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  Theworstofitwasthatshehadnoaptitudeforliterature。Shedidnotlikephrases。Shehadevensomenaturalantipathytothatprocessofself-examination,thatperpetualefforttounderstandone\'sownfeeling,andexpressitbeautifully,fitly,orenergeticallyinlanguage,whichconstitutedsogreatapartofhermother\'sexistence。

  Shewas,onthecontrary,inclinedtobesilent;sheshrankfromexpressingherselfevenintalk,letaloneinwriting。Asthisdispositionwashighlyconvenientinafamilymuchgiventothemanufactureofphrases,andseemedtoargueacorrespondingcapacityforaction,shewas,fromherchildhoodeven,putinchargeofhouseholdaffairs。Shehadthereputation,whichnothinginhermannercontradicted,ofbeingthemostpracticalofpeople。Orderingmeals,directingservants,payingbills,andsocontrivingthateveryclocktickedmoreorlessaccuratelyintime,andanumberofvaseswerealwaysfulloffreshflowerswassupposedtobeanaturalendowmentofhers,and,indeed,Mrs。Hilberyoftenobservedthatitwaspoetrythewrongsideout。Fromaveryearlyage,too,shehadtoexertherselfinanothercapacity;shehadtocounselandhelpandgenerallysustainhermother。Mrs。Hilberywouldhavebeenperfectlywellabletosustainherselfiftheworldhadbeenwhattheworldisnot。Shewasbeautifullyadaptedforlifeinanotherplanet。Butthenaturalgeniusshehadforconductingaffairstherewasofnorealusetoherhere。

  Herwatch,forexample,wasaconstantsourceofsurprisetoher,andattheageofsixty-fiveshewasstillamazedattheascendancywhichrulesandreasonsexertedoverthelivesofotherpeople。Shehadneverlearntherlesson,andhadconstantlytobepunishedforherignorance。Butasthatignorancewascombinedwithafinenaturalinsightwhichsawdeepwheneveritsawatall,itwasnotpossibletowriteMrs。Hilberyoffamongthedunces;onthecontrary,shehadawayofseemingthewisestpersonintheroom。But,onthewhole,shefounditverynecessarytoseeksupportinherdaughter。

  Katharine,thus,wasamemberofaverygreatprofessionwhichhas,asyet,notitleandverylittlerecognition,althoughthelaborofmillandfactoryis,perhaps,nomoresevereandtheresultsoflessbenefittotheworld。Shelivedathome。Shediditverywell,too。

  AnyonecomingtothehouseinCheyneWalkfeltthatherewasanorderlyplace,shapely,controlled——aplacewherelifehadbeentrainedtoshowtothebestadvantage,and,thoughcomposedofdifferentelements,madetoappearharmoniousandwithacharacterofitsown。PerhapsitwasthechieftriumphofKatharine\'sartthatMrs。

  Hilbery\'scharacterpredominated。SheandMr。Hilberyappearedtobearichbackgroundforhermother\'smorestrikingqualities。

  Silencebeing,thus,bothnaturaltoherandimposeduponher,theonlyotherremarkthathermother\'sfriendswereinthehabitofmakingaboutitwasthatitwasneitherastupidsilencenoranindifferentsilence。Buttowhatqualityitoweditscharacter,sincecharacterofsomesortithad,noonetroubledthemselvestoinquire。

  Itwasunderstoodthatshewashelpinghermothertoproduceagreatbook。Shewasknowntomanagethehousehold。Shewascertainlybeautiful。Thataccountedforhersatisfactorily。Butitwouldhavebeenasurprise,notonlytootherpeoplebuttoKatharineherself,ifsomemagicwatchcouldhavetakencountofthemomentsspentinanentirelydifferentoccupationfromherostensibleone。Sittingwithfadedpapersbeforeher,shetookpartinaseriesofscenessuchasthetamingofwildponiesupontheAmericanprairies,ortheconductofavastshipinahurricaneroundablackpromontoryofrock,orinothersmorepeaceful,butmarkedbyhercompleteemancipationfromherpresentsurroundingsand,needlesstosay,byhersurpassingabilityinhernewvocation。Whenshewasridofthepretenseofpaperandpen,phrase-makingandbiography,sheturnedherattentioninamorelegitimatedirection,though,strangelyenough,shewouldratherhaveconfessedherwildestdreamsofhurricaneandprairiethanthefactthat,upstairs,aloneinherroom,sheroseearlyinthemorningorsatuplateatnightto……workatmathematics。Noforceonearthwouldhavemadeherconfessthat。Heractionswhenthusengagedwerefurtiveandsecretive,likethoseofsomenocturnalanimal。Stepshadonlytosoundonthestaircase,andsheslippedherpaperbetweentheleavesofagreatGreekdictionarywhichshehadpurloinedfromherfather\'sroomforthispurpose。Itwasonlyatnight,indeed,thatshefeltsecureenoughfromsurprisetoconcentratehermindtotheutmost。

  Perhapstheunwomanlynatureofthesciencemadeherinstinctivelywishtoconcealherloveofit。Butthemoreprofoundreasonwasthatinhermindmathematicsweredirectlyopposedtoliterature。Shewouldnothavecaredtoconfesshowinfinitelyshepreferredtheexactitude,thestar-likeimpersonality,offigurestotheconfusion,agitation,andvaguenessofthefinestprose。Therewassomethingalittleunseemlyinthusopposingthetraditionofherfamily;somethingthatmadeherfeelwrong-headed,andthusmorethaneverdisposedtoshutherdesiresawayfromviewandcherishthemwithextraordinaryfondness。Againandagainshewasthinkingofsomeproblemwhensheshouldhavebeenthinkingofhergrandfather。Wakingfromthesetrances,shewouldseethathermother,too,hadlapsedintosomedreamalmostasvisionaryasherown,forthepeoplewhoplayedtheirpartsinithadlongbeennumberedamongthedead。But,seeingherownstatemirroredinhermother\'sface,Katharinewouldshakeherselfawakewithasenseofirritation。Hermotherwasthelastpersonshewishedtoresemble,muchthoughsheadmiredher。Hercommonsensewouldassertitselfalmostbrutally,andMrs。Hilbery,lookingatherwithheroddsidelongglance,thatwashalfmaliciousandhalftender,wouldlikenherto“yourwickedoldUncleJudgePeter,whousedtobehearddeliveringsentenceofdeathinthebathroom。ThankHeaven,Katharine,I\'venotadropofHIMinme!“

  CHAPTERIV

  Ataboutnineo\'clockatnight,oneveryalternateWednesday,MissMaryDatchetmadethesameresolve,thatshewouldneveragainlendherroomsforanypurposeswhatsoever。Being,astheywere,ratherlargeandconvenientlysituatedinastreetmostlydedicatedtoofficesofftheStrand,peoplewhowishedtomeet,eitherforpurposesofenjoyment,ortodiscussart,ortoreformtheState,hadawayofsuggestingthatMaryhadbetterbeaskedtolendthemherrooms。Shealwaysmettherequestwiththesamefrownofwell-simulatedannoyance,whichpresentlydissolvedinakindofhalf-humorous,half-

  surlyshrug,asofalargedogtormentedbychildrenwhoshakeshisears。Shewouldlendherroom,butonlyonconditionthatallthearrangementsweremadebyher。Thisfortnightlymeetingofasocietyforthefreediscussionofeverythingentailedagreatdealofmoving,andpulling,andrangingoffurnitureagainstthewall,andplacingofbreakableandpreciousthingsinsafeplaces。MissDatchetwasquitecapableofliftingakitchentableonherback,ifneedwere,foralthoughwell-proportionedanddressedbecomingly,shehadtheappearanceofunusualstrengthanddetermination。

  Shewassometwenty-fiveyearsofage,butlookedolderbecausesheearned,orintendedtoearn,herownliving,andhadalreadylostthelookoftheirresponsiblespectator,andtakenonthatoftheprivateinthearmyofworkers。Hergesturesseemedtohaveacertainpurpose,themusclesroundeyesandlipsweresetratherfirmly,asthoughthesenseshadundergonesomediscipline,andwereheldreadyforacallonthem。Shehadcontractedtwofaintlinesbetweenhereyebrows,notfromanxietybutfromthought,anditwasquiteevidentthatallthefeminineinstinctsofpleasing,soothing,andcharmingwerecrossedbyothersinnowaypeculiartohersex。Fortherestshewasbrown-eyed,alittleclumsyinmovement,andsuggestedcountrybirthandadescentfromrespectablehard-workingancestors,whohadbeenmenoffaithandintegrityratherthandoubtersorfanatics。

  Attheendofafairlyhardday\'sworkitwascertainlysomethingofanefforttoclearone\'sroom,topullthemattressoffone\'sbed,andlayitonthefloor,tofillapitcherwithcoldcoffee,andtosweepalongtableclearforplatesandcupsandsaucers,withpyramidsoflittlepinkbiscuitsbetweenthem;butwhenthesealterationswereeffected,Maryfeltalightnessofspiritcometoher,asifshehadputoffthestoutstuffofherworkinghoursandslippedoverherentirebeingsomevestureofthin,brightsilk。Shekneltbeforethefireandlookedoutintotheroom。Thelightfellsoftly,butwithclearradiance,throughshadesofyellowandbluepaper,andtheroom,whichwassetwithoneortwosofasresemblinggrassymoundsintheirlackofshape,lookedunusuallylargeandquiet。MarywasledtothinkoftheheightsofaSussexdown,andtheswellinggreencircleofsomecampofancientwarriors。Themoonlightwouldbefallingtheresopeacefullynow,andshecouldfancytheroughpathwayofsilveruponthewrinkledskinofthesea。

  “Andhereweare,“shesaid,halfaloud,halfsatirically,yetwithevidentpride,“talkingaboutart。“

  Shepulledabasketcontainingballsofdifferentlycoloredwoolsandapairofstockingswhichneededdarningtowardsher,andbegantosetherfingerstowork;whilehermind,reflectingthelassitudeofherbody,wentonperversely,conjuringupvisionsofsolitudeandquiet,andshepicturedherselflayingasideherknittingandwalkingoutontothedown,andhearingnothingbutthesheepcroppingthegrassclosetotheroots,whiletheshadowsofthelittletreesmovedveryslightlythiswayandthatinthemoonlight,asthebreezewentthroughthem。Butshewasperfectlyconsciousofherpresentsituation,andderivedsomepleasurefromthereflectionthatshecouldrejoiceequallyinsolitude,andinthepresenceofthemanyverydifferentpeoplewhowerenowmakingtheirway,bydiverspaths,acrossLondontothespotwhereshewassitting。

  Assheranherneedleinandoutofthewool,shethoughtofthevariousstagesinherownlifewhichmadeherpresentpositionseemtheculminationofsuccessivemiracles。Shethoughtofherclericalfatherinhiscountryparsonage,andofhermother\'sdeath,andofherowndeterminationtoobtaineducation,andofhercollegelife,whichhadmerged,notsoverylongago,inthewonderfulmazeofLondon,whichstillseemedtoher,inspiteofherconstitutionallevel-headedness,likeavastelectriclight,castingradianceuponthemyriadsofmenandwomenwhocrowdedroundit。Andhereshewasattheverycenterofitall,thatcenterwhichwasconstantlyinthemindsofpeopleinremoteCanadianforestsandontheplainsofIndia,whentheirthoughtsturnedtoEngland。Theninemellowstrokes,bywhichshewasnowapprisedofthehour,wereamessagefromthegreatclockatWestminsteritself。Asthelastofthemdiedaway,therewasafirmknockingonherowndoor,andsheroseandopenedit。Shereturnedtotheroom,withalookofsteadypleasureinhereyes,andshewastalkingtoRalphDenham,whofollowedher。

  “Alone?“hesaid,asifhewerepleasantlysurprisedbythatfact。

  “Iamsometimesalone,“shereplied。

  “Butyouexpectagreatmanypeople,“headded,lookingroundhim。

  “It\'slikearoomonthestage。Whoisitto-night?“

  “WilliamRodney,upontheElizabethanuseofmetaphor。Iexpectagoodsolidpaper,withplentyofquotationsfromtheclassics。“

  Ralphwarmedhishandsatthefire,whichwasflappingbravelyinthegrate,whileMarytookupherstockingagain。

  “IsupposeyouaretheonlywomaninLondonwhodarnsherownstockings,“heobserved。

  “I\'monlyoneofagreatmanythousandsreally,“shereplied,“thoughImustadmitthatIwasthinkingmyselfveryremarkablewhenyoucamein。Andnowthatyou\'rehereIdon\'tthinkmyselfremarkableatall。

  Howhorridofyou!ButI\'mafraidyou\'remuchmoreremarkablethanI

  am。You\'vedonemuchmorethanI\'vedone。“

  “Ifthat\'syourstandard,you\'venothingtobeproudof,“saidRalphgrimly。

  “Well,ImustreflectwithEmersonthatit\'sbeingandnotdoingthatmatters,“shecontinued。

  “Emerson?“Ralphexclaimed,withderision。“Youdon\'tmeantosayyoureadEmerson?“

  “Perhapsitwasn\'tEmerson;butwhyshouldn\'tIreadEmerson?“sheasked,withatingeofanxiety。

  “There\'snoreasonthatIknowof。It\'sthecombinationthat\'sodd——

  booksandstockings。Thecombinationisveryodd。“Butitseemedtorecommenditselftohim。Marygavealittlelaugh,expressiveofhappiness,andtheparticularstitchesthatshewasnowputtingintoherworkappearedtohertobedonewithsingulargraceandfelicity。

  Sheheldoutthestockingandlookedatitapprovingly。

  “Youalwayssaythat,“shesaid。“Iassureyouit\'sacommon\'combination,\'asyoucallit,inthehousesoftheclergy。Theonlythingthat\'soddaboutmeisthatIenjoythemboth——Emersonandthestocking。“

  Aknockwasheard,andRalphexclaimed:

  “Damnthosepeople!Iwishtheyweren\'tcoming!“

  “It\'sonlyMr。Turner,onthefloorbelow,“saidMary,andshefeltgratefultoMr。TurnerforhavingalarmedRalph,andforhavinggivenafalsealarm。

  “Willtherebeacrowd?“Ralphasked,afterapause。

  “There\'llbetheMorrisesandtheCrashaws,andDickOsborne,andSeptimus,andallthatset。KatharineHilberyiscoming,bytheway,soWilliamRodneytoldme。“

  “KatharineHilbery!“Ralphexclaimed。

  “Youknowher?“Maryasked,withsomesurprise。

  “Iwenttoatea-partyatherhouse。“

  Marypressedhimtotellherallaboutit,andRalphwasnotatallunwillingtoexhibitproofsoftheextentofhisknowledge。HedescribedthescenewithcertainadditionsandexaggerationswhichinterestedMaryverymuch。

  “But,inspiteofwhatyousay,Idoadmireher,“shesaid。“I\'veonlyseenheronceortwice,butsheseemstometobewhatonecallsa\'personality。\'“

  “Ididn\'tmeantoabuseher。Ionlyfeltthatshewasn\'tverysympathetictome。“

  “Theysayshe\'sgoingtomarrythatqueercreatureRodney。“

  “MarryRodney?ThenshemustbemoredeludedthanIthoughther。“

  “Nowthat\'smydoor,allright,“Maryexclaimed,carefullyputtingherwoolsaway,asasuccessionofknocksreverberatedunnecessarily,accompaniedbyasoundofpeoplestampingtheirfeetandlaughing。A

  momentlatertheroomwasfullofyoungmenandwomen,whocameinwithapeculiarlookofexpectation,exclaimed“Oh!“whentheysawDenham,andthenstoodstill,gapingratherfoolishly。

  Theroomverysooncontainedbetweentwentyandthirtypeople,whofoundseatsforthemostpartuponthefloor,occupyingthemattresses,andhunchingthemselvestogetherintotriangularshapes。

  Theywereallyoungandsomeofthemseemedtomakeaprotestbytheirhairanddress,andsomethingsomberandtruculentintheexpressionoftheirfaces,againstthemorenormaltype,whowouldhavepassedunnoticedinanomnibusoranundergroundrailway。Itwasnotablethatthetalkwasconfinedtogroups,andwas,atfirst,entirelyspasmodicincharacter,andmutteredinundertonesasifthespeakersweresuspiciousoftheirfellow-guests。

  KatharineHilberycameinratherlate,andtookupapositiononthefloor,withherbackagainstthewall。Shelookedroundquickly,recognizedabouthalfadozenpeople,towhomshenodded,butfailedtoseeRalph,or,ifso,hadalreadyforgottentoattachanynametohim。ButinasecondtheseheterogeneouselementswereallunitedbythevoiceofMr。Rodney,whosuddenlystrodeuptothetable,andbeganveryrapidlyinhigh-strainedtones:

  “InundertakingtospeakoftheElizabethanuseofmetaphorinpoetry——“

  Allthedifferentheadsswungslightlyorsteadiedthemselvesintoapositioninwhichtheycouldgazestraightatthespeaker\'sface,andthesamerathersolemnexpressionwasvisibleonallofthem。But,atthesametime,eventhefacesthatweremostexposedtoview,andthereforemosttautlyundercontrol,disclosedasuddenimpulsivetremorwhich,unlessdirectlychecked,wouldhavedevelopedintoanoutburstoflaughter。ThefirstsightofMr。Rodneywasirresistiblyludicrous。Hewasveryredintheface,whetherfromthecoolNovembernightornervousness,andeverymovement,fromthewayhewrunghishandstothewayhejerkedhisheadtorightandleft,asthoughavisiondrewhimnowtothedoor,nowtothewindow,bespokehishorriblediscomfortunderthestareofsomanyeyes。Hewasscrupulouslywelldressed,andapearlinthecenterofhistieseemedtogivehimatouchofaristocraticopulence。Buttheratherprominenteyesandtheimpulsivestammeringmanner,whichseemedtoindicateatorrentofideasintermittentlypressingforutteranceandalwayscheckedintheircoursebyaclutchofnervousness,drewnopity,asinthecaseofamoreimposingpersonage,butadesiretolaugh,whichwas,however,entirelylackinginmalice。Mr。Rodneywasevidentlysopainfullyconsciousoftheoddityofhisappearance,andhisveryrednessandthestartstowhichhisbodywasliablegavesuchproofofhisowndiscomfort,thattherewassomethingendearinginthisridiculoussusceptibility,althoughmostpeoplewouldprobablyhaveechoedDenham\'sprivateexclamation,“Fancymarryingacreaturelikethat!“

  Hispaperwascarefullywrittenout,butinspiteofthisprecautionMr。Rodneymanagedtoturnovertwosheetsinsteadofone,tochoosethewrongsentencewheretwowerewrittentogether,andtodiscoverhisownhandwritingsuddenlyillegible。Whenhefoundhimselfpossessedofacoherentpassage,heshookitathisaudiencealmostaggressively,andthenfumbledforanother。Afteradistressingsearchafreshdiscoverywouldbemade,andproducedinthesameway,until,bymeansofrepeatedattacks,hehadstirredhisaudiencetoadegreeofanimationquiteremarkableinthesegatherings。Whethertheywerestirredbyhisenthusiasmforpoetryorbythecontortionswhichahumanbeingwasgoingthroughfortheirbenefit,itwouldbehardtosay。AtlengthMr。Rodneysatdownimpulsivelyinthemiddleofasentence,and,afterapauseofbewilderment,theaudienceexpresseditsreliefatbeingabletolaughaloudinadecidedoutburstofapplause。

  Mr。Rodneyacknowledgedthiswithawildglanceroundhim,and,insteadofwaitingtoanswerquestions,hejumpedup,thrusthimselfthroughtheseatedbodiesintothecornerwhereKatharinewassitting,andexclaimed,veryaudibly:

  “Well,Katharine,IhopeI\'vemadeabigenoughfoolofmyselfevenforyou!Itwasterrible!terrible!terrible!“

  “Hush!Youmustanswertheirquestions,“Katharinewhispered,desiring,atallcosts,tokeephimquiet。Oddlyenough,whenthespeakerwasnolongerinfrontofthem,thereseemedtobemuchthatwassuggestiveinwhathehadsaid。Atanyrate,apale-facedyoungmanwithsadeyeswasalreadyonhisfeet,deliveringanaccuratelywordedspeechwithperfectcomposure。WilliamRodneylistenedwithacuriousliftingofhisupperlip,althoughhisfacewasstillquiveringslightlywithemotion。

  “Idiot!“hewhispered。“He\'smisunderstoodeverywordIsaid!“

  “Wellthen,answerhim,“Katharinewhisperedback。

  “No,Ishan\'t!They\'donlylaughatme。WhydidIletyoupersuademethatthesesortofpeoplecareforliterature?“hecontinued。

  TherewasmuchtobesaidbothforandagainstMr。Rodney\'spaper。Ithadbeencrammedwithassertionsthatsuch-and-suchpassages,takenliberallyfromEnglish,French,andItalian,arethesupremepearlsofliterature。Further,hewasfondofusingmetaphorswhich,compoundedinthestudy,wereapttosoundeithercrampedoroutofplaceashedeliveredtheminfragments。Literaturewasafreshgarlandofspringflowers,hesaid,inwhichyew-berriesandthepurplenightshademingledwiththevarioustintsoftheanemone;andsomehoworotherthisgarlandencircledmarblebrows。Hehadreadverybadlysomeverybeautifulquotations。Butthroughhismannerandhisconfusionoflanguagetherehademergedsomepassionoffeelingwhich,ashespoke,formedinthemajorityoftheaudiencealittlepictureoranideawhicheachnowwaseagertogiveexpressionto。Mostofthepeoplethereproposedtospendtheirlivesinthepracticeeitherofwritingorpainting,andmerelybylookingatthemitcouldbeseenthat,astheylistenedtoMr。Purvisfirst,andthentoMr。Greenhalgh,theywereseeingsomethingdonebythesegentlementoapossessionwhichtheythoughttobetheirown。Onepersonafteranotherrose,and,aswithanill-balancedaxe,attemptedtohewouthisconceptionofartalittlemoreclearly,andsatdownwiththefeelingthat,forsomereasonwhichhecouldnotgrasp,hisstrokeshadgoneawry。Astheysatdowntheyturnedalmostinvariablytothepersonsittingnextthem,andrectifiedandcontinuedwhattheyhadjustsaidinpublic。

  Beforelong,therefore,thegroupsonthemattressesandthegroupsonthechairswereallincommunicationwitheachother,andMaryDatchet,whohadbeguntodarnstockingsagain,stoopeddownandremarkedtoRalph:

  “ThatwaswhatIcallafirst-ratepaper。“

  Bothoftheminstinctivelyturnedtheireyesinthedirectionofthereaderofthepaper。Hewaslyingbackagainstthewall,withhiseyesapparentlyshut,andhischinsunkuponhiscollar。Katharinewasturningoverthepagesofhismanuscriptasifshewerelookingforsomepassagethathadparticularlystruckher,andhadadifficultyinfindingit。

  “Let\'sgoandtellhimhowmuchwelikedit,“saidMary,thussuggestinganactionwhichRalphwasanxioustotake,thoughwithoutherhewouldhavebeentooproudtodoit,forhesuspectedthathehadmoreinterestinKatharinethanshehadinhim。

  “Thatwasaveryinterestingpaper,“Marybegan,withoutanyshyness,seatingherselfontheflooroppositetoRodneyandKatharine。“Willyoulendmethemanuscripttoreadinpeace?“

  Rodney,whohadopenedhiseyesontheirapproach,regardedherforamomentinsuspicioussilence。

  “Doyousaythatmerelytodisguisethefactofmyridiculousfailure?“heasked。

  Katharinelookedupfromherreadingwithasmile。

  “Hesayshedoesn\'tmindwhatwethinkofhim,“sheremarked。“Hesayswedon\'tcarearapforartofanykind。“

  “Iaskedhertopityme,andsheteasesme!“Rodneyexclaimed。

  “Idon\'tintendtopityyou,Mr。Rodney,“Maryremarked,kindly,butfirmly。“Whenapaper\'safailure,nobodysaysanything,whereasnow,justlistentothem!“

  Thesound,whichfilledtheroom,withitshurryofshortsyllables,itssuddenpauses,anditssuddenattacks,mightbecomparedtosomeanimalhubbub,franticandinarticulate。

  “D\'youthinkthat\'sallaboutmypaper?“Rodneyinquired,afteramoment\'sattention,withadistinctbrighteningofexpression。

  “Ofcourseitis,“saidMary。“Itwasaverysuggestivepaper。“

  SheturnedtoDenhamforconfirmation,andhecorroboratedher。

  “It\'sthetenminutesafterapaperisreadthatproveswhetherit\'sbeenasuccessornot,“hesaid。“IfIwereyou,Rodney,Ishouldbeverypleasedwithmyself。“

  ThiscommendationseemedtocomfortMr。Rodneycompletely,andhebegantobethinkhimofallthepassagesinhispaperwhichdeservedtobecalled“suggestive。“

  “Didyouagreeatall,Denham,withwhatIsaidaboutShakespeare\'slateruseofimagery?I\'mafraidIdidn\'taltogethermakemymeaningplain。“

  Herehegatheredhimselftogether,andbymeansofaseriesoffrog-likejerks,succeededinbringinghimselfclosetoDenham。

  Denhamansweredhimwiththebrevitywhichistheresultofhavinganothersentenceinthemindtobeaddressedtoanotherperson。HewishedtosaytoKatharine:“Didyouremembertogetthatpictureglazedbeforeyourauntcametodinner?“but,besideshavingtoanswerRodney,hewasnotsurethattheremark,withitsassertionofintimacy,wouldnotstrikeKatharineasimpertinent。Shewaslisteningtowhatsomeoneinanothergroupwassaying。Rodney,meanwhile,wastalkingabouttheElizabethandramatists。

  Hewasacurious-lookingmansince,uponfirstsight,especiallyifhechancedtobetalkingwithanimation,heappeared,insomeway,ridiculous;but,nextmoment,inrepose,hisface,withitslargenose,thincheeksandlipsexpressingtheutmostsensibility,somehowrecalledaRomanheadboundwithlaurel,cutuponacircleofsemi-

  transparentreddishstone。Ithaddignityandcharacter。ByprofessionaclerkinaGovernmentoffice,hewasoneofthosemartyredspiritstowhomliteratureisatonceasourceofdivinejoyandofalmostintolerableirritation。Notcontenttorestintheirloveofit,theymustattempttopractiseitthemselves,andtheyaregenerallyendowedwithverylittlefacilityincomposition。Theycondemnwhatevertheyproduce。Moreover,theviolenceoftheirfeelingsissuchthattheyseldommeetwithadequatesympathy,andbeingrenderedverysensitivebytheircultivatedperceptions,sufferconstantslightsbothtotheirownpersonsandtothethingtheyworship。ButRodneycouldneverresistmakingtrialofthesympathiesofanyonewhoseemedfavorablydisposed,andDenham\'spraisehadstimulatedhisverysusceptiblevanity。

  “YourememberthepassagejustbeforethedeathoftheDuchess?“hecontinued,edgingstillclosertoDenham,andadjustinghiselbowandkneeinanincrediblyangularcombination。Here,Katharine,whohadbeencutoffbythesemaneuversfromallcommunicationwiththeouterworld,rose,andseatedherselfuponthewindow-sill,whereshewasjoinedbyMaryDatchet。Thetwoyoungwomencouldthussurveythewholeparty。Denhamlookedafterthem,andmadeasifheweretearinghandfulsofgrassupbytherootsfromthecarpet。Butasitfellinaccuratelywithhisconceptionoflifethatallone\'sdesireswereboundtobefrustrated,heconcentratedhisminduponliterature,anddetermined,philosophically,togetwhathecouldoutofthat。

  Katharinewaspleasantlyexcited。Avarietyofcourseswasopentoher。Sheknewseveralpeopleslightly,andatanymomentoneofthemmightrisefromthefloorandcomeandspeaktoher;ontheotherhand,shemightselectsomebodyforherself,orshemightstrikeintoRodney\'sdiscourse,towhichshewasintermittentlyattentive。ShewasconsciousofMary\'sbodybesideher,but,atthesametime,theconsciousnessofbeingbothofthemwomenmadeitunnecessarytospeaktoher。ButMary,feeling,asshehadsaid,thatKatharinewasa“personality,“wishedsomuchtospeaktoherthatinafewmomentsshedid。

  “They\'reexactlylikeaflockofsheep,aren\'tthey?“shesaid,referringtothenoisethatrosefromthescatteredbodiesbeneathher。

  Katharineturnedandsmiled。

  “Iwonderwhatthey\'remakingsuchanoiseabout?“shesaid。

  “TheElizabethans,Isuppose。“

  “No,Idon\'tthinkit\'sgotanythingtodowiththeElizabethans。

  There!Didn\'tyouhearthemsay,\'InsuranceBill\'?“

  “Iwonderwhymenalwaystalkaboutpolitics?“Maryspeculated。“I

  suppose,ifwehadvotes,weshould,too。“

  “Idaresayweshould。Andyouspendyourlifeingettingusvotes,don\'tyou?“

  “Ido,“saidMary,stoutly。“FromtentosixeverydayI\'matit。“

  KatharinelookedatRalphDenham,whowasnowpoundinghiswaythroughthemetaphysicsofmetaphorwithRodney,andwasremindedofhistalkthatSundayafternoon。SheconnectedhimvaguelywithMary。

  “Isupposeyou\'reoneofthepeoplewhothinkweshouldallhaveprofessions,“shesaid,ratherdistantly,asiffeelingherwayamongthephantomsofanunknownworld。

  “Ohdearno,“saidMaryatonce。

  “Well,IthinkIdo,“Katharinecontinued,withhalfasigh。“Youwillalwaysbeabletosaythatyou\'vedonesomething,whereas,inacrowdlikethis,Ifeelrathermelancholy。“

  “Inacrowd?Whyinacrowd?“Maryasked,deepeningthetwolinesbetweenhereyes,andhoistingherselfnearertoKatharineuponthewindow-sill。

  “Don\'tyouseehowmanydifferentthingsthesepeoplecareabout?AndIwanttobeatthemdown——Ionlymean,“shecorrectedherself,“thatI

  wanttoassertmyself,andit\'sdifficult,ifonehasn\'taprofession。“

  Marysmiled,thinkingthattobeatpeopledownwasaprocessthatshouldpresentnodifficultytoMissKatharineHilbery。Theykneweachothersoslightlythatthebeginningofintimacy,whichKatharineseemedtoinitiatebytalkingaboutherself,hadsomethingsolemninit,andtheyweresilent,asiftodecidewhethertoproceedornot。

  Theytestedtheground。

  “Ah,butIwanttotrampleupontheirprostratebodies!“Katharineannounced,amomentlater,withalaugh,asifatthetrainofthoughtwhichhadledhertothisconclusion。

  “Onedoesn\'tnecessarilytrampleuponpeople\'sbodiesbecauseonerunsanoffice,“Maryremarked。

  “No。Perhapsnot,“Katharinereplied。Theconversationlapsed,andMarysawKatharinelookingoutintotheroomrathermoodilywithclosedlips,thedesiretotalkaboutherselfortoinitiateafriendshiphaving,apparently,lefther。Marywasstruckbyhercapacityforbeingthuseasilysilent,andoccupiedwithherownthoughts。Itwasahabitthatspokeoflonelinessandamindthinkingforitself。WhenKatharineremainedsilentMarywasslightlyembarrassed。

  “Yes,they\'reverylikesheep,“sherepeated,foolishly。

  “Andyettheyareveryclever——atleast,“Katharineadded,“IsupposetheyhaveallreadWebster。“

  “Surelyyoudon\'tthinkthataproofofcleverness?I\'vereadWebster,I\'vereadBenJonson,butIdon\'tthinkmyselfclever——notexactly,atleast。“

  “Ithinkyoumustbeveryclever,“Katharineobserved。

  “Why?BecauseIrunanoffice?“

  “Iwasn\'tthinkingofthat。Iwasthinkinghowyoulivealoneinthisroom,andhaveparties。“

  Maryreflectedforasecond。

  “Itmeans,chiefly,apowerofbeingdisagreeabletoone\'sownfamily,Ithink。Ihavethat,perhaps。Ididn\'twanttoliveathome,andI

  toldmyfather。Hedidn\'tlikeit……ButthenIhaveasister,andyouhaven\'t,haveyou?“

  “No,Ihaven\'tanysisters。“

  “Youarewritingalifeofyourgrandfather?“Marypursued。

  Katharineseemedinstantlytobeconfrontedbysomefamiliarthoughtfromwhichshewishedtoescape。Shereplied,“Yes,Iamhelpingmymother,“insuchawaythatMaryfeltherselfbaffled,andputbackagainintothepositioninwhichshehadbeenatthebeginningoftheirtalk。ItseemedtoherthatKatharinepossessedacuriouspowerofdrawingnearandreceding,whichsentalternateemotionsthroughherfarmorequicklythanwasusual,andkeptherinaconditionofcuriousalertness。Desiringtoclassifyher,Marybethoughtheroftheconvenientterm“egoist。“

  “She\'sanegoist,“shesaidtoherself,andstoredthatworduptogivetoRalphonedaywhen,asitwouldcertainlyfallout,theywerediscussingMissHilbery。

  “Heavens,whatamessthere\'llbeto-morrowmorning!“Katharineexclaimed。“Ihopeyoudon\'tsleepinthisroom,MissDatchet?“

  Marylaughed。

  “Whatareyoulaughingat?“Katharinedemanded。

  “Iwon\'ttellyou。“

  “Letmeguess。YouwerelaughingbecauseyouthoughtI\'dchangedtheconversation?“

  “No。“

  “Becauseyouthink——“Shepaused。

  “Ifyouwanttoknow,IwaslaughingatthewayyousaidMissDatchet。“

  “Mary,then。Mary,Mary,Mary。“

  Sosaying,Katharinedrewbackthecurtaininorder,perhaps,toconcealthemomentaryflushofpleasurewhichiscausedbycomingperceptiblynearertoanotherperson。

  “MaryDatchet,“saidMary。“It\'snotsuchanimposingnameasKatharineHilbery,I\'mafraid。“

  Theybothlookedoutofthewindow,firstupatthehardsilvermoon,stationaryamongahurryoflittlegrey-blueclouds,andthendownupontheroofsofLondon,withalltheiruprightchimneys,andthenbelowthemattheemptymoonlitpavementofthestreet,uponwhichthejointofeachpaving-stonewasclearlymarkedout。MarythensawKatharineraisehereyesagaintothemoon,withacontemplativelookinthem,asthoughsheweresettingthatmoonagainstthemoonofothernights,heldinmemory。Someoneintheroombehindthemmadeajokeaboutstar-gazing,whichdestroyedtheirpleasureinit,andtheylookedbackintotheroomagain。

  Ralphhadbeenwatchingforthismoment,andheinstantlyproducedhissentence。

  “Iwonder,MissHilbery,whetheryourememberedtogetthatpictureglazed?“Hisvoiceshowedthatthequestionwasonethathadbeenprepared。

  “Oh,youidiot!“Maryexclaimed,verynearlyaloud,withasensethatRalphhadsaidsomethingverystupid。So,afterthreelessonsinLatingrammar,onemightcorrectafellowstudent,whoseknowledgedidnotembracetheablativeof“mensa。“

  “Picture——whatpicture?“Katharineasked。“Oh,athome,youmean——thatSundayafternoon。WasitthedayMr。Fortescuecame?Yes,IthinkI

  rememberedit。“

  Thethreeofthemstoodforamomentawkwardlysilent,andthenMarylefttheminordertoseethatthegreatpitcherofcoffeewasproperlyhandled,forbeneathallhereducationshepreservedtheanxietiesofonewhoownschina。

  Ralphcouldthinkofnothingfurthertosay;butcouldonehavestrippedoffhismaskofflesh,onewouldhaveseenthathiswill-

  powerwasrigidlysetuponasingleobject——thatMissHilberyshouldobeyhim。Hewishedhertostaythereuntil,bysomemeasuresnotyetapparenttohim,hehadconqueredherinterest。Thesestatesofmindtransmitthemselvesveryoftenwithouttheuseoflanguage,anditwasevidenttoKatharinethatthisyoungmanhadfixedhisminduponher。

  Sheinstantlyrecalledherfirstimpressionsofhim,andsawherselfagainprofferingfamilyrelics。SherevertedtothestateofmindinwhichhehadleftherthatSundayafternoon。Shesupposedthathejudgedherveryseverely。Shearguednaturallythat,ifthiswerethecase,theburdenoftheconversationshouldrestwithhim。Butshesubmittedsofarastostandperfectlystill,hereyesupontheoppositewall,andherlipsverynearlyclosed,thoughthedesiretolaughstirredthemslightly。

  “Youknowthenamesofthestars,Isuppose?“Denhamremarked,andfromthetoneofhisvoiceonemighthavethoughtthathegrudgedKatharinetheknowledgeheattributedtoher。

  Shekepthervoicesteadywithsomedifficulty。

  “IknowhowtofindthePolestarifI\'mlost。“

  “Idon\'tsupposethatoftenhappenstoyou。“

  “No。Nothinginterestingeverhappenstome,“shesaid。

  “Ithinkyoumakeasystemofsayingdisagreeablethings,MissHilbery,“hebrokeout,againgoingfurtherthanhemeantto。“I

  supposeit\'soneofthecharacteristicsofyourclass。Theynevertalkseriouslytotheirinferiors。“

  Whetheritwasthattheyweremeetingonneutralgroundto-night,orwhetherthecarelessnessofanoldgreycoatthatDenhamworegaveaneasetohisbearingthathelackedinconventionaldress,Katharinecertainlyfeltnoimpulsetoconsiderhimoutsidetheparticularsetinwhichshelived。

  “Inwhatsenseareyoumyinferior?“sheasked,lookingathimgravely,asthoughhonestlysearchingforhismeaning。Thelookgavehimgreatpleasure。Forthefirsttimehefelthimselfonperfectlyequaltermswithawomanwhomhewishedtothinkwellofhim,althoughhecouldnothaveexplainedwhyheropinionofhimmatteredonewayoranother。Perhaps,afterall,heonlywantedtohavesomethingofhertotakehometothinkabout。Buthewasnotdestinedtoprofitbyhisadvantage。

  “Idon\'tthinkIunderstandwhatyoumean,“Katharinerepeated,andthenshewasobligedtostopandanswersomeonewhowishedtoknowwhethershewouldbuyaticketforanoperafromthem,atareduction。

  Indeed,thetemperofthemeetingwasnowunfavorabletoseparateconversation;ithadbecomeratherdebauchedandhilarious,andpeoplewhoscarcelykneweachotherweremakinguseofChristiannameswithapparentcordiality,andhadreachedthatkindofgaytoleranceandgeneralfriendlinesswhichhumanbeingsinEnglandonlyattainaftersittingtogetherforthreehoursorso,andthefirstcoldblastintheairofthestreetfreezesthemintoisolationoncemore。Cloakswerebeingflungroundtheshoulders,hatsswiftlypinnedtothehead;

  andDenhamhadthemortificationofseeingKatharinehelpedtoprepareherselfbytheridiculousRodney。Itwasnottheconventionofthemeetingtosaygood-bye,ornecessarilyeventonodtothepersonwithwhomonewastalking;but,nevertheless,DenhamwasdisappointedbythecompletenesswithwhichKatharinepartedfromhim,withoutanyattempttofinishhersentence。SheleftwithRodney。

  CHAPTERV

  DenhamhadnoconsciousintentionoffollowingKatharine,but,seeingherdepart,hetookhishatandranrathermorequicklydownthestairsthanhewouldhavedoneifKatharinehadnotbeeninfrontofhim。Heovertookafriendofhis,bynameHarrySandys,whowasgoingthesameway,andtheywalkedtogetherafewpacesbehindKatharineandRodney。

  Thenightwasverystill,andonsuchnights,whenthetrafficthinsaway,thewalkerbecomesconsciousofthemooninthestreet,asifthecurtainsoftheskyhadbeendrawnapart,andtheheavenlaybare,asitdoesinthecountry。Theairwassoftlycool,sothatpeoplewhohadbeensittingtalkinginacrowdfounditpleasanttowalkalittlebeforedecidingtostopanomnibusorencounterlightagaininanundergroundrailway。Sandys,whowasabarristerwithaphilosophictendency,tookouthispipe,litit,murmured“hum“and“ha,“andwassilent。Thecoupleinfrontofthemkepttheirdistanceaccurately,andappeared,sofarasDenhamcouldjudgebythewaytheyturnedtowardseachother,tobetalkingveryconstantly。Heobservedthatwhenapedestriangoingtheoppositewayforcedthemtoparttheycametogetheragaindirectlyafterwards。WithoutintendingtowatchthemheneverquitelostsightoftheyellowscarftwistedroundKatharine\'shead,orthelightovercoatwhichmadeRodneylookfashionableamongthecrowd。AttheStrandhesupposedthattheywouldseparate,butinsteadtheycrossedtheroad,andtooktheirwaydownoneofthenarrowpassageswhichleadthroughancientcourtstotheriver。AmongthecrowdofpeopleinthebigthoroughfaresRodneyseemedmerelytobelendingKatharinehisescort,butnow,whenpassengerswererareandthefootstepsofthecoupleweredistinctlyheardinthesilence,Denhamcouldnothelppicturingtohimselfsomechangeintheirconversation。Theeffectofthelightandshadow,whichseemedtoincreasetheirheight,wastomakethemmysteriousandsignificant,sothatDenhamhadnofeelingofirritationwithKatharine,butratherahalf-dreamyacquiescenceinthecourseoftheworld。Yes,shedidverywelltodreamabout——butSandyshadsuddenlybeguntotalk。Hewasasolitarymanwhohadmadehisfriendsatcollegeandalwaysaddressedthemasiftheywerestillundergraduatesarguinginhisroom,thoughmanymonthsorevenyearshadpassedinsomecasesbetweenthelastsentenceandthepresentone。Themethodwasalittlesingular,butveryrestful,foritseemedtoignorecompletelyallaccidentsofhumanlife,andtospanverydeepabysseswithafewsimplewords。

  Onthisoccasionhebegan,whiletheywaitedforaminuteontheedgeoftheStrand:

  “IhearthatBennetthasgivenuphistheoryoftruth。“

  Denhamreturnedasuitableanswer,andheproceededtoexplainhowthisdecisionhadbeenarrivedat,andwhatchangesitinvolvedinthephilosophywhichtheybothaccepted。MeanwhileKatharineandRodneydrewfurtherahead,andDenhamkept,ifthatistherightexpressionforaninvoluntaryaction,onefilamentofhisminduponthem,whilewiththerestofhisintelligencehesoughttounderstandwhatSandyswassaying。

  Astheypassedthroughthecourtsthustalking,Sandyslaidthetipofhisstickupononeofthestonesformingatime-wornarch,andstruckitmeditativelytwoorthreetimesinordertoillustratesomethingveryobscureaboutthecomplexnatureofone\'sapprehensionoffacts。

  Duringthepausewhichthisnecessitated,KatharineandRodneyturnedthecorneranddisappeared。ForamomentDenhamstoppedinvoluntarilyinhissentence,andcontinueditwithasenseofhavinglostsomething。

  Unconsciousthattheywereobserved,KatharineandRodneyhadcomeoutontheEmbankment。Whentheyhadcrossedtheroad,Rodneyslappedhishanduponthestoneparapetabovetheriverandexclaimed:

  “IpromiseIwon\'tsayanotherwordaboutit,Katharine!Butdostopaminuteandlookatthemoonuponthewater。“

  Katharinepaused,lookedupanddowntheriver,andsnuffedtheair。

  “I\'msureonecansmellthesea,withthewindblowingthisway,“shesaid。

  Theystoodsilentforafewmomentswhiletherivershiftedinitsbed,andthesilverandredlightswhichwerelaiduponitweretornbythecurrentandjoinedtogetheragain。Veryfaroffuptheriverasteamerhootedwithitshollowvoiceofunspeakablemelancholy,asiffromtheheartoflonelymist-shroudedvoyagings。

  “Ah!“Rodneycried,strikinghishandoncemoreuponthebalustrade,“whycan\'tonesayhowbeautifulitallis?WhyamIcondemnedforever,Katharine,tofeelwhatIcan\'texpress?AndthethingsIcangivethere\'snouseinmygiving。Trustme,Katharine,“headdedhastily,“Iwon\'tspeakofitagain。Butinthepresenceofbeauty——

  lookattheiridescenceroundthemoon!——onefeels——onefeels——Perhapsifyoumarriedme——I\'mhalfapoet,yousee,andIcan\'tpretendnottofeelwhatIdofeel。IfIcouldwrite——ah,thatwouldbeanothermatter。Ishouldn\'tbotheryoutomarrymethen,Katharine。“

  Hespokethesedisconnectedsentencesratherabruptly,withhiseyesalternatelyuponthemoonanduponthestream。

  “ButformeIsupposeyouwouldrecommendmarriage?“saidKatharine,withhereyesfixedonthemoon。

  “CertainlyIshould。Notforyouonly,butforallwomen。Why,you\'renothingatallwithoutit;you\'reonlyhalfalive;usingonlyhalfyourfaculties;youmustfeelthatforyourself。Thatiswhy——“Herehestoppedhimself,andtheybegantowalkslowlyalongtheEmbankment,themoonfrontingthem。

  “Withhowsadstepssheclimbsthesky,Howsilentlyandwithhowwanaface,“

  Rodneyquoted。

  “I\'vebeentoldagreatmanyunpleasantthingsaboutmyselfto-night,“

  Katharinestated,withoutattendingtohim。“Mr。Denhamseemstothinkithismissiontolectureme,thoughIhardlyknowhim。Bytheway,William,youknowhim;tellme,whatishelike?“

  Williamdrewadeepsigh。

  “Wemaylectureyoutillwe\'reblueintheface——“

  “Yes——butwhat\'shelike?“

  “Andwewritesonnetstoyoureyebrows,youcruelpracticalcreature。

  Denham?“headded,asKatharineremainedsilent。“Agoodfellow,I

  shouldthink。Hecares,naturally,fortherightsortofthings,I

  expect。Butyoumustn\'tmarryhim,though。Hescoldedyou,didhe——

  whatdidhesay?“

  “WhathappenswithMr。Denhamisthis:Hecomestotea。IdoallIcantoputhimathisease。Hemerelysitsandscowlsatme。ThenIshowhimourmanuscripts。Atthishebecomesreallyangry,andtellsmeI\'venobusinesstocallmyselfamiddle-classwoman。Sowepartinahuff;andnexttimewemeet,whichwasto-night,hewalksstraightuptome,andsays,\'GototheDevil!\'That\'sthesortofbehaviormymothercomplainsof。Iwanttoknow,whatdoesitmean?“

  Shepausedand,slackeninghersteps,lookedatthelightedtraindrawingitselfsmoothlyoverHungerfordBridge。

  “Itmeans,Ishouldsay,thathefindsyouchillyandunsympathetic。“

  Katharinelaughedwithround,separatenotesofgenuineamusement。

  “It\'stimeIjumpedintoacabandhidmyselfinmyownhouse,“sheexclaimed。

  “Wouldyourmotherobjecttomybeingseenwithyou?Noonecouldpossiblyrecognizeus,couldthey?“Rodneyinquired,withsomesolicitude。

  Katharinelookedathim,andperceivingthathissolicitudewasgenuine,shelaughedagain,butwithanironicalnoteinherlaughter。

  “Youmaylaugh,Katharine,butIcantellyouthatifanyofyourfriendssawustogetheratthistimeofnighttheywouldtalkaboutit,andIshouldfindthatverydisagreeable。Butwhydoyoulaugh?“

  “Idon\'tknow。Becauseyou\'resuchaqueermixture,Ithink。You\'rehalfpoetandhalfoldmaid。“

  “IknowIalwaysseemtoyouhighlyridiculous。ButIcan\'thelphavinginheritedcertaintraditionsandtryingtoputthemintopractice。“

  “Nonsense,William。YoumaycomeoftheoldestfamilyinDevonshire,butthat\'snoreasonwhyyoushouldmindbeingseenalonewithmeontheEmbankment。“

  “I\'mtenyearsolderthanyouare,Katharine,andIknowmoreoftheworldthanyoudo。“

  “Verywell。Leavemeandgohome。“

  Rodneylookedbackoverhisshoulderandperceivedthattheywerebeingfollowedatashortdistancebyataxicab,whichevidentlyawaitedhissummons。Katharinesawit,too,andexclaimed:

  “Don\'tcallthatcabforme,William。Ishallwalk。“

  “Nonsense,Katharine;you\'lldonothingofthekind。It\'snearlytwelveo\'clock,andwe\'vewalkedtoofarasitis。“

  KatharinelaughedandwalkedonsoquicklythatbothRodneyandthetaxicabhadtoincreasetheirpacetokeepupwithher。

  “Now,William,“shesaid,“ifpeopleseemeracingalongtheEmbankmentlikethistheyWILLtalk。Youhadfarbettersaygood-night,ifyoudon\'twantpeopletotalk。“

  AtthisWilliambeckoned,withadespoticgesture,tothecabwithonehand,andwiththeotherhebroughtKatharinetoastandstill。

  “Don\'tletthemanseeusstruggling,forGod\'ssake!“hemurmured。

  Katharinestoodforamomentquitestill。

  “There\'smoreoftheoldmaidinyouthanthepoet,“sheobservedbriefly。

  Williamshutthedoorsharply,gavetheaddresstothedriver,andturnedaway,liftinghishatpunctiliouslyhighinfarewelltotheinvisiblelady。

  Helookedbackafterthecabtwice,suspiciously,halfexpectingthatshewouldstopitanddismount;butitboreherswiftlyon,andwassoonoutofsight。Williamfeltinthemoodforashortsoliloquyofindignation,forKatharinehadcontrivedtoexasperatehiminmorewaysthanone。

  “Ofalltheunreasonable,inconsideratecreaturesI\'veeverknown,she\'stheworst!“heexclaimedtohimself,stridingbackalongtheEmbankment。“HeavenforbidthatIshouldevermakeafoolofmyselfwithheragain。Why,I\'dsoonermarrythedaughterofmylandladythanKatharineHilbery!She\'dleavemenotamoment\'speace——andshe\'dneverunderstandme——never,never,never!“

  UtteredaloudandwithvehemencesothatthestarsofHeavenmighthear,fortherewasnohumanbeingathand,thesesentimentssoundedsatisfactorilyirrefutable。Rodneyquieteddown,andwalkedoninsilence,untilheperceivedsomeoneapproachinghim,whohadsomething,eitherinhiswalkorhisdress,whichproclaimedthathewasoneofWilliam\'sacquaintancesbeforeitwaspossibletotellwhichofthemhewas。ItwasDenhamwho,havingpartedfromSandysatthebottomofhisstaircase,wasnowwalkingtotheTubeatCharingCross,deepinthethoughtswhichhistalkwithSandyshadsuggested。

  HehadforgottenthemeetingatMaryDatchet\'srooms,hehadforgottenRodney,andmetaphorsandElizabethandrama,andcouldhaveswornthathehadforgottenKatharineHilbery,too,althoughthatwasmoredisputable。Hismindwasscalingthehighestpinnaclesofitsalps,wheretherewasonlystarlightandtheuntroddensnow。HecaststrangeeyesuponRodney,astheyencounteredeachotherbeneathalamp-post。

  “Ha!“Rodneyexclaimed。

  Ifhehadbeeninfullpossessionofhismind,Denhamwouldprobablyhavepassedonwithasalutation。Buttheshockoftheinterruptionmadehimstandstill,andbeforeheknewwhathewasdoing,hehadturnedandwaswalkingwithRodneyinobediencetoRodney\'sinvitationtocometohisroomsandhavesomethingtodrink。DenhamhadnowishtodrinkwithRodney,buthefollowedhimpassivelyenough。Rodneywasgratifiedbythisobedience。Hefeltinclinedtobecommunicativewiththissilentman,whopossessedsoobviouslyallthegoodmasculinequalitiesinwhichKatharinenowseemedlamentablydeficient。

  “Youdowell,Denham,“hebeganimpulsively,“tohavenothingtodowithyoungwomen。Iofferyoumyexperience——ifonetruststhemoneinvariablyhascausetorepent。NotthatIhaveanyreasonatthismoment,“headdedhastily,“tocomplainofthem。It\'sasubjectthatcropsupnowandagainfornoparticularreason。MissDatchet,Idaresay,isoneoftheexceptions。DoyoulikeMissDatchet?“

  TheseremarksindicatedclearlyenoughthatRodney\'snerveswereinastateofirritation,andDenhamspeedilywoketothesituationoftheworldasithadbeenonehourago。HehadlastseenRodneywalkingwithKatharine。Hecouldnothelpregrettingtheeagernesswithwhichhismindreturnedtotheseinterests,andfrettedhimwiththeoldtrivialanxieties。Hesankinhisownesteem。ReasonbadehimbreakfromRodney,whoclearlytendedtobecomeconfidential,beforehehadutterlylosttouchwiththeproblemsofhighphilosophy。Helookedalongtheroad,andmarkedalamp-postatadistanceofsomehundredyards,anddecidedthathewouldpartfromRodneywhentheyreachedthispoint。

  “Yes,IlikeMary;Idon\'tseehowonecouldhelplikingher,“heremarkedcautiously,withhiseyeonthelamp-post。

  “Ah,Denham,you\'resodifferentfromme。Younevergiveyourselfaway。IwatchedyouthiseveningwithKatharineHilbery。MyinstinctistotrustthepersonI\'mtalkingto。That\'swhyI\'malwaysbeingtakenin,Isuppose。“

  DenhamseemedtobeponderingthisstatementofRodney\'s,but,asamatteroffact,hewashardlyconsciousofRodneyandhisrevelations,andwasonlyconcernedtomakehimmentionKatharineagainbeforetheyreachedthelamp-post。

  “Who\'stakenyouinnow?“heasked。“KatharineHilbery?“

  Rodneystoppedandoncemorebeganbeatingakindofrhythm,asifheweremarkingaphraseinasymphony,uponthesmoothstonebalustradeoftheEmbankment。

  “KatharineHilbery,“herepeated,withacuriouslittlechuckle。“No,Denham,Ihavenoillusionsaboutthatyoungwoman。IthinkImadethatplaintoherto-night。Butdon\'trunawaywithafalseimpression,“hecontinuedeagerly,turningandlinkinghisarmthroughDenham\'s,asthoughtopreventhimfromescaping;and,thuscompelled,Denhampassedthemonitorylamp-post,towhich,inpassing,hebreathedanexcuse,forhowcouldhebreakawaywhenRodney\'sarmwasactuallylinkedinhis?“YoumustnotthinkthatIhaveanybitternessagainsther——farfromit。It\'snotaltogetherherfault,poorgirl。

  Shelives,youknow,oneofthoseodious,self-centeredlives——atleast,Ithinkthemodiousforawoman——feedingherwitsuponeverything,havingcontrolofeverything,gettingfartoomuchherownwayathome——spoilt,inasense,feelingthateveryoneisatherfeet,andsonotrealizinghowshehurts——thatis,howrudelyshebehavestopeoplewhohaven\'tallheradvantages。Still,todoherjustice,she\'snofool,“headded,asiftowarnDenhamnottotakeanyliberties。“Shehastaste。Shehassense。Shecanunderstandyouwhenyoutalktoher。Butshe\'sawoman,andthere\'sanendofit,“headded,withanotherlittlechuckle,anddroppedDenham\'sarm。

  “Anddidyoutellherallthisto-night?“Denhamasked。

  “Ohdearme,no。IshouldneverthinkoftellingKatharinethetruthaboutherself。Thatwouldn\'tdoatall。OnehastobeinanattitudeofadorationinordertogetonwithKatharine。

  “NowI\'velearntthatshe\'srefusedtomarryhimwhydon\'tIgohome?“

  Denhamthoughttohimself。ButhewentonwalkingbesideRodney,andforatimetheydidnotspeak,thoughRodneyhummedsnatchesofatuneoutofanoperabyMozart。Afeelingofcontemptandlikingcombineverynaturallyinthemindofonetowhomanotherhasjustspokenunpremeditatedly,revealingrathermoreofhisprivatefeelingsthanheintendedtoreveal。DenhambegantowonderwhatsortofpersonRodneywas,andatthesametimeRodneybegantothinkaboutDenham。

  “You\'reaslavelikeme,Isuppose?“heasked。

  “Asolicitor,yes。“

  “Isometimeswonderwhywedon\'tchuckit。Whydon\'tyouemigrate,Denham?Ishouldhavethoughtthatwouldsuityou。“

  “I\'veafamily。“

  “I\'moftenonthepointofgoingmyself。AndthenIknowIcouldn\'tlivewithoutthis“——andhewavedhishandtowardstheCityofLondon,whichwore,atthismoment,theappearanceofatowncutoutofgray-

  bluecardboard,andpastedflatagainstthesky,whichwasofadeeperblue。

  “ThereareoneortwopeopleI\'mfondof,andthere\'salittlegoodmusic,andafewpictures,nowandthen——justenoughtokeeponedanglingabouthere。Ah,butIcouldn\'tlivewithsavages!Areyoufondofbooks?Music?Pictures?D\'youcareatallforfirsteditions?

  I\'vegotafewnicethingsuphere,thingsIpickupcheap,forI

  can\'taffordtogivewhattheyask。“

  Theyhadreachedasmallcourtofhigheighteenth-centuryhouses,inoneofwhichRodneyhadhisrooms。Theyclimbedaverysteepstaircase,throughwhoseuncurtainedwindowsthemoonlightfell,illuminatingthebanisterswiththeirtwistedpillars,andthepilesofplatessetonthewindow-sills,andjarshalf-fullofmilk。

  Rodney\'sroomsweresmall,butthesitting-roomwindowlookedoutintoacourtyard,withitsflaggedpavement,anditssingletree,andacrosstotheflatred-brickfrontsoftheoppositehouses,whichwouldnothavesurprisedDr。Johnson,ifhehadcomeoutofhisgraveforaturninthemoonlight。Rodneylithislamp,pulledhiscurtains,offeredDenhamachair,and,flingingthemanuscriptofhispaperontheElizabethanuseofMetaphorontothetable,exclaimed:

  “Ohdearme,whatawasteoftime!Butit\'sovernow,andsowemaythinknomoreaboutit。“

  Hethenbusiedhimselfverydexterouslyinlightingafire,producingglasses,whisky,acake,andcupsandsaucers。Heputonafadedcrimsondressing-gown,andapairofredslippers,andadvancedtoDenhamwithatumblerinonehandandawell-burnishedbookintheother。

  “TheBaskervilleCongreve,“saidRodney,offeringittohisguest。“I

  couldn\'treadhiminacheapedition。“

  Whenhewasseenthusamonghisbooksandhisvaluables,amiablyanxioustomakehisvisitorcomfortable,andmovingaboutwithsomethingofthedexterityandgraceofaPersiancat,Denhamrelaxedhiscriticalattitude,andfeltmoreathomewithRodneythanhewouldhavedonewithmanymenbetterknowntohim。Rodney\'sroomwastheroomofapersonwhocherishesagreatmanypersonaltastes,guardingthemfromtheroughblastsofthepublicwithscrupulousattention。

  Hispapersandhisbooksroseinjaggedmoundsontableandfloor,roundwhichheskirtedwithnervouscarelesthisdressing-gownmightdisarrangethemeversoslightly。Onachairstoodastackofphotographsofstatuesandpictures,whichitwashishabittoexhibit,onebyone,forthespaceofadayortwo。Thebooksonhisshelveswereasorderlyasregimentsofsoldiers,andthebacksofthemshonelikesomanybronzebeetle-wings;though,ifyoutookonefromitsplaceyousawashabbiervolumebehindit,sincespacewaslimited。AnovalVenetianmirrorstoodabovethefireplace,andreflectedduskilyinitsspotteddepthsthefaintyellowandcrimsonofajarfuloftulipswhichstoodamongthelettersandpipesandcigarettesuponthemantelpiece。Asmallpianooccupiedacorneroftheroom,withthescoreof“DonGiovanni“openuponthebracket。

  “Well,Rodney,“saidDenham,ashefilledhispipeandlookedabouthim,“thisisallveryniceandcomfortable。“

  Rodneyturnedhisheadhalfroundandsmiled,withtheprideofaproprietor,andthenpreventedhimselffromsmiling。

  “Tolerable,“hemuttered。

  “ButIdaresayit\'sjustaswellthatyouhavetoearnyourownliving。“

  “IfyoumeanthatIshouldn\'tdoanythinggoodwithleisureifIhadit,Idaresayyou\'reright。ButIshouldbetentimesashappywithmywholedaytospendasIliked。“

  “Idoubtthat,“Denhamreplied。

  Theysatsilent,andthesmokefromtheirpipesjoinedamicablyinabluevaporabovetheirheads。

  “IcouldspendthreehourseverydayreadingShakespeare,“Rodneyremarked。“Andthere\'smusicandpictures,letalonethesocietyofthepeopleonelikes。“

  “You\'dbeboredtodeathinayear\'stime。“

  “Oh,IgrantyouIshouldbeboredifIdidnothing。ButIshouldwriteplays。“

  “H\'m!“

  “Ishouldwriteplays,“herepeated。“I\'vewrittenthree-quartersofonealready,andI\'monlywaitingforaholidaytofinishit。Andit\'snotbad——no,someofit\'sreallyrathernice。“

  ThequestionaroseinDenham\'smindwhetherheshouldasktoseethisplay,as,nodoubt,hewasexpectedtodo。HelookedratherstealthilyatRodney,whowastappingthecoalnervouslywithapoker,andquiveringalmostphysically,soDenhamthought,withdesiretotalkaboutthisplayofhis,andvanityunrequitedandurgent。HeseemedverymuchatDenham\'smercy,andDenhamcouldnothelplikinghim,partlyonthataccount。

  “Well,……willyouletmeseetheplay?“Denhamasked,andRodneylookedimmediatelyappeased,but,nevertheless,hesatsilentforamoment,holdingthepokerperfectlyuprightintheair,regardingitwithhisratherprominenteyes,andopeninghislipsandshuttingthemagain。

  “Doyoureallycareforthiskindofthing?“heaskedatlength,inadifferenttoneofvoicefromthatinwhichhehadbeenspeaking。And,withoutwaitingforananswer,hewenton,ratherquerulously:“Veryfewpeoplecareforpoetry。Idaresayitboresyou。“

  “Perhaps,“Denhamremarked。

  “Well,I\'lllendityou,“Rodneyannounced,puttingdownthepoker。

  Ashemovedtofetchtheplay,Denhamstretchedahandtothebookcasebesidehim,andtookdownthefirstvolumewhichhisfingerstouched。

  IthappenedtobeasmallandverylovelyeditionofSirThomasBrowne,containingthe“UrnBurial,“the“Hydriotaphia,“andthe“GardenofCyrus,“and,openingitatapassagewhichheknewverynearlybyheart,Denhambegantoreadand,forsometime,continuedtoread。

  Rodneyresumedhisseat,withhismanuscriptonhisknee,andfromtimetotimeheglancedatDenham,andthenjoinedhisfinger-tipsandcrossedhisthinlegsoverthefender,asifheexperiencedagooddealofpleasure。AtlengthDenhamshutthebook,andstood,withhisbacktothefireplace,occasionallymakinganinarticulatehummingsoundwhichseemedtorefertoSirThomasBrowne。Heputhishatonhishead,andstoodoverRodney,whostilllaystretchedbackinhischair,withhistoeswithinthefender。

  “Ishalllookinagainsometime,“Denhamremarked,uponwhichRodneyhelduphishand,containinghismanuscript,withoutsayinganythingexcept——“Ifyoulike。“

  Denhamtookthemanuscriptandwent。Twodayslaterhewasmuchsurprisedtofindathinparcelonhisbreakfastplate,which,onbeingopened,revealedtheverycopyofSirThomasBrownewhichhehadstudiedsointentlyinRodney\'srooms。Fromsheerlazinesshereturnednothanks,buthethoughtofRodneyfromtimetotimewithinterest,disconnectinghimfromKatharine,andmeanttogoroundoneeveningandsmokeapipewithhim。ItpleasedRodneythustogiveawaywhateverhisfriendsgenuinelyadmired。Hislibrarywasconstantlybeingdiminished。

  CHAPTERVI

  Ofallthehoursofanordinaryworkingweek-day,whicharethepleasantesttolookforwardtoandtolookbackupon?Ifasingleinstanceisofuseinframingatheory,itmaybesaidthattheminutesbetweennine-twenty-fiveandnine-thirtyinthemorninghadasingularcharmforMaryDatchet。Shespenttheminaveryenviableframeofmind;hercontentmentwasalmostunalloyed。Highintheairasherflatwas,somebeamsfromthemorningsunreachedhereveninNovember,strikingstraightatcurtain,chair,andcarpet,andpaintingtherethreebright,truespacesofgreen,blue,andpurple,uponwhichtheeyerestedwithapleasurewhichgavephysicalwarmthtothebody。

  TherewerefewmorningswhenMarydidnotlookup,asshebenttolaceherboots,andasshefollowedtheyellowrodfromcurtaintobreakfast-tablesheusuallybreathedsomesighofthankfulnessthatherlifeprovidedherwithsuchmomentsofpureenjoyment。Shewasrobbingnooneofanything,andyet,togetsomuchpleasurefromsimplethings,suchaseatingone\'sbreakfastaloneinaroomwhichhadnicecolorsinit,cleanfromtheskirtingoftheboardstothecornersoftheceiling,seemedtosuithersothoroughlythatsheusedatfirsttohuntaboutforsomeonetoapologizeto,orforsomeflawinthesituation。ShehadnowbeensixmonthsinLondon,andshecouldfindnoflaw,butthat,assheinvariablyconcludedbythetimeherbootswerelaced,wassolelyandentirelyduetothefactthatshehadherwork。Everyday,asshestoodwithherdispatch-boxinherhandatthedoorofherflat,andgaveonelookbackintotheroomtoseethateverythingwasstraightbeforesheleft,shesaidtoherselfthatshewasverygladthatshewasgoingtoleaveitall,thattohavesattherealldaylong,intheenjoymentofleisure,wouldhavebeenintolerable。

  Outinthestreetshelikedtothinkherselfoneoftheworkerswho,atthishour,taketheirwayinrapidsinglefilealongallthebroadpavementsofthecity,withtheirheadsslightlylowered,asifalltheireffortweretofolloweachotherascloselyasmightbe;sothatMaryusedtofiguretoherselfastraightrabbit-runwornbytheirunswervingfeetuponthepavement。Butshelikedtopretendthatshewasindistinguishablefromtherest,andthatwhenawetdaydrovehertotheUndergroundoromnibus,shegaveandtookhershareofcrowdandwetwithclerksandtypistsandcommercialmen,andsharedwiththemtheseriousbusinessofwinding-uptheworldtotickforanotherfour-and-twentyhours。

  Thusthinking,ontheparticularmorninginquestion,shemadeherawayacrossLincoln\'sInnFieldsandupKingsway,andsothroughSouthamptonRowuntilshereachedherofficeinRussellSquare。Nowandthenshewouldpauseandlookintothewindowofsomebooksellerorflowershop,where,atthisearlyhour,thegoodswerebeingarranged,andemptygapsbehindtheplateglassrevealedastateofundress。Maryfeltkindlydisposedtowardstheshopkeepers,andhopedthattheywouldtrickthemiddaypublicintopurchasing,foratthishourofthemorningsherangedherselfentirelyonthesideoftheshopkeepersandbankclerks,andregardedallwhosleptlateandhadmoneytospendasherenemyandnaturalprey。AnddirectlyshehadcrossedtheroadatHolborn,herthoughtsallcamenaturallyandregularlytoroostuponherwork,andsheforgotthatshewas,properlyspeaking,anamateurworker,whoseserviceswereunpaid,andcouldhardlybesaidtowindtheworldupforitsdailytask,sincetheworld,sofar,hadshownverylittledesiretotaketheboonswhichMary\'ssocietyforwoman\'ssuffragehadofferedit。

  ShewasthinkingallthewayupSouthamptonRowofnotepaperandfoolscap,andhowaneconomyintheuseofpapermightbeeffectedwithout,ofcourse,hurtingMrs。Seal\'sfeelings,forshewascertainthatthegreatorganizersalwayspounce,tobeginwith,upontrifleslikethese,andbuilduptheirtriumphantreformsuponabasisofabsolutesolidity;and,withoutacknowledgingitforamoment,MaryDatchetwasdeterminedtobeagreatorganizer,andhadalreadydoomedhersocietytoreconstructionofthemostradicalkind。Onceortwicelately,itistrue,shehadstarted,broadawake,beforeturningintoRussellSquare,anddenouncedherselfrathersharplyforbeingalreadyinagroove,capable,thatis,ofthinkingthesamethoughtseverymorningatthesamehour,sothatthechestnut-coloredbrickoftheRussellSquarehouseshadsomecuriousconnectionwithherthoughtsaboutofficeeconomy,andservedalsoasasignthatsheshouldgetintotrimformeetingMr。Clacton,orMrs。Seal,orwhoevermightbebeforehandwithherattheoffice。Havingnoreligiousbelief,shewasthemoreconscientiousaboutherlife,examiningherpositionfromtimetotimeveryseriously,andnothingannoyedhermorethantofindoneofthesebadhabitsnibblingawayunheededattheprecioussubstance。Whatwasthegood,afterall,ofbeingawomanifonedidn\'tkeepfresh,andcramone\'slifewithallsortsofviewsandexperiments?Thusshealwaysgaveherselfalittleshake,assheturnedthecorner,and,asoftenasnot,reachedherowndoorwhistlingasnatchofaSomersetshireballad。

  ThesuffrageofficewasatthetopofoneofthelargeRussellSquarehouses,whichhadoncebeenlivedinbyagreatcitymerchantandhisfamily,andwasnowletoutinslicestoanumberofsocietieswhichdisplayedassortedinitialsupondoorsofgroundglass,andkept,eachofthem,atypewriterwhichclickedbusilyalldaylong。Theoldhouse,withitsgreatstonestaircase,echoedhollowlytothesoundoftypewritersandoferrand-boysfromtentosix。Thenoiseofdifferenttypewritersalreadyatwork,disseminatingtheirviewsupontheprotectionofnativeraces,orthevalueofcerealsasfoodstuffs,quickenedMary\'ssteps,andshealwaysranupthelastflightofstepswhichledtoherownlanding,atwhateverhourshecame,soastogethertypewritertotakeitsplaceincompetitionwiththerest。

  Shesatherselfdowntoherletters,andverysoonallthesespeculationswereforgotten,andthetwolinesdrewthemselvesbetweenhereyebrows,asthecontentsoftheletters,theofficefurniture,andthesoundsofactivityinthenextroomgraduallyassertedtheirswayuponher。Byeleveno\'clocktheatmosphereofconcentrationwasrunningsostronglyinonedirectionthatanythoughtofadifferentordercouldhardlyhavesurviveditsbirthmorethanamomentorso。

  Thetaskwhichlaybeforeherwastoorganizeaseriesofentertainments,theprofitsofwhichweretobenefitthesociety,whichdroopedforwantoffunds。Itwasherfirstattemptatorganizationonalargescale,andshemeanttoachievesomethingremarkable。Shemeanttousethecumbrousmachinetopickoutthis,that,andtheotherinterestingpersonfromthemuddleoftheworld,andtosetthemforaweekinapatternwhichmustcatchtheeyesofCabinetMinisters,andtheeyesoncecaught,theoldargumentsweretobedeliveredwithunexampledoriginality。Suchwastheschemeasawhole;andincontemplationofitshewouldbecomequiteflushedandexcited,andhavetoremindherselfofallthedetailsthatintervenedbetweenherandsuccess。

  Thedoorwouldopen,andMr。Clactonwouldcomeintosearchforacertainleafletburiedbeneathapyramidofleaflets。Hewasathin,sandy-hairedmanofaboutthirty-five,spokewithaCockneyaccent,andhadabouthimafrugallook,asifnaturehadnotdealtgenerouslywithhiminanyway,which,naturally,preventedhimfromdealinggenerouslywithotherpeople。Whenhehadfoundhisleaflet,andofferedafewjocularhintsuponkeepingpapersinorder,thetypewritingwouldstopabruptly,andMrs。Sealwouldburstintotheroomwithaletterwhichneededexplanationinherhand。Thiswasamoreseriousinterruptionthantheother,becausesheneverknewexactlywhatshewanted,andhalfadozenrequestswouldboltfromher,nooneofwhichwasclearlystated。Dressedinplum-coloredvelveteen,withshort,grayhair,andafacethatseemedpermanentlyflushedwithphilanthropicenthusiasm,shewasalwaysinahurry,andalwaysinsomedisorder。Sheworetwocrucifixes,whichgotthemselvesentangledinaheavygoldchainuponherbreast,andseemedtoMaryexpressiveofhermentalambiguity。OnlyhervastenthusiasmandherworshipofMissMarkham,oneofthepioneersofthesociety,keptherinherplace,forwhichshehadnosoundqualification。

  Sothemorningworeon,andthepileoflettersgrew,andMaryfelt,atlast,thatshewasthecenterganglionofaveryfinenetworkofnerveswhichfelloverEngland,andoneofthesedays,whenshetouchedtheheartofthesystem,wouldbeginfeelingandrushingtogetherandemittingtheirsplendidblazeofrevolutionaryfireworks——forsomesuchmetaphorrepresentswhatshefeltaboutherwork,whenherbrainhadbeenheatedbythreehoursofapplication。

  Shortlybeforeoneo\'clockMr。ClactonandMrs。Sealdesistedfromtheirlabors,andtheoldjokeaboutluncheon,whichcameoutregularlyatthishour,wasrepeatedwithscarcelyanyvariationofwords。Mr。Clactonpatronizedavegetarianrestaurant;Mrs。Sealbroughtsandwiches,whichsheatebeneaththeplane-treesinRussellSquare;whileMarygenerallywenttoagaudyestablishment,upholsteredinredplush,nearby,where,muchtothevegetarian\'sdisapproval,youcouldbuysteak,twoinchesthick,oraroastsectionoffowl,swimminginapewterdish。

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