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  Shewasevidentlyindifficultiesastohowbesttogoon。\"MayI

  speakofsomethingserioustoyou,foronceinmylife?\"sheasked,angrily。Shewasirritatedatsheknewnotwhat,andcouldnotrestrainherwrath。

  \"Ofcourseyoumay;Iamverygladtolisten,\"repliedMuishkin。

  Aglayawassilentamomentandthenbeganagainwithevidentdislikeofhersubject:

  \"Idonotwishtoquarrelwiththemaboutthis;insomethingstheywon’tbereasonable。Ialwaysdidfeelaloathingforthelawswhichseemtoguidemamma’sconductattimes。Idon’tspeakoffather,forhecannotbeexpectedtobeanythingbutwhatheis。Motherisanoble-mindedwoman,Iknow;youtrytosuggestanythingmeantoher,andyou’llsee!Butsheissuchaslavetothesemiserablecreatures!Idon’tmeanoldBielokonskialone。

  Sheisacontemptibleoldthing,butsheisabletotwistpeopleroundherlittlefinger,andIadmirethatinher,atallevents!

  Howmeanitallis,andhowfoolish!Wewerealwaysmiddle-class,thoroughlymiddle-class,people。Whyshouldweattempttoclimbintothegiddyheightsofthefashionableworld?Mysistersareallforit。It’sPrinceS。theyhavetothankforpoisoningtheirminds。WhyareyousogladthatEvgeniePavlovitchiscoming?\"

  \"Listentome,Aglaya,\"saidtheprince,\"IdobelieveyouarenervouslestIshallmakeafoolofmyselftomorrowatyourparty?\"

  \"Nervousaboutyou?\"Aglayablushed。\"WhyshouldIbenervousaboutyou?Whatwoulditmattertomeifyouweretomakeeversuchafoolofyourself?Howcanyousaysuchathing?Whatdoyoumeanby’makingafoolofyourself’?Whatavulgarexpression!Isupposeyouintendtotalkinthatsortofwaytomorrowevening?Lookupafewmoresuchexpressionsinyourdictionary;do,you’llmakeagrandeffect!I’msorrythatyouseemtobeabletocomeintoaroomasgracefullyasyoudo;

  wheredidyoulearntheart?Doyouthinkyoucandrinkacupofteadecently,whenyouknoweverybodyislookingatyou,onpurposetoseehowyoudoit?\"

  \"Yes,IthinkIcan。\"

  \"Canyou?I’msorryforitthen,forIshouldhavehadagoodlaughatyouotherwise。DobreakSOMETHINGatleast,inthedrawing-room!UpsettheChinesevase,won’tyou?It’savaluableone;DObreakit。Mammavaluesit,andshe’llgooutofhermind——itwasapresent。She’llcrybeforeeveryone,you’llsee!Waveyourhandabout,youknow,asyoualwaysdo,andjustsmashit。

  Sitdownnearitonpurpose。\"

  \"Onthecontrary,IshallsitasfarfromitasIcan。Thanksforthehint。\"

  \"Ha,ha!ThenyouareafraidyouWILLwaveyourarmsabout!I

  wouldn’tmindbettingthatyou’lltalkaboutsomeloftysubject,somethingseriousandlearned。Howdelightful,howtactfulthatwillbe!\"

  \"Ishouldthinkitwouldbeveryfoolishindeed,unlessithappenedtocomeinappropriately。\"

  \"Lookhere,onceforall,\"criedAglaya,boilingover,\"ifIhearyoutalkingaboutcapitalpunishment,ortheeconomicalconditionofRussia,oraboutBeautyredeemingtheworld,oranythingofthatsort,I’ll——well,ofcourseIshalllaughandseemverypleased,butIwarnyoubeforehand,don’tlookmeinthefaceagain!I’mseriousnow,mind,thistimeIAMREALLYserious。\"Shecertainlydidsaythisveryseriously,somuchso,thatshelookedquitedifferentfromwhatsheusuallywas,andtheprincecouldnothelpnoticingthefact。Shedidnotseemtobejokingintheslightestdegree。

  \"Well,you’veputmeintosuchafrightthatIshallcertainlymakeafoolofmyself,andverylikelybreaksomethingtoo。I

  wasn’tabitalarmedbefore,butnowI’masnervousascanbe。\"

  \"Thendon’tspeakatall。Sitstillanddon’ttalk。\"

  \"Oh,Ican’tdothat,youknow!Ishallsaysomethingfoolishoutofpure’funk,’andbreaksomethingforthesameexcellentreason;IknowIshall。PerhapsIshallslipandfallontheslipperyfloor;I’vedonethatbeforenow,youknow。Ishalldreamofitallnightnow。Whydidyousayanythingaboutit?\"

  Aglayalookedblacklyathim。

  \"Doyouknowwhat,Ihadbetternotcomeatalltomorrow!I’llpleadsick-listandstayaway,\"saidtheprince,withdecision。

  Aglayastampedherfoot,andgrewquitepalewithanger。

  Oh,mygoodness!Justlistentothat!’Betternotcome,’whenthepartyisonpurposeforhim!GoodLord!Whatadelightfulthingitistohavetodowithsucha——suchastupidasyouare!\"

  \"Well,I’llcome,I’llcome,\"interruptedtheprince,hastily,\"andI’llgiveyoumywordofhonourthatIwillsitthewholeeveningandnotsayaword。\"

  \"Ibelievethat’sthebestthingyoucando。Yousaidyou’d’pleadsick-list’justnow;whereintheworlddoyougetholdofsuchexpressions?Whydoyoutalktomelikethis?Areyoutryingtoirritateme,orwhat?\"

  \"Forgiveme,it’saschoolboyexpression。Iwon’tdoitagain。I

  knowquitewell,Iseeit,thatyouareanxiousonmyaccountnow,don’tbeangry,anditmakesmeveryhappytoseeit。Youwouldn’tbelievehowfrightenedIamofmisbehavingsomehow,andhowgladIamofyourinstructions。Butallthispanicissimplynonsense,youknow,Aglaya!Igiveyoumyworditis;Iamsopleasedthatyouaresuchachild,suchadeargoodchild。HowCHARMINGyoucanbeifyoulike,Aglaya。\"

  Aglayawantedtobeangry,ofcourse,butsuddenlysomequiteunexpectedfeelingseizeduponherheart,allinamoment。

  \"Andyouwon’treproachmeforalltheserudewordsofmine——someday——afterwards?\"sheasked,ofasudden。

  \"Whatanidea!Ofcoursenot。Andwhatareyoublushingforagain?Andtherecomesthatfrownoncemore!You’vetakentolookingtoogloomysometimes,Aglaya,muchmorethanyouusedto。

  Iknowwhyitis。\"

  \"Bequiet,dobequiet!\"

  \"No,no,Ihadmuchbetterspeakout。Ihavelongwishedtosayit,andHAVEsaidit,butthat’snotenough,foryoudidn’tbelieveme。Betweenustwotherestandsabeingwho——\"

  \"Bequiet,bequiet,bequiet,bequiet!\"Aglayastruckin,suddenly,seizinghishandinhers,andgazingathimalmostinterror。

  Atthismomentshewascalledbysomeone。Shebrokeloosefromhimwithanairofreliefandranaway。

  Theprincewasinafeverallnight。Itwasstrange,buthehadsufferedfromfeverforseveralnightsinsuccession。Onthisparticularnight,whileinsemi-delirium,hehadanidea:whatifonthemorrowheweretohaveafitbeforeeverybody?Thethoughtseemedtofreezehisbloodwithinhim。Allnighthefanciedhimselfinsomeextraordinarysocietyofstrangepersons。Theworstofitwasthathewastalkingnonsense;heknewthatheoughtnottospeakatall,andyethetalkedthewholetime;heseemedtobetryingtopersuadethemalltosomething。EvgenieandHippolytewereamongtheguests,andappearedtobegreatfriends。

  Heawoketowardsnineo’clockwithaheadache,fullofconfusedideasandstrangeimpressions。ForsomereasonorotherhefeltmostanxioustoseeRogojin,toseeandtalktohim,butwhathewishedtosayhecouldnottell。Next,hedeterminedtogoandseeHippolyte。Hismindwasinaconfusedstate,somuchsothattheincidentsofthemorningseemedtobeimperfectlyrealized,thoughacutelyfelt。

  OneoftheseincidentswasavisitfromLebedeff。Lebedeffcameratherearly——beforeten——buthewastipsyalready。Thoughtheprincewasnotinanobservantcondition,yethecouldnotavoidseeingthatforatleastthreedays——eversinceGeneralIvolginhadleftthehouseLebedeffhadbeenbehavingverybadly。Helookeduntidyanddirtyatalltimesoftheday,anditwassaidthathehadbeguntorageaboutinhisownhouse,andthathistemperwasverybad。Assoonashearrivedthismorning,hebegantoholdforth,beatinghisbreastandapparentlyblaminghimselfforsomething。

  \"I’ve——I’vehadarewardformymeanness——I’vehadaslapintheface,\"heconcluded,tragically。

  \"Aslapintheface?Fromwhom?Andsoearlyinthemorning?\"

  \"Early?\"saidLebedeff,sarcastically。\"Timecountsfornothing,eveninphysicalchastisement;butmyslapinthefacewasnotphysical,itwasmoral。\"

  Hesuddenlytookaseat,veryunceremoniously,andbeganhisstory。Itwasverydisconnected;theprincefrowned,andwishedhecouldgetaway;butsuddenlyafewwordsstruckhim。Hesatstiffwithwonder——Lebedeffsaidsomeextraordinarythings。

  Inthefirstplacehebeganaboutsomeletter;thenameofAglayaIvanovnacamein。Thensuddenlyhebrokeoffandbegantoaccusetheprinceofsomething;hewasapparentlyoffendedwithhim。Atfirsthedeclaredthattheprincehadtrustedhimwithhisconfidencesasto\"acertainperson\"NastasiaPhilipovna,butthatoflatehisfriendshiphadbeenthrustbackintohisbosom,andhisinnocentquestionasto\"approachingfamilychanges\"hadbeencurtlyputaside,whichLebedeffdeclared,withtipsytears,hecouldnotbear;especiallyasheknewsomuchalreadybothfromRogojinandNastasiaPhilipovnaandherfriend,andfromVarvaraArdalionovna,andevenfromAglayaIvanovna,throughhisdaughterVera。\"AndwhotoldLizabethaProkofievnasomethinginsecret,byletter?WhotoldherallaboutthemovementsofacertainpersoncalledNastasiaPhilipovna?Whowastheanonymousperson,eh?Tellme!\"

  \"Surelynotyou?\"criedtheprince。

  \"Justso,\"saidLebedeff,withdignity;\"andonlythisverymorningIhavesentupalettertothenoblelady,statingthatI

  haveamatterofgreatimportancetocommunicate。Shereceivedtheletter;Iknowshegotit;andshereceivedME,too。\"

  \"HaveyoujustseenLizabethaProkofievna?\"askedtheprince,scarcelybelievinghisears。

  \"Yes,Isawher,andgotthesaidslapinthefaceasmentioned。

  Shechuckedtheletterbacktomeunopened,andkickedmeoutofthehouse,morally,notphysically,althoughnotfaroffit。\"

  \"Whatletterdoyoumeanshereturnedunopened?\"

  \"What!didn’tItellyou?Ha,ha,ha!IthoughtIhad。Why,I

  receivedaletter,youknow,tobehandedover——\"Fromwhom?Towhom?\"

  Butitwasdifficult,ifnotimpossible,toextractanythingfromLebedeff。Alltheprincecouldgatherwas,thattheletterhadbeenreceivedveryearly,andhadarequestwrittenontheoutsidethatitmightbesentontotheaddressgiven。

  \"Justasbefore,sir,justasbefore!Toacertainperson,andfromacertainhand。Theindividual’snamewhowrotetheletteristoberepresentedbytheletterA——\"

  \"What?Impossible!ToNastasiaPhilipovna?Nonsense!\"criedtheprince。

  \"Itwas,Iassureyou,andifnottoherthentoRogojin,whichisthesamething。Mr。Hippolytehashadletters,too,andallfromtheindividualwhosenamebeginswithanA。,\"smirkedLebedeff,withahideousgrin。

  Ashekeptjumpingfromsubjecttosubject,andforgettingwhathehadbeguntotalkabout,theprincesaidnothing,butwaited,togivehimtime。

  Itwasallveryvague。Whohadtakentheletters,ifletterstherewere?ProbablyVera——andhowcouldLebedeffhavegotthem?

  Inallprobability,hehadmanagedtostealthepresentletterfromVera,andhadhimselfgoneovertoLizabethaProkofievnawithsomeideainhishead。Sotheprinceconcludedatlast。

  \"Youaremad!\"hecried,indignantly。

  \"Notquite,esteemedprince,\"repliedLebedeff,withsomeacerbity。\"IconfessIthoughtofdoingyoutheserviceofhandingtheletterovertoyourself,butIdecidedthatitwouldpaymebettertodeliverituptothenobleladyaforesaid,asI

  hadinformedherofeverythinghithertobyanonymousletters;sowhenIsentherupanotefrommyself,withtheletter,youknow,inordertofixameetingforeighto’clockthismorning,I

  signedit’yoursecretcorrespondent。’Theyletmeinatonce——

  veryquickly——bythebackdoor,andthenobleladyreceivedme。\"

  \"Well?Goon。\"

  \"Oh,well,whenIsawhershealmostpunchedmyhead,asIsay;

  infactsonearlythatonemightalmostsayshedidpunchmyhead。Shethrewtheletterinmyface;sheseemedtoreflectfirst,asifshewouldhavelikedtokeepit,butthoughtbetterofitandthrewitinmyfaceinstead。’Ifanybodycanhavebeensuchafoolastotrustamanlikeyoutodelivertheletter,’

  saysshe,’takeitanddeliverit!’Hey!shewasgrandlyindignant。Afierce,fieryladythat,sir!\"

  \"Where’stheletternow?\"

  \"Oh,I’vestillgotit,here!\"

  AndhehandedtheprincetheveryletterfromAglayatoGania,whichthelattershowedwithsomuchtriumphtohisSisteratalaterhour。

  \"Thislettercannotbeallowedtoremaininyourhands。\"

  \"It’sforyou——foryou!I’vebroughtityouonpurpose!\"criedLebedeff,excitedly。\"Why,I’myoursagainnow,heartandhand,yourslave;therewasbutamomentarypauseintheflowofmyloveandesteemforyou。Meaculpa,meaculpa!asthePopeofRomesays。

  \"Thislettershouldbesentonatonce,\"saidtheprince,disturbed。\"I’llhanditovermyself。\"

  \"Wouldn’titbebetter,esteemedprince,wouldn’titbebetter——

  to——don’tyouknow——\"

  Lebedeffmadeastrangeandveryexpressivegrimace;hetwistedaboutinhischair,anddidsomething,apparentlysymbolical,withhishands。

  \"Whatdoyoumean?\"saidtheprince。

  \"Why,openit,forthetimebeing,don’tyouknow?\"hesaid,mostconfidentiallyandmysteriously。

  TheprincejumpedupsofuriouslythatLebedeffrantowardsthedoor;havinggainedwhichstrategicposition,however,hestoppedandlookedbacktoseeifhemighthopeforpardon。

  \"Oh,Lebedeff,Lebedeff!Canamanreallysinktosuchdepthsofmeanness?\"saidtheprince,sadly。

  Lebedeff’sfacebrightened。

  \"Oh,I’mameanwretch——ameanwretch!\"hesaid,approachingtheprinceoncemore,andbeatinghisbreast,withtearsinhiseyes。

  \"It’sabominabledishonesty,youknow!\"

  \"Dishonesty——itis,itis!That’stheveryword!\"

  \"Whatintheworldinducesyoutoactso?Youarenothingbutaspy。Whydidyouwriteanonymouslytoworrysonobleandgenerousalady?WhyshouldnotAglayaIvanovnawriteanotetowhomevershepleases?Whatdidyoumeantocomplainoftoday?Whatdidyouexpecttogetbyit?Whatmadeyougoatall?\"

  \"Pureamiablecuriosity,——Iassureyou——desiretodoaservice。

  That’sall。NowI’mentirelyyoursagain,yourslave;hangmeifyoulike!\"

  \"DidyougobeforeLizabethaProkofievnainyourpresentcondition?\"inquiredtheprince。

  \"No——ohno,fresher——morethecorrectcard。IonlybecamethislikeafterthehumiliationIsufferedthere,\"Well——that’lldo;nowleaveme。\"

  Thisinjunctionhadtoberepeatedseveraltimesbeforethemancouldbepersuadedtomove。Eventhenheturnedbackatthedoor,cameasfarasthemiddleoftheroom,andtherewentthroughhismysteriousmotionsdesignedtoconveythesuggestionthattheprinceshouldopentheletter。Hedidnotdareputhissuggestionintowordsagain。

  Afterthisperformance,hesmiledsweetlyandlefttheroomontiptoe。

  Allthishadbeenverypainfultolistento。Onefactstoodoutcertainandclear,andthatwasthatpoorAglayamustbeinastateofgreatdistressandindecisionandmentaltorment\"fromjealousy,\"theprincewhisperedtohimself。Undoubtedlyinthisinexperienced,buthotandproudlittlehead,therewereallsortsofplansforming,wildandimpossibleplans,maybe;andtheideaofthissofrightenedtheprincethathecouldnotmakeuphismindwhattodo。Somethingmustbedone,thatwasclear。

  Helookedattheaddressontheletteroncemore。Oh,hewasnotintheleastdegreealarmedaboutAglayawritingsuchaletter;

  hecouldtrusther。WhathedidnotlikeaboutitwasthathecouldnottrustGania。

  However,hemadeuphismindthathewouldhimselftakethenoteanddeliverit。Indeed,hewentsofarastoleavethehouseandwalkuptheroad,butchangedhismindwhenhehadnearlyreachedPtitsin’sdoor。However,hethereluckilymetColia,andcommissionedhimtodeliverthelettertohisbrotherasifdirectfromAglaya。Coliaaskednoquestionsbutsimplydeliveredit,andGaniaconsequentlyhadnosuspicionthatithadpassedthroughsomanyhands。

  Arrivedhomeagain,theprincesentforVeraLebedeffandtoldherasmuchaswasnecessary,inordertorelievehermind,forshehadbeeninadreadfulstateofanxietysinceshehadmissedtheletter。Sheheardwithhorrorthatherfatherhadtakenit。

  MuishkinlearnedfromherthatshehadonseveraloccasionsperformedsecretmissionsbothforAglayaandforRogojin,without,however,havinghadtheslightestideathatinsodoingshemightinjuretheprinceinanyway。

  Thelatter,withonethingandanother,wasnowsodisturbedandconfused,thatwhen,acoupleofhoursorsolater,amessagecamefromColiathatthegeneralwasill,hecouldhardlytakethenewsin。

  However,whenhedidmasterthefact,itacteduponhimasatonicbycompletelydistractinghisattention。HewentatoncetoNinaAlexandrovna’s,whitherthegeneralhadbeencarried,andstayedthereuntiltheevening。Hecoulddonogood,buttherearepeoplewhomtohavenearoneisablessingatsuchtimes。

  Coliawasinanalmosthystericalstate;hecriedcontinuously,butwasrunningaboutallday,allthesame;fetchingdoctors,ofwhomhecollectedthree;goingtothechemist’s,andsoon。

  Thegeneralwasbroughtroundtosomeextent,butthedoctorsdeclaredthathecouldnotbesaidtobeoutofdanger。VariaandNinaAlexandrovnaneverleftthesickman’sbedside;Ganiawasexcitedanddistressed,butwouldnotgoupstairs,andseemedafraidtolookatthepatient。Hewrunghishandswhentheprincespoketohim,andsaidthat\"suchamisfortuneatsuchamoment\"

  wasterrible。

  TheprincethoughtheknewwhatGaniameantby\"suchamoment。\"

  Hippolytewasnotinthehouse。Lebedeffturneduplateintheafternoon;hehadbeenasleepeversincehisinterviewwiththeprinceinthemorning。Hewasquitesobernow,andcriedwithrealsincerityoverthesickgeneral——mourningforhimasthoughhewerehisownbrother。Heblamedhimselfaloud,butdidnotexplainwhy。HerepeatedoverandoveragaintoNinaAlexandrovnathathealonewastoblame——nooneelse——butthathehadactedoutof\"pureamiablecuriosity,\"andthat\"thedeceased,\"asheinsisteduponcallingthestilllivinggeneral,hadbeenthegreatestofgeniuses。

  Helaidmuchstressonthegeniusofthesufferer,asifthisideamustbeoneofimmensesolaceinthepresentcrisis。

  NinaAlexandrovna——seeinghissincerityoffeeling——saidatlast,andwithoutthefaintestsuspicionofreproachinhervoice:

  \"Come,come——don’tcry!Godwillforgiveyou!\"

  Lebedeffwassoimpressedbythesewords,andthetoneinwhichtheywerespoken,thathecouldnotleaveNinaAlexandrovnaalltheevening——infact,forseveraldays。Tillthegeneral’sdeath,indeed,hespentalmostallhistimeathisside。

  TwiceduringthedayamessengercametoNinaAlexandrovnafromtheEpanchinstoinquireaftertheinvalid。

  When——lateintheevening——theprincemadehisappearanceinLizabethaProkofievna’sdrawing-room,hefounditfullofguests。

  Mrs。Epanchinquestionedhimveryfullyaboutthegeneralassoonasheappeared;andwhenoldPrincessBielokonskiwishedtoknow\"whothisgeneralwas,andwhowasNinaAlexandrovna,\"sheproceededtoexplaininamannerwhichpleasedtheprinceverymuch。

  Hehimself,whenrelatingthecircumstancesofthegeneral’sillnesstoLizabethaProkofievna,\"spokebeautifully,\"asAglaya’ssistersdeclaredafterwards——\"modestly,quietly,withoutgesturesortoomanywords,andwithgreatdignity。\"Hehadenteredtheroomwithproprietyandgrace,andhewasperfectlydressed;henotonlydidnot\"falldownontheslipperyfloor,\"

  ashehadexpressedit,butevidentlymadeaveryfavourableimpressionupontheassembledguests。

  Asforhisownimpressiononenteringtheroomandtakinghisseat,heinstantlyremarkedthatthecompanywasnotintheleastsuchasAglaya’swordshadledhimtofear,andashehaddreamedof——innightmareform——allnight。

  Thiswasthefirsttimeinhislifethathehadseenalittlecornerofwhatwasgenerallyknownbytheterriblenameof\"society。\"Hehadlongthirsted,forreasonsofhisown,topenetratethemysteriesofthemagiccircle,and,therefore,thisassemblagewasofthegreatestpossibleinteresttohim。

  Hisfirstimpressionwasoneoffascination。Somehoworotherhefeltthatallthesepeoplemusthavebeenbornonpurposetobetogether!ItseemedtohimthattheEpanchinswerenothavingapartyatall;thatthesepeoplemusthavebeenherealways,andthathehimselfwasoneofthem——returnedamongthemafteralongabsence,butoneofthem,naturallyandindisputably。

  Itneverstruckhimthatallthisrefinedsimplicityandnobilityandwitandpersonaldignitymightpossiblybenomorethananexquisiteartisticpolish。Themajorityoftheguests——whoweresomewhatempty-headed,afterall,inspiteoftheiraristocraticbearing——neverguessed,intheirself-satisfiedcomposure,thatmuchoftheirsuperioritywasmereveneer,whichindeedtheyhadadoptedunconsciouslyandbyinheritance。

  Theprincewouldneversomuchassuspectsuchathinginthedelightofhisfirstimpression。

  Hesaw,forinstance,thatoneimportantdignitary,oldenoughtobehisgrandfather,brokeoffhisownconversationinordertolistentoHIM——ayoungandinexperiencedman;andnotonlylistened,butseemedtoattachvaluetohisopinion,andwaskindandamiable,andyettheywerestrangersandhadneverseeneachotherbefore。Perhapswhatmostappealedtotheprince’simpressionabilitywastherefinementoftheoldman’scourtesytowardshim。Perhapsthesoilofhissusceptiblenaturewasreallypredisposedtoreceiveapleasantimpression。

  Meanwhileallthesepeople-thoughfriendsofthefamilyandofeachothertoacertainextent——wereveryfarfrombeingsuchintimatefriendsofthefamilyandofeachotherastheprinceconcluded。ThereweresomepresentwhoneverwouldthinkofconsideringtheEpanchinstheirequals。Therewereevensomewhohatedoneanothercordially。Forinstance,oldPrincessBielokonskihadallherlifedespisedthewifeofthe\"dignitary,\"whilethelatterwasveryfarfromlovingLizabethaProkofievna。ThedignitaryhimselfhadbeenGeneralEpanchin’sprotectorfromhisyouthup;andthegeneralconsideredhimsomajesticapersonagethathewouldhavefeltaheartycontemptforhimselfifhehadevenforonemomentallowedhimselftoposeasthegreatman’sequal,ortothinkofhim——inhisfearandreverence-asanythinglessthananOlympicGod!Therewereotherspresentwhohadnotmetforyears,andwhohadnofeelingwhateverforeachother,unlessitweredislike;andyettheymettonightasthoughtheyhadseeneachotherbutyesterdayinsomefriendlyandintimateassemblyofkindredspirits。

  Itwasnotalargeparty,however。BesidesPrincessBielokonskiandtheolddignitarywhowasreallyagreatmanandhiswife,therewasanoldmilitarygeneral——acountorbaronwithaGermanname,amanreputedtopossessgreatknowledgeandadministrativeability。HewasoneofthoseOlympianadministratorswhoknoweverythingexceptRussia,pronounceawordofextraordinarywisdom,admiredbyall,aboutonceinfiveyears,and,afterbeinganeternityintheservice,generallydiefullofhonourandriches,thoughtheyhaveneverdoneanythinggreat,andhaveevenbeenhostiletoallgreatness。ThisgeneralwasIvanFedorovitch’simmediatesuperiorintheservice;anditpleasedthelattertolookuponhimalsoasapatron。Ontheotherhand,thegreatmandidnotatallconsiderhimselfEpanchin’spatron。

  Hewasalwaysverycooltohim,whiletakingadvantageofhisreadyservices,andwouldinstantlyhaveputanotherinhisplaceiftherehadbeentheslightestreasonforthechange。

  Anotherguestwasanelderly,important-lookinggentleman,adistantrelativeofLizabethaProkofievna’s。Thisgentlemanwasrich,heldagoodposition,wasagreattalker,andhadthereputationofbeing\"oneofthedissatisfied,\"thoughnotbelongingtothedangeroussectionsofthatclass。Hehadthemanners,tosomeextent,oftheEnglisharistocracy,andsomeoftheirtastesespeciallyinthematterofunder-doneroastbeef,harness,men-servants,etc。。Hewasagreatfriendofthedignitary’s,andLizabethaProkofievna,forsomereasonorother,hadgotholdoftheideathatthisworthyintendedatnodistantdatetooffertheadvantagesofhishandandhearttoAlexandra。

  Besidestheelevatedandmoresolidindividualsenumerated,therewerepresentafewyoungerthoughnotlesselegantguests。

  BesidesPrinceS。andEvgeniePavlovitch,wemustnametheeminentandfascinatingPrinceN——oncethevanquisheroffemaleheartsalloverEurope。Thisgentlemanwasnolongerinthefirstbloomofyouth——hewasforty-five,butstillveryhandsome。Hewaswelloff,andlived,asarule,abroad,andwasnotedasagoodtellerofstories。Thencameafewguestsbelongingtoalowerstratumofsociety——peoplewho,liketheEpanchinsthemselves,movedonlyoccasionallyinthisexaltedsphere。TheEpanchinslikedtodraftamongtheirmoreelevatedguestsafewpickedrepresentativesofthislowerstratum,andLizabethaProkofievnareceivedmuchpraiseforthispractice,whichproved,herfriendssaid,thatshewasawomanoftact。TheEpanchinspridedthemselvesuponthegoodopinionpeopleheldofthem。

  Oneoftherepresentativesofthemiddle-classpresenttodaywasacolonelofengineers,averyseriousmanandagreatfriendofPrinceS。,whohadintroducedhimtotheEpanchins。Hewasextremelysilentinsociety,anddisplayedontheforefingerofhisrighthandalargering,probablybestoweduponhimforservicesofsomesort。Therewasalsoapoet,Germanbyname,butaRussianpoet;verypresentable,andevenhandsome-thesortofmanonecouldbringintosocietywithimpunity。ThisgentlemanbelongedtoaGermanfamilyofdecidedlybourgeoisorigin,buthehadaknackofacquiringthepatronageof\"big-wigs,\"andofretainingtheirfavour。HehadtranslatedsomegreatGermanpoemintoRussianverse,andclaimedtohavebeenafriendofafamousRussianpoet,sincedead。Itisstrangehowgreatamultitudeofliterarypeopletherearewhohavehadtheadvantagesoffriendshipwithsomegreatmanoftheirownprofessionwhois,unfortunately,dead。Thedignitary’swifehadintroducedthisworthytotheEpanchins。Thisladyposedasthepatronessofliterarypeople,andshecertainlyhadsucceededinobtainingpensionsforafewofthem,thankstoherinfluencewiththoseinauthorityonsuchmatters。Shewasaladyofweightinherownway。Heragewasaboutforty-five,sothatshewasaveryyoungwifeforsuchanelderlyhusbandasthedignitary。Shehadbeenabeautyinherdayandstillloved,asmanyladiesofforty-fivedolove,todressalittletoosmartly。Herintellectwasnothingtoboastof,andherliteraryknowledgeverydoubtful。Literarypatronagewas,however,withherasmuchamaniaaswastheloveofgorgeousclothes。Manybooksandtranslationswerededicatedtoherbyherproteges,andafewofthesetalentedindividualshadpublishedsomeoftheirownletterstoher,uponveryweightysubjects。

  This,then,wasthesocietythattheprinceacceptedatonceastruecoin,aspuregoldwithoutalloy。

  Itsohappened,however,thatonthisparticulareveningallthesegoodpeoplewereinexcellenthumourandhighlypleasedwiththemselves。EveryoneofthemfeltthattheyweredoingtheEpanchinsthegreatestpossiblehonourbytheirpresence。Butalas!theprinceneversuspectedanysuchsubtleties!Forinstance,hehadnosuspicionofthefactthattheEpanchins,havingintheirmindsoimportantastepasthemarriageoftheirdaughter,wouldneverthinkofpresumingtotakeitwithouthavingpreviously\"shownoff\"theproposedhusbandtothedignitary——therecognizedpatronofthefamily。Thelatter,too,thoughhewouldprobablyhavereceivednewsofagreatdisastertotheEpanchinfamilywithperfectcomposure,wouldneverthelesshaveconsidereditapersonaloffenceiftheyhaddaredtomarrytheirdaughterwithouthisadvice,orwemightalmostsay,hisleave。

  TheamiableandundoubtedlywittyPrinceN。couldnotbutfeelthathewasasasun,risenforonenightonlytoshineupontheEpanchindrawing-room。Heaccountedthemimmeasurablyhisinferiors,anditwasthisfeelingwhichcausedhisspecialamiabilityanddelightfuleaseandgracetowardsthem。Heknewverywellthathemusttellsomestorythiseveningfortheedificationofthecompany,andleduptoitwiththeinspirationofanticipatorytriumph。

  Theprince,whenheheardthestoryafterwards,feltthathehadneveryetcomeacrosssowonderfulahumorist,orsuchremarkablebrilliancyaswasshownbythisman;andyetifhehadonlyknownit,thisstorywastheoldest,stalest,andmostworn-outyarn,andeverydrawing-roomintownwassicktodeathofit。ItwasonlyintheinnocentEpanchinhouseholdthatitpassedforanewandbrillianttale——asasuddenandstrikingreminiscenceofasplendidandtalentedman。

  EventheGermanpoet,thoughasamiableaspossible,feltthathewasdoingthehousethegreatestofhonoursbyhispresenceinit。

  Buttheprinceonlylookedatthebrightside;hedidnotturnthecoatandseetheshabbylining。

  Aglayahadnotforeseenthatparticularcalamity。Sheherselflookedwonderfullybeautifulthisevening。Allthreesistersweredressedverytastefully,andtheirhairwasdonewithspecialcare。

  AglayasatnexttoEvgeniePavlovitch,andlaughedandtalkedtohimwithanunusualdisplayoffriendliness。Evgeniehimselfbehavedrathermoresedatelythanusual,probablyoutofrespecttothedignitary。Evgeniehadbeenknowninsocietyforalongwhile。HehadappearedattheEpanchins’todaywithcrapeonhishat,andPrincessBielokonskihadcommendedthisactiononhispart。Noteverysocietymanwouldhaveworncrapefor\"suchanuncle。\"LizabethaProkofievnahadlikeditalso,butwastoopreoccupiedtotakemuchnotice。TheprinceremarkedthatAglayalookedattentivelyathimtwoorthreetimes,andseemedtobesatisfiedwithhisbehaviour。

  Littlebylittlehebecameveryhappyindeed。AllhislateanxietiesandapprehensionsafterhisconversationwithLebedeffnowappearedlikesomanybaddreams——impossible,andevenlaughable。

  Hedidnotspeakmuch,onlyansweringsuchquestionsaswereputtohim,andgraduallysettleddownintounbrokensilence,listeningtowhatwenton,andsteepedinperfectsatisfactionandcontentment。

  Littlebylittleasortofinspiration,however,begantostirwithinhim,readytospringintolifeattherightmoment。Whenhedidbegintospeak,itwasaccidentally,inresponsetoaquestion,andapparentlywithoutanyspecialobject。

  VII。

  WHILEhefeastedhiseyesuponAglaya,asshetalkedmerrilywithEvgenieandPrinceN。,suddenlytheoldanglomaniac,whowastalkingtothedignitaryinanothercorneroftheroom,apparentlytellinghimastoryaboutsomethingorother——suddenlythisgentlemanpronouncedthenameof\"NicolaiAndreevitchPavlicheff\"aloud。Theprincequicklyturnedtowardshim,andlistened。

  Theconversationhadbeenonthesubjectofland,andthepresentdisorders,andtheremusthavebeensomethingamusingsaid,fortheoldmanhadbeguntolaughathiscompanion’sheatedexpressions。

  Thelatterwasdescribingineloquentwordshow,inconsequenceofrecentlegislation,hewasobligedtosellabeautifulestateintheN。province,notbecausehewantedreadymoney——infact,hewasobligedtosellitathalfitsvalue。\"ToavoidanotherlawsuitaboutthePavlicheffestate,Iranaway,\"hesaid。\"WithafewmoreinheritancesofthatkindIshouldsoonberuined!\"

  AtthispointGeneralEpanchin,noticinghowinterestedMuishkinhadbecomeintheconversation,saidtohim,inalowtone:

  \"Thatgentleman——IvanPetrovitch——isarelationofyourlatefriend,Mr。Pavlicheff。Youwantedtofindsomeofhisrelations,didyounot?\"

  Thegeneral,whohadbeentalkingtohischiefuptothismoment,hadobservedtheprince’ssolitudeandsilence,andwasanxioustodrawhimintotheconversation,andsointroducehimagaintothenoticeofsomeoftheimportantpersonages。

  \"LefNicolaievitchwasawardofNicolaiAndreevitchPavlicheff,afterthedeathofhisownparents,\"heremarked,meetingIvanPetrovitch’seye。

  \"Veryhappytomeethim,I’msure,\"remarkedthelatter。\"I

  rememberLefNicolaievitchwell。WhenGeneralEpanchinintroducedusjustnow,Irecognizedyouatonce,prince。Youareverylittlechanged,thoughIsawyoulastasachildofsometenorelevenyearsold。Therewassomethinginyourfeatures,I

  suppose,that——\"

  \"Yousawmeasachild!\"exclaimedtheprince,withsurprise。

  \"Oh!yes,longago,\"continuedIvanPetrovitch,\"whileyouwerelivingwithmycousinatZlatoverhoff。Youdon’trememberme?No,Idaresayyoudon’t;youhadsomemaladyatthetime,I

  remember。ItwassoseriousthatIwassurprised——\"

  \"No;Iremembernothing!\"saidtheprince。Afewmorewordsofexplanationfollowed,wordswhichwerespokenwithoutthesmallestexcitementbyhiscompanion,butwhichevokedthegreatestagitationintheprince;anditwasdiscoveredthattwooldladiestowhosecaretheprincehadbeenleftbyPavlicheff,andwholivedatZlatoverhoff,werealsorelationsofIvanPetrovitch。

  ThelatterhadnoideaandcouldgivenoinformationastowhyPavlicheffhadtakensogreataninterestinthelittleprince,hisward。

  \"InpointoffactIdon’tthinkIthoughtmuchaboutit,\"saidtheoldfellow。Heseemedtohaveawonderfullygoodmemory,however,forhetoldtheprinceallaboutthetwooldladies,Pavlicheff’scousins,whohadtakencareofhim,andwhom,hedeclared,hehadtakentotaskforbeingtooseverewiththeprinceasasmallsicklyboy——theeldersister,atleast;theyoungerhadbeenkind,herecollected。Theybothnowlivedinanotherprovince,onasmallestatelefttothembyPavlicheff。

  Theprincelistenedtoallthiswitheyessparklingwithemotionanddelight。

  Hedeclaredwithunusualwarmththathewouldneverforgivehimselfforhavingtravelledaboutinthecentralprovincesduringtheselastsixmonthswithouthavinghunteduphistwooldfriends。

  Hedeclared,further,thathehadintendedtogoeveryday,buthadalwaysbeenpreventedbycircumstances;butthatnowhewouldpromisehimselfthepleasure——howeverfaritwas,hewouldfindthemout。AndsoIvanPetrovitchREALLYknewNataliaNikitishna!——

  whatasaintlynaturewashers!——andMarthaNikitishna!IvanPetrovitchmustexcusehim,butreallyhewasnotquitefairondearoldMartha。Shewassevere,perhaps;butthenwhatelsecouldshebewithsuchalittleidiotashewasthen?Ha,ha。

  Hereallywasanidiotthen,IvanPetrovitchmustknow,thoughhemightnotbelieveit。Ha,ha。Sohehadreallyseenhimthere!

  Goodheavens!AndwashereallyandtrulyandactuallyacousinofPavlicheff’s?

  \"Iassureyouofit,\"laughedIvanPetrovitch,gazingamusedlyattheprince。

  \"Oh!Ididn’tsayitbecauseIDOUBTthefact,youknow。Ha,ha。HowcouldIdoubtsuchathing?Ha,ha,ha。Imadetheremarkbecause——becauseNicolaiAndreevitchPavlicheffwassuchasplendidman,don’tyousee!Suchahigh-souledman,hereallywas,Iassureyou。\"

  Theprincedidnotexactlypantforbreath,buthe\"seemedalmosttoCHOKEoutofpuresimplicityandgoodnessofheart,\"asAdelaidaexpressedit,ontalkingthepartyoverwithherfiance,thePrinceS。,nextmorning。

  \"But,mygoodnessme,\"laughedIvanPetrovitch,\"whycan’tIbecousintoevenasplendidman?\"

  \"Oh,dear!\"criedtheprince,confused,tryingtohurryhiswordsout,andgrowingmoreandmoreeagereverymoment:\"I’vegoneandsaidanotherstupidthing。Idon’tknowwhattosay。I——Ididn’tmeanthat,youknow——I——I——hereallywassuchasplendidman,wasn’the?\"

  Theprincetrembledallover。Whywashesoagitated?Whyhadheflownintosuchtransportsofdelightwithoutanyapparentreason?Hehadfaroutshotthemeasureofjoyandemotionconsistentwiththeoccasion。Whythiswasitwouldbedifficulttosay。

  Heseemedtofeelwarmlyanddeeplygratefultosomeoneforsomethingorother——perhapstoIvanPetrovitch;butlikelyenoughtoalltheguests,individually,andcollectively。Hewasmuchtoohappy。

  IvanPetrovitchbegantostareathimwithsomesurprise;thedignitary,too,lookedathimwithconsiderableattention;

  PrincessBielokonskiglaredathimangrily,andcompressedherlips。PrinceN。,Evgenie,PrinceS。,andthegirls,allbrokeofftheirownconversationsandlistened。Aglayaseemedalittlestartled;asforLizabethaProkofievna,herheartsankwithinher。

  ThiswasoddofLizabethaProkofievnaandherdaughters。Theyhadthemselvesdecidedthatitwouldbebetteriftheprincedidnottalkalltheevening。Yetseeinghimsittingsilentandalone,butperfectlyhappy,theyhadbeenonthepointofexertingthemselvestodrawhimintooneofthegroupsoftalkersaroundtheroom。Nowthathewasinthemidstofatalktheybecamemorethaneveranxiousandperturbed。

  \"Thathewasasplendidmanisperfectlytrue;youarequiteright,\"repeatedIvanPetrovitch,butseriouslythistime。\"Hewasafineandaworthyfellow——worthy,onemaysay,ofthehighestrespect,\"headded,moreandmoreseriouslyateachpause;\"anditisagreeabletosee,onyourpart,such——\"

  \"Wasn’titthissamePavlicheffaboutwhomtherewasastrangestoryinconnectionwithsomeabbot?Idon’trememberwhotheabbotwas,butIrememberatonetimeeverybodywastalkingaboutit,\"remarkedtheolddignitary。

  \"Yes——AbbotGurot,aJesuit,\"saidIvanPetrovitch。\"Yes,that’sthesortofthingourbestmenareapttodo。Amanofrank,too,andrich——amanwho,ifhehadcontinuedtoserve,mighthavedoneanything;andthentothrowuptheserviceandeverythingelseinordertogoovertoRomanCatholicismandturnJesuit——

  openly,too——almosttriumphantly。ByJove!itwaspositivelyamercythathediedwhenhedid——itwasindeed——everyonesaidsoatthetime。\"

  Theprincewasbesidehimself。

  \"Pavlicheff?——PavlicheffturnedRomanCatholic?Impossible!\"hecried,inhorror。

  \"H’m!impossibleisratherastrongword,\"saidIvanPetrovitch。

  \"Youmustallow,mydearprince……However,ofcourseyouvaluethememoryofthedeceasedsoveryhighly;andhecertainlywasthekindestofmen;towhichfact,bytheway,Iascribe,morethantoanythingelse,thesuccessoftheabbotininfluencinghisreligiousconvictions。Butyoumayaskme,ifyouplease,howmuchtroubleandworryI,personally,hadoverthatbusiness,andespeciallywiththissameGurot!Wouldyoubelieveit,\"hecontinued,addressingthedignitary,\"theyactuallytriedtoputinaclaimunderthedeceased’swill,andIhadtoresorttotheverystrongestmeasuresinordertobringthemtotheirsenses?Iassureyoutheyknewtheircue,didthesegentlemen——

  wonderful!ThankgoodnessallthiswasinMoscow,andIgottheCourt,youknow,tohelpme,andwesoonbroughtthemtotheirsenses。

  \"Youwouldn’tbelievehowyouhavepainedandastonishedme,\"

  criedtheprince。

  \"Verysorry;butinpointoffact,youknow,itwasallnonsenseandwouldhaveendedinsmoke,asusual——I’msureofthat。Lastyear,\"——heturnedtotheoldmanagain,——\"CountessK。joinedsomeRomanConventabroad。Ourpeopleneverseemtobeabletoofferanyresistancesosoonastheygetintothehandsofthese——

  intriguers——especiallyabroad。\"

  \"Thatisallthankstoourlassitude,Ithink,\"repliedtheoldman,withauthority。\"Andthentheirwayofpreaching;theyhaveaskilfulmannerofdoingit!Andtheyknowhowtostartleone,too。Igotquiteafrightmyselfin’32,inVienna,Iassureyou;

  butIdidn’tcaveintothem,Iranawayinstead,ha,ha!\"

  \"Come,come,I’vealwaysheardthatyouranawaywiththebeautifulCountessLevitskythattime——throwingupeverythinginordertodoit——andnotfromtheJesuitsatall,\"saidPrincessBielokonski,suddenly。

  \"Well,yes——butwecallitfromtheJesuits,youknow;itcomestothesamething,\"laughedtheoldfellow,delightedwiththepleasantrecollection。

  \"Youseemtobeveryreligious,\"hecontinued,kindly,addressingtheprince,\"whichisathingonemeetssoseldomnowadaysamongyoungpeople。\"

  Theprincewaslisteningopen-mouthed,andstillinaconditionofexcitedagitation。Theoldmanwasevidentlyinterestedinhim,andanxioustostudyhimmoreclosely。

  \"PavlicheffwasamanofbrightintellectandagoodChristian,asincereChristian,\"saidtheprince,suddenly。\"Howcouldhepossiblyembraceafaithwhichisunchristian?RomanCatholicismis,sotospeak,simplythesamethingasunchristianity,\"headdedwithflashingeyes,whichseemedtotakeineverybodyintheroom。

  \"Come,that’salittleTOOstrong,isn’tit?\"murmuredtheoldman,glancingatGeneralEpanchininsurprise。

  \"HowdoyoumakeoutthattheRomanCatholicreligionisUNCHRISTIAN?Whatisit,then?\"askedIvanPetrovitch,turningtotheprince。

  \"ItisnotaChristianreligion,inthefirstplace,\"saidthelatter,inextremeagitation,quiteoutofproportiontothenecessityofthemoment。\"Andinthesecondplace,RomanCatholicismis,inmyopinion,worsethanAtheismitself。Yes——

  thatismyopinion。Atheismonlypreachesanegation,butRomanismgoesfurther;itpreachesadisfigured,distortedChrist——itpreachesAnti-Christ——Iassureyou,Iswearit!Thisismyownpersonalconviction,andithaslongdistressedme。TheRomanCatholicbelievesthattheChurchonearthcannotstandwithoutuniversaltemporalPower。Hecries’nonpossumus!’InmyopiniontheRomanCatholicreligionisnotafaithatall,butsimplyacontinuationoftheRomanEmpire,andeverythingissubordinatedtothisidea——beginningwithfaith。ThePopehasseizedterritoriesandanearthlythrone,andhasheldthemwiththesword。Andsothethinghasgoneon,onlythattotheswordtheyhaveaddedlying,intrigue,deceit,fanaticism,superstition,swindling;——theyhaveplayedfastandloosewiththemostsacredandsincerefeelingsofmen;——theyhaveexchangedeverything——everythingformoney,forbaseearthlyPOWER!AndisthisnottheteachingofAnti-Christ?HowcouldtheupshotofallthisbeotherthanAtheism?AtheismisthechildofRomanCatholicism——itproceededfromtheseRomansthemselves,thoughperhapstheywouldnotbelieveit。Itgrewandfattenedonhatredofitsparents;itistheprogenyoftheirliesandspiritualfeebleness。Atheism!Inourcountryitisonlyamongtheupperclassesthatyoufindunbelievers;menwhohavelosttherootorspiritoftheirfaith;butabroadwholemassesofthepeoplearebeginningtoprofessunbelief——atfirstbecauseofthedarknessandliesbywhichtheyweresurrounded;butnowoutoffanaticism,outofloathingfortheChurchandChristianity!\"

  Theprincepausedtogetbreath。Hehadspokenwithextraordinaryrapidity,andwasverypale。

  Allpresentinterchangedglances,butatlasttheolddignitaryburstoutlaughingfrankly。PrinceN。tookouthiseye-glasstohaveagoodlookatthespeaker。TheGermanpoetcameoutofhiscornerandcreptnearertothetable,withaspitefulsmile。

  \"Youexaggeratethematterverymuch,\"saidIvanPetrovitch,withratheraboredair。\"Thereare,intheforeignChurches,manyrepresentativesoftheirfaithwhoareworthyofrespectandesteem。\"

  \"Oh,butIdidnotspeakofindividualrepresentatives。IwasmerelytalkingaboutRomanCatholicism,anditsessence——ofRomeitself。AChurchcanneverentirelydisappear;Ineverhintedatthat!\"

  \"Agreedthatallthismaybetrue;butweneednotdiscussasubjectwhichbelongstothedomainoftheology。\"

  \"Oh,no;oh,no!Nottotheologyalone,Iassureyou!Why,SocialismistheprogenyofRomanismandoftheRomanisticspirit。ItanditsbrotherAtheismproceedfromDespairinoppositiontoCatholicism。Itseekstoreplaceinitselfthemoralpowerofreligion,inordertoappeasethespiritualthirstofparchedhumanityandsaveit;notbyChrist,butbyforce。

  ’Don’tdaretobelieveinGod,don’tdaretopossessanyindividuality,anyproperty!FraterniteoulaMort;twomillionheads。’Bytheirworksyeshallknowthem’——wearetold。Andwemustnotsupposethatallthisisharmlessandwithoutdangertoourselves。Oh,no;wemustresist,andquickly,quickly!WemustletoutChristshineforthupontheWesternnations,ourChristwhomwehavepreservedintact,andwhomtheyhaveneverknown。

  Notasslaves,allowingourselvestobecaughtbythehooksoftheJesuits,butcarryingourRussiancivilizationtoTHEM,wemuststandbeforethem,notlettingitbesaidamongusthattheirpreachingis’skilful,’assomeoneexpresseditjustnow。\"

  \"Butexcuseme,excuseme;\"criedIvanPetrovitchconsiderablydisturbed,andlookingarounduneasily。\"Yourideasare,ofcourse,mostpraiseworthy,andinthehighestdegreepatriotic;

  butyouexaggeratethematterterribly。Itwouldbebetterifwedroppedthesubject。\"

  \"No,sir,Idonotexaggerate,Iunderstatethematter,ifanything,undoubtedlyunderstateit;simplybecauseIcannotexpressmyselfasIshouldlike,but——\"

  \"Allowme!\"

  Theprincewassilent。HesatstraightupinhischairandgazedferventlyatIvanPetrovitch。

  \"Itseemstomethatyouhavebeentoopainfullyimpressedbythenewsofwhathappenedtoyourgoodbenefactor,\"saidtheolddignitary,kindly,andwiththeutmostcalmnessofdemeanour。

  \"Youareexcitable,perhapsastheresultofyoursolitarylife。

  Ifyouwouldmakeupyourmindtolivemoreamongyourfellowsinsociety,Itrust,Iamsure,thattheworldwouldbegladtowelcomeyou,asaremarkableyoungman;andyouwouldsoonfindyourselfabletolookatthingsmorecalmly。Youwouldseethatallthesethingsaremuchsimplerthanyouthink;and,besides,theserarecasescomeabout,inmyopinion,fromennuiandfromsatiety。\"

  \"Exactly,exactly!Thatisatruethought!\"criedtheprince。

  \"Fromennui,fromourennuibutnotfromsatiety!Oh,no,youarewrongthere!SayfromTHIRSTifyoulike;thethirstoffever!

  Andpleasedonotsupposethatthisissosmallamatterthatwemayhavealaughatitanddismissit;wemustbeabletoforeseeourdisastersandarmagainstthem。WeRussiansnosoonerarriveatthebrinkofthewater,andrealizethatwearereallyatthebrink,thanwearesodelightedwiththeoutlookthatinweplungeandswimtothefarthestpointwecansee。Whyisthis?

  YousayyouaresurprisedatPavlicheff’saction;youascribeittomadness,tokindnessofheart,andwhatnot,butitisnotso。

  \"OurRussianintensitynotonlyastonishesourselves;allEuropewondersatourconductinsuchcases!For,ifoneofusgoesovertoRomanCatholicism,heissuretobecomeaJesuitatonce,andarabidoneintothebargain。IfoneofusbecomesanAtheist,hemustneedsbegintoinsistontheprohibitionoffaithinGodbyforce,thatis,bythesword。Whyisthis?Whydoeshethenexceedallboundsatonce?Becausehehasfoundlandatlast,thefatherlandthathesoughtinvainbefore;and,becausehissoulisrejoicedtofindit,hethrowshimselfuponitandkissesit!

  Oh,itisnotfromvanityalone,itisnotfromfeelingsofvanitythatRussiansbecomeAtheistsandJesuits!Butfromspiritualthirst,fromanguishoflongingforhigherthings,fordryfirmland,forfootholdonafatherlandwhichtheyneverbelievedinbecausetheyneverknewit。ItiseasierforaRussiantobecomeanAtheist,thanforanyothernationalityintheworld。AndnotonlydoesaRussian’becomeanAtheist,’butheactuallyBELIEVESINAtheism,justasthoughhehadfoundanewfaith,notperceivingthathehaspinnedhisfaithtoanegation。Suchisouranguishofthirst!’WhosohasnocountryhasnoGod。’Thatisnotmyownexpression;itistheexpressionofamerchant,oneoftheOldBelievers,whomIoncemetwhiletravelling。Hedidnotsayexactlythesewords。Ithinkhisexpressionwas:

  \"’WhosoforsakeshiscountryforsakeshisGod。’

  \"ButletthesethirstyRussiansoulsfind,likeColumbus’

  discoverers,anewworld;letthemfindtheRussianworld,letthemsearchanddiscoverallthegoldandtreasurethatlieshidinthebosomoftheirownland!Showthemtherestitutionoflosthumanity,inthefuture,byRussianthoughtalone,andbymeansoftheGodandoftheChristofourRussianfaith,andyouwillseehowmightyandjustandwiseandgoodagiantwillriseupbeforetheeyesoftheastonishedandfrightenedworld;

  astonishedbecausetheyexpectnothingbuttheswordfromus,becausetheythinktheywillgetnothingoutofusbutbarbarism。

  Thishasbeenthecaseuptonow,andthelongermattersgoonastheyarenowproceeding,themoreclearwillbethetruthofwhatIsay;andI——\"

  Butatthismomentsomethinghappenedwhichputamostunexpectedendtotheorator’sspeech。Allthisheatedtirade,thisoutflowofpassionatewordsandecstaticideaswhichseemedtohustleandtumbleovereachotherastheyfellfromhislips,boreevidenceofsomeunusuallydisturbedmentalconditionintheyoungfellowwhohad\"boiledover\"insucharemarkablemanner,withoutanyapparentreason。

  Ofthosewhowerepresent,suchasknewtheprincelistenedtohisoutburstinastateofalarm,somewithafeelingofmortification。Itwassounlikehisusualtimidself-constraint;

  soinconsistentwithhisusualtasteandtact,andwithhisinstinctivefeelingforthehigherproprieties。Theycouldnotunderstandtheoriginoftheoutburst;itcouldnotbesimplythenewsofPavlicheff’sperversion。Bytheladiestheprincewasregardedaslittlebetterthanalunatic,andPrincessBielokonskiadmittedafterwardsthat\"inanotherminuteshewouldhavebolted。\"

  Thetwooldgentlemenlookedquitealarmed。TheoldgeneralEpanchin’schiefsatandglaredattheprinceinseveredispleasure。Thecolonelsatimmovable。EventheGermanpoetgrewalittlepale,thoughheworehisusualartificialsmileashelookedaroundtoseewhattheotherswoulddo。

  Inpointoffactitisquitepossiblethatthematterwouldhaveendedinaverycommonplaceandnaturalwayinafewminutes。Theundoubtedlyastonished,butnowmorecollected,GeneralEpanchinhadseveraltimesendeavouredtointerrupttheprince,andnothavingsucceededhewasnowpreparingtotakefirmerandmorevigorousmeasurestoattainhisend。Inanotherminuteortwohewouldprobablyhavemadeuphismindtoleadtheprincequietlyoutoftheroom,onthepleaofhisbeingillanditwasmorethanlikelythatthegeneralwasrightinhisbeliefthattheprinceWASactuallyill,butitsohappenedthatdestinyhadsomethingdifferentinstore。

  Atthebeginningoftheevening,whentheprincefirstcameintotheroom,hehadsatdownasfaraspossiblefromtheChinesevasewhichAglayahadspokenofthedaybefore。

  Willitbebelievedthat,afterAglaya’salarmingwords,anineradicableconvictionhadtakenpossessionofhismindthat,howeverhemighttrytoavoidthisvasenextday,hemustcertainlybreakit?Butsoitwas。

  Duringtheeveningotherimpressionsbegantoawakeninhismind,aswehaveseen,andheforgothispresentiment。ButwhenPavlicheffwasmentionedandthegeneralintroducedhimtoIvanPetrovitch,hehadchangedhisplace,andwentovernearertothetable;when,itsohappened,hetookthechairnearesttothebeautifulvase,whichstoodonapedestalbehindhim,justaboutonalevelwithhiselbow。

  Ashespokehislastwordshehadrisensuddenlyfromhisseatwithawaveofhisarm,andtherewasageneralcryofhorror。

  Thehugevaseswayedbackwardsandforwards;itseemedtobeuncertainwhetherornototoppleoverontotheheadofoneoftheoldmen,buteventuallydeterminedtogotheotherway,andcamecrashingovertowardstheGermanpoet,whodartedoutofthewayinterror。

  Thecrash,thecry,thesightofthefragmentsofvaluablechinacoveringthecarpet,thealarmofthecompany——whatallthismeanttothepoorprinceitwouldbedifficulttoconveytothemindofthereader,orforhimtoimagine。

  Butoneverycuriousfactwasthatalltheshameandvexationandmortificationwhichhefeltovertheaccidentwerelesspowerfulthanthedeepimpressionofthealmostsupernaturaltruthofhispremonition。Hestoodstillinalarm——inalmostsuperstitiousalarm,foramoment;thenallmistsseemedtoclearawayfromhiseyes;hewasconsciousofnothingbutlightandjoyandecstasy;

  hisbreathcameandwent;butthemomentpassed。ThankGoditwasnotthat!Hedrewalongbreathandlookedaround。

  Forsomeminuteshedidnotseemtocomprehendtheexcitementaroundhim;thatis,hecomprehendeditandsaweverything,buthestoodaside,asitwere,likesomeoneinvisibleinafairytale,asthoughhehadnothingtodowithwhatwasgoingon,thoughitpleasedhimtotakeaninterestinit。

  Hesawthemgatherupthebrokenbitsofchina;heheardtheloudtalkingoftheguestsandobservedhowpaleAglayalooked,andhowverystrangelyshewasgazingathim。Therewasnohatredinherexpression,andnoangerwhatever。Itwasfullofalarmforhim,andsympathyandaffection,whileshelookedaroundattheotherswithflashing,angryeyes。Hisheartfilledwithasweetpainashegazedather。

  Atlengthheobserved,tohisamazement,thatallhadtakentheirseatsagain,andwerelaughingandtalkingasthoughnothinghadhappened。Anotherminuteandthelaughtergrewlouder——theywerelaughingathim,athisdumbstupor——laughingkindlyandmerrily。

  Severalofthemspoketohim,andspokesokindlyandcordially,especiallyLizabethaProkofievna——shewassayingthekindestpossiblethingstohim。

  SuddenlyhebecameawarethatGeneralEpanchinwastappinghimontheshoulder;IvanPetrovitchwaslaughingtoo,butstillmorekindandsympathizingwastheolddignitary。Hetooktheprincebythehandandpresseditwarmly;thenhepattedit,andquietlyurgedhimtorecollecthimself——speakingtohimexactlyashewouldhavespokentoalittlefrightenedchild,whichpleasedtheprincewonderfully;andnextseatedhimbesidehimself。

  Theprincegazedintohisfacewithpleasure,butstillseemedtohavenopowertospeak。Hisbreathfailedhim。Theoldman’sfacepleasedhimgreatly。

  \"Doyoureallyforgiveme?\"hesaidatlast。\"And——andLizabethaProkofievnatoo?\"Thelaughincreased,tearscameintotheprince’seyes,hecouldnotbelieveinallthiskindness——hewasenchanted。

  \"Thevasecertainlywasaverybeautifulone。Irememberithereforfifteenyears——yes,quitethat!\"remarkedIvanPetrovitch。

  \"Oh,whatadreadfulcalamity!Awretchedvasesmashed,andamanhalfdeadwithremorseaboutit,\"saidLizabethaProkofievna,loudly。\"Whatmadeyousodreadfullystartled,LefNicolaievitch?\"sheadded,alittletimidly。\"Come,mydearboy!

  cheerup。Youreallyalarmme,takingtheaccidentsotoheart。\"

  \"Doyouforgivemeall——ALL,besidesthevase,Imean?\"saidtheprince,risingfromhisseatoncemore,buttheoldgentlemancaughthishandanddrewhimdownagain——heseemedunwillingtolethimgo。

  \"C’esttres-curieuxetc’esttres-serieux,\"hewhisperedacrossthetabletoIvanPetrovitch,ratherloudly。Probablytheprinceheardhim。

  \"SothatIhavenotoffendedanyofyou?YouwillnotbelievehowhappyIamtobeabletothinkso。Itisasitshouldbe。AsifI

  COULDoffendanyonehere!Ishouldoffendyouagainbyevensuggestingsuchathing。\"

  \"Calmyourself,mydearfellow。Youareexaggeratingagain;youreallyhavenooccasiontobesogratefultous。Itisafeelingwhichdoesyougreatcredit,butanexaggeration,forallthat。\"

  \"Iamnotexactlythankingyou,Iamonlyfeelingagrowingadmirationforyou——itmakesmehappytolookatyou。IdaresayIamspeakingveryfoolishly,butImustspeak——Imustexplain,ifitbeoutofnothingbetterthanself-respect。\"

  Allhesaidanddidwasabrupt,confused,feverish——verylikelythewordshespoke,asoftenasnot,werenotthosehewishedtosay。HeseemedtoinquirewhetherheMIGHTspeak。HiseyeslightedonPrincessBielokonski。

  \"Allright,myfriend,talkaway,talkaway!\"sheremarked。\"Onlydon’tloseyourbreath;youwereinsuchahurrywhenyoubegan,andlookwhatyou’vecometonow!Don’tbeafraidofspeaking——

  alltheseladiesandgentlemenhaveseenfarstrangerpeoplethanyourself;youdon’tastonishTHEM。Youarenothingout-of-the-wayremarkable,youknow。You’vedonenothingbutbreakavase,andgiveusallafright。\"

  Theprincelistened,smiling。

  \"Wasn’tityou,\"hesaid,suddenlyturningtotheoldgentleman,\"whosavedthestudentPorkunoffandaclerkcalledShoabrinfrombeingsenttoSiberia,twoorthreemonthssince?\"

  Theolddignitaryblushedalittle,andmurmuredthattheprincehadbetternotexcitehimselffurther。

  \"AndIhaveheardofYOU,\"continuedtheprince,addressingIvanPetrovitch,\"thatwhensomeofyourvillagerswereburnedoutyougavethemwoodtobuilduptheirhousesagain,thoughtheywerenolongeryourserfsandhadbehavedbadlytowardsyou。\"

  \"Oh,come,come!Youareexaggerating,\"saidIvanPetrovitch,beamingwithsatisfaction,allthesame。Hewasright,however,inthisinstance,forthereporthadreachedtheprince’searsinanincorrectform。

  \"Andyou,princess,\"hewenton,addressingPrincessBielokonski,\"wasitnotyouwhoreceivedmeinMoscow,sixmonthssince,askindlyasthoughIhadbeenyourownson,inresponsetoaletterfromLizabethaProkofievna;andgavemeonepieceofadvice,againastoyourownson,whichIshallneverforget?Doyouremember?\"

  \"Whatareyoumakingsuchafussabout?\"saidtheoldlady,withannoyance。\"Youareagoodfellow,butverysilly。Onegivesyouahalfpenny,andyouareasgratefulasthoughonehadsavedyourlife。Youthinkthisispraiseworthyonyourpart,butitisnot——itisnot,indeed。\"

  Sheseemedtobeveryangry,butsuddenlyburstoutlaughing,quitegood-humouredly。

  LizabethaProkofievna’sfacebrightenedup,too;sodidthatofGeneralEpanchin。

  \"ItoldyouLefNicolaievitchwasaman——aman——ifonlyhewouldnotbeinsuchahurry,astheprincessremarked,\"saidthelatter,withdelight。

  Aglayaaloneseemedsadanddepressed;herfacewasflushed,perhapswithindignation。

  \"Hereallyisverycharming,\"whisperedtheolddignitarytoIvanPetrovitch。

  \"Icameintothisroomwithanguishinmyheart,\"continuedtheprince,withever-growingagitation,speakingquickerandquicker,andwithincreasingstrangeness。\"I——Iwasafraidofyouall,andafraidofmyself。Iwasmostafraidofmyself。WhenI

  returnedtoPetersburg,Ipromisedmyselftomakeapointofseeingourgreatestmen,andmembersofouroldestfamilies——theoldfamilieslikemyown。Iamnowamongprinceslikemyself,amInot?Iwishedtoknowyou,anditwasnecessary,very,verynecessary。Ihadalwaysheardsomuchthatwasevilsaidofyouall——moreevilthangood;astohowsmallandpettywereyourinterests,howabsurdyourhabits,howshallowyoureducation,andsoon。Thereissomuchwrittenandsaidaboutyou!Icameheretodaywithanxiouscuriosity;IwishedtoseeformyselfandformmyownconvictionsastowhetheritweretruethatthewholeofthisupperstratumofRussiansocietyisWORTHLESS,hasoutliveditstime,hasexistedtoolong,andisonlyfittodie——

  andyetisdyingwithpetty,spitefulwarringagainstthatwhichisdestinedtosupersedeitandtakeitsplace——hinderingtheComingMen,andknowingnotthatitselfisinadyingcondition。

  Ididnotfullybelieveinthisviewevenbefore,forthereneverwassuchaclassamongus——exceptingperhapsatcourt,byaccident——orbyuniform;butnowthereisnoteventhat,isthere?Ithasvanished,hasitnot?\"

  \"No,notabitofit,\"saidIvanPetrovitch,withasarcasticlaugh。

  \"GoodLord,he’soffagain!\"saidPrincessBielokonski,impatiently。

  \"Laissez-ledire!Heistremblingallover,\"saidtheoldman,inawarningwhisper。

  Theprincecertainlywasbesidehimself。

  \"Well?WhathaveIseen?\"hecontinued。\"Ihaveseenmenofgracefulsimplicityofintellect;IhaveseenanoldmanwhoisnotabovespeakingkindlyandevenLISTENINGtoaboylikemyself;Iseebeforemepersonswhocanunderstand,whocanforgive——kind,goodRussianhearts——heartsalmostaskindandcordialasImetabroad。ImaginehowdelightedImusthavebeen,andhowsurprised!Oh,letmeexpressthisfeeling!Ihavesooftenheard,andIhaveevenbelieved,thatinsocietytherewasnothingbutemptyforms,andthatrealityhadvanished;butInowseeformyselfthatthiscanneverbethecaseHERE,amongus——itmaybetheorderelsewhere,butnotinRussia。SurelyyouarenotallJesuitsanddeceivers!IheardPrinceN。’sstoryjustnow。

  Wasitnotsimple-minded,spontaneoushumour?Couldsuchwordscomefromthelipsofamanwhoisdead?——amanwhoseheartandtalentsaredriedup?Coulddeadmenandwomenhavetreatedmesokindlyasyouhaveallbeentreatingmeto-day?Istherenotmaterialforthefutureinallthis——forhope?CansuchpeoplefailtoUNDERSTAND?Cansuchmenfallawayfromreality?\"

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