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  Alreadythereareinnuendoes,threats,hintsthrownout,andevenawfulinstancesfabricatedoutofinadequatematerials,butitishistoricallyunthinkablethatthePolandofthefuture,withitssacredtraditionoffreedomanditshereditarysenseofrespectfortherightsofindividualsandStates,shouldseekitsprosperityinaggressiveactionorinmoralviolenceagainstthatpartofitsoncefellow-citizenswhoareRutheniansorLithuanians。Theonlyinfluencethatcannotberestrainedissimplytheinfluenceoftime,whichdisengagestruthfromallfactswithamercilesslogicandprevailsoverthepassingopinions,thechangingimpulsesofmen。Therecanbenodoubtthatthemoralimpulsesandthematerialinterestsofthenewnationalities,whichseemtoplaynowthegameofdisintegrationforthebenefitoftheworld\'senemies,willintheendbringthemnearertothePolandofthiswar\'screation,willunitethemsoonerorlaterbyaspontaneousmovementtowardstheStatewhichhadadoptedandbroughtthemupinthedevelopmentofitsownhumaneculture——theoffspringoftheWest。

  ANOTEONTHEPOLISHPROBLEM——1916

  Wemuststartfromtheassumptionthatpromisesmadebyproclamationatthebeginningofthiswarmaybebindingontheindividualswhomadethemunderthestressofcomingevents,butcannotberegardedasbindingtheGovernmentsaftertheendofthewar。

  Polandhasbeenpresentedwiththreeproclamations。TwoofthemwereinsuchcontrastwiththeavowedprinciplesandthehistoricactionforthelasthundredyearssincetheCongressofViennaofthePowersconcerned,thattheyweremorelikecynicalinsultstothenation\'sdeepestfeelings,itsmemoryanditsintelligence,thanstatepapersofaconciliatorynature。

  TheGermanpromisesawokenothingbutindignantcontempt;theRussianabitterincredulityofthemostcompletekind。TheAustrianproclamation,whichmadenopromisesandcontenteditselfwithpointingouttheAustro-Polishrelationsforthelastforty-

  fiveyears,wasreceivedinsilence。ForitisafactthatinAustrianPolandalonePolishnationalitywasrecognisedasanelementoftheEmpire,andindividualscouldbreathetheairoffreedom,ofcivillife,ifnotofpoliticalindependence。

  ButforPolestobeGermanophileisunthinkable。TobeRussophileorAustrophileisatbestacounselofdespairinviewofaEuropeansituationwhich,becauseofthegroupingofthepowers,seemstoshutfromthemeveryhope,expressedorunexpressed,ofanationalfuturenursedthroughmorethanahundredyearsofsufferingandoppression。

  Throughmostoftheseyears,andespeciallysince1830,PolandI

  usethisexpressionsincePolandexistsasaspiritualentitytodayasdefinitelyasiteverexistedinherpasthasputherfaithintheWesternPowers。Politicallyitmayhavebeennothingmorethanaconsolingillusion,andthenationhadahalf-consciousnessofthis。ButwhatPolandwaslookingforfromtheWesternPowerswithoutdiscouragementandwithunbrokenconfidencewasmoralsupport。

  Thisisafactofthesentimentalorder。Butsuchfactshavetheirpositivevalue,fortheiridealismderivesfromperhapsthehighestkindofreality。Asentimentassertsitsclaimbyitsforce,persistenceanduniversality。InPolandthatsentimentalattitudetowardstheWesternPowersisuniversal。Itextendstoallclasses。Theverychildrenareaffectedbyitassoonastheybegintothink。

  Thepoliticalvalueofsuchasentimentconsistsinthis,thatitisbasedonprofoundresemblances。Thereforeonecanbuildonitasifitwereamaterialfact。Forthesamereasonitwouldbeunsafetodisregarditifoneproposedtobuildsolidly。ThePoles,whomsuperficialorill-informedtheoristsaretryingtoforceintothesocialandpsychologicalformulaofSlavonism,areintruthnotSlavonicatall。Intemperament,infeeling,inmind,andeveninunreason,theyareWestern,withanabsolutecomprehensionofallWesternmodesofthought,evenofthosewhichareremotefromtheirhistoricalexperience。

  ThatelementofracialunitywhichmaybecalledPolonism,remainedcompressedbetweenPrussianGermanismononesideandtheRussianSlavonismontheother。ForGermanismitfeelsnothingbuthatred。

  ButbetweenPolonismandSlavonismthereisnotsomuchhatredasacompleteandineradicableincompatibility。

  NopoliticalworkofreconstructingPolandeitherasamatterofjusticeorexpediencycouldbesoundwhichwouldleavethenewcreationindependencetoGermanismortoSlavonism。

  Thefirstneednotbeconsidered。Thesecondmustbe——unlessthePowerselecttodropthePolishquestioneitherunderthecoverofvagueassurancesorwithoutanydisguisewhatever。

  ButifitisconsidereditwillbeseenatoncethattheSlavonicsolutionofthePolishQuestioncanoffernoguaranteesofdurationorholdthepromiseofsecurityforthepeaceofEurope。

  TheonlybasisforitwouldbetheGrandDuke\'sManifesto。ButthatManifesto,signedbyapersonagenowremovedfromEuropetoAsia,andbyaman,moreover,whoiftruetohimself,tohisconceptionofpatriotismandtohisfamilytraditioncouldnothaveputhishandtoitwithanysincerityofpurpose,isnowdivestedofallauthority。Theforciblevaguenessofitspromises,itsstartlinginconsistencywiththehundredyearsofruthlesslydenationalisingoppressionpermitonetodoubtwhetheritwasevermeanttohaveanyauthority。

  Butinanycaseitcouldhavehadnoeffect。Theverynatureofthingswouldhavebroughttonoughtitsprofessedintentions。

  ItisimpossibletosupposethataStateofRussia\'spowerandantecedentswouldtolerateaprivilegedcommunityof,toRussia,unnationalcomplexionwithinthebodyoftheEmpire。Allhistoryshowsthatsuchanarrangement,howeverhedgedinbythemostsolemntreatiesanddeclarations,cannotlast。Inthiscaseitwouldleadtoatragicissue。TheabsorptionofPolonismisunthinkable。ThelasthundredyearsofEuropeanHistoryprovesitundeniably。Thereremainsthenextirpation,aprocessofbloodandiron;andthelastactofthePolishdramawouldbeplayedthenbeforeaEuropetoowearytointerfere,andtotheapplauseofGermany。

  ItwouldnotbejusttosaythatthedisappearanceofPolonismwouldaddanystrengthtotheSlavonicpowerofexpansion。Itwouldaddnostrength,butitwouldremoveapossiblyeffectivebarrieragainstthesurprisesthefutureofEuropemayholdinstorefortheWesternPowers。

  ThusthequestionwhetherPolonismisworthsavingpresentsitselfasaproblemofpoliticswithapracticalbearingonthestabilityofEuropeanpeace——asabarrierorperhapsbetterinviewofitsdetachedpositionasanoutpostoftheWesternPowersplacedbetweenthegreatmightofSlavonismwhichhasnotyetmadeupitsmindtoanything,andtheorganisedGermanismwhichhasspokenitsmindwithnouncertainvoice,beforetheworld。

  LookedatinthatlightalonePolonismseemsworthsaving。ThatithaslivedsolongonitstrustinthemoralsupportoftheWesternPowersmaygiveitanotherandevenstrongerclaim,basedonatruthofamoreprofoundkind。PolonismhadresistedtheutmosteffortsofGermanismandSlavonismformorethanahundredyears。

  Why?BecauseofthestrengthofitsidealsconsciousoftheirkinshipwiththeWest。Suchapowerofresistancecreatesamoralobligationwhichitwouldbeunsafetoneglect。Thereisalwaysariskinthrowingawayatoolofprovedtemper。

  InthisprofoundconvictionofthepracticalandidealworthofPolonismoneapproachestheproblemofitspreservationwithaveryvividsenseofthepracticaldifficultiesderivedfromthegroupingofthePowers。TheuncertaintyoftheextentandoftheactualformofvictoryfortheAllieswillincreasethedifficultyofformulatingaplanofPolishregenerationatthepresentmoment。

  Poland,tostrikeitsrootsagainintothesoilofpoliticalEurope,willrequireaguaranteeofsecurityforthehealthydevelopmentandfortheuntrammelledplayofsuchinstitutionsasshemaybeenabledtogivetoherself。

  ThoseinstitutionswillbeanimatedbythespiritofPolonism,which,havingbeenafactorinthehistoryofEuropeandhavingproveditsvitalityunderoppression,hasestablisheditsrighttolive。Thatspirit,despisedandhatedbyGermanyandincompatiblewithSlavonismbecauseofmoraldifferences,cannotavoidbeinginitsrenewedassertionanobjectofdislikeandmistrust。

  AsanunavoidableconsequenceofthepastPolandwillhavetobeginitsexistenceinanatmosphereofenmitiesandsuspicions。ThatadvancedoutpostofWesterncivilisationwillhavetoholditsgroundinthemidstofhostilecamps:alwaysitshistoricalfate。

  AgainstthemenaceofsuchaspeciallydangeroussituationthepaperandinkofpublicTreatiescannotbeaneffectivedefence。

  Nothingbuttheactual,living,activeparticipationofthetwoWesternPowersintheestablishmentofthenewPolishcommonwealth,andinthefirsttwentyyearsofitsexistence,willgivethePolesasufficientguaranteeofsecurityintheworkofrestoringtheirnationallife。

  AnAnglo-Frenchprotectoratewouldbetheidealformofmoralandmaterialsupport。ButRussia,asanally,musttakeherplaceinitonsuchafootingaswillallaytothefullestextentherpossibleapprehensionsandsatisfyhernationalsentiment。Thatnecessitywillhavetobeformallyrecognised。

  InrealityRussiahasceasedtocaremuchforherPolishpossessions。PublicrecognitionofamistakeinpoliticalmoralityandavoluntarysurrenderofterritoryinthecauseofEuropeanconcord,cannotdamagetheprestigeofapowerfulState。Thenewspheresofexpansioninregionsmoreeasilyassimilable,willmorethancompensateRussiaforthelossofterritoryontheWesternfrontieroftheEmpire。

  TheexperienceofDualControlsandsimilarcombinationshasbeensounfortunateinthepastthatthesuggestionofaTripleProtectoratemaywellappearatfirstsightmonstrouseventounprejudicedminds。Butitmustberememberedthatthisisauniquecaseandaproblemaltogetherexceptional,justifyingtheemploymentofexceptionalmeansforitssolution。Tothosewhowoulddoubtthepossibilityofevenbringingsuchaschemeintoexistencetheanswermaybemadethattherearepsychologicalmomentswhenanymeasuretendingtowardstheendsofconcordandjusticemaybebroughtintobeing。Anditseemsthattheendofthewarwouldbethemomentforbringingintobeingthepoliticalschemeadvocatedinthisnote。

  ItssuccessmustdependonthesinglenessofpurposeinthecontractingPowers,andonthewisdom,thetact,theabilities,thegood-willofmenentrustedwithitsinitiationanditsfurthercontrol。Finallyitmaybepointedoutthatthisplanistheonlyoneofferingseriousguaranteestoallthepartiesoccupyingtheirrespectivepositionswithinthescheme。

  Ifherexistenceasastateisadmittedasjust,expedientandnecessary,Polandhasthemoralrighttoreceiveherconstitutionnotfromthehandofanoldenemy,butfromtheWesternPowersalone,thoughofcoursewiththefullestconcurrenceofRussia。

  Thisconstitution,elaboratedbyacommitteeofPolesnominatedbythethreeGovernments,willafterduediscussionandamendmentbytheHighCommissionersoftheProtectingPowersbepresentedtoPolandastheinitialdocument,thecharterofhernewlife,freelyofferedandunreservedlyaccepted。

  Itshouldbeassimpleandshortasawrittenconstitutioncanbe——

  establishingthePolishCommonwealth,settlingthelinesofrepresentativeinstitutions,theformofjudicature,andleavingthegreatestmeasurepossibleofself-governmenttotheprovincesformingpartofthere-createdPoland。

  ThisconstitutionwillbepromulgatedimmediatelyafterthethreePowershadsettledthefrontiersofthenewState,includingthetownofDanzicfreeportandaproportionofseaboard。ThelegislaturewillthenbecalledtogetherandageneraltreatywillregulatePoland\'sinternationalportionasaprotectedstate,thestatusoftheHighCommissionersandsuch-likematters。Thelegislaturewillratify,thusmakingPoland,asitwere,apartyintheestablishmentoftheprotectorate。Apointofimportance。

  OthergeneraltreatieswilldefinePoland\'spositionintheAnglo-

  Franco-Russianalliance,fixthenumbersofthearmy,andsettletheparticipationofthePowersinitsorganisationandtraining。

  POLANDREVISITED——1915

  Ihaveneverbelievedinpoliticalassassinationasameanstoanend,andleastofallinassassinationofthedynasticorder。I

  don\'tknowhowfarmurdercaneverapproachtheperfectionofafineart,butlookeduponwiththecoldeyeofreasonitseemsbutacrudeexpedientofimpatienthopeorhurrieddespair。Therearefewmenwhoseprematuredeathcouldinfluencehumanaffairsmorethanonthesurface。Thedeeperstreamofcausesdependsnotonindividualswho,likethemassofmankind,arecarriedonbyadestinywhichnomurderhaseverbeenabletoplacate,divert,orarrest。

  InJulyoflastyearIwasastrangerinastrangecityintheMidlandsandparticularlyoutoftouchwiththeworld\'spolitics。

  Neveraverydiligentreaderofnewspapers,therewereatthattimereasonsofaprivateorderwhichcausedmetobeevenlessinformedthanusualonpublicaffairsaspresentedfromdaytodayinthatnecessarilyatmosphereless,perspectivelessmannerofthedailypapers,whichsomehow,foramanpossessedofsomehistoricsense,robsthemofallrealinterest。Idon\'tthinkIhadlookedatadailyforamonthpast。

  ButthoughastrangerinastrangecityIwasnotlonely,thankstoafriendwhohadtravelledthereoutofpurekindnesstobearmecompanyinaconjuncturewhich,inamostprivatesense,wassomewhattrying。

  Itwasthisfriendwho,onemorningatbreakfast,informedmeofthemurderoftheArchdukeFerdinand。

  Theimpressionwasmediocre。Iwasbarelyawarethatsuchamanexisted。IrememberedonlythatnotlongbeforehehadvisitedLondon。Therecollectionwasratherofacloudofinsignificantprintedwordshispresenceinthiscountryprovoked。

  Variousopinionshadbeenexpressedofhim,buthisimportancewasArchducal,dynastic,purelyaccidental。CantherebeintheworldofrealmenanythingmoreshadowythananArchduke?Andnowhewasnomore;removedwithanatrocityofcircumstanceswhichmadeonemoresensibleofhishumanitythanwhenhewasinlife。I

  connectedthatcrimewithBalkanicplotsandaspirationssolittlethatIhadactuallytoaskwhereithadhappened。MyfriendtoldmeitwasinSerajevo,andwonderedwhatwouldbetheconsequencesofthatgraveevent。HeaskedmewhatIthoughtwouldhappennext。

  ItwaswithperfectsinceritythatIanswered“Nothing,“andhavingagreatrepugnancetoconsidermurderasafactorofpolitics,I

  dismissedthesubject。Itfittedwithmyethicalsensethatanactcruelandabsurdshouldbealsouseless。IhadalsothevisionofacrowdofshadowyArchdukesinthebackground,outofwhichonewouldstepforwardtotaketheplaceofthatdeadmaninthelightoftheEuropeanstage。Andthen,tospeakthewholetruth,therewasnomancapableofformingajudgmentwhoattendedsolittletothemarchofeventsasIdidatthattime。WhatforwantofamoredefinitetermImustcallmymindwasfixeduponmyownaffairs,notbecausetheywereinabadposture,butbecauseoftheirfascinatingholiday-promisingaspect。IhadbeenobtainingmyinformationastoEuropeatsecondhand,fromfriendsgoodenoughtocomedownnowandthentoseeus。Theyarrivedwiththeirpocketsfullofcrumplednewspapers,andansweredmyqueriescasually,withgentlesmilesofscepticismastotherealityofmyinterest。AndyetIwasnotindifferent;butthetensionintheBalkanshadbecomechronicaftertheacutecrisis,andonecouldnothelpbeinglessconsciousofit。Ithadweariedoutone\'sattention。Whocouldhaveguessedthatonthatwildstagewehadjustbeenlookingataminiaturerehearsalofthegreatworld-

  drama,thereducedmodeloftheverypassionsandviolencesofwhatthefutureheldinstoreforthePowersoftheOldWorld?Hereandthere,perhaps,raremindshadasuspicionofthatpossibility,whiletheywatchedOldEuropestage-managingfussilybymeansofnotesandconferences,thepropheticreproductionofitsawaitingfate。Itwaswonderfullyexactinthespirit;sameroarofguns,sameprotestationsofsuperiority,samewordsintheair;race,liberation,justice——andthesamemoodoftrivialdemonstrations。

  Onecouldnottaketo-dayaticketforPetersburg。“YoumeanPetrograd,“wouldsaythebookingclerk。ShortlyafterthefallofAdrianopleafriendofminepassingthroughSophiaaskedforsomeCAFETURCattheendofhislunch。

  “MonsieurveutdireCafebalkanique,“thepatrioticwaitercorrectedhimausterely。

  IwillnotsaythatIhadnotobservedsomethingofthatinstructiveaspectofthewaroftheBalkansbothinitsfirstandinitssecondphase。ButthosewithwhomItoucheduponthatvisionwerepleasedtoseeinittheevidenceofmyalarmistcynicism。Astoalarm,Ipointedoutthatfearisnaturaltoman,andevensalutary。Ithasdoneasmuchascourageforthepreservationofracesandinstitutions。ButfromachargeofcynicismIhavealwaysshrunkinstinctively。Itislikeachargeofbeingblindinoneeye,amoraldisablement,asortofdisgracefulcalamitythatmusthecarriedoffwithajauntybearing——asortofthingIamnotcapableof。RatherthanbethoughtamerejauntycrippleIallowedmyselftobeblindedbythegrossobviousnessoftheusualarguments。ItwaspointedouttomethattheseEasternnationswerenotfarremovedfromasavagestate。Theireconomicswereyetatthestageofscratchingtheearthandfeedingthepigs。Thehighly-developedmaterialcivilisationofEuropecouldnotallowitselftobedisturbedbyawar。Theindustryandthefinancecouldnotallowthemselvestobedisorganisedbytheambitionsofanidleclass,oreventheaspirations,whatevertheymightbe,ofthemasses。

  Veryplausibleallthissounded。Wardoesnotpay。Therehadbeenabookwrittenonthattheme——anattempttoputpacificismonamaterialbasis。Nothingmoresolidinthewayofargumentcouldhavebeenadvancedonthistradingandmanufacturingglobe。Warwas“badbusiness!“Thiswasfinal。

  But,truthtosay,onthisJulydayIreflectedbutlittleontheconditionofthecivilisedworld。Whateversinisterpassionswereheavingunderitssplendidandcomplexsurface,Iwastooagitatedbyasimpleandinnocentdesireofmyown,tonoticethesignsorinterpretthemcorrectly。Themostinnocentofpassionswilltaketheedgeoffone\'sjudgment。Thedesirewhichpossessedmewassimplythedesiretotravel。AndthatbeingsoitwouldhavetakensomethingveryplaininthewayofsymptomstoshakemysimpletrustinthestabilityofthingsontheContinent。Mysentimentandnotmyreasonwasengagedthere。Myeyeswereturnedtothepast,nottothefuture;thepastthatonecannotsuspectandmistrust,theshadowyandunquestionablemoralpossessionthedarkeststrugglesofwhichwearahaloofgloryandpeace。

  IntheprecedingmonthofMaywehadreceivedaninvitationtospendsomeweeksinPolandinacountryhouseintheneighbourhoodofCracow,butwithintheRussianfrontier。Theenterpriseatfirstseemedtomeconsiderable。Sinceleavingthesea,towhichI

  havebeenfaithfulforsomanyyears,Ihavediscoveredthatthereisinmycompositionverylittlestufffromwhichtravellersaremade。Iconfessthatmyfirstimpulseaboutaprojectedjourneyistoleaveitalone。Buttheinvitationreceivedatfirstwithasortofdismayendedbyrousingthedormantenergyofmyfeelings。

  CracowisthetownwhereIspentwithmyfatherthelasteighteenmonthsofhislife。ItwasinthatoldroyalandacademicalcitythatIceasedtobeachild,becameaboy,hadknownthefriendships,theadmirations,thethoughtsandtheindignationsofthatage。ItwaswithinthosehistoricalwallsthatIbegantounderstandthings,formaffections,layupastoreofmemoriesandafundofsensationswithwhichIwastobreakviolentlybythrowingmyselfintoanunrelatedexistence。Itwasliketheexperienceofanotherworld。Thewingsoftimemadeagreatduskoverallthis,andIfearedatfirstthatifIventuredbodilyinthereIwoulddiscoverthatIwhohavehadtodowithagoodmanyimaginaryliveshavebeenembracingmereshadowsinmyyouth。I

  feared。Butfearinitselfmaybecomeafascination。Menhavegone,aloneandtrembling,intograveyardsatmidnight——justtoseewhatwouldhappen。Andthisadventurewastobepursuedinsunshine。Neitherwoulditbepursuedalone。Theinvitationwasextendedtousall。Thisjourneywouldhavesomethingofamigratorycharacter,theinvasionofatribe。Mypresent,allthatgavesolidityandvaluetoit,atanyrate,wouldstandbymeinthistestoftherealityofmypast。IwaspleasedwiththeideaofshowingmycompanionswhatPolishcountrylifewaslike;tovisitthetownwhereIwasatschoolbeforetheboysbymysideshouldgrowtooold,andgaininganindividualpastoftheirown,shouldlosetheirunsophisticatedinterestinmine。Itisonlyintheshortinstantsofearlyyouththatwehavethefacultyofcomingoutofourselvestoseedimlythevisionsandsharetheemotionsofanothersoul。Foryouthallisrealityinthisworld,andwithjustice,sinceitapprehendssovividlyitsimagesbehindwhichalongerlifemakesonedoubtwhetherthereisanysubstance。

  Itrustedtothefreshreceptivityoftheseyoungbeingsinwhom,unlessHeredityisanemptyword,thereshouldhavebeenafibrewhichwouldanswertothesight,totheatmosphere,tothememoriesofthatcorneroftheearthwheremyownboyhoodhadreceiveditsearliestindependentimpressions。

  ThefirstdaysofthethirdweekinJuly,whilethetelegraphwireshummedwiththewordsofenormousimportwhichweretofillbluebooks,yellowbooks,whitebooks,andtoarousethewonderofmankind,passedforusinlight-heartedpreparationsforthejourney。WhatwasitbutjustarushthroughGermany,togetacrossasquicklyaspossible?

  Germanyisthepartoftheearth\'ssolidsurfaceofwhichIknowtheleast。InallmylifeIhadbeenacrossitonlytwice。ImaywellsayofitVIDITANTUM;andtheverylittleIsawwasthroughthewindowofarailwaycarriageatexpressspeed。Thosejourneysofminehadbeenmorelikepilgrimageswhenonehurriesontowardsthegoalforthesatisfactionofadeeperneedthancuriosity。Inthislastinstance,too,IwassoincuriousthatIwouldhavelikedtohavefallenasleepontheshoresofEnglandandopenedmyeyes,ifitwerepossible,onlyontheothersideoftheSilesianfrontier。Yet,intruth,asmanyothershavedone,Ihad“sensedit“——thatpromisedlandofsteel,ofchemicaldyes,ofmethod,ofefficiency;thatraceplantedinthemiddleofEurope,assumingingrotesquevanitytheattitudeofEuropeansamongsteffeteAsiaticsorbarbarousniggers;and,withaconsciousnessofsuperiorityfreeingtheirhandsfromallmoralbonds,anxioustotakeup,ifI

  mayexpressmyselfso,the“perfectman\'sburden。”Meantime,inaclearingoftheTeutonicforest,theirsageswererearingaTreeofCynicalWisdom,asortofUpastree,whoseshademaybeseennowlyingovertheprostratebodyofBelgium。Itmustbesaidthattheylabouredopenlyenough,wateringitwiththemostauthenticsourcesofallmadness,andwatchingwiththeirbe-spectacledeyestheslowripeningofthegloriousblood-redfruit。Thesincerestwordsofpeace,wordsofmenace,andIverilybelievewordsofabasement,eveniftherehadbeenavoicevileenoughtoutterthem,wouldhavebeenwastedontheirecstasy。Forwhenthefruitripensonabranchitmustfall。Thereisnothingonearththatcanpreventit。

  II。

  Forreasonswhichatfirstseemedtomesomewhatobscure,thatoneofmycompanionswhosewishesarelawdecidedthatourtravelsshouldbegininanunusualwaybythecrossingoftheNorthSea。

  WeshouldproceedfromHarwichtoHamburg。Besidesbeingthirty-

  sixtimeslongerthantheDover-CalaispassagethisratherunusualroutehadanairofadventureinbetterkeepingwiththeromanticfeelingofthisPolishjourneywhichforsomanyyearshadbeenbeforeusinastateofaprojectfullofcolourandpromise,butalwaysretreating,elusivelikeanenticingmirage。

  And,afterall,ithadturnedouttobenomirage。Nowondertheywereexcited。It\'snomeanexperiencetolayyourhandsonamirage。Thedayofdeparturehadcome,theveryhourhadstruck。

  Theluggagewascomingdownstairs。Itwasmostconvincing。Polandthen,iferasedfromthemap,yetexistedinreality;itwasnotamerePAYSDUREVE,whereyoucantravelonlyinimagination。Fornoman,theyargued,notevenfather,anhabitualpursuerofdreams,wouldpushtheloveofthenovelist\'sartofmake-believetothepointofburdeninghimselfwithrealtrunksforavoyageAU

  PAYSDUREVE。

  Asweleftthedoorofourhouse,nestlingin,perhaps,themostpeacefulnookinKent,thesky,afterweeksofperfectlybrazenserenity,veileditsbluedepthsandstartedtoweepfinetearsfortherefreshmentoftheparchedfields。Apearlyblursettledoverthem,andalightsiftedofallglare,ofeverythingunkindlyandsearchingthatdwellsinthesplendourofunveiledskies。Allunconsciousofgoingtowardstheveryscenesofwar,Icarriedoffinmyeye,thistinyfragmentofGreatBritain;afewfields,awoodedrise;aclumpoftreesortwo,withashortstretchofroad,andhereandthereagleamofredwallandtiledroofabovethedarkeninghedgeswrappedupinsoftmistandpeace。AndIfeltthatallthishadaverystrongholdonmeastheembodimentofabeneficentandgentlespirit;thatitwasdeartomenotasaninheritance,butasanacquisition,asaconquestinthesenseinwhichawomanisconquered——bylove,whichisasortofsurrender。

  Thesewerestrange,asifdisproportionatethoughtstothematterinhand,whichwasthesimplestsortofaContinentalholiday。AndIamcertainthatmycompanions,nearastheyaretome,feltnoothertroublebutthesuppressedexcitementofpleasurableanticipation。Theformsandthespiritofthelandbeforetheireyesweretheirinheritance,nottheirconquest——whichisathingprecarious,and,therefore,themostprecious,possessingyouifonlybythefearofunworthinessratherthanpossessedbyyou。

  Moreover,aswesattogetherinthesamerailwaycarriage,theywerelookingforwardtoavoyageinspace,whereasIfeltmoreandmoreplainly,thatwhatIhadstartedonwasajourneyintime,intothepast;afearfulenoughprospectforthemostconsistent,buttohimwhohadnotknownhowtopreserveagainsthisimpulsestheorderandcontinuityofhislife——sothatattimesitpresenteditselftohisconscienceasaseriesofbetrayals——stillmoredreadful。

  Idownherethesethoughtssoexclusivelypersonal,toexplainwhytherewasnoroominmyconsciousnessfortheapprehensionofaEuropeanwar。Idon\'tmeantosaythatIignoredthepossibility;

  Isimplydidnotthinkofit。Anditmadenodifference;forifI

  hadthoughtofit,itcouldonlyhavebeeninthelameandinconclusivewayofthecommonuninitiatedmortals;andIamsurethatnothingshortofintellectualcertitude——obviouslyunattainablebythemaninthestreet——couldhavestayedmeonthatjourneywhichnowthatIhadstartedonitseemedanirrevocablething,anecessityofmyself-respect。

  London,theLondonbeforethewar,flauntingitsenormousglare,asofamonstrousconflagrationupintotheblacksky——withitsbestVenice-likeaspectofrainyevenings,thewetasphaltedstreetslyingwiththesheenofsleepingwaterinwindingcanals,andthegreathousesofthecitytoweringalldark,likeemptypalaces,abovethereflectedlightsoftheglisteningroadway。

  Everythinginthesubduedincompletenight-lifearoundtheMansionHousewentonnormallywithitsfascinatingairofadeadcommercialcityofsombrewallsthroughwhichtheinextinguishableactivityofitsmillionsstreamedEastandWestinabrilliantflowoflightedvehicles。

  InLiverpoolStreet,asusualtoo,throughthedoublegates,acontinuouslineoftaxi-cabsglideddowntheinclinedapproachandupagain,likeanendlesschainofdredger-buckets,pouringinthepassengers,anddippingthemoutofthegreatrailwaystationundertheinexorablepallidfaceoftheclocktellingoffthediminishingminutesofpeace。Itwasthehouroftheboat-trainstoHolland,toHamburg,andthereseemedtobenolackofpeople,fearless,reckless,orignorant,whowantedtogototheseplaces。Thestationwasnormallycrowded,andiftherewasagreatflutterofeveningpapersinthemultitudeofhandstherewerenosignsofextraordinaryemotiononthatmultitudeoffaces。TherewasnothinginthemtodistractmefromthethoughtthatitwassingularlyappropriatethatIshouldstartfromthisstationontheretracedwayofmyexistence。Forthiswasthestationatwhich,thirty-sevenyearsbefore,IarrivedonmyfirstvisittoLondon。

  Notthesamebuilding,butthesamespot。Atnineteenyearsofage,afteraperiodofprobationandtrainingIhadimposeduponmyselfasordinaryseamanonboardaNorthSeacoaster,IhadcomeupfromLowestoft——myfirstlongrailwayjourneyinEngland——to“signon“foranAntipodeanvoyageinadeep-watership。StraightfromarailwaycarriageIhadwalkedintothegreatcitywithsomethingofthefeelingofatravellerpenetratingintoavastandunexploredwilderness。Noexplorercouldhavebeenmorelonely。I

  didnotknowasinglesoulofallthesemillionsthatallaroundmepeopledthemysteriousdistancesofthestreets。IcannotsayI

  wasfreefromalittleyouthfulawe,butatthatageone\'sfeelingsaresimple。Iwaselated。Iwaspursuingaclearaim,Iwascarryingoutadeliberateplanofmakingoutofmyself,inthefirstplace,aseamanworthyoftheservice,goodenoughtoworkbythesideofthemenwithwhomIwastolive;andinthesecondplace,Ihadtojustifymyexistencetomyself,toredeematacitmoralpledge。Boththeseaimsweretobeattainedbythesameeffort。Howsimpleseemedtheproblemoflifethen,onthathazydayofearlySeptemberintheyear1878,whenIenteredLondonforthefirsttime。

  Fromthatpointofview——Youthandastraight-forwardschemeofconduct——itwascertainlyayearofgrace。AllthehelpIhadtogetintouchwiththeworldIwasinvadingwasapieceofpapernotmuchbiggerthanthepalmofmyhand——inwhichIheldit——tornoutofalargerplanofLondonforthegreaterfacilityofreference。

  Ithadbeentheobjectofcarefulstudyforsomedayspast。ThefactthatIcouldtakeaconveyanceatthestationneveroccurredtomymind,no,notevenwhenIgotoutintothestreet,andstood,takingmyanxiousbearings,inthemidst,sotospeak,oftwentythousandhansoms。Astrangeabsenceofmindorunconsciousconvictionthatonecannotapproachanimportantmomentofone\'slifebymeansofahiredcarriage?Yes,itwouldhavebeenapreposterousproceeding。AndindeedIwastomakeanAustralianvoyageandencircletheglobebeforeeverenteringaLondonhansom。

  Anotherdocument,acuttingfromanewspaper,containingtheaddressofanobscureshippingagent,wasinmypocket。AndI

  needednottotakeitout。Thataddresswasasifgravendeepinmybrain。ImuttereditswordstomyselfasIwalkedon,navigatingtheseaofLondonbythechartconcealedinthepalmofmyhand;forIhadvowedtomyselfnottoinquiremywayfromanyone。Youthisthetimeofrashpledges。HadItakenawrongturningIwouldhavebeenlost;andiffaithfultomypledgeI

  mighthaveremainedlostfordays,forweeks,haveleftperhapsmybonestobediscoveredbleachinginsomeblindalleyoftheWhitechapeldistrict,asithadhappenedtolonelytravellerslostinthebush。ButIwalkedontomydestinationwithouthesitationormistake,showingthere,forthefirsttime,someofthatfacultytoabsorbandmakemyowntheimagedtopographyofachart,whichinlateryearswastohelpmeinregionsofintricatenavigationtokeeptheshipsentrustedtomeofftheground。TheplaceIwasboundtowasnoteasytofind。Itwasoneofthosecourtshiddenawayfromthechartedandnavigablestreets,lostamongthethickgrowthofhouseslikeadarkpoolinthedepthsofaforest,approachedbyaninconspicuousarchwayasifbysecretpath;aDickensiannookofLondon,thatwondercity,thegrowthofwhichbearsnosignofintelligentdesign,butmanytracesoffreakishlysombrephantasytheGreatMasterknewsowellhowtobringoutbythemagicofhisunderstandinglove。AndtheofficeIenteredwasDickensiantoo。ThedustoftheWaterlooyearlayonthepanesandframesofitswindows;earlyGeorgiangrimeclungtoitssombrewainscoting。

  Itwasoneo\'clockintheafternoon,butthedaywasgloomy。Bythelightofasinglegas-jetdependingfromthesmokedceilingI

  sawanelderlyman,inalongcoatofblackbroadcloth。Hehadagreybeard,abignose,thicklips,andheavyshoulders。HiscurlywhitehairandthegeneralcharacterofhisheadrecalledvaguelyaburlyapostleintheBAROCCOstyleofItalianart。Standingupatatall,shabby,slantingdesk,hissilver-rimmedspectaclespusheduphighonhisforehead,hewaseatingamutton-chop,whichhadbeenjustbroughttohimfromsomeDickensianeating-houseroundthecorner。

  Withoutceasingtoeatheturnedtomehisflorid,BAROCCO

  apostle\'sfacewithanexpressionofinquiry。

  IproducedelaboratelyaseriesofvocalsoundswhichmusthavebornesufficientresemblancetothephoneticsofEnglishspeech,forhisfacebrokeintoasmileofcomprehensionalmostatonce——

  “Oh,it\'syouwhowrotealettertometheotherdayfromLowestoftaboutgettingaship。”

  IhadwrittentohimfromLowestoft。Ican\'trememberasinglewordofthatletternow。ItwasmyveryfirstcompositionintheEnglishlanguage。Andhehadunderstoodit,evidently,forhespoketothepointatonce,explainingthathisbusiness,mainly,wastofindgoodshipsforyounggentlemenwhowantedtogotoseaaspremiumapprenticeswithaviewofbeingtrainedforofficers。

  Buthegatheredthatthiswasnotmyobject。Ididnotdesiretobeapprenticed。Wasthatthecase?

  Itwas。Hewasgoodenoughtosaythen,“OfcourseIseethatyouareagentleman。ButyourwishistogetaberthbeforethemastasanAbleSeamanifpossible。Isthatit?“

  Itwascertainlymywish;buthestateddoubtfullythathefearedhecouldnothelpmemuchinthis。TherewasanActofParliamentwhichmadeitpenaltoprocureshipsforsailors。“AnAct-of-

  Parliament。Alaw,“hetookpainstoimpressitagainandagainonmyforeignunderstanding,whileIlookedathiminconsternation。

  IhadnotbeenhalfanhourinLondonbeforeIhadrunmyheadagainstanActofParliament!Whatahopelessadventure!However,theBAROCCOapostlewasaresourcefulpersoninhisway,andwemanagedtogetroundthehardletterofitwithoutdamagetoitsfinespirit。Yet,strictlyspeaking,itwasnottheconductofagoodcitizen;andinretrospectthereisanunfilialflavouraboutthatearlysinofmine。ForthisActofParliament,theMerchantShippingActoftheVictorianera,hadbeeninamannerofspeakingafatherandmothertome。Formanyyearsithadregulatedanddisciplinedmylife,prescribedmyfoodandtheamountofmybreathingspace,hadlookedaftermyhealthandtriedasmuchaspossibletosecuremypersonalsafetyinariskycalling。Itisn\'tsuchabadthingtoleadalifeofhardtoilandplaindutywithinthefourcornersofanhonestActofParliament。AndIamgladtosaythatitsseventieshaveneverbeenappliedtome。

  Intheyear1878,theyearof“PeacewithHonour,“IhadwalkedasloneasanyhumanbeinginthestreetsofLondon,outofLiverpoolStreetStation,tosurrendermyselftoitscare。Andnow,intheyearofthewarwagedforhonourandconsciencemorethanforanyothercause,Iwasthereagain,nolongeralone,butamanofinfinitelydearandclosetiesgrownsincethattime,ofworkdone,ofwordswritten,offriendshipssecured。Itwasliketheclosingofathirty-six-yearcycle。

  AllunawareoftheWarAngelalreadyawaiting,withthetrumpetathislips,thestrokeofthefatalhour,Isatthere,thinkingthatthislifeofoursisneitherlongnorshort,butthatitcanappearverywonderful,entertaining,andpathetic,withsymbolicimagesandbizarreassociationscrowdedintoonehalf-hourofretrospectivemusing。

  Ifelt,too,thatthisjourney,sosuddenlyenteredupon,wasboundtotakemeawayfromdailylife\'sactualitiesateverystep。I

  feltitmorethaneverwhenpresentlywesteamedoutintotheNorthSea,onadarknightfitfulwithgustsofwind,andIlingeredondeck,aloneofallthetaleoftheship\'spassengers。Thatseawastomesomethingunforgettable,somethingmuchmorethananame。Ithadbeenforsometimetheschool-roomofmytrade。Onit,Imaysafelysay,Ihadlearned,too,myfirstwordsofEnglish。Awildandstormyabode,sometimes,wasthatconfined,shallow-wateracademyofseamanshipfromwhichIlaunchedmyselfonthewideoceans。MyteachershadbeenthesailorsoftheNorfolkshore;

  coastmen,withsteadyeyes,mightylimbs,andgentlevoice;menofveryfewwords,whichatleastwereneverbareofmeaning。Honest,strong,steadymen,soberedbydomesticties,oneandall,asfarasIcanremember。

  ThatiswhatyearsagotheNorthSeaIcouldheargrowlinginthedarkallroundtheshiphadbeenforme。AndIfanciedthatImusthavebeencarryingitsvoiceinmyeareversince,fornothingcouldbemorefamiliarthanthoseshort,angrysoundsIwaslisteningtowithasmileofaffectionaterecognition。

  Icouldnotguessthatbeforemanydaysmyoldschoolroomwouldbedesecratedbyviolence,litteredwithwrecks,withdeathwalkingitswaves,hidingunderitswaters。PerhapswhileIamwritingthesewordsthechildren,ormaybethegrandchildren,ofmypacificteachersareoutintrawlers,undertheNavalflag,dredgingforGermansubmarinemines。

  III。

  IhavesaidthattheNorthSeawasmyfinishingschoolofseamanshipbeforeIlaunchedmyselfonthewideroceans。Confinedasitisincomparisonwiththevaststageofthiswater-girtglobe,Ididnotknowitinallitsparts。Myclass-roomwastheregionoftheEnglishEastCoastwhich,intheyearofPeacewithHonour,hadlongforgottenthewarepisodesbelongingtoitsmaritimehistory。Itwasapeacefulcoast,agricultural,industrial,thehomeoffishermen。Atnightthelightsofitsmanytownsplayedontheclouds,orinclearweatherlaystill,hereandthere,inbrilliantpoolsabovetheink-blackoutlineoftheland。

  OnmanyanightIhavehauledatthebracesundertheshadowofthatcoast,envying,assailorswill,thepeopleonshoresleepingquietlyintheirbedswithinsoundofthesea。Iimaginethatnotoneheadonthoseenviedpillowswasmadeuneasybytheslightestpremonitionoftherealitiesofnavalwartheshortlifetimeofonegenerationwastobringsoclosetotheirhomes。

  ThoughfarawayfromthatregionofkindlymemoriesandtraversingapartoftheNorthSeamuchlessknowntome,Iwasdeeplyconsciousofthefamiliarityofmysurroundings。Itwasacloudy,nastyday:andtheaspectsofNaturedon\'tchange,unlessinthecourseofthousandsofyears——or,perhaps,centuries。ThePhoenicians,itsfirstdiscoverers,theRomans,thefirstimperialrulersofthatsea,hadexperienceddayslikethis,sodifferentinthewintryqualityofthelight,evenonaJulyafternoon,fromanythingtheyhadeverknownintheirnativeMediterranean。Formyself,averylatecomerintothatsea,anditsformerpupil,I

  accordedamusedrecognitiontothecharacteristicaspectsowellrememberedfrommydaysoftraining。Thesameoldthing。Agrey-

  greenexpanseofsmudgywatersgrinningangrilyatonewithwhitefoam-ridges,andoverallacheerless,unglowingcanopy,apparentlymadeofwetblotting-paper。Fromtimetotimeaflurryoffinerainblewalonglikeapuffofsmokeacrossthedotsofdistantfishingboats,veryfew,veryscattered,andtossingrestlesslyonaneverdissolving,everre-formingsky-line。

  Thoseflurries,andthesteadyrollingoftheship,accountedfortheemptinessofthedecks,favouringmyreminiscentmood。Itmighthavebeenadayoffiveandthirtyyearsago,whentherewereonthisandeveryotherseamoresailsandlesssmoke-stackstobeseen。Yet,thankstotheunchangeableseaIcouldhavegivenmyselfuptotheillusionofarevisedpast,haditnotbeenfortheperiodicaltransitacrossmygazeofaGermanpassenger。Hewasmarchingroundandroundtheboatdeckwithcharacteristicdetermination。Twosturdyboysgambolledroundhiminhisprogressliketwodisorderlysatellitesroundtheirparentplanet。Hewasbringingthemhome,fromtheirschoolinEngland,fortheirholiday。WhatcouldhaveinducedsuchasoundTeutontoentrusthisoffspringtotheunhealthyinfluencesofthateffete,corrupt,rottenandcriminalcountryIcannotimagine。Itcouldhardlyhavebeenfrommotivesofeconomy。Ididnotspeaktohim。HetrodthedeckofthatdecadentBritishshipwithascornfulfootwhilehisbreastandtoalargeextenthisstomach,tooappearedexpandedbytheconsciousnessofasuperiordestiny。LaterIcouldobservethesametruculentbearing,touchedwiththeracialgrotesqueness,inthemenoftheLANDWEHRcorps,thatpassedthroughCracowtoreinforcetheAustrianarmyinEasternGalicia。Indeed,thehaughtypassengermightverywellhavebeen,mostprobablywas,anofficeroftheLANDWEHR;andperhapsthosetwofineactiveboysareorphansbynow。Thusthingsacquiresignificancebythelapseoftime。Acitizen,afather,awarrior,amoteinthedust-cloudofsixmillionfightingparticles,anunconsideredtrifleforthejawsofwar,hishumanitywasnotconsciouslyimpressedonmymindatthetime。Mainly,forme,hewasasharptappingofheelsroundthecornerofthedeck-house,awhiteyachtingcapandagreenovercoatgettingperiodicallybetweenmyeyesandtheshiftingcloud-horizonoftheashy-greyNorthSea。Hewasbutashadowyintrusionandadisregardedone,for,farawaytheretotheWest,inthedirectionoftheDoggerBank,wherefishermengoseekingtheirdailybreadandsometimesfindtheirgraves,Icouldbeholdanexperienceofmyowninthewinterof\'81,notofwar,truly,butofafairlylivelycontestwiththeelementswhichwereveryangryindeed。

  Therehadbeenatroublesomeweekofit,includingonehatefulnight——oranightofhateitisn\'tfornothingthattheNorthSeaisalsocalledtheGermanOcean——whenallthefurystoredinitsheartseemedconcentratedononeshipwhichcoulddonobetterthanfloatonhersideinanunnatural,disagreeable,precarious,andaltogetherintolerablemanner。Therewereonboard,besidesmyself,seventeenmenallgoodandtrue,includingaroundenormousDutchmanwho,inthosehoursbetweensunsetandsunrise,managedtolosehisblown-outappearancesomehow,becameasitweredeflated,andthereafterforagoodlongtimemovedinourmidstwrinkledandslackalloverlikeahalf-collapsedballoon。Thewhimperingofourdeck-boy,askinny,impressionablelittlescarecrowoutofatraining-ship,forwhom,becauseofthetenderimmaturityofhisnerves,thisdisplayofGermanOceanfrightfulnesswastoomuchbeforetheyearwasouthedevelopedintoasufficientlycheekyyoungruffian,hisdesolatewhimpering,Isay,heardbetweenthegustsofthatblack,savagenight,wasmuchmorepresenttomymindandindeedtomysensesthanthegreenovercoatandthewhitecapoftheGermanpassengercirclingthedeckindefatigably,attendedbyhistwogyratingchildren。

  “That\'saverynicegentleman。”Thisinformation,togetherwiththefactthathewasawidowerandaregularpassengertwiceayearbytheship,wascommunicatedtomesuddenlybyourcaptain。Atintervalsthroughthedayhewouldpopoutofthechart-roomandoffermeshortsnatchesofconversation。Heownedasimplesoulandanotveryentertainingmind,andhewaswithoutmaliceand,I

  believe,quiteunconsciously,awarmGermanophil。Andnowonder!

  Ashetoldmehimself,hehadbeenfifteenyearsonthatrun,andspentalmostasmuchofhislifeinHamburgasinHarwich。

  “Wonderfulpeopletheyare,“herepeatedfromtimetotime,withoutenteringintoparticulars,butwithmanynodsofsagaciousobstinacy。Whatheknewofthem,Isuppose,wereafewcommercialtravellersandsmallmerchants,mostlikely。ButIhadobservedlongbeforethatGermangeniushasahypnotisingpoweroverhalf-

  bakedsoulsandhalf-lightedminds。Thereisanimmenseforceofsuggestioninhighlyorganisedmediocrity。HaditnothypnotisedhalfEurope?MymanwasverymuchunderthespellofGermanexcellence。Ontheotherhand,hiscontemptforFrancewasequallygeneralandunbounded。Itriedtoadvancesomeargumentsagainstthisposition,butIonlysucceededinmakinghimhostile。“I

  believeyouareaFrenchmanyourself,“hesnarledatlast,givingmeanintenselysuspiciouslook;andforthwithbrokeoffcommunicationswithamanofsuchunsoundsympathies。

  Hourbyhourtheblotting-paperskyandthegreatflatgreenishsmudgeoftheseahadbeentakingonadarkertone,withoutanychangeintheircolouringandtexture。EveningwascomingonovertheNorthSea。Blackuninterestinghummocksoflandappeared,dottingtheduskinessofwaterandcloudsintheEasternboard:

  topsofislandsfringingtheGermanshore。WhileIwaslookingattheiranticsamongstthewaves——andforalltheirsoliditytheywereveryelusivethingsinthefailinglight——anotherpassengercameoutondeck。Thisoneworeadarkovercoatandagreycap。

  Theyellowleatherstrapofhisbinocularcasecrossedhischest。

  Hiselderlyredcheeksnourishedbutaverythincropofshortwhitehairs,andtheendofhisnosewassoperfectlyroundthatitdeterminedthewholecharacterofhisphysiognomy。Indeednothingelseinithadtheslightestchancetoassertitself。Hisdisposition,unlikethewidower\'s,appearedtobemildandhumane。

  Heofferedmetheloanofhisglasses。Hehadawifeandsomesmallchildrenconcealedinthedepthsoftheship,andhethoughttheywereverywellwheretheywere。Hiseldestsonwasaboutthedeckssomewhere。

  “WeareAmericans,“heremarkedweightily,butinaratherpeculiartone。HespokeEnglishwiththeaccentofourcaptain\'s“wonderfulpeople,“andproceededtogivemethehistoryofthefamily\'scrossingtheAtlanticinaWhiteStarliner。TheyremainedinEnglandjustthetimenecessaryforarailwayjourneyfromLiverpooltoHarwich。Hispeoplethoseinthedepthsoftheship

  werenaturallyalittletired。

  Atthatmomentayoungmanofabouttwenty,hisson,rusheduptousfromthefore-deckinastateofintenseelation。“Hurrah,“hecriedunderhisbreath。“ThefirstGermanlight!Hurrah!“

  AndthosetwoAmericancitizensshookhandsonitwiththegreatestfervour,whileIturnedawayandreceivedfullintheeyesthebrilliantwinkoftheBorkumlighthousesquattinglowdowninthedarkness。TheshadeofthenighthadsettledontheNorthSea。

  IdonotthinkIhaveeverseenbeforeanightsofulloflights。

  Thegreatchangeofsealifesincemytimewasbroughthometome。

  Ihadbeenconsciousalldayofaninterminableprocessionofsteamers。Theywentonandonasifinchaseofeachother,theBaltictrade,thetradeofScandinavia,ofDenmark,ofGermany,pitchingheavilyintoaheadseaandboundforthegatewayofDoverStraits。Singly,andinsmallcompaniesoftwoandthree,theyemergedfromthedull,colourless,sunlessdistancesaheadasifthesupplyofratherroughlyfinishedmechanicaltoyswereinexhaustibleinsomemysteriouscheapstoreawaythere,belowthegreycurveoftheearth。Cargosteamvesselshavereachedbythistimeaheightofutilitarianuglinesswhich,whenonereflectsthatitistheproductofhumaningenuity,strikeshopelessaweintoone。Thesedismalcreationslookstilluglieratseathaninport,andwithanaddedtouchoftheridiculous。Theirrollingwaddlewhenseenatacertainangle,theirabruptclockworknoddinginasea-way,sounlikethesoaringliftandswingofacraftundersail,haveinthemsomethingcaricatural,asuggestionofalowparodydirectedatnoblepredecessorsbyanimprovedgenerationofdull,mechanicaltoilers,conceitedandwithoutgrace。

  Whentheyswitchedoneachoftheseunlovelycargotankscarriedtamelightningwithinitsslab-sidedbody,whentheyswitchedontheirlampstheyspangledthenightwiththecheap,electric,shop-

  glitter,here,there,andeverywhere,asofsomeHighStreet,brokenupandwashedouttosea。Later,Heligolandcutintotheoverheaddarknesswithitspowerfulbeam,infinitelyprolongedoutofunfathomablenightundertheclouds。

  Iremainedondeckuntilwestoppedandasteampilot-boat,sooverlightedamidshipsthatonecouldnotmakeouthercompleteshape,glidedacrossourbowsandsentapilotonboard。Ifearthattheoar,asaworkingimplement,willbecomepresentlyasobsoleteasthesail。Thepilotboardedusinamotor-dinghy。

  Moreandmoreismankindreducingitsphysicalactivitiestopullingleversandtwirlinglittlewheels。Progress!Yettheoldermethodsofmeetingnaturalforcesdemandedintelligencetoo;

  anequallyfinereadinessofwits。Andreadinessofwitsworkingincombinationwiththestrengthofmusclesmadeamorecompleteman。

  Itwasreallyasurprisinglysmalldinghyanditrantoandfrolikeawater-insectfussingnoisilydowntherewithimmenseself-

  importance。WithinhailofusthehulloftheElbelightshipfloatedalldarkandsilentunderitsenormousround,servicelantern;afaithfulblackshadowwatchingthebroadestuaryfulloflights。

  SuchwasmyfirstviewoftheElbeapproachedunderthewingsofpeacereadyforflightawayfromthelucklessshoresofEurope。

  OurvisualimpressionsremainwithussopersistentlythatIfinditextremelydifficulttoholdfasttotherationalbeliefthatnoweverythingisdarkoverthere,thattheElbelightshiphasbeentowedawayfromitspostofduty,thetriumphantbeamofHeligolandextinguished,andthepilot-boatlaidup,orturnedtowarlikeusesforlackofitsproperworktodo。Andobviouslyitmustbeso。

  Anytrickleofoverseatradethatpassesyetthatwaymustbecreepingalongcautiouslywiththeunlighted,war-blightedblackcoastcloseononehand,andsuddendeathontheother。ForallthespacewesteamedthroughthatSundayeveningmustnowbeonegreatminefield,sownthicklywiththeseedsofhate;whilesubmarinesstealouttosea,overtheveryspotperhapswheretheinsect-dinghyputapilotonboardofuswithsomuchfussyimportance。Mines;Submarines。Thelastwordinsea-warfare!

  Progress——impressivelydisclosedbythiswar。

  Therehavebeenotherwars!Warsnotinferiorinthegreatnessofthestakeandinthefierceanimosityoffeelings。DuringthatonewhichwasfinishedahundredyearsagoithappenedthatwhiletheEnglishFleetwaskeepingwatchonBrest,anAmerican,perhapsFultonhimself,offeredtotheMaritimePrefectoftheportandtotheFrenchAdmiral,aninventionwhichwouldsinkalltheunsuspectingEnglishshipsoneafteranother——or,atanyratemostofthem。Theofferwasnoteventakenintoconsideration;andthePrefectendshisreporttotheMinisterinPariswithafinephraseofindignation:“Itisnotthesortofdeathonewoulddealtobravemen。”

  Andbehold,beforehistoryhadtimetohatchanotherwarofthelikeproportionsintheintensityofarousedpassionsandthegreatnessofissues,thedeadflavourofarchaismdescendedonthemanlysentimentofthoseself-denyingwords。Mankindhasbeendemoralisedsincebyitsownmasteryofmechanicalappliances。Itsspiritisapparentlysoweaknow,anditsfleshhasgrownsostrong,thatitwillfaceanydeadlyhorrorofdestructionandcannotresistthetemptationtouseanystealthy,murderouscontrivance。Ithasbecometheintoxicatedslaveofitsowndetestableingenuity。Itistrue,too,thatsincetheNapoleonictimeanothersortofwar-doctrinehasbeeninculcatedinanation,andheldouttotheworld。

  IV

  Onthisjourneyofours,whichformewasessentiallynotaprogress,butaretracingoffootstepsontheroadoflife,IhadnobeaconstolookforinGermany。Ihadneverlingeredinthatlandwhich,onthewhole,issosingularlybarrenofmemorablemanifestationsofgeneroussympathiesandmagnanimousimpulses。Anineradicable,invincible,provincialismofenvyandvanityclingstotheformsofitsthoughtlikeafrowsygarment。EvenwhileyetveryyoungIturnedmyeyesawayfromitinstinctivelyasfromathreateningphantom。Ibelievethatchildrenanddogshave,intheirinnocence,aspecialpowerofperceptionasfarasspectralapparitionsandcomingmisfortunesareconcerned。

  IletmyselfbecarriedthroughGermanyasifitwerepurespace,withoutsights,withoutsounds。Nowhispersofthewarreachedmyvoluntaryabstraction。Andperhapsnotsoveryvoluntaryafterall!Eachofusisafascinatingspectacletohimself,andIhadtowatchmyownpersonalityreturningfromanotherworld,asitwere,torevisittheglimpsesofoldmoons。Consideringtheconditionofhumanity,Iam,perhaps,notsomuchtoblameforgivingmyselfuptothatoccupation。Weprizethesensationofourcontinuity,andwecanonlycaptureitinthatway。Bywatching。

  WearrivedinCracowlateatnight。Afterascramblysupper,I

  saidtomyeldestboy,“Ican\'tgotobed。Iamgoingoutforalookround。Coming?“

  Hewasreadyenough。Forhim,allthiswaspartoftheinterestingadventureofthewholejourney。Westeppedoutoftheportalofthehotelintoanemptystreet,verysilentandbrightwithmoonlight。Iwas,indeed,revisitingtheglimpsesofthemoon。I

  feltsomuchlikeaghostthatthediscoverythatIcouldremembersuchmaterialthingsastherightturntotakeandthegeneraldirectionofthestreetgavemeamomentofwistfulsurprise。

  Thestreet,straightandnarrow,ranintothegreatMarketSquareofthetown,thecentreofitsaffairsandofthelightersideofitslife。Wecouldseeatthefarendofthestreetapromisingwideningofspace。Atthecorneranunassumingbutarmed

  policeman,wearingceremoniouslyatmidnightapairofwhitegloveswhichmadehisbighandsextremelynoticeable,turnedhisheadtolookatthegrizzledforeignerholdingforthinastrangetonguetoayouthonwhosearmheleaned。

  TheSquare,immenseinitssolitude,wasfulltothebrimofmoonlight。Thegarlandoflightsatthefootofthehousesseemedtoburnatthebottomofabluishpool。InoticedwithinfinitesatisfactionthattheunnecessarytreestheMunicipalityinsisteduponstickingbetweenthestoneshadbeensteadilyrefusingtogrow。TheywerenotabitbiggerthanthepoorvictimsIcouldremember。Also,thepavingoperationsseemedtobeexactlyatthesamepointatwhichIleftthemfortyyearsbefore。Therewerethedull,torn-uppatchesonthatbrightexpanse,thepilesofpavingmateriallookingominouslyblack,likeheadsofrocksonasilverysea。WhowasitthatsaidthatTimeworkswonders?Whatanexplodedsuperstition!Asfarasthesetreesandthesepavingstoneswereconcerned,ithadworkednothing。Thesuspicionoftheunchangeablenessofthingsalreadyvaguelysuggestedtomysensesbyourrapiddrivefromtherailwaystationwasagreeablystrengthenedwithinme。

  “WearenowonthelineA。B。,“Isaidtomycompanion,importantly。

  ItwasthenamebestowedinmytimeononeofthesidesoftheSquarebytheseniorstudentsofthattownofclassicallearningandhistoricalrelics。Thecommoncitizensknewnothingofit,and,eveniftheyhad,wouldnothavedreamedoftakingitseriously。Hewhouseditwasoftheinitiated,belongedtotheSchools。Weyoungstersregardedthatnameasafinejest,theinventionofamostexcellentfancy。EvenasIutteredittomyboyIexperiencedagainthatsenseofmyprivilegedinitiation。

  Andthen,happeningtolookupatthewall,Isawinthelightofthecornerlamp,awhite,cast-irontabletfixedthereon,bearinganinscriptioninraisedblackletters,thus:“LineA。B。”

  Heavens!Thenamehadbeenadoptedofficially!Anytownurchin,anyguttersnipe,anyherb-sellingwomanofthemarket-place,anywanderingBoeotian,wasfreetotalkofthelineA。B。,towalkonthelineA。B。,toappointtomeethisfriendsonthelineA。B。Ithadbecomeamerenameinadirectory。Iwasstunnedbytheextrememutabilityofthings。Timecouldworkwonders,andnomistake。AMunicipalityhadstolenaninventionofexcellentfancy,andafinejesthadturnedintoahorridpieceofcast-iron。

  Iproposedthatweshouldwalktotheotherendoftheline,usingtheprofanedname,notonlywithoutgusto,butwithpositivedistaste。Andthis,too,wasoneofthewondersofTime,forabareminutehadworkedthatchange。TherewasattheendofthelineacertainstreetIwantedtolookat,Iexplainedtomycompanion。

  ToourrighttheunequalmassivetowersofSt。Mary\'sChurchsoaredaloftintotheetherealradianceoftheair,veryblackontheirshadedsides,glowingwithasoftphosphorescentsheenontheothers。InthedistancetheFlorianGate,thickandsquatunderitspointedroof,barredthestreetwiththesquareshouldersoftheoldcitywall。Inthenarrow,brilliantlypalevistaofbluishflagstonesandsilveryfrontsofhouses,itsblackarchwaystoodoutsmallandverydistinct。

  Therewasnotasoulinsight,andnoteventheechoofafootstepforourears。Intothiscoldlyilluminatedanddumbemptinessthereissuedoutofmyarousedmemory,asmallboyofeleven,wendinghisway,notveryfast,toapreparatoryschoolforday-

  pupilsonthesecondfloorofthethirdhousedownfromtheFlorianGate。Itwasinthewintermonthsof1868。Ateighto\'clockofeverymorningthatGodmade,sleetorshine,IwalkedupFlorianStreet。Butofthat,myfirstschool,Irememberverylittle。I

  believethatoneofmyco-suffererstherehasbecomeamuchappreciatededitorofhistoricaldocuments。ButIdidn\'tsuffermuchfromthevariousimperfectionsofmyfirstschool。Iwasratherindifferenttoschooltroubles。Ihadaprivategnawingwormofmyown。Thiswasthetimeofmyfather\'slastillness。

  Everyeveningatseven,turningmybackontheFlorianGate,I

  walkedallthewaytoabigoldhouseinaquietnarrowstreetagooddistancebeyondtheGreatSquare。There,inalargedrawing-

  room,panelledandbare,withheavycornicesandaloftyceiling,inalittleoasisoflightmadebytwocandlesinadesertofdusk,Isatatalittletabletoworryandinkmyselfallovertillthetaskofmypreparationwasdone。Thetableofmytoilfacedatallwhitedoor,whichwaskeptclosed;nowandthenitwouldcomeajarandanuninawhitecoifwouldsqueezeherselfthroughthecrack,glideacrosstheroom,anddisappear。Thereweretwoofthesenoiselessnursingnuns。Theirvoiceswereseldomheard。For,indeed,whatcouldtheyhavehadtosay?Whentheydidspeaktomeitwaswiththeirlipshardlymoving,inaclaustral,clearwhisper。Ourdomesticmatterswereorderedbytheelderlyhousekeeperofourneighbouronthesecondfloor,aCanonoftheCathedral,lentfortheemergency。She,too,spokebutseldom。

  Sheworeablackdresswithacrosshangingbyachainonheramplebosom。Andthoughwhenshespokeshemovedherlipsmorethanthenuns,sheneverlethervoiceriseaboveapeacefullymurmuringnote。Theairaroundmewasallpiety,resignation,andsilence。

  Idon\'tknowwhatwouldhavebecomeofmeifIhadnotbeenareadingboy。Myprep。finishedIwouldhavehadnothingtodobutsitandwatchtheawfulstillnessofthesickroomflowoutthroughthecloseddoorandcoldlyenfoldmyscaredheart。IsupposethatinafutilechildishwayIwouldhavegonecrazy。ButIwasareadingboy。Thereweremanybooksabout,lyingonconsoles,ontables,andevenonthefloor,forwehadnothadtimetosettledown。Iread!WhatdidInotread!Sometimestheeldernun,glidingupandcastingamistrustfullookontheopenpages,wouldlayherhandlightlyonmyheadandsuggestinadoubtfulwhisper,“Perhapsitisnotverygoodforyoutoreadthesebooks。”Iwouldraisemyeyestoherfacemutely,andwithavaguegestureofgivingitupshewouldglideaway。

  Laterintheevening,butnotalways,Iwouldbepermittedtotip-

  toeintothesickroomtosaygood-nighttothefigureproneonthebed,whichoftencouldnotacknowledgemypresencebutbyaslowmovementoftheeyes,putmylipsdutifullytothenervelesshandlyingonthecoverlet,andtip-toeoutagain。ThenIwouldgotobed,inaroomattheendofthecorridor,andoften,notalways,crymyselfintoagoodsoundsleep。

  Ilookedforwardtowhatwascomingwithanincredulousterror。I

  turnedmyeyesfromitsometimeswithsuccess,andyetallthetimeIhadanawfulsensationoftheinevitable。Ihadalsomomentsofrevoltwhichstrippedoffmesomeofmysimpletrustinthegovernmentoftheuniverse。Butwhentheinevitableenteredthesickroomandthewhitedoorwasthrownwideopen,Idon\'tthinkI

  foundasingleteartoshed。IhaveasuspicionthattheCanon\'shousekeeperlookedonmeasthemostcallouslittlewretchonearth。

  Thedayofthefuneralcameinduecourseandallthegenerous“YouthoftheSchools,“thegraveSenateoftheUniversity,thedelegationsoftheTrade-guilds,mighthaveobtainediftheycaredDEVISUevidenceofthecallousnessofthelittlewretch。

  Therewasnothinginmyachingheadbutafewwords,somesuchstupidsentencesas,“It\'sdone,“or,“It\'saccomplished“inPolishitismuchshorter,orsomethingofthesort,repeatingitselfendlessly。Thelongprocessionmovedoutofthenarrowstreet,downalongstreet,pasttheGothicfrontofSt。Mary\'sunderitsunequaltowers,towardstheFlorianGate。

  Inthemoonlight-floodedsilenceoftheoldtownofglorioustombsandtragicmemories,Icouldseeagainthesmallboyofthatdayfollowingahearse;aspacekeptclearinwhichIwalkedalone,consciousofanenormousfollowing,theclumsyswayingofthetallblackmachine,thechantingofthesurplicedclergyatthehead,theflamesoftaperspassingunderthelowarchwayofthegate,therowsofbaredheadsonthepavementswithfixed,seriouseyes。

  HalfthepopulationhadturnedoutonthatfineMayafternoon。

  Theyhadnotcometohonouragreatachievement,orevensomesplendidfailure。Thedeadandtheywerevictimsalikeofanunrelentingdestinywhichcutthemofffromeverypathofmeritandglory。Theyhadcomeonlytorenderhomagetotheardentfidelityofthemanwhoselifehadbeenafearlessconfessioninwordanddeedofacreedwhichthesimplestheartinthatcrowdcouldfeelandunderstand。

  ItseemedtomethatifIremainedlongerthereinthatnarrowstreetIshouldbecomethehelplesspreyoftheShadowsIhadcalledup。Theywerecrowdinguponme,enigmaticandinsistentintheirclingingairofthegravethattastedofdustandofthebittervanityofoldhopes。

  “Let\'sgobacktothehotel,myboy,“Isaid。“It\'sgettinglate。”

  ItwillbeeasilyunderstoodthatIneitherthoughtnordreamtthatnightofapossiblewar。ForthenexttwodaysIwentaboutamongstmyfellowmen,whowelcomedmewiththeutmostconsiderationandfriendliness,butunanimouslyderidedmyfearsofawar。Theywouldnotbelieveinit。Itwasimpossible。OntheeveningoftheseconddayIwasinthehotel\'ssmokingroom,anirrationallyprivateapartment,asanctuaryforafewchoicemindsofthetown,alwayspervadedbyadimreligiouslight,andmorehushedthananyclubreading-roomIhaveeverbeenin。Gatheredintoasmallknot,wewerediscussingthesituationinsubduedtonessuitabletothegeniusoftheplace。

  Agentlemanwithafineheadofwhitehairsuddenlypointedanimpatientfingerinmydirectionandapostrophisedme。

  “WhatIwanttoknowiswhether,shouldtherebewar,Englandwouldcomein。”

  Thetimetodrawabreath,andIspokeoutfortheCabinetwithoutfaltering。

  “Mostassuredly。IshouldthinkallEuropeknowsthatbythistime。”

  Hetookholdofthelapelofmycoat,and,givingitaslightjerkforgreateremphasis,saidforcibly:

  “Then,ifEnglandwill,asyousay,andalltheworldknowsit,therecanbenowar。Germanywon\'tbesomadasthat。”

  OnthemorrowbynoonwereadoftheGermanultimatum。Thedayaftercamethedeclarationofwar,andtheAustrianmobilisationorder。Wewerefairlycaught。Allthatremainedformetodowastogetmypartyoutofthewayofeventualshells。ThebestmovewhichoccurredtomewastosnatchthemupinstantlyintothemountainstoaPolishhealthresortofgreatrepute——whichIdidattherateofonehundredmilesinelevenhoursbythelastciviliantrainpermittedtoleaveCracowforthenextthreeweeks。

  AndthereweremainedamongstthePolesfromallpartsofPoland,notofficiallyinterned,butsimplyunabletoobtainthepermissiontotravelbytrain,orroad。Itwasawonderful,apoignanttwomonths。Thisisnotthetime,and,perhaps,nottheplace,toenlargeuponthetragiccharacterofthesituation;awholepeopleseeingtheculminationofitsmisfortunesinafinalcatastrophe,unabletotrustanyone,toappealtoanyone,tolookforhelpfromanyquarter;deprivedofallhopeandevenofitslastillusions,andunable,inthetroubleofmindsandtheunrestofconsciences,totakerefugeinstoicalacceptance。Ihaveseenallthis。AndI

  amgladIhavenotsomanyyearsleftmetorememberthatappallingfeelingofinexorablefate,tangible,palpable,comeaftersomanycruelyears,afigureofdread,murmuringwithironlipsthefinalwords:Ruin——andExtinction。

  Butenoughofthis。ForourlittlebandtherewastheawfulanguishofincertitudeastotherealnatureofeventsintheWest。

  Itisdifficulttogiveanideahowuglyanddangerousthingslookedtousoverthere。Belgiumknockeddownandtrampledoutofexistence,Francegivinginunderrepeatedblows,amilitarycollapselikethatof1870,andEnglandinvolvedinthatdisastrousalliance,herarmysacrificed,herpeopleinapanic!Polishpapers,ofcourse,hadnootherbutGermansourcesofinformation。

  Naturally,wedidnotbelieveallweread,butitwassometimesexcessivelydifficulttoreactwithsufficientfirmness。

  Weusedtoshutourdoor,andthere,awayfromeverybody,wesatweighingthenews,huntingupdiscrepancies,scentinglies,findingreasonsforhopefulness,andgenerallycheeringeachotherup。Butitwasabeastlytime。Peopleusedtocometomewithveryseriousnewsandask,“Whatdoyouthinkofit?“Andmyinvariableanswerwas:“Whateverhashappened,orisgoingtohappen,whoeverwantstomakepeace,youmaybecertainthatEnglandwillnotmakeit,notfortenyears,ifnecessary。”\'

  Butenoughofthis,too。ThroughtheunremittingeffortsofPolishfriendsweobtainedatlastthepermissiontotraveltoVienna。

  Oncethere,thewingoftheAmericanEaglewasextendedoverouruneasyheads。WecannotbesufficientlygratefultotheAmericanAmbassadorwho,allalong,interestedhimselfinourfateforhisexertionsonourbehalf,hisinvaluableassistanceandtherealfriendlinessofhisreceptioninVienna。OwingtoMr。Penfield\'sactionweobtainedthepermissiontoleaveAustria。Anditwasanearthing,forhisExcellencyhasinformedmyAmericanpublisherssincethataweeklaterorderswereissuedtohaveusdetainedtilltheendofthewar。However,weeffectedourhair\'s-breadthescapeintoItaly;and,reachingGenoa,tookpassageinaDutchmailsteamer,homeward-boundfromJavawithLondonasaportofcall。

  Onthatsea-routeImighthavepickedupamemoryateverymileifthepasthadnotbeeneclipsedbythetremendousactuality。WesawthesignsofitintheemptinessoftheMediterranean,theaspectofGibraltar,themistyglimpseintheBayofBiscayofanoutward-

  boundconvoyoftransports,inthepresenceofBritishsubmarinesintheChannel。InnumerabledriftersflyingtheNavalflagdottedthenarrowwaters,andtwoNavalofficerscomingonboardofftheSouthForeland,pilotedtheshipthroughtheDowns。

  TheDowns!Theretheywere,thickwiththememoriesofmysea-

  life。Butwhatweretomenowthefutilitiesofanindividualpast?Asourship\'sheadswungintotheestuaryoftheThames,adeep,yetfaint,concussionpassedthroughtheair,ashockratherthanasound,whichmissingmyearfounditswaystraightintomyheart。Turninginstinctivelytolookatmyboys,Ihappenedtomeetmywife\'seyes。Shealsohadfeltprofoundly,comingfromfarawayacrossthegreydistancesofthesea,thefaintboomofthebiggunsatworkonthecoastofFlanders——shapingthefuture。

  FIRSTNEWS——1918

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