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  Don’tyoulikeMadameMerle?Isabelhadoncesaidtohim。Shethinksagreatdealofyou。

  I’lltellyouonceforall,Osmondhadanswered。IlikedheroncebetterthanIdoto-day。I’mtiredofher,andI’mratherashamedofit。She’ssoalmostunnaturallygood!I’mgladshe’snotinItaly。

  itmakesforrelaxation-forasortofmoraldetente。Don’ttalkofhertoomuch。itseemstobringherback。She’llcomebackinplentyoftime。

  MadameMerle,infact,hadcomebackbeforeitwastoolate-toolate,Imean,torecoverwhateveradvantageshemighthavelost。Butmeantime,if,asIhavesaid,shewassensiblydifferent,Isabel’sfeelingswerealsonotquitethesame。Herconsciousnessofthesituationwasasacuteasofold,butitwasmuchlesssatisfying。A

  dissatisfiedmind,whateverelseitmaymiss,israrelyinwantofreasons。theybloomasthickasbuttercupsinJune。ThefactofMadameMerle’shavinghadahandinGilbertOsmond’smarriageceasedtobeoneofhertitlestoconsideration。itmighthavebeenwritten,afterall,thattherewasnotsomuchtothankherfor。Astimewentontherewaslessandless,andIsabeloncesaidtoherselfthatperhapswithoutherthesethingswouldnothavebeen。Thatreflectionindeedwasinstantlystifled。sheknewanimmediatehorrorathavingmadeit。Whateverhappenstomeletmenotbeunjust,shesaid。Letmebearmyburdensmyselfandnotshiftthemuponothers!Thisdispositionwastested,eventually,bythatingeniousapologyforherpresentconductwhichMadameMerlesawfittomakeandofwhichIhavegivenasketch。fortherewassomethingirritating-therewasalmostanairofmockery-inherneatdiscriminationsandclearconvictions。InIsabel’smindto-daytherewasnothingclear。therewasaconfusionofregrets,acomplicationoffears。Shefelthelplessassheturnedawayfromherfriend,whohadjustmadethestatementsIhavequoted:MadameMerleknewsolittlewhatshewasthinkingof!Shewasherselfmoreoversounabletoexplain。jealousofher-jealousofherwithGilbert?Theideajustthensuggestednonearreality。

  Shealmostwishedjealousyhadbeenpossible。itwouldhavemadeinamannerforrefreshment。Wasn’titinamanneroneofthesymptomsofhappiness?MadameMerle,however,waswise,sowisethatshemighthavebeenpretendingtoknowIsabelbetterthanIsabelknewherself。Thisyoungwomanhadalwaysbeenfertileinresolutions-manyofthemofanelevatedcharacter。butatnoperiodhadtheyflourishedintheprivacyofherheartmorerichlythanto-day。Itistruethattheyallhadafamilylikeness。theymighthavebeensummedupinthedeterminationthatifshewastobeunhappyitshouldnotbebyafaultofherown。Herpoorwingedspirithadalwayshadagreatdesiretodoitsbest,andithadnotasyetbeenseriouslydiscouraged。Itwished,therefore,toholdfasttojustice-nottopayitselfbypettyrevenges。ToassociateMadameMerlewithitsdisappointmentwouldbeapettyrevenge-especiallyasthepleasuretobederivedfromthatwouldbeperfectlyinsincere。Itmightfeedhersenseofbitterness,butitwouldnotloosenherbonds。

  Itwasimpossibletopretendthatshehadnotactedwithhereyesopen。ifeveragirlwasafreeagentshehadbeen。Agirlinlovewasdoubtlessnotafreeagent。butthesolesourceofhermistakehadbeenwithinherself。Therehadbeennoplot,nosnare。shehadlookedandconsideredandchosen。Whenawomanhadmadesuchamistake,therewasonlyonewaytorepairit-justimmenselyoh,withthehighestgrandeur!toacceptit。Onefollywasenough,especiallywhenitwastolastforever。asecondonewouldnotmuchsetitoff。InthisvowofreticencetherewasacertainnoblenesswhichkeptIsabelgoing。butMadameMerlehadbeenright,forallthat,intakingherprecautions。

  OnedayaboutamonthafterRalphTouchett’sarrivalinRomeIsabelcamebackfromawalkwithPansy。ItwasnotonlyapartofhergeneraldeterminationtobejustthatshewasatpresentverythankfulforPansy-itwasalsoapartofhertendernessforthingsthatwerepureandweak。Pansywasdeartoher,andtherewasnothingelseinherlifethathadtherightnessoftheyoungcreature’sattachmentorthesweetnessofherownclearnessaboutit。Itwaslikeasoftpresence-likeasmallhandinherown。onPansy’spartitwasmorethananaffection-itwasakindofardentcoercivefaith。Onherownsidehersenseofthegirl’sdependencewasmorethanapleasure。itoperatedasadefinitereasonwhenmotivesthreatenedtofailher。Shehadsaidtoherselfthatwemusttakeourdutywherewefindit,andthatwemustlookforitasmuchaspossible。Pansy’ssympathywasadirectadmonition。itseemedtosaythatherewasanopportunity,noteminentperhaps,butunmistakeable。YetanopportunityforwhatIsabelcouldhardlyhavesaid。ingeneral,tobemoreforthechildthanthechildwasabletobeforherself。Isabelcouldhavesmiled,inthesedays,torememberthatherlittlecompanionhadoncebeenambiguous,forshenowperceivedthatPansy’sambiguitiesweresimplyherowngrossnessofvision。Shehadbeenunabletobelieveanyonecouldcaresomuch-soextraordinarilymuch-toplease。Butsincethenshehadseenthisdelicatefacultyinoperation,andnowsheknewwhattothinkofit。Itwasthewholecreature-itwasasortofgenius。Pansyhadnopridetointerferewithit,andthoughshewasconstantlyextendingherconquestsshetooknocreditforthem。Thetwowereconstantlytogether。Mrs。Osmondwasrarelyseenwithoutherstepdaughter。Isabellikedhercompany。ithadtheeffectofone’scarryinganosegaycomposedallofthesameflower。AndthennottoneglectPansy,notunderanyprovocationtoneglecther-thisshehadmadeanarticleofreligion。TheyounggirlhadeveryappearanceofbeinghappierinIsabel’ssocietythaninthatofanyonesaveherfather,whomsheadmiredwithanintensityjustifiedbythefactthat,aspaternitywasanexquisitepleasuretoGilbertOsmond,hehadalwaysbeenluxuriouslymild。IsabelknewhowPansylikedtobewithherandhowshestudiedthemeansofpleasingher。Shehaddecidedthatthebestwayofpleasingherwasnegative,andconsistedinnotgivinghertrouble-aconvictionwhichcertainlycouldhavehadnoreferencetotroublealreadyexisting。Shewasthereforeingeniouslypassiveandalmostimaginativelydocile。shewascarefuleventomoderatetheeagernesswithwhichsheassentedtoIsabel’spropositionsandwhichmighthaveimpliedthatshecouldhavethoughtotherwise。Sheneverinterrupted,neveraskedsocialquestions,andthoughshedelightedinapprobation,tothepointofturningpalewhenitcametoher,neverheldoutherhandforit。

  Sheonlylookedtowarditwistfully-anattitudewhich,asshegrewolder,madehereyestheprettiestintheworld。WhenduringthesecondwinteratPalazzoRoccanerashebegantogotoparties,todances,shealways,atareasonablehour,lestMrs。Osmondshouldbetired,wasthefirsttoproposedeparture。Isabelappreciatedthesacrificeofthelatedances,forsheknewherlittlecompanionhadapassionatepleasureinthisexercise,takingherstepstothemusiclikeaconscientiousfairy。Society,moreover,hadnodrawbacksforher。shelikedeventhetiresomeparts-theheatofball-rooms,thedulnessofdinners,thecrushatthedoor,theawkwardwaitingforthecarriage。Duringtheday,inthisvehicle,besideherstepmother,shesatinasmallfixed,appreciativeposture,bendingforwardandfaintlysmiling,asifshehadbeentakentodriveforthefirsttime。

  OnthedayIspeakoftheyhadbeendrivenoutofoneofthegatesofthecityandattheendofhalfanhourhadleftthecarriagetoawaitthembytheroadsidewhiletheywalkedawayovertheshortgrassoftheCampagna,whicheveninthewintermonthsissprinkledwithdelicateflowers。ThiswasalmostadailyhabitwithIsabel,whowasfondofawalkandhadaswiftlengthofstep,thoughnotsoswiftaoneasonherfirstcomingtoEurope。ItwasnottheformofexercisethatPansylovedbest,butshelikedit,becauseshelikedeverything。andshemovedwithashorterundulationbesideherfather’swife,whoafterwards,ontheirreturntoRome,paidatributetoherpreferencesbymakingthecircuitofthePincianortheVillaBorghese。Shehadgatheredahandfulofflowersinasunnyhollow,farfromthewallsofRome,andonreachingPalazzoRoccanerashewentstraighttoherroom,toputthemintowater。Isabelpassedintothedrawing-room,theonesheherselfusuallyoccupied,thesecondinorderfromthelargeante-chamberwhichwasenteredfromthestaircaseandinwhichevenGilbertOsmond’srichdeviceshadnotbeenabletocorrectalookofrathergrandnudity。justbeyondthethresholdofthedrawing-roomshestoppedshort,thereasonforherdoingsobeingthatshehadreceivedanimpression。Theimpressionhad,instrictness,nothingunprecedented。butshefeltitassomethingnew,andthesoundlessnessofherstepgavehertimetotakeinthescenebeforesheinterruptedit。MadameMerlewasthereinherbonnet,andGilbertOsmondwastalkingtoher。foraminutetheywereunawareshehadcomein。Isabelhadoftenseenthatbefore,certainly。butwhatshehadnotseen,oratleasthadnotnoticed,wasthattheircolloquyhadforthemomentconverteditselfintoasortoffamiliarsilence,fromwhichsheinstantlyperceivedthatherentrancewouldstartlethem。MadameMerlewasstandingontherug,alittlewayfromthefire。Osmondwasinadeepchair,leaningbackandlookingather。Herheadwaserect,asusual,buthereyeswerebentonhis。WhatstruckIsabelfirstwasthathewassittingwhileMadameMerlestood。therewasananomalyinthisthatarrestedher。Thensheperceivedthattheyhadarrivedatadesultorypauseintheirexchangeofideasandweremusing,facetoface,withthefreedomofoldfriendswhosometimesexchangeideaswithoututteringthem。Therewasnothingtoshockinthis。theywereoldfriendsinfact。Butthethingmadeanimage,lastingonlyamoment,likeasuddenflickeroflight。Theirrelativepositions,theirabsorbedmutualgaze,struckherassomethingdetected。Butitwasalloverbythetimeshehadfairlyseenit。MadameMerlehadseenherandhadwelcomedherwithoutmoving。herhusband,ontheotherhand,hadinstantlyjumpedup。Hepresentlymurmuredsomethingaboutwantingawalkand,afterhavingaskedtheirvisitortoexcusehim,lefttheroom。

  Icametoseeyou,thinkingyouwouldhavecomein。andasyouhadn’tIwaitedforyou,MadameMerlesaid。

  Didn’theaskyoutositdown?Isabelaskedwithasmile。

  MadameMerlelookedabouther。Ah,it’sverytrue。Iwasgoingaway。

  Youmuststaynow。

  Certainly。Icameforareason。I’vesomethingonmymind。

  I’vetoldyouthatbefore,Isabelsaid-thatittakessomethingextraordinarytobringyoutothishouse。

  AndyouknowwhatI’vetoldyou。thatwhetherIcomeorwhetherI

  stayaway,I’vealwaysthesamemotive-theaffectionIbearyou。

  Yes,you’vetoldmethat。

  Youlookjustnowasifyoudidn’tbelieveit,saidMadameMerle。

  Ah,Isabelanswered,theprofundityofyourmotives,that’sthelastthingIdoubt!

  Youdoubtsoonerofthesincerityofmywords。

  Isabelshookherheadgravely。Iknowyou’vealwaysbeenkindtome。

  Asoftenasyouwouldletme。Youdon’talwaystakeit。thenonehastoletyoualone。It’snottodoyouakindness,however,thatI’vecometo-day。it’squiteanotheraffair。I’vecometogetridofatroubleofmyown-tomakeitovertoyou。I’vebeentalkingtoyourhusbandaboutit。

  I’msurprisedatthat。hedoesn’tliketroubles。

  Especiallyotherpeople’s。Iknowverywell。Butneitherdoyou,Isuppose。Atanyrate,whetheryoudoornot,youmusthelpme。

  It’saboutpoorMr。Rosier。

  Ah,saidIsabelreflectively,it’shistroublethen,notyours。

  Hehassucceededinsaddlingmewithit。Hecomestoseemetentimesaweek,totalkaboutPansy。

  Yes,hewantstomarryher。Iknowallaboutit。

  MadameMerlehesitated。Igatheredfromyourhusbandthatperhapsyoudidn’t。

  HowshouldheknowwhatIknow?Hehasneverspokentomeofthematter。

  It’sprobablybecausehedoesn’tknowhowtospeakofit。

  It’sneverthelessthesortofquestioninwhichhe’srarelyatfault。

  Yes,becauseasageneralthingheknowsperfectlywellwhattothink。

  To-dayhedoesn’t。

  Haven’tyoubeentellinghim?Isabelasked。

  MadameMerlegaveabright,voluntarysmile。Doyouknowyou’realittledry?

  Yes。Ican’thelpit。Mr。Rosierhasalsotalkedtome。

  Inthatthere’ssomereason。You’resonearthechild。

  Ah,saidIsabel,forallthecomfortI’vegivenhim!Ifyouthinkmedry,Iwonderwhathethinks。

  Ibelievehethinksyoucandomorethanyouhavedone。

  Icandonothing。

  YoucandomoreatleastthanI。Idon’tknowwhatmysteriousconnectionhemayhavediscoveredbetweenmeandPansy。buthecametomefromthefirst,asifIheldhisfortuneinmyhand。Nowhekeepscomingback,tospurmeup,toknowwhathopethereis,topourouthisfeelings。

  He’sverymuchinlove,saidIsabel。

  Verymuch-forhim。

  VerymuchforPansy,youmightsayaswell。

  MadameMerledroppedhereyesamoment。Don’tyouthinkshe’sattractive?

  Thedearestlittlepersonpossible-butverylimited。

  SheoughttobealltheeasierforMr。Rosiertolove。Mr。Rosier’snotunlimited。

  No,saidIsabel,hehasabouttheextentofone’spocket-handkerchief-thesmalloneswithlaceborders。Herhumourhadlatelyturnedagooddealtosarcasm,butinamomentshewasashamedofexercisingitonsoinnocentanobjectasPansy’ssuitor。

  He’sverykind,veryhonest,shepresentlyadded。andhe’snotsuchafoolasheseems。

  Heassuresmethatshedelightsinhim,saidMadameMerle。

  Idon’tknow。I’venotaskedher。

  You’veneversoundedheralittle?

  It’snotmyplace。it’sherfather’s。

  Ah,you’retooliteral!saidMadameMerle。

  Imustjudgeformyself。

  MadameMerlegavehersmileagain。Itisn’teasytohelpyou。

  Tohelpme?saidIsabelveryseriously。Whatdoyoumean?

  It’seasytodispleaseyou。Don’tyouseehowwiseIamtobecareful?Inotifyyou,atanyrate,asInotifiedOsmond,thatI

  washmyhandsofthelove-affairsofMissPansyandMr。EdwardRosier。

  Jen’ypeuxrien,moi!Ican’ttalktoPansyabouthim。Especially,

  addedMadameMerle,asIdon’tthinkhimaparagonofhusbands。

  Isabelreflectedalittle。afterwhich,withasmile,Youdon’twashyourhandsthen!shesaid。Afterwhichagainsheaddedinanothertone:Youcan’t-you’retoomuchinterested。

  MadameMerleslowlyrose。shehadgivenIsabelalookasrapidastheintimationthathadgleamedbeforeourheroineafewmomentsbefore。Onlythistimethelattersawnothing。Askhimthenexttime,andyou’llsee。

  Ican’taskhim。hehasceasedtocometothehouse。Gilberthaslethimknowthathe’snotwelcome。

  Ahyes,saidMadameMerle,Iforgotthat-thoughit’stheburdenofhislamentation。HesaysOsmondhasinsultedhim。Allthesame,

  shewenton,Osmonddoesn’tdislikehimsomuchashethinks。Shehadgotupasiftoclosetheconversation,butshelingered,lookingabouther,andhadevidentlymoretosay。Isabelperceivedthisandevensawthepointshehadinview。butIsabelalsohadherownreasonsfornotopeningtheway。

  Thatmusthavepleasedhim,ifyou’vetoldhim,sheanswered,smiling。

  CertainlyI’vetoldhim。asfarasthatgoesI’veencouragedhim。

  I’vepreachedpatience,havesaidthathiscaseisn’tdesperateifhe’llonlyholdhistongueandbequiet。Unfortunatelyhehastakenitintohisheadtobejealous。

  Jealous?

  JealousofLordWarburton,who,hesays,isalwayshere。

  Isabel,whowastired,hadremainedsitting。butatthisshealsorose。Ah!sheexclaimedsimply,movingslowlytothefireplace。

  MadameMerleobservedherasshepassedandwhileshestoodamomentbeforethemantel-glassandpushedintoitsplaceawanderingtressofhair。

  PoorMr。Rosierkeepssayingthere’snothingimpossibleinLordWarburton’sfallinginlovewithPansy,MadameMerlewenton。

  Isabelwassilentalittle。sheturnedawayfromtheglass。

  It’strue-there’snothingimpossible,shereturnedatlast,gravelyandmoregently。

  SoI’vehadtoadmittoMr。Rosier。So,too,yourhusbandthinks。

  ThatIdon’tknow。

  Askhimandyou’llsee。

  Ishallnotaskhim,saidIsabel。

  Pardonme。Iforgotyouhadpointedthatout。Ofcourse,MadameMerleadded,you’vehadinfinitelymoreobservationofLordWarburton’sbehaviourthanI。

  IseenoreasonwhyIshouldn’ttellyouthathelikesmystepdaughterverymuch。

  MadameMerlegaveoneofherquicklooksagain。Likesher,youmean-Mr。Rosiermeans?

  Idon’tknowhowMr。Rosiermeans。butLordWarburtonhasletmeknowthathe’scharmedwithPansy。

  Andyou’venevertoldOsmond?Thisobservationwasimmediate,precipitate。italmostburstfromMadameMerle’slips。

  Isabel’seyesrestedonher。Isupposehe’llknowintime。LordWarburtonhasatongueandknowshowtoexpresshimself。

  MadameMerleinstantlybecameconsciousthatshehadspokenmorequicklythanusual,andthereflectionbroughtthecolourtohercheek。Shegavethetreacherousimpulsetimetosubsideandthensaidasifshehadbeenthinkingitoveralittle:ThatwouldbebetterthanmarryingpoorMr。Rosier。

  Muchbetter,Ithink。

  Itwouldbeverydelightful。itwouldbeagreatmarriage。It’sreallyverykindofhim。

  Verykindofhim?

  Todrophiseyesonasimplelittlegirl。

  Idon’tseethat。

  It’sverygoodofyou。Butafterall,PansyOsmond-

  Afterall,PansyOsmond’sthemostattractivepersonhehaseverknown!Isabelexclaimed。

  MadameMerlestared,andindeedshewasjustlybewildered。Ah,amomentagoIthoughtyouseemedrathertodisparageher。

  Isaidshewaslimited。Andsosheis。Andso’sLordWarburton。

  Soareweall,ifyoucometothat。Ifit’snomorethanPansydeserves,allthebetter。ButifshefixesheraffectionsonMr。

  RosierIwon’tadmitthatshedeservesit。Thatwillbetooperverse。

  Mr。Rosier’sanuisance!Isabelcriedabruptly。

  Iquiteagreewithyou,andI’mdelightedtoknowthatI’mnotexpectedtofeedhisflame。Forthefuture,whenhecallsonme,mydoorshallbeclosedtohim。AndgatheringhermantletogetherMadameMerlepreparedtodepart。Shewaschecked,however,onherprogresstothedoor,byaninconsequentrequestfromIsabel。

  Allthesame,youknow,bekindtohim。

  Sheliftedhershouldersandeyebrowsandstoodlookingatherfriend。Idon’tunderstandyourcontradictions!DecidedlyIshan’tbekindtohim,foritwillbeafalsekindness。IwanttoseehermarriedtoLordWarburton。

  Youhadbetterwaittillheasksher。

  Ifwhatyousay’strue,he’llaskher。Especially,saidMadameMerleinamoment,ifyoumakehim。

  IfImakehim?

  It’squiteinyourpower。You’vegreatinfluencewithhim。

  Isabelfrownedalittle。Wheredidyoulearnthat?

  Mrs。Touchetttoldme。Notyou-never!saidMadameMerle,smiling。

  Icertainlynevertoldyouanythingofthesort。

  Youmighthavedonefarasopportunitywent-whenwewerebywayofbeingconfidentialwitheachother。Butyoureallytoldmeverylittle。I’veoftenthoughtsosince。

  Isabelhadthoughtsotoo,andsometimeswithacertainsatisfaction。Butshedidn’tadmititnow-perhapsbecauseshewishednottoappeartoexultinit。Youseemtohavehadanexcellentinformantinmyaunt,shesimplyreturned。

  SheletmeknowyouhaddeclinedanofferofmarriagefromLordWarburton,becauseshewasgreatlyvexedandwasfullofthesubject。OfcourseIthinkyou’vedonebetterindoingasyoudid。Butifyouwouldn’tmarryLordWarburtonyourself,makehimthereparationofhelpinghimtomarrysomeoneelse。

  IsabellistenedtothiswithafacethatpersistedinnotreflectingthebrightexpressivenessofMadameMerle’s。Butinamomentshesaid,reasonablyandgentlyenough:Ishouldbeverygladindeedif,asregardsPansy,itcouldbearranged。Uponwhichhercompanion,whoseemedtoregardthisasaspeechofgoodomen,embracedhermoretenderlythanmighthavebeenexpectedandtriumphantlywithdrew。

  CHAPTER41

  Osmondtouchedonthismatterthateveningforthefirsttime。

  comingverylateintothedrawing-room,whereshewassittingalone。

  Theyhadspenttheeveningathome,andPansyhadgonetobed。hehimselfhadbeensittingsincedinnerinasmallapartmentinwhichhehadarrangedhisbooksandwhichhecalledhisstudy。Atteno’clockLordWarburtonhadcomein,ashealwaysdidwhenheknewfromIsabelthatshewastobeathome。hewasgoingsomewhereelseandhesatforhalfanhour。Isabel,afteraskinghimfornewsofRalph,saidverylittletohim,onpurpose。shewishedhimtotalkwithherstepdaughter。Shepretendedtoread。sheevenwentafteralittletothepiano。sheaskedherselfifshemightn’tleavetheroom。ShehadcomelittlebylittletothinkwelloftheideaofPansy’sbecomingthewifeofthemasterofbeautifulLockleigh,thoughatfirstithadnotpresenteditselfinamannertoexciteherenthusiasm。

  MadameMerle,thatafternoon,hadappliedthematchtoanaccumulationofinflammablematerial。WhenIsabelwasunhappyshealwayslookedabouther-partlyfromimpulseandpartlybytheory-forsomeformofpositiveexertion。Shecouldneverridherselfofthesensethatunhappinesswasastateofdisease-ofsufferingasopposedtodoing。

  Todo-ithardlymatteredwhat-wouldthereforebeanescape,perhapsinsomedegreearemedy。Besides,shewishedtoconvinceherselfthatshehaddoneeverythingpossibletocontentherhusband。shewasdeterminednottobehauntedbyvisionsofhiswife’slimpnessunderappeal。ItwouldpleasehimgreatlytoseePansymarriedtoanEnglishnobleman,andjustlypleasehim,sincethisnoblemanwassosoundacharacter。ItseemedtoIsabelthatifshecouldmakeitherdutytobringaboutsuchaneventsheshouldplaythepartofagoodwife。Shewantedtobethat。shewantedtobeabletobelievesincerely,andwithproofofit,thatshehadbeenthat。Thensuchanundertakinghadotherrecommendations。Itwouldoccupyher,andshedesiredoccupation。Itwouldevenamuseher,andifshecouldreallyamuseherselfsheperhapsmightbesaved。

  Lastly,itwouldbeaservicetoLordWarburton,whoevidentlypleasedhimselfgreatlywiththecharminggirl。Itwasalittleweirdheshould-beingwhathewas。buttherewasnoaccountingforsuchimpressions。Pansymightcaptivateanyone-anyoneatleastbutLordWarburton。Isabelwouldhavethoughthertoosmall,tooslight,perhapseventooartificialforthat。Therewasalwaysalittleofthedollabouther,andthatwasnotwhathehadbeenlookingfor。

  Still,whocouldsaywhatmeneverwerelookingfor?Theylookedforwhattheyfound。theyknewwhatpleasedthemonlywhentheysawit。Notheorywasvalidinsuchmatters,andnothingwasmoreunaccountableormorenaturalthananythingelse。IfhehadcaredforheritmightseemoddheshouldcareforPansy,whowassodifferent。buthehadnotcaredforhersomuchashehadsupposed。Orifhehad,hehadcompletelygotoverit,anditwasnaturalthat,asthataffairhadfailed,heshouldthinksomethingofquiteanothersortmightsucceed。

  Enthusiasm,asIsay,hadnotcomeatfirsttoIsabel,butitcameto-dayandmadeherfeelalmosthappy。Itwasastonishingwhathappinessshecouldstillfindintheideaofprocuringapleasureforherhusband。Itwasapity,however,thatEdwardRosierhadcrossedtheirpath!

  Atthisreflectionthelightthathadsuddenlygleameduponthatpathlostsomethingofitsbrightness。IsabelwasunfortunatelyassurethatPansythoughtMr。Rosierthenicestofalltheyoungmensureasifshehadheldaninterviewwithheronthesubject。Itwasverytiresomesheshouldbesosure,whenshehadcarefullyabstainedfrominformingherself。almostastiresomeasthatpoorMr。Rosiershouldhavetakenitintohisownhead。HewascertainlyveryinferiortoLordWarburton。Itwasnotthedifferenceinfortunesomuchasthedifferenceinthemen。theyoungAmericanwasreallysolightaweight。HewasmuchmoreofthetypeoftheuselessfinegentlemanthantheEnglishnobleman。ItwastruethattherewasnoparticularreasonwhyPansyshouldmarryastatesman。

  still,ifastatesmanadmiredher,thatwashisaffair,andshewouldmakeaperfectlittlepearlofapeeress。

  ItmayseemtothereaderthatMrs。Osmondhadgrownofasuddenstrangelycynical,forsheendedbysayingtoherselfthatthisdifficultycouldprobablybearranged。AnimpedimentthatwasembodiedinpoorRosiercouldnotanyhowpresentitselfasadangerousone。

  therewerealwaysmeansoflevellingsecondaryobstacles。IsabelwasperfectlyawarethatshehadnottakenthemeasureofPansy’stenacity,whichmightprovetobeinconvenientlygreat。butsheinclinedtoseeherasratherlettinggo,undersuggestion,thanasclutchingunderdeprecation-sinceshehadcertainlythefacultyofassentdevelopedinaverymuchhigherdegreethanthatofprotest。

  Shewouldcling,yes,shewouldcling。butitreallymatteredtoherverylittlewhatsheclungto。LordWarburtonwoulddoaswellasMr。Rosier-especiallyassheseemedquitetolikehim。shehadexpressedthissentimenttoIsabelwithoutasinglereservation。shehadsaidshethoughthisconversationmostinteresting-hehadtoldherallaboutIndia。HismannertoPansyhadbeenoftherightestandeasiest-Isabelnoticedthatforherself,asshealsoobservedthathetalkedtohernotintheleastinapatronizingway,remindinghimselfofheryouthandsimplicity,butquiteasifsheunderstoodhissubjectswiththatsufficiencywithwhichshefollowedthoseofthefashionableoperas。Thiswentfarenoughforattentiontothemusicandthebarytone。Hewascarefulonlytobekind-hewasaskindashehadbeentoanotherflutteredyoungchitatGardencourt。

  Agirlmightwellbetouchedbythat。sherememberedhowsheherselfhadbeentouched,andsaidtoherselfthatifshehadbeenassimpleasPansytheimpressionwouldhavebeendeeperstill。Shehadnotbeensimplewhensherefusedhim。thatoperationhadbeenascomplicatedas,later,heracceptanceofOsmondhadbeen。Pansy,however,inspiteofhersimplicity,reallydidunderstand,andwasgladthatLordWarburtonshouldtalktoher,notaboutherpartnersandbouquets,butaboutthestateofItaly,theconditionofthepeasantry,thefamousgrist-tax,thepellagra,hisimpressionsofRomansociety。Shelookedathim,asshedrewherneedlethroughhertapestry,withsweetsubmissiveeyes,andwhensheloweredthemshegavelittlequietobliqueglancesathisperson,hishands,hisfeet,hisclothes,asifshewereconsideringhim。Evenhisperson,Isabelmighthaveremindedher,wasbetterthanMr。Rosier’s。ButIsabelcontentedherselfatsuchmomentswithwonderingwherethisgentlemanwas。hecamenomoreatalltoPalazzoRoccanera。Itwassurprising,asIsay,theholdithadtakenofher-theideaofassistingherhusbandtobepleased。

  ItwassurprisingforavarietyofreasonswhichIshallpresentlytouchupon。OntheeveningIspeakof,whileLordWarburtonsatthere,shehadbeenonthepointoftakingthegreatstepofgoingoutoftheroomandleavinghercompanionsalone。Isaythegreatstep,becauseitwasinthislightthatGilbertOsmondwouldhaveregardedit,andIsabelwastryingasmuchaspossibletotakeherhusband’sview。

  Shesucceededafterafashion,butshefellshortofthepointI

  mention。Afterallshecouldn’trisetoit。somethingheldherandmadethisimpossible。Itwasnotexactlythatitwouldbebaseorinsidious。forwomenasageneralthingpractisesuchmanoeuvreswithaperfectlygoodconscience,andIsabelwasinstinctivelymuchmoretruethanfalsetothecommongeniusofhersex。Therewasavaguedoubtthatinterposed-asensethatshewasnotquitesure。Sosheremainedinthedrawing-room,andafterawhileLordWarburtonwentofftohisparty,ofwhichhepromisedtogivePansyafullaccountonthemorrow。Afterhehadgoneshewonderedifshehadpreventedsomethingwhichwouldhavehappenedifshehadabsentedherselfforaquarterofanhour。andthenshepronounced-alwaysmentally-thatwhentheirdistinguishedvisitorshouldwishhertogoawayhewouldeasilyfindmeanstoletherknowit。Pansysaidnothingwhateverabouthimafterhehadgone,andIsabelstudiouslysaidnothing,asshehadtakenavowofreserveuntilafterheshouldhavedeclaredhimself。HewasalittlelongerincomingtothisthanmightseemtoaccordwiththedescriptionhehadgivenIsabelofhisfeelings。Pansywenttobed,andIsabelhadtoadmitthatshecouldnotnowguesswhatherstepdaughterwasthinkingof。Hertransparentlittlecompanionwasforthemomentnottobeseenthrough。

  Sheremainedalone,lookingatthefire,until,attheendofhalfanhour,herhusbandcamein。Hemovedaboutawhileinsilenceandthensatdown。helookedatthefirelikeherself。ButshenowhadtransferredhereyesfromtheflickeringflameinthechimneytoOsmond’sface,andshewatchedhimwhilehekepthissilence。Covertobservationhadbecomeahabitwithher。aninstinct,ofwhichitisnotanexaggerationtosaythatitwasalliedtothatofself-defence,hadmadeithabitual。Shewishedasmuchaspossibletoknowhisthoughts,toknowwhathewouldsay,beforehand,sothatshemightprepareheranswer。Preparinganswershadnotbeenherstrongpointofold。shehadrarelyinthisrespectgotfurtherthanthinkingafterwardsofcleverthingsshemighthavesaid。Butshehadlearnedcaution-learneditinameasurefromherhusband’sverycountenance。

  Itwasthesamefaceshehadlookedintowitheyesequallyearnestperhaps,butlesspenetrating,ontheterraceofaFlorentinevilla。

  exceptthatOsmondhadgrownslightlystoutersincehismarriage。Hestill,however,mightstrikeoneasverydistinguished。

  HasLordWarburtonbeenhere?hepresentlyasked。

  Yes,hestayedhalfanhour。

  DidheseePansy?

  Yes。hesatonthesofabesideher。

  Didhetalkwithhermuch?

  Hetalkedalmostonlytoher。

  Itseemstomehe’sattentive。Isn’tthatwhatyoucallit?

  Idon’tcallitanything,saidIsabel。I’vewaitedforyoutogiveitaname。

  That’saconsiderationyoudon’talwaysshow,Osmondansweredafteramoment。

  I’vedetermined,thistime,totryandactasyou’dlike。I’vesooftenfailedofthat。

  Osmondturnedhisheadslowly,lookingather。Areyoutryingtoquarrelwithme?

  No,I’mtryingtoliveatpeace。

  Nothing’smoreeasy。youknowIdon’tquarrelmyself。

  Whatdoyoucallitwhenyoutrytomakemeangry?Isabelasked。

  Idon’ttry。ifI’vedonesoithasbeenthemostnaturalthingintheworld。MoreoverI’mnotintheleasttryingnow。

  Isabelsmiled。Itdoesn’tmatter。I’vedeterminednevertobeangryagain。

  That’sanexcellentresolve。Yourtemperisn’tgood。

  No-it’snotgood。ShepushedawaythebookshehadbeenreadingandtookupthebandoftapestryPansyhadleftonthetable。

  That’spartlywhyI’venotspokentoyouaboutthisbusinessofmydaughter’s,Osmondsaid,designatingPansyinthemannerthatwasmostfrequentwithhim。IwasafraidIshouldencounteropposition-thatyoutoowouldhaveviewsonthesubject。I’vesentlittleRosierabouthisbusiness。

  YouwereafraidI’dpleadforMr。Rosier?Haven’tyounoticedthatI’veneverspokentoyouofhim?

  I’venevergivenyouachance。We’vesolittleconversationinthesedays。Iknowhewasanoldfriendofyours。

  Yes。he’sanoldfriendofmine。Isabelcaredlittlemoreforhimthanforthetapestrythatsheheldinherhand。butitwastruethathewasanoldfriendandthatwithherhusbandshefeltadesirenottoextenuatesuchties。Hehadawayofexpressingcontemptforthemwhichfortifiedherloyaltytothem,evenwhen,asinthepresentcase,theywereinthemselvesinsignificant。Shesometimesfeltasortofpassionoftendernessformemorieswhichhadnoothermeritthanthattheybelongedtoherunmarriedlife。ButasregardsPansy,sheaddedinamoment,I’vegivenhimnoencouragement。

  That’sfortunate,Osmondobserved。

  Fortunateforme,Isupposeyoumean。Forhimitmatterslittle。

  There’snousetalkingofhim,Osmondsaid。AsItellyou,I’veturnedhimout。

  Yes。butaloveroutside’salwaysalover。He’ssometimesevenmoreofone。Mr。Rosierstillhashope。

  He’swelcometothecomfortofit!MydaughterhasonlytositperfectlyquiettobecomeLadyWarburton。

  Shouldyoulikethat?Isabelaskedwithasimplicitywhichwasnotsoaffectedasitmayappear。Shewasresolvedtoassumenothing,forOsmondhadawayofunexpectedlyturningherassumptionsagainsther。TheintensitywithwhichhewouldlikehisdaughtertobecomeLadyWarburtonhadbeentheverybasisofherownrecentreflections。Butthatwasforherself。shewouldrecognizenothinguntilOsmondshouldhaveputitintowords。shewouldnottakeforgrantedwithhimthathethoughtLordWarburtonaprizeworthanamountofeffortthatwasunusualamongtheOsmonds。ItwasGilbert’sconstantintimationthatforhimnothinginlifewasaprize。thathetreatedasfromequaltoequalwiththemostdistinguishedpeopleintheworld,andthathisdaughterhadonlytolookabouthertopickoutaprince。ItcosthimthereforealapsefromconsistencytosayexplicitlythatheyearnedforLordWarburtonandthatifthisnoblemanshouldescapehisequivalentmightnotbefound。withwhichmoreoveritwasanotherofhiscustomaryimplicationsthathewasneverinconsistent。Hewouldhavelikedhiswifetoglideoverthepoint。Butstrangelyenough,nowthatshewasfacetofacewithhimandalthoughanhourbeforeshehadalmostinventedaschemeforpleasinghim,Isabelwasnotaccommodating,wouldnotglide。Andyetsheknewexactlytheeffectonhismindofherquestion:itwouldoperateasanhumiliation。Nevermind。hewasterriblycapableofhumiliatingher-allthemoresothathewasalsocapableofwaitingforgreatopportunitiesandofshowingsometimesanalmostunaccountableindifferencetosmallones。Isabelperhapstookasmallopportunitybecauseshewouldnothaveavailedherselfofagreatone。

  Osmondatpresentacquittedhimselfveryhonourably。Ishouldlikeitextremely。itwouldbeagreatmarriage。AndthenLordWarburtonhasanotheradvantage:he’sanoldfriendofyours。Itwouldbepleasantforhimtocomeintothefamily。It’sveryoddPansy’sadmirersshouldallbeyouroldfriends。

  It’snaturalthattheyshouldcometoseeme。IncomingtoseemetheyseePansy。Seeingherit’snaturaltheyshouldfallinlovewithher。

  SoIthink。Butyou’renotboundtodoso。

  IfsheshouldmarryLordWarburtonIshouldbeveryglad,Isabelwentonfrankly。He’sanexcellentman。Yousay,however,thatshehasonlytositperfectlystill。Perhapsshewon’tsitperfectlystill。IfshelosesMr。Rosiershemayjumpup!

  Osmondappearedtogivenoheedtothis。hesatgazingatthefire。

  Pansywouldliketobeagreatlady,heremarkedinamomentwithacertaintendernessoftone。Shewishesabovealltoplease,

  headded。

  TopleaseMr。Rosier,perhaps。

  No,topleaseme。

  Metooalittle,Ithink,saidIsabel。

  Yes,shehasagreatopinionofyou。Butshe’lldowhatIlike。

  Ifyou’resureofthat,it’sverywell,shewenton。

  Meantime,saidOsmond,Ishouldlikeourdistinguishedvisitortospeak。

  Hehasspoken-tome。Hehastoldmeitwouldbeagreatpleasuretohimtobelieveshecouldcareforhim。

  Osmondturnedhisheadquickly,butatfirsthesaidnothing。

  Then,Whydidn’tyoutellmethat?heaskedsharply。

  Therewasnoopportunity。Youknowhowwelive。I’vetakenthefirstchancethathasoffered。

  DidyouspeaktohimofRosier?

  Ohyes,alittle。

  Thatwashardlynecessary。

  Ithoughtitbestheshouldknow,sothat,sothat-AndIsabelpaused。

  Sothatwhat?

  Sothathemightactaccordingly。

  Sothathemightbackout,doyoumean?

  No,sothathemightadvancewhilethere’syettime。

  That’snottheeffectitseemstohavehad。

  Youshouldhavepatience,saidIsabel。YouknowEnglishmenareshy。

  Thisone’snot。Hewasnotwhenhemadelovetoyou。

  ShehadbeenafraidOsmondwouldspeakofthat。itwasdisagreeabletoher。Ibegyourpardon。hewasextremelyso,shereturned。

  Heanswerednothingforsometime。hetookupabookandfingeredthepageswhileshesatsilentandoccupiedherselfwithPansy’stapestry。Youmusthaveagreatdealofinfluencewithhim,Osmondwentonatlast。Themomentyoureallywishityoucanbringhimtothepoint。

  Thiswasmoreoffensivestill。butshefeltthegreatnaturalnessofhissayingit,anditwasafterallextremelylikewhatshehadsaidtoherself。WhyshouldIhaveinfluence?sheasked。WhathaveI

  everdonetoputhimunderanobligationtome?

  Yourefusedtomarryhim,saidOsmondwithhiseyesonhisbook。

  Imustnotpresumetoomuchonthat,shereplied。

  Hethrewdownthebookpresentlyandgotup,standingbeforethefirewithhishandsbehindhim。Well,Iholdthatitliesinyourhands。Ishallleaveitthere。Withalittlegood-willyoumaymanageit。ThinkthatoverandrememberhowmuchIcountonyou。Hewaitedalittle,togivehertimetoanswer。butsheanswerednothing,andhepresentlystrolledoutoftheroom。

  CHAPTER42

  Shehadanswerednothingbecausehiswordshadputthesituationbeforeherandshewasabsorbedinlookingatit。Therewassomethinginthemthatsuddenlymadevibrationsdeep,sothatshehadbeenafraidtotrustherselftospeak。Afterhehadgonesheleanedbackinherchairandclosedhereyes。andforalongtime,farintothenightandstillfurther,shesatinthestilldrawing-room,givenuptohermeditation。Aservantcameintoattendtothefire,andshebadehimbringfreshcandlesandthengotobed。Osmondhadtoldhertothinkofwhathehadsaid。andshedidsoindeed,andofmanyotherthings。ThesuggestionfromanotherthatshehadadefiniteinfluenceonLordWarburton-thishadgivenherthestartthataccompaniesunexpectedrecognition。WasittruethattherewassomethingstillbetweenthemthatmightbeahandletomakehimdeclarehimselftoPansy-asusceptibility,onhispart,toapproval,adesiretodowhatwouldpleaseher?Isabelhadhithertonotaskedherselfthequestion,becauseshehadnotbeenforced。butnowthatitwasdirectlypresentedtohershesawtheanswer,andtheanswerfrightenedher。Yes,therewassomething-somethingonLordWarburton’spart。WhenhehadfirstcometoRomeshebelievedthelinkthatunitedthemtobecompletelysnapped。butlittlebylittleshehadbeenremindedthatithadyetapalpableexistence。Itwasasthinasahair,butthereweremomentswhensheseemedtohearitvibrate。Forherselfnothingwaschanged。whatsheoncethoughtofhimshealwaysthought。itwasneedlessthisfeelingshouldchange。itseemedtoherinfactabetterfeelingthanever。Buthe?hadhestilltheideathatshemightbemoretohimthanotherwomen?Hadhethewishtoprofitbythememoryofthefewmomentsofintimacythroughwhichtheyhadoncepassed?Isabelknewshehadreadsomeofthesignsofsuchadisposition。Butwhatwerehishopes,hispretensions,andinwhatstrangewayweretheymingledwithhisevidentlyverysincereappreciationofpoorPansy?WasheinlovewithGilbertOsmond’swife,andifsowhatcomfortdidheexpecttoderivefromit?IfhewasinlovewithPansyhewasnotinlovewithherstepmother,andifhewasinlovewithherstepmotherhewasnotinlovewithPansy。WasshetocultivatetheadvantageshepossessedinordertomakehimcommithimselftoPansy,knowinghewoulddosoforhersakeandnotforthesmallcreature’sown-wasthistheserviceherhusbandhadaskedofher?Thisatanyratewasthedutywithwhichshefoundherselfconfronted-fromthemomentsheadmittedtoherselfthatheroldfriendhadstillanuneradicatedpredilectionforhersociety。Itwasnotanagreeabletask。itwasinfactarepulsiveone。SheaskedherselfwithdismaywhetherLordWarburtonwerepretendingtobeinlovewithPansyinordertocultivateanothersatisfactionandwhatmightbecalledotherchances。Ofthisrefinementofduplicityshepresentlyacquittedhim。shepreferredtobelievehiminperfectgoodfaith。ButifhisadmirationforPansywereadelusionthiswasscarcelybetterthanitsbeinganaffectation。Isabelwanderedamongtheseuglypossibilitiesuntilshehadcompletelylostherway。someofthem,asshesuddenlyencounteredthem,seemeduglyenough。Thenshebrokeoutofthelabyrinth,rubbinghereyes,anddeclaredthatherimaginationsurelydidherlittlehonourandthatherhusband’sdidhimevenless。LordWarburtonwasasdisinterestedasheneedbe,andshewasnomoretohimthansheneedwish。Shewouldrestuponthistillthecontraryshouldbeproved。provedmoreeffectuallythanbyacynicalintimationofOsmond’s。

  Sucharesolution,however,broughtherthiseveningbutlittlepeace,forhersoulwashauntedwithterrorswhichcrowdedtotheforegroundofthoughtasquicklyasaplacewasmadeforthem。Whathadsuddenlysetthemintoliveliermotionshehardlyknew,unlessitwerethestrangeimpressionshehadreceivedintheafternoonofherhusband’sbeinginmoredirectcommunicationwithMadameMerlethanshesuspected。Thatimpressioncamebacktoherfromtimetotime,andnowshewonderedithadnevercomebefore。Besidesthis,hershortinterviewwithOsmondhalfanhouragowasastrikingexampleofhisfacultyformakingeverythingwitherthathetouched,spoilingeverythingforherthathelookedat。Itwasverywelltoundertaketogivehimaproofofloyalty。therealfactwasthattheknowledgeofhisexpectingathingraisedapresumptionagainstit。Itwasasifhehadhadtheevileye。asifhispresencewereablightandhisfavouramisfortune。Wasthefaultinhimself,oronlyinthedeepmistrustshehadconceivedforhim?Thismistrustwasnowtheclearestresultoftheirshortmarriedlife。agulfhadopenedbetweenthemoverwhichtheylookedateachotherwitheyesthatwereoneithersideadeclarationofthedeceptionsuffered。Itwasastrangeopposition,ofthelikeofwhichshehadneverdreamed-anoppositioninwhichthevitalprincipleoftheonewasathingofcontempttotheother。Itwasnotherfault-shehadpractisednodeception。shehadonlyadmiredandbelieved。Shehadtakenallthefirststepsinthepurestconfidence,andthenshehadsuddenlyfoundtheinfinitevistaofamultipliedlifetobeadark,narrowalleywithadeadwallattheend。Insteadofleadingtothehighplacesofhappiness,fromwhichtheworldwouldseemtoliebelowone,sothatonecouldlookdownwithasenseofexaltationandadvantage,andjudgeandchooseandpity,itledratherdownwardandearthward,intorealmsofrestrictionanddepressionwherethesoundofotherlives,easierandfreer,washeardasfromabove,andwhereitservedtodeepenthefeelingoffailure。Itwasherdeepdistrustofherhusband-thiswaswhatdarkenedtheworld。Thatisasentimenteasilyindicated,butnotsoeasilyexplained,andsocompositeinitscharacterthatmuchtimeandstillmoresufferinghadbeenneededtobringittoitsactualperfection。Suffering,withIsabel,wasanactivecondition。itwasnotachill,astupor,adespair。itwasapassionofthought,ofspeculation,ofresponsetoeverypressure。Sheflatteredherselfthatshehadkeptherfailingfaithtoherself,however-thatnoonesuspecteditbutOsmond。Oh,heknewit,andthereweretimeswhenshethoughtheenjoyedit。Ithadcomegradually-itwasnottillthefirstyearoftheirlifetogether,soadmirablyintimateatfirst,hadclosedthatshehadtakenthealarm。Thentheshadowshadbeguntogather。itwasasifOsmonddeliberately,almostmalignantly,hadputthelightsoutonebyone。Theduskatfirstwasvagueandthin,andshecouldstillseeherwayinit。Butitsteadilydeepened,andifnowandagainithadoccasionallyliftedtherewerecertaincornersofherprospectthatwereimpenetrablyblack。Theseshadowswerenotanemanationfromherownmind:shewasverysureofthat。shehaddoneherbesttobejustandtemperate,toseeonlythetruth。Theywereapart,theywereakindofcreationandconsequence,ofherhusband’sverypresence。Theywerenothismisdeeds,histurpitudes。

  sheaccusedhimofnothing-thatisbutofonething,whichwasnotacrime。Sheknewofnowronghehaddone。hewasnotviolent,hewasnotcruel:shesimplybelievedhehatedher。Thatwasallsheaccusedhimof,andthemiserablepartofitwaspreciselythatitwasnotacrime,foragainstacrimeshemighthavefoundredress。Hehaddiscoveredthatshewassodifferent,thatshewasnotwhathehadbelievedshewouldprovetobe。Hehadthoughtatfirsthecouldchangeher,andshehaddoneherbesttobewhathewouldlike。Butshewas,afterall,herself-shecouldn’thelpthat。andnowtherewasnousepretending,wearingamaskoradress,forheknewherandhadmadeuphismind。Shewasnotafraidofhim。shehadnoapprehensionhewouldhurther。fortheill-willheboreherwasnotofthatsort。Hewouldifpossiblenevergiveherapretext,neverputhimselfinthewrong。Isabel,scanningthefuturewithdry,fixedeyes,sawthathewouldhavethebetterofherthere。Shewouldgivehimmanypretexts,shewouldoftenputherselfinthewrong。Thereweretimeswhenshealmostpitiedhim。forifshehadnotdeceivedhiminintentionsheunderstoodhowcompletelyshemusthavedonesoinfact。Shehadeffacedherselfwhenhefirstknewher。shehadmadeherselfsmall,pretendingtherewaslessofherthantherereallywas。

  Itwasbecauseshehadbeenundertheextraordinarycharmthathe,onhisside,hadtakenpainstoputforth。Hewasnotchanged。hehadnotdisguisedhimself,duringtheyearofhiscourtship,anymorethanshe。Butshehadseenonlyhalfhisnaturethen,asonesawthediskofthemoonwhenitwaspartlymaskedbytheshadowoftheearth。Shesawthefullmoonnow-shesawthewholeman。Shehadkeptstill,asitwere,sothatheshouldhaveafreefield,andyetinspiteofthisshehadmistakenapartforthewhole。

  Ah,shehadbeenimmenselyunderthecharm!Ithadnotpassedaway。itwastherestill:shestillknewperfectlywhatitwasthatmadeOsmonddelightfulwhenhechosetobe。Hehadwishedtobewhenhemadelovetoher,andasshehadwishedtobecharmeditwasnotwonderfulhehadsucceeded。Hehadsucceededbecausehehadbeensincere。itneveroccurredtohernowtodenyhimthat。Headmiredher-hehadtoldherwhy:becauseshewasthemostimaginativewomanhehadknown。Itmightverywellhavebeentrue。forduringthosemonthsshehadimaginedaworldofthingsthathadnosubstance。Shehadhadamorewondrousvisionofhim,fedthroughcharmedsensesandohsuchastirredfancy!-shehadnotreadhimright。Acertaincombinationoffeatureshadtouchedher,andinthemshehadseenthemoststrikingoffigures。Thathewaspoorandlonelyandyetthatsomehowhewasnoble-thatwaswhathadinterestedherandseemedtogiveheropportunity。Therehadbeenanindefinablebeautyabouthim-inhissituation,inhismind,inhisface。Shehadfeltatthesametimethathewashelplessandineffectual,butthefeelinghadtakentheformofatendernesswhichwastheveryflowerofrespect。

  Hewaslikeascepticalvoyagerstrollingonthebeachwhilehewaitedforthetide,lookingseawardyetnotputtingtosea。Itwasinallthisshehadfoundheroccasion。Shewouldlaunchhisboatforhim。

  shewouldbehisprovidence。itwouldbeagoodthingtolovehim。Andshehadlovedhim,shehadsoanxiouslyandyetsoardentlygivenherself-agooddealforwhatshefoundinhim,butagooddealalsoforwhatshebroughthimandwhatmightenrichthegift。Asshelookedbackatthepassionofthosefullweekssheperceivedinitakindofmaternalstrain-thehappinessofawomanwhofeltthatshewasacontributor,thatshecamewithchargedhands。Butforhermoney,asshesawto-day,shewouldneverhavedoneit。AndthenhermindwanderedofftopoorMr。Touchett,sleepingunderEnglishturf,thebeneficentauthorofinfinitewoe!Forthiswasthefantasticfact。Atbottomhermoneyhadbeenaburden,hadbeenonhermind,whichwasfilledwiththedesiretotransfertheweightofittosomeotherconscience,tosomemorepreparedreceptacle。Whatwouldlightenherownconsciencemoreeffectuallythantomakeitovertothemanwiththebesttasteintheworld?Unlesssheshouldhavegivenittoahospitaltherewouldhavebeennothingbettershecoulddowithit。

  andtherewasnocharitableinstitutioninwhichshehadbeenasmuchinterestedasinGilbertOsmond。Hewoulduseherfortuneinawaythatwouldmakeherthinkbetterofitandruboffacertaingrossnessattachingtothegoodluckofanunexpectedinheritance。

  Therehadbeennothingverydelicateininheritingseventythousandpounds。thedelicacyhadbeenallinMr。Touchett’sleavingthemtoher。ButtomarryGilbertOsmondandbringhimsuchaportion-inthattherewouldbedelicacyforheraswell。Therewouldbelessforhim-thatwastrue。butthatwashisaffair,andifhelovedherhewouldn’tobjecttoherbeingrich。Hadhenothadthecouragetosayhewasgladshewasrich?

  Isabel’scheekburnedwhensheaskedherselfifshehadreallymarriedonafactitioustheory,inordertodosomethingfinelyappreciablewithhermoney。Butshewasabletoanswerquicklyenoughthatthiswasonlyhalfthestory。Itwasbecauseacertainardourtookpossessionofher-asenseoftheearnestnessofhisaffectionandadelightinhispersonalqualities。Hewasbetterthananyoneelse。Thissupremeconvictionhadfilledherlifeformonths,andenoughofitstillremainedtoprovetoherthatshecouldnothavedoneotherwise。Thefinest-inthesenseofbeingthesubtlest-manlyorganismshehadeverknownhadbecomeherproperty,andtherecognitionofherhavingbuttoputoutherhandsandtakeithadbeenoriginallyasortofactofdevotion。Shehadnotbeenmistakenaboutthebeautyofhismind。sheknewthatorganperfectlynow。Shehadlivedwithit,shehadlivedinitalmost-itappearedtohavebecomeherhabitation。Ifshehadbeencapturedithadtakenafirmhandtoseizeher。thatreflectionperhapshadsomeworth。Amindmoreingenious,morepliant,morecultivated,moretrainedtoadmirableexercises,shehadnotencountered。anditwasthisexquisiteinstrumentshehadnowtoreckonwith。Shelostherselfininfinitedismaywhenshethoughtofthemagnitudeofhisdeception。Itwasawonder,perhaps,inviewofthis,thathedidn’thatehermore。Sherememberedperfectlythefirstsignhehadgivenofit-ithadbeenlikethebellthatwastoringupthecurtainupontherealdramaoftheirlife。Hesaidtoheronedaythatshehadtoomanyideasandthatshemustgetridofthem。Hehadtoldherthatalready,beforetheirmarriage。butthenshehadnotnoticedit:ithadcomebacktoheronlyafterwards。Thistimeshemightwellhavenoticedit,becausehehadreallymeantit。Thewordshadbeennothingsuperficially。butwheninthelightofdeepeningexperienceshehadlookedintothemtheyhadthenappearedportentous。Hehadreallymeantit-hewouldhavelikedhertohavenothingofherownbutherprettyappearance。Shehadknownshehadtoomanyideas。shehadmoreeventhanhehadsupposed,manymorethanshehadexpressedtohimwhenhehadaskedhertomarryhim。Yes,shehadbeenhypocritical。shehadlikedhimsomuch。Shehadtoomanyideasforherself。butthatwasjustwhatonemarriedfor,tosharethemwithsomeoneelse。Onecouldn’tpluckthemupbytheroots,thoughofcourseonemightsuppressthem,becarefulnottoutterthem。Ithadnotbeenthis,however,hisobjectingtoheropinions。thishadbeennothing。Shehadnoopinions-nonethatshewouldnothavebeeneagertosacrificeinthesatisfactionoffeelingherselflovedforit。Whathehadmeanthadbeenthewholething-hercharacter,thewayshefelt,thewayshejudged。Thiswaswhatshehadkeptinreserve。thiswaswhathehadnotknownuntilhehadfoundhimself-withthedoorclosedbehind,asitwere-setdownfacetofacewithit。Shehadacertainwayoflookingatlifewhichhetookasapersonaloffence。

  Heavenknewthatnowatleastitwasaveryhumble,accommodatingway!

  Thestrangethingwasthatsheshouldnothavesuspectedfromthefirstthathisownhadbeensodifferent。Shehadthoughtitsolarge,soenlightened,soperfectlythatofanhonestmanandagentleman。

  Hadn’theassuredherthathehadnosuperstitions,nodulllimitations,noprejudicesthathadlosttheirfreshness?Hadn’thealltheappearanceofamanlivingintheopenairoftheworld,indifferenttosmallconsiderations,caringonlyfortruthandknowledgeandbelievingthattwointelligentpeopleoughttolookforthemtogetherand,whethertheyfoundthemornot,findatleastsomehappinessinthesearch?Hehadtoldherhelovedtheconventional。buttherewasasenseinwhichthisseemedanobledeclaration。Inthatsense,thatoftheloveofharmonyandorderanddecencyandofallthestatelyofficesoflife,shewentwithhimfreely,andhiswarninghadcontainednothingominous。Butwhen,asthemonthshadelapsed,shehadfollowedhimfurtherandhehadledherintothemansionofhisownhabitation,then,thenshehadseenwhereshereallywas。

  Shecouldliveitoveragain,theincredulousterrorwithwhichshehadtakenthemeasureofherdwelling。Betweenthosefourwallsshehadlivedeversince。theyweretosurroundherfortherestofherlife。Itwasthehouseofdarkness,thehouseofdumbness,thehouseofsuffocation。Osmond’sbeautifulmindgaveitneitherlightnorair。Osmond’sbeautifulmindindeedseemedtopeepdownfromasmallhighwindowandmockather。Ofcourseithadnotbeenphysicalsuffering。forphysicalsufferingtheremighthavebeenaremedy。Shecouldcomeandgo。shehadherliberty。herhusbandwasperfectlypolite。Hetookhimselfsoseriously。itwassomethingappalling。Underallhisculture,hiscleverness,hisamenity,underhisgood-nature,hisfacility,hisknowledgeoflife,hisegotismlayhiddenlikeaserpentinabankofflowers。Shehadtakenhimseriously,butshehadnottakenhimsoseriouslyasthat。Howcouldshe-especiallywhenshehadknownhimbetter?ShewastothinkofhimashethoughtofhimselfasthefirstgentlemaninEurope。Soitwasthatshehadthoughtofhimatfirst,andthatindeedwasthereasonshehadmarriedhim。Butwhenshebegantoseewhatitimpliedshedrewback。therewasmoreinthebondthanshehadmeanttoputhernameto。Itimpliedasovereigncontemptforeveryonebutsomethreeorfourveryexaltedpeoplewhomheenvied,andforeverythingintheworldbuthalfadozenideasofhisown。Thatwasverywell。shewouldhavegonewithhimeventherealongdistance。

  forhepointedouttohersomuchofthebasenessandshabbinessoflife,openedhereyessowidetothestupidity,thedepravity,theignoranceofmankind,thatshehadbeenproperlyimpressedwiththeinfinitevulgarityofthingsandofthevirtueofkeepingone’sselfunspottedbyit。Butthisbase,ignobleworld,itappeared,wasafterallwhatonewastolivefor。onewastokeepitforeverinone’seye,inordernottoenlightenorconvertorredeemit,buttoextractfromitsomerecognitionofone’sownsuperiority。Ontheonehanditwasdespicable,butontheotheritaffordedastandard。

  OsmondhadtalkedtoIsabelabouthisrenunciation,hisindifference,theeasewithwhichhedispensedwiththeusualaidstosuccess。andallthishadseemedtoheradmirable。Shehadthoughtitagrandindifference,anexquisiteindependence。Butindifferencewasreallythelastofhisqualities。shehadneverseenanyonewhothoughtsomuchofothers。Forherself,avowedly,theworldhadalwaysinterestedherandthestudyofherfellowcreaturesbeenherconstantpassion。Shewouldhavebeenwilling,however,torenounceallhercuriositiesandsympathiesforthesakeofapersonallife,ifthepersonconcernedhadonlybeenabletomakeherbelieveitwasagain!Thisatleastwasherpresentconviction。

  andthethingcertainlywouldhavebeeneasierthantocareforsocietyasOsmondcaredforit。

  Hewasunabletolivewithoutit,andshesawthathehadneverreallydoneso。hehadlookedatitoutofhiswindowevenwhenheappearedtobemostdetachedfromit。Hehadhisideal,justasshehadtriedtohavehers。onlyitwasstrangethatpeopleshouldseekforjusticeinsuchdifferentquarters。Hisidealwasaconceptionofhighprosperityandpropriety,ofthearistocraticlife,whichshenowsawthathedeemedhimselfalways,inessenceatleast,tohaveled。Hehadneverlapsedfromitforanhour。hewouldneverhaverecoveredfromtheshameofdoingso。Thatagainwasverywell。heretooshewouldhaveagreed。buttheyattachedsuchdifferentideas,suchdifferentassociationsanddesires,tothesameformulas。Hernotionofthearistocraticlifewassimplytheunionofgreatknowledgewithgreatliberty。theknowledgewouldgiveoneasenseofdutyandthelibertyasenseofenjoyment。ButforOsmonditwasaltogetherathingofforms,aconscious,calculatedattitude。Hewasfondoftheold,theconsecrated,thetransmitted。sowasshe,butshepretendedtodowhatshechosewithit。Hehadanimmenseesteemfortradition。hehadtoldheroncethatthebestthingintheworldwastohaveit,butthatifonewassounfortunateasnottohaveitonemustimmediatelyproceedtomakeit。Sheknewthathemeantbythisthatshehadn’tit,butthathewasbetteroff。thoughfromwhatsourcehehadderivedhistraditionssheneverlearned。Hehadaverylargecollectionofthem,however。thatwasverycertain,andafteralittleshebegantosee。Thegreatthingwastoactinaccordancewiththem。thegreatthingnotonlyforhimbutforher。

  Isabelhadanundefinedconvictionthattoserveforanotherpersonthantheirproprietortraditionsmustbeofathoroughlysuperiorkind。butsheneverthelessassentedtothisintimationthatshetoomustmarchtothestatelymusicthatfloateddownfromunknownperiodsinherhusband’spast。shewhoofoldhadbeensofreeofstep,sodesultory,sodevious,somuchthereverseofprocessional。Therewerecertainthingstheymustdo,acertainposturetheymusttake,certainpeopletheymustknowandnotknow。Whenshesawthisrigidsystemcloseabouther,drapedthoughitwasinpicturedtapestries,thatsenseofdarknessandsuffocationofwhichIhavespokentookpossessionofher。sheseemedshutupwithanodourofmouldanddecay。Shehadresistedofcourse。atfirstveryhumorously,ironically,tenderly。then,asthesituationgrewmoreserious,eagerly,passionately,pleadingly。Shehadpleadedthecauseoffreedom,ofdoingastheychose,ofnotcaringfortheaspectanddenominationoftheirlife-thecauseofotherinstinctsandlongings,ofquiteanotherideal。

  Thenitwasthatherhusband’spersonality,touchedasitneverhadbeen,steppedforthandstooderect。Thethingsshehadsaidwereansweredonlybyhisscorn,andshecouldseehewasineffablyashamedofher-didhethinkofher-thatshewasbase,vulgar,ignoble?

  Heatleastknewnowthatshehadnotraditions!Ithadnotbeeninhisprevisionofthingsthatsheshouldrevealsuchflatness。hersentimentswereworthyofaradicalnewspaperoraUnitarianpreacher。

  Therealoffence,assheultimatelyperceived,washerhavingamindofherownatall。Hermindwastobehis-attachedtohisownlikeasmallgarden-plottoadeer-park。Hewouldrakethesoilgentlyandwatertheflowers。hewouldweedthebedsandgatheranoccasionalnosegay。Itwouldbeaprettypieceofpropertyforaproprietoralreadyfar-reaching。Hedidn’twishhertobestupid。Onthecontrary,itwasbecauseshewascleverthatshehadpleasedhim。

  Butheexpectedherintelligencetooperatealtogetherinhisfavour,andsofarfromdesiringhermindtobeablankhehadflatteredhimselfthatitwouldberichlyreceptive。Hehadexpectedhiswifetofeelwithhimandforhim,toenterintohisopinions,hisambitions,hispreferences。andIsabelwasobligedtoconfessthatthiswasnogreatinsolenceonthepartofamansoaccomplishedandahusbandoriginallyatleastsotender。Buttherewerecertainthingsshecouldnevertakein。Tobeginwith,theywerehideouslyunclean。

  ShewasnotadaughterofthePuritans,butforallthatshebelievedinsuchathingaschastityandevenasdecency。ItwouldappearthatOsmondwasfarfromdoinganythingofthesort。someofhistraditionsmadeherpushbackherskirts。Didallwomenhavelovers?Didtheyalllieandeventhebesthavetheirprice?Werethereonlythreeorfourthatdidn’tdeceivetheirhusbands?WhenIsabelheardsuchthingsshefeltagreaterscornforthemthanforthegossipofavillageparlour-ascornthatkeptitsfreshnessinaverytaintedair。Therewasthetaintofhersister-in-law:didherhusbandjudgeonlybytheCountessGemini?Thisladyveryoftenlied,andshehadpractiseddeceptionsthatwerenotsimplyverbal。ItwasenoughtofindthesefactsassumedamongOsmond’straditions-itwasenoughwithoutgivingthemsuchageneralextension。Itwasherscornofhisassumptions,itwasthisthatmadehimdrawhimselfup。

  Hehadplentyofcontempt,anditwasproperhiswifeshouldbeaswellfurnished。butthatsheshouldturnthehotlightofherdisdainuponhisownconceptionofthings-thiswasadangerhehadnotallowedfor。Hebelievedheshouldhaveregulatedheremotionsbeforeshecametoit。andIsabelcouldeasilyimaginehowhisearshadscorchedonhisdiscoveringhehadbeentooconfident。Whenonehadawifewhogaveonethatsensationtherewasnothingleftbuttohateher。

  Shewasmorallycertainnowthatthisfeelingofhatred,whichatfirsthadbeenarefugeandarefreshment,hadbecometheoccupationandcomfortofhislife。Thefeelingwasdeep,becauseitwassincere。

  hehadhadtherevelationthatshecouldafteralldispensewithhim。Iftoherselftheideawasstartling,ifitpresenteditselfatfirstasakindofinfidelity,acapacityforpollution,whatinfiniteeffectmightitnotbeexpectedtohavehaduponhim?Itwasverysimple。hedespisedher。shehadnotraditionsandthemoralhorizonofaUnitarianminister。PoorIsabel,whohadneverbeenabletounderstandUnitarianism!Thiswasthecertitudeshehadbeenlivingwithnowforatimethatshehadceasedtomeasure。Whatwascoming-whatwasbeforethem?Thatwasherconstantquestion。Whatwouldhedo-whatoughtshetodo?Whenamanhatedhiswifewhatdiditleadto?Shedidn’thatehim,thatshewassureof,foreverylittlewhileshefeltapassionatewishtogivehimapleasantsurprise。Veryoften,however,shefeltafraid,anditusedtocomeoverher,asIhaveintimated,thatshehaddeceivedhimattheveryfirst。Theywerestrangelymarried,atallevents,anditwasahorriblelife。Untilthatmorninghehadscarcelyspokentoherforaweek。hismannerwasasdryasaburned-outfire。Sheknewtherewasaspecialreason。hewasdispleasedatRalphTouchett’sstayingoninRome。Hethoughtshesawtoomuchofhercousin-hehadtoldheraweekbeforeitwasindecentsheshouldgotohimathishotel。HewouldhavesaidmorethanthisifRalph’sinvalidstatehadnotappearedtomakeitbrutaltodenouncehim。buthavinghadtocontainhimselfhadonlydeepenedhisdisgust。Isabelreadallthisasshewouldhavereadthehourontheclock-face。shewasasperfectlyawarethatthesightofherinterestinhercousinstirredherhusband’srageasifOsmondhadlockedherintoherroom-whichshewassurewaswhathewantedtodo。Itwasherhonestbeliefthatonthewholeshewasnotdefiant,butshecertainlycouldn’tpretendtobeindifferenttoRalph。Shebelievedhewasdyingatlastandthatsheshouldneverseehimagain,andthisgaveheratendernessforhimthatshehadneverknownbefore。Nothingwasapleasuretohernow。

  howcouldanythingbeapleasuretoawomanwhoknewthatshehadthrownawayherlife?Therewasaneverlastingweightonherheart-therewasalividlightoneverything。ButRalph’slittlevisitwasalampinthedarkness。forthehourthatshesatwithhimheracheforherselfbecamesomehowheracheforhim。Shefeltto-dayasifhehadbeenherbrother。Shehadneverhadabrother,butifshehadandshewereintroubleandheweredying,hewouldbedeartoherasRalphwas。Ahyes,ifGilbertwasjealousofhertherewasperhapssomereason。itdidn’tmakeGilbertlookbettertositforhalfanhourwithRalph。Itwasnotthattheytalkedofhim-itwasnotthatshecomplained。Hisnamewasneverutteredbetweenthem。ItwassimplythatRalphwasgenerousandthatherhusbandwasnot。TherewassomethinginRalph’stalk,inhissmile,inthemerefactofhisbeinginRome,thatmadetheblastedcircleroundwhichshewalkedmorespacious。Hemadeherfeelthe’goodoftheworld。hemadeherfeelwhatmighthavebeen。HewasafterallasintelligentasOsmond-quiteapartfromhisbeingbetter。Andthusitseemedtoheranactofdevotiontoconcealhermiseryfromhim。Sheconcealeditelaborately。shewasperpetually,intheirtalk,hangingoutcurtainsandarrangingscreens。Itlivedbeforeheragain-ithadneverhadtimetodie-thatmorninginthegardenatFlorencewhenhehadwarnedheragainstOsmond。Shehadonlytoclosehereyestoseetheplace,tohearhisvoice,tofeelthewarm,sweetair。Howcouldhehaveknown?Whatamystery,whatawonderofwisdom!AsintelligentasGilbert?Hewasmuchmoreintelligent-toarriveatsuchajudgementasthat。Gilberthadneverbeensodeep,sojust。Shehadtoldhimthenthatfromheratleastheshouldneverknowifhewasright。andthiswaswhatshewastakingcarehadnow。Itgaveherplentytodo。

  therewaspassion,exaltation,religioninit。Womenfindtheirreligionsometimesinstrangeexercises,andIsabelatpresent,inplayingapartbeforehercousin,hadanideathatshewasdoinghimakindness。Itwouldhavebeenakindnessperhapsifhehadbeenforasingleinstantadupe。Asitwas,thekindnessconsistedmainlyintryingtomakehimbelievethathehadoncewoundedhergreatlyandthattheeventhadputhimtoshame,butthat,asshewasverygenerousandhewassoill,sheborehimnogrudgeandevenconsideratelyforboretoflauntherhappinessinhisface。Ralphsmiledtohimself,ashelayonhissofa,atthisextraordinaryformofconsideration。butheforgaveherforhavingforgivenhim。Shedidn’twishhimtohavethepainofknowingshewasunhappy:thatwasthegreatthing,anditdidn’tmatterthatsuchknowledgewouldratherhaverightedhim。

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