious,asheproceeded,oftellingitbetterthaneverbefore。Practicehelped,nodoubt;andhislistener\'sdetached,impartialattitudehelpedstillmore。HecouldseethatHewson,atleast,hadnotdecidedinadvancetodisbelievehim,andthesenseofbeingtrustedmadehimmorelucidandmoreconsecutive。

  Yes,thistimehiswordswouldcertainlycarryconviction……

  V

  Despairingly,Granicegazedupanddowntheshabbystreet。

  Besidehimstoodayoungmanwithbrightprominenteyes,asmoothbutnottoosmoothly-shavenface,andanIrishsmile。Theyoungman\'snimbleglancefollowedGranice\'s。

  “Sureofthenumber,areyou?”heaskedbriskly。

  “Oh,yes——itwas104。“

  “Well,then,thenewbuildinghasswalloweditup——that\'scertain。“

  Hetiltedhisheadbackandsurveyedthehalf-finishedfrontofabrickandlimestoneflat-housethatreareditsflimsyeleganceabovearowoftotteringtenementsandstables。

  “Deadsure?”herepeated。

  “Yes,“saidGranice,discouraged。“AndevenifIhadn\'tbeen,I

  knowthegaragewasjustoppositeLeffler\'soverthere。“Hepointedacrossthestreettoatumble-downstablewithablotchedsignonwhichthewords“LiveryandBoarding“werestillfaintlydiscernible。

  Theyoungmandashedacrosstotheoppositepavement。“Well,that\'ssomething——maygetacluethere。Leffler\'s——samenamethere,anyhow。Yourememberthatname?”

  “Yes——distinctly。“

  GranicehadfeltareturnofconfidencesincehehadenlistedtheinterestoftheExplorer\'s“smartest“reporter。Ifthereweremomentswhenhehardlybelievedhisownstory,therewereotherswhenitseemedimpossiblethateveryoneshouldnotbelieveit;

  andyoungPeterMcCarren,peering,listening,questioning,jottingdownnotes,inspiredhimwithanexquisitesenseofsecurity。McCarrenhadfastenedonthecaseatonce,“likealeech,“ashephrasedit——jumpedatit,thrilledtoit,andsettleddownto“drawthelastdropoffactfromit,andhadnotletgotillhehad。“NooneelsehadtreatedGraniceinthatway——evenAllonby\'sdetectivehadnottakenasinglenote。Andthoughaweekhadelapsedsincethevisitofthatauthorizedofficial,nothinghadbeenheardfromtheDistrictAttorney\'soffice:Allonbyhadapparentlydroppedthematteragain。ButMcCarrenwasn\'tgoingtodropit——nothe!HepositivelyhungonGranice\'sfootsteps。Theyhadspentthegreaterpartofthepreviousdaytogether,andnowtheywereoffagain,runningdownclues。

  ButatLeffler\'stheygotnone,afterall。Leffler\'swasnolongerastable。Itwascondemnedtodemolition,andintherespitebetweensentenceandexecutionithadbecomeavagueplaceofstorage,ahospitalforbroken-downcarriagesandcarts,presidedoverbyablear-eyedoldwomanwhoknewnothingofFlood\'sgarageacrosstheway——didnotevenrememberwhathadstoodtherebeforethenewflat-housebegantorise。

  “Well——wemayrunLefflerdownsomewhere;I\'veseenharderjobsdone,“saidMcCarren,cheerfullynotingdownthename。

  AstheywalkedbacktowardSixthAvenueheadded,inalesssanguinetone:“I\'dundertakenowtoputthethingthroughifyoucouldonlyputmeonthetrackofthatcyanide。“

  Granice\'sheartsank。Yes——therewastheweakspot;hehadfeltitfromthefirst!ButhestillhopedtoconvinceMcCarrenthathiscasewasstrongenoughwithoutit;andheurgedthereportertocomebacktohisroomsandsumupthefactswithhimagain。

  “Sorry,Mr。Granice,butI\'mdueattheofficenow。Besides,it\'dbenousetillIgetsomefreshstufftoworkon。SupposeI

  callyouuptomorrowornextday?”

  HeplungedintoatrolleyandleftGranicegazingdesolatelyafterhim。

  Twodayslaterhereappearedattheapartment,ashadelessjauntyindemeanor。

  “Well,Mr。Granice,thestarsintheircoursesareagainstyou,asthebardsays。Can\'tgetatraceofFlood,orofLefflereither。AndyousayyouboughtthemotorthroughFlood,andsolditthroughhim,too?”

  “Yes,“saidGranicewearily。

  “Whoboughtit,doyouknow?”

  Granicewrinkledhisbrows。“Why,Flood——yes,Floodhimself。I

  solditbacktohimthreemonthslater。“

  “Flood?Thedevil!AndI\'veransackedthetownforFlood。Thatkindofbusinessdisappearsasiftheearthhadswallowedit。“

  Granice,discouraged,keptsilence。

  “Thatbringsusbacktothepoison,“McCarrencontinued,hisnote-bookout。“Justgooverthatagain,willyou?”

  AndGranicewentoveritagain。Ithadallbeensosimpleatthetime——andhehadbeensocleverincoveringuphistraces!Assoonashedecidedonpoisonhelookedaboutforanacquaintancewhomanufacturedchemicals;andtherewasJimDawes,aHarvardclassmate,inthedyeingbusiness——justtheman。Butatthelastmomentitoccurredtohimthatsuspicionmightturntowardsoobviousanopportunity,andhedecidedonamoretortuouscourse。

  Anotherfriend,CarrickVenn,astudentofmedicinewhomirremediableill-healthhadkeptfromthepracticeofhisprofession,amusedhisleisurewithexperimentsinphysics,fortheexerciseofwhichhehadsetupasimplelaboratory。GranicehadthehabitofdroppingintosmokeacigarwithhimonSundayafternoons,andthefriendsgenerallysatinVenn\'swork-shop,atthebackoftheoldfamilyhouseinStuyvesantSquare。Offthiswork-shopwasthecupboardofsupplies,withitsrowofdeadlybottles。CarrickVennwasanoriginal,amanofrestlesscurioustastes,andhisplace,onaSunday,wasoftenfullofvisitors:acheerfulcrowdofjournalists,scribblers,painters,experimentersindiversformsofexpression。Comingandgoingamongsomany,itwaseasyenoughtopassunperceived;andoneafternoonGranice,arrivingbeforeVennhadreturnedhome,foundhimselfaloneinthework-shop,andquicklyslippingintothecupboard,transferredthedrugtohispocket。

  Butthathadhappenedtenyearsago;andVenn,poorfellow,waslongsincedeadofhisdraggingailment。Hisoldfatherwasdead,too,thehouseinStuyvesantSquarehadbeenturnedintoaboarding-house,andtheshiftinglifeofNewYorkhadpasseditsrapidspongeovereverytraceoftheirobscurelittlehistory。

  EventheoptimisticMcCarrenseemedtoacknowledgethehopelessnessofseekingforproofinthatdirection。

  “Andthere\'sthethirddoorslammedinourfaces。“Heshuthisnote-book,andthrowingbackhishead,restedhisbrightinquisitiveeyesonGranice\'sfurrowedface。

  “Lookhere,Mr。Granice——youseetheweakspot,don\'tyou?”

  Theothermadeadespairingmotion。“Iseesomany!”

  “Yes:buttheonethatweakensalltheothers。Whythedeucedoyouwantthisthingknown?Whydoyouwanttoputyourheadintothenoose?”

  Granicelookedathimhopelessly,tryingtotakethemeasureofhisquicklightirreverentmind。Noonesofullofacheerfulanimallifewouldbelieveinthecravingfordeathasasufficientmotive;andGranicerackedhisbrainforonemoreconvincing。Butsuddenlyhesawthereporter\'sfacesoften,andmelttoanaivesentimentalism。

  “Mr。Granice——hasthememoryofitalwayshauntedyou?”

  Granicestaredamoment,andthenleaptattheopening。“That\'sit——thememoryofit……always……“

  McCarrennoddedvehemently。“Doggedyoursteps,eh?Wouldn\'tletyousleep?ThetimecamewhenyouHADtomakeacleanbreastofit?”

  “Ihadto。Can\'tyouunderstand?”

  Thereporterstruckhisfistonthetable。“God,sir!Idon\'tsupposethere\'sahumanbeingwithadropofwarmbloodinhimthatcan\'tpicturethedeadlyhorrorsofremorse——“

  TheCelticimaginationwasaflame,andGranicemutelythankedhimfortheword。WhatneitherAschamnorDenverwouldacceptasaconceivablemotivetheIrishreporterseizedonasthemostadequate;and,ashesaid,onceonecouldfindaconvincingmotive,thedifficultiesofthecasebecamesomanyincentivestoeffort。

  “Remorse——REMORSE,“herepeated,rollingthewordunderhistonguewithanaccentthatwasacluetothepsychologyofthepopulardrama;andGranice,perversely,saidtohimself:“IfI

  couldonlyhavestruckthatnoteIshouldhavebeenrunninginsixtheatresatonce。“

  HesawthatfromthatmomentMcCarren\'sprofessionalzealwouldbefannedbyemotionalcuriosity;andheprofitedbythefacttoproposethattheyshoulddinetogether,andgoonafterwardtosomemusic-hallortheatre。ItwasbecomingnecessarytoGranicetofeelhimselfanobjectofpre-occupation,tofindhimselfinanothermind。HetookakindofgraypenumbralpleasureinrivetingMcCarren\'sattentiononhiscase;andtofeignthegrimacesofmoralanguishbecameapassionatelyengrossinggame。

  Hehadnotenteredatheatreformonths;buthesatoutthemeaninglessperformanceinrigidtolerance,sustainedbythesenseofthereporter\'sobservation。

  Betweentheacts,McCarrenamusedhimwithanecdotesabouttheaudience:hekneweveryonebysight,andcouldliftthecurtainfromeveryphysiognomy。Granicelistenedindulgently。Hehadlostallinterestinhiskind,butheknewthathewashimselftherealcentreofMcCarren\'sattention,andthateverywordthelatterspokehadanindirectbearingonhisownproblem。

  “Seethatfellowoverthere——thelittledried-upmaninthethirdrow,pullinghismoustache?HISmemoirswouldbeworthpublishing,“McCarrensaidsuddenlyinthelastentr\'acte。

  Granice,followinghisglance,recognizedthedetectivefromAllonby\'soffice。Foramomenthehadthethrillingsensethathewasbeingshadowed。

  “Caesar,ifHEcouldtalk——!”McCarrencontinued。“Knowwhoheis,ofcourse?Dr。JohnB。Stell,thebiggestalienistinthecountry——“

  Granice,withastart,bentagainbetweentheheadsinfrontofhim。“THATman——thefourthfromtheaisle?You\'remistaken。

  That\'snotDr。Stell。“

  McCarrenlaughed。“Well,IguessI\'vebeenincourtenoughtoknowStellwhenIseehim。Hetestifiesinnearlyallthebigcaseswheretheypleadinsanity。“

  AcoldshiverrandownGranice\'sspine,butherepeatedobstinately:“That\'snotDr。Stell。“

  “NotStell?Why,man,IKNOWhim。Look——herehecomes。Ifitisn\'tStell,hewon\'tspeaktome。“

  Thelittledried-upmanwasmovingslowlyuptheaisle。AshenearedMcCarrenhemadeaslightgestureofrecognition。

  “How\'do,DoctorStell?Prettyslimshow,ain\'tit?”thereportercheerfullyflungoutathim。AndMr。J。B。Hewson,withanodofamicableassent,passedon。

  Granicesatbenumbed。Heknewhehadnotbeenmistaken——themanwhohadjustpassedwasthesamemanwhomAllonbyhadsenttoseehim:aphysiciandisguisedasadetective。Allonby,then,hadthoughthiminsane,liketheothers——hadregardedhisconfessionasthemaunderingofamaniac。ThediscoveryfrozeGranicewithhorror——heseemedtoseethemad-housegapingforhim。

  “Isn\'tthereamanagooddeallikehim——adetectivenamedJ。B。

  Hewson?”

  ButheknewinadvancewhatMcCarren\'sanswerwouldbe。“Hewson?

  J。B。Hewson?Neverheardofhim。ButthatwasJ。B。Stellfastenough——Iguesshecanbetrustedtoknowhimself,andyousawheansweredtohisname。“

  VI

  SomedayspassedbeforeGranicecouldobtainawordwiththeDistrictAttorney:hebegantothinkthatAllonbyavoidedhim。

  ButwhentheywerefacetofaceAllonby\'sjovialcountenanceshowednosignofembarrassment。Hewavedhisvisitortoachair,andleanedacrosshisdeskwiththeencouragingsmileofaconsultingphysician。

  Granicebrokeoutatonce:“Thatdetectiveyousentmetheotherday——“

  Allonbyraisedadeprecatinghand。

  “——Iknow:itwasStellthealienist。Whydidyoudothat,Allonby?”

  Theother\'sfacedidnotloseitscomposure。“BecauseIlookedupyourstoryfirst——andthere\'snothinginit。“

  “Nothinginit?”Granicefuriouslyinterposed。

  “Absolutelynothing。Ifthereis,whythedeucedon\'tyoubringmeproofs?Iknowyou\'vebeentalkingtoPeterAscham,andtoDenver,andtothatlittleferretMcCarrenoftheExplorer。Haveanyofthembeenabletomakeoutacaseforyou?No。Well,whatamItodo?”

  Granice\'slipsbegantotremble。“Whydidyouplaymethattrick?”

  “AboutStell?Ihadto,mydearfellow:it\'spartofmybusiness。StellISadetective,ifyoucometothat——everydoctoris。“

  ThetremblingofGranice\'slipsincreased,communicatingitselfinalongquivertohisfacialmuscles。Heforcedalaughthroughhisdrythroat。“Well——andwhatdidhedetect?”

  “Inyou?Oh,hethinksit\'soverwork——overworkandtoomuchsmoking。Ifyoulookinonhimsomedayathisofficehe\'llshowyoutherecordofhundredsofcaseslikeyours,andadviseyouwhattreatmenttofollow。It\'soneofthecommonestformsofhallucination。Haveacigar,allthesame。“

  “But,Allonby,Ikilledthatman!”

  TheDistrictAttorney\'slargehand,outstretchedonhisdesk,hadanalmostimperceptiblegesture,andamomentlater,asifananswertothecallofanelectricbell,aclerklookedinfromtheouteroffice。

  “Sorry,mydearfellow——lotofpeoplewaiting。DropinonStellsomemorning,“Allonbysaid,shakinghands。

  McCarrenhadtoownhimselfbeaten:therewasabsolutelynoflawinthealibi。Andsincehisdutytohisjournalobviouslyforbadehiswastingtimeoninsolublemysteries,heceasedtofrequentGranice,whodroppedbackintoadeeperisolation。ForadayortwoafterhisvisittoAllonbyhecontinuedtoliveindreadofDr。Stell。WhymightnotAllonbyhavedeceivedhimastothealienist\'sdiagnosis?Whatifhewerereallybeingshadowed,notbyapoliceagentbutbyamad-doctor?Tohavethetruthout,hesuddenlydeterminedtocallonDr。Stell。

  Thephysicianreceivedhimkindly,andrevertedwithoutembarrassmenttotheconditionsoftheirpreviousmeeting。“Wehavetodothatoccasionally,Mr。Granice;it\'soneofourmethods。AndyouhadgivenAllonbyafright。“

  Granicewassilent。Hewouldhavelikedtoreaffirmhisguilt,toproducethefreshargumentswhichhadoccurredtohimsincehislasttalkwiththephysician;buthefearedhiseagernessmightbetakenforasymptomofderangement,andheaffectedtosmileawayDr。Stell\'sallusion。

  “Youthink,then,it\'sacaseofbrain-fag——nothingmore?”

  “Nothingmore。AndIshouldadviseyoutoknockofftobacco。

  Yousmokeagooddeal,don\'tyou?”

  Hedevelopedhistreatment,recommendingmassage,gymnastics,travel,oranyformofdiversionthatdidnot——thatinshort——

  Graniceinterruptedhimimpatiently。“Oh,Iloatheallthat——andI\'msickoftravelling。“

  “H\'m。Thensomelargerinterest——politics,reform,philanthropy?

  Somethingtotakeyououtofyourself。“

  “Yes。Iunderstand,“saidGranicewearily。

  “Aboveall,don\'tloseheart。Iseehundredsofcaseslikeyours,“thedoctoraddedcheerfullyfromthethreshold。

  OnthedoorstepGranicestoodstillandlaughed。Hundredsofcaseslikehis——thecaseofamanwhohadcommittedamurder,whoconfessedhisguilt,andwhomnoonewouldbelieve!Why,therehadneverbeenacaselikeitintheworld。WhatagoodfigureStellwouldhavemadeinaplay:thegreatalienistwhocouldn\'treadaman\'smindanybetterthanthat!

  Granicesawhugecomicopportunitiesinthetype。

  Butashewalkedaway,hisfearsdispelled,thesenseoflistlessnessreturnedonhim。ForthefirsttimesincehisavowaltoPeterAschamhefoundhimselfwithoutanoccupation,andunderstoodthathehadbeencarriedthroughthepastweeksonlybythenecessityofconstantaction。Nowhislifehadoncemorebecomeastagnantbackwater,andashestoodonthestreetcornerwatchingthetidesoftrafficsweepby,heaskedhimselfdespairinglyhowmuchlongerhecouldenduretofloataboutinthesluggishcircleofhisconsciousness。

  Thethoughtofself-destructionrecurredtohim;butagainhisfleshrecoiled。Heyearnedfordeathfromotherhands,buthecouldnevertakeitfromhisown。And,asidefromhisinsuperablephysicalreluctance,anothermotiverestrainedhim。

  Hewaspossessedbythedoggeddesiretoestablishthetruthofhisstory。Herefusedtobesweptasideasanirresponsibledreamer——evenifhehadtokillhimselfintheend,hewouldnotdosobeforeprovingtosocietythathehaddeserveddeathfromit。

  Hebegantowritelongletterstothepapers;butafterthefirsthadbeenpublishedandcommentedon,publiccuriositywasquelledbyabriefstatementfromtheDistrictAttorney\'soffice,andtherestofhiscommunicationsremainedunprinted。Aschamcametoseehim,andbeggedhimtotravel。RobertDenverdroppedin,andtriedtojokehimoutofhisdelusion;tillGranice,mistrustfuloftheirmotives,begantodreadthereappearanceofDr。Stell,andsetaguardonhislips。Butthewordshekeptbackengenderedothersandstillothersinhisbrain。Hisinnerselfbecameahummingfactoryofarguments,andhespentlonghoursrecitingandwritingdownelaboratestatementsofhiscrime,whichheconstantlyretouchedanddeveloped。Thengraduallyhisactivitylanguishedunderthelackofanaudience,thesenseofbeingburiedbeneathdeepeningdriftsofindifference。Inapassionofresentmenthesworethathewouldprovehimselfamurderer,evenifhehadtocommitanothercrimetodoit;andforasleeplessnightortwothethoughtflamedredonhisdarkness。Butdaylightdispelledit。Thedeterminingimpulsewaslackingandhehatedtoopromiscuouslytochoosehisvictim……

  Sohewasthrownbackontheunavailingstruggletoimposethetruthofhisstory。Asfastasonechannelclosedonhimhetriedtopierceanotherthroughtheslidingsandsofincredulity。

  Buteveryissueseemedblocked,andthewholehumanraceleaguedtogethertocheatonemanoftherighttodie。

  Thusviewed,thesituationbecamesomonstrousthathelosthislastshredofself-restraintincontemplatingit。Whatifhewerereallythevictimofsomemockingexperiment,thecentreofaringofholiday-makersjeeringatapoorcreatureinitsblinddashesagainstthesolidwallsofconsciousness?But,no——menwerenotsouniformlycruel:therewereflawsintheclosesurfaceoftheirindifference,cracksofweaknessandpityhereandthere……

  Granicebegantothinkthathismistakelayinhavingappealedtopersonsmoreorlessfamiliarwithhispast,andtowhomthevisibleconformitiesofhislifeseemedafinaldisproofofitsonefiercesecretdeviation。Thegeneraltendencywastotakeforthewholeoflifetheslitseenbetweentheblindersofhabit:andinhiswalkdownthatnarrowvistaGranicecutacorrectenoughfigure。Toavisionfreetofollowhiswholeorbithisstorywouldbemoreintelligible:itwouldbeeasiertoconvinceachanceidlerinthestreetthanthetrainedintelligencehamperedbyasenseofhisantecedents。Thisideashotupinhimwiththetropicluxurianceofeachnewseedofthought,andhebegantowalkthestreets,andtofrequentout-

  of-the-waychop-housesandbarsinhissearchfortheimpartialstrangertowhomheshoulddisclosehimself。

  Atfirsteveryfacelookedencouragement;butatthecrucialmomenthealwaysheldback。Somuchwasatstake,anditwassoessentialthathisfirstchoiceshouldbedecisive。Hedreadedstupidity,timidity,intolerance。Theimaginativeeye,thefurrowedbrow,werewhathesought。Hemustrevealhimselfonlytoaheartversedinthetortuousmotionsofthehumanwill;andhebegantohatethedullbenevolenceoftheaverageface。Onceortwice,obscurely,allusively,hemadeabeginning——oncesittingdownataman\'ssideinabasementchop-house,anotherdayapproachingaloungeronaneast-sidewharf。Butinbothcasesthepremonitionoffailurecheckedhimonthebrinkofavowal。Hisdreadofbeingtakenforamanintheclutchofafixedideagavehimanunnaturalkeennessinreadingtheexpressionofhisinterlocutors,andhehadprovidedhimselfinadvancewithaseriesofverbalalternatives,trap-doorsofevasionfromthefirstdartofridiculeorsuspicion。

  Hepassedthegreaterpartofthedayinthestreets,cominghomeatirregularhours,dreadingthesilenceandorderlinessofhisapartment,andthecriticalscrutinyofFlint。Hisreallifewasspentinaworldsoremotefromthisfamiliarsettingthathesometimeshadthemysterioussenseofalivingmetempsychosis,afurtivepassagefromoneidentitytoanother——yettheotherasunescapablyhimself!

  Onehumiliationhewasspared:thedesiretoliveneverrevivedinhim。Notforamomentwashetemptedtoashabbypactwithexistingconditions。Hewantedtodie,wanteditwiththefixedunwaveringdesirewhichaloneattainsitsend。Andstilltheendeludedhim!Itwouldnotalways,ofcourse——hehadfullfaithinthedarkstarofhisdestiny。Andhecouldproveitbestbyrepeatinghisstory,persistentlyandindefatigably,pouringitintoindifferentears,hammeringitintodullbrains,tillatlastitkindledaspark,andsomeoneofthecarelessmillionspaused,listened,believed……

  ItwasamildMarchday,andhehadbeenloiteringonthewest-

  sidedocks,lookingatfaces。Hewasbecominganexpertinphysiognomies:hiseagernessnolongermaderashdartsandawkwardrecoils。Heknewnowthefaceheneeded,asclearlyasifithadcometohiminavision;andnottillhefounditwouldhespeak。Ashewalkedeastwardthroughtheshabbyreekingstreetshehadapremonitionthatheshouldfinditthatmorning。

  Perhapsitwasthepromiseofspringintheair——certainlyhefeltcalmerthanformanydays……

  HeturnedintoWashingtonSquare,struckacrossitobliquely,andwalkedupUniversityPlace。Itsheterogeneouspassersalwaysalluredhim——theywerelesshurriedthaninBroadway,lessenclosedandclassifiedthaninFifthAvenue。Hewalkedslowly,watchingforhisface。

  AtUnionSquarehefeltasuddenrelapseintodiscouragement,likeavotarywhohaswatchedtoolongforasignfromthealtar。

  Perhaps,afterall,heshouldneverfindhisface……Theairwaslanguid,andhefelttired。Hewalkedbetweenthebaldgrass-plotsandthetwistedtrees,makingforanemptyseat。

  Presentlyhepassedabenchonwhichagirlsatalone,andsomethingasdefiniteasthetwitchofacordmadehimstopbeforeher。Hehadneverdreamedoftellinghisstorytoagirl,hadhardlylookedatthewomen\'sfacesastheypassed。Hiscasewasman\'swork:howcouldawomanhelphim?Butthisgirl\'sfacewasextraordinary——quietandwideasacleareveningsky。Itsuggestedahundredimagesofspace,distance,mystery,likeshipshehadseen,asaboy,quietlyberthedbyafamiliarwharf,butwiththebreathoffarseasandstrangeharboursintheirshrouds……Certainlythisgirlwouldunderstand。Hewentuptoherquietly,liftinghishat,observingtheforms——wishinghertoseeatoncethathewas“agentleman。“

  “Iamastrangertoyou,“hebegan,sittingdownbesideher,“butyourfaceissoextremelyintelligentthatIfeel……IfeelitisthefaceI\'vewaitedfor……lookedforeverywhere;andI

  wanttotellyou——“

  Thegirl\'seyeswidened:sherosetoherfeet。Shewasescapinghim!

  Inhisdismayheranafewstepsafterher,andcaughtherroughlybythearm。

  “Here——wait——listen!Oh,don\'tscream,youfool!”heshoutedout。

  Hefeltahandonhisownarm;turnedandconfrontedapoliceman。

  Instantlyheunderstoodthathewasbeingarrested,andsomethinghardwithinhimwasloosenedandrantotears。

  “Ah,youknow——youKNOWI\'mguilty!”

  Hewasconsciousthatacrowdwasforming,andthatthegirl\'sfrightenedfacehaddisappeared。Butwhatdidhecareaboutherface?Itwasthepolicemanwhohadreallyunderstoodhim。Heturnedandfollowed,thecrowdathisheels……

  VII

  Inthecharmingplaceinwhichhefoundhimselfthereweresomanysympatheticfacesthathefeltmorethaneverconvincedofthecertaintyofmakinghimselfheard。

  Itwasabadblow,atfirst,tofindthathehadnotbeenarrestedformurder;butAscham,whohadcometohimatonce,explainedthatheneededrest,andthetimeto“review“hisstatements;itappearedthatreiterationhadmadethemalittleconfusedandcontradictory。Tothisendhehadwillinglyacquiescedinhisremovaltoalargequietestablishment,withanopenspaceandtreesaboutit,wherehehadfoundanumberofintelligentcompanions,some,likehimself,engagedinpreparingorreviewingstatementsoftheircases,andothersreadytolendaninterestedeartohisownrecital。

  Foratimehewascontenttolethimselfgoonthetranquilcurrentofthisexistence;butalthoughhisauditorsgavehimforthemostpartanencouragingattention,which,insome,wentthelengthofreallybrilliantandhelpfulsuggestion,hegraduallyfeltarecurrenceofhisolddoubts。Eitherhishearerswerenotsincere,orelsetheyhadlesspowertoaidhimthantheyboasted。Hisinterminableconferencesresultedinnothing,andasthebenefitofthelongrestmadeitselffelt,itproducedanincreasedmentalluciditywhichrenderedinactionmoreandmoreunbearable。Atlengthhediscoveredthatoncertaindaysvisitorsfromtheouterworldwereadmittedtohisretreat;andhewroteoutlongandlogicallyconstructedrelationsofhiscrime,andfurtivelyslippedthemintothehandsofthesemessengersofhope。

  Thisoccupationgavehimafreshleaseofpatience,andhenowlivedonlytowatchforthevisitors\'days,andscanthefacesthatsweptbyhimlikestarsseenandlostintheriftsofahurryingsky。

  Mostly,thesefaceswerestrangeandlessintelligentthanthoseofhiscompanions。Buttheyrepresentedhislastmeansofaccesstotheworld,akindofsubterraneanchannelonwhichhecouldsethis“statements“afloat,likepaperboatswhichthemysteriouscurrentmightsweepoutintotheopenseasoflife。

  Oneday,however,hisattentionwasarrestedbyafamiliarcontour,apairofbrightprominenteyes,andachininsufficientlyshaved。HesprangupandstoodinthepathofPeterMcCarren。

  Thejournalistlookedathimdoubtfully,thenheldouthishandwithastartleddeprecating,“WHY——?”

  “Youdidn\'tknowme?I\'msochanged?”Granicefaltered,feelingthereboundoftheother\'swonder。

  “Why,no;butyou\'relookingquieter——smoothedout,“McCarrensmiled。

  “Yes:that\'swhatI\'mherefor——torest。AndI\'vetakentheopportunitytowriteoutaclearerstatement——“

  Granice\'shandshooksothathecouldhardlydrawthefoldedpaperfromhispocket。Ashedidsohenoticedthatthereporterwasaccompaniedbyatallmanwithgravecompassionateeyes。ItcametoGraniceinawildthrillofconvictionthatthiswasthefacehehadwaitedfor……

  “Perhapsyourfriend——heISyourfriend?——wouldglanceoverit——

  orIcouldputthecaseinafewwordsifyouhavetime?”

  Granice\'svoiceshooklikehishand。Ifthischanceescapedhimhefeltthathislasthopewasgone。McCarrenandthestrangerlookedateachother,andtheformerglancedathiswatch。

  “I\'msorrywecan\'tstayandtalkitovernow,Mr。Granice;butmyfriendhasanengagement,andwe\'reratherpressed——“

  Granicecontinuedtoprofferthepaper。“I\'msorry——IthinkI

  couldhaveexplained。Butyou\'lltakethis,atanyrate?”

  Thestrangerlookedathimgently。“Certainly——I\'lltakeit。“

  Hehadhishandout。“Good-bye。“

  “Good-bye,“Graniceechoed。

  Hestoodwatchingthetwomenmoveawayfromhimthroughthelonglighthall;andashewatchedthematearrandownhisface。Butassoonastheywereoutofsightheturnedandwalkedhastilytowardhisroom,beginningtohopeagain,alreadyplanninganewstatement。

  Outsidethebuildingthetwomenstoodstill,andthejournalist\'scompanionlookedupcuriouslyatthelongmonotonousrowsofbarredwindows。

  “SothatwasGranice?”

  “Yes——thatwasGranice,poordevil,“saidMcCarren。

  “Strangecase!Isupposethere\'sneverbeenonejustlikeit?

  He\'sstillabsolutelyconvincedthathecommittedthatmurder?”

  “Absolutely。Yes。“

  Thestrangerreflected。“Andtherewasnoconceivablegroundfortheidea?Noonecouldmakeouthowitstarted?Aquietconventionalsortoffellowlikethat——wheredoyousupposehegotsuchadelusion?Didyouevergettheleastcluetoit?”

  McCarrenstoodstill,hishandsinhispockets,hisheadcockedupincontemplationofthebarredwindows。Thenheturnedhisbrighthardgazeonhiscompanion。

  “Thatwasthequeerpartofit。I\'veneverspokenofit——butI

  DIDgetaclue。“

  “ByJove!That\'sinteresting。Whatwasit?”

  McCarrenformedhisredlipsintoawhistle。“Why——thatitwasn\'tadelusion。“

  Heproducedhiseffect——theotherturnedonhimwithapallidstare。

  “Hemurderedthemanallright。Itumbledonthetruthbythemerestaccident,whenI\'dprettynearlychuckedthewholejob。“

  “Hemurderedhim——murderedhiscousin?”

  “Sureasyoulive。Onlydon\'tsplitonme。It\'saboutthequeerestbusinessIeverraninto……DOABOUTIT?Why,whatwasItodo?Icouldn\'thangthepoordevil,couldI?Lord,butIwasgladwhentheycollaredhim,andhadhimstowedawaysafeinthere!”

  Thetallmanlistenedwithagraveface,graspingGranice\'sstatementinhishand。

  “Here——takethis;itmakesmesick,“hesaidabruptly,thrustingthepaperatthereporter;andthetwomenturnedandwalkedinsilencetothegates。

  TheEndTHEDILETTANTE

  asfirstpublishedinHarper\'sMonthly,December1903

  Itwasonanimpulsehardlyneedingtheargumentshefoundhimselfadvancinginitsfavor,thatThursdale,onhiswaytotheclub,turnedasusualintoMrs。Vervain\'sstreet。

  The“asusual“washisownqualificationoftheact;aconvenientwayofbridgingtheinterval——indaysandothersequences——thatlaybetweenthisvisitandthelast。Itwascharacteristicofhimthatheinstinctivelyexcludedhiscalltwodaysearlier,withRuthGaynor,fromthelistofhisvisitstoMrs。Vervain:

  thespecialconditionsattendingithadmadeitnomorelikeavisittoMrs。Vervainthananengraveddinnerinvitationislikeapersonalletter。YetitwastotalkoverhiscallwithMissGaynorthathewasnowreturningtothesceneofthatepisode;

  anditwasbecauseMrs。Vervaincouldbetrustedtohandlethetalkingoverasskilfullyastheinterviewitselfthat,athercorner,hehadfeltthedilettante\'sirresistiblecravingtotakealastlookataworkofartthatwaspassingoutofhispossession。

  Onthewhole,heknewnoonebetterfittedtodealwiththeunexpectedthanMrs。Vervain。Sheexcelledintherareartoftakingthingsforgranted,andThursdalefeltapardonableprideinthethoughtthatsheowedherexcellencetohistraining。

  EarlyinhiscareerThursdalehadmadethemistake,attheoutsetofhisacquaintancewithalady,oftellingherthathelovedherandexactingthesameavowalinreturn。Thelatterpartofthatepisodehadbeenlikethelongwalkbackfromapicnic,whenonehastocarryallthecrockeryonehasfinishedusing:itwasthelasttimeThursdaleeverallowedhimselftobeencumberedwiththedebrisofafeast。Hethusincidentallylearnedthattheprivilegeoflovingherisoneoftheleastfavorsthatacharmingwomancanaccord;andinseekingtoavoidthepitfallsofsentimenthehaddevelopedascienceofevasioninwhichthewomanofthemomentbecameamereimplementofthegame。Heowedagreatdealofdelicateenjoymenttothecultivationofthisart。Theperilsfromwhichithadbeenhisrefugebecamenaivelyharmless:wasitpossiblethathewhonowtookhiseasywayalongthelevelshadoncepreferredtogaspontherawheightsofemotion?Youthisahigh-coloredseason;buthehadthesatisfactionoffeelingthathehadenteredearlierthanmostintothatchiar\'oscuroofsensationwhereeveryhalf-tonehasitsvalue。

  AsapromoterofthispleasurenoonehehadknownwascomparabletoMrs。Vervain。Hehadtaughtagoodmanywomennottobetraytheirfeelings,buthehadneverbeforehadsuchfinematerialtoworkin。Shehadbeensurprisinglycrudewhenhefirstknewher;

  capableofmakingthemostawkwardinferences,ofplungingthroughthinice,ofrecklesslyundressingheremotions;butshehadacquired,underthedisciplineofhisreticencesandevasions,askillalmostequaltohisown,andperhapsmoreremarkableinthatitinvolvedkeepingtimewithanytuneheplayedandreadingatsightsomeuncommonlydifficultpassages。

  IthadtakenThursdalesevenyearstoformthisfinetalent;buttheresultjustifiedtheeffort。Atthecrucialmomentshehadbeenperfect:herwayofgreetingMissGaynorhadmadehimregretthathehadannouncedhisengagementbyletter。Itwasanevasionthatconfessedadifficulty;adeviationimplyinganobstacle,where,bycommonconsent,itwasagreedtoseenone;itbetrayed,inshort,alackofconfidenceinthecompletenessofhismethod。Ithadbeenhispridenevertoputhimselfinapositionwhichhadtobequitted,asitwere,bythebackdoor;

  buthere,asheperceived,themainportalswouldhaveopenedforhimoftheirownaccord。Allthis,andmuchmore,hereadinthefinishednaturalnesswithwhichMrs。VervainhadmetMissGaynor。

  Hehadneverseenabetterpieceofwork:therewasnoover-

  eagerness,nosuspiciouswarmth,aboveallandthisgaveherartthegraceofanaturalqualitytherewerenoneofthosedamnableimplicationswherebyawoman,inwelcomingherfriend\'sbetrothed,maykeephimonpinsandneedleswhileshelapstheladyincomplacency。Somasterlyaperformance,indeed,hardlyneededtheoffsetofMissGaynor\'sdoor-stepwords——“Tobesokindtome,howshemusthavelikedyou!”——thoughhecaughthimselfwishingitlaywithintheboundsoffitnesstotransmitthem,asafinaltribute,totheonewomanheknewwhowasunfailinglycertaintoenjoyagoodthing。ItwasperhapstheonedrawbacktohisnewsituationthatitmightdevelopgoodthingswhichitwouldbeimpossibletohandontoMargaretVervain。

  Thefactthathehadmadethemistakeofunderratinghisfriend\'spowers,theconsciousnessthathiswritingmusthavebetrayedhisdistrustofherefficiency,seemedanaddedreasonforturningdownherstreetinsteadofgoingontotheclub。Hewouldshowherthatheknewhowtovalueher;hewouldaskhertoachievewithhimafeatinfinitelyrarerandmoredelicatethantheonehehadappearedtoavoid。Incidentally,hewouldalsodisposeoftheintervaloftimebeforedinner:eversincehehadseenMissGaynoroff,anhourearlier,onherreturnjourneytoBuffalo,hehadbeenwonderinghowheshouldputintherestoftheafternoon。Itwasabsurd,howhemissedthegirl……Yes,thatwasit;thedesiretotalkaboutherwas,afterall,atthebottomofhisimpulsetocallonMrs。Vervain!Itwasabsurd,ifyoulike——butitwasdelightfullyrejuvenating。Hecouldrecallthetimewhenhehadbeenafraidofbeingobvious:nowhefeltthatthisreturntotheprimitiveemotionsmightbeasrestorativeasaholidayintheCanadianwoods。Anditwaspreciselybythegirl\'scandor,herdirectness,herlackofcomplications,thathewastaken。Thesensethatshemightsaysomethingrashatanymomentwaspositivelyexhilarating:ifshehadthrownherarmsabouthimatthestationhewouldnothavegivenathoughttohiscrumpleddignity。ItsurprisedThursdaletofindwhatfreshnessofhearthebroughttotheadventure;andthoughhissenseofironypreventedhisascribinghisintactnesstoanyconsciouspurpose,hecouldbutrejoiceinthefactthathissentimentaleconomieshadlefthimsuchalargesurplustodrawupon。

  Mrs。Vervainwasathome——asusual。Whenonevisitsthecemeteryoneexpectstofindtheangelonthetombstone,anditstruckThursdaleasanotherproofofhisfriend\'sgoodtastethatshehadbeeninnounduehastetochangeherhabits。Thewholehouseappearedtocountonhiscoming;thefootmantookhishatandovercoatasnaturallyasthoughtherehadbeennolapseinhisvisits;andthedrawing-roomatonceenvelopedhiminthatatmosphereoftacitintelligencewhichMrs。Vervainimpartedtoherveryfurniture。

  Itwasasurprisethat,inthisgeneralharmonyofcircumstances,Mrs。Vervainshouldherselfsoundthefirstfalsenote。

  “You?”sheexclaimed;andthebooksheheldslippedfromherhand。

  Itwascrude,certainly;unlessitwereatouchofthefinestart。ThedifficultyofclassifyingitdisturbedThursdale\'sbalance。

  “Whynot?”hesaid,restoringthebook。“Isn\'titmyhour?”Andasshemadenoanswer,headdedgently,“Unlessit\'ssomeoneelse\'s?”

  Shelaidthebookasideandsankbackintoherchair。“Mine,merely,“shesaid。

  “Ihopethatdoesn\'tmeanthatyou\'reunwillingtoshareit?”

  “Withyou?Bynomeans。You\'rewelcometomylastcrust。“

  Helookedatherreproachfully。“Doyoucallthisthelast?”

  Shesmiledashedroppedintotheseatacrossthehearth。“It\'sawayofgivingitmoreflavor!”

  Hereturnedthesmile。“Avisittoyoudoesn\'tneedsuchcondiments。“

  Shetookthiswithjusttherightmeasureofretrospectiveamusement。

  “Ah,butIwanttoputintothisoneaveryspecialtaste,“sheconfessed。

  Hersmilewassoconfident,soreassuring,thatitlulledhimintotheimprudenceofsaying,“Whyshouldyouwantittobedifferentfromwhatwasalwayssoperfectlyright?”

  Shehesitated。“Doesn\'tthefactthatit\'sthelastconstituteadifference?”

  “Thelast——mylastvisittoyou?”

  “Oh,metaphorically,Imean——there\'sabreakinthecontinuity。“

  Decidedly,shewaspressingtoohard:unlearninghisartsalready!

  “Idon\'trecognizeit,“hesaid。“Unlessyoumakeme——“headded,withanotethatslightlystirredherattitudeoflanguidattention。

  Sheturnedtohimwithgraveeyes。“Yourecognizenodifferencewhatever?”

  “None——exceptanaddedlinkinthechain。“

  “Anaddedlink?”

  “Inhavingonemorethingtolikeyoufor——yourlettingMissGaynorseewhyIhadalreadysomany。“Heflatteredhimselfthatthisturnhadtakentheleasthintoffatuityfromthephrase。

  Mrs。Vervainsankintoherformereasypose。“Wasitthatyoucamefor?”sheasked,almostgaily。

  “Ifitisnecessarytohaveareason——thatwasone。“

  “TotalktomeaboutMissGaynor?”

  “Totellyouhowshetalksaboutyou。“

  “Thatwillbeveryinteresting——especiallyifyouhaveseenhersincehersecondvisittome。“

  “Hersecondvisit?”Thursdalepushedhischairbackwithastartandmovedtoanother。“Shecametoseeyouagain?”

  “Thismorning,yes——byappointment。“

  Hecontinuedtolookatherblankly。“Yousentforher?”

  “Ididn\'thaveto——shewroteandaskedmelastnight。Butnodoubtyouhaveseenhersince。“

  Thursdalesatsilent。Hewastryingtoseparatehiswordsfromhisthoughts,buttheystillclungtogetherinextricably。“Isawheroffjustnowatthestation。“

  “Andshedidn\'ttellyouthatshehadbeenhereagain?”

  “Therewashardlytime,Isuppose——therewerepeopleabout——“hefloundered。

  “Ah,she\'llwrite,then。“

  Heregainedhiscomposure。“Ofcourseshe\'llwrite:veryoften,Ihope。YouknowI\'mabsurdlyinlove,“hecriedaudaciously。

  Shetiltedherheadback,lookingupathimasheleanedagainstthechimney-piece。Hehadleanedtheresooftenthattheattitudetouchedapulsewhichsetupathrobbinginherthroat。

  “Oh,mypoorThursdale!”shemurmured。

  “Isupposeit\'sratherridiculous,“heowned;andassheremainedsilent,headded,withasuddenbreak——“Orhaveyouanotherreasonforpityingme?”

  Heranswerwasanotherquestion。“Haveyoubeenbacktoyourroomssinceyoulefther?”

  “SinceIleftheratthestation?Icamestraighthere。“

  “Ah,yes——youCOULD:therewasnoreason——“Herwordspassedintoasilentmusing。

  Thursdalemovednervouslynearer。“Yousaidyouhadsomethingtotellme?”

  “PerhapsIhadbetterletherdoso。Theremaybealetteratyourrooms。“

  “Aletter?Whatdoyoumean?AletterfromHER?Whathashappened?”

  Hispalenessshookher,andsheraisedahandofreassurance。

  “Nothinghashappened——perhapsthatisjusttheworstofit。YoualwaysHATED,youknow,“sheaddedincoherently,“tohavethingshappen:youneverwouldletthem。“

  “Andnow——?”

  “Well,thatwaswhatshecameherefor:Isupposedyouhadguessed。Toknowifanythinghadhappened。“

  “Hadhappened?”Hegazedatherslowly。“Betweenyouandme?”

  hesaidwitharushoflight。

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