“GienIwasyou,SirGilbert,“saidDonal,whonowandthenrememberedMrs。Sclater’srequest——theyhadcomedown,andlookingattheoutsideofthehouse,hadespiedahalf-obliteratedstone-carvingoftheGalbraitharms——“GienIwasyou,SirGilbert,I
wadgarMaisterScletterkeepasherpluikootforthefirstchanceo’buyin’backthishoose。Itwadbeagreatpeetyitsudgangtowauraforeyegetit。Eh!sictalesasthishoosecudtell!”
“HowamItodothat,Donal?,Mr。Sclaterwouldnotmindme。Themoney’snotmineyet,youknow,“saidGibbie。
“Thesillerisyours,Gibbie,“answeredDonal;“it’syoursasthekingdomo’h’aven’syours;it’sonly’atyecannajistlayyerhan’supo’’tyet。TheseeneryelatthatMaisterScletterken’atyekenwhatye’reaboot,thebetter。An’believeme,whanhecomestoun’erstan’’atyewantthathoosekoft,he’llnobeadayohnganetosomebodyoranitherabootit。”
Donalwasright,forwithinamonththehousewasbought,andcertainnecessaryrepairscommenced。
SometimesonthoseeveningstheytookteawithMistressCroale,anditwasaproudtimewithherwhentheywent。Thatnightatleastthewhiskybottledidnotmakeitsappearance。
Mrs。SclatercontinuedtoinviteyoungladiestothehouseforGibbie’ssake,andwhenshegaveaparty,shetookcarethereshouldbeaproportionofyoungpeopleinit;butGibbie,althoughofcoursekindandpolitetoall,didnotmuchenjoythesegatherings。
Itbegantotroublehimalittlethatheseemedtocarelessforhiskindthanbefore;butitwasonlyaseeming,andthecauseofitwasthis:hewasnowcapableofperceivingfactsinnatureandcharacterwhichpreventedrealcontact,andmustmakeadvancestowardsitappearasoffensiveastheywereuseless。Buthedidnotlovethelessthathehadtocontenthimself,untilthekingdomshouldcomenearer,withlovingatamoreconsciousdistance;bylovingkindnessandtruthhecontinueddoingallhecouldtobringthekingdomwhoseendisunity。Hencehehadcometorestrainhismanner——nothingcouldhaveconstrainedhismanners,whichnowfromtheconventionalpointofviewwereirreproachable;butifhedidnotsooftenexecuteawilddance,orstandupononeleg,theglowinhiseyeshaddeepened,andhisresponsetoanyadvancewasasreadyandthorough,asfrankandsweetasever;hiseagernesswasreplacedbyastillnessfromwhichhiseyestookallcoldness,andhissmilewasasthesunbreakingoutinagraydayofsummer,andturningallfromdovestopeacocks。InthismattertherewasonethingworthyofnotecommontoDonalandhim,whohadhadthesamedivineteachingfromJanet:theirmannerstoallclasseswerethesame,theyshowedthesamerespecttothepoor,thesameeasewiththerich。
Imustconfess,however,thatbeforethesessionwasover,DonalfounditrequiredallhisstrengthofmindtocontinuetogotoMrs。
Sclater’slittleparties——fromkindnesssheneveraskedhimtoherlargerones;andthemoretohispraiseitwasthathedidnotrefuseoneofherinvitations。Thecausewasthis:onebrightSundaymorninginFebruary,comingoutofhisroomtogotochurch,andwalkingdownthepaththroughthefurnitureinadreamymood,hesuddenlysawapersonmeetinghimstraightintheface。“Sicaqueer-likechield!”heremarkedinwardly,steppedononesidetolethimpass——andperceiveditwashimselfreflectedfromheadtofootinalargemirror,whichhadbeenplacedwhilehewasoutthenightbefore。Thecouragewithwhichhepersisted,aftersuchapainfulenlightenment,ingoingintocompanyinthosesamegarments,wasrightadmirableandenviable;butnooneknewofituntilitsexercisewaslongover。
Thelittlepocket-moneyMr。SclaterallowedGibbie,waschieflyspentattheshopofacertainsecondhandbookseller,nearlyoppositeMistressMurkison’s。ThebookstheyboughtwerecarriedtoDonal’sroom,theretobeconsideredbyGibbieDonal’s,andbyDonalGibbie’s。AmongtherestwasareprintofMarlow’sFaust,thedaringintheonegrandpassageofwhichbothawedanddelightedthem;therewerealsosomeoftheEttrickShepherd’seeriestories,aloneintheirkind;andabovealltherewasaminiaturecopyofShelley,whoseversedidmuchforthemusicofDonal’s,whileyethecouldnotquiteappreciatethetruthfortheiridescenceofit:hesaiditseemedtohimtohavebeenallcomposedinaballoon。I
havementionedonlyworksofimagination,butitmustnotbesupposedtheyhadnotarelishforstrongerfood:thebooksmoreseverecameafterwards,whentheyhadlibertytochoosetheirownlabours;nowtheyhadplentyoftheharderworkprovidedforthem。
SomewhereaboutthistimeFergusDuffreceivedhislicensetopreach,andsethimselftoacquirewhathissoulthirstedafter——areputation,namely,foreloquence。Thiswasalltheflood-markthatremainedofthewatersofversewithwhichhehadatonetimesoplentifullyinundatedhissoul。Hewasthesameasmanhehadbeenasyouth——handsome,plausible,occupiedwithhimself,determinedtosucceed,notdeterminedtolabour。Praisewastheverynecessityofhisexistence,buthehadtheinstinctnottodisplayhisbeggarlyhunger——whichreachedeventotheapprobationofsuchtowhomheheldhimselfvastlysuperior。Heseemedgenerous,andwasniggardly,byturns;cultivatedsuavity;indulgedinfloriditybothofmannersandspeech;andsignedhisnamesoasnobodycouldreadit,thoughhishandwritingwasplainenough。
Inthespring,summer,andautumn,Donallabouredalldaywithhisbody,andintheeveningasmuchashecouldwithhismind。LoverofNatureashewas,however,morealiveindeedthanbeforetothedelightsofthecountry,andthegenialcompanionshipofterrenesightsandsounds,scentsandmotions,hecouldnothelplongingforthewinterandthecity,thathissoulmightbefreertofollowitspaths。Andyetwhataseasonsomeofthelaboursofthefieldaffordedhimforthought!,Tothestudentwhocannotthinkwithoutbooks,theeasiestofsuchlaboursareadullburden,oradistress;
butforthemaninwhomthewellshavebeenunsealed,inwhomthewatersareflowing,thelabourminglesgentlyandgeniallywiththethought,andtheploughheholdswithhishandslaysopentothesunandtheairmoresoilsthanone。Mr。Sclaterwithouthisbookswouldspeedilyhavesunkintothemereshrewdfarmer;Donal,neveropeningabook,wouldhavefollowedtheoriesandmadeversestotheendofhisdays。
EverySaturday,asbefore,hewenttoseehisfatherandmother。
Janetkeptfreshandlively,althoughagetoldonher,shesaid,morerapidlysinceGibbiewentaway。
“ButgientheLordlatauldagewithermeup,“shesaid,“he’llluikefterthecrackshimsel’。”
SixweeksofeverysummerbetweenDonal’ssessions,whiletheministerandhiswifetooktheirholiday,GibbiespentwithRobertandJanet。Itwasablessedtimeforthemall。Heledthenjustthelifeoftheformerdays,withRobertandOscarandthesheep,andJanetandhercowandtheNewTestament——onlyhehadagoodmanymorethingstothinkaboutnow,andmorewaysofthinkingaboutthem。Withhisownhandshebuiltaneatlittleporchtothecottagedoor,withclosesidesandaseconddoortokeepthewindoff:Donalandhecarriedupthetimberandthemortar。ButalthoughhetriedhardtomakeJanetsaywhathecoulddoforhermore,hecouldnotbringhertorevealanydesirethatbelongedtothisworld——except,indeed,fortwoorthreetriflesforherhusband’swarmthandconvenience。
“Thesichto’myLord’sface,“shesaidonce,whenhewaspressingher,“isa’’atIwant,SirGibbie。Forthislifeitjistblecksmetothinko’onythingIwadhaeorwadlowse。Thisboadyo’mine’sgrowin’someheavy-like,Imaunconfess,butIwadnahae’tta’enaffo’meaforethetime。Itwadbeanillthingfortheseedtobeshal’towersune。”
TheyalmostalwayscalledhimSirGibbie,andheneverobjected,orseemedeitherannoyedoramusedatit;hetookitjustasthenamethatwashis,thesamewayashishairorhishandswerehis;hehadbeencalledweeSirGibbieforsolong。
CHAPTERXLIX。
THEHOUSELESS。
TheministerkeptGibbiehardatwork,andbythetimeDonal’slastwintercame,Gibbiewasreadyforcollegealso。TopleaseMr。
Sclaterhecompetedforabursary,andgainedatolerablygoodone,butdeclinedacceptingit。Hisguardianwasannoyed,hecouldnotseewhyheshouldrefusewhathehad“earned。”,Gibbieaskedhimwhetheritwasthedesignofthefounderofthosebursariesthatrichboysshouldhavethem。WeretheynotforthelikeofDonal?
WhereuponMr。Sclatercouldnothelprememberingwhatadifferenceitwouldhavemadetohiminhisearlystruggles,ifsomerichbursarabovehimhadyieldedaplace——andheldhispeace。
Daur-streetbeingtoofarfromElphinstoneCollegeforastudenttolivethere,Mr。SclaterconsentedtoGibbie’slodgingwithDonal,butwouldhaveinsistedontheirtakingroomsinsomepartofthetown——moresuitabletotheyoungbaronet’sposition,hesaid;butastherewasanotherroomtobehadatMistressMurkison’s,Gibbieinsistedthatonewhohadshownthemsomuchkindnessmustnotbeforsaken;andbythistimeheseldomfounddifficultyinhavinghiswaywithhisguardian。Bothheandhiswifehadcometounderstandhimbetter,andnobodycouldunderstandGibbiebetterwithoutalsounderstandingbetterallthatwasgoodandtrueandright:althoughtheyhardlyknewthefactthemselves,thestandardofbothofthemhadbeenheightenedbynotafewdegreessinceGibbiecametothem;
andalthoughhesoonceasedtotakedirectnoticeofwhatintheirconductdistressedhim,Icannothelpthinkingitwasnotamissthatheutteredhimselfashedidatthefirst;knowingalittlehiswaysofthinkingtheycametofeelhisjudgmentunexpressed。ForMrs。
Sclater,whenshebethoughtherselfthatshehadsaidordonesomethinghemustcountworldly,theverysilenceofthedumbboywasareprooftoher。
Onenighttheyouthshadbeenoutforalongwalkandcamebacktothecitylate,aftertheshopswereshut。Onlyhereandtherealightglimmeredinsomelow-browedlittleplace,probablyusedinpartbythefamily。Notasoulwasvisibleinthedingyregionthroughwhichtheynowapproachedtheirlodging,whenroundacorner,movinglikeashadow,came,soft-pacing,aghostlywomaninrags,withawhite,wornface,andthelargestblackeyes,itseemedtotheyouthsthattheyhadeverseen——anapparitionofaweandgriefandwonder。Tocompareagreatthingtoasmall,shewastotheireyesasaruined,desecratedshrinetotheeyesofthesaint’sownpeculiarworshipper。ImaycomparehertowhatIplease,greatorsmall——toasapphiresetintin,toanangelwithdraggledfeathers;forfarbeyondallcomparisonisthattempleoftheholyghostinthedesert——awomaninwretchednessandrags。Shecarriedherpunybabyrolledhardinthecornerofherscrapofblackshawl。
Totheyouthsaseaoftroublelookedoutofthosewildeyes。Asshedrewnearthem,shehesitated,half-stopped,andputoutahandfromundertheshawl——stretchedoutnoarm,heldoutonlyahandfromthewrist,whiteagainstthenight。Donalhadnomoney。
Gibbiehadashilling。Thehandcloseduponit,agleamcrossedthesadface,andamurmurofthanksflutteredfromthethinlipsasshewalkedonherway。Theyouthsbreatheddeep,andfeltalittlerelieved,butonlyalittle。Thethoughtofthewomanwanderinginthedarkandthefogandthenight,wasasicknessattheirhearts。
Wasitimpossibletogathersuchunderthewingsofanynight-broodinghen?,ThatGibbiehadgonethroughsomuchofthesamekindofthinghimself,andhadfounditendurableenough,didnotmakehercaseawhitthelesspitifulinhiseyes,andindeeditwaswidely,sadlydifferentfromhis。Alongthedesertedstreet,whichlookedtoDonallikeawaterlesscanalbankedbymoundsofdeath,andlightedbyphosphorescentgrave-damps,theyfollowedherwiththeireyes,theonelivingthing,fadingawayfromlamptolamp;andwhentheycouldseehernofarther,followedherwiththeirfeet;theycouldnotbeartolosesightofher。Buttheykeptjustonthevergeofvision,fortheydidnotwanthertoknowtheespialoftheirlove。Suddenlyshedisappeared,andkeepingtheireyesonthespotaswellastheycould,theyfoundwhentheyreacheditalittleshop,witharedcurtain,halftorndown,acrosstheglassdoorofit。Adimoillampwasburningwithin。Itlookedlikearag-shop,dirtyanddreadful。Thereshestood,whileawomanwithabloatedface,lookingtoDonallikeafeederofhell-swine,tookfromsomesecretholeunderneath,abottlewhichseemedtoGibbietheveryonehisfatherusedtodrinkfrom。Hewouldhaverushedinanddasheditfromherhand,butDonalwithheldhim。
“Hoots!”hesaid,“wecannafollowhera’nicht;an’gienwedid,whatbetterwadshebei’themornin’?,Latherbe,puirthing!”
Shereceivedthewhiskyinabrokentea-cup,swallowedsomeofiteagerly,then,tothehorroroftheyouths,putsomeofitintothemouthofherchildfromherown。Drainingthelastdropsfromthecup,shesetitquietlydown,turned,andwithoutawordspoken,forshehadpaidbeforehand,cameout,herfacelookingjustaswhiteandthinasbefore,buthavinganotherexpressionintheeyesofit。
AtthesightDonal’swisdomforsookhim。
“Eh,wuman,“hecried,“yonwasnawhatyehedtheshillin’for!”
“Yesaidnaething,“answeredthepoorcreature,humbly,andwalkedon,hangingherhead,andpressingherbabytoherbosom。
Theboyslookedateachother。
“Thatwasnathegaityershillin’sudhaegane,Gibbie,“saidDonal。
“It’sclearitwinnadeetogieshillin’stosiclikeasher。Whakensbutthehungeran’thecaul’,an’thewanto’whiskymaybethewuman’sevilthingshere,’atshemay’scapethehellfireo’theRichManhereafter?”
Hestopped,forGibbiewasweeping。Thewomanandherchildhewouldhavetakentohisveryheart,andcoulddonothingforthem。
Loveseemedhelpless,formoneywasuseless。Itsethimthinkingmuch,andtheresultappeared。Fromthathourthecaseofthehomelesshauntedhisheartandbrainandimagination;andashisnaturalaffectionsfoundthemselvesrepelledandchilledinwhatiscalledSociety,theytookrefugemoreandmorewiththehouselessandhungryandshivering。Throughthem,also,henow,forthefirsttime,begantofindgraveandtroublousquestionsminglingwithhisfaithandhope;sothatalreadyhebegantoberewardedforhislove:tothetruehearteverydoubtisadoor。IwillnotfollowanddescribetheopeningofthesedoorstoGibbie,but,aswhathediscoveredfoundalwaysitsfirstutteranceinaction,waituntilI
canshowtheresult。
Forthetimetheyouthswereagainalittlerelievedaboutthewoman:followingherstill,toayetmorewretchedpartofthecity,theysawherknockatadoor,paysomething,andbeadmitted。Itlookedadreadfulrefuge,butshewasatleastundercover,andshelter,insuchaclimateasoursinwinter,mustbethefirstrudimentarynotionofsalvation。Nolongerhauntedwiththeideaofherwanderingallnightaboutthecomfortlessstreets,“likeaghostawakeinMemphis,“Donalsaid,theywenthome。Butitwaslongbeforetheygottosleep,andinthemorningtheirfirstwordswereaboutthewoman。
“Gienonlywehedmymitherhere!”saidDonal。
“Mightn’tyoutryMr。Sclater?”suggestedGibbie。
Donalansweredwithagreatroaroflaughter。
“Hewadtellhersheouchttotakshametillhersel’,“hesaid,“an’
I’mthinkin’she’slangbrunta’herstocko’thatfirin’。Hewudtellhershesudworkforherlivin’,an’maybethereisnaaeturnthepuirthingcandee’atonybodywadgieherabawbeeforadayo’!——Butwhatsayyetotakin’adviceo’MissGalbraith?”
Itwasstrangehow,withthemarkeddistinctionsbetweenthem,DonalandGibbiewouldeverynowandthen,likethedaughtersoftheVicarofWakefield,seemtochangeplacesandparts。
“Godcanmakepraise-pipesofbabesandsucklings,“answeredGibbie;
“butitdoesnotfollowthattheycangiveadvice。Don’tyourememberyourmothersayingthatthestriplingDavidwasenoughtokillabraggartgiant,butasore-triedmanwaswantedtorulethepeople?”
ItendedintheirgoingtoMistressCroale。Theydidnotlaybaretohertheirperplexities,buttheyaskedhertofindoutwhothewomanwas,andseeifanythingcouldbedoneforher。Theysaidtothemselvesshewouldknowtheconditionofsuchawoman,andwhatwouldbemovinginhermind,aftertheexperienceshehadherselfhad,betteratleastthantheministerorhislady-wife。Norweretheydisappointed。TobethustakenintocounselrevivedforMistressCroalethetimeofherdignitywhileyetsheshepherdedherlittleflockofdrunkards。Sheundertookthetaskwithheartygoodwill,andcarrieditoutwithsomesuccess。Itsreactiononherselftoherowngoodwasremarkable。Therecanbenobetterauxiliaryagainstourownsinsthantohelpourneighbourintheencounterwithhis。Merelytocontemplateourneighbourwillrecoiluponusinquiteanotherway:weshallseehisfaultssoblack,thatwewillnotconsenttobelieveourssobad,andwillimmediatelybegintoexcuse,whichisthesameastocherishthem,insteadofcastingthemfromuswithabhorrence。
Onedayearlyinthesession,astheyouthswereapproachingthegateofMissKimble’sschool,athin,care-wornman,inshabbyclothes,cameout,andwalkedalongmeetingthem。Everynowandthenhebowedhisshoulders,asifsomethinginvisiblehadleapeduponthemfrombehind,andasoftenseemedtothrowitoffandwitheffortwalkerect。Itwasthelaird。Theyliftedtheircaps,butinreturnheonlystared,orrathertriedtostare,forhiseyesseemedabletofixthemselvesonnothing。Hewasnowatlengthathoroughlyruinedman,andhadcometothecitytoendhisdaysinacottagebelongingtohisdaughter。AlreadyMr。Sclater,whowasunweariedlyonthewatchoverthematerialinterestsofhisward,had,throughhislawyer,andwithoutpermittinghisnametoappear,purchasedthewholeoftheGlashruachproperty。Forthepresent,however,hekeptSirGilbertinignoranceofthefact。
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AWALK。
ThecottagetowhichMr。GalbraithhadtakenGinevra,stoodinasuburbanstreet——oneofthosesmall,well-builtstonehousescommon,Ifancy,throughoutScotland,withthreeroomsandakitchenonitsonefloor,andalargeatticwithdormerwindows。Itwaslowandwide-roofed,andhadatinygardenbetweenitandthequietstreet。
Thisgardenwasfullofflowersinsummerandautumn,butthetopsofafewgauntstemsofhollyhocks,andthewirystragglingcreepersofthehoneysuckleabouttheeaves,wasallthatnowshowedfromthepavement。Ithadadwarfwallofgranite,withanironrailingonthetop,throughwhich,intheseason,itsgloriouscoloursusedtoattractmanyeyes,butMr。Galbraithhadhadtherailingandthegatelinedtotheveryspikeswithboards:thefirstdayofhisabodehehaddiscoveredthatthepassers-by——nottosaythosewhostoodtostareadmiringlyattheflowers,camemuchtoonearhisfadedbutnonethelessconsciousdignity。Hehadalsoputalockonthegate,andsomadeofthegardenasortofpropylontothehouse。Forhehadoflatedevelopedatendencytowardstakingtoearth,likethecreaturesthatseemtohavebeencreatedashamedofthemselves,andarealwaysburrowing。Butitwasnotthatthelatelairdwasashamedofhimselfinanypropersense。Ofthedishonestyofhisdoingshewasasyetscarcelyhalfconscious,fortheproudmanshrinksfromrepentance,regardingitasdisgrace。Towashistoacknowledgetheneedofwashing。HeavoidedtheeyesofmenforthemeanreasonthathecouldnolongerappearindignityaslairdofGlashruachandchairmanofagrandcompany;whilehefeltasifsomethingmusthavegonewrongwiththelawsofnaturethatithadbecomepossibleforThomasGalbraith,ofGlashruach,Esq。toliveinadumpycottage。HehadthoughtseriouslyofresuminghispatronymicofDurrant,butreflectedthathewastoowellknowntodonthatcloakoftransparentdarknesswithoutgivingcurrencytotheideathathehadsoiledtheotherpastlongerwearing。Itwouldbeimagined,hesaid,pickingoutonedishonestyofwhichhehadnotbeenguilty,thathehadsettledmoneyonhiswife,andretiredtoenjoyit。
Hisconditionwasfarmorepitifulthanhissituation。Havingnofacultyformentaloccupationexceptwithaffairs,findingnothingtodobutcleave,likeaspentsailor,withhandsandfeettotheslipperyrockofwhatwasoncehisrectitude,suchasitwas,tryingtoholditstillhisown,hewouldsitforhourswithoutmoving——aperfectcreature,temple,god,andworshipper,allinone——onlythattheworshipperwashardlycontentwithhisgod,andthatawormwasgnawingonatthefoundationofthetemple。Nearlyasmotionless,herhandsexcepted,wouldGinevrasitoppositetohim,notquieterbutmorepeacefulthanwhenagirl,partlybecausenowshewaslessafraidofhim。Hecalledher,inhisthoughtsashesatthere,heartlessandcold,butnotonlywasshenotso,butitwashisfaultthatsheappearedtohimsuch。Inhismoralstupidityhewouldratherhaveseenhermanifestconcernatthepovertytowhichhehadreducedher,thanshowthestillnessofacontentedmind。
Shewasnotmuchgiventobooks,butwhatshereadwasworthreading,andsuchasturnedintothoughtwhileshesat。Theyarenotthebeststudentswhoaremostdependentonbooks。Whatcanbegotoutofthemisatbestonlymaterial:amanmustbuildhishouseforhimself。Shewouldhavereadmore,butwithherfatherbesideherdoingnothing,shefeltthattotakeabookwouldbelikegoingintoawarmhouse,andleavinghimoutinthecold。Itwasverysadtohertoseehimthusshrunkandwithered,andlostinthoughtthatplainlywasnotthinking。Nothinginterestedhim;heneverlookedatthepapers,nevercaredtohearawordofnews。Hiseyesmoreunsteady,hislipslooser,hisneckthinnerandlonger,helookedmorethaneverlikeapuppetwhosestringshungslack。HowoftenwouldGinevrahavecastherselfonhisbosomifshecouldhaveevenhopedhewouldnotrepelher!,Nowandthenhiseyesdidwandertoherinadazedsortofanimal-likeappeal,butthemomentsheattemptedresponse,heturnedintoacorpse。Still,whenitcame,thatlookwasacomfort,foritseemedtowitnesssomebondbetweenthemafterall。Andanothercomfortwas,thatnow,inhismisery,shewasable,ifnottoforgetthosepainfulthoughtsabouthimwhichhadalltheseyearshauntedher,atleasttodismissthemwhentheycame,inthehopethat,asalreadysuchachangehadpasseduponhim,furtherandbetterchangemightfollow。
Shewasstillthesamebrownbirdasofold——abirdofthetwilight,orratheratwilightitself,withawholenightofstarsbehindit,ofwhoseexistenceshescarcelyknew,havingbutjuststartedonthevoyageofdiscoverywhichlifeis。Shehadthesweetest,rarestsmile——notfrequentandflashinglikeGibbie’s,butstealingupfrombelow,liketheshadowyreflectionofagreaterlight,gentlydeepening,permeatinghercountenanceuntilitreachedhereyes,thenceissuinginsoftflame。Alwayshowever,ansoonashereyesbegantoglowduskily,downwenttheirlids,anddowndroptherheadlikethefrondofasensitiveplant,Heratmospherewasanembodiedstillness;shemadeaquietwhereversheentered;shewasnotbeautiful,butshewaslovely;andherpresenceatoncemadeaplacesuchasonewoulddesiretobein。
Themostpleasantofherthoughtswereofnecessitythosewithwhichthetwoyouthswereassociated。Howdrearybutforthemandtheirswouldtheretrospectofherlifehavebeen!,Severaltimeseverywintertheyhadmetattheminister’s,andeverysummershehadagainandagainseenGibbiewithMrs。Sclater,andonceortwicehadhadawalkwiththem,andeverytimeGibbiehadsomethingofDonal’stogiveher。TwiceGibbiehadgonetoseeherattheschool,butthesecondtimesheaskedhimnottocomeagain,asMissKimbledidnotlikeit。Hegaveabigstareofwonder,andthoughtofAngusandthelaird;butfollowedthestarewithaswiftsmile,forhesawshewastroubled,andaskednoquestion,butwaitedfortheunderstandingofallthingsthatmustcome。Butnow,whenorwherewassheevertoseethemmore?,Gibbiewasnolongerattheminister’s,andperhapsshewouldneverbeinvitedtomeetthemthereagain。ShedarednotaskDonaltocall:herfatherwouldbeindignant;andforherfather’ssakeshewouldnotaskGibbie;itmightgivehimpain;whilethethoughtthathewouldofacertaintybehavesodifferentlytohimnowthathewaswell-dressed,andmanneredlikeagentleman,wasalmostmoreunendurabletoherthanthememoryofhispasttreatmentofhim。
Mr。andMrs。Sclaterhadcalleduponthemthemomenttheyweresettledinthecottage;butMr。Galbraithwouldseenobody。Whenthegate-bellrang,healwayslookedout,andifavisitorappeared,withdrewtohisbedroom。
OnebrilliantSaturdaymorning,thesecondinthesession,thegroundhardwithanearlyfrost,thefilmyicemakingfairycavernsandgrottosinthecart-ruts,andtheairsocondensedwithcoldthateverybreath,tothosewhoateandsleptwell,hadthelifeoftwo,Mrs。Sclaterrangthesaidbell。Mr。Galbraithpeepingfromthewindow,sawalady’sbonnet,andwent。Shewalkedin,followedbyGibbie,andwouldhaveGinevragowiththemforalongwalk。
Pleasedenoughwiththeproposal,fortheoutsidesoflifehadbeendullaswellaspainfuloflate,shewentandaskedherfather。IfshedidnottellhimthatSirGilbertwaswithMrs。Sclater,perhapssheoughttohavetoldhim;butIamnotsure,andthereforeamnotgoingtoblameher。Whenparentsarenotfathersandmothers,butsomethingthathasnonameinthekingdomofheaven,theyplacethepurestandmosthonestofdaughtersinthemidstofperplexities。
“Whydoyouaskme?”returnedherfather。“Mywishesarenothingtoanyonenow;toyoutheyneverwereanything。”
“Iwillstayathome,ifyouwishit,papa,——withpleasure,“shereplied,ascheerfullyasshecouldaftersuchareproach。
“Bynomeans。Ifyoudo,IshallgoanddineattheRedHart,“heanswered——nothavingmoneyenoughinhispossessiontopayforadinnerthere。
Ifancyhemeanttobekind,but,likenotafew,alas!tooknopainstolookaskindashewas。Therearemany,however,whoseemtodelightinplantingastingwhereconscienceorheartwillnotletthemdeny。Itmadehermiserableforawhileofcourse,butshehadgotsousedtohiswayofbreakingagiftashehandedit,thatsheansweredonlywithasigh。Whenshewasachild,hisungraciousnesshadpowertodarkenthesunlight,butbyrepetitionithadlostforce。Inhastesheputonherlittlebrown-ribbonedbonnet,tookthemoth-eatenmuffthathadbeenhermother’s,andrejoinedMrs。SclaterandGibbie,beamingwithtroubledpleasure。
Lifeinherwasstrong,andtheirsocietysoonenabledhertoforget,notherfather’ssadness,buthistreatmentofher。
Attheendofthestreet,theyfoundDonalwaitingthem——withoutgreatcoatormuffler,thepictureofsuchhealthassufficestoitsownwarmth,notamarkofthemidnightstudentabouthim,andlookingverydifferent,intown-madeclothes,fromtheDonalofthemirror。HeapproachedandsalutedherwithsuchanairofhomelygraceasonemightimaginethatoftheRedCrossKnight,when,havingjustputonthearmourofaChristianman,fromaclownishfellowhestraightwayappearedthegoodliestknightinthecompany。
Awaytheywalkedtogetherwestward,thenturnedsouthward。Mrs。
SclaterandGibbieled,andGinevrafollowedwithDonal。Andtheyhadnotwalkedfar,beforesomethingofthedelightofoldtimesonGlashruachbegantoreviveinthebosomofthetoosobergirl。Invainsheremindedherselfthatherfathersatmiserableathome,thinkingofherprobablyasthemostheartlessofgirls;thesun,andthebrightairlikewineinherveins,weretoomuchforher,Donalhadsoonmadehercheerful,andnowandthensheansweredhistalkwithevenalittleflashofmerriment。Theycrossedthebridge,high-hungovertheDaur,bywhichonthatblackmorningGibbiefled;andhereforthefirsttime,withhisthreefriendsabouthim,hetoldonhisfingersthediredeedofthenight,andheardfromMrs。Sclaterthatthemurderershadbeenhanged。Ginevragrewwhiteandfaintasshereadhisfingersandgestures,butitwasmoreatthethoughtofwhatthechildhadcomethrough,thanfromthehorrorofhisnarrative。Theythenturnedeastwardtothesea,andcametothetopoftherock-borderofthecoast,withitscliffsrentintogullies,eerieplacestolookdowninto,endingincavernsintowhichthewavesrushedwithbellowandboom。Althoughsonighthecity,thiswasalwaysasolitaryplace,yet,roundingarock,theycameuponayoungman,whohurriedabookintohispocket,andwouldhavegonebytheotherside,butperceivinghimselfrecognized,cametomeetthem,andsalutedMrs。Sclater,whopresentedhimtoGinevraastheRev。Mr。Duff。
“Ihavenothadthepleasureofseeingyousinceyouwerequitealittlegirl,MissGalbraith,“saidFergus。
Ginevrasaidcoldlyshedidnotrememberhim。Theyouthsgreetedhimincarelessstudentfashion:theyhadmetnowandthenforamomentaboutthecollege;andalittlemeaninglesstalkfollowed。
Hewastopreachthenextday——andforseveralSundaysfollowing——atacertainlargechurchinthecity,atthetimewithoutaminister;
andwhentheycameuponhimhewasstudyinghissermon——Idonotmeanthetruthsheintendedtopressuponhisaudience——thosehehadmasteredlongago——buthismanuscript,studyingitinthesenseinwhichactorsusetheword,learningit,thatis,byheartlaboriously,thatthewordsmightcomefromhislipsasmuchlikeanextemporaneousutteranceaspossible,consistentlywithnotbeingmistakenforone,which,wereittrueastheBible,wouldhavenomeritintheearsofthosewhocountedthemselvesjudgesofthecraft。ThekindofthingsuitedFergus,whosehighestideaoflifewasseeming。Naturallycapable,hehadalreadymadeofhimselfratheradullfellow;forwhenamanspendshisenergyonappearingtohave,heisallthetimedestroyingwhathehas,andthereintheverymeansofbecomingwhathedesirestoseem。Ifhegainshisendhissuccessishispunishment。
Fergusneverforgotthathewasaclergyman,alwayscarryinghimselfaccordingtohisideaofthecalling;thereforewhentheinterchangeofcommonplacesflagged,hebegantolookabouthimforsomeremarksufficientlytingedwithhisprofessiontobesuitableforhimtomake,andfortheladiestohearashis。Thewindwasathoroughlywintryonefromthenorth-east,andhadbeenblowingallnight,sothatthewaveswereshoulderingtherockswithhugeassault。NowFergus’ssermon,whichhemeanttouseasaspadeforthecastingofthefirstturfofthefirstparallelinthesiegeofthepulpitoftheNorthparish,wasuponthevanityofhumanambition,histextbeingthegrandverse——AndsoIsawthewickedburied,whohadcomeandgonefromtheplaceoftheholy;therewasnosmallamountoffinewritinginthemanuscripthehadthrustintohispocket;andhissermonwasinhisheadwhenheremarked,withthewaftureofaneatly-glovedhandseawards——
“Iwaswatchingthesewaveswhenyoufoundme:theyseemtomesuchapictureofthevanityofhumanendeavour!,Butjustaslittleasthosewaveswouldmindme,ifItoldthemtheywerewastingtheirlabourontheserocks,willmenmindme,whenItellthemto-morrowoftheemptinessoftheirambitions。”
“Apresentenstanceo’thevainityo’humanendeevour!”saidDonal。
“Whatforsudye,inthatcase,gangonpreachin’,saesettin’themanillexemple?”
Duffgavehimahigh-liddedglance,vouchsafingnoreply。
“Justasthosewaves,“hecontinued,“wastethemselvesineffort,asoftenfoiledasrenewed,toteardowntheserocks,sodothemenofthisworldgoonandon,spendingtheirstrengthfornought。”
“Hoots,Fergus!”saidDonalagain,inbroadestspeech,asifwithitsbrayhewouldrebukenotthemadnessbutthesillinessoftheprophet,“yedinnameantotellmeyonjawsbillowsdisnakentheirbusinessbetternorimaiginetheyhaetocawdoontherocks?”
Duffcastasecondglanceofscornatwhathetookfortheprosaicstupidityorpoverty-strickenlogomachyofDonal,whileGinevraopenedonhimbigbrowneyes,asmuchastosay,“Donal,whowasitsetmedownforsayingamancouldn’tbeaburn?”ButGibbie’sfacewasexpectant:heknewDonal。Mrs。Sclateralsolookedinterested:
shedidnotmuchlikeDuff,andbythistimeshesuspectedDonalofgenius。DonalturnedtoGinevrawithasmile,andsaid,inthebestEnglishhecouldcommand——
“Bearwithmeamoment,MissGalbraith。IfMr。Duffwillobligemebyansweringmyquestion,ItrustIshallsatisfyyouIamnoturncoat。”
Fergusstared。Whatdidhisfather’sherd-boymeanbytalkingsuchEnglishtotheladies,andsuchvulgarScotchtohim?,Althoughnowamagistrand——thatis,oneabouttotakehisdegreeofMasterofArts——DonalwasstilltoFergusthecleaner-outofhisfather’sbyres——anupstart,whoseformerpositionwashisrealone——towardshimatleast,whoknewhim。Anddidthefellowchallengehimtoadiscussion?,Ordidhepresumeonthefamiliarityoftheirboyhood,andwishtosporthisacquaintancewiththepopularpreacher?,Oneithersupposition,hewasimpertinent。
“Ispokepoetically,“hesaid,withcolddignity。
“Ye’llexcuseme,Fergus,“repliedDonal,“——forthesakeo’auldlangsyne,whanIwas,asIeverwillbe,sairobligatittillye——buti’thatyesaynoo,ye’resairwrang:yewasnaspeykin’poetically,thoughIkenweelyethinkit,oryewadnasay’t;an’that’swhatgarredmetakyeup。Fortheverraessenceo’poetryistrowth,an’
assune’saword’snotrue,it’snopoetry,thoughitmayhaeonthecastclaeso’’t。It’snanebutthem’atkensnawhatpoetryis,’atblethersabootpoeticlicense,an’thatkin’o’hen-scraich,asgienapoetwassicagowk’atnaebodyeedithoohelee’d,orwhetherhegaedwi’’scwitecoathin’sideaforeorno。”
“Iamatalosstounderstandyou——Donal?——yes,DonalGrant。I
rememberyouverywell;andfromthetroubleIusedtotakewithyoutomakeyoudistinguishbetweentheworkofthepoetandthatoftherhymester,Ishouldhavethoughtbythistimeyouwouldhaveknownalittlemoreaboutthenatureofpoetry。Personificationisafigureofspeechinconstantusebyallpoets。”
“Oway!butthere’strueandthere’sfausepersonification;an’it’snoilkapoet’atkensthediffer。Ow,Iken!ye’llbedoonupo’mewi’yerByron,“——Fergusshookhisheadasatafalseimpeachment,butDonalwenton——“butevenapoetcannamakleespoetry。An’aman’atinaneo’hisgran’estversescudhaiverabootthebirtho’
ayoongairthquack!——losh!tothinko’’tgrowin’anauldairthquack!——haith,tomeit’snouptilladeuk-quack!——sicapoetmichtweel,Igrantye,beheeversicaguidpoetwhanhetuikheedtowhathesaid,hemichtweel,Isay,blethernonsenseaboottheseawarrin’again’therocks,an’sicstuff。”
“Butdon’tyouseethem?”saidFergus,pointingtoagreatbillowthatfellbackatthemoment,andlaychurninginthegulfbeneaththem。“Aretheynotinfactwastingtherocksawaybyslowdegrees?”
“Whatcomeso’yerseemilethan,anentthevainityo’theirendeevour?,Butthat’snowhatI’mcarin’aboot。WhatImainteenis,’atthoughtheydivweirawa’therocks,that’snaemairtheirdesignnorit’sthedesigno’ayewkyowsetokillthetreewhanherubshit’sskinan’hisainaffthegither。”
“Tut!nobodyevermeans,whenhepersonifiesthepowersofnature,thattheyknowwhattheyareabout。”
“Themairnecessar’tillattreebutetillthemnaethingbuttheirraledesign。”
“Iftheydon’tknowwhattheyareabout,howcanyouhesofoolishastalkoftheirdesign?”
“Ilkathinghasadesign,——an’gienitdinnaken’titsel’,that’sjistwhauryertruean’lawfu’personificationcomesin。There’snorizon’atapoetsudnaattreebutetillathingasaconsciousdesignthatwhichliesattheverrahearto’’tsbein’,thedesignforwhichit’sthere。Thatan’noithersuddeterminethepersonificationyegieathing——forthat’sthetrowtho’thething。
Eh,man,Fergus!thejawsisfechtin’wi’naerocks。They’rejistattheirpairtinagran’cleansin’hermony。They’reattheirhoosemaid’swark,dayan’nicht,tohaudthewarl’clean,an’gran’
an’bonnietheysingatit。GienIwasyou,Iwadnatellfowkanysicnonsenseasyon;Iwadtellthem’atilkane’atdisnadeehiswarki’thewarl’,an’dee’ttherichtgait,’snothewortho’aminnin,notosayawhaul,forilkaneo’thaeweecratursdisthewullo’him’atmade’imwi’ilkawhisko’hisbittailie,fa’in’inwi’a’thejabbleo’thejawsagain’therocks,forit’sa’aething——an’a’tohaudthemuckleseaclean。An’saewhanIliei’
mybed,an’a’atancetherecomesaweesoughieo’win’i’myface,an’Iluikupan’seeitwasnaethingbutthewingso’aflittin’
flee,Ithinkwi’mysel’hooa’thecursesarebutblessin’s’atyedinnaseeintill,an’hooilkamidge,an’flee,an’muckledronin’
thing’atgangsabootsingin’bass,notomentionthedoosan’themairtinsan’thecrawsan’thekitesan’theooletsan’themuckleaiglesan’thebutterflees,isa’jisthaudin’theairgauin’’atilkadefilin’thingmaybeweelturntower,an’bruntclean。That’sthebestIgotooto’mycheemistrylastsession。An’fainwadI
haudairan’watterinmotionabootme,an’saeservemyen’——whetherbywaggin’wi’mywingsorwhiskin’wi’mytail。Eh!
it’sjistwon’erfu’。Itsa’aegran’consortitconfusiono’hermonyan’order;an’whatmakstheconfusionisonlyjist’ata’thing’sworkin’an’naethingsitsidle。Butawa!wi’thenonsenseo’aethingworryin’an’fechtin’atanither!——notillyecometobeastsan’fowk,an’syneyehaeeneucho’’t。”
AllthetimeFergushadbeenpokingthepointofhisstickintotheground,asmileofsuperioritycurlinghislip。
“Ihope,ladies,ourwitsarenotquitesweptawayinthisfloodofDoric,“hesaid。
“Youhaveapooropinionofthestabilityofourbrains,Mr。Duff,“
saidMrs。Sclater。
“Iwasonlyjudgingbymyself,“hereplied,alittleputout。“I
can’tsayIunderstoodourfriendhere。Didyou?”
“Perfectly,“answeredMrs。Sclater。
Atthatmomentcameathunderouswavewithagreatbowffintothehollowattheendofthegullyonwhoseedgetheystood。
“There’syourhousemaid’sbroom,Donal!”saidGinevra。
Theyalllaughed。
“Everythingdependsonhowyoulookatathing,“saidFergus,andsaidnomore——inwardlyresolving,however,toomitfromhissermonacertainsentenceabouttheidlewavesdashingthemselvestoruinontherockstheywoulddestroy,andtoworkinsomethinginsteadaboutthewindsofthewintertossingthesnow。Apausefollowed。
“Well,thisisSaturday,andtomorrowismywork-day,youknow,ladies,“hesaid。“Ifyouwouldobligemewithyouraddress,MissGalbraith,IshoulddomyselfthehonourofcallingonMr。
Galbraith。”
Ginevratoldhimwheretheylived,butaddedshewasafraidhemustnotexpecttoseeherfather,forhehadbeenoutofhealthlately,andwouldseenobody。
“AtalleventsIshallgivemyselfthechance,“herejoined,andbiddingtheladiesgood-bye,andnoddingtotheyouths,turnedandwalkedaway。
Forsometimetherewassilence。AtlengthDonalspoke。
“PoorFergus!”hesaidwithalittlesigh。“He’sagood-naturedcreature,andwasagreathelptome;butwhenIthinkofhimapreacher,IseemtoseeanEgyptianprieststandingonthethresholdofthegreatdooratIpsambul,blowingwithallhismighttokeepouttheLibyandesert;andthefourgreatstonegods,sittingbehindthealtar,farbackinthegloom,laughingathim。”
ThenGinevraaskedhimsomethingwhichledtoagooddealoftalkaboutthetrueandfalseinpoetry,andmadeMrs。Sclaterfeelitwasnotfornothingshehadbefriendedtheladfromthehillsinthestrangegarments。Andshebegantothinkwhetherherhusbandmightnotbebroughttotakeahigherviewofhiscalling。
OnMondayFerguswenttopayhisvisittoMr。Galbraith。AsGinevrahadsaid,herfatherdidnotappear,butFerguswasfarfromdisappointed。HehadtakenitintohisheadthatMissGalbraithsidedwithhimwhenthatill-bredfellowmadehisrude,nottosayungrateful,attackuponhim,andwasmuchpleasedtohaveatalkwithher。Ginevra,thoughtitwouldnotberighttocherishagainsthimthememoryoftheonesinofhisyouthinhereyes,butshecouldnotlikehim。Shedidnotknowwhy,butthetruthwas,shefelt,withoutbeingabletoidentify,hisunreality:shethoughtitwasbecause,bothinmannersandindress,sofarasthecustomofhiscallingwouldpermit,hewasthatunpleasantphenomenon,afinegentleman。Shehadneverheardhimpreach,orshewouldhavelikedhimstillless;forhewasanoratorwilfulandprepense,choiceoflongwords,fondofclimaxes,andalwaysawareofthepointsatwhichhemustwavehisarm,throwforwardhishands,wipehiseyeswiththefinestoflargecambrichandkerchiefs。Asitwas,shewasheartilytiredofhimbeforehewent,andwhenhewasgone,found,asshesatwithherfather,thatshecouldnotrecallawordhehadsaid。Astowhathadmadethefellowstaysolong,shewasthereforepositivelyunabletogiveherfatherananswer;theconsequenceofwhichwas,that,thenexttimehecalled,Mr。
Galbraith,muchtoherrelief,stoodthebruntofhisapproach,andreceivedhim。Theicethusbroken,hisingratiatingmanners,andthefull-blownrespectheshowedMr。Galbraith,enablingtheweakmantofeelhimself,asofold,everyinchalaird,sowonuponhimthat,whenhetookhisleave,hegavehimacordialinvitationtorepeathisvisit。
Hedidso,intheeveningthistime,andrememberingapredilectionofthelaird’s,beggedforagameofbackgammon。Theresultofhispolicywas,that,ofmanyweeksthatfollowed,everyMondayeveningatleasthespentwiththelaird。Ginevrawassogratefultohimforhisattentiontoherfather,andhiseffortstodrawhimoutofhisgloom,thatshecamegraduallytoletalittlelightoffavourshineuponhim。AndiftheheartofFergusDuffwasdrawntoher,thatisnottobecountedtohimafault——neitherthat,hisheartthusdrawn,heshouldwishtomarryher。HadshebeenstillheiressofGlashruach,hedarednothavedreamedofsuchathing,but,notingthehumbleconditiontowhichtheywerereduced,thegrowingfamiliarityofthefather,andthefriendlinessofthedaughter,hegrewveryhopeful,andmoreanxiousthanevertosecurethepresentationtotheNorthchurch,whichwasinthegiftofthecity。
Hecouldeasilyhavegotarichwife,buthewasmoregreedyofdistinctionthanofmoney,andtomarrythedaughterofthemantowhomhehadbeenaccustomedinchildhoodtolookupasthegreatestintheknownworld,wasinhiseyeslikeapatentofnobility,wouldbearatificationofhisfitnesstominglewiththechoiceoftheland。
CHATTERLI。
THENORTHCHURCH。
ItwasacoldnightinMarch,cloudyandblowing。Everyhumanbodywasturnedintoafortressforbaredefenceoflife。Therewasnosnowontheground,butitseemedasiftheremustbesnoweverywhereelse。Therewassnowinthecloudsoverhead,andtherewassnowinthemindofmanbeneath。Theveryairfeltlikethequarryoutofwhichthesnowhadbeendugwhichwasbeinggroundabove。Thewindfeltblack,theskywasblack,andthelampswereblowingaboutasiftheywantedtoescapeforthedarknesswasafterthem。ItwastheSundayfollowingtheinductionofFergus,andthiswasthemeteoricconditionthroughwhichDonalandGibbiepassedontheirwaytotheNorthchurch,tohearhimpreachinthepulpitthatwasnowhisown。
Thepeoplehadbeengatheringsincelongbeforethehour,andtheyouthscouldfindonlystandingroomnearthedoor。Coldaswastheweather,andkeenasblewthewindintothechurcheverytimeadoorwasopened,theinstantitwasshutagainitwaswarm,fortheplacewascrowdedfromtheveryheightofthegreatsteep-slopinggalleries,atthebackofwhichthepeoplewerestandingonthewindowsills,downtothedoubleswing-doors,whichwereconstantlycrackingopenasifthehousewasliterallytoofulltoholdthecongregation。Theaislesalsowerecrowdedwithpeoplestanding,alleageryetsolemn,withgranitefacesandliveeyes。Onewhodidnotknowbettermightwellhaveimaginedthemgatheredinhungeraftergoodtidingsfromthekingdomoftruthandhope,wherebytheymighthastenthecomingofthatkingdomintheirsoulsandthesoulstheyloved。Butitwashardlythat;itwasindeedalongwayfromit,andnosuchthing:theeagernesswas,inthemass,doubtlesswithexceptions,tohearthenewpreacher,thepyrotechnistofhumanlogicandeloquence,whowasabouttoburnhishalfpennybluelightsovertheabyssoftruth,andthrowhisyelpingcrackersintoit。
Theeyesoftheyoungmenwentwanderingoverthecrowd,lookingforanyoftheirfewacquaintances,butbelowtheymostlyfellofcourseonthebacksofheads。Therewas,however,nomistakingeitherGinevra’sbonnetortheocciputperchedlikeacapitalonthelongneckofherfather。Theysatagoodwayinfront,aboutthemiddleofthegreatchurch。AtthesightofthemGibbie’sfacebrightened,Donal’sturnedpaleasdeath。For,onlythelastweekbutone,hehadheardofthefrequentvisitsoftheyoungpreachertothecottage,andofthefavourinwhichhewasheldbybothfatheranddaughter;andhisstateofmindsince,hadnot,withallhisphilosophytorectifyandsupportit,beenanenviableone。Thathecouldnotforamomentregardhimselfasafithusbandforthelady-lass,ordreamofexposinghimselforhertotheinsultwhichtheofferofhimselfasason-in-lawwouldbringonthembothfromthelaird,wasnotareflectiontorenderthethoughtofsuchabagofwindasFergusDuffmarryingher,onewhitthelesshorriblyunendurable。Hadthelairdbeeninthesamesocialpositionasbefore,DonalwouldhavehadnofearofhisacceptingFergus;butmisfortunealtersmanyrelations。Fergus’sfatherwasamanofconsiderableproperty,Fergushimselfalmostamanofinfluence,andalreadyinpossessionofacomfortableincome:itwaspossibletoimaginethattheimpoverishedThomasGalbraith,lateofGlashruach,Esq。mightcontrivetoswallowwhatannoyancetherecouldnotbutinanycasebeinweddinghisdaughtertothesonofJohnDuff,latehisowntenantoftheMains。AltogetherDonal’sthoughtswerenotofthekindtoputhiminfitmood——IdonotsaytogatherbenefitfromtheprophesyingofFergus,buttogivefairplaytothepeddlerwhonowrosetodisplayhisloadedcalicoandbeggarlyshoddyoverthebook-boardofthepulpit。Butthecongregationlistenedrapt。
Idarenotsaytherewasnodivinerealityconcernedinhisutterance,forGibbiesawmanyaglimmerthroughtherentsinhislogic,andthethin-wornpatchesofhisphilosophy;butitwasnotsuchglimmersthatfetteredtheregardsoftheaudience,butthenoisyflowandfalseeloquenceofthepreacher。Inproportiontothefalsehoodinusareweexposedtothefalsehoodinothers。Thefalseplaysuponthefalsewithoutdiscord;comestothefalse,andiswelcomedasthetrue;thereisnojar,forthefalsetothefalselookthetrue;darknesstakesdarknessforlight,andgreatisthedarkness。Iwillnotattemptanaccountofthesermon;evenadmirablyrendered,itwouldbeworthlessasthebestofcopiesofabadwall-paper。Therewasinit,tobesure,suchaglowingdescriptionofthecityofGodasmighthaveservedtoattractthitherallthediamond-merchantsofAmsterdam;butwhyaChristianshouldcaretogotosuchaplace,lethimtellwhoknows;while,ontheotherhand,theaudienceappearedequallyinterestedinhisequiponderatingdescriptionoftheplaceofmisery。Notonce{didheeven}attempttogive,orindeedcouldhavegiven,thefeeblestidea,toasinglesoulpresent,oftheoneterroroftheuniverse——theperilofbeingcastfromthearmsofessentialLoveandLifeintothebosomoflivingDeath。Forthisteacherofmenknewnothingwhateverbutbyhearsay,hadnotinhimselfexperiencedoneofthejoysoroneofthehorrorsheendeavouredtoembody。
Gibbiewasnotathomelisteningtosuchasermon;hewasdistressed,andsaidafterwardstoDonalhewouldfarratherbesubjectedtoMr。Sclater’sismsthanFergus’sations。ItcausedhimpaintootoseeDonallooksoscornful,socontemptuouseven;whileitaddedtoDonal’sunrest,andswelledhisevilmood,toseeMr。
Galbraithabsorbed。ForGinevra’sbonnet,itdidnotoncemove——butthenitwasnotsetatanangletoindicateeithereyesupturnedinlistening,orcastdowninemotion。Donalwouldhavesacrificednotafewsongs,theonlywealthhepossessed,foronepeeproundthecornerofthatbonnet。Hehadbecomepainfullyaware,that,muchashehadseenofGinevra,heknewscarcelyanythingofherthoughts;
hehadalwaystalkedsomuchmoretoherthanshetohim,thatnow,whenhelongedtoknow,hecouldnotevenguesswhatshemightbethinking,orwhateffectsuch“anarrangement“ofredandyellowwouldhaveuponherimaginationandjudgment。Shecouldnotthinkorreceivewhatwasnottrue,hefeltsure,butshemighteasilyenoughattributetruthwhereitdidnotexist。
Atlengththerockets,Romancandles,andsquibswereallburntout,thewould-be“eternalblazon“wasover,andthepreachersunkbackexhaustedinhisseat。Thepeoplesang;aprayer,fitpendenttosuchasermon,followed,andthecongregationwasdismissed——itcouldnotbewithmuchadditionalstrengthtomeetthesorrows,temptations,sophisms,commonplaces,disappointments,dulnesses,stupidities,andgeneraldevilriesoftheweek,althoughnotafewpaidthepreacherwelcomecomplimentsonhis“gran’discoorse。”
Theyoungmenwereoutamongthefirst,andgoingroundtoanotherdoor,inthechurch-yard,bywhichtheyjudgedGinevraandherfathermustissue,therestoodwaiting。Thenightwasutterlychanged。Thewindhadgoneabout,andthevapourswerehighinheaven,brokenallintocloud-massesofsombregrandeur。Nowfrombehind,nowupontheirsides,theyweremadegloriousbythefullmoon,whilethroughtheirrentsappearedtheskyandtheevermarvellousstars。Gibbie’seyeswentclimbingupthespirethatshotskywardovertheirheads。Arounditspointthecloudsandthemoonseemedtogather,groupingthemselvesingrandcarelessness;
andhethoughtoftheSonofMancominginthecloudsofheaven;tousmereheapsofwateryvapour,everreadytofall,drowningtheearthinrain,orburyingitinsnow,toangel-feettheymightbesolidmasseswhereontotreadattendantuponhim,who,althoughwithhiswordheruledwindsandseas,lovedtobewaitedonbythemultitudeofhisown!,Hewasyetgazing,forgetfulofthehumantideabouthim,watchingtheglorydominantoverstorm,whenhiscompanionpinchedhisarm:helooked,andwasawarethatFergus,muffledtotheeyes,wasstandingbesidethem。Heseemednottoseethem,andtheywerenowiseinclinedtoattracthisattention,butgazedmotionlessonthechurchdoor,anunsealedfountainofsouls。
Whatacuriousthingitistowatchanissuingcrowdoffacesforonelovedone——allsounattractive,provoking,blamable,astheycomerollingroundcorners,dividing,andflowingaway——notoneofthemtherightone!,Butatlastoutshedidcome——Ginevra,likeadaisyamongmowngrass!,Itwasreallyshe!——butwithherfather。
ShesawDonal,glancedfromhimtoGibbie,castdownhersweeteyes,andmadenosign。Fergushadalreadyadvancedandaddressedthelaird。
“Ah,Mr。Duff!”saidMr。Galbraith;“excuseme,butwouldyouobligemebygivingyourarmtomydaughter?,Iseeafriendwaitingtospeaktome。Ishallovertakeyouinamoment。”
Fergusmurmuredhispleasure,andGinevraandhemovedawaytogether。Theyouthsforamomentwatchedthefather。Hedawdled——evidentlywantedtospeaktonoone。Theythenfollowedthetwo,walkingsomeyardsbehindthem。EveryothermomentFerguswouldbendhisheadtowardsGinevra;onceortwicetheysawthelittlebonnetturnupwardsinresponseorquestion。PoorDonalwasburningwithlawlessandfoolishindignation:whyshouldtheministermufflehimselfuplikeanoldwomaninthecrowd,andtakeoffthegreathandkerchiefwhentalkingwiththelady?,Whentheyouthsreachedthestreetwherethecottagestood,theyturnedthecornerafterthem,andwalkedquicklyuptothemwheretheystoodatthegatewaitingforittobeopened。
“Sicagran’nicht!”saidDonal,aftertheusualgreetings。“SirGibbiean’me’shaein’adaunerwi’themune。Yewadthinkshehadlichteneuchtohaudthecloodsaffo’her,wadyeno,mem?,Butna!
they’llbeuponher,an’I’mfeartthere’saeuncoblackaneyon’er——dinnayesee’t——wi’astraiko’white,abootthethrappleo’’t?——There——dinnayesee’t?”hewentonpointingtothecloudsaboutthemoon,“——thatane,I’mdoobtin’,’illhaethebettero’
herorlang——takherintill’tsairms,an’braya’thelichtooto’
her。Guidnicht,mem——Guidnicht,Fergus。Youministerssudnamakyerselssaelikecloods。Yesudbecledinwhitean’gowd,an’a’
colourso’stanes,likethenewJerooslemyetellsictalesaboot,an’synenaebodywadmistakthenewsyebring。”
TherewithDonalwalkedon,doubtlessforthemomentalittlerelieved。Butbeforetheyhadwalkedfar,hebrokedownaltogether。
“Gibbie,“hesaid,“yonrascal’sgauin’tomerrytheleddy-lass!an’
itdrivesmemadtothinkit。GienIcudbutanceseean’speyktillher——ance——jistance!,Lord!what’llcomeo’a’thegowansupo’theMains,an’theheatherupo’Glashgar!”
Heburstoutcrying,butinstantlydashedawayhistearswithindignationathisweakness。
“Imaundreemyweird,“undergomydoom,hesaid,andsaidnomore。
Gibbie’sfacehadgrownwhiteinthemoon-gleams,andhislipstrembled。HeputhisarmthroughDonal’sandclungtohim,andinsilencetheywenthome。WhentheyreachedDonal’sroom,DonalenteringshutthedoorbehindhimandshutoutGibbie。Hestoodforamomentlikeonedazed,thensuddenlycomingtohimself,turnedaway,leftthehouse,andranstraighttoDaur-street。
Whentheminister’sdoorwasopenedtohim,hewenttothatofthedining-room,knowingMr。andMrs。Sclaterwouldthenbeatsupper。
Happilyforhisintent,theministerwasatthemomenthavinghistumbleroftoddyafterthelaboursoftheday,anindulgencewhich,solongasGibbiewasinthehouse,hehad,eversincethatfirstdinner-party,takeninprivate,outofregard,ashepretendedtohimself,fortheboy’spainfulassociationswithit,butinreality,tohiscreditbeittoldifitmay,fromalittleshameofthethingitself;andhiswifetherefore,whenshesawGibbie,rose,and,meetinghim,tookhimwithhertoherownlittlesitting-room,wheretheyhadalongtalk,ofwhichtheresultappearedthenextnightinanotefromMrs。SclatertoGibbie,askinghimandDonaltospendtheeveningofTuesdaywithher。
CHAPTERLII。
THEQUARRY。
Donalthreweverythingaside,carelessofpossibledisgraceintheclassthenextmorning,and,tremblingwithhope,accompaniedGibbie:shewouldbethere——surely!,Itwasoneofthoseclearnightsinwhichagleamofstraw-colourinthewest,withlight-thinnedgray-greendeepeningintoblueaboveit,isliketheveryedgeoftheaxeofthecold——theedgethatreachesthesoul。
Buttheyouthswerewarmenough:theyhadhealthandhope。Thehospitablecrimsonroom,withitsroundtablesetoutforaScotchtea,anditsfireblazinghugely,receivedthem。AndtheresatGinevrabythefire!withherprettyfeetonafootstoolbeforeit:
inthosedaysladiesworeopenshoes,andshoweddaintystockings。
Herfacelookedrosy,butitwasfromthefirelight,forwhensheturnedittowardsthem,itshowedpaleasusual。Shereceivedthem,asalways,withthesamesimplesinceritythathadbeenhersonthebankoftheLorrieburn。ButGibbiereadsometroubleinhereyes,forhissoulwasalltouch,and,likeadelicatespiritualseismograph,respondedatoncetotheleasttrembleofaneighbouringsoul。Theministerwasnotpresent,andMrs。Sclaterhadbothtobetheblazingcoal,andkeepblowingherself,else,howeverhotitmightbeatthesmoulderinghearth,thelittlecompanywouldhavesentupnoflameoftalk。
Whenteawasover,Gibbiewenttothewindow,gotwithintheredcurtains,andpeepedout。Returningpresently,hespelledwithfingersandsignedwithhandstoGinevrathatitwasagloriousnight:wouldshenotcomeforawalk?,GinevralookedtoMrs。
Sclater。
“Gibbiewantsmetogoforawalk,“shesaid。
“Certainly,mydear——ifyouarewellenoughtogowithhim,“repliedherfriend。
“Iamalwayswell,“answeredGinevra。
“Ican’tgowithyou,“saidMrs。Sclater,“forIexpectmyhusbandeverymoment;butwhatoccasionisthere,withtwosuchknightstoprotectyou?”
Shewasstraininghardonthebitofpropriety;butsheknewthemallsowell?shesaidtoherself。ThenfirstperceivingGibbie’sdesign,Donalcasthimagratefulglance,whileGinevrarosehastily,andrantoputonheroutergarments。PlainlytoDonal,shewaspleasedtogo。
Whentheystoodonthepavement,therewasthemoon,theverycreamoflight,ladyingitinablueheaven。Itwasnotallherown,butthecloudsaboutherwerewhiteandattendant,andeverwhentheycamenearhertookonherlivery——thepoorpaled-rainbowcolours,whichareallherreflectedlightcandivideinto:thatstrangebrownweseesooftenonhercloudypeoplemust,Isuppose,bewhattheredortheorangefadesto。Therewasamajestyandpeaceaboutherairydomination,whichDonalhimselfwouldhavefounddifficult,hadheknownherstate,tobringintoharmonywithheraeoniandeath。Strangethatthelightofloversshouldbethecoldestofallcoldthingswithinhumanken——deadwithcold,millionsofyearsbeforeourfirstfatherandmotherappearedeachtotheotherontheearth!,Theairwaskeenbutdry。Nothingcouldfallbutsnow;andofanythinglikeittherewasnothingbutthosefewfrozenvapoursthatcamesoftlyoutofthedeepstowaitonthemoon。Betweenthemandbehindthemlaydepthabsolute,expressedintheperfectionofnocturnalblues,deepasgentle,theveryhomeofthedwellingstars。Thestepsoftheyouthsrangonthepavements,andDonal’svoiceseemedtohimsoloudandclearthathemuffleditallingentlermeaning。Hespokelow,andGinevraansweredhimsoftly。
Theywalkedclosetogether,andGibbieflittedtoandfro,nowonthisside,nowonthat,nowinfrontofthem,nowbehind。
“Hoolikityethesermon,mem?”askedDonal。
“Papathoughtitagrandsermon,“answeredGinevra。
“An’yersel’?”persistedDonal。
“PapatellsmeIamnojudge,“shereplied。
“That’sasmuckleastosayyedidnalikeitsaeweelashedid!”
returnedDonal,inatoneexpressingsomerelief。
“Mr。Duffisverygoodtomyfather,Donal,“sherejoined,“andI
don’tliketosayanythingagainsthissermon;butallthetimeI
couldnothelpthinkingwhetheryourmotherwouldlikethisandthat;foryouknow,Donal,anygoodthereisinmeIhavegotfromher,andfromGibbie——andfromyou,Donal。”
Theyouth’sheartbeatwithapleasurethatrosetophysicalpain。
Hadhebeenawingedcreaturehewouldhaveflownstraightup;butbeingasoberwinglessanimal,hestumpedonwithhistwohappylegs。GladlywouldhehaveshownhertheunrealityofFergus——thathewasapoorshallowcreature,withonlysubstanceenoughtocarryshowandseeming,buthefelt,justbecausehehadreasontofearhim,thatitwouldbeunmanlytospeakthetruthofhimbehindhisback,exceptintheabsolutenecessityofrectitude。Hefeltalsothat,ifGinevraowedherfather’sfriendsuchdelicacy,heowedhimatleastalittlesilence;forwashenotundermoreobligationtothissameshallow-patedorator,thantoalleternityhecouldwipeout,evenifeternitycarriedinitthepossibilityofwipingoutanobligation?,Fewmenunderstand,butDonaldid,thathewhowouldcancelanobligationisadishonestman。Icannothelpitthatmanyagoodman——good,thatis,becauseheisgrowingbetter——mustthenbereckonedinthelistofthedishonest:heisintheirnumberuntilheleavesit。
Donalremainingsilent,Ginevrapresentlyreturnedhimhisownquestion:
“Howdidyoulikethesermon,Donal?”
“Divyewantmetosay,mem?”heasked。
“Ido,Donal,“sheanswered。
“Weel,Iwadjistsay,inageneralw’y,’atIcannathinkmuckleo’
onysermon’atmichtgarabodythinkmairo’theprechernoro’him’athecomestoprechaboot。Imean,’atIdinnaseehooonybodywastolo’eGodorhisneebouraejotthemairforhearin’yonsermonlastnicht。”
“Butmightnotsomebefrightenedbyit,andbroughttorepentance,Donal?”suggestedthegirl。
“Ouay;Idaursay;Idinnaken。ButIcannahelpthinkin’’atwhatdisnagieGodonythinglikefairplay,cannadeemuckleguidtomen,an’may,Idoobt,deeaheapo’ill。It’sap鈍ankin’o’athingyon。”
“That’sjustwhatIwasfeeling——Idon’tsaythinking,youknow——foryousaywemustnotsaythinkwhenwehavetakennotroubleaboutit。IamsorryforMr。Duff,ifhehastakentoteachingwherehedoesnotunderstand。”
Theyhadleftthecitybehindthem,andwerewalkingawideopenroad,withagreatskyaboveit。Onitsbordersweresmallfencedfields,andahousehereandtherewithagarden。Itwasaplain-featured,slightlyundulatingcountry,withhardlyanytrees——notatallbeautiful,exceptaseveryplaceundertheheavenwhichmanhasnotdefiledisbeautifultohimwhocanseewhatisthere。Butthisnighttheearthwasnothing:whatwasinthemandoverthemwasall。Donalfelt——assomanywillfeel,beforetheearth,likeahensettohatchtheeggsofasoaringbird,shallhavedonerearingbroodsforheaven——that,withthisessentialloveandwonderbyhisside,tobedoomedtogoonwalkingtoalleternitywouldbeablissfulfate,werethelandscapeturnedtoabrick-field,andtheskytopersistentgray。
“Wadyenotakmyairm,mem?”hesaidatlength,summoningcourage。
“Ijistfin’mysel’likeahorsewi’areynbrocken,gaein’bymysel’throu’theairthisgait。”
BeforehehadfinishedthesentenceGinevrahadacceptedtheoffer。
Itwasthefirsttime。Hisarmtrembled。Hethoughtitwasherhand。
“Ye’renocauld,areye,mem?”hesaid。
“Nottheleast,“sheanswered。
“Eh,mem!gienfowkwasbuta’madeooto’thesameclay,like,’atanemichtsaytillanither——’Yehaemeasyehaeyersel’’!”
“Yes,Donal,“rejoinedGinevra;“Iwishwewereallmadeofthepoet-claylikeyou!,Whatitwouldbetohaveawellinside,outofwhichtodrawsongsandballadsasIpleased!,That’swhatyouhave,Donal——or,rather,you’rejustadraw-wellofmusicyourself。”
Donallaughedmerrily。Amomentmoreandhebrokeoutsinging:
Mythoughtsarelikefireflies,pulsinginmoonlight;
Myheartisasilvercup,fullofredwine;
Mysoulapalegleaminghorizon,whencesoonlightWillfloodthegoldearthwithatorrentdivine。
“What’sthat,Donal?”criedGinevra。
“Ow,naething,“answeredDonal。“Itwasonlymyhertlauchin’。”
“Saythewords,“saidGinevra。
“Icanna——Idinnakenthemnoo,“repliedDonal。
“Oh,Donal!arethoselovelywordsgone——altogether——forever?
ShallInothearthemagain?”
“I’lltrytomin’upo’themwhanIganghame,“hesaid。“Icannathenoo。Icanthinko’naethingbutaething。”
“Andwhatisthat,Donal?”
“Yersel’,“answeredDonal。
Ginevra’shandliftedjustahalfofitsweightfromDonal’sarm,likeabirdthathadthoughtofflying,thensettledagain。
“Itisverypleasanttobetogetheroncemoreasintheoldtime,Donal——thoughtherearenodaisiesandgreenfields——Butwhatplaceisthat,Donal?”
Instinctively,almostunconsciously,shewantedtoturntheconversation。Theplaceshepointedtowasanopeningimmediatelyontheroadside,throughahighbank——narrowanddark,withonesidehalflightedbythemoon。Shehadoftenpassedit,walkingwithherschool-fellows,buthadneverthoughtofaskingwhatitwas。Intheshiningduskitlookedstrangeandalittledreadful。
“It’sthemucklequarry,mem,“answeredDonal:“divyenokenthat?
That’swhaurmaistthehailltooncamooto’。It’sasomeeeriekin’o’aplacetoluikati’thislicht。Iwon’eratyeneversaw’t。”
“Ihaveseentheopeningthere,butnevertookmuchnoticeofitbefore,“saidGinevra。
“Comean’I’lllatyesee’t,“rejoinedDonal。“It’sweelworthluikin’intill。Yehaenaenotionsicaplaceas’tis。Itmichtbeamo’thegrenitemuntainso’Aigypt,thoughtheytaknafreelysicfineblocksooto’thisaneastheytuikooto’thatatSyene。Yewadnabefleyttocomean’seewhatthemeenmakso’’t,wadye,mem?”
“No,Donal。Iwouldnotbefrightenedtogoanywherewithyou。
But——“
“Eh,mem!itmaksmerichtproodtohearyesaythat。Comeawa’
than。”
Sosaying,heturnedaside,andledherintothenarrowpassage,cutthroughafriablesortofgranite。Gibbie,thinkingtheyhadgonetohavebutapeepandreturn,stoodintheroad,lookingatthecloudsandthemoon,andcrooningtohimself。Byandby,whenhefoundtheydidnotreturn,hefollowedthem。
Whentheyreachedtheendofthecutting,Ginevrastartedatsightofthevastgulf,themoonshowingtheonewallaghastlygray,andfromtheotherthrowingashadowhalfacrossthebottom。Butawindingroadwentdownintoit,andDonalledheron。Sheshrunkatfirst,drawingbackfromtheprofound,mysterious-lookingabyss,soawfullystill;butwhenDonallookedather,shewasashamedtorefusetogofarther,andindeedalmostafraidtotakeherhandfromhisarm;soheledherdowntheterraceroad。Thesideofthequarrywasononehand,andontheothershecouldseeonlyintothegulf。