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  Andalltheattachmentofhissoulwouldnotkeephim。Verywell,hewouldhavetogo。Buthewouldcomebackwhenhehadtiredofhis,newsensation。

  Hehackedattheearthtillshewasfrettedtodeath。Sherose。

  Hesatflinginglumpsofearthinthestream。

  “Wewillgoandhaveteahere?”heasked。

  “Yes,“sheanswered。

  Theychatteredoverirrelevantsubjectsduringtea。

  Heheldforthontheloveofornament——thecottageparlourmovedhim,thereto——anditsconnectionwithaesthetics。Shewascoldandquiet。

  Astheywalkedhome,sheasked:

  “Andweshallnotseeeachother?”

  “No——orrarely,“heanswered。

  “Norwrite?”sheasked,almostsarcastically。

  “Asyouwill,“heanswered。”We’renotstrangers——never,shouldbe,whateverhappened。Iwillwritetoyounowandagain。

  Youpleaseyourself。”

  “Isee!”sheansweredcuttingly。

  Buthewasatthatstageatwhichnothingelsehurts。

  Hehadmadeagreatcleavageinhislife。Hehadhadagreatshock,whenshehadtoldhimtheirlovehadbeenalwaysaconflict。

  Nothingmoremattered。Ifitneverhadbeenmuch,therewasnoneed,tomakeafussthatitwasended。

  Heleftheratthelane-end。Asshewenthome,solitary,inhernewfrock,havingherpeopletofaceattheotherend,hestoodstillwithshameandpaininthehighroad,thinkingof,thesufferinghecausedher。

  Inthereactiontowardsrestoringhisself-esteem,hewent,intotheWillowTreeforadrink。Therewerefourgirlswhohad,beenoutfortheday,drinkingamodestglassofport。Theyhad,somechocolatesonthetable。Paulsatnearwithhiswhisky。

  Henoticedthegirlswhisperingandnudging。Presentlyone,abonnydarkhussy,leanedtohimandsaid:

  “Haveachocolate?”

  Theotherslaughedloudlyatherimpudence。

  “Allright,“saidPaul。”Givemeahardone——nut。Idon’t,likecreams。”

  “Hereyouare,then,“saidthegirl;“here’sanalmondforyou。”

  Sheheldthesweetbetweenherfingers。Heopenedhismouth。

  Shepoppeditin,andblushed。

  “YouAREnice!”hesaid。

  “Well,“sheanswered,“wethoughtyoulookedovercast,andtheydaredmeofferyouachocolate。”

  “Idon’tmindifIhaveanother——anothersort,“hesaid。

  Andpresentlytheywerealllaughingtogether。

  Itwasnineo’clockwhenhegothome,fallingdark。Heentered,thehouseinsilence。Hismother,whohadbeenwaiting,roseanxiously。

  “Itoldher,“hesaid。

  “I’mglad,“repliedthemother,withgreatrelief。

  Hehunguphiscapwearily。

  “Isaidwe’dhavedonealtogether,“hesaid。

  “That’sright,myson,“saidthemother。”It’shardforhernow,butbestinthelongrun。Iknow。Youweren’tsuitedforher。”

  Helaughedshakilyashesatdown。

  “I’vehadsuchalarkwithsomegirlsinapub,“hesaid。

  Hismotherlookedathim。HehadforgottenMiriamnow。Hetold,heraboutthegirlsintheWillowTree。Mrs。Morellookedathim。

  Itseemedunreal,hisgaiety。Atthebackofitwastoomuchhorror,andmisery。

  “Nowhavesomesupper,“shesaidverygently。

  Afterwardshesaidwistfully:

  “Sheneverthoughtshe’dhaveme,mother,notfromthefirst,andsoshe’snotdisappointed。”

  “I’mafraid,“saidhismother,“shedoesn’tgiveuphopes,ofyouyet。”

  “No,“hesaid,“perhapsnot。”

  “You’llfindit’sbettertohavedone,“shesaid。

  “Idon’tknow,“hesaiddesperately。

  “Well,leaveheralone,“repliedhismother。Sohelefther,andshewasalone。Veryfewpeoplecaredforher,andsheforvery,fewpeople。Sheremainedalonewithherself,waiting。

  CHAPTERXII

  PASSION

  HEwasgraduallymakingitpossibletoearnalivelihoodby,hisart。Liberty’shadtakenseveralofhispainteddesigns,onvariousstuffs,andhecouldselldesignsforembroideries,foraltar-cloths,andsimilarthings,inoneortwoplaces。

  Itwasnotverymuchhemadeatpresent,buthemightextendit。

  Hehadalsomadefriendswiththedesignerforapotteryfirm,andwasgainingsomeknowledgeofhisnewacquaintance’sart。

  Theappliedartsinterestedhimverymuch。Atthesametime,helabouredslowlyathispictures。Helovedtopaintlargefigures,fulloflight,butnotmerelymadeupoflightsandcastshadows,liketheimpressionists;ratherdefinitefiguresthathadacertain,luminousquality,likesomeofMichaelAngelo’speople。Andthese,hefittedintoalandscape,inwhathethoughttrueproportion。

  Heworkedagreatdealfrommemory,usingeverybodyheknew。

  Hebelievedfirmlyinhiswork,thatitwasgoodandvaluable。

  Inspiteoffitsofdepression,shrinking,everything,hebelieved,inhiswork。

  Hewastwenty-fourwhenhesaidhisfirstconfidentthing,tohismother。

  “Mother,“hesaid,“Is’llmakeapainterthatthey’llattendto。”

  Shesniffedinherquaintfashion。Itwaslikeahalf-pleased,shrugoftheshoulders。

  “Verywell,myboy,we’llsee,“shesaid。

  “Youshallsee,mypigeon!,Youseeifyou’renotswanky,oneofthesedays!”

  “I’mquitecontent,myboy,“shesmiled。

  “Butyou’llhavetoalter。LookatyouwithMinnie!”

  Minniewasthesmallservant,agirloffourteen。

  “AndwhataboutMinnie?”askedMrs。Morel,withdignity。

  “Iheardherthismorning:,’Eh,Mrs。Morel!,Iwasgoing,todothat,’whenyouwentoutintherainforsomecoal,“hesaid。

  “Thatlooksalotlikeyourbeingabletomanageservants!”

  “Well,itwasonlythechild’sniceness,“saidMrs。Morel。

  “Andyouapologisingtoher:,’Youcan’tdotwothingsatonce,canyou?’“

  “SheWASbusywashingup,“repliedMrs。Morel。

  “Andwhatdidshesay?,’Itcouldeasyhavewaitedabit。

  Nowlookhowyourfeetpaddle!’“

  “Yes——brazenyoungbaggage!”saidMrs。Morel,smiling。

  Helookedathismother,laughing。Shewasquitewarmand,rosyagainwithloveofhim。Itseemedasifallthesunshine,wereonherforamoment。Hecontinuedhisworkgladly。

  Sheseemedsowellwhenshewashappythatheforgothergreyhair。

  AndthatyearshewentwithhimtotheIsleofWightfor,aholiday。Itwastooexcitingforthemboth,andtoobeautiful。

  Mrs。Morelwasfullofjoyandwonder。Buthewouldhaveher,walkwithhimmorethanshewasable。Shehadabadfaintingbout。

  Sogreyherfacewas,sobluehermouth!,Itwasagonytohim。

  Hefeltasifsomeonewerepushingaknifeinhischest。Thenshe,wasbetteragain,andheforgot。Buttheanxietyremainedinsidehim,likeawoundthatdidnotclose。

  AfterleavingMiriamhewentalmoststraighttoClara。

  OntheMondayfollowingthedayoftherupturehewentdownto,thework-room。Shelookedupathimandsmiled。Theyhadgrown,veryintimateunawares。Shesawanewbrightnessabouthim。

  “Well,QueenofSheba!”hesaid,laughing。

  “Butwhy?”sheasked。

  “Ithinkitsuitsyou。You’vegotanewfrockon。”

  Sheflushed,asking:

  “Andwhatofit?”

  “Suitsyou——awfully!,Icoulddesignyouadress。”

  “Howwoulditbe?”

  Hestoodinfrontofher,hiseyesglitteringasheexpounded。

  Hekepthereyesfixedwithhis。Thensuddenlyhetookholdofher。

  Shehalf-startedback。Hedrewthestuffofherblousetighter,smootheditoverherbreast。

  “MoreSO!”heexplained。

  Buttheywerebothofthemflamingwithblushes,andimmediately,heranaway。Hehadtouchedher。Hiswholebodywasquivering,withthesensation。

  Therewasalreadyasortofsecretunderstandingbetweenthem。

  Thenexteveninghewenttothecinematographwithherforafew,minutesbeforetrain-time。Astheysat,hesawherhandlying,nearhim。Forsomemomentshedarednottouchit。Thepictures,dancedanddithered。Thenhetookherhandinhis。Itwaslarge,andfirm;itfilledhisgrasp。Hehelditfast。Sheneither,movednormadeanysign。Whentheycameouthistrainwasdue。

  Hehesitated。

  “Good-night,“shesaid。Hedartedawayacrosstheroad。

  Thenextdayhecameagain,talkingtoher。Shewasrather,superiorwithhim。

  “ShallwegoawalkonMonday?”heasked。

  Sheturnedherfaceaside。

  “ShallyoutellMiriam?”sherepliedsarcastically。

  “Ihavebrokenoffwithher,“hesaid。

  “When?”

  “LastSunday。”

  “Youquarrelled?”

  “No!,Ihadmadeupmymind。ItoldherquitedefinitelyI

  shouldconsidermyselffree。”

  Claradidnotanswer,andhereturnedtohiswork。Shewas,soquietandsosuperb!

  OntheSaturdayeveningheaskedhertocomeanddrinkcoffee,withhiminarestaurant,meetinghimafterworkwasover。Shecame,lookingveryreservedandverydistant。Hehadthree-quarters,ofanhourtotrain-time。

  “Wewillwalkalittlewhile,“hesaid。

  Sheagreed,andtheywentpasttheCastleintothePark。

  Hewasafraidofher。Shewalkedmoodilyathisside,withakind,ofresentful,reluctant,angrywalk。Hewasafraidtotakeherhand。

  “Whichwayshallwego?”heaskedastheywalkedindarkness。

  “Idon’tmind。”

  “Thenwe’llgoupthesteps。”

  Hesuddenlyturnedround。TheyhadpassedtheParksteps。

  Shestoodstillinresentmentathissuddenlyabandoningher。

  Helookedforher。Shestoodaloof。Hecaughthersuddenlyin,hisarms,heldherstrainedforamoment,kissedher。Thenhelet,hergo。

  “Comealong,“hesaid,penitent。

  Shefollowedhim。Hetookherhandandkissedher,finger-tips。Theywentinsilence。Whentheycametothelight,heletgoherhand。Neitherspoketilltheyreachedthestation。

  Thentheylookedeachotherintheeyes。

  “Good-night,“shesaid。

  Andhewentforhistrain。Hisbodyactedmechanically。

  Peopletalkedtohim。Heheardfaintechoesansweringthem。

  Hewasinadelirium。HefeltthathewouldgomadifMondaydid,notcomeatonce。OnMondayhewouldseeheragain。Allhimself,waspitchedthere,ahead。Sundayintervened。Hecouldnotbearit。

  HecouldnotseehertillMonday。AndSundayintervened——hour,afterhouroftension。Hewantedtobeathisheadagainstthe,doorofthecarriage。Buthesatstill。Hedranksomewhisky,onthewayhome,butitonlymadeitworse。Hismothermustnot,beupset,thatwasall。Hedissembled,andgotquicklytobed。

  Therehesat,dressed,withhischinonhisknees,staringoutof,thewindowatthefarhill,withitsfewlights。Heneitherthoughtnorslept,butsatperfectlystill,staring。Andwhenatlasthewassocoldthat,hecametohimself,hefoundhiswatchhadstoppedathalf-pasttwo。

  Itwasafterthreeo’clock。Hewasexhausted,butstilltherewas,thetormentofknowingitwasonlySundaymorning。Hewenttobed,andslept。Thenhecycledalldaylong,tillhewasfaggedout。

  Andhescarcelyknewwherehehadbeen。ButthedayafterwasMonday。

  Heslepttillfouro’clock。Thenhelayandthought。Hewascoming,nearertohimself——hecouldseehimself,real,somewhereinfront。

  Shewouldgoawalkwithhimintheafternoon。Afternoon!,Itseemed,yearsahead。

  Slowlythehourscrawled。Hisfathergotup;heheardhim,potteringabout。Thentheminersetofftothepit,hisheavy,bootsscrapingtheyard。Cockswerestillcrowing。Acart,wentdowntheroad。Hismothergotup。Sheknockedthefire。

  Presentlyshecalledhimsoftly。Heansweredasifhewereasleep。

  Thisshellofhimselfdidwell。

  Hewaswalkingtothestation——anothermile!,Thetrain,wasnearNottingham。Woulditstopbeforethetunnels?

  Butitdidnotmatter;itwouldgettherebeforedinner-time。He,wasatJordan’s。Shewouldcomeinhalfanhour。Atanyrate,shewouldbenear。Hehaddonetheletters。Shewouldbethere。

  Perhapsshehadnotcome。Herandownstairs。Ah!hesawher,throughtheglassdoor。Hershouldersstoopingalittletoher,workmadehimfeelhecouldnotgoforward;hecouldnotstand。

  Hewentin。Hewaspale,nervous,awkward,andquitecold。

  Wouldshemisunderstandhim?,Hecouldnotwritehisrealself,withthisshell。

  “Andthisafternoon,“hestruggledtosay。”Youwillcome?”

  “Ithinkso,“shereplied,murmuring。

  Hestoodbeforeher,unabletosayaword。Shehidher,facefromhim。Againcameoverhimthefeelingthathewould,loseconsciousness。Hesethisteethandwentupstairs。Hehad,doneeverythingcorrectlyyet,andhewoulddoso。Allthemorning,thingsseemedalongwayoff,astheydotoamanunderchloroform。

  Hehimselfseemedunderatightbandofconstraint。Thentherewashis,otherself,inthedistance,doingthings,enteringstuffinaledger,andhewatchedthatfar-offhimcarefullytoseehemadenomistake。

  Buttheacheandstrainofitcouldnotgoonmuchlonger。

  Heworkedincessantly。Stillitwasonlytwelveo’clock。Asifhe,hadnailedhisclothingagainstthedesk,hestoodthereandworked,forcingeverystrokeoutofhimself。Itwasaquartertoone;

  hecouldclearaway。Thenherandownstairs。

  “YouwillmeetmeattheFountainattwoo’clock,“hesaid。

  “Ican’tbetheretillhalf-past。”

  “Yes!”hesaid。

  Shesawhisdark,madeyes。

  “Iwilltryataquarterpast。”

  Andhehadtobecontent。Hewentandgotsomedinner。

  Allthetimehewasstillunderchloroform,andeveryminute,wasstretchedoutindefinitely。Hewalkedmilesofstreets。

  Thenhethoughthewouldbelateatthemeeting-place。Hewasat,theFountainatfivepasttwo。Thetortureofthenextquarter,ofanhourwasrefinedbeyondexpression。Itwastheanguish,ofcombiningthelivingselfwiththeshell。Thenhesawher。

  Shecame!,Andhewasthere。

  “Youarelate,“hesaid。

  “Onlyfiveminutes,“sheanswered。

  “I’dneverhavedoneittoyou,“helaughed。

  Shewasinadarkbluecostume。Helookedatherbeautifulfigure。

  “Youwantsomeflowers,“hesaid,goingtothenearestflorist’s。

  Shefollowedhiminsilence。Heboughtherabunchofscarlet,brick-redcarnations。Sheputtheminhercoat,flushing。

  “That’safinecolour!”hesaid。

  “I’dratherhavehadsomethingsofter,“shesaid。

  Helaughed。

  “Doyoufeellikeablotofvermilionwalkingdownthestreet?”

  hesaid。

  Shehungherhead,afraidofthepeopletheymet。

  Helookedsidewaysatherastheywalked。Therewasawonderful,closedownonherfaceneartheearthathewantedtotouch。

  Andacertainheaviness,theheavinessofaveryfullearof,cornthatdipsslightlyinthewind,thattherewasabouther,madehisbrainspin。Heseemedtobespinningdownthestreet,everythinggoinground。

  Astheysatinthetramcar,sheleanedherheavyshoulder,againsthim,andhetookherhand。Hefelthimselfcominground,fromtheanaesthetic,beginningtobreathe。Herear,half-hiddenamong,herblondehair,wasneartohim。Thetemptationtokissitwas,almosttoogreat。Buttherewereotherpeopleontopofthecar。

  Itstillremainedtohimtokissit。Afterall,hewasnothimself,hewassomeattributeofhers,likethesunshinethatfellonher。

  Helookedquicklyaway。Ithadbeenraining。Thebigbluff,oftheCastlerockwasstreakedwithrain,asitrearedabove,theflatofthetown。Theycrossedthewide,blackspaceofthe,MidlandRailway,andpassedthecattleenclosurethatstoodoutwhite。

  ThentheyrandownsordidWilfordRoad。

  Sherockedslightlytothetram’smotion,andassheleaned,againsthim,rockeduponhim。Hewasavigorous,slenderman,withexhaustlessenergy。Hisfacewasrough,withrough-hewnfeatures,likethecommonpeople’s;buthiseyesunderthedeepbrowswere,sofulloflifethattheyfascinatedher。Theyseemedtodance,andyettheywerestilltremblingonthefinestbalanceoflaughter。

  Hismouththesamewasjustgoingtospringintoalaughoftriumph,yetdidnot。Therewasasharpsuspenseabouthim。Shebither,lipmoodily。Hishandwashardclenchedoverhers。

  Theypaidtheirtwohalfpenniesattheturnstileandcrossed,thebridge。TheTrentwasveryfull。Itsweptsilentandinsidious,underthebridge,travellinginasoftbody。Therehadbeenagreat,dealofrain。Ontheriverlevelswereflatgleamsoffloodwater。

  Theskywasgrey,withglistenofsilverhereandthere。InWilford,churchyardthedahliasweresoddenwithrain——wetblack-crimsonballs。

  Noonewasonthepaththatwentalongthegreenrivermeadow,alongtheelm-treecolonnade。

  Therewasthefaintesthazeoverthesilvery-darkwater,andthegreenmeadow-bank,andtheelm-treesthatwerespangled,withgold。Theriverslidbyinabody,utterlysilentandswift,intertwiningamongitselflikesomesubtle,complexcreature。

  Clarawalkedmoodilybesidehim。

  “Why,“sheaskedatlength,inratherajarringtone,“didyou,leaveMiriam?”

  Hefrowned。

  “BecauseIWANTEDtoleaveher,“hesaid。

  “Why?”

  “BecauseIdidn’twanttogoonwithher。AndIdidn’twant,tomarry。”

  Shewassilentforamoment。Theypickedtheirwaydownthemuddypath。

  Dropsofwaterfellfromtheelm-trees。

  “Youdidn’twanttomarryMiriam,oryoudidn’twanttomarry,atall?”sheasked。

  “Both,“heanswered——“both!”

  Theyhadtomanoeuvretogettothestile,becauseofthepools,ofwater。

  “Andwhatdidshesay?”Claraasked。

  “Miriam?,ShesaidIwasababyoffour,andthatIalways,HADbattledheroff。”

  Claraponderedoverthisforatime。

  “Butyouhavereallybeengoingwithherforsometime?”

  sheasked。

  “Yes。”

  “Andnowyoudon’twantanymoreofher?”

  “No。Iknowit’snogood。”

  Sheponderedagain。

  “Don’tyouthinkyou’vetreatedherratherbadly?”sheasked。

  “Yes;Ioughttohavedroppedityearsback。Butitwould,havebeennogoodgoingon。Twowrongsdon’tmakearight。”

  “HowoldAREyou?”Claraasked。

  “Twenty-five。”

  “AndIamthirty,“shesaid。

  “Iknowyouare。”

  “Ishallbethirty-one——orAMIthirty-one?”

  “Ineitherknownorcare。Whatdoesitmatter!”

  TheywereattheentrancetotheGrove。Thewet,redtrack,alreadystickywithfallenleaves,wentupthesteepbankbetween,thegrass。Oneithersidestoodtheelm-treeslikepillarsalong,agreataisle,archingoverandmakinghighuparooffromwhichthe,deadleavesfell。Allwasemptyandsilentandwet。Shestoodon,topofthestile,andheheldbothherhands。Laughing,shelooked,downintohiseyes。Thensheleaped。Herbreastcameagainsthis;

  heheldher,andcoveredherfacewithkisses。

  Theywentonuptheslippery,steepredpath。Presentlyshe,releasedhishandandputitroundherwaist。

  “Youpresstheveininmyarm,holdingitsotightly,“

  shesaid。

  Theywalkedalong。Hisfinger-tipsfelttherockingofherbreast。

  Allwassilentanddeserted。Onthelefttheredwetplough-land,showedthroughthedoorwaysbetweentheelm-bolesand,theirbranches。Ontheright,lookingdown,theycouldseethetree-tops,ofelmsgrowingfarbeneaththem,hearoccasionallythegurgleof,theriver。Sometimestherebelowtheycaughtglimpsesofthefull,soft-slidingTrent,andofwater-meadowsdottedwithsmallcattle。

  “IthasscarcelyalteredsincelittleKirkeWhiteusedtocome,“

  hesaid。

  Buthewaswatchingherthroatbelowtheear,wheretheflushwas,fusingintothehoney-white,andhermouththatpouteddisconsolate。

  Shestirredagainsthimasshewalked,andhisbodywaslike,atautstring。

  Halfwayupthebigcolonnadeofelms,wheretheGroverose,highestabovetheriver,theirforwardmovementfalteredtoanend。

  Heledheracrosstothegrass,underthetreesattheedgeofthepath。

  Thecliffofredearthslopedswiftlydown,throughtreesandbushes,totheriverthatglimmeredandwasdarkbetweenthefoliage。

  Thefar-belowwater-meadowswereverygreen。Heandshestoodleaning,againstoneanother,silent,afraid,theirbodiestouchingallalong。

  Therecameaquickgurglefromtheriverbelow。

  “Why,“heaskedatlength,“didyouhateBaxterDawes?”

  Sheturnedtohimwithasplendidmovement。Hermouthwas,offeredhim,andherthroat;hereyeswerehalf-shut;herbreast,wastiltedasifitaskedforhim。Heflashedwithasmalllaugh,shuthiseyes,andmetherinalong,wholekiss。Hermouthfused,withhis;theirbodiesweresealedandannealed。Itwassomeminutes,beforetheywithdrew。Theywerestandingbesidethepublicpath。

  “Willyougodowntotheriver?”heasked。

  Shelookedathim,leavingherselfinhishands。Hewent,overthebrimofthedeclivityandbegantoclimbdown。

  “Itisslippery,“hesaid。

  “Nevermind,“shereplied。

  Theredclaywentdownalmostsheer。Heslid,wentfromone,tuftofgrasstothenext,hangingontothebushes,makingfora,littleplatformatthefootofatree。Therehewaitedforher,laughingwithexcitement。Hershoeswerecloggedwithredearth。

  Itwashardforher。Hefrowned。Atlasthecaughtherhand,andshestoodbesidehim。Thecliffroseabovethemandfellaway,below。Hercolourwasup,hereyesflashed。Helookedatthebig,dropbelowthem。

  “It’srisky,“hesaid;“ormessy,atanyrate。Shallwe,goback?”

  “Notformysake,“shesaidquickly。

  “Allright。Yousee,Ican’thelpyou;Ishouldonlyhinder。

  Givemethatlittleparcelandyourgloves。Yourpoorshoes!”

  Theystoodperchedonthefaceofthedeclivity,underthetrees。

  “Well,I’llgoagain,“hesaid。

  Awayhewent,slipping,staggering,slidingtothenexttree,intowhichhefellwithaslamthatnearlyshookthebreathoutofhim。

  Shecameaftercautiously,hangingontothetwigsandgrasses。

  Sotheydescended,stagebystage,totheriver’sbrink。There,tohisdisgust,thefloodhadeatenawaythepath,andthered,declineranstraightintothewater。Heduginhisheelsandbrought,himselfupviolently。Thestringoftheparcelbrokewithasnap;

  thebrownparcelboundeddown,leapedintothewater,andsailed,smoothlyaway。Hehungontohistree。

  “Well,I’llbedamned!”hecriedcrossly。Thenhelaughed。

  Shewascomingperilouslydown。

  “Mind!”hewarnedher。Hestoodwithhisbacktothetree,waiting。”Comenow,“hecalled,openinghisarms。

  Sheletherselfrun。Hecaughther,andtogethertheystood,watchingthedarkwaterscoopattherawedgeofthebank。

  Theparcelhadsailedoutofsight。

  “Itdoesn’tmatter,“shesaid。

  Heheldhercloseandkissedher。Therewasonlyroom,fortheirfourfeet。

  “It’saswindle!”hesaid。”Butthere’sarutwhereaman,hasbeen,soifwegoonIguessweshallfindthepathagain。”

  Theriverslidandtwineditsgreatvolume。Ontheotherbank,cattlewerefeedingonthedesolateflats。Thecliffrosehigh,abovePaulandClaraontheirrighthand。Theystoodagainst,thetreeinthewaterysilence。

  “Letustrygoingforward,“hesaid;andtheystruggled,intheredclayalongthegrooveaman’snailedbootshadmade。

  Theywerehotandflushed。Theirbarkledshoeshungheavyon,theirsteps。Atlasttheyfoundthebrokenpath。Itwaslittered,withrubblefromthewater,butatanyrateitwaseasier。

  Theycleanedtheirbootswithtwigs。Hisheartwasbeatingthick,andfast。

  Suddenly,comingontothelittlelevel,hesawtwofigures,ofmenstandingsilentatthewater’sedge。Hisheartleaped。

  Theywerefishing。HeturnedandputhishandupwarninglytoClara。

  Shehesitated,buttonedhercoat。Thetwowentontogether。

  Thefishermenturnedcuriouslytowatchthetwointruders,ontheirprivacyandsolitude。Theyhadhadafire,butitwas,nearlyout。Allkeptperfectlystill。Thementurnedagainto,theirfishing,stoodoverthegreyglintingriverlikestatues。

  Clarawentwithbowedhead,flushing;hewaslaughingtohimself。

  Directlytheypassedoutofsightbehindthewillows。

  “Nowtheyoughttobedrowned,“saidPaulsoftly。

  Claradidnotanswer。Theytoiledforwardalongatinypath,ontheriver’slip。Suddenlyitvanished。Thebankwassheerred,solidclayinfrontofthem,slopingstraightintotheriver。

  Hestoodandcursedbeneathhisbreath,settinghisteeth。

  “It’simpossible!”saidClara。

  Hestooderect,lookinground。Justaheadweretwoislets,inthestream,coveredwithosiers。Buttheywereunattainable。

  Thecliffcamedownlikeaslopingwallfromfarabovetheirheads。

  Behind,notfarback,werethefishermen。Acrosstheriverthe,distantcattlefedsilentlyinthedesolateafternoon。Hecursed,againdeeplyunderhisbreath。Hegazedupthegreatsteepbank。

  Wastherenohopebuttoscalebacktothepublicpath?

  “Stopaminute,“hesaid,and,digginghisheelssideways,intothesteepbankofredclay,hebegannimblytomount。

  Helookedacrossateverytree-foot。Atlasthefoundwhathewanted。

  Twobeech-treessidebysideonthehillheldalittlelevelonthe,upperfacebetweentheirroots。Itwaslitteredwithdampleaves,butitwoulddo。Thefishermenwereperhapssufficientlyoutofsight。

  Hethrewdownhisrainproofandwavedtohertocome。

  Shetoiledtohisside。Arrivingthere,shelookedathim,heavily,dumbly,andlaidherheadonhisshoulder。Heheldherfast,ashelookedround。Theyweresafeenoughfromallbutthesmall,lonelycowsovertheriver。Hesunkhismouthonherthroat,wherehefeltherheavypulsebeatunderhislips。Everythingwas,perfectlystill。Therewasnothingintheafternoonbutthemselves。

  Whenshearose,he,lookingonthegroundallthetime,sawsuddenlysprinkledontheblackwetbeech-rootsmanyscarlet,carnationpetals,likesplasheddropsofblood;andred,small,splashesfellfromherbosom,streamingdownherdresstoherfeet。

  “Yourflowersaresmashed,“hesaid。

  Shelookedathimheavilyassheputbackherhair。

  Suddenlyheputhisfinger-tipsonhercheek。

  “Whydostlooksoheavy?”hereproachedher。

  Shesmiledsadly,asifshefeltaloneinherself。Hecaressed,hercheekwithhisfingers,andkissedher。

  “Nay!”hesaid。”Nevertheebother!”

  Shegrippedhisfingerstight,andlaughedshakily。

  Thenshedroppedherhand。Heputthehairbackfromherbrows,strokinghertemples,kissingthemlightly。

  “Butthashouldnaworrit!”hesaidsoftly,pleading。

  “No,Idon’tworry!”shelaughedtenderlyandresigned。

  “Yea,thadoes!,Dunnatheeworrit,“heimplored,caressing。

  “No!”sheconsoledhim,kissinghim。

  Theyhadastiffclimbtogettothetopagain。Ittookthem,aquarterofanhour。Whenhegotontothelevelgrass,hethrew,offhiscap,wipedthesweatfromhisforehead,andsighed。

  “Nowwe’rebackattheordinarylevel,“hesaid。

  Shesatdown,panting,onthetussockygrass。Hercheeks,wereflushedpink。Hekissedher,andshegavewaytojoy。

  “AndnowI’llcleanthybootsandmaketheefit,forrespectablefolk,“hesaid。

  Hekneeledatherfeet,workedawaywithastickandtufts,ofgrass。Sheputherfingersinhishair,drewhisheadtoher,andkissedit。

  “WhatamIsupposedtobedoing,“hesaid,lookingatherlaughing;

  “cleaningshoesordibblingwithlove?,Answermethat!”

  “JustwhicheverIplease,“shereplied。

  “I’myourboot-boyforthetimebeing,andnothingelse!”

  Buttheyremainedlookingintoeachother’seyesandlaughing。

  Thentheykissedwithlittlenibblingkisses。

  “T-t-t-t!”hewentwithhistongue,likehismother。

  “Itellyou,nothinggetsdonewhenthere’sawomanabout。”

  Andhereturnedtohisboot-cleaning,singingsoftly。

  Shetouchedhisthickhair,andhekissedherfingers。Heworked,awayathershoes。Atlasttheywerequitepresentable。

  “Thereyouare,yousee!”hesaid。”Aren’tIagreathandat,restoringyoutorespectability?,Standup!

  There,youlookasirreproachableasBritanniaherself!”

  Hecleanedhisownbootsalittle,washedhishandsinapuddle,andsang。TheywentonintoCliftonvillage。Hewasmadlyinlove,withher;everymovementshemade,everycreaseinhergarments,sentahotflashthroughhimandseemedadorable。

  Theoldladyatwhosehousetheyhadteawasrousedintogaiety,bythem。

  “Icouldwishyou’dhadsomethingofabetterday,“shesaid,hoveringround。

  “Nay!”helaughed。”We’vebeensayinghowniceitis。”

  Theoldladylookedathimcuriously。Therewasapeculiar,glowandcharmabouthim。Hiseyesweredarkandlaughing。

  Herubbedhismoustachewithagladmovement。

  “HaveyoubeensayingSO!”sheexclaimed,alightrousing,inheroldeyes。

  “Truly!”helaughed。

  “ThenI’msuretheday’sgoodenough,“saidtheoldlady。

  Shefussedabout,anddidnotwanttoleavethem。

  “Idon’tknowwhetheryou’dlikesomeradishesaswell,“

  shesaidtoClara;“butI’vegotsomeinthegarden——ANDacucumber。”

  Claraflushed。Shelookedveryhandsome。

  “Ishouldlikesomeradishes,“sheanswered。

  Andtheoldladypotteredoffgleefully。

  “Ifsheknew!”saidClaraquietlytohim。

  “Well,shedoesn’tknow;anditshowswe’reniceinourselves,atanyrate。Youlookquiteenoughtosatisfyanarchangel,andI’m,sureIfeelharmless——so——ifitmakesyoulooknice,andmakesfolk,happywhentheyhaveus,andmakesushappy——why,we’renotcheating,themoutofmuch!”

  Theywentonwiththemeal。Whentheyweregoingaway,theoldladycametimidlywiththreetinydahliasinfullblow,neatasbees,andspeckledscarletandwhite。ShestoodbeforeClara,pleasedwithherself,saying:

  “Idon’tknowwhether——“andholdingtheflowersforward,inheroldhand。

  “Oh,howpretty!”criedClara,acceptingtheflowers。

  “Shallshehavethemall?”askedPaulreproachfullyofthe,oldwoman。

  “Yes,sheshallhavethemall,“shereplied,beamingwithjoy。

  “Youhavegotenoughforyourshare。”

  “Ah,butIshallaskhertogivemeone!”heteased。

  “Thenshedoesasshepleases,“saidtheoldlady,smiling。

  Andshebobbedalittlecurtseyofdelight。

  Clarawasratherquietanduncomfortable。Astheywalkedalong,hesaid:

  “Youdon’tfeelcriminal,doyou?”

  Shelookedathimwithstartledgreyeyes。

  “Criminal!”shesaid。”No。”

  “Butyouseemtofeelyouhavedoneawrong?”

  “No,“shesaid。”Ionlythink,’Iftheyknew!’“

  “Iftheyknew,they’dceasetounderstand。Asitis,theydo,understand,andtheylikeit。Whatdotheymatter?,Here,withonly,thetreesandme,youdon’tfeelnottheleastbitwrong,doyou?”

  Hetookherbythearm,heldherfacinghim,holdinghereyes,withhis。Somethingfrettedhim。

  “Notsinners,arewe?”hesaid,withanuneasylittlefrown。

  “No,“shereplied。

  Hekissedher,laughing。

  “Youlikeyourlittlebitofguiltiness,Ibelieve,“hesaid。

  “IbelieveEveenjoyedit,whenshewentcoweringoutofParadise。”

  Buttherewasacertainglowandquietnessaboutherthatmade,himglad。Whenhewasaloneintherailway-carriage,hefound,himselftumultuouslyhappy,andthepeopleexceedinglynice,andthenightlovely,andeverythinggood。

  Mrs。Morelwassittingreadingwhenhegothome。Herhealth,wasnotgoodnow,andtherehadcomethativorypallorintoherface,whichhenevernoticed,andwhichafterwardsheneverforgot。

  Shedidnotmentionherownill-healthtohim。Afterall,shethought,itwasnotmuch。

  “Youarelate!”shesaid,lookingathim。

  Hiseyeswereshining;hisfaceseemedtoglow。Hesmiled,toher。

  “Yes;I’vebeendownCliftonGrovewithClara。”

  Hismotherlookedathimagain。

  “Butwon’tpeopletalk?”shesaid。

  “Why?,Theyknowshe’sasuffragette,andsoon。Andwhat,iftheydotalk!”

  “Ofcourse,theremaybenothingwronginit,“saidhismother。

  “Butyouknowwhatfolksare,andifonceshegetstalkedabout——“

  “Well,Ican’thelpit。Theirjawisn’tsoalmightyimportant,afterall。”

  “IthinkyououghttoconsiderHER。”

  “SoIDO!,Whatcanpeoplesay?——thatwetakeawalktogether。

  Ibelieveyou’rejealous。”

  “YouknowIshouldbeGLADifsheweren’tamarriedwoman。”

  “Well,mydear,shelivesseparatefromherhusband,andtalks,onplatforms;soshe’salreadysingledoutfromthesheep,and,asfar,asIcansee,hasn’tmuchtolose。No;herlife’snothingtoher,sowhat’stheworthofnothing?,Shegoeswithme——itbecomessomething。

  Thenshemustpay——webothmustpay!,Folkaresofrightenedofpaying;

  they’dratherstarveanddie。”

  “Verywell,myson。We’llseehowitwillend。”

  “Verywell,mymother。I’llabidebytheend。”

  “We’llsee!”

  “Andshe’s——she’sAWFULLYnice,mother;sheisreally!

  Youdon’tknow!”

  “That’snotthesameasmarryingher。”

  “It’sperhapsbetter。”

  Therewassilenceforawhile。Hewanted,toaskhismothersomething,butwasafraid。

  “Shouldyouliketoknowher?”Hehesitated。

  “Yes,“saidMrs。Morelcoolly。”Ishouldliketoknow,whatshe’slike。”

  “Butshe’snice,mother,sheis!,Andnotabitcommon!”

  “Ineversuggestedshewas。”

  “Butyouseemtothinkshe’s——notasgoodas——,She’sbetterthan,ninety-ninefolkoutofahundred,Itellyou!,She’sBETTER,sheis!

  She’sfair,she’shonest,she’sstraight!,Thereisn’tanything,underhandorsuperiorabouther。Don’tbemeanabouther!”

  Mrs。Morelflushed。

  “IamsureIamnotmeanabouther。Shemaybequite,asyousay,but——“

  “Youdon’tapprove,“hefinished。

  “Anddoyouexpectmeto?”sheansweredcoldly。

  “Yes!——yes!——ifyou’danythingaboutyou,you’dbeglad!

  DoyouWANTtoseeher?”

  “IsaidIdid。”

  “ThenI’llbringher——shallIbringherhere?”

  “Youpleaseyourself。”

  “ThenIWILLbringherhere——oneSunday——totea。Ifyouthink,ahorridthingabouther,Ishan’tforgiveyou。”

  Hismotherlaughed。

  “Asifitwouldmakeanydifference!”shesaid。Heknewhe,hadwon。

  “Oh,butitfeelssofine,whenshe’sthere!,She’ssuch,aqueeninherway。”

  OccasionallyhestillwalkedalittlewayfromchapelwithMiriam,andEdgar。Hedidnotgouptothefarm。She,however,wasverymuch,thesamewithhim,andhedidnotfeelembarrassedinherpresence。

  Oneeveningshewasalonewhenheaccompaniedher。Theybegan,bytalkingbooks:,itwastheirunfailingtopic。Mrs。Morelhad,saidthathisandMiriam’saffairwaslikeafirefedonbooks——if,therewerenomorevolumesitwoulddieout。Miriam,forherpart,boastedthatshecouldreadhimlikeabook,couldplaceherfinger,anyminuteonthechapterandtheline。He,easilytakenin,believedthatMiriamknewmoreabouthimthananyoneelse。Soit,pleasedhimtotalktoherabouthimself,likethesimplestegoist。

  Verysoontheconversationdriftedtohisowndoings。Itflattered,himimmenselythathewasofsuchsupremeinterest。

  “Andwhathaveyoubeendoinglately?”

  “I——oh,notmuch!,ImadeasketchofBestwoodfromthegarden,thatisnearlyrightatlast。It’sthehundredthtry。”

  Sotheywenton。Thenshesaid:

  “You’venotbeenout,then,lately?”

  “Yes;IwentupCliftonGroveonMondayafternoonwithClara。”

  “Itwasnotveryniceweather,“saidMiriam,“wasit?”

  “ButIwantedtogoout,anditwasallright。TheTrent,ISfull。”

  “AnddidyougotoBarton?”sheasked。

  “No;wehadteainClifton。”

  “DIDyou!,Thatwouldbenice。”

  “Itwas!,Thejolliestoldwoman!,Shegaveusseveral,pompomdahlias,asprettyasyoulike。”

  Miriambowedherheadandbrooded。Hewasquiteunconscious,ofconcealinganythingfromher。

  “Whatmadehergivethemyou?”sheasked。

  Helaughed。

  “Becauseshelikedus——becausewewerejolly,Ishouldthink。”

  Miriamputherfingerinhermouth。

  “Wereyoulatehome?”sheasked。

  Atlastheresentedhertone。

  “Icaughttheseven-thirty。”

  “Ha!”

  Theywalkedoninsilence,andhewasangry。

  “AndhowISClara?”askedMiriam。

  “Quiteallright,Ithink。”

  “That’sgood!”shesaid,withatingeofirony。”Bytheway,whatofherhusband?,Oneneverhearsanythingofhim。”

  “He’sgotsomeotherwoman,andisalsoquiteallright,“

  hereplied。”Atleast,soIthink。”

  “Isee——youdon’tknowforcertain。Don’tyouthinkaposition,likethatishardonawoman?”

  “Rottenlyhard!”

  “It’ssounjust!”saidMiriam。”Themandoesashelikes——“

  “Thenletthewomanalso,“hesaid。

  “Howcanshe?,Andifshedoes,lookatherposition!”

  “Whatofit?”

  “Why,it’simpossible!,Youdon’tunderstandwhatawomanforfeits——“

  “No,Idon’t。Butifawoman’sgotnothingbutherfairfame,tofeedon,why,it’sthintack,andadonkeywoulddieofit!”

  Sosheunderstoodhismoralattitude,atleast,andsheknew,hewouldactaccordingly。

  Sheneveraskedhimanythingdirect,butshegottoknowenough。

  Anotherday,whenhesawMiriam,theconversationturned,tomarriage,thentoClara’smarriagewithDawes。

  “Yousee,“hesaid,“sheneverknewthefearfulimportance,ofmarriage。Shethoughtitwasallintheday’smarch——itwould,havetocome——andDawes——well,agoodmanywomenwouldhavegiven,theirsoulstogethim;sowhynothim?,Thenshedevelopedinto,thefemmeincomprise,andtreatedhimbadly,I’llbetmyboots。”

  “Andshelefthimbecausehedidn’tunderstandher?”

  “Isupposeso。Isupposeshehadto。Itisn’taltogether,aquestionofunderstanding;it’saquestionofliving。Withhim,shewasonlyhalf-alive;therestwasdormant,deadened。Andthe,dormantwomanwasthefemmeincomprise,andsheHADtobeawakened。”

  “Andwhatabouthim。”

  “Idon’tknow。Iratherthinkhelovesherasmuchashecan,buthe’safool。”

  “Itwassomethinglikeyourmotherandfather,“saidMiriam。

  “Yes;butmymother,Ibelieve,gotrealjoyandsatisfaction,outofmyfatheratfirst。Ibelieveshehadapassionforhim;

  that’swhyshestayedwithhim。Afterall,theywereboundto,eachother。”

  “Yes,“saidMiriam。

  “That’swhatoneMUSTHAVE,Ithink,“hecontinued——“thereal,realflameoffeelingthroughanotherperson——once,onlyonce,ifitonlylaststhreemonths。See,mymotherlooksasifshe’d,HADeverythingthatwasnecessaryforherlivinganddeveloping。

  There’snotatinybitoffeelingofsterilityabouther。”

  “No,“saidMiriam。

  “Andwithmyfather,atfirst,I’msureshehadtherealthing。

  Sheknows;shehasbeenthere。Youcanfeetitabouther,andabouthim,andabouthundredsofpeopleyoumeeteveryday;and,onceithas,happenedtoyou,youcangoonwithanythingandripen。”

  “Whathappened,exactly?”askedMiriam。

  “It’ssohardtosay,butthesomethingbigandintensethat,changesyouwhenyoureallycometogetherwithsomebodyelse。

  Italmostseemstofertiliseyoursoulandmakeitthatyoucango,onandmature。”

  “Andyouthinkyourmotherhaditwithyourfather?”

  “Yes;andatthebottomshefeelsgratefultohimforgiving,ither,evennow,thoughtheyaremilesapart。”

  “AndyouthinkClaraneverhadit?”

  “I’msure。”

  Miriamponderedthis。Shesawwhathewasseeking——asort,ofbaptismoffireinpassion,itseemedtoher。Sherealised,thathewouldneverbesatisfiedtillhehadit。Perhapsitwas,essentialtohim,astosomemen,tosowwildoats;andafterwards,whenhewassatisfied,hewouldnotragewithrestlessnessanymore,butcouldsettledownandgiveherhislifeintoherhands。Well,then,ifhemustgo,lethimgoandhavehisfill——somethingbigandintense,hecalledit。Atanyrate,whenhehadgotit,hewouldnotwant,it——thathesaidhimself;hewouldwanttheotherthingthatshe,couldgivehim。Hewouldwanttobeowned,sothathecouldwork。

  Itseemedtoherabitterthingthathemustgo,butshecouldlet,himgointoaninnforaglassofwhisky,soshecouldlethimgo,toClara,solongasitwassomethingthatwouldsatisfyaneedinhim,andleavehimfreeforherselftopossess。

  “HaveyoutoldyourmotheraboutClara?”sheasked。

  Sheknewthiswouldbeatestoftheseriousnessofhis,feelingfortheotherwoman:,sheknewhewasgoingtoClarafor,somethingvital,notasamangoesforpleasuretoaprostitute,ifhetoldhismother。

  “Yes,“hesaid,“andsheiscomingtoteaonSunday。”

  “Toyourhouse?”

  “Yes;Iwantmatertoseeher。”

  “Ah!”

  Therewasasilence。Thingshadgonequickerthanshethought。

  Shefeltasuddenbitternessthathecouldleavehersosoon,andsoentirely。AndwasClaratobeacceptedbyhispeople,whohadbeensohostiletoherself?

  “ImaycallinasIgotochapel,“shesaid。”Itisalong,timesinceIsawClara。”

  “Verywell,“hesaid,astonished,andunconsciouslyangry。

  OntheSundayafternoonhewenttoKestontomeetClaraat,thestation。Ashestoodontheplatformhewastryingtoexamine,inhimselfifhehadapremonition。

  “DoIFEELasifshe’dcome?”hesaidtohimself,andhetried,tofindout。Hisheartfeltqueerandcontracted。Thatseemed,likeforeboding。ThenheHADaforebodingshewouldnotcome!

  Thenshewouldnotcome,andinsteadoftakingheroverthe,fieldshome,ashehadimagined,hewouldhavetogoalone。

  Thetrainwaslate;theafternoonwouldbewasted,andtheevening。

  Hehatedherfornotcoming。Whyhadshepromised,then,ifshe,couldnotkeepherpromise?,Perhapsshehadmissedhertrain——he,himselfwasalwaysmissingtrains——butthatwasnoreasonwhy,sheshouldmissthisparticularone。Hewasangrywithher;

  hewasfurious。

  Suddenlyhesawthetraincrawling,sneakingroundthecorner。

  Here,then,wasthetrain,butofcourseshehadnotcome。Thegreen,enginehissedalongtheplatform,therowofbrowncarriagesdrewup,severaldoorsopened。No;shehadnotcome!,No!,Yes;ah,there,shewas!,Shehadabigblackhaton!,Hewasathersideinamoment。

  “Ithoughtyouweren’tcoming,“hesaid。

  Shewaslaughingratherbreathlesslyassheputoutherhand,tohim;theireyesmet。Hetookherquicklyalongtheplatform,talkingatagreatratetohidehisfeeling。Shelookedbeautiful。

  Inherhatwerelargesilkroses,colouredliketarnishedgold。

  Hercostumeofdarkclothfittedsobeautifullyoverherbreast,andshoulders。Hispridewentupashewalkedwithher。

  Hefeltthestationpeople,whoknewhim,eyedherwithawe,andadmiration。

  “Iwassureyouweren’tcoming,“helaughedshakily。

  Shelaughedinanswer,almostwithalittlecry。

  “AndIwondered,whenIwasinthetrain,WHATEVERIshould,doifyouweren’tthere!”shesaid。

  Hecaughtherhandimpulsively,andtheywentalong,thenarrowtwitchel。TheytooktheroadintoNuttalland,overtheReckoningHouseFarm。Itwasablue,mildday。

  Everywherethebrownleaveslayscattered;manyscarlethips,stooduponthehedgebesidethewood。Hegatheredafewforhertowear。

  “Though,really,“hesaid,ashefittedthemintothebreast,ofhercoat,“yououghttoobjecttomygettingthem,becauseof,thebirds。Buttheydon’tcaremuchforrose-hipsinthispart,wheretheycangetplentyofstuff。Youoftenfindtheberries,goingrotteninthespringtime。”

  Sohechattered,scarcelyawareofwhathesaid,onlyknowing,hewasputtingberriesinthebosomofhercoat,whileshestood,patientlyforhim。Andshewatchedhisquickhands,sofulloflife,anditseemedtohershehadneverSEENanythingbefore。Tillnow,everythinghadbeenindistinct。

  Theycameneartothecolliery。Itstoodquitestillandblack,amongthecorn-fields,itsimmenseheapofslagseenrisingalmost,fromtheoats。

  “Whatapitythereisacoal-pitherewhereitissopretty!”

  saidClara。

  “Doyouthinkso?”heanswered。”Yousee,Iamsousedtoit,Ishouldmissit。No;andIlikethepitshereandthere。Ilikethe,rowsoftrucks,andtheheadstocks,andthesteaminthedaytime,andthelightsatnight。WhenIwasaboy,Ialwaysthought,apillarofcloudbydayandapillaroffirebynightwasapit,withitssteam,anditslights,andtheburningbank,——andIthought,theLordwasalwaysatthepit-top。”

  Astheydrewnearhomeshewalkedinsilence,andseemed,tohangback。Hepressedherfingersinhisown。Sheflushed,butgavenoresponse。

  “Don’tyouwanttocomehome?”heasked。

  “Yes,Iwanttocome,“shereplied。

  Itdidnotoccurtohimthatherpositioninhishomewould,beratherapeculiaranddifficultone。Tohimitseemedjustasif,oneofhismenfriendsweregoingtobeintroducedtohismother,onlynicer。

  TheMorelslivedinahouseinanuglystreetthatrandown,asteephill。Thestreetitselfwashideous。Thehousewasrather,superiortomost。Itwasold,grimy,withabigbaywindow,andit,wassemi-detached;butitlookedgloomy。ThenPaulopenedthedoor,tothegarden,andallwasdifferent。Thesunnyafternoonwasthere,likeanotherland。Bythepathgrewtansyandlittletrees。Infront,ofthewindowwasaplotofsunnygrass,witholdlilacsroundit。

  Andawaywentthegarden,withheapsofdishevelledchrysanthemums,inthesunshine,downtothesycamore-tree,andthefield,andbeyondonelookedoverafewred-roofedcottagestothehills,withalltheglowoftheautumnafternoon。

  Mrs。Morelsatinherrocking-chair,wearingherblack,silkblouse。Hergrey-brownhairwastakensmoothbackfromherbrow,andherhightemples;herfacewasratherpale。Clara,suffering,followedPaulintothekitchen。Mrs。Morelrose。Clarathought,heralady,evenratherstiff。Theyoungwomanwasverynervous。

  Shehadalmostawistfullook,almostresigned。

  “Mother——Clara,“saidPaul。

  Mrs。Morelheldoutherhandandsmiled。

  “Hehastoldmeagooddealaboutyou,“shesaid。

  ThebloodflamedinClara’scheek。

  “Ihopeyoudon’tmindmycoming,“shefaltered。

  “Iwaspleasedwhenhesaidhewouldbringyou,“repliedMrs。Morel。

  Paul,watching,felthisheartcontractwithpain。Hismother,lookedsosmall,andsallow,anddone-forbesidetheluxuriantClara。

  “It’ssuchaprettyday,mother!”hesaid。”Andwesawajay。”

  Hismotherlookedathim;hehadturnedtoher。Shethought,whatamanheseemed,inhisdark,well-madeclothes。Hewaspale,anddetached-looking;itwouldbehardforanywomantokeephim。

  Herheartglowed;thenshewassorryforClara。

  “Perhapsyou’llleaveyourthingsintheparlour,“

  saidMrs。Morelnicelytotheyoungwoman。

  “Oh,thankyou,“shereplied。

  “Comeon,“saidPaul,andheledthewayintothelittle,frontroom,withitsoldpiano,itsmahoganyfurniture,itsyellowing,marblemantelpiece。Afirewasburning;theplacewaslittered,withbooksanddrawing-boards。”Ileavemythingslyingabout,“

  hesaid。”It’ssomucheasier。”

  Shelovedhisartist’sparaphernalia,andthebooks,andthe,photosofpeople。Soonhewastellingher:,thiswasWilliam,thiswasWilliam’syoungladyintheeveningdress,thiswasAnnie,andherhusband,thiswasArthurandhiswifeandthebaby。

  Shefeltasifshewerebeingtakenintothefamily。Heshowed,herphotos,books,sketches,andtheytalkedalittlewhile。

  Thentheyreturnedtothekitchen。Mrs。Morelputasideherbook。

  Claraworeablouseoffinesilkchiffon,withnarrowblack-and-white,stripes;herhairwasdonesimply,coiledontopofherhead。

  Shelookedratherstatelyandreserved。

  “YouhavegonetolivedownSneintonBoulevard?”saidMrs。Morel。

  “WhenIwasagirl——girl,Isay!——whenIwasayoungwomanWElived,inMinervaTerrace。”

  “Oh,didyou!”saidClara。”Ihaveafriendinnumber6。”

  Andtheconversationhadstarted。TheytalkedNottingham,andNottinghampeople;itinterestedthemboth。Clarawasstill,rathernervous;Mrs。Morelwasstillsomewhatonherdignity。

  Sheclippedherlanguageveryclearandprecise。Buttheyweregoing,togetonwelltogether,Paulsaw。

  Mrs。Morelmeasuredherselfagainsttheyoungerwoman,andfoundherselfeasilystronger。Clarawasdeferential。

  SheknewPaul’ssurprisingregardforhismother,andshehad,dreadedthemeeting,expectingsomeoneratherhardandcold。

  Shewassurprisedtofindthislittleinterestedwomanchattingwith,suchreadiness;andthenshefelt,asshefeltwithPaul,thatshewouldnot,caretostandinMrs。Morel’sway。Therewassomethingsohard,andcertaininhismother,asifsheneverhadamisgivinginherlife。

  PresentlyMorelcamedown,ruffledandyawning,fromhis,afternoonsleep。Hescratchedhisgrizzledhead,heplodded,inhisstockingfeet,hiswaistcoathungopenoverhisshirt。

  Heseemedincongruous。

  “ThisisMrs。Dawes,father,“saidPaul。

  ThenMorelpulledhimselftogether。ClarasawPaul’smanner,ofbowingandshakinghands。

  “Oh,indeed!”exclaimedMorel。”Iamverygladtoseeyou——Iam,Iassureyou。Butdon’tdisturbyourself。No,nomakeyourself,quitecomfortable,andbeverywelcome。”

  Clarawasastonishedatthisfloodofhospitalityfrom,theoldcollier。Hewassocourteous,sogallant!,Shethought,himmostdelightful。

  “Andmayyouhavecomefar?”heasked。

  “OnlyfromNottingham,“shesaid。

  “FromNottingham!,Thenyouhavehadabeautifulday,foryourjourney。”

  Thenhestrayedintothescullerytowashhishandsandface,andfromforceofhabitcameontothehearthwiththetowelto,dryhimself。

  AtteaClarafelttherefinementandsang-froidofthehousehold。

  Mrs。Morelwasperfectlyatherease。Thepouringouttheteaand,attendingtothepeoplewentonunconsciously,withoutinterrupting,herinhertalk。Therewasalotofroomattheovaltable;thechina,ofdarkbluewillow-patternlookedprettyontheglossycloth。

  Therewasalittlebowlofsmall,yellowchrysanthemums。

  Clarafeltshecompletedthecircle,anditwasapleasuretoher。

  Butshewasratherafraidoftheself-possessionoftheMorels,fatherandall。Shetooktheirtone;therewasafeelingofbalance。

  Itwasacool,clearatmosphere,whereeveryonewashimself,andinharmony。Claraenjoyedit,buttherewasafeardeepatthe,bottomofher。

  PaulclearedthetablewhilsthismotherandClaratalked。

  Clarawasconsciousofhisquick,vigorousbodyasitcameandwent,seemingblownquicklybyawindatitswork。Itwasalmostlike,thehitherandthitherofaleafthatcomesunexpected。Mostofherself,wentwithhim。Bythewaysheleanedforward,asiflistening,Mrs。Morelcouldseeshewaspossessedelsewhereasshetalked,andagaintheelderwomanwassorryforher。

  Havingfinished,hestrolleddownthegarden,leavingthetwo,womentotalk。Itwasahazy,sunnyafternoon,mildandsoft。

  Claraglancedthroughthewindowafterhimasheloiteredamong,thechrysanthemums。Shefeltasifsomethingalmosttangiblefastened,hertohim;yetheseemedsoeasyinhisgraceful,indolentmovement,sodetachedashetiedupthetoo-heavyflowerbranchestotheirstakes,thatshewantedtoshriekinherhelplessness。

  Mrs。Morelrose。

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