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  “ThebarebranchesagainsttheskydoonesomuchGOOD,“Mrs。Sealasserted,lookingoutintotheSquare。

  “Butonecan\'tlunchofftrees,Sally,“saidMary。

  “IconfessIdon\'tknowhowyoumanageit,MissDatchet,“Mr。Clactonremarked。“Ishouldsleepalltheafternoon,Iknow,ifItookaheavymealinthemiddleoftheday。“

  “What\'stheverylatestthinginliterature?“Maryasked,good-

  humoredlypointingtotheyellow-coveredvolumebeneathMr。Clacton\'sarm,forheinvariablyreadsomenewFrenchauthoratlunch-time,orsqueezedinavisittoapicturegallery,balancinghissocialworkwithanardentcultureofwhichhewassecretlyproud,asMaryhadverysoondivined。

  SotheypartedandMarywalkedaway,wonderingiftheyguessedthatshereallywantedtogetawayfromthem,andsupposingthattheyhadnotquitereachedthatdegreeofsubtlety。Sheboughtherselfaneveningpaper,whichshereadassheate,lookingoverthetopofitagainandagainatthequeerpeoplewhowerebuyingcakesorimpartingtheirsecrets,untilsomeyoungwomanwhomsheknewcamein,andshecalledout,“Eleanor,comeandsitbyme,“andtheyfinishedtheirlunchtogether,partingonthestripofpavementamongthedifferentlinesoftrafficwithapleasantfeelingthattheyweresteppingoncemoreintotheirseparateplacesinthegreatandeternallymovingpatternofhumanlife。

  But,insteadofgoingstraightbacktotheofficeto-day,MaryturnedintotheBritishMuseum,andstrolleddownthegallerywiththeshapesofstoneuntilshefoundanemptyseatdirectlybeneaththegazeoftheElginmarbles。Shelookedatthem,andseemed,asusual,borneuponsomewaveofexaltationandemotion,bywhichherlifeatoncebecamesolemnandbeautiful——animpressionwhichwasdueasmuch,perhaps,tothesolitudeandchillandsilenceofthegalleryastotheactualbeautyofthestatues。Onemustsuppose,atleast,thatheremotionswerenotpurelyesthetic,because,aftershehadgazedattheUlyssesforaminuteortwo,shebegantothinkaboutRalphDenham。Sosecuredidshefeelwiththesesilentshapesthatshealmostyieldedtoanimpulsetosay“Iaminlovewithyou“aloud。Thepresenceofthisimmenseandenduringbeautymadeheralmostalarminglyconsciousofherdesire,andatthesametimeproudofafeelingwhichdidnotdisplayanythinglikethesameproportionswhenshewasgoingaboutherdailywork。

  Sherepressedherimpulsetospeakaloud,androseandwanderedaboutratheraimlesslyamongthestatuesuntilshefoundherselfinanothergallerydevotedtoengravedobelisksandwingedAssyrianbulls,andheremotiontookanotherturn。ShebegantopictureherselftravelingwithRalphinalandwherethesemonsterswerecouchantinthesand。

  “For,“shethoughttoherself,asshegazedfixedlyatsomeinformationprintedbehindapieceofglass,“thewonderfulthingaboutyouisthatyou\'rereadyforanything;you\'renotintheleastconventional,likemostclevermen。“

  Andsheconjuredupasceneofherselfonacamel\'sback,inthedesert,whileRalphcommandedawholetribeofnatives。

  “Thatiswhatyoucando,“shewenton,movingontothenextstatue。

  “Youalwaysmakepeopledowhatyouwant。“

  Aglowspreadoverherspirit,andfilledhereyeswithbrightness。

  Nevertheless,beforeshelefttheMuseumshewasveryfarfromsaying,evenintheprivacyofherownmind,“Iaminlovewithyou,“andthatsentencemightverywellneverhaveframeditself。Shewas,indeed,ratherannoyedwithherselfforhavingallowedsuchanill-consideredbreachofherreserve,weakeningherpowersofresistance,shefelt,shouldthisimpulsereturnagain。For,asshewalkedalongthestreettoheroffice,theforceofallhercustomaryobjectionstobeinginlovewithanyoneovercameher。Shedidnotwanttomarryatall。Itseemedtoherthattherewassomethingamateurishinbringingloveintotouchwithaperfectlystraightforwardfriendship,suchasherswaswithRalph,which,fortwoyearsnow,hadbaseditselfuponcommoninterestsinimpersonaltopics,suchasthehousingofthepoor,orthetaxationoflandvalues。

  Buttheafternoonspiritdifferedintrinsicallyfromthemorningspirit。Maryfoundherselfwatchingtheflightofabird,ormakingdrawingsofthebranchesoftheplane-treesuponherblotting-paper。

  PeoplecameintoseeMr。Clactononbusiness,andaseductivesmellofcigarettesmokeissuedfromhisroom。Mrs。Sealwanderedaboutwithnewspapercuttings,whichseemedtohereither“quitesplendid“or“reallytoobadforwords。“Sheusedtopastetheseintobooks,orsendthemtoherfriends,havingfirstdrawnabroadbarinbluepencildownthemargin,aproceedingwhichsignifiedequallyandindistinguishablythedepthsofherreprobationortheheightsofherapproval。

  Aboutfouro\'clockonthatsameafternoonKatharineHilberywaswalkingupKingsway。Thequestionofteapresenteditself。Thestreetlampswerebeinglitalready,andasshestoodstillforamomentbeneathoneofthem,shetriedtothinkofsomeneighboringdrawing-roomwheretherewouldbefirelightandtalkcongenialtohermood。Thatmood,owingtothespinningtrafficandtheeveningveilofunreality,wasill-adaptedtoherhomesurroundings。Perhaps,onthewhole,ashopwasthebestplaceinwhichtopreservethisqueersenseofheightenedexistence。Atthesametimeshewishedtotalk。

  RememberingMaryDatchetandherrepeatedinvitations,shecrossedtheroad,turnedintoRussellSquare,andpeeredabout,seekingfornumberswithasenseofadventurethatwasoutofallproportiontothedeeditself。Shefoundherselfinadimlylightedhall,unguardedbyaporter,andpushedopenthefirstswingdoor。Buttheoffice-boyhadneverheardofMissDatchet。DidshebelongtotheS。R。F。R。?

  Katharineshookherheadwithasmileofdismay。Avoicefromwithinshouted,“No。TheS。G。S——topfloor。“

  Katharinemountedpastinnumerableglassdoors,withinitialsonthem,andbecamesteadilymoreandmoredoubtfulofthewisdomofherventure。Atthetopshepausedforamomenttobreatheandcollectherself。Sheheardthetypewriterandformalprofessionalvoicesinside,notbelonging,shethought,toanyoneshehadeverspokento。

  Shetouchedthebell,andthedoorwasopenedalmostimmediatelybyMaryherself。HerfacehadtochangeitsexpressionentirelywhenshesawKatharine。

  “You!“sheexclaimed。“Wethoughtyouweretheprinter。“Stillholdingthedooropen,shecalledback,“No,Mr。Clacton,it\'snotPenningtons。Ishouldringthemupagain——doublethreedoubleeight,Central。Well,thisisasurprise。Comein,“sheadded。“You\'rejustintimefortea。“

  ThelightofreliefshoneinMary\'seyes。Theboredomoftheafternoonwasdissipatedatonce,andshewasgladthatKatharinehadfoundtheminamomentarypressofactivity,owingtothefailureoftheprintertosendbackcertainproofs。

  TheunshadedelectriclightshininguponthetablecoveredwithpapersdazedKatharineforamoment。Aftertheconfusionofhertwilightwalk,andherrandomthoughts,lifeinthissmallroomappearedextremelyconcentratedandbright。Sheturnedinstinctivelytolookoutofthewindow,whichwasuncurtained,butMaryimmediatelyrecalledher。

  “Itwasverycleverofyoutofindyourway,“shesaid,andKatharinewondered,asshestoodthere,feeling,forthemoment,entirelydetachedandunabsorbed,whyshehadcome。Shelooked,indeed,toMary\'seyesstrangelyoutofplaceintheoffice。Herfigureinthelongcloak,whichtookdeepfolds,andherface,whichwascomposedintoamaskofsensitiveapprehension,disturbedMaryforamomentwithasenseofthepresenceofsomeonewhowasofanotherworld,and,therefore,subversiveofherworld。ShebecameimmediatelyanxiousthatKatharineshouldbeimpressedbytheimportanceofherworld,andhopedthatneitherMrs。SealnorMr。Clactonwouldappearuntiltheimpressionofimportancehadbeenreceived。Butinthisshewasdisappointed。Mrs。Sealburstintotheroomholdingakettleinherhand,whichshesetuponthestove,andthen,withinefficienthaste,shesetlighttothegas,whichflaredup,exploded,andwentout。

  “Alwaystheway,alwaystheway,“shemuttered。“KitMarkhamistheonlypersonwhoknowshowtodealwiththething。“

  Maryhadtogotoherhelp,andtogethertheyspreadthetable,andapologizedforthedisparitybetweenthecupsandtheplainnessofthefood。

  “IfwehadknownMissHilberywascoming,weshouldhaveboughtacake,“saidMary,uponwhichMrs。SeallookedatKatharineforthefirsttime,suspiciously,becauseshewasapersonwhoneededcake。

  HereMr。Clactonopenedthedoor,andcamein,holdingatypewrittenletterinhishand,whichhewasreadingaloud。

  “Salford\'saffiliated,“hesaid。

  “Welldone,Salford!“Mrs。Sealexclaimedenthusiastically,thumpingtheteapotwhichshehelduponthetable,intokenofapplause。

  “Yes,theseprovincialcentersseemtobecomingintolineatlast,“

  saidMr。Clacton,andthenMaryintroducedhimtoMissHilbery,andheaskedher,inaveryformalmanner,ifshewereinterested“inourwork。“

  “Andtheproofsstillnotcome?“saidMrs。Seal,puttingbothherelbowsonthetable,andproppingherchinonherhands,asMarybegantopourouttea。“It\'stoobad——toobad。Atthisrateweshallmissthecountrypost。Whichremindsme,Mr。Clacton,don\'tyouthinkweshouldcircularizetheprovinceswithPartridge\'slastspeech?What?

  You\'venotreadit?Oh,it\'sthebestthingthey\'vehadintheHousethisSession。EventhePrimeMinister——“

  ButMarycuthershort。

  “Wedon\'tallowshopattea,Sally,“shesaidfirmly。“Wefineherapennyeachtimesheforgets,andthefinesgotobuyingaplumcake,“

  sheexplained,seekingtodrawKatharineintothecommunity。Shehadgivenupallhopeofimpressingher。

  “I\'msorry,I\'msorry,“Mrs。Sealapologized。“It\'smymisfortunetobeanenthusiast,“shesaid,turningtoKatharine。“Myfather\'sdaughtercouldhardlybeanythingelse。IthinkI\'vebeenonasmanycommitteesasmostpeople。WaifsandStrays,RescueWork,ChurchWork,C。O。S——localbranch——besidestheusualcivicdutieswhichfalltooneasahouseholder。ButI\'vegiventhemallupforourworkhere,andIdon\'tregretitforasecond,“sheadded。“Thisistherootquestion,Ifeel;untilwomenhavevotes——“

  “It\'llbesixpence,atleast,Sally,“saidMary,bringingherfistdownonthetable。“Andwe\'reallsicktodeathofwomenandtheirvotes。“

  Mrs。Seallookedforamomentasthoughshecouldhardlybelieveherears,andmadeadeprecating“tut-tut-tut“inherthroat,lookingalternatelyatKatharineandMary,andshakingherheadasshedidso。

  Thensheremarked,ratherconfidentiallytoKatharine,withalittlenodinMary\'sdirection:

  “She\'sdoingmoreforthecausethananyofus。She\'sgivingheryouth——for,alas!whenIwasyoungthereweredomesticcircumstances——“shesighed,andstoppedshort。

  Mr。Clactonhastilyrevertedtothejokeaboutluncheon,andexplainedhowMrs。Sealfedonabagofbiscuitsunderthetrees,whatevertheweathermightbe,rather,Katharinethought,asthoughMrs。Sealwereapetdogwhohadconvenienttricks。

  “Yes,Itookmylittlebagintothesquare,“saidMrs。Seal,withtheself-consciousguiltofachildowningsomefaulttoitselders。“Itwasreallyverysustaining,andthebareboughsagainsttheskydoonesomuchGOOD。ButIshallhavetogiveupgoingintothesquare,“sheproceeded,wrinklingherforehead。“Theinjusticeofit!WhyshouldI

  haveabeautifulsquarealltomyself,whenpoorwomenwhoneedresthavenowhereatalltosit?“ShelookedfiercelyatKatharine,givinghershortlocksalittleshake。“It\'sdreadfulwhatatyrantonestillis,inspiteofallone\'sefforts。Onetriestoleadadecentlife,butonecan\'t。Ofcourse,directlyonethinksofit,oneseesthatALL

  squaresshouldbeopentoEVERYONE。Isthereanysocietywiththatobject,Mr。Clacton?Ifnot,thereshouldbe,surely。“

  “Amostexcellentobject,“saidMr。Clactoninhisprofessionalmanner。“Atthesametime,onemustdeploretheramificationoforganizations,Mrs。Seal。Somuchexcellenteffortthrownaway,nottospeakofpounds,shillings,andpence。NowhowmanyorganizationsofaphilanthropicnaturedoyousupposethereareintheCityofLondonitself,MissHilbery?“headded,screwinghismouthintoaqueerlittlesmile,asiftoshowthatthequestionhaditsfrivolousside。

  Katharinesmiled,too。Herunlikenesstotherestofthemhad,bythistime,penetratedtoMr。Clacton,whowasnotnaturallyobservant,andhewaswonderingwhoshewas;thissameunlikenesshadsubtlystimulatedMrs。Sealtotryandmakeaconvertofher。Mary,too,lookedatheralmostasifshebeggedhertomakethingseasy。ForKatharinehadshownnodispositiontomakethingseasy。Shehadscarcelyspoken,andhersilence,thoughgraveandeventhoughtful,seemedtoMarythesilenceofonewhocriticizes。

  “Well,therearemoreinthishousethanI\'danynotionof,“shesaid。

  “Onthegroundflooryouprotectnatives,onthenextyouemigratewomenandtellpeopletoeatnuts——“

  “Whydoyousaythat\'we\'dothesethings?“Maryinterposed,rathersharply。“We\'renotresponsibleforallthecrankswhochoosetolodgeinthesamehousewithus。“

  Mr。Clactonclearedhisthroatandlookedateachoftheyoungladiesinturn。HewasagooddealstruckbytheappearanceandmannerofMissHilbery,whichseemedtohimtoplaceheramongthosecultivatedandluxuriouspeopleofwhomheusedtodream。Mary,ontheotherhand,wasmoreofhisownsort,andalittletoomuchinclinedtoorderhimabout。Hepickedupcrumbsofdrybiscuitandputthemintohismouthwithincrediblerapidity。

  “Youdon\'tbelongtooursociety,then?“saidMrs。Seal。

  “No,I\'mafraidIdon\'t,“saidKatharine,withsuchreadycandorthatMrs。Sealwasnonplussed,andstaredatherwithapuzzledexpression,asifshecouldnotclassifyheramongthevarietiesofhumanbeingsknowntoher。

  “Butsurely“shebegan。

  “Mrs。Sealisanenthusiastinthesematters,“saidMr。Clacton,almostapologetically。“Wehavetoremindhersometimesthatothershavearighttotheirviewseveniftheydifferfromourown……

  “Punch“hasaveryfunnypicturethisweek,aboutaSuffragistandanagriculturallaborer。Haveyouseenthisweek\'s“Punch,“MissDatchet?“

  Marylaughed,andsaid“No。“

  Mr。Clactonthentoldthemthesubstanceofthejoke,which,however,dependedagooddealforitssuccessupontheexpressionwhichtheartisthadputintothepeople\'sfaces。Mrs。Sealsatallthetimeperfectlygrave。Directlyhehaddonespeakingsheburstout:

  “Butsurely,ifyoucareaboutthewelfareofyoursexatall,youmustwishthemtohavethevote?“

  “IneversaidIdidn\'twishthemtohavethevote,“Katharineprotested。

  “Thenwhyaren\'tyouamemberofoursociety?“Mrs。Sealdemanded。

  Katharinestirredherspoonroundandround,staredintotheswirlofthetea,andremainedsilent。Mr。Clacton,meanwhile,framedaquestionwhich,afteramoment\'shesitation,heputtoKatharine。

  “Areyouinanywayrelated,Iwonder,tothepoetAlardyce?Hisdaughter,Ibelieve,marriedaMr。Hilbery。“

  “Yes;I\'mthepoet\'sgranddaughter,“saidKatharine,withalittlesigh,afterapause;andforamomenttheywereallsilent。

  “Thepoet\'sgranddaughter!“Mrs。Sealrepeated,halftoherself,withashakeofherhead,asifthatexplainedwhatwasotherwiseinexplicable。

  ThelightkindledinMr。Clacton\'seye。

  “Ah,indeed。Thatinterestsmeverymuch,“hesaid。“Ioweagreatdebttoyourgrandfather,MissHilbery。AtonetimeIcouldhaverepeatedthegreaterpartofhimbyheart。Butonegetsoutofthewayofreadingpoetry,unfortunately。Youdon\'trememberhim,Isuppose?“

  AsharprapatthedoormadeKatharine\'sanswerinaudible。Mrs。Seallookedupwithrenewedhopeinhereyes,andexclaiming:

  “Theproofsatlast!“rantoopenthedoor。“Oh,it\'sonlyMr。

  Denham!“shecried,withoutanyattempttoconcealherdisappointment。

  Ralph,Katharinesupposed,wasafrequentvisitor,fortheonlypersonhethoughtitnecessarytogreetwasherself,andMaryatonceexplainedthestrangefactofherbeingtherebysaying:

  “Katharinehascometoseehowonerunsanoffice。“

  Ralphfelthimselfstiffenuncomfortably,ashesaid:

  “IhopeMaryhasn\'tpersuadedyouthatsheknowshowtorunanoffice?“

  “What,doesn\'tshe?“saidKatharine,lookingfromonetotheother。

  AttheseremarksMrs。Sealbegantoexhibitsignsofdiscomposure,whichdisplayedthemselvesbyatossingmovementofherhead,and,asRalphtookaletterfromhispocket,andplacedhisfingeruponacertainsentence,sheforestalledhimbyexclaiminginconfusion:

  “Now,Iknowwhatyou\'regoingtosay,Mr。Denham!ButitwasthedayKitMarkhamwashere,andsheupsetsoneso——withherwonderfulvitality,alwaysthinkingofsomethingnewthatweoughttobedoingandaren\'t——andIwasconsciousatthetimethatmydatesweremixed。

  IthadnothingtodowithMaryatall,Iassureyou。“

  “MydearSally,don\'tapologize,“saidMary,laughing。“Menaresuchpedants——theydon\'tknowwhatthingsmatter,andwhatthingsdon\'t。“

  “Now,Denham,speakupforoursex,“saidMr。Clactoninajocularmanner,indeed,butlikemostinsignificantmenhewasveryquicktoresentbeingfoundfaultwithbyawoman,inargumentwithwhomhewasfondofcallinghimself“amereman。“Hewished,however,toenterintoaliteraryconservationwithMissHilbery,andthusletthematterdrop。

  “Doesn\'titseemstrangetoyou,MissHilbery,“hesaid,“thattheFrench,withalltheirwealthofillustriousnames,havenopoetwhocancomparewithyourgrandfather?Letmesee。There\'sChenierandHugoandAlfreddeMusset——wonderfulmen,but,atthesametime,there\'sarichness,afreshnessaboutAlardyce——“

  Herethetelephonebellrang,andhehadtoabsenthimselfwithasmileandabowwhichsignifiedthat,althoughliteratureisdelightful,itisnotwork。Mrs。Sealroseatthesametime,butremainedhoveringoverthetable,deliveringherselfofatiradeagainstpartygovernment。“ForifIweretotellyouwhatIknowofback-stairsintrigue,andwhatcanbedonebythepowerofthepurse,youwouldn\'tcreditme,Mr。Denham,youwouldn\'t,indeed。WhichiswhyIfeelthattheonlyworkformyfather\'sdaughter——forhewasoneofthepioneers,Mr。Denham,andonhistombstoneIhadthatversefromthePsalmsput,aboutthesowersandtheseed……Andwhatwouldn\'tIgivethatheshouldbealivenow,seeingwhatwe\'regoingtosee——“

  butreflectingthatthegloriesofthefuturedependedinpartupontheactivityofhertypewriter,shebobbedherhead,andhurriedbacktotheseclusionofherlittleroom,fromwhichimmediatelyissuedsoundsofenthusiastic,butobviouslyerratic,composition。

  Marymadeitclearatonce,bystartingafreshtopicofgeneralinterest,thatthoughshesawthehumorofhercolleague,shedidnotintendtohaveherlaughedat。

  “Thestandardofmoralityseemstomefrightfullylow,“sheobservedreflectively,pouringoutasecondcupoftea,“especiallyamongwomenwhoaren\'twelleducated。Theydon\'tseethatsmallthingsmatter,andthat\'swheretheleakagebegins,andthenwefindourselvesindifficulties——Iverynearlylostmytemperyesterday,“shewenton,lookingatRalphwithalittlesmile,asthoughheknewwhathappenedwhenshelosthertemper。“Itmakesmeveryangrywhenpeopletellmelies——doesn\'titmakeyouangry?“sheaskedKatharine。

  “Butconsideringthateveryonetellslies,“Katharineremarked,lookingabouttheroomtoseewhereshehadputdownherumbrellaandherparcel,fortherewasanintimacyinthewayinwhichMaryandRalphaddressedeachotherwhichmadeherwishtoleavethem。Mary,ontheotherhand,wasanxious,superficiallyatleast,thatKatharineshouldstayandsofortifyherinherdeterminationnottobeinlovewithRalph。

  Ralph,whileliftinghiscupfromhislipstothetable,hadmadeuphismindthatifMissHilberyleft,hewouldgowithher。

  “Idon\'tthinkthatItelllies,andIdon\'tthinkthatRalphtellslies,doyou,Ralph?“Marycontinued。

  Katharinelaughed,withmoregayety,asitseemedtoMary,thanshecouldproperlyaccountfor。Whatwasshelaughingat?Atthem,presumably。Katharinehadrisen,andwasglancinghitherandthither,atthepressesandthecupboards,andallthemachineryoftheoffice,asifsheincludedthemallinherrathermaliciousamusement,whichcausedMarytokeephereyesonherstraightlyandratherfiercely,asifshewereagay-plumed,mischievousbird,whomightlightonthetopmostboughandpickofftheruddiestcherry,withoutanywarning。

  Twowomenlesslikeeachothercouldscarcelybeimagined,Ralphthought,lookingfromonetotheother。Nextmoment,hetoo,rose,andnoddingtoMary,asKatharinesaidgood-bye,openedthedoorforher,andfollowedherout。

  Marysatstillandmadenoattempttopreventthemfromgoing。Forasecondortwoafterthedoorhadshutonthemhereyesrestedonthedoorwithastraightforwardfiercenessinwhich,foramoment,acertaindegreeofbewildermentseemedtoenter;but,afterabriefhesitation,sheputdownhercupandproceededtoclearawaythetea-things。

  TheimpulsewhichhaddrivenRalphtotakethisactionwastheresultofaveryswiftlittlepieceofreasoning,andthus,perhaps,wasnotquitesomuchofanimpulseasitseemed。ItpassedthroughhismindthatifhemissedthischanceoftalkingtoKatharine,hewouldhavetofaceanenragedghost,whenhewasaloneinhisroomagain,demandinganexplanationofhiscowardlyindecision。Itwasbetter,onthewhole,toriskpresentdiscomfiturethantowasteaneveningbandyingexcusesandconstructingimpossiblesceneswiththisuncompromisingsectionofhimself。ForeversincehehadvisitedtheHilberyshehadbeenmuchatthemercyofaphantomKatharine,whocametohimwhenhesatalone,andansweredhimashewouldhaveheranswer,andwasalwaysbesidehimtocrownthosevaryingtriumphswhichweretransactedalmosteverynight,inimaginaryscenes,ashewalkedthroughthelamplitstreetshomefromtheoffice。TowalkwithKatharineinthefleshwouldeitherfeedthatphantomwithfreshfood,which,asallwhonourishdreamsareaware,isaprocessthatbecomesnecessaryfromtimetotime,orrefineittosuchadegreeofthinnessthatitwasscarcelyserviceableanylonger;andthat,too,issometimesawelcomechangetoadreamer。AndallthetimeRalphwaswellawarethatthebulkofKatharinewasnotrepresentedinhisdreamsatall,sothatwhenhemetherhewasbewilderedbythefactthatshehadnothingtodowithhisdreamofher。

  When,onreachingthestreet,KatharinefoundthatMr。Denhamproceededtokeeppacebyherside,shewassurprisedand,perhaps,alittleannoyed。She,too,hadhermarginofimagination,andto-nightheractivityinthisobscureregionofthemindrequiredsolitude。Ifshehadhadherway,shewouldhavewalkedveryfastdowntheTottenhamCourtRoad,andthensprungintoacabandracedswiftlyhome。Theviewshehadhadoftheinsideofanofficewasofthenatureofadreamtoher。Shutoffupthere,shecomparedMrs。Seal,andMaryDatchet,andMr。Clactontoenchantedpeopleinabewitchedtower,withthespiders\'websloopingacrossthecornersoftheroom,andallthetoolsofthenecromancer\'scraftathand;forsoaloofandunrealandapartfromthenormalworlddidtheyseemtoher,inthehouseofinnumerabletypewriters,murmuringtheirincantationsandconcoctingtheirdrugs,andflingingtheirfrailspiders\'websoverthetorrentoflifewhichrusheddownthestreetsoutside。

  Shemayhavebeenconsciousthattherewassomeexaggerationinthisfancyofhers,forshecertainlydidnotwishtoshareitwithRalph。

  Tohim,shesupposed,MaryDatchet,composingleafletsforCabinetMinistersamonghertypewriters,representedallthatwasinterestingandgenuine;and,accordingly,sheshutthembothoutfromallshareinthecrowdedstreet,withitspendantnecklaceoflamps,itslightedwindows,anditsthrongofmenandwomen,whichexhilaratedhertosuchanextentthatsheverynearlyforgothercompanion。Shewalkedveryfast,andtheeffectofpeoplepassingintheoppositedirectionwastoproduceaqueerdizzinessbothinherheadandinRalph\'s,whichsettheirbodiesfarapart。Butshedidherdutybyhercompanionalmostunconsciously。

  “MaryDatchetdoesthatsortofworkverywell……She\'sresponsibleforit,Isuppose?“

  “Yes。Theothersdon\'thelpatall……Hasshemadeaconvertofyou?“

  “Ohno。Thatis,I\'maconvertalready。“

  “Butshehasn\'tpersuadedyoutoworkforthem?“

  “Ohdearno——thatwouldn\'tdoatall。“

  SotheywalkedondowntheTottenhamCourtRoad,partingandcomingtogetheragain,andRalphfeltmuchasthoughhewereaddressingthesummitofapoplarinahighgaleofwind。

  “Supposewegetontothatomnibus?“hesuggested。

  Katharineacquiesced,andtheyclimbedup,andfoundthemselvesaloneontopofit。

  “Butwhichwayareyougoing?“Katharineasked,wakingalittlefromthetranceintowhichmovementamongmovingthingshadthrownher。

  “I\'mgoingtotheTemple,“Ralphreplied,inventingadestinationonthespurofthemoment。Hefeltthechangecomeoverherastheysatdownandtheomnibusbegantomoveforward。Heimaginedhercontemplatingtheavenueinfrontofthemwiththosehonestsadeyeswhichseemedtosethimatsuchadistancefromthem。Butthebreezewasblowingintheirfaces;itliftedherhatforasecond,andshedrewoutapinandstuckitinagain,——alittleactionwhichseemed,forsomereason,tomakeherrathermorefallible。Ah,ifonlyherhatwouldblowoff,andleaveheraltogetherdisheveled,acceptingitfromhishands!

  “ThisislikeVenice,“sheobserved,raisingherhand。“Themotor-

  cars,Imean,shootingaboutsoquickly,withtheirlights。“

  “I\'veneverseenVenice,“hereplied。“Ikeepthatandsomeotherthingsformyoldage。“

  “Whataretheotherthings?“sheasked。

  “There\'sVeniceandIndiaand,Ithink,Dante,too。“

  Shelaughed。

  “Thinkofprovidingforone\'soldage!AndwouldyourefusetoseeVeniceifyouhadthechance?“

  Insteadofansweringher,hewonderedwhetherheshouldtellhersomethingthatwasquitetrueabouthimself;andashewondered,hetoldher。

  “I\'veplannedoutmylifeinsectionseversinceIwasachild,tomakeitlastlonger。Yousee,I\'malwaysafraidthatI\'mmissingsomething——“

  “AndsoamI!“Katharineexclaimed。“But,afterall,“sheadded,“whyshouldyoumissanything?“

  “Why?BecauseI\'mpoor,foronething,“Ralphrejoined。“You,I

  suppose,canhaveVeniceandIndiaandDanteeverydayofyourlife。“

  Shesaidnothingforamoment,butrestedonehand,whichwasbareofglove,upontherailinfrontofher,meditatinguponavarietyofthings,ofwhichonewasthatthisstrangeyoungmanpronouncedDanteasshewasusedtohearingitpronounced,andanother,thathehad,mostunexpectedly,afeelingaboutlifethatwasfamiliartoher。

  Perhaps,then,hewasthesortofpersonshemighttakeaninterestin,ifshecametoknowhimbetter,andasshehadplacedhimamongthosewhomshewouldneverwanttoknowbetter,thiswasenoughtomakehersilent。Shehastilyrecalledherfirstviewofhim,inthelittleroomwheretherelicswerekept,andranabarthroughhalfherimpressions,asonecancelsabadlywrittensentence,havingfoundtherightone。

  “Buttoknowthatonemighthavethingsdoesn\'talterthefactthatonehasn\'tgotthem,“shesaid,insomeconfusion。“HowcouldIgotoIndia,forexample?Besides,“shebeganimpulsively,andstoppedherself。Heretheconductorcameround,andinterruptedthem。Ralphwaitedforhertoresumehersentence,butshesaidnomore。

  “Ihaveamessagetogiveyourfather,“heremarked。“Perhapsyouwouldgiveithim,orIcouldcome——“

  “Yes,docome,“Katharinereplied。

  “Still,Idon\'tseewhyyoushouldn\'tgotoIndia,“Ralphbegan,inordertokeepherfromrising,asshethreatenedtodo。

  Butshegotupinspiteofhim,andsaidgood-byewithherusualairofdecision,andlefthimwithaquicknesswhichRalphconnectednowwithallhermovements。Helookeddownandsawherstandingonthepavementedge,analert,commandingfigure,whichwaiteditsseasontocross,andthenwalkedboldlyandswiftlytotheotherside。Thatgestureandactionwouldbeaddedtothepicturehehadofher,butatpresenttherealwomancompletelyroutedthephantomone。

  CHAPTERVII

  AndlittleAugustusPelhamsaidtome,\'It\'stheyoungergenerationknockingatthedoor,\'andIsaidtohim,\'Oh,buttheyoungergenerationcomesinwithoutknocking,Mr。Pelham。\'Suchafeeblelittlejoke,wasn\'tit,butdownitwentintohisnotebookallthesame。“

  “Letuscongratulateourselvesthatweshallbeinthegravebeforethatworkispublished,“saidMr。Hilbery。

  Theelderlycouplewerewaitingforthedinner-belltoringandfortheirdaughtertocomeintotheroom。Theirarm-chairsweredrawnuponeithersideofthefire,andeachsatinthesameslightlycrouchedposition,lookingintothecoals,withtheexpressionsofpeoplewhohavehadtheirshareofexperiencesandwait,ratherpassively,forsomethingtohappen。Mr。Hilberynowgaveallhisattentiontoapieceofcoalwhichhadfallenoutofthegrate,andtoselectingafavorablepositionforitamongthelumpsthatwereburningalready。

  Mrs。Hilberywatchedhiminsilence,andthesmilechangedonherlipsasifhermindstillplayedwiththeeventsoftheafternoon。

  WhenMr。Hilberyhadaccomplishedhistask,heresumedhiscrouchingpositionagain,andbegantotoywiththelittlegreenstoneattachedtohiswatch-chain。Hisdeep,oval-shapedeyeswerefixedupontheflames,butbehindthesuperficialglazeseemedtobroodanobservantandwhimsicalspirit,whichkeptthebrownoftheeyestillunusuallyvivid。Butalookofindolence,theresultofskepticismorofatastetoofastidioustobesatisfiedbytheprizesandconclusionssoeasilywithinhisgrasp,lenthimanexpressionalmostofmelancholy。Aftersittingthusforatime,heseemedtoreachsomepointinhisthinkingwhichdemonstrateditsfutility,uponwhichhesighedandstretchedhishandforabooklyingonthetablebyhisside。

  Directlythedooropenedheclosedthebook,andtheeyesoffatherandmotherbothrestedonKatharineasshecametowardsthem。Thesightseemedatoncetogivethemamotivewhichtheyhadnothadbefore。Tothemsheappeared,asshewalkedtowardstheminherlighteveningdress,extremelyyoung,andthesightofherrefreshedthem,wereitonlybecauseheryouthandignorancemadetheirknowledgeoftheworldofsomevalue。

  “Theonlyexcuseforyou,Katharine,isthatdinnerisstilllaterthanyouare,“saidMr。Hilbery,puttingdownhisspectacles。

  “Idon\'tmindherbeinglatewhentheresultissocharming,“saidMrs。Hilbery,lookingwithprideatherdaughter。“Still,Idon\'tknowthatILIKEyourbeingoutsolate,Katharine,“shecontinued。“Youtookacab,Ihope?“

  Heredinnerwasannounced,andMr。Hilberyformallyledhiswifedownstairsonhisarm。Theywerealldressedfordinner,and,indeed,theprettinessofthedinner-tablemeritedthatcompliment。Therewasnoclothuponthetable,andthechinamaderegularcirclesofdeepblueupontheshiningbrownwood。Inthemiddletherewasabowloftawnyredandyellowchrysanthemums,andoneofpurewhite,sofreshthatthenarrowpetalswerecurvedbackwardsintoafirmwhiteball。

  FromthesurroundingwallstheheadsofthreefamousVictorianwriterssurveyedthisentertainment,andslipsofpaperpastedbeneaththemtestifiedinthegreatman\'sownhandwritingthathewasyourssincerelyoraffectionatelyorforever。Thefatheranddaughterwouldhavebeenquitecontent,apparently,toeattheirdinnerinsilence,orwithafewcrypticremarksexpressedinashorthandwhichcouldnotbeunderstoodbytheservants。ButsilencedepressedMrs。Hilbery,andfarfrommindingthepresenceofmaids,shewouldoftenaddressherselftothem,andwasneveraltogetherunconsciousoftheirapprovalordisapprovalofherremarks。Inthefirstplaceshecalledthemtowitnessthattheroomwasdarkerthanusual,andhadallthelightsturnedon。

  “That\'smorecheerful,“sheexclaimed。“D\'youknow,Katharine,thatridiculousgoosecametoteawithme?Oh,howIwantedyou!Hetriedtomakeepigramsallthetime,andIgotsonervous,expectingthem,youknow,thatIspiltthetea——andhemadeanepigramaboutthat!“

  “Whichridiculousgoose?“Katharineaskedherfather。

  “Onlyoneofmygeese,happily,makesepigrams——AugustusPelham,ofcourse,“saidMrs。Hilbery。

  “I\'mnotsorrythatIwasout,“saidKatharine。

  “PoorAugustus!“Mrs。Hilberyexclaimed。“Butwe\'realltoohardonhim。Rememberhowdevotedheistohistiresomeoldmother。“

  “That\'sonlybecausesheishismother。Anyoneconnectedwithhimself——“

  “No,no,Katharine——that\'stoobad。That\'s——what\'sthewordImean,Trevor,somethinglongandLatin——thesortofwordyouandKatharineknow——“

  Mr。Hilberysuggested“cynical。“

  “Well,that\'lldo。Idon\'tbelieveinsendinggirlstocollege,butI

  shouldteachthemthatsortofthing。Itmakesonefeelsodignified,bringingouttheselittleallusions,andpassingongracefullytothenexttopic。ButIdon\'tknowwhat\'scomeoverme——IactuallyhadtoaskAugustusthenameoftheladyHamletwasinlovewith,asyouwereout,Katharine,andHeavenknowswhathemayn\'tputdownaboutmeinhisdiary。“

  “Iwish,“Katharinestarted,withgreatimpetuosity,andcheckedherself。Hermotheralwaysstirredhertofeelandthinkquickly,andthensherememberedthatherfatherwasthere,listeningwithattention。

  “Whatisityouwish?“heasked,asshepaused。

  Heoftensurprisedher,thus,intotellinghimwhatshehadnotmeanttotellhim;andthentheyargued,whileMrs。Hilberywentonwithherownthoughts。

  “Iwishmotherwasn\'tfamous。Iwasoutattea,andtheywouldtalktomeaboutpoetry。“

  “Thinkingyoumustbepoetical,Isee——andaren\'tyou?“

  “Who\'sbeentalkingtoyouaboutpoetry,Katharine?“Mrs。Hilberydemanded,andKatharinewascommittedtogivingherparentsanaccountofhervisittotheSuffrageoffice。

  “TheyhaveanofficeatthetopofoneoftheoldhousesinRussellSquare。Ineversawsuchqueer-lookingpeople。AndthemandiscoveredIwasrelatedtothepoet,andtalkedtomeaboutpoetry。EvenMaryDatchetseemsdifferentinthatatmosphere。“

  “Yes,theofficeatmosphereisverybadforthesoul,“saidMr。

  Hilbery。

  “Idon\'trememberanyofficesinRussellSquareintheolddays,whenMammalivedthere,“Mrs。Hilberymused,“andIcan\'tfancyturningoneofthosenoblegreatroomsintoastuffylittleSuffrageoffice。

  Still,iftheclerksreadpoetrytheremustbesomethingniceaboutthem。“

  “No,becausetheydon\'treaditaswereadit,“Katharineinsisted。

  “Butit\'snicetothinkofthemreadingyourgrandfather,andnotfillingupthosedreadfullittleformsalldaylong,“Mrs。Hilberypersisted,hernotionofofficelifebeingderivedfromsomechanceviewofascenebehindthecounteratherbank,assheslippedthesovereignsintoherpurse。

  “Atanyrate,theyhaven\'tmadeaconvertofKatharine,whichwaswhatIwasafraidof,“Mr。Hilberyremarked。

  “Ohno,“saidKatharineverydecidedly,“Iwouldn\'tworkwiththemforanything。“

  “It\'scurious,“Mr。Hilberycontinued,agreeingwithhisdaughter,“howthesightofone\'sfellow-enthusiastsalwayschokesoneoff。Theyshowupthefaultsofone\'scausesomuchmoreplainlythanone\'santagonists。Onecanbeenthusiasticinone\'sstudy,butdirectlyonecomesintotouchwiththepeoplewhoagreewithone,alltheglamorgoes。SoI\'vealwaysfound,“andheproceededtotellthem,ashepeeledhisapple,howhecommittedhimselfonce,inhisyouthfuldays,tomakeaspeechatapoliticalmeeting,andwentthereablazewithenthusiasmfortheidealsofhisownside;butwhilehisleadersspoke,hebecamegraduallyconvertedtotheotherwayofthinking,ifthinkingitcouldbecalled,andhadtofeignillnessinordertoavoidmakingafoolofhimself——anexperiencewhichhadsickenedhimofpublicmeetings。

  Katharinelistenedandfeltasshegenerallydidwhenherfather,andtosomeextenthermother,describedtheirfeelings,thatshequiteunderstoodandagreedwiththem,but,atthesametime,sawsomethingwhichtheydidnotsee,andalwaysfeltsomedisappointmentwhentheyfellshortofhervision,astheyalwaysdid。Theplatessucceededeachotherswiftlyandnoiselesslyinfrontofher,andthetablewasdeckedfordessert,andasthetalkmurmuredoninfamiliargrooves,shesatthere,ratherlikeajudge,listeningtoherparents,whodid,indeed,feelitverypleasantwhentheymadeherlaugh。

  Dailylifeinahousewherethereareyoungandoldisfullofcuriouslittleceremoniesandpieties,whicharedischargedquitepunctually,thoughthemeaningofthemisobscure,andamysteryhascometobroodoverthemwhichlendsevenasuperstitiouscharmtotheirperformance。

  Suchwasthenightlyceremonyofthecigarandtheglassofport,whichwereplacedontherighthandandonthelefthandofMr。

  Hilbery,andsimultaneouslyMrs。HilberyandKatharinelefttheroom。

  AlltheyearstheyhadlivedtogethertheyhadneverseenMr。Hilberysmokehiscigarordrinkhisport,andtheywouldhavefeltitunseemlyif,bychance,theyhadsurprisedhimashesatthere。Theseshort,butclearlymarked,periodsofseparationbetweenthesexeswerealwaysusedforanintimatepostscripttowhathadbeensaidatdinner,thesenseofbeingwomentogethercomingoutmoststronglywhenthemalesexwas,asifbysomereligiousrite,secludedfromthefemale。Katharineknewbyheartthesortofmoodthatpossessedherasshewalkedupstairstothedrawing-room,hermother\'sarminhers;andshecouldanticipatethepleasurewithwhich,whenshehadturnedonthelights,theybothregardedthedrawing-room,freshsweptandsetinorderforthelastsectionoftheday,withtheredparrotsswingingonthechintzcurtains,andthearm-chairswarmingintheblaze。Mrs。Hilberystoodoverthefire,withonefootonthefender,andherskirtsslightlyraised。

  “Oh,Katharine,“sheexclaimed,“howyou\'vemademethinkofMammaandtheolddaysinRussellSquare!Icanseethechandeliers,andthegreensilkofthepiano,andMammasittinginhercashmereshawlbythewindow,singingtillthelittleragamuffinboysoutsidestoppedtolisten。Papasentmeinwithabunchofvioletswhilehewaitedroundthecorner。Itmusthavebeenasummerevening。Thatwasbeforethingswerehopeless……“

  Asshespokeanexpressionofregret,whichmusthavecomefrequentlytocausethelineswhichnowgrewdeeproundthelipsandeyes,settledonherface。Thepoet\'smarriagehadnotbeenahappyone。Hehadlefthiswife,andaftersomeyearsofaratherrecklessexistence,shehaddied,beforehertime。Thisdisasterhadledtogreatirregularitiesofeducation,and,indeed,Mrs。Hilberymightbesaidtohaveescapededucationaltogether。Butshehadbeenherfather\'scompanionattheseasonwhenhewrotethefinestofhispoems。Shehadsatonhiskneeintavernsandotherhauntsofdrunkenpoets,anditwasforhersake,sopeoplesaid,thathehadcuredhimselfofhisdissipation,andbecometheirreproachableliterarycharacterthattheworldknows,whoseinspirationhaddesertedhim。AsMrs。Hilberygrewoldshethoughtmoreandmoreofthepast,andthisancientdisasterseemedattimesalmosttopreyuponhermind,asifshecouldnotpassoutoflifeherselfwithoutlayingtheghostofherparent\'ssorrowtorest。

  Katharinewishedtocomforthermother,butitwasdifficulttodothissatisfactorilywhenthefactsthemselvesweresomuchofalegend。ThehouseinRussellSquare,forexample,withitsnoblerooms,andthemagnolia-treeinthegarden,andthesweet-voicedpiano,andthesoundoffeetcomingdownthecorridors,andotherpropertiesofsizeandromance——hadtheyanyexistence?YetwhyshouldMrs。Alardyceliveallaloneinthisgiganticmansion,and,ifshedidnotlivealone,withwhomdidshelive?Foritsownsake,Katharineratherlikedthistragicstory,andwouldhavebeengladtohearthedetailsofit,andtohavebeenabletodiscussthemfrankly。Butthisitbecamelessandlesspossibletodo,forthoughMrs。Hilberywasconstantlyrevertingtothestory,itwasalwaysinthistentativeandrestlessfashion,asthoughbyatouchhereandthereshecouldsetthingsstraightwhichhadbeencrookedthesesixtyyears。Perhaps,indeed,shenolongerknewwhatthetruthwas。

  “Ifthey\'dlivednow,“sheconcluded,“Ifeelitwouldn\'thavehappened。Peoplearen\'tsosetupontragedyastheywerethen。Ifmyfatherhadbeenabletogoroundtheworld,orifshe\'dhadarestcure,everythingwouldhavecomeright。ButwhatcouldIdo?Andthentheyhadbadfriends,bothofthem,whomademischief。Ah,Katharine,whenyoumarry,bequite,quitesurethatyouloveyourhusband!“

  ThetearsstoodinMrs。Hilbery\'seyes。

  Whilecomfortingher,Katharinethoughttoherself,“NowthisiswhatMaryDatchetandMr。Denhamdon\'tunderstand。ThisisthesortofpositionI\'malwaysgettinginto。Howsimpleitmustbetoliveastheydo!“foralltheeveningshehadbeencomparingherhomeandherfatherandmotherwiththeSuffrageofficeandthepeoplethere。

  “But,Katharine,“Mrs。Hilberycontinued,withoneofhersuddenchangesofmood,“though,Heavenknows,Idon\'twanttoseeyoumarried,surelyifeveramanlovedawoman,Williamlovesyou。Andit\'sanice,rich-soundingnametoo——KatharineRodney,which,unfortunately,doesn\'tmeanthathe\'sgotanymoney,becausehehasn\'t。“

  ThealterationofhernameannoyedKatharine,andsheobserved,rathersharply,thatshedidn\'twanttomarryanyone。

  “It\'sverydullthatyoucanonlymarryonehusband,certainly,“Mrs。

  Hilberyreflected。“Ialwayswishthatyoucouldmarryeverybodywhowantstomarryyou。Perhapsthey\'llcometothatintime,butmeanwhileIconfessthatdearWilliam——“ButhereMr。Hilberycamein,andthemoresolidpartoftheeveningbegan。ThisconsistedinthereadingaloudbyKatharinefromsomeproseworkorother,whilehermotherknittedscarvesintermittentlyonalittlecircularframe,andherfatherreadthenewspaper,notsoattentivelybutthathecouldcommenthumorouslynowandagainuponthefortunesoftheheroandtheheroine。TheHilberyssubscribedtoalibrary,whichdeliveredbooksonTuesdaysandFridays,andKatharinedidherbesttointerestherparentsintheworksoflivingandhighlyrespectableauthors;butMrs。Hilberywasperturbedbytheverylookofthelight,gold-

  wreathedvolumes,andwouldmakelittlefacesasifshetastedsomethingbitterasthereadingwenton;whileMr。Hilberywouldtreatthemodernswithacuriouselaboratebantersuchasonemightapplytotheanticsofapromisingchild。Sothisevening,afterfivepagesorsoofoneofthesemasters,Mrs。Hilberyprotestedthatitwasalltoocleverandcheapandnastyforwords。

  “Please,Katharine,readussomethingREAL。“

  Katharinehadtogotothebookcaseandchooseaportlyvolumeinsleek,yellowcalf,whichhaddirectlyasedativeeffectuponbothherparents。ButthedeliveryoftheeveningpostbrokeinupontheperiodsofHenryFielding,andKatharinefoundthatherlettersneededallherattention。

  CHAPTERVIII

  Shetookherlettersuptoherroomwithher,havingpersuadedhermothertogotobeddirectlyMr。Hilberyleftthem,forsolongasshesatinthesameroomashermother,Mrs。Hilberymight,atanymoment,askforasightofthepost。AveryhastyglancethroughmanysheetshadshownKatharinethat,bysomecoincidence,herattentionhadtobedirectedtomanydifferentanxietiessimultaneously。Inthefirstplace,Rodneyhadwrittenaveryfullaccountofhisstateofmind,whichwasillustratedbyasonnet,andhedemandedareconsiderationoftheirposition,whichagitatedKatharinemorethansheliked。Thenthereweretwoletterswhichhadtobelaidsidebysideandcomparedbeforeshecouldmakeoutthetruthoftheirstory,andevenwhensheknewthefactsshecouldnotdecidewhattomakeofthem;andfinallyshehadtoreflectuponagreatmanypagesfromacousinwhofoundhimselfinfinancialdifficulties,whichforcedhimtotheuncongenialoccupationofteachingtheyoungladiesofBungaytoplayupontheviolin。

  Butthetwoletterswhicheachtoldthesamestorydifferentlywerethechiefsourceofherperplexity。Shewasreallyrathershockedtofinditdefinitelyestablishedthatherownsecondcousin,CyrilAlardyce,hadlivedforthelastfouryearswithawomanwhowasnothiswife,whohadbornehimtwochildren,andwasnowabouttobearhimanother。ThisstateofthingshadbeendiscoveredbyMrs。Milvain,herauntCelia,azealousinquirerintosuchmatters,whoseletterwasalsounderconsideration。Cyril,shesaid,mustbemadetomarrythewomanatonce;andCyril,rightlyorwrongly,wasindignantwithsuchinterferencewithhisaffairs,andwouldnotownthathehadanycausetobeashamedofhimself。Hadheanycausetobeashamedofhimself,Katharinewondered;andsheturnedtoherauntagain。

  “Remember,“shewrote,inherprofuse,emphaticstatement,“thathebearsyourgrandfather\'sname,andsowillthechildthatistobeborn。Thepoorboyisnotsomuchtoblameasthewomanwhodeludedhim,thinkinghimagentleman,whichheIS,andhavingmoney,whichhehasNOT。“

  “WhatwouldRalphDenhamsaytothis?“thoughtKatharine,beginningtopaceupanddownherbedroom。Shetwitchedasidethecurtains,sothat,onturning,shewasfacedbydarkness,andlookingout,couldjustdistinguishthebranchesofaplane-treeandtheyellowlightsofsomeoneelse\'swindows。

  “WhatwouldMaryDatchetandRalphDenhamsay?“shereflected,pausingbythewindow,which,asthenightwaswarm,sheraised,inordertofeeltheairuponherface,andtoloseherselfinthenothingnessofnight。Butwiththeairthedistanthummingsoundoffar-offcrowdedthoroughfareswasadmittedtotheroom。Theincessantandtumultuoushumofthedistanttrafficseemed,asshestoodthere,torepresentthethicktextureofherlife,forherlifewassohemmedinwiththeprogressofotherlivesthatthesoundofitsownadvancewasinaudible。PeoplelikeRalphandMary,shethought,haditalltheirownway,andanemptyspacebeforethem,and,assheenviedthem,shecasthermindouttoimagineanemptylandwhereallthispettyintercourseofmenandwomen,thislifemadeupofthedensecrossingsandentanglementsofmenandwomen,hadnoexistencewhatever。Evennow,alone,atnight,lookingoutintotheshapelessmassofLondon,shewasforcedtorememberthattherewasonepointandhereanotherwithwhichshehadsomeconnection。WilliamRodney,atthisverymoment,wasseatedinaminutespeckoflightsomewheretotheeastofher,andhismindwasoccupied,notwithhisbook,butwithher。Shewishedthatnooneinthewholeworldwouldthinkofher。However,therewasnowayofescapingfromone\'sfellow-beings,sheconcluded,andshutthewindowwithasigh,andreturnedoncemoretoherletters。

  ShecouldnotdoubtbutthatWilliam\'sletterwasthemostgenuineshehadyetreceivedfromhim。Hehadcometotheconclusionthathecouldnotlivewithouther,hewrote。Hebelievedthatheknewher,andcouldgiveherhappiness,andthattheirmarriagewouldbeunlikeothermarriages。Norwasthesonnet,inspiteofitsaccomplishment,lackinginpassion,andKatharine,asshereadthepagesthroughagain,couldseeinwhatdirectionherfeelingsoughttoflow,supposingtheyrevealedthemselves。Shewouldcometofeelahumoroussortoftendernessforhim,azealouscareforhissusceptibilities,and,afterall,sheconsidered,thinkingofherfatherandmother,whatislove?

  Naturally,withherface,position,andbackground,shehadexperienceofyoungmenwhowishedtomarryher,andmadeprotestationsoflove,but,perhapsbecauseshedidnotreturnthefeeling,itremainedsomethingofapageanttoher。Nothavingexperienceofitherself,hermindhadunconsciouslyoccupieditselfforsomeyearsindressingupanimageoflove,andthemarriagethatwastheoutcomeoflove,andthemanwhoinspiredlove,whichnaturallydwarfedanyexamplesthatcameherway。Easily,andwithoutcorrectionbyreason,herimaginationmadepictures,superbbackgroundscastingarichthoughphantomlightuponthefactsintheforeground。Splendidasthewatersthatdropwithresoundingthunderfromhighledgesofrock,andplungedownwardsintothebluedepthsofnight,wasthepresenceofloveshedreamt,drawingintoiteverydropoftheforceoflife,anddashingthemallasunderinthesuperbcatastropheinwhicheverythingwassurrendered,andnothingmightbereclaimed。Theman,too,wassomemagnanimoushero,ridingagreathorsebytheshoreofthesea。Theyrodethroughforeststogether,theygallopedbytherimofthesea。

  Butwaking,shewasabletocontemplateaperfectlylovelessmarriage,asthethingonedidactuallyinreallife,forpossiblythepeoplewhodreamthusarethosewhodothemostprosaicthings。

  Atthismomentshewasmuchinclinedtositonintothenight,spinningherlightfabricofthoughtsuntilshetiredoftheirfutility,andwenttohermathematics;but,assheknewverywell,itwasnecessarythatsheshouldseeherfatherbeforehewenttobed。

  ThecaseofCyrilAlardycemustbediscussed,hermother\'sillusionsandtherightsofthefamilyattendedto。Beingvagueherselfastowhatallthisamountedto,shehadtotakecounselwithherfather。

  Shetookherlettersinherhandandwentdownstairs。Itwaspasteleven,andtheclockshadcomeintotheirreign,thegrandfather\'sclockinthehalltickingincompetitionwiththesmallclockonthelanding。Mr。Hilbery\'sstudyranoutbehindtherestofthehouse,onthegroundfloor,andwasaverysilent,subterraneanplace,thesunindaytimecastingamereabstractoflightthroughaskylightuponhisbooksandthelargetable,withitsspreadofwhitepapers,nowilluminedbyagreenreading-lamp。HereMr。Hilberysateditinghisreview,orplacingtogetherdocumentsbymeansofwhichitcouldbeprovedthatShelleyhadwritten“of“insteadof“and,“orthattheinninwhichByronhadsleptwascalledthe“Nag\'sHead“andnotthe“TurkishKnight,“orthattheChristiannameofKeats\'sunclehadbeenJohnratherthanRichard,forheknewmoreminutedetailsaboutthesepoetsthananymaninEngland,probably,andwaspreparinganeditionofShelleywhichscrupulouslyobservedthepoet\'ssystemofpunctuation。Hesawthehumoroftheseresearches,butthatdidnotpreventhimfromcarryingthemoutwiththeutmostscrupulosity。

  Hewaslyingbackcomfortablyinadeeparm-chairsmokingacigar,andruminatingthefruitfulquestionastowhetherColeridgehadwishedtomarryDorothyWordsworth,andwhat,ifhehaddoneso,wouldhavebeentheconsequencestohiminparticular,andtoliteratureingeneral。

  WhenKatharinecameinhereflectedthatheknewwhatshehadcomefor,andhemadeapencilnotebeforehespoketoher。Havingdonethis,hesawthatshewasreading,andhewatchedherforamomentwithoutsayinganything。Shewasreading“IsabellaandthePotofBasil,“andhermindwasfulloftheItalianhillsandthebluedaylight,andthehedgessetwithlittlerosettesofredandwhiteroses。Feelingthatherfatherwaitedforher,shesighedandsaid,shuttingherbook:

  “I\'vehadaletterfromAuntCeliaaboutCyril,father……Itseemstobetrue——abouthismarriage。Whatarewetodo?“

  “Cyrilseemstohavebeenbehavinginaveryfoolishmanner,“saidMr。

  Hilbery,inhispleasantanddeliberatetones。

  Katharinefoundsomedifficultyincarryingontheconversation,whileherfatherbalancedhisfinger-tipssojudiciously,andseemedtoreservesomanyofhisthoughtsforhimself。

  “He\'saboutdoneforhimself,Ishouldsay,“hecontinued。Withoutsayinganything,hetookKatharine\'slettersoutofherhand,adjustedhiseyeglasses,andreadthemthrough。

  Atlengthhesaid“Humph!“andgavethelettersbacktoher。

  “Motherknowsnothingaboutit,“Katharineremarked。“Willyoutellher?“

  “Ishalltellyourmother。ButIshalltellherthatthereisnothingwhateverforustodo。“

  “Butthemarriage?“Katharineasked,withsomediffidence。

  Mr。Hilberysaidnothing,andstaredintothefire。

  “Whatinthenameofconsciencedidhedoitfor?“hespeculatedatlast,rathertohimselfthantoher。

  Katharinehadbeguntoreadheraunt\'sletteroveragain,andshenowquotedasentence。“IbsenandButler……Hehassentmealetterfullofquotations——nonsense,thoughclevernonsense。“

  “Well,iftheyoungergenerationwanttocarryonitslifeonthoselines,it\'snoneofouraffair,“heremarked。

  “Butisn\'titouraffair,perhaps,tomakethemgetmarried?“

  Katharineaskedratherwearily。

  “Whythedickensshouldtheyapplytome?“herfatherdemandedwithsuddenirritation。

  “Onlyastheheadofthefamily——“

  “ButI\'mnottheheadofthefamily。Alfred\'stheheadofthefamily。

  LetthemapplytoAlfred,“saidMr。Hilbery,relapsingagainintohisarm-chair。Katharinewasawarethatshehadtouchedasensitivespot,however,inmentioningthefamily。

  “Ithink,perhaps,thebestthingwouldbeformetogoandseethem,“

  sheobserved。

  “Iwon\'thaveyougoinganywherenearthem,“Mr。Hilberyrepliedwithunwonteddecisionandauthority。“Indeed,Idon\'tunderstandwhythey\'vedraggedyouintothebusinessatall——Idon\'tseethatit\'sgotanythingtodowithyou。“

  “I\'vealwaysbeenfriendswithCyril,“Katharineobserved。

  “Butdidheevertellyouanythingaboutthis?“Mr。Hilberyaskedrathersharply。

  Katharineshookherhead。Shewas,indeed,agooddealhurtthatCyrilhadnotconfidedinher——didhethink,asRalphDenhamorMaryDatchetmightthink,thatshewas,forsomereason,unsympathetic——hostileeven?

  “Astoyourmother,“saidMr。Hilbery,afterapause,inwhichheseemedtobeconsideringthecoloroftheflames,“youhadbettertellherthefacts。She\'dbetterknowthefactsbeforeeveryonebeginstotalkaboutit,thoughwhyAuntCeliathinksitnecessarytocome,I\'msureIdon\'tknow。Andthelesstalkthereisthebetter。“

  Grantingtheassumptionthatgentlemenofsixtywhoarehighlycultivated,andhavehadmuchexperienceoflife,probablythinkofmanythingswhichtheydonotsay,Katharinecouldnothelpfeelingratherpuzzledbyherfather\'sattitude,asshewentbacktoherroom。

  Whatadistancehewasfromitall!Howsuperficiallyhesmoothedtheseeventsintoasemblanceofdecencywhichharmonizedwithhisownviewoflife!HeneverwonderedwhatCyrilhadfelt,nordidthehiddenaspectsofthecasetempthimtoexamineintothem。Hemerelyseemedtorealize,ratherlanguidly,thatCyrilhadbehavedinawaywhichwasfoolish,becauseotherpeopledidnotbehaveinthatway。Heseemedtobelookingthroughatelescopeatlittlefigureshundredsofmilesinthedistance。

  HerselfishanxietynottohavetotellMrs。Hilberywhathadhappenedmadeherfollowherfatherintothehallafterbreakfastthenextmorninginordertoquestionhim。

  “Haveyoutoldmother?“sheasked。Hermannertoherfatherwasalmoststern,andsheseemedtoholdendlessdepthsofreflectioninthedarkofhereyes。

  Mr。Hilberysighed。

  “Mydearchild,itwentoutofmyhead。“Hesmoothedhissilkhatenergetically,andatonceaffectedanairofhurry。“I\'llsendanoteroundfromtheoffice……I\'mlatethismorning,andI\'veanyamountofproofstogetthrough。“

  “Thatwouldn\'tdoatall,“Katharinesaiddecidedly。“Shemustbetold——youorImusttellher。Weoughttohavetoldheratfirst。“

  Mr。Hilberyhadnowplacedhishatonhishead,andhishandwasonthedoor-knob。AnexpressionwhichKatharineknewwellfromherchildhood,whenheaskedhertoshieldhiminsomeneglectofduty,cameintohiseyes;malice,humor,andirresponsibilitywereblendedinit。Henoddedhisheadtoandfrosignificantly,openedthedoorwithanadroitmovement,andsteppedoutwithalightnessunexpectedathisage。Hewavedhishandoncetohisdaughter,andwasgone。Leftalone,Katharinecouldnothelplaughingtofindherselfcheatedasusualindomesticbargainingswithherfather,andlefttodothedisagreeableworkwhichbelonged,byrights,tohim。

  CHAPTERIX

  KatharinedislikedtellinghermotheraboutCyril\'smisbehaviorquiteasmuchasherfatherdid,andformuchthesamereasons。Theybothshrank,nervously,aspeoplefearthereportofagunonthestage,fromallthatwouldhavetobesaidonthisoccasion。Katharine,moreover,wasunabletodecidewhatshethoughtofCyril\'smisbehavior。Asusual,shesawsomethingwhichherfatherandmotherdidnotsee,andtheeffectofthatsomethingwastosuspendCyril\'sbehaviorinhermindwithoutanyqualificationatall。Theywouldthinkwhetheritwasgoodorbad;toheritwasmerelyathingthathadhappened。

  WhenKatharinereachedthestudy,Mrs。Hilberyhadalreadydippedherpenintheink。

  “Katharine,“shesaid,liftingitintheair,“I\'vejustmadeoutsuchaqueer,strangethingaboutyourgrandfather。I\'mthreeyearsandsixmonthsolderthanhewaswhenhedied。Icouldn\'tverywellhavebeenhismother,butImighthavebeenhiseldersister,andthatseemstomesuchapleasantfancy。I\'mgoingtostartquitefreshthismorning,andgetalotdone。“

  Shebeganhersentence,atanyrate,andKatharinesatdownatherowntable,untiedthebundleofoldlettersuponwhichshewasworking,smoothedthemoutabsent-mindedly,andbegantodecipherthefadedscript。Inaminuteshelookedacrossathermother,tojudgehermood。Peaceandhappinesshadrelaxedeverymuscleinherface;herlipswerepartedveryslightly,andherbreathcameinsmooth,controlledinspirationslikethoseofachildwhoissurroundingitselfwithabuildingofbricks,andincreasinginecstasyaseachbrickisplacedinposition。SoMrs。Hilberywasraisingroundhertheskiesandtreesofthepastwitheverystrokeofherpen,andrecallingthevoicesofthedead。Quietastheroomwas,andundisturbedbythesoundsofthepresentmoment,Katharinecouldfancythatherewasadeeppoolofpasttime,andthatsheandhermotherwerebathedinthelightofsixtyyearsago。Whatcouldthepresentgive,shewondered,tocomparewiththerichcrowdofgiftsbestowedbythepast?HerewasaThursdaymorninginprocessofmanufacture;

  eachsecondwasmintedfreshbytheclockuponthemantelpiece。Shestrainedherearsandcouldjusthear,faroff,thehootofamotor-carandtherushofwheelscomingneareranddyingawayagain,andthevoicesofmencryingoldironandvegetablesinoneofthepoorerstreetsatthebackofthehouse。Rooms,ofcourse,accumulatetheirsuggestions,andanyroominwhichonehasbeenusedtocarryonanyparticularoccupationgivesoffmemoriesofmoods,ofideas,ofposturesthathavebeenseeninit;sothattoattemptanydifferentkindofworkthereisalmostimpossible。

  Katharinewasunconsciouslyaffected,eachtimesheenteredhermother\'sroom,byalltheseinfluences,whichhadhadtheirbirthyearsago,whenshewasachild,andhadsomethingsweetandsolemnaboutthem,andconnectedthemselveswithearlymemoriesofthecavernousgloomsandsonorousechoesoftheAbbeywherehergrandfatherlayburied。Allthebooksandpictures,eventhechairsandtables,hadbelongedtohim,orhadreferencetohim;eventhechinadogsonthemantelpieceandthelittleshepherdesseswiththeirsheephadbeenboughtbyhimforapennyapiecefromamanwhousedtostandwithatrayoftoysinKensingtonHighStreet,asKatharinehadoftenheardhermothertell。Oftenshehadsatinthisroom,withhermindfixedsofirmlyonthosevanishedfiguresthatshecouldalmostseethemusclesroundtheireyesandlips,andhadgiventoeachhisownvoice,withitstricksofaccent,andhiscoatandhiscravat。Oftenshehadseemedtoherselftobemovingamongthem,aninvisibleghostamongtheliving,betteracquaintedwiththemthanwithherownfriends,becausesheknewtheirsecretsandpossessedadivineforeknowledgeoftheirdestiny。Theyhadbeensounhappy,suchmuddlers,sowrong-headed,itseemedtoher。Shecouldhavetoldthemwhattodo,andwhatnottodo。Itwasamelancholyfactthattheywouldpaynoheedtoher,andwereboundtocometogriefintheirownantiquatedway。Theirbehaviorwasoftengrotesquelyirrational;theirconventionsmonstrouslyabsurd;andyet,asshebroodeduponthem,shefeltsocloselyattachedtothemthatitwasuselesstotrytopassjudgmentuponthem。Sheverynearlylostconsciousnessthatshewasaseparatebeing,withafutureofherown。Onamorningofslightdepression,suchasthis,shewouldtrytofindsomesortofcluetothemuddlewhichtheiroldletterspresented;somereasonwhichseemedtomakeitworthwhiletothem;someaimwhichtheykeptsteadilyinview——butshewasinterrupted。

  Mrs。Hilberyhadrisenfromhertable,andwasstandinglookingoutofthewindowatastringofbargesswimminguptheriver。

  Katharinewatchedher。SuddenlyMrs。Hilberyturnedabruptly,andexclaimed:

  “IreallybelieveI\'mbewitched!Ionlywantthreesentences,yousee,somethingquitestraightforwardandcommonplace,andIcan\'tfind\'em。“

  Shebegantopaceupanddowntheroom,snatchingupherduster;butshewastoomuchannoyedtofindanyrelief,asyet,inpolishingthebacksofbooks。

  “Besides,“shesaid,givingthesheetshehadwrittentoKatharine,“I

  don\'tbelievethis\'lldo。DidyourgrandfatherevervisittheHebrides,Katharine?“Shelookedinastrangelybeseechingwayatherdaughter。“MymindgotrunningontheHebrides,andIcouldn\'thelpwritingalittledescriptionofthem。Perhapsitwoulddoatthebeginningofachapter。Chaptersoftenbeginquitedifferentlyfromthewaytheygoon,youknow。“Katharinereadwhathermotherhadwritten。Shemighthavebeenaschoolmastercriticizingachild\'sessay。HerfacegaveMrs。Hilbery,whowatcheditanxiously,nogroundforhope。

  “It\'sverybeautiful,“shestated,“but,yousee,mother,weoughttogofrompointtopoint——“

  “Oh,Iknow,“Mrs。Hilberyexclaimed。“Andthat\'sjustwhatIcan\'tdo。Thingskeepcomingintomyhead。Itisn\'tthatIdon\'tknoweverythingandfeeleverythingwhodidknowhim,ifIdidn\'t?,butI

  can\'tputitdown,yousee。There\'sakindofblindspot,“shesaid,touchingherforehead,“there。AndwhenIcan\'tsleepo\'nights,I

  fancyIshalldiewithouthavingdoneit。“

  Fromexultationshehadpassedtothedepthsofdepressionwhichtheimaginationofherdeatharoused。ThedepressioncommunicateditselftoKatharine。Howimpotenttheywere,fiddlingaboutalldaylongwithpapers!Andtheclockwasstrikingelevenandnothingdone!Shewatchedhermother,nowrummaginginagreatbrass-boundboxwhichstoodbyhertable,butshedidnotgotoherhelp。Ofcourse,Katharinereflected,hermotherhadnowlostsomepaper,andtheywouldwastetherestofthemorninglookingforit。Shecasthereyesdowninirritation,andreadagainhermother\'smusicalsentencesaboutthesilvergulls,andtherootsoflittlepinkflowerswashedbypellucidstreams,andthebluemistsofhyacinths,untilshewasstruckbyhermother\'ssilence。Sheraisedhereyes。Mrs。Hilberyhademptiedaportfoliocontainingoldphotographsoverhertable,andwaslookingfromonetoanother。

  “Surely,Katharine,“shesaid,“themenwerefarhandsomerinthosedaysthantheyarenow,inspiteoftheirodiouswhiskers?LookatoldJohnGraham,inhiswhitewaistcoat——lookatUncleHarley。That\'sPeterthemanservant,Isuppose。UncleJohnbroughthimbackfromIndia。“

  Katharinelookedathermother,butdidnotstiroranswer。Shehadsuddenlybecomeveryangry,witharagewhichtheirrelationshipmadesilent,andthereforedoublypowerfulandcritical。Shefeltalltheunfairnessoftheclaimwhichhermothertacitlymadetohertimeandsympathy,andwhatMrs。Hilberytook,Katharinethoughtbitterly,shewasted。Then,inaflash,sherememberedthatshehadstilltotellheraboutCyril\'smisbehavior。Herangerimmediatelydissipateditself;itbrokelikesomewavethathasgathereditselfhighabovetherest;thewaterswereresumedintotheseaagain,andKatharinefeltoncemorefullofpeaceandsolicitude,andanxiousonlythathermothershouldbeprotectedfrompain。Shecrossedtheroominstinctively,andsatonthearmofhermother\'schair。Mrs。Hilberyleantherheadagainstherdaughter\'sbody。

  “Whatisnobler,“shemused,turningoverthephotographs,“thantobeawomantowhomeveryoneturns,insorrowordifficulty?Howhavetheyoungwomenofyourgenerationimproveduponthat,Katharine?Icanseethemnow,sweepingoverthelawnsatMelburyHouse,intheirflouncesandfurbelows,socalmandstatelyandimperialandthemonkeyandthelittleblackdwarffollowingbehind,asifnothingmatteredintheworldbuttobebeautifulandkind。Buttheydidmorethanwedo,Isometimesthink。TheyWERE,andthat\'sbetterthandoing。Theyseemtomelikeships,likemajesticships,holdingontheirway,notshovingorpushing,notfrettedbylittlethings,asweare,buttakingtheirway,likeshipswithwhitesails。“

  Katharinetriedtointerruptthisdiscourse,buttheopportunitydidnotcome,andshecouldnotforbeartoturnoverthepagesofthealbuminwhichtheoldphotographswerestored。Thefacesofthesemenandwomenshoneforthwonderfullyafterthehubbuboflivingfaces,andseemed,ashermotherhadsaid,towearamarvelousdignityandcalm,asiftheyhadruledtheirkingdomsjustlyanddeservedgreatlove。Somewereofalmostincrediblebeauty,otherswereuglyenoughinaforcibleway,butnoneweredullorboredorinsignificant。Thesuperbstifffoldsofthecrinolinessuitedthewomen;thecloaksandhatsofthegentlemenseemedfullofcharacter。OncemoreKatharinefeltthesereneairallroundher,andseemedfarofftohearthesolemnbeatingoftheseaupontheshore。Butsheknewthatshemustjointhepresentontothispast。

  Mrs。Hilberywasramblingon,fromstorytostory。

  “That\'sJanieMannering,“shesaid,pointingtoasuperb,white-haireddame,whosesatinrobesseemedstrungwithpearls。“ImusthavetoldyouhowshefoundhercookdrunkunderthekitchentablewhentheEmpresswascomingtodinner,andtuckeduphervelvetsleevesshealwaysdressedlikeanEmpressherself,cookedthewholemeal,andappearedinthedrawing-roomasifshe\'dbeensleepingonabankofrosesallday。Shecoulddoanythingwithherhands——theyallcould——

  makeacottageorembroiderapetticoat。

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