Granicestoppedspeakingandlookedacrossthesmoke-fumesathislistener;butDenver\'sfaceremainedinscrutable。
Atlengthhesaid:“Whydidyouwanttotellmethis?”
ThequestionstartledGranice。Hewasabouttoexplain,ashehadexplainedtoAscham;butsuddenlyitoccurredtohimthatifhismotivehadnotseemedconvincingtothelawyeritwouldcarrymuchlessweightwithDenver。Bothweresuccessfulmen,andsuccessdoesnotunderstandthesubtleagonyoffailure。Granicecastaboutforanotherreason。
“Why,I——thethinghauntsme……remorse,Isupposeyou\'dcallit……“
Denverstrucktheashesfromhisemptypipe。
“Remorse?Bosh!”hesaidenergetically。
Granice\'sheartsank。“Youdon\'tbelievein——REMORSE?”
“Notanatom:inthemanofaction。Themerefactofyourtalkingofremorseprovestomethatyou\'renotthemantohaveplannedandputthroughsuchajob。“
Granicegroaned。“Well——Iliedtoyouaboutremorse。I\'veneverfeltany。“
Denver\'slipstightenedscepticallyabouthisfreshly-filledpipe。“Whatwasyourmotive,then?Youmusthavehadone。“
“I\'lltellyou——“AndGranicebeganagaintorehearsethestoryofhisfailure,ofhisloathingforlife。“Don\'tsayyoudon\'tbelievemethistime……thatthisisn\'tarealreason!”hestammeredoutpiteouslyasheended。
Denvermeditated。“No,Iwon\'tsaythat。I\'veseentoomanyqueerthings。There\'salwaysareasonforwantingtogetoutoflife——thewonderisthatwefindsomanyforstayingin!”
Granice\'sheartgrewlight。“ThenyouDObelieveme?”hefaltered。
“Believethatyou\'resickofthejob?Yes。Andthatyouhaven\'tthenervetopullthetrigger?Oh,yes——that\'seasyenough,too。
Butallthatdoesn\'tmakeyouamurderer——thoughIdon\'tsayitprovesyoucouldneverhavebeenone。“
“IHAVEbeenone,Denver——Isweartoyou。“
“Perhaps。“Hemeditated。“Justtellmeoneortwothings。“
“Oh,goahead。Youwon\'tstumpme!”Graniceheardhimselfsaywithalaugh。
“Well——howdidyoumakeallthosetrialtripswithoutexcitingyoursister\'scuriosity?Iknewyournighthabitsprettywellatthattime,remember。Youwereveryseldomoutlate。Didn\'tthechangeinyourwayssurpriseher?”
“No;becauseshewasawayatthetime。ShewenttopayseveralvisitsinthecountrysoonafterwecamebackfromWrenfield,andwasonlyintownforanightortwobefore——beforeIdidthejob。“
“Andthatnightshewenttobedearlywithaheadache?”
“Yes——blinding。Shedidn\'tknowanythingwhenshehadthatkind。
Andherroomwasatthebackoftheflat。“
Denveragainmeditated。“Andwhenyougotback——shedidn\'thearyou?Yougotinwithoutherknowingit?”
“Yes。Iwentstraighttomywork——tookitupatthewordwhereI\'dleftoff——WHY,DENVER,DON\'TYOUREMEMBER?”Granicesuddenly,passionatelyinterjected。
“Remember——?”
“Yes;howyoufoundme——whenyoulookedinthatmorning,betweentwoandthree……yourusualhour……?”
“Yes,“theeditornodded。
Granicegaveashortlaugh。“Inmyoldcoat——withmypipe:
lookedasifI\'dbeenworkingallnight,didn\'tI?Well,I
hadn\'tbeeninmychairtenminutes!”
Denveruncrossedhislegsandthencrossedthemagain。“Ididn\'tknowwhetherYOUrememberedthat。“
“What?”
“Mycominginthatparticularnight——ormorning。“
Graniceswungroundinhischair。“Why,manalive!That\'swhyI\'mherenow。Becauseitwasyouwhospokeformeattheinquest,whentheylookedroundtoseewhatalltheoldman\'sheirshadbeendoingthatnight——youwhotestifiedtohavingdroppedinandfoundmeatmydeskasusual……IthoughtTHATwouldappealtoyourjournalisticsenseifnothingelsewould!”
Denversmiled。“Oh,myjournalisticsenseisstillsusceptibleenough——andtheidea\'spicturesque,Igrantyou:askingthemanwhoprovedyouralibitoestablishyourguilt。“
“That\'sit——that\'sit!”Granice\'slaughhadaringoftriumph。
“Well,buthowabouttheotherchap\'stestimony——Imeanthatyoungdoctor:whatwashisname?NedRanney。Don\'tyouremembermytestifyingthatI\'dmethimattheelevatedstation,andtoldhimIwasonmywaytosmokeapipewithyou,andhissaying:
\'Allright;you\'llfindhimin。Ipassedthehousetwohoursago,andsawhisshadowagainsttheblind,asusual。\'Andtheladywiththetoothacheintheflatacrosstheway:shecorroboratedhisstatement,youremember。“
“Yes;Iremember。“
Well,then?”
“Simpleenough。BeforestartingIriggedupakindofmannikinwitholdcoatsandacushion——somethingtocastashadowontheblind。Allyoufellowswereusedtoseeingmyshadowthereinthesmallhours——Icountedonthat,andknewyou\'dtakeanyvagueoutlineasmine。“
“Simpleenough,asyousay。Butthewomanwiththetoothachesawtheshadowmove——youremembershesaidshesawyousinkforward,asifyou\'dfallenasleep。“
“Yes;andshewasright。ItDIDmove。Isupposesomeextra-
heavydraymusthavejoltedbytheflimsybuilding——atanyrate,somethinggavemymannikinajar,andwhenIcamebackhehadsunkforward,halfoverthetable。“
Therewasalongsilencebetweenthetwomen。Granice,withathrobbingheart,watchedDenverrefillhispipe。Theeditor,atanyrate,didnotsneerandflouthim。Afterall,journalismgaveadeeperinsightthanthelawintothefantasticpossibilitiesoflife,preparedonebettertoallowfortheincalculablenessofhumanimpulses。
“Well?”Granicefalteredout。
Denverstoodupwithashrug。“Lookhere,man——what\'swrongwithyou?Makeacleanbreastofit!Nervesgonetosmash?I\'dliketotakeyoutoseeachapIknow——anex-prize-fighter——who\'sawonderatpullingfellowsinyourstateoutoftheirhole——“
“Oh,oh——“Granicebrokein。Hestoodupalso,andthetwomeneyedeachother。“Youdon\'tbelieveme,then?”
“Thisyarn——howcanI?Therewasn\'taflawinyouralibi。“
“Buthaven\'tIfilleditfullofthemnow?”
Denvershookhishead。“ImightthinksoifIhadn\'thappenedtoknowthatyouWANTEDto。There\'sthehitch,don\'tyousee?”
Granicegroaned。“No,Ididn\'t。Youmeanmywantingtobefoundguilty——?”
“Ofcourse!Ifsomebodyelsehadaccusedyou,thestorymighthavebeenworthlookinginto。Asitis,achildcouldhaveinventedit。Itdoesn\'tdomuchcredittoyouringenuity。“
Graniceturnedsullenlytowardthedoor。Whatwastheuseofarguing?Butonthethresholdasuddenimpulsedrewhimback。
“Lookhere,Denver——Idaresayyou\'reright。Butwillyoudojustonethingtoproveit?PutmystatementintheInvestigator,justasI\'vemadeit。Ridiculeitasmuchasyoulike。Onlygivetheotherfellowsachanceatit——menwhodon\'tknowanythingaboutme。Setthemtalkingandlookingabout。Idon\'tcareadamnwhetherYOUbelieveme——whatIwantistoconvincetheGrandJury!Ioughtn\'ttohavecometoamanwhoknowsme——
yourcursedincredulityisinfectious。Idon\'tputmycasewell,becauseIknowinadvanceit\'sdiscredited,andIalmostendbynotbelievingitmyself。That\'swhyIcan\'tconvinceYOU。It\'saviciouscircle。“HelaidahandonDenver\'sarm。“Sendastenographer,andputmystatementinthepaper。
ButDenverdidnotwarmtotheidea。“Mydearfellow,youseemtoforgetthatalltheevidencewasprettythoroughlysiftedatthetime,everypossiblecluefollowedup。ThepublicwouldhavebeenreadyenoughthentobelievethatyoumurderedoldLenman——
youoranybodyelse。Alltheywantedwasamurderer——themostimprobablewouldhaveserved。Butyouralibiwastooconfoundedlycomplete。Andnothingyou\'vetoldmehasshakenit。“Denverlaidhiscoolhandovertheother\'sburningfingers。
“Lookhere,oldfellow,gohomeandworkupabettercase——thencomeinandsubmitittotheInvestigator。“
IV
TheperspirationwasrollingoffGranice\'sforehead。Everyfewminuteshehadtodrawouthishandkerchiefandwipethemoisturefromhishaggardface。
Foranhourandahalfhehadbeentalkingsteadily,puttinghiscasetotheDistrictAttorney。LuckilyhehadaspeakingacquaintancewithAllonby,andhadobtained,withoutmuchdifficulty,aprivateaudienceontheverydayafterhistalkwithRobertDenver。Intheintervalbetweenhehadhurriedhome,gotoutofhiseveningclothes,andgoneforthagainatonceintothedrearydawn。HisfearofAschamandthealienistmadeitimpossibleforhimtoremaininhisrooms。Anditseemedtohimthattheonlywayofavertingthathideousperilwasbyestablishing,insomesaneimpartialmind,theproofofhisguilt。Evenifhehadnotbeensoincurablysickoflife,theelectricchairseemednowtheonlyalternativetothestrait-
jacket。
AshepausedtowipehisforeheadhesawtheDistrictAttorneyglanceathiswatch。Thegesturewassignificant,andGraniceliftedanappealinghand。“Idon\'texpectyoutobelievemenow——
butcan\'tyouputmeunderarrest,andhavethethinglookedinto?”
Allonbysmiledfaintlyunderhisheavygrayishmoustache。Hehadaruddyface,fullandjovial,inwhichhiskeenprofessionaleyesseemedtokeepwatchoverimpulsesnotstrictlyprofessional。
“Well,Idon\'tknowthatweneedlockyouupjustyet。ButofcourseI\'mboundtolookintoyourstatement——“
Granicerosewithanexquisitesenseofrelief。SurelyAllonbywouldn\'thavesaidthatifhehadn\'tbelievedhim!
“That\'sallright。ThenIneedn\'tdetainyou。Icanbefoundatanytimeatmyapartment。“Hegavetheaddress。
TheDistrictAttorneysmiledagain,moreopenly。“Whatdoyousaytoleavingitforanhourortwothisevening?I\'mgivingalittlesupperatRector\'s——quiet,littleaffair,youunderstand:
justMissMelrose——Ithinkyouknowher——andafriendortwo;andifyou\'lljoinus……“
Granicestumbledoutoftheofficewithoutknowingwhatreplyhehadmade。
Hewaitedforfourdays——fourdaysofconcentratedhorror。
Duringthefirsttwenty-fourhoursthefearofAscham\'salienistdoggedhim;andasthatsubsided,itwasreplacedbytheexasperatingsensethathisavowalhadmadenoimpressionontheDistrictAttorney。Evidently,ifhehadbeengoingtolookintothecase,Allonbywouldhavebeenheardfrombeforenow……
Andthatmockinginvitationtosuppershowedclearlyenoughhowlittlethestoryhadimpressedhim!
Granicewasovercomebythefutilityofanyfartherattempttoinculpatehimself。Hewaschainedtolife——a“prisonerofconsciousness。“Wherewasithehadreadthephrase?Well,hewaslearningwhatitmeant。Intheglaringnight-hours,whenhisbrainseemedablaze,hewasvisitedbyasenseofhisfixedidentity,ofhisirreducible,inexpugnableSELFNESS,keener,moreinsidious,moreunescapable,thananysensationhehadeverknown。Hehadnotguessedthatthemindwascapableofsuchintricaciesofself-realization,ofpenetratingsodeepintoitsowndarkwindings。Oftenhewokefromhisbriefsnatchesofsleepwiththefeelingthatsomethingmaterialwasclingingtohim,wasonhishandsandface,andinhisthroat——andashisbrainclearedheunderstoodthatitwasthesenseofhisownloathedpersonalitythatstucktohimlikesomethickviscoussubstance。
Then,inthefirstmorninghours,hewouldriseandlookoutofhiswindowattheawakeningactivitiesofthestreet——atthestreet-cleaners,theash-cartdrivers,andtheotherdingyworkersflittinghurriedlybythroughthesallowwinterlight。
Oh,tobeoneofthem——anyofthem——totakehischanceinanyoftheirskins!Theywerethetoilers——themenwhoselotwaspitied——thevictimsweptoverandrantedaboutbyaltruistsandeconomists;andhowgladlyhewouldhavetakenuptheloadofanyoneofthem,ifonlyhemighthaveshakenoffhisown!But,no——
theironcircleofconsciousnessheldthemtoo:eachonewashand-cuffedtohisownhideousego。Whywishtobeanyonemanratherthananother?Theonlyabsolutegoodwasnottobe……
AndFlint,comingintodrawhisbath,wouldaskifhepreferredhiseggsscrambledorpoachedthatmorning?
OnthefifthdayhewrotealongurgentlettertoAllonby;andforthesucceedingtwodayshehadtheoccupationofwaitingforananswer。Hehardlystirredfromhisrooms,inhisfearofmissingtheletterbyamoment;butwouldtheDistrictAttorneywrite,orsendarepresentative:apoliceman,a“secretagent,“
orsomeothermysteriousemissaryofthelaw?
OnthethirdmorningFlint,steppingsoftly——asif,confoundit!
hismasterwereill——enteredthelibrarywhereGranicesatbehindanunreadnewspaper,andproferredacardonatray。
Granicereadthename——J。B。Hewson——andunderneath,inpencil,“FromtheDistrictAttorney\'soffice。“Hestartedupwithathumpingheart,andsignedanassenttotheservant。
Mr。Hewsonwasaslightsallownondescriptmanofaboutfifty——
thekindofmanofwhomoneissuretoseeaspecimeninanycrowd。“Justthetypeofthesuccessfuldetective,“Granicereflectedasheshookhandswithhisvisitor。
AnditwasinthatcharacterthatMr。Hewsonbrieflyintroducedhimself。HehadbeensentbytheDistrictAttorneytohave“aquiettalk“withMr。Granice——toaskhimtorepeatthestatementhehadmadeabouttheLenmanmurder。
Hismannerwassoquiet,soreasonableandreceptive,thatGranice\'sself-confidencereturned。Herewasasensibleman——amanwhoknewhisbusiness——itwouldbeeasyenoughtomakeHIM
seethroughthatridiculousalibi!GraniceofferedMr。Hewsonacigar,andlightingonehimself——toprovehiscoolness——beganagaintotellhisstory。
Hewasconscious,asheproceeded,oftellingitbetterthaneverbefore。Practicehelped,nodoubt;andhislistener\'sdetached,impartialattitudehelpedstillmore。HecouldseethatHewson,atleast,hadnotdecidedinadvancetodisbelievehim,andthesenseofbeingtrustedmadehimmorelucidandmoreconsecutive。
Yes,thistimehiswordswouldcertainlycarryconviction……
V
Despairingly,Granicegazedupanddowntheshabbystreet。
Besidehimstoodayoungmanwithbrightprominenteyes,asmoothbutnottoosmoothly-shavenface,andanIrishsmile。Theyoungman\'snimbleglancefollowedGranice\'s。
“Sureofthenumber,areyou?”heaskedbriskly。
“Oh,yes——itwas104。“
“Well,then,thenewbuildinghasswalloweditup——that\'scertain。“
Hetiltedhisheadbackandsurveyedthehalf-finishedfrontofabrickandlimestoneflat-housethatreareditsflimsyeleganceabovearowoftotteringtenementsandstables。
“Deadsure?”herepeated。
“Yes,“saidGranice,discouraged。“AndevenifIhadn\'tbeen,I
knowthegaragewasjustoppositeLeffler\'soverthere。“Hepointedacrossthestreettoatumble-downstablewithablotchedsignonwhichthewords“LiveryandBoarding“werestillfaintlydiscernible。
Theyoungmandashedacrosstotheoppositepavement。“Well,that\'ssomething——maygetacluethere。Leffler\'s——samenamethere,anyhow。Yourememberthatname?”
“Yes——distinctly。“
GranicehadfeltareturnofconfidencesincehehadenlistedtheinterestoftheExplorer\'s“smartest“reporter。Ifthereweremomentswhenhehardlybelievedhisownstory,therewereotherswhenitseemedimpossiblethateveryoneshouldnotbelieveit;
andyoungPeterMcCarren,peering,listening,questioning,jottingdownnotes,inspiredhimwithanexquisitesenseofsecurity。McCarrenhadfastenedonthecaseatonce,“likealeech,“ashephrasedit——jumpedatit,thrilledtoit,andsettleddownto“drawthelastdropoffactfromit,andhadnotletgotillhehad。“NooneelsehadtreatedGraniceinthatway——evenAllonby\'sdetectivehadnottakenasinglenote。Andthoughaweekhadelapsedsincethevisitofthatauthorizedofficial,nothinghadbeenheardfromtheDistrictAttorney\'soffice:Allonbyhadapparentlydroppedthematteragain。ButMcCarrenwasn\'tgoingtodropit——nothe!HepositivelyhungonGranice\'sfootsteps。Theyhadspentthegreaterpartofthepreviousdaytogether,andnowtheywereoffagain,runningdownclues。
ButatLeffler\'stheygotnone,afterall。Leffler\'swasnolongerastable。Itwascondemnedtodemolition,andintherespitebetweensentenceandexecutionithadbecomeavagueplaceofstorage,ahospitalforbroken-downcarriagesandcarts,presidedoverbyablear-eyedoldwomanwhoknewnothingofFlood\'sgarageacrosstheway——didnotevenrememberwhathadstoodtherebeforethenewflat-housebegantorise。
“Well——wemayrunLefflerdownsomewhere;I\'veseenharderjobsdone,“saidMcCarren,cheerfullynotingdownthename。
AstheywalkedbacktowardSixthAvenueheadded,inalesssanguinetone:“I\'dundertakenowtoputthethingthroughifyoucouldonlyputmeonthetrackofthatcyanide。“
Granice\'sheartsank。Yes——therewastheweakspot;hehadfeltitfromthefirst!ButhestillhopedtoconvinceMcCarrenthathiscasewasstrongenoughwithoutit;andheurgedthereportertocomebacktohisroomsandsumupthefactswithhimagain。
“Sorry,Mr。Granice,butI\'mdueattheofficenow。Besides,it\'dbenousetillIgetsomefreshstufftoworkon。SupposeI
callyouuptomorrowornextday?”
HeplungedintoatrolleyandleftGranicegazingdesolatelyafterhim。
Twodayslaterhereappearedattheapartment,ashadelessjauntyindemeanor。
“Well,Mr。Granice,thestarsintheircoursesareagainstyou,asthebardsays。Can\'tgetatraceofFlood,orofLefflereither。AndyousayyouboughtthemotorthroughFlood,andsolditthroughhim,too?”
“Yes,“saidGranicewearily。
“Whoboughtit,doyouknow?”
Granicewrinkledhisbrows。“Why,Flood——yes,Floodhimself。I
solditbacktohimthreemonthslater。“
“Flood?Thedevil!AndI\'veransackedthetownforFlood。Thatkindofbusinessdisappearsasiftheearthhadswallowedit。“
Granice,discouraged,keptsilence。
“Thatbringsusbacktothepoison,“McCarrencontinued,hisnote-bookout。“Justgooverthatagain,willyou?”
AndGranicewentoveritagain。Ithadallbeensosimpleatthetime——andhehadbeensocleverincoveringuphistraces!Assoonashedecidedonpoisonhelookedaboutforanacquaintancewhomanufacturedchemicals;andtherewasJimDawes,aHarvardclassmate,inthedyeingbusiness——justtheman。Butatthelastmomentitoccurredtohimthatsuspicionmightturntowardsoobviousanopportunity,andhedecidedonamoretortuouscourse。
Anotherfriend,CarrickVenn,astudentofmedicinewhomirremediableill-healthhadkeptfromthepracticeofhisprofession,amusedhisleisurewithexperimentsinphysics,fortheexerciseofwhichhehadsetupasimplelaboratory。GranicehadthehabitofdroppingintosmokeacigarwithhimonSundayafternoons,andthefriendsgenerallysatinVenn\'swork-shop,atthebackoftheoldfamilyhouseinStuyvesantSquare。Offthiswork-shopwasthecupboardofsupplies,withitsrowofdeadlybottles。CarrickVennwasanoriginal,amanofrestlesscurioustastes,andhisplace,onaSunday,wasoftenfullofvisitors:acheerfulcrowdofjournalists,scribblers,painters,experimentersindiversformsofexpression。Comingandgoingamongsomany,itwaseasyenoughtopassunperceived;andoneafternoonGranice,arrivingbeforeVennhadreturnedhome,foundhimselfaloneinthework-shop,andquicklyslippingintothecupboard,transferredthedrugtohispocket。
Butthathadhappenedtenyearsago;andVenn,poorfellow,waslongsincedeadofhisdraggingailment。Hisoldfatherwasdead,too,thehouseinStuyvesantSquarehadbeenturnedintoaboarding-house,andtheshiftinglifeofNewYorkhadpasseditsrapidspongeovereverytraceoftheirobscurelittlehistory。
EventheoptimisticMcCarrenseemedtoacknowledgethehopelessnessofseekingforproofinthatdirection。
“Andthere\'sthethirddoorslammedinourfaces。“Heshuthisnote-book,andthrowingbackhishead,restedhisbrightinquisitiveeyesonGranice\'sfurrowedface。
“Lookhere,Mr。Granice——youseetheweakspot,don\'tyou?”
Theothermadeadespairingmotion。“Iseesomany!”
“Yes:buttheonethatweakensalltheothers。Whythedeucedoyouwantthisthingknown?Whydoyouwanttoputyourheadintothenoose?”
Granicelookedathimhopelessly,tryingtotakethemeasureofhisquicklightirreverentmind。Noonesofullofacheerfulanimallifewouldbelieveinthecravingfordeathasasufficientmotive;andGranicerackedhisbrainforonemoreconvincing。Butsuddenlyhesawthereporter\'sfacesoften,andmelttoanaivesentimentalism。
“Mr。Granice——hasthememoryofitalwayshauntedyou?”
Granicestaredamoment,andthenleaptattheopening。“That\'sit——thememoryofit……always……“
McCarrennoddedvehemently。“Doggedyoursteps,eh?Wouldn\'tletyousleep?ThetimecamewhenyouHADtomakeacleanbreastofit?”
“Ihadto。Can\'tyouunderstand?”
Thereporterstruckhisfistonthetable。“God,sir!Idon\'tsupposethere\'sahumanbeingwithadropofwarmbloodinhimthatcan\'tpicturethedeadlyhorrorsofremorse——“
TheCelticimaginationwasaflame,andGranicemutelythankedhimfortheword。WhatneitherAschamnorDenverwouldacceptasaconceivablemotivetheIrishreporterseizedonasthemostadequate;and,ashesaid,onceonecouldfindaconvincingmotive,thedifficultiesofthecasebecamesomanyincentivestoeffort。
“Remorse——REMORSE,“herepeated,rollingthewordunderhistonguewithanaccentthatwasacluetothepsychologyofthepopulardrama;andGranice,perversely,saidtohimself:“IfI
couldonlyhavestruckthatnoteIshouldhavebeenrunninginsixtheatresatonce。“
HesawthatfromthatmomentMcCarren\'sprofessionalzealwouldbefannedbyemotionalcuriosity;andheprofitedbythefacttoproposethattheyshoulddinetogether,andgoonafterwardtosomemusic-hallortheatre。ItwasbecomingnecessarytoGranicetofeelhimselfanobjectofpre-occupation,tofindhimselfinanothermind。HetookakindofgraypenumbralpleasureinrivetingMcCarren\'sattentiononhiscase;andtofeignthegrimacesofmoralanguishbecameapassionatelyengrossinggame。
Hehadnotenteredatheatreformonths;buthesatoutthemeaninglessperformanceinrigidtolerance,sustainedbythesenseofthereporter\'sobservation。
Betweentheacts,McCarrenamusedhimwithanecdotesabouttheaudience:hekneweveryonebysight,andcouldliftthecurtainfromeveryphysiognomy。Granicelistenedindulgently。Hehadlostallinterestinhiskind,butheknewthathewashimselftherealcentreofMcCarren\'sattention,andthateverywordthelatterspokehadanindirectbearingonhisownproblem。
“Seethatfellowoverthere——thelittledried-upmaninthethirdrow,pullinghismoustache?HISmemoirswouldbeworthpublishing,“McCarrensaidsuddenlyinthelastentr\'acte。
Granice,followinghisglance,recognizedthedetectivefromAllonby\'soffice。Foramomenthehadthethrillingsensethathewasbeingshadowed。
“Caesar,ifHEcouldtalk——!”McCarrencontinued。“Knowwhoheis,ofcourse?Dr。JohnB。Stell,thebiggestalienistinthecountry——“
Granice,withastart,bentagainbetweentheheadsinfrontofhim。“THATman——thefourthfromtheaisle?You\'remistaken。
That\'snotDr。Stell。“
McCarrenlaughed。“Well,IguessI\'vebeenincourtenoughtoknowStellwhenIseehim。Hetestifiesinnearlyallthebigcaseswheretheypleadinsanity。“
AcoldshiverrandownGranice\'sspine,butherepeatedobstinately:“That\'snotDr。Stell。“
“NotStell?Why,man,IKNOWhim。Look——herehecomes。Ifitisn\'tStell,hewon\'tspeaktome。“
Thelittledried-upmanwasmovingslowlyuptheaisle。AshenearedMcCarrenhemadeaslightgestureofrecognition。
“How\'do,DoctorStell?Prettyslimshow,ain\'tit?”thereportercheerfullyflungoutathim。AndMr。J。B。Hewson,withanodofamicableassent,passedon。
Granicesatbenumbed。Heknewhehadnotbeenmistaken——themanwhohadjustpassedwasthesamemanwhomAllonbyhadsenttoseehim:aphysiciandisguisedasadetective。Allonby,then,hadthoughthiminsane,liketheothers——hadregardedhisconfessionasthemaunderingofamaniac。ThediscoveryfrozeGranicewithhorror——heseemedtoseethemad-housegapingforhim。
“Isn\'tthereamanagooddeallikehim——adetectivenamedJ。B。
Hewson?”
ButheknewinadvancewhatMcCarren\'sanswerwouldbe。“Hewson?
J。B。Hewson?Neverheardofhim。ButthatwasJ。B。Stellfastenough——Iguesshecanbetrustedtoknowhimself,andyousawheansweredtohisname。“
VI
SomedayspassedbeforeGranicecouldobtainawordwiththeDistrictAttorney:hebegantothinkthatAllonbyavoidedhim。
ButwhentheywerefacetofaceAllonby\'sjovialcountenanceshowednosignofembarrassment。Hewavedhisvisitortoachair,andleanedacrosshisdeskwiththeencouragingsmileofaconsultingphysician。
Granicebrokeoutatonce:“Thatdetectiveyousentmetheotherday——“
Allonbyraisedadeprecatinghand。
“——Iknow:itwasStellthealienist。Whydidyoudothat,Allonby?”
Theother\'sfacedidnotloseitscomposure。“BecauseIlookedupyourstoryfirst——andthere\'snothinginit。“
“Nothinginit?”Granicefuriouslyinterposed。
“Absolutelynothing。Ifthereis,whythedeucedon\'tyoubringmeproofs?Iknowyou\'vebeentalkingtoPeterAscham,andtoDenver,andtothatlittleferretMcCarrenoftheExplorer。Haveanyofthembeenabletomakeoutacaseforyou?No。Well,whatamItodo?”
Granice\'slipsbegantotremble。“Whydidyouplaymethattrick?”
“AboutStell?Ihadto,mydearfellow:it\'spartofmybusiness。StellISadetective,ifyoucometothat——everydoctoris。“
ThetremblingofGranice\'slipsincreased,communicatingitselfinalongquivertohisfacialmuscles。Heforcedalaughthroughhisdrythroat。“Well——andwhatdidhedetect?”
“Inyou?Oh,hethinksit\'soverwork——overworkandtoomuchsmoking。Ifyoulookinonhimsomedayathisofficehe\'llshowyoutherecordofhundredsofcaseslikeyours,andadviseyouwhattreatmenttofollow。It\'soneofthecommonestformsofhallucination。Haveacigar,allthesame。“
“But,Allonby,Ikilledthatman!”
TheDistrictAttorney\'slargehand,outstretchedonhisdesk,hadanalmostimperceptiblegesture,andamomentlater,asifananswertothecallofanelectricbell,aclerklookedinfromtheouteroffice。
“Sorry,mydearfellow——lotofpeoplewaiting。DropinonStellsomemorning,“Allonbysaid,shakinghands。
McCarrenhadtoownhimselfbeaten:therewasabsolutelynoflawinthealibi。Andsincehisdutytohisjournalobviouslyforbadehiswastingtimeoninsolublemysteries,heceasedtofrequentGranice,whodroppedbackintoadeeperisolation。ForadayortwoafterhisvisittoAllonbyhecontinuedtoliveindreadofDr。Stell。WhymightnotAllonbyhavedeceivedhimastothealienist\'sdiagnosis?Whatifhewerereallybeingshadowed,notbyapoliceagentbutbyamad-doctor?Tohavethetruthout,hesuddenlydeterminedtocallonDr。Stell。
Thephysicianreceivedhimkindly,andrevertedwithoutembarrassmenttotheconditionsoftheirpreviousmeeting。“Wehavetodothatoccasionally,Mr。Granice;it\'soneofourmethods。AndyouhadgivenAllonbyafright。“
Granicewassilent。Hewouldhavelikedtoreaffirmhisguilt,toproducethefreshargumentswhichhadoccurredtohimsincehislasttalkwiththephysician;buthefearedhiseagernessmightbetakenforasymptomofderangement,andheaffectedtosmileawayDr。Stell\'sallusion。
“Youthink,then,it\'sacaseofbrain-fag——nothingmore?”
“Nothingmore。AndIshouldadviseyoutoknockofftobacco。
Yousmokeagooddeal,don\'tyou?”
Hedevelopedhistreatment,recommendingmassage,gymnastics,travel,oranyformofdiversionthatdidnot——thatinshort——
Graniceinterruptedhimimpatiently。“Oh,Iloatheallthat——andI\'msickoftravelling。“
“H\'m。Thensomelargerinterest——politics,reform,philanthropy?
Somethingtotakeyououtofyourself。“
“Yes。Iunderstand,“saidGranicewearily。
“Aboveall,don\'tloseheart。Iseehundredsofcaseslikeyours,“thedoctoraddedcheerfullyfromthethreshold。
OnthedoorstepGranicestoodstillandlaughed。Hundredsofcaseslikehis——thecaseofamanwhohadcommittedamurder,whoconfessedhisguilt,andwhomnoonewouldbelieve!Why,therehadneverbeenacaselikeitintheworld。WhatagoodfigureStellwouldhavemadeinaplay:thegreatalienistwhocouldn\'treadaman\'smindanybetterthanthat!
Granicesawhugecomicopportunitiesinthetype。
Butashewalkedaway,hisfearsdispelled,thesenseoflistlessnessreturnedonhim。ForthefirsttimesincehisavowaltoPeterAschamhefoundhimselfwithoutanoccupation,andunderstoodthathehadbeencarriedthroughthepastweeksonlybythenecessityofconstantaction。Nowhislifehadoncemorebecomeastagnantbackwater,andashestoodonthestreetcornerwatchingthetidesoftrafficsweepby,heaskedhimselfdespairinglyhowmuchlongerhecouldenduretofloataboutinthesluggishcircleofhisconsciousness。
Thethoughtofself-destructionrecurredtohim;butagainhisfleshrecoiled。Heyearnedfordeathfromotherhands,buthecouldnevertakeitfromhisown。And,asidefromhisinsuperablephysicalreluctance,anothermotiverestrainedhim。
Hewaspossessedbythedoggeddesiretoestablishthetruthofhisstory。Herefusedtobesweptasideasanirresponsibledreamer——evenifhehadtokillhimselfintheend,hewouldnotdosobeforeprovingtosocietythathehaddeserveddeathfromit。
Hebegantowritelongletterstothepapers;butafterthefirsthadbeenpublishedandcommentedon,publiccuriositywasquelledbyabriefstatementfromtheDistrictAttorney\'soffice,andtherestofhiscommunicationsremainedunprinted。Aschamcametoseehim,andbeggedhimtotravel。RobertDenverdroppedin,andtriedtojokehimoutofhisdelusion;tillGranice,mistrustfuloftheirmotives,begantodreadthereappearanceofDr。Stell,andsetaguardonhislips。Butthewordshekeptbackengenderedothersandstillothersinhisbrain。Hisinnerselfbecameahummingfactoryofarguments,andhespentlonghoursrecitingandwritingdownelaboratestatementsofhiscrime,whichheconstantlyretouchedanddeveloped。Thengraduallyhisactivitylanguishedunderthelackofanaudience,thesenseofbeingburiedbeneathdeepeningdriftsofindifference。Inapassionofresentmenthesworethathewouldprovehimselfamurderer,evenifhehadtocommitanothercrimetodoit;andforasleeplessnightortwothethoughtflamedredonhisdarkness。Butdaylightdispelledit。Thedeterminingimpulsewaslackingandhehatedtoopromiscuouslytochoosehisvictim……
Sohewasthrownbackontheunavailingstruggletoimposethetruthofhisstory。Asfastasonechannelclosedonhimhetriedtopierceanotherthroughtheslidingsandsofincredulity。
Buteveryissueseemedblocked,andthewholehumanraceleaguedtogethertocheatonemanoftherighttodie。
Thusviewed,thesituationbecamesomonstrousthathelosthislastshredofself-restraintincontemplatingit。Whatifhewerereallythevictimofsomemockingexperiment,thecentreofaringofholiday-makersjeeringatapoorcreatureinitsblinddashesagainstthesolidwallsofconsciousness?But,no——menwerenotsouniformlycruel:therewereflawsintheclosesurfaceoftheirindifference,cracksofweaknessandpityhereandthere……
Granicebegantothinkthathismistakelayinhavingappealedtopersonsmoreorlessfamiliarwithhispast,andtowhomthevisibleconformitiesofhislifeseemedafinaldisproofofitsonefiercesecretdeviation。Thegeneraltendencywastotakeforthewholeoflifetheslitseenbetweentheblindersofhabit:andinhiswalkdownthatnarrowvistaGranicecutacorrectenoughfigure。Toavisionfreetofollowhiswholeorbithisstorywouldbemoreintelligible:itwouldbeeasiertoconvinceachanceidlerinthestreetthanthetrainedintelligencehamperedbyasenseofhisantecedents。Thisideashotupinhimwiththetropicluxurianceofeachnewseedofthought,andhebegantowalkthestreets,andtofrequentout-
of-the-waychop-housesandbarsinhissearchfortheimpartialstrangertowhomheshoulddisclosehimself。
Atfirsteveryfacelookedencouragement;butatthecrucialmomenthealwaysheldback。Somuchwasatstake,anditwassoessentialthathisfirstchoiceshouldbedecisive。Hedreadedstupidity,timidity,intolerance。Theimaginativeeye,thefurrowedbrow,werewhathesought。Hemustrevealhimselfonlytoaheartversedinthetortuousmotionsofthehumanwill;andhebegantohatethedullbenevolenceoftheaverageface。Onceortwice,obscurely,allusively,hemadeabeginning——oncesittingdownataman\'ssideinabasementchop-house,anotherdayapproachingaloungeronaneast-sidewharf。Butinbothcasesthepremonitionoffailurecheckedhimonthebrinkofavowal。Hisdreadofbeingtakenforamanintheclutchofafixedideagavehimanunnaturalkeennessinreadingtheexpressionofhisinterlocutors,andhehadprovidedhimselfinadvancewithaseriesofverbalalternatives,trap-doorsofevasionfromthefirstdartofridiculeorsuspicion。
Hepassedthegreaterpartofthedayinthestreets,cominghomeatirregularhours,dreadingthesilenceandorderlinessofhisapartment,andthecriticalscrutinyofFlint。Hisreallifewasspentinaworldsoremotefromthisfamiliarsettingthathesometimeshadthemysterioussenseofalivingmetempsychosis,afurtivepassagefromoneidentitytoanother——yettheotherasunescapablyhimself!
Onehumiliationhewasspared:thedesiretoliveneverrevivedinhim。Notforamomentwashetemptedtoashabbypactwithexistingconditions。Hewantedtodie,wanteditwiththefixedunwaveringdesirewhichaloneattainsitsend。Andstilltheendeludedhim!Itwouldnotalways,ofcourse——hehadfullfaithinthedarkstarofhisdestiny。Andhecouldproveitbestbyrepeatinghisstory,persistentlyandindefatigably,pouringitintoindifferentears,hammeringitintodullbrains,tillatlastitkindledaspark,andsomeoneofthecarelessmillionspaused,listened,believed……
ItwasamildMarchday,andhehadbeenloiteringonthewest-
sidedocks,lookingatfaces。Hewasbecominganexpertinphysiognomies:hiseagernessnolongermaderashdartsandawkwardrecoils。Heknewnowthefaceheneeded,asclearlyasifithadcometohiminavision;andnottillhefounditwouldhespeak。Ashewalkedeastwardthroughtheshabbyreekingstreetshehadapremonitionthatheshouldfinditthatmorning。
Perhapsitwasthepromiseofspringintheair——certainlyhefeltcalmerthanformanydays……
HeturnedintoWashingtonSquare,struckacrossitobliquely,andwalkedupUniversityPlace。Itsheterogeneouspassersalwaysalluredhim——theywerelesshurriedthaninBroadway,lessenclosedandclassifiedthaninFifthAvenue。Hewalkedslowly,watchingforhisface。
AtUnionSquarehefeltasuddenrelapseintodiscouragement,likeavotarywhohaswatchedtoolongforasignfromthealtar。
Perhaps,afterall,heshouldneverfindhisface……Theairwaslanguid,andhefelttired。Hewalkedbetweenthebaldgrass-plotsandthetwistedtrees,makingforanemptyseat。
Presentlyhepassedabenchonwhichagirlsatalone,andsomethingasdefiniteasthetwitchofacordmadehimstopbeforeher。Hehadneverdreamedoftellinghisstorytoagirl,hadhardlylookedatthewomen\'sfacesastheypassed。Hiscasewasman\'swork:howcouldawomanhelphim?Butthisgirl\'sfacewasextraordinary——quietandwideasacleareveningsky。Itsuggestedahundredimagesofspace,distance,mystery,likeshipshehadseen,asaboy,quietlyberthedbyafamiliarwharf,butwiththebreathoffarseasandstrangeharboursintheirshrouds……Certainlythisgirlwouldunderstand。Hewentuptoherquietly,liftinghishat,observingtheforms——wishinghertoseeatoncethathewas“agentleman。“
“Iamastrangertoyou,“hebegan,sittingdownbesideher,“butyourfaceissoextremelyintelligentthatIfeel……IfeelitisthefaceI\'vewaitedfor……lookedforeverywhere;andI
wanttotellyou——“
Thegirl\'seyeswidened:sherosetoherfeet。Shewasescapinghim!
Inhisdismayheranafewstepsafterher,andcaughtherroughlybythearm。
“Here——wait——listen!Oh,don\'tscream,youfool!”heshoutedout。
Hefeltahandonhisownarm;turnedandconfrontedapoliceman。
Instantlyheunderstoodthathewasbeingarrested,andsomethinghardwithinhimwasloosenedandrantotears。
“Ah,youknow——youKNOWI\'mguilty!”
Hewasconsciousthatacrowdwasforming,andthatthegirl\'sfrightenedfacehaddisappeared。Butwhatdidhecareaboutherface?Itwasthepolicemanwhohadreallyunderstoodhim。Heturnedandfollowed,thecrowdathisheels……
VII
Inthecharmingplaceinwhichhefoundhimselfthereweresomanysympatheticfacesthathefeltmorethaneverconvincedofthecertaintyofmakinghimselfheard。
Itwasabadblow,atfirst,tofindthathehadnotbeenarrestedformurder;butAscham,whohadcometohimatonce,explainedthatheneededrest,andthetimeto“review“hisstatements;itappearedthatreiterationhadmadethemalittleconfusedandcontradictory。Tothisendhehadwillinglyacquiescedinhisremovaltoalargequietestablishment,withanopenspaceandtreesaboutit,wherehehadfoundanumberofintelligentcompanions,some,likehimself,engagedinpreparingorreviewingstatementsoftheircases,andothersreadytolendaninterestedeartohisownrecital。
Foratimehewascontenttolethimselfgoonthetranquilcurrentofthisexistence;butalthoughhisauditorsgavehimforthemostpartanencouragingattention,which,insome,wentthelengthofreallybrilliantandhelpfulsuggestion,hegraduallyfeltarecurrenceofhisolddoubts。Eitherhishearerswerenotsincere,orelsetheyhadlesspowertoaidhimthantheyboasted。Hisinterminableconferencesresultedinnothing,andasthebenefitofthelongrestmadeitselffelt,itproducedanincreasedmentalluciditywhichrenderedinactionmoreandmoreunbearable。Atlengthhediscoveredthatoncertaindaysvisitorsfromtheouterworldwereadmittedtohisretreat;andhewroteoutlongandlogicallyconstructedrelationsofhiscrime,andfurtivelyslippedthemintothehandsofthesemessengersofhope。
Thisoccupationgavehimafreshleaseofpatience,andhenowlivedonlytowatchforthevisitors\'days,andscanthefacesthatsweptbyhimlikestarsseenandlostintheriftsofahurryingsky。
Mostly,thesefaceswerestrangeandlessintelligentthanthoseofhiscompanions。Buttheyrepresentedhislastmeansofaccesstotheworld,akindofsubterraneanchannelonwhichhecouldsethis“statements“afloat,likepaperboatswhichthemysteriouscurrentmightsweepoutintotheopenseasoflife。
Oneday,however,hisattentionwasarrestedbyafamiliarcontour,apairofbrightprominenteyes,andachininsufficientlyshaved。HesprangupandstoodinthepathofPeterMcCarren。
Thejournalistlookedathimdoubtfully,thenheldouthishandwithastartleddeprecating,“WHY——?”
“Youdidn\'tknowme?I\'msochanged?”Granicefaltered,feelingthereboundoftheother\'swonder。
“Why,no;butyou\'relookingquieter——smoothedout,“McCarrensmiled。
“Yes:that\'swhatI\'mherefor——torest。AndI\'vetakentheopportunitytowriteoutaclearerstatement——“
Granice\'shandshooksothathecouldhardlydrawthefoldedpaperfromhispocket。Ashedidsohenoticedthatthereporterwasaccompaniedbyatallmanwithgravecompassionateeyes。ItcametoGraniceinawildthrillofconvictionthatthiswasthefacehehadwaitedfor……
“Perhapsyourfriend——heISyourfriend?——wouldglanceoverit——
orIcouldputthecaseinafewwordsifyouhavetime?”
Granice\'svoiceshooklikehishand。Ifthischanceescapedhimhefeltthathislasthopewasgone。McCarrenandthestrangerlookedateachother,andtheformerglancedathiswatch。
“I\'msorrywecan\'tstayandtalkitovernow,Mr。Granice;butmyfriendhasanengagement,andwe\'reratherpressed——“
Granicecontinuedtoprofferthepaper。“I\'msorry——IthinkI
couldhaveexplained。Butyou\'lltakethis,atanyrate?”
Thestrangerlookedathimgently。“Certainly——I\'lltakeit。“
Hehadhishandout。“Good-bye。“
“Good-bye,“Graniceechoed。
Hestoodwatchingthetwomenmoveawayfromhimthroughthelonglighthall;andashewatchedthematearrandownhisface。Butassoonastheywereoutofsightheturnedandwalkedhastilytowardhisroom,beginningtohopeagain,alreadyplanninganewstatement。
Outsidethebuildingthetwomenstoodstill,andthejournalist\'scompanionlookedupcuriouslyatthelongmonotonousrowsofbarredwindows。
“SothatwasGranice?”
“Yes——thatwasGranice,poordevil,“saidMcCarren。
“Strangecase!Isupposethere\'sneverbeenonejustlikeit?
He\'sstillabsolutelyconvincedthathecommittedthatmurder?”
“Absolutely。Yes。“
Thestrangerreflected。“Andtherewasnoconceivablegroundfortheidea?Noonecouldmakeouthowitstarted?Aquietconventionalsortoffellowlikethat——wheredoyousupposehegotsuchadelusion?Didyouevergettheleastcluetoit?”
McCarrenstoodstill,hishandsinhispockets,hisheadcockedupincontemplationofthebarredwindows。Thenheturnedhisbrighthardgazeonhiscompanion。
“Thatwasthequeerpartofit。I\'veneverspokenofit——butI
DIDgetaclue。“
“ByJove!That\'sinteresting。Whatwasit?”
McCarrenformedhisredlipsintoawhistle。“Why——thatitwasn\'tadelusion。“
Heproducedhiseffect——theotherturnedonhimwithapallidstare。
“Hemurderedthemanallright。Itumbledonthetruthbythemerestaccident,whenI\'dprettynearlychuckedthewholejob。“
“Hemurderedhim——murderedhiscousin?”
“Sureasyoulive。Onlydon\'tsplitonme。It\'saboutthequeerestbusinessIeverraninto……DOABOUTIT?Why,whatwasItodo?Icouldn\'thangthepoordevil,couldI?Lord,butIwasgladwhentheycollaredhim,andhadhimstowedawaysafeinthere!”
Thetallmanlistenedwithagraveface,graspingGranice\'sstatementinhishand。
“Here——takethis;itmakesmesick,“hesaidabruptly,thrustingthepaperatthereporter;andthetwomenturnedandwalkedinsilencetothegates。
TheEndTHEDILETTANTE
asfirstpublishedinHarper\'sMonthly,December1903
Itwasonanimpulsehardlyneedingtheargumentshefoundhimselfadvancinginitsfavor,thatThursdale,onhiswaytotheclub,turnedasusualintoMrs。Vervain\'sstreet。
The“asusual“washisownqualificationoftheact;aconvenientwayofbridgingtheinterval——indaysandothersequences——thatlaybetweenthisvisitandthelast。Itwascharacteristicofhimthatheinstinctivelyexcludedhiscalltwodaysearlier,withRuthGaynor,fromthelistofhisvisitstoMrs。Vervain:
thespecialconditionsattendingithadmadeitnomorelikeavisittoMrs。Vervainthananengraveddinnerinvitationislikeapersonalletter。YetitwastotalkoverhiscallwithMissGaynorthathewasnowreturningtothesceneofthatepisode;
anditwasbecauseMrs。Vervaincouldbetrustedtohandlethetalkingoverasskilfullyastheinterviewitselfthat,athercorner,hehadfeltthedilettante\'sirresistiblecravingtotakealastlookataworkofartthatwaspassingoutofhispossession。
Onthewhole,heknewnoonebetterfittedtodealwiththeunexpectedthanMrs。Vervain。Sheexcelledintherareartoftakingthingsforgranted,andThursdalefeltapardonableprideinthethoughtthatsheowedherexcellencetohistraining。
EarlyinhiscareerThursdalehadmadethemistake,attheoutsetofhisacquaintancewithalady,oftellingherthathelovedherandexactingthesameavowalinreturn。Thelatterpartofthatepisodehadbeenlikethelongwalkbackfromapicnic,whenonehastocarryallthecrockeryonehasfinishedusing:itwasthelasttimeThursdaleeverallowedhimselftobeencumberedwiththedebrisofafeast。Hethusincidentallylearnedthattheprivilegeoflovingherisoneoftheleastfavorsthatacharmingwomancanaccord;andinseekingtoavoidthepitfallsofsentimenthehaddevelopedascienceofevasioninwhichthewomanofthemomentbecameamereimplementofthegame。Heowedagreatdealofdelicateenjoymenttothecultivationofthisart。Theperilsfromwhichithadbeenhisrefugebecamenaivelyharmless:wasitpossiblethathewhonowtookhiseasywayalongthelevelshadoncepreferredtogaspontherawheightsofemotion?Youthisahigh-coloredseason;buthehadthesatisfactionoffeelingthathehadenteredearlierthanmostintothatchiar\'oscuroofsensationwhereeveryhalf-tonehasitsvalue。
AsapromoterofthispleasurenoonehehadknownwascomparabletoMrs。Vervain。Hehadtaughtagoodmanywomennottobetraytheirfeelings,buthehadneverbeforehadsuchfinematerialtoworkin。Shehadbeensurprisinglycrudewhenhefirstknewher;
capableofmakingthemostawkwardinferences,ofplungingthroughthinice,ofrecklesslyundressingheremotions;butshehadacquired,underthedisciplineofhisreticencesandevasions,askillalmostequaltohisown,andperhapsmoreremarkableinthatitinvolvedkeepingtimewithanytuneheplayedandreadingatsightsomeuncommonlydifficultpassages。
IthadtakenThursdalesevenyearstoformthisfinetalent;buttheresultjustifiedtheeffort。Atthecrucialmomentshehadbeenperfect:herwayofgreetingMissGaynorhadmadehimregretthathehadannouncedhisengagementbyletter。Itwasanevasionthatconfessedadifficulty;adeviationimplyinganobstacle,where,bycommonconsent,itwasagreedtoseenone;itbetrayed,inshort,alackofconfidenceinthecompletenessofhismethod。Ithadbeenhispridenevertoputhimselfinapositionwhichhadtobequitted,asitwere,bythebackdoor;
buthere,asheperceived,themainportalswouldhaveopenedforhimoftheirownaccord。Allthis,andmuchmore,hereadinthefinishednaturalnesswithwhichMrs。VervainhadmetMissGaynor。
Hehadneverseenabetterpieceofwork:therewasnoover-
eagerness,nosuspiciouswarmth,aboveallandthisgaveherartthegraceofanaturalqualitytherewerenoneofthosedamnableimplicationswherebyawoman,inwelcomingherfriend\'sbetrothed,maykeephimonpinsandneedleswhileshelapstheladyincomplacency。Somasterlyaperformance,indeed,hardlyneededtheoffsetofMissGaynor\'sdoor-stepwords——“Tobesokindtome,howshemusthavelikedyou!”——thoughhecaughthimselfwishingitlaywithintheboundsoffitnesstotransmitthem,asafinaltribute,totheonewomanheknewwhowasunfailinglycertaintoenjoyagoodthing。ItwasperhapstheonedrawbacktohisnewsituationthatitmightdevelopgoodthingswhichitwouldbeimpossibletohandontoMargaretVervain。
Thefactthathehadmadethemistakeofunderratinghisfriend\'spowers,theconsciousnessthathiswritingmusthavebetrayedhisdistrustofherefficiency,seemedanaddedreasonforturningdownherstreetinsteadofgoingontotheclub。Hewouldshowherthatheknewhowtovalueher;hewouldaskhertoachievewithhimafeatinfinitelyrarerandmoredelicatethantheonehehadappearedtoavoid。Incidentally,hewouldalsodisposeoftheintervaloftimebeforedinner:eversincehehadseenMissGaynoroff,anhourearlier,onherreturnjourneytoBuffalo,hehadbeenwonderinghowheshouldputintherestoftheafternoon。Itwasabsurd,howhemissedthegirl……Yes,thatwasit;thedesiretotalkaboutherwas,afterall,atthebottomofhisimpulsetocallonMrs。Vervain!Itwasabsurd,ifyoulike——butitwasdelightfullyrejuvenating。Hecouldrecallthetimewhenhehadbeenafraidofbeingobvious:nowhefeltthatthisreturntotheprimitiveemotionsmightbeasrestorativeasaholidayintheCanadianwoods。Anditwaspreciselybythegirl\'scandor,herdirectness,herlackofcomplications,thathewastaken。Thesensethatshemightsaysomethingrashatanymomentwaspositivelyexhilarating:ifshehadthrownherarmsabouthimatthestationhewouldnothavegivenathoughttohiscrumpleddignity。ItsurprisedThursdaletofindwhatfreshnessofhearthebroughttotheadventure;andthoughhissenseofironypreventedhisascribinghisintactnesstoanyconsciouspurpose,hecouldbutrejoiceinthefactthathissentimentaleconomieshadlefthimsuchalargesurplustodrawupon。
Mrs。Vervainwasathome——asusual。Whenonevisitsthecemeteryoneexpectstofindtheangelonthetombstone,anditstruckThursdaleasanotherproofofhisfriend\'sgoodtastethatshehadbeeninnounduehastetochangeherhabits。Thewholehouseappearedtocountonhiscoming;thefootmantookhishatandovercoatasnaturallyasthoughtherehadbeennolapseinhisvisits;andthedrawing-roomatonceenvelopedhiminthatatmosphereoftacitintelligencewhichMrs。Vervainimpartedtoherveryfurniture。
Itwasasurprisethat,inthisgeneralharmonyofcircumstances,Mrs。Vervainshouldherselfsoundthefirstfalsenote。
“You?”sheexclaimed;andthebooksheheldslippedfromherhand。
Itwascrude,certainly;unlessitwereatouchofthefinestart。ThedifficultyofclassifyingitdisturbedThursdale\'sbalance。
“Whynot?”hesaid,restoringthebook。“Isn\'titmyhour?”Andasshemadenoanswer,headdedgently,“Unlessit\'ssomeoneelse\'s?”
Shelaidthebookasideandsankbackintoherchair。“Mine,merely,“shesaid。
“Ihopethatdoesn\'tmeanthatyou\'reunwillingtoshareit?”
“Withyou?Bynomeans。You\'rewelcometomylastcrust。“
Helookedatherreproachfully。“Doyoucallthisthelast?”
Shesmiledashedroppedintotheseatacrossthehearth。“It\'sawayofgivingitmoreflavor!”
Hereturnedthesmile。“Avisittoyoudoesn\'tneedsuchcondiments。“
Shetookthiswithjusttherightmeasureofretrospectiveamusement。
“Ah,butIwanttoputintothisoneaveryspecialtaste,“sheconfessed。
Hersmilewassoconfident,soreassuring,thatitlulledhimintotheimprudenceofsaying,“Whyshouldyouwantittobedifferentfromwhatwasalwayssoperfectlyright?”
Shehesitated。“Doesn\'tthefactthatit\'sthelastconstituteadifference?”
“Thelast——mylastvisittoyou?”
“Oh,metaphorically,Imean——there\'sabreakinthecontinuity。“
Decidedly,shewaspressingtoohard:unlearninghisartsalready!
“Idon\'trecognizeit,“hesaid。“Unlessyoumakeme——“headded,withanotethatslightlystirredherattitudeoflanguidattention。
Sheturnedtohimwithgraveeyes。“Yourecognizenodifferencewhatever?”
“None——exceptanaddedlinkinthechain。“
“Anaddedlink?”
“Inhavingonemorethingtolikeyoufor——yourlettingMissGaynorseewhyIhadalreadysomany。“Heflatteredhimselfthatthisturnhadtakentheleasthintoffatuityfromthephrase。
Mrs。Vervainsankintoherformereasypose。“Wasitthatyoucamefor?”sheasked,almostgaily。
“Ifitisnecessarytohaveareason——thatwasone。“
“TotalktomeaboutMissGaynor?”
“Totellyouhowshetalksaboutyou。“
“Thatwillbeveryinteresting——especiallyifyouhaveseenhersincehersecondvisittome。“
“Hersecondvisit?”Thursdalepushedhischairbackwithastartandmovedtoanother。“Shecametoseeyouagain?”
“Thismorning,yes——byappointment。“
Hecontinuedtolookatherblankly。“Yousentforher?”
“Ididn\'thaveto——shewroteandaskedmelastnight。Butnodoubtyouhaveseenhersince。“
Thursdalesatsilent。Hewastryingtoseparatehiswordsfromhisthoughts,buttheystillclungtogetherinextricably。“Isawheroffjustnowatthestation。“
“Andshedidn\'ttellyouthatshehadbeenhereagain?”
“Therewashardlytime,Isuppose——therewerepeopleabout——“hefloundered。
“Ah,she\'llwrite,then。“
Heregainedhiscomposure。“Ofcourseshe\'llwrite:veryoften,Ihope。YouknowI\'mabsurdlyinlove,“hecriedaudaciously。
Shetiltedherheadback,lookingupathimasheleanedagainstthechimney-piece。Hehadleanedtheresooftenthattheattitudetouchedapulsewhichsetupathrobbinginherthroat。
“Oh,mypoorThursdale!”shemurmured。
“Isupposeit\'sratherridiculous,“heowned;andassheremainedsilent,headded,withasuddenbreak——“Orhaveyouanotherreasonforpityingme?”
Heranswerwasanotherquestion。“Haveyoubeenbacktoyourroomssinceyoulefther?”
“SinceIleftheratthestation?Icamestraighthere。“
“Ah,yes——youCOULD:therewasnoreason——“Herwordspassedintoasilentmusing。
Thursdalemovednervouslynearer。“Yousaidyouhadsomethingtotellme?”
“PerhapsIhadbetterletherdoso。Theremaybealetteratyourrooms。“
“Aletter?Whatdoyoumean?AletterfromHER?Whathashappened?”
Hispalenessshookher,andsheraisedahandofreassurance。
“Nothinghashappened——perhapsthatisjusttheworstofit。YoualwaysHATED,youknow,“sheaddedincoherently,“tohavethingshappen:youneverwouldletthem。“
“Andnow——?”
“Well,thatwaswhatshecameherefor:Isupposedyouhadguessed。Toknowifanythinghadhappened。“
“Hadhappened?”Hegazedatherslowly。“Betweenyouandme?”
hesaidwitharushoflight。