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  BecauseIhadafancyforlookingoutovertheplain,Iwishedtogodownthere-whereIcouldn’tlookoutoveritanylonger。Wasnotthatfinereasoning?Dear,dear,iftheyonlythoughtofit,alltheworldwoulddolikeme。andyouwouldletyourflowersalone,justasIstayuphereinthemountains。’Suddenlyhebrokeoffsharp。’BytheLord!’hecried。Andwhensheaskedhimwhatwaswrong,heturnedthequestionoffandwalkedawayintothehousewithratherahumorousexpressionofface。

  Hewassilentattable。andafterthenighthidfallenandthestarshadcomeoutoverhead,hewalkedupanddownforhoursinthecourtyardandgardenwithanunevenpace。TherewasstillalightinthewindowofMarjory’sroom:onelittleoblongpatchoforangeinaworldofdarkbluehillsandsilverstarlight。Will’smindranagreatdealonthewindow。buthisthoughtswerenotverylover-like。’Theresheisinherroom,’hethought,’andtherearethestarsoverhead:-ablessinguponboth!’Bothweregoodinfluencesinhislife。bothsoothedandbracedhiminhisprofoundcontentmentwiththeworld。Andwhatmoreshouldhedesirewitheither?Thefatyoungmanandhiscouncilsweresopresenttohismind,thathethrewbackhishead,and,puttinghishandsbeforehismouth,shoutedaloudtothepopulousheavens。Whetherfromthepositionofhisheadorthesuddenstrainoftheexertion,heseemedtoseeamomentaryshockamongthestars,andadiffusionoffrostylightpassfromonetoanotheralongthesky。Atthesameinstant,acorneroftheblindwasliftedandloweredagainatonce。Helaughedaloudho-ho!’Oneandanother!’thoughtWill。

  ’Thestarstremble,andtheblindgoesup。Why,beforeHeaven,whatagreatmagicianImustbe!NowifIwereonlyafool,shouldnotIbeinaprettyway?’Andhewentofftobed,chucklingtohimself:’IfIwereonlyafool!’

  Thenextmorning,prettyearly,hesawheroncemoreinthegarden,andsoughtherout。

  ’Ihavebeenthinkingaboutgettingmarried,’hebeganabruptly。

  ’andafterhavingturneditallover,Ihavemadeupmymindit’snotworthwhile。’

  Sheturneduponhimforasinglemoment。buthisradiant,kindlyappearancewould,underthecircumstances,havedisconcertedanangel,andshelookeddownagainuponthegroundinsilence。Hecouldseehertremble。

  ’Ihopeyoudon’tmind,’hewenton,alittletakenaback。’Yououghtnot。Ihaveturneditallover,anduponmysoulthere’snothinginit。Weshouldneverbeonewhitnearerthanwearejustnow,and,ifIamawiseman,nothinglikesohappy。’

  ’Itisunnecessarytogoroundaboutwithme,’shesaid。’Iverywellrememberthatyourefusedtocommityourself。andnowthatI

  seeyouweremistaken,andinrealityhavenevercaredforme,I

  canonlyfeelsadthatIhavebeensofarmisled。’

  ’Iaskyourpardon,’saidWillstoutly。’youdonotunderstandmymeaning。AstowhetherIhaveeverlovedyouornot,Imustleavethattoothers。Butforonething,myfeelingisnotchanged。andforanother,youmaymakeityourboastthatyouhavemademywholelifeandcharactersomethingdifferentfromwhattheywere。ImeanwhatIsay。noless。Idonotthinkgettingmarriedisworthwhile。Iwouldratheryouwentonlivingwithyourfather,sothatIcouldwalkoverandseeyouonce,ormaybetwiceaweek,aspeoplegotochurch,andthenweshouldbothbeallthehappierbetweenwhiles。That’smynotion。ButI’llmarryyouifyouwill,’headded。

  ’Doyouknowthatyouareinsultingme?’shebrokeout。

  ’NotI,Marjory,’saidhe。’ifthereisanythinginaclearconscience,notI。Iofferallmyheart’sbestaffection。youcantakeitorwantit,thoughIsuspectit’sbeyondeitheryourpowerorminetochangewhathasoncebeendone,andsetmefancy-free。

  I’llmarryyou,ifyoulike。butItellyouagainandagain,it’snotworthwhile,andwehadbeststayfriends。ThoughIamaquietmanIhavenoticedaheapofthingsinmylife。Trustinme,andtakethingsasIpropose。or,ifyoudon’tlikethat,saytheword,andI’llmarryyououtofhand。’

  Therewasaconsiderablepause,andWill,whobegantofeeluneasy,begantogrowangryinconsequence。

  ’Itseemsyouaretooproudtosayyourmind,’hesaid。’Believemethat’sapity。Acleanshriftmakessimpleliving。Canamanbemoredownrightorhonourable,toawomanthanIhavebeen?I

  havesaidmysay,andgivenyouyourchoice。Doyouwantmetomarryyou?orwillyoutakemyfriendship,asIthinkbest?orhaveyouhadenoughofmeforgood?SpeakoutforthedearGod’ssake!

  Youknowyourfathertoldyouagirlshouldspeakhermindintheseaffairs。’

  Sheseemedtorecoverherselfatthat,turnedwithoutaword,walkedrapidlythroughthegarden,anddisappearedintothehouse,leavingWillinsomeconfusionastotheresult。Hewalkedupanddownthegarden,whistlingsoftlytohimself。Sometimeshestoppedandcontemplatedtheskyandhill-tops。sometimeshewentdowntothetailoftheweirandsatthere,lookingfoolishlyinthewater。

  Allthisdubietyandperturbationwassoforeigntohisnatureandthelifewhichhehadresolutelychosenforhimself,thathebegantoregretMarjory’sarrival。’Afterall,’hethought,’Iwasashappyasamanneedbe。IcouldcomedownhereandwatchmyfishesalldaylongifIwanted:Iwasassettledandcontentedasmyoldmill。’

  Marjorycamedowntodinner,lookingverytrimandquiet。andnosoonerwereallthreeattablethanshemadeherfatheraspeech,withhereyesfixeduponherplate,butshowingnoothersignofembarrassmentordistress。

  ’Father,’shebegan,’Mr。WillandIhavebeentalkingthingsover。

  Weseethatwehaveeachmadeamistakeaboutourfeelings,andhehasagreed,atmyrequest,togiveupallideaofmarriage,andbenomorethanmyverygoodfriend,asinthepast。Yousee,thereisnoshadowofaquarrel,andindeedIhopeweshallseeagreatdealofhiminthefuture,forhisvisitswillalwaysbewelcomeinourhouse。Ofcourse,father,youwillknowbest,butperhapsweshoulddobettertoleaveMr。Will’shouseforthepresent。I

  believe,afterwhathaspassed,weshouldhardlybeagreeableinmatesforsomedays。’

  Will,whohadcommandedhimselfwithdifficultyfromthefirst,brokeoutuponthisintoaninarticulatenoise,andraisedonehandwithanappearanceofrealdismay,asifhewereabouttointerfereandcontradict。Butshecheckedhimatoncelookingupathimwithaswiftglanceandanangryflushuponhercheek。

  ’Youwillperhapshavethegoodgrace,’shesaid,’toletmeexplainthesemattersformyself。’

  Willwasputentirelyoutofcountenancebyherexpressionandtheringofhervoice。Heheldhispeace,concludingthatthereweresomethingsaboutthisgirlbeyondhiscomprehension,inwhichhewasexactlyright。

  Thepoorparsonwasquitecrestfallen。Hetriedtoprovethatthiswasnomorethanatruelovers’tiff,whichwouldpassoffbeforenight。andwhenhewasdislodgedfromthatposition,hewentontoarguethatwheretherewasnoquarreltherecouldbenocallforaseparation。forthegoodmanlikedbothhisentertainmentandhishost。Itwascurioustoseehowthegirlmanagedthem,sayinglittleallthetime,andthatveryquietly,andyettwistingthemroundherfingerandinsensiblyleadingthemwherevershewouldbyfemininetactandgeneralship。Itscarcelyseemedtohavebeenherdoing-itseemedasifthingshadmerelysofallenout-thatsheandherfathertooktheirdeparturethatsameafternooninafarm-

  cart,andwentfartherdownthevalley,towait,untiltheirownhousewasreadyforthem,inanotherhamlet。ButWillhadbeenobservingclosely,andwaswellawareofherdexterityandresolution。Whenhefoundhimselfalonehehadagreatmanycuriousmatterstoturnoverinhismind。Hewasverysadandsolitary,tobeginwith。Alltheinteresthadgoneoutofhislife,andhemightlookupatthestarsaslongashepleased,hesomehowfailedtofindsupportorconsolation。AndthenhewasinsuchaturmoilofspiritaboutMarjory。Hehadbeenpuzzledandirritatedatherbehaviour,andyethecouldnotkeephimselffromadmiringit。Hethoughtherecognisedafine,perverseangelinthatstillsoulwhichhehadneverhithertosuspected。andthoughhesawitwasaninfluencethatwouldfitbutillwithhisownlifeofartificialcalm,hecouldnotkeephimselffromardentlydesiringtopossessit。Likeamanwhohaslivedamongshadowsandnowmeetsthesun,hewasbothpainedanddelighted。

  Asthedayswentforwardhepassedfromoneextremetoanother。nowpluminghimselfonthestrengthofhisdetermination,nowdespisinghistimidandsillycaution。Theformerwas,perhaps,thetruethoughtofhisheart,andrepresentedtheregulartenoroftheman’sreflections。butthelatterburstforthfromtimetotimewithanunrulyviolence,andthenhewouldforgetallconsideration,andgoupanddownhishouseandgardenorwalkamongthefir-woodslikeonewhoisbesidehimselfwithremorse。

  Toequable,steady-mindedWillthisstateofmatterswasintolerable。andhedetermined,atwhatevercost,tobringittoanend。So,onewarmsummerafternoonheputonhisbestclothes,tookathornswitchinhishand,andsetoutdownthevalleybytheriver。Assoonashehadtakenhisdetermination,hehadregainedataboundhiscustomarypeaceofheart,andheenjoyedthebrightweatherandthevarietyofthescenewithoutanyadmixtureofalarmorunpleasanteagerness。Itwasnearlythesametohimhowthematterturnedout。Ifsheacceptedhimhewouldhavetomarryherthistime,whichperhapswas,allforthebest。Ifsherefusedhim,hewouldhavedonehisutmost,andmightfollowhisownwayinthefuturewithanuntroubledconscience。Hehoped,onthewhole,shewouldrefusehim。andthen,again,ashesawthebrownroofwhichshelteredher,peepingthroughsomewillowsatanangleofthestream,hewashalfinclinedtoreversethewish,andmorethanhalfashamedofhimselfforthisinfirmityofpurpose。

  Marjoryseemedgladtoseehim,andgavehimherhandwithoutaffectationordelay。

  ’Ihavebeenthinkingaboutthismarriage,’hebegan。

  ’SohaveI,’sheanswered。’AndIrespectyoumoreandmoreforaverywiseman。YouunderstoodmebetterthanIunderstoodmyself。

  andIamnowquitecertainthatthingsareallforthebestastheyare。’

  ’Atthesametime-,’venturedWill。

  ’Youmustbetired,’sheinterrupted。’Takeaseatandletmefetchyouaglassofwine。Theafternoonissowarm。andIwishyounottobedispleasedwithyourvisit。Youmustcomequiteoften。onceaweek,ifyoucansparethetime。Iamalwayssogladtoseemyfriends。’

  ’O,verywell,’thoughtWilltohimself。’ItappearsIwasrightafterall。’Andhepaidaveryagreeablevisit,walkedhomeagainincapitalspirits,andgavehimselfnofurtherconcernaboutthematter。

  FornearlythreeyearsWillandMarjorycontinuedontheseterms,seeingeachotheronceortwiceaweekwithoutanywordoflovebetweenthem。andforallthattimeIbelieveWillwasnearlyashappyasamancanbe。Heratherstintedhimselfthepleasureofseeingher。andhewouldoftenwalkhalf-wayovertotheparsonage,andthenbackagain,asiftowhethisappetite。Indeedtherewasonecorneroftheroad,whencehecouldseethechurch-spirewedgedintoacreviceofthevalleybetweenslopingfirwoods,withatriangularsnatchofplainbywayofbackground,whichhegreatlyaffectedasaplacetositandmoraliseinbeforereturninghomewards。andthepeasantsgotsomuchintothehabitoffindinghimthereinthetwilightthattheygaveitthenameof’Willo’

  theMill’sCorner。’

  AttheendofthethreeyearsMarjoryplayedhimasadtrickbysuddenlymarryingsomebodyelse。Willkepthiscountenancebravely,andmerelyremarkedthat,foraslittleasheknewofwomen,hehadactedveryprudentlyinnotmarryingherhimselfthreeyearsbefore。Sheplainlyknewverylittleofherownmind,and,inspiteofadeceptivemanner,wasasfickleandflightyastherestofthem。Hehadtocongratulatehimselfonanescape,hesaid,andwouldtakeahigheropinionofhisownwisdominconsequence。Butatheart,hewasreasonablydispleased,mopedagooddealforamonthortwo,andfellawayinflesh,totheastonishmentofhisserving-lads。

  ItwasperhapsayearafterthismarriagethatWillwasawakenedlateonenightbythesoundofahorsegallopingontheroad,followedbyprecipitateknockingattheinn-door。Heopenedhiswindowandsawafarmservant,mountedandholdingaledhorsebythebridle,whotoldhimtomakewhathastehecouldandgoalongwithhim。forMarjorywasdying,andhadsenturgentlytofetchhimtoherbedside。Willwasnohorseman,andmadesolittlespeeduponthewaythatthepooryoungwifewasverynearherendbeforehearrived。Buttheyhadsomeminutes’talkinprivate,andhewaspresentandweptverybitterlywhileshebreathedherlast。

  CHAPTERIII。DEATH

  Yearafteryearwentawayintonothing,withgreatexplosionsandoutcriesinthecitiesontheplain:redrevoltspringingupandbeingsuppressedinblood,battleswayinghitherandthither,patientastronomersinobservatorytowerspickingoutandchristeningnewstars,playsbeingperformedinlightedtheatres,peoplebeingcarriedintohospitalonstretchers,andalltheusualturmoilandagitationofmen’slivesincrowdedcentres。UpinWill’svalleyonlythewindsandseasonsmadeanepoch。thefishhungintheswiftstream,thebirdscircledoverhead,thepine-topsrustledunderneaththestars,thetallhillsstoodoverall。andWillwenttoandfro,mindinghiswaysideinn,untilthesnowbegantothickenonhishead。Hisheartwasyoungandvigorous。andifhispulseskeptasobertime,theystillbeatstrongandsteadyinhiswrists。Hecarriedaruddystainoneithercheek,likearipeapple。hestoopedalittle,buthisstepwasstillfirm。andhissinewyhandswerereachedouttoallmenwithafriendlypressure。

  Hisfacewascoveredwiththosewrinkleswhicharegotinopenair,andwhichrightlylookedat,arenomorethanasortofpermanentsunburning。suchwrinklesheightenthestupidityofstupidfaces。

  buttoapersonlikeWill,withhiscleareyesandsmilingmouth,onlygiveanothercharmbytestifyingtoasimpleandeasylife。

  Histalkwasfullofwisesayings。Hehadatasteforotherpeople。andotherpeoplehadatasteforhim。Whenthevalleywasfulloftouristsintheseason,thereweremerrynightsinWill’sarbour。andhisviews,whichseemedwhimsicaltohisneighbours,wereoftenenoughadmiredbylearnedpeopleoutoftownsandcolleges。Indeed,hehadaverynobleoldage,andgrewdailybetterknown。sothathisfamewasheardofinthecitiesoftheplain。andyoungmenwhohadbeensummertravellersspoketogetherinCAFESofWillo’theMillandhisroughphilosophy。Manyandmanyaninvitation,youmaybesure,hehad。butnothingcouldtempthimfromhisuplandvalley。Hewouldshakehisheadandsmileoverhistobacco-pipewithadealofmeaning。’Youcometoolate,’hewouldanswer。’Iamadeadmannow:Ihavelivedanddiedalready。Fiftyyearsagoyouwouldhavebroughtmyheartintomymouth。andnowyoudonoteventemptme。Butthatistheobjectoflongliving,thatmanshouldceasetocareaboutlife。’Andagain:’Thereisonlyonedifferencebetweenalonglifeandagooddinner:that,inthedinner,thesweetscomelast。’Oroncemore:

  ’WhenIwasaboy,Iwasabitpuzzled,andhardlyknewwhetheritwasmyselfortheworldthatwascuriousandworthlookinginto。

  Now,Iknowitismyself,andsticktothat。’

  Henevershowedanysymptomoffrailty,butkeptstalwartandfirmtothelast。buttheysayhegrewlesstalkativetowardstheend,andwouldlistentootherpeoplebythehourinanamusedandsympatheticsilence。Only,whenhedidspeak,itwasmoretothepointandmorechargedwitholdexperience。Hedrankabottleofwinegladly。aboveall,atsunsetonthehill-toporquitelateatnightunderthestarsinthearbour。Thesightofsomethingattractiveandunatttainableseasonedhisenjoyment,hewouldsay。

  andheprofessedhehadlivedlongenoughtoadmireacandleallthemorewhenhecouldcompareitwithaplanet。

  Onenight,inhisseventy-secondyear,heawokeinbedinsuchuneasinessofbodyandmindthathearoseanddressedhimselfandwentouttomeditateinthearbour。Itwaspitchdark,withoutastar。theriverwasswollen,andthewetwoodsandmeadowsloadedtheairwithperfume。Ithadthunderedduringtheday,anditpromisedmorethunderforthemorrow。Amurky,stiflingnightforamanofseventy-two!Whetheritwastheweatherorthewakefulness,orsomelittletouchoffeverinhisoldlimbs,Will’smindwasbesiegedbytumultuousandcryingmemories。Hisboyhood,thenightwiththefatyoungman,thedeathofhisadoptedparents,thesummerdayswithMarjory,andmanyofthosesmallcircumstances,whichseemnothingtoanother,andareyettheverygistofaman’sownlifetohimself-thingsseen,wordsheard,looksmisconstrued-arosefromtheirforgottencornersandusurpedhisattention。Thedeadthemselveswerewithhim,notmerelytakingpartinthisthinshowofmemorythatdefiledbeforehisbrain,butrevisitinghisbodilysensesastheydoinprofoundandvividdreams。Thefatyoungmanleanedhiselbowsonthetableopposite。Marjorycameandwentwithanapronfulofflowersbetweenthegardenandthearbour。hecouldheartheoldparsonknockingouthispipeorblowinghisresonantnose。Thetideofhisconsciousnessebbedandflowed:hewassometimeshalf-asleepanddrownedinhisrecollectionsofthepast。andsometimeshewasbroadawake,wonderingathimself。Butaboutthemiddleofthenighthewasstartledbythevoiceofthedeadmillercallingtohimoutofthehouseasheusedtodoonthearrivalofcustom。

  ThehallucinationwassoperfectthatWillsprangfromhisseatandstoodlisteningforthesummonstoberepeated。andashelistenedhebecameconsciousofanothernoisebesidesthebrawlingoftheriverandtheringinginhisfeverishears。Itwaslikethestirofhorsesandthecreakingofharness,asthoughacarriagewithanimpatientteamhadbeenbroughtupupontheroadbeforethecourtyardgate。Atsuchanhour,uponthisroughanddangerouspass,thesuppositionwasnobetterthanabsurd。andWilldismisseditfromhismind,andresumedhisseatuponthearbourchair。andsleepclosedoverhimagainlikerunningwater。Hewasonceagainawakenedbythedeadmiller’scall,thinnerandmorespectralthanbefore。andonceagainheheardthenoiseofanequipageupontheroad。Andsothriceandfourtimes,thesamedream,orthesamefancy,presenteditselftohissenses:untilatlength,smilingtohimselfaswhenonehumoursanervouschild,heproceededtowardsthegatetosethisuncertaintyatrest。

  Fromthearbourtothegatewasnogreatdistance,andyetittookWillsometime。itseemedasifthedeadthickenedaroundhiminthecourt,andcrossedhispathateverystep。For,first,hewassuddenlysurprisedbyanoverpoweringsweetnessofheliotropes。itwasasifhisgardenhadbeenplantedwiththisflowerfromendtoend,andthehot,dampnighthaddrawnforthalltheirperfumesinabreath。NowtheheliotropehadbeenMarjory’sfavouriteflower,andsinceherdeathnotoneofthemhadeverbeenplantedinWill’sground。

  ’Imustbegoingcrazy,’hethought。’PoorMarjoryandherheliotropes!’

  Andwiththatheraisedhiseyestowardsthewindowthathadoncebeenhers。Ifhehadbeenbewilderedbefore,hewasnowalmostterrified。fortherewasalightintheroom。thewindowwasanorangeoblongasofyore。andthecorneroftheblindwasliftedandletfallasonthenightwhenhestoodandshoutedtothestarsinhisperplexity。Theillusiononlyenduredaninstant。butitlefthimsomewhatunmanned,rubbinghiseyesandstaringattheoutlineofthehouseandtheblacknightbehindit。Whilehethusstood,anditseemedasifhemusthavestoodtherequitealongtime,therecamearenewalofthenoisesontheroad:andheturnedintimetomeetastranger,whowasadvancingtomeethimacrossthecourt。Therewassomethingliketheoutlineofagreatcarriagediscernibleontheroadbehindthestranger,and,abovethat,afewblackpine-tops,likesomanyplumes。

  ’MasterWill?’askedthenew-comer,inbriefmilitaryfashion。

  ’Thatsame,sir,’answeredWill。’CanIdoanythingtoserveyou?’

  ’Ihaveheardyoumuchspokenof,MasterWill,’returnedtheother。

  ’muchspokenof,andwell。AndthoughIhavebothhandsfullofbusiness,Iwishtodrinkabottleofwinewithyouinyourarbour。

  BeforeIgo,Ishallintroducemyself。’

  Willledthewaytothetrellis,andgotalamplightedandabottleuncorked。Hewasnotaltogetherunusedtosuchcomplimentaryinterviews,andhopedlittleenoughfromthisone,beingschooledbymanydisappointments。Asortofcloudhadsettledonhiswitsandpreventedhimfromrememberingthestrangenessofthehour。Hemovedlikeapersoninhissleep。anditseemedasifthelampcaughtfireandthebottlecameuncorkedwiththefacilityofthought。Still,hehadsomecuriosityabouttheappearanceofhisvisitor,andtriedinvaintoturnthelightintohisface。eitherhehandledthelampclumsily,ortherewasadimnessoverhiseyes。buthecouldmakeoutlittlemorethanashadowattablewithhim。Hestaredandstaredatthisshadow,ashewipedouttheglasses,andbegantofeelcoldandstrangeabouttheheart。Thesilenceweigheduponhim,forhecouldhearnothingnow,noteventheriver,butthedrummingofhisownarteriesinhisears。

  ’Here’stoyou,’saidthestranger,roughly。

  ’Hereismyservice,sir,’repliedWill,sippinghiswine,whichsomehowtastedoddly。

  ’Iunderstandyouareaverypositivefellow,’pursuedthestranger。

  Willmadeanswerwithasmileofsomesatisfactionandalittlenod。

  ’SoamI,’continuedtheother。’anditisthedelightofmyhearttotramponpeople’scorns。Iwillhavenobodypositivebutmyself。notone。Ihavecrossedthewhims,inmytime,ofkingsandgeneralsandgreatartists。Andwhatwouldyousay,’hewenton,’ifIhadcomeuphereonpurposetocrossyours?’

  Willhaditonhistonguetomakeasharprejoinder。butthepolitenessofanoldinnkeeperprevailed。andheheldhispeaceandmadeanswerwithacivilgestureofthehand。

  ’Ihave,’saidthestranger。’AndifIdidnotholdyouinaparticularesteem,Ishouldmakenowordsaboutthematter。Itappearsyouprideyourselfonstayingwhereyouare。Youmeantostickbyyourinn。NowImeanyoushallcomeforaturnwithmeinmybarouche。andbeforethisbottle’sempty,soyoushall。’

  ’Thatwouldbeanoddthing,tobesure,’repliedWill,withachuckle。’Why,sir,Ihavegrownherelikeanoldoak-tree。theDevilhimselfcouldhardlyrootmeup:andforallIperceiveyouareaveryentertainingoldgentleman,Iwouldwageryouanotherbottleyouloseyourpainswithme。’

  ThedimnessofWill’seyesighthadbeenincreasingallthiswhile。

  buthewassomehowconsciousofasharpandchillingscrutinywhichirritatedandyetovermasteredhim。

  ’Youneednotthink,’hebrokeoutsuddenly,inanexplosive,febrilemannerthatstartledandalarmedhimself,’thatIamastay-at-home,becauseIfearanythingunderGod。GodknowsIamtiredenoughofitall。andwhenthetimecomesforalongerjourneythaneveryoudreamof,IreckonIshallfindmyselfprepared。’

  Thestrangeremptiedhisglassandpusheditawayfromhim。Helookeddownforalittle,andthen,leaningoverthetable,tappedWillthreetimesupontheforearmwithasinglefinger。’Thetimehascome!’hesaidsolemnly。

  Anuglythrillspreadfromthespothetouched。Thetonesofhisvoiceweredullandstartling,andechoedstrangelyinWill’sheart。

  ’Ibegyourpardon,’hesaid,withsomediscomposure。’Whatdoyoumean?’

  ’Lookatme,andyouwillfindyoureyesightswim。Raiseyourhand。itisdead-heavy。Thisisyourlastbottleofwine,MasterWill,andyourlastnightupontheearth。’

  ’Youareadoctor?’quaveredWill。

  ’Thebestthateverwas,’repliedtheother。’forIcurebothmindandbodywiththesameprescription。ItakeawayallplainandI

  forgiveallsins。andwheremypatientshavegonewronginlife,I

  smoothoutallcomplicationsandsetthemfreeagainupontheirfeet。’

  ’Ihavenoneedofyou,’saidWill。

  ’Atimecomesforallmen,MasterWill,’repliedthedoctor,’whenthehelmistakenoutoftheirhands。Foryou,becauseyouwereprudentandquiet,ithasbeenlongofcoming,andyouhavehadlongtodisciplineyourselfforitsreception。Youhaveseenwhatistobeseenaboutyourmill。youhavesatcloseallyourdayslikeahareinitsform。butnowthatisatanend。and,’addedthedoctor,gettingonhisfeet,’youmustariseandcomewithme。’

  ’Youareastrangephysician,’saidWill,lookingsteadfastlyuponhisguest。

  ’Iamanaturallaw,’hereplied,’andpeoplecallmeDeath。’

  ’Whydidyounottellmesoatfirst?’criedWill。’Ihavebeenwaitingforyouthesemanyyears。Givemeyourhand,andwelcome。’

  ’Leanuponmyarm,’saidthestranger,’foralreadyyourstrengthabates。Leanonmeasheavilyasyouneed。forthoughIamold,I

  amverystrong。Itisbutthreestepstomycarriage,andthereallyourtroubleends。Why,Will,’headded,’Ihavebeenyearningforyouasifyouweremyownson。andofallthementhateverI

  cameforinmylongdays,Ihavecomeforyoumostgladly。Iamcaustic,andsometimesoffendpeopleatfirstsight。butIamagoodfriendathearttosuchasyou。’

  ’SinceMarjorywastaken,’returnedWill,’IdeclarebeforeGodyouweretheonlyfriendIhadtolookfor。’Sothepairwentarm-in-

  armacrossthecourtyard。

  Oneoftheservantsawokeaboutthistimeandheardthenoiseofhorsespawingbeforehedroppedasleepagain。alldownthevalleythatnighttherewasarushingasofasmoothandsteadywinddescendingtowardstheplain。andwhentheworldrosenextmorning,sureenoughWillo’theMillhadgoneatlastuponhistravels。

  MARKHEIM

  ’YES,’saidthedealer,’ourwindfallsareofvariouskinds。Somecustomersareignorant,andthenItouchadividendonmysuperiorknowledge。Somearedishonest,’andhereheheldupthecandle,sothatthelightfellstronglyonhisvisitor,’andinthatcase,’hecontinued,’Iprofitbymyvirtue。’

  Markheimhadbutjustenteredfromthedaylightstreets,andhiseyeshadnotyetgrownfamiliarwiththemingledshineanddarknessintheshop。Atthesepointedwords,andbeforethenearpresenceoftheflame,heblinkedpainfullyandlookedaside。

  Thedealerchuckled。’YoucometomeonChristmasDay,’heresumed,’whenyouknowthatIamaloneinmyhouse,putupmyshutters,andmakeapointofrefusingbusiness。Well,youwillhavetopayforthat。youwillhavetopayformylossoftime,whenIshouldbebalancingmybooks。youwillhavetopay,besides,forakindofmannerthatIremarkinyouto-dayverystrongly。I

  amtheessenceofdiscretion,andasknoawkwardquestions。butwhenacustomercannotlookmeintheeye,hehastopayforit。’

  Thedealeroncemorechuckled。andthen,changingtohisusualbusinessvoice,thoughstillwithanoteofirony,’Youcangive,asusual,aclearaccountofhowyoucameintothepossessionoftheobject?’hecontinued。’Stillyouruncle’scabinet?A

  remarkablecollector,sir!’

  Andthelittlepale,round-shouldereddealerstoodalmostontip-

  toe,lookingoverthetopofhisgoldspectacles,andnoddinghisheadwitheverymarkofdisbelief。Markheimreturnedhisgazewithoneofinfinitepity,andatouchofhorror。

  ’Thistime,’saidhe,’youareinerror。Ihavenotcometosell,buttobuy。Ihavenocuriostodisposeof。myuncle’scabinetisbaretothewainscot。evenwereitstillintact,IhavedonewellontheStockExchange,andshouldmorelikelyaddtoitthanotherwise,andmyerrandto-dayissimplicityitself。IseekaChristmaspresentforalady,’hecontinued,waxingmorefluentashestruckintothespeechhehadprepared。’andcertainlyIoweyoueveryexcuseforthusdisturbingyouuponsosmallamatter。Butthethingwasneglectedyesterday。Imustproducemylittlecomplimentatdinner。and,asyouverywellknow,arichmarriageisnotathingtobeneglected。’

  Therefollowedapause,duringwhichthedealerseemedtoweighthisstatementincredulously。Thetickingofmanyclocksamongthecuriouslumberoftheshop,andthefaintrushingofthecabsinanearthoroughfare,filleduptheintervalofsilence。

  ’Well,sir,’saidthedealer,’beitso。Youareanoldcustomerafterall。andif,asyousay,youhavethechanceofagoodmarriage,farbeitfrommetobeanobstacle。Hereisanicethingforaladynow,’hewenton,’thishandglass-fifteenthcentury,warranted。comesfromagoodcollection,too。butI

  reservethename,intheinterestsofmycustomer,whowasjustlikeyourself,mydearsir,thenephewandsoleheirofaremarkablecollector。’

  Thedealer,whilehethusranoninhisdryandbitingvoice,hadstoopedtotaketheobjectfromitsplace。and,ashehaddoneso,ashockhadpassedthroughMarkheim,astartbothofhandandfoot,asuddenleapofmanytumultuouspassionstotheface。Itpassedasswiftlyasitcame,andleftnotracebeyondacertaintremblingofthehandthatnowreceivedtheglass。

  ’Aglass,’hesaidhoarsely,andthenpaused,andrepeateditmoreclearly。’Aglass?ForChristmas?Surelynot?’

  ’Andwhynot?’criedthedealer。’Whynotaglass?’

  Markheimwaslookinguponhimwithanindefinableexpression。’Youaskmewhynot?’hesaid。’Why,lookhere-lookinit-lookatyourself!Doyouliketoseeit?No!norI-noranyman。’

  ThelittlemanhadjumpedbackwhenMarkheimhadsosuddenlyconfrontedhimwiththemirror。butnow,perceivingtherewasnothingworseonhand,hechuckled。’Yourfuturelady,sir,mustbeprettyhardfavoured,’saidhe。

  ’Iaskyou,’saidMarkheim,’foraChristmaspresent,andyougivemethis-thisdamnedreminderofyears,andsinsandfollies-

  thishand-conscience!Didyoumeanit?Hadyouathoughtinyourmind?Tellme。Itwillbebetterforyouifyoudo。Come,tellmeaboutyourself。Ihazardaguessnow,thatyouareinsecretaverycharitableman?’

  Thedealerlookedcloselyathiscompanion。Itwasveryodd,Markheimdidnotappeartobelaughing。therewassomethinginhisfacelikeaneagersparkleofhope,butnothingofmirth。

  ’Whatareyoudrivingat?’thedealerasked。

  ’Notcharitable?’returnedtheother,gloomily。Notcharitable。

  notpious。notscrupulous。unloving,unbeloved。ahandtogetmoney,asafetokeepit。Isthatall?DearGod,man,isthatall?’

  ’Iwilltellyouwhatitis,’beganthedealer,withsomesharpness,andthenbrokeoffagainintoachuckle。’ButIseethisisalovematchofyours,andyouhavebeendrinkingthelady’shealth。’

  ’Ah!’criedMarkheim,withastrangecuriosity。’Ah,haveyoubeeninlove?Tellmeaboutthat。’

  ’I,’criedthedealer。’Iinlove!Ineverhadthetime,norhaveIthetimeto-dayforallthisnonsense。Willyoutaketheglass?’

  ’Whereisthehurry?’returnedMarkheim。’Itisverypleasanttostandheretalking。andlifeissoshortandinsecurethatIwouldnothurryawayfromanypleasure-no,notevenfromsomildaoneasthis。Weshouldrathercling,clingtowhatlittlewecanget,likeamanatacliff’sedge。Everysecondisacliff,ifyouthinkuponit-acliffamilehigh-highenough,ifwefall,todashusoutofeveryfeatureofhumanity。Henceitisbesttotalkpleasantly。Letustalkofeachother:whyshouldwewearthismask?Letusbeconfidential。Whoknows,wemightbecomefriends?’

  ’Ihavejustonewordtosaytoyou,’saidthedealer。’Eithermakeyourpurchase,orwalkoutofmyshop!’

  ’Truetrue,’saidMarkheim。’Enough,fooling。Tobusiness。Showmesomethingelse。’

  Thedealerstoopedoncemore,thistimetoreplacetheglassupontheshelf,histhinblondhairfallingoverhiseyesashedidso。

  Markheimmovedalittlenearer,withonehandinthepocketofhisgreatcoat。hedrewhimselfupandfilledhislungs。atthesametimemanydifferentemotionsweredepictedtogetheronhisface-

  terror,horror,andresolve,fascinationandaphysicalrepulsion。

  andthroughahaggardliftofhisupperlip,histeethlookedout。

  ’This,perhaps,maysuit,’observedthedealer:andthen,ashebegantore-arise,Markheimboundedfrombehinduponhisvictim。

  Thelong,skewerlikedaggerflashedandfell。Thedealerstruggledlikeahen,strikinghistempleontheshelf,andthentumbledonthefloorinaheap。

  Timehadsomescoreofsmallvoicesinthatshop,somestatelyandslowaswasbecomingtotheirgreatage。othersgarrulousandhurried。Allthesetoldoutthesecondsinanintricate,chorusoftickings。Thenthepassageofalad’sfeet,heavilyrunningonthepavement,brokeinuponthesesmallervoicesandstartledMarkheimintotheconsciousnessofhissurroundings。Helookedabouthimawfully。Thecandlestoodonthecounter,itsflamesolemnlywagginginadraught。andbythatinconsiderablemovement,thewholeroomwasfilledwithnoiselessbustleandkeptheavinglikeasea:thetallshadowsnodding,thegrossblotsofdarknessswellinganddwindlingaswithrespiration,thefacesoftheportraitsandthechinagodschangingandwaveringlikeimagesinwater。Theinnerdoorstoodajar,andpeeredintothatleaguerofshadowswithalongslitofdaylightlikeapointingfinger。

  Fromthesefear-strickenrovings,Markheim’seyesreturnedtothebodyofhisvictim,whereitlaybothhumpedandsprawling,incrediblysmallandstrangelymeanerthaninlife。Inthesepoor,miserlyclothes,inthatungainlyattitude,thedealerlaylikesomuchsawdust。Markheimhadfearedtoseeit,and,lo!itwasnothing。Andyet,ashegazed,thisbundleofoldclothesandpoolofbloodbegantofindeloquentvoices。Thereitmustlie。therewasnonetoworkthecunninghingesordirectthemiracleoflocomotion-thereitmustlietillitwasfound。Found!ay,andthen?ThenwouldthisdeadfleshliftupacrythatwouldringoverEngland,andfilltheworldwiththeechoesofpursuit。Ay,deadornot,thiswasstilltheenemy。’Timewasthatwhenthebrainswereout,’hethought。andthefirstwordstruckintohismind。Time,nowthatthedeedwasaccomplished-time,whichhadclosedforthevictim,hadbecomeinstantandmomentousfortheslayer。

  Thethoughtwasyetinhismind,when,firstoneandthenanother,witheveryvarietyofpaceandvoice-onedeepasthebellfromacathedralturret,anotherringingonitstreblenotesthepreludeofawaltz-theclocksbegantostrikethehourofthreeintheafternoon。

  Thesuddenoutbreakofsomanytonguesinthatdumbchamberstaggeredhim。Hebegantobestirhimself,goingtoandfrowiththecandle,beleagueredbymovingshadows,andstartledtothesoulbychancereflections。Inmanyrichmirrors,someofhomedesign,somefromVeniceorAmsterdam,hesawhisfacerepeatedandrepeated,asitwereanarmyofspies。hisowneyesmetanddetectedhim。andthesoundofhisownsteps,lightlyastheyfell,vexedthesurroundingquiet。Andstill,ashecontinuedtofillhispockets,hismindaccusedhimwithasickeningiteration,ofthethousandfaultsofhisdesign。Heshouldhavechosenamorequiethour。heshouldhavepreparedanalibi。heshouldnothaveusedaknife。heshouldhavebeenmorecautious,andonlyboundandgaggedthedealer,andnotkilledhim。heshouldhavebeenmorebold,andkilledtheservantalso。heshouldhavedoneallthingsotherwise:poignantregrets,weary,incessanttoilingofthemindtochangewhatwasunchangeable,toplanwhatwasnowuseless,tobethearchitectoftheirrevocablepast。Meanwhile,andbehindallthisactivity,bruteterrors,likethescurryingofratsinadesertedattic,filledthemoreremotechambersofhisbrainwithriot。thehandoftheconstablewouldfallheavyonhisshoulder,andhisnerveswouldjerklikeahookedfish。orhebeheld,ingallopingdefile,thedock,theprison,thegallows,andtheblackcoffin。

  Terrorofthepeopleinthestreetsatdownbeforehismindlikeabesiegingarmy。Itwasimpossible,hethought,butthatsomerumourofthestrugglemusthavereachedtheirearsandsetonedgetheircuriosity。andnow,inalltheneighbouringhouses,hedivinedthemsittingmotionlessandwithupliftedear-solitarypeople,condemnedtospendChristmasdwellingaloneonmemoriesofthepast,andnowstartinglyrecalledfromthattenderexercise。

  happyfamilypartiesstruckintosilenceroundthetable,themotherstillwithraisedfinger:everydegreeandageandhumour,butall,bytheirownhearths,pryingandhearkeningandweavingtheropethatwastohanghim。Sometimesitseemedtohimhecouldnotmovetoosoftly。theclinkofthetallBohemiangobletsrangoutloudlylikeabell。andalarmedbythebignessoftheticking,hewastemptedtostoptheclocks。Andthen,again,withaswifttransitionofhisterrors,theverysilenceoftheplaceappearedasourceofperil,andathingtostrikeandfreezethepasser-by。

  andhewouldstepmoreboldly,andbustlealoudamongthecontentsoftheshop,andimitate,withelaboratebravado,themovementsofabusymanateaseinhisownhouse。

  Buthewasnowsopulledaboutbydifferentalarmsthat,whileoneportionofhismindwasstillalertandcunning,anothertrembledonthebrinkoflunacy。Onehallucinationinparticulartookastrongholdonhiscredulity。Theneighbourhearkeningwithwhitefacebesidehiswindow,thepasser-byarrestedbyahorriblesurmiseonthepavement-thesecouldatworstsuspect,theycouldnotknow。throughthebrickwallsandshutteredwindowsonlysoundscouldpenetrate。Buthere,withinthehouse,washealone?Heknewhewas。hehadwatchedtheservantsetforthsweet-hearting,inherpoorbest,’outfortheday’writtenineveryribbonandsmile。Yes,hewasalone,ofcourse。andyet,inthebulkofemptyhouseabovehim,hecouldsurelyhearastirofdelicatefooting-

  hewassurelyconscious,inexplicablyconsciousofsomepresence。

  Ay,surely。toeveryroomandcornerofthehousehisimaginationfollowedit。andnowitwasafacelessthing,andyethadeyestoseewith。andagainitwasashadowofhimself。andyetagainbeholdtheimageofthedeaddealer,reinspiredwithcunningandhatred。

  Attimes,withastrongeffort,hewouldglanceattheopendoorwhichstillseemedtorepelhiseyes。Thehousewastall,theskylightsmallanddirty,thedayblindwithfog。andthelightthatfiltereddowntothegroundstorywasexceedinglyfaint,andshoweddimlyonthethresholdoftheshop。Andyet,inthatstripofdoubtfulbrightness,didtherenothangwaveringashadow?

  Suddenly,fromthestreetoutside,averyjovialgentlemanbegantobeatwithastaffontheshop-door,accompanyinghisblowswithshoutsandrailleriesinwhichthedealerwascontinuallycalleduponbyname。Markheim,smittenintoice,glancedatthedeadman。

  Butno!helayquitestill。hewasfledawayfarbeyondearshotoftheseblowsandshoutings。hewassunkbeneathseasofsilence。andhisname,whichwouldoncehavecaughthisnoticeabovethehowlingofastorm,hadbecomeanemptysound。Andpresentlythejovialgentlemandesistedfromhisknocking,anddeparted。

  Herewasabroadhinttohurrywhatremainedtobedone,togetforthfromthisaccusingneighbourhood,toplungeintoabathofLondonmultitudes,andtoreach,ontheothersideofday,thathavenofsafetyandapparentinnocence-hisbed。Onevisitorhadcome:atanymomentanothermightfollowandbemoreobstinate。Tohavedonethedeed,andyetnottoreaptheprofit,wouldbetooabhorrentafailure。Themoney,thatwasnowMarkheim’sconcern。

  andasameanstothat,thekeys。

  Heglancedoverhisshoulderattheopendoor,wheretheshadowwasstilllingeringandshivering。andwithnoconsciousrepugnanceofthemind,yetwithatremorofthebelly,hedrewnearthebodyofhisvictim。Thehumancharacterhadquitedeparted。Likeasuithalf-stuffedwithbran,thelimbslayscattered,thetrunkdoubled,onthefloor。andyetthethingrepelledhim。Althoughsodingyandinconsiderabletotheeye,hefeareditmighthavemoresignificancetothetouch。Hetookthebodybytheshoulders,andturneditonitsback。Itwasstrangelylightandsupple,andthelimbs,asiftheyhadbeenbroken,fellintotheoddestpostures。

  Thefacewasrobbedofallexpression。butitwasaspaleaswax,andshockinglysmearedwithbloodaboutonetemple。Thatwas,forMarkheim,theonedispleasingcircumstance。Itcarriedhimback,upontheinstant,toacertainfair-dayinafishers’village:agrayday,apipingwind,acrowduponthestreet,theblareofbrasses,theboomingofdrums,thenasalvoiceofaballadsinger。

  andaboygoingtoandfro,buriedoverheadinthecrowdanddividedbetweeninterestandfear,until,comingoutuponthechiefplaceofconcourse,hebeheldaboothandagreatscreenwithpictures,dismallydesigned,garishlycoloured:Brown-riggwithherapprentice。theManningswiththeirmurderedguest。Weareinthedeath-gripofThurtell。andascorebesidesoffamouscrimes。Thethingwasasclearasanillusion。hewasonceagainthatlittleboy。hewaslookingonceagain,andwiththesamesenseofphysicalrevolt,atthesevilepictures。hewasstillstunnedbythethumpingofthedrums。Abarofthatday’smusicreturneduponhismemory。andatthat,forthefirsttime,aqualmcameoverhim,abreathofnausea,asuddenweaknessofthejoints,whichhemustinstantlyresistandconquer。

  Hejudgeditmoreprudenttoconfrontthantofleefromtheseconsiderations。lookingthemorehardilyinthedeadface,bendinghismindtorealisethenatureandgreatnessofhiscrime。Solittleawhileagothatfacehadmovedwitheverychangeofsentiment,thatpalemouthhadspoken,thatbodyhadbeenallonfirewithgovernableenergies。andnow,andbyhisact,thatpieceoflifehadbeenarrested,asthehorologist,withinterjectedfinger,arreststhebeatingoftheclock。Sohereasonedinvain。

  hecouldrisetonomoreremorsefulconsciousness。thesameheartwhichhadshudderedbeforethepaintedeffigiesofcrime,lookedonitsrealityunmoved。Atbest,hefeltagleamofpityforonewhohadbeenendowedinvainwithallthosefacultiesthatcanmaketheworldagardenofenchantment,onewhohadneverlivedandwhowasnowdead。Butofpenitence,no,notatremor。

  Withthat,shakinghimselfclearoftheseconsiderations,hefoundthekeysandadvancedtowardstheopendooroftheshop。Outside,ithadbeguntorainsmartly。andthesoundoftheshowerupontheroofhadbanishedsilence。Likesomedrippingcavern,thechambersofthehousewerehauntedbyanincessantechoing,whichfilledtheearandmingledwiththetickingoftheclocks。And,asMarkheimapproachedthedoor,heseemedtohear,inanswertohisowncautioustread,thestepsofanotherfootwithdrawingupthestair。

  Theshadowstillpalpitatedlooselyonthethreshold。Hethrewaton’sweightofresolveuponhismuscles,anddrewbackthedoor。

  Thefaint,foggydaylightglimmereddimlyonthebarefloorandstairs。onthebrightsuitofarmourposted,halbertinhand,uponthelanding。andonthedarkwood-carvings,andframedpicturesthathungagainsttheyellowpanelsofthewainscot。Soloudwasthebeatingoftherainthroughallthehousethat,inMarkheim’sears,itbegantobedistinguishedintomanydifferentsounds。

  Footstepsandsighs,thetreadofregimentsmarchinginthedistance,thechinkofmoneyinthecounting,andthecreakingofdoorsheldstealthilyajar,appearedtominglewiththepatterofthedropsuponthecupolaandthegushingofthewaterinthepipes。Thesensethathewasnotalonegrewuponhimtothevergeofmadness。Oneverysidehewashauntedandbegirtbypresences。

  Heheardthemmovingintheupperchambers。fromtheshop,heheardthedeadmangettingtohislegs。andashebeganwithagreatefforttomountthestairs,feetfledquietlybeforehimandfollowedstealthilybehind。Ifhewerebutdeaf,hethought,howtranquillyhewouldpossesshissoul!Andthenagain,andhearkeningwitheverfreshattention,heblessedhimselfforthatunrestingsensewhichheldtheoutpostsandstoodatrustysentineluponhislife。Hisheadturnedcontinuallyonhisneck。hiseyes,whichseemedstartingfromtheirorbits,scoutedoneveryside,andoneverysidewerehalf-rewardedaswiththetailofsomethingnamelessvanishing。Thefour-and-twentystepstothefirstfloorwerefour-and-twentyagonies。

  Onthatfirststorey,thedoorsstoodajar,threeofthemlikethreeambushes,shakinghisnerveslikethethroatsofcannon。Hecouldneveragain,hefelt,besufficientlyimmuredandfortifiedfrommen’sobservingeyes,helongedtobehome,girtinbywalls,buriedamongbedclothes,andinvisibletoallbutGod。Andatthatthoughthewonderedalittle,recollectingtalesofothermurderersandthefeartheyweresaidtoentertainofheavenlyavengers。Itwasnotso,atleast,withhim。Hefearedthelawsofnature,lest,intheircallousandimmutableprocedure,theyshouldpreservesomedamningevidenceofhiscrime。Hefearedtenfoldmore,withaslavish,superstitionsterror,somescissioninthecontinuityofman’sexperience,somewilfulillegalityofnature。

  Heplayedagameofskill,dependingontherules,calculatingconsequencefromcause。andwhatifnature,asthedefeatedtyrantoverthrewthechess-board,shouldbreakthemouldoftheirsuccession?ThelikehadbefallenNapoleonsowriterssaidwhenthewinterchangedthetimeofitsappearance。ThelikemightbefallMarkheim:thesolidwallsmightbecometransparentandrevealhisdoingslikethoseofbeesinaglasshive。thestoutplanksmightyieldunderhisfootlikequicksandsanddetainhimintheirclutch。ay,andthereweresobereraccidentsthatmightdestroyhim:if,forinstance,thehouseshouldfallandimprisonhimbesidethebodyofhisvictim。orthehousenextdoorshouldflyonfire,andthefiremeninvadehimfromallsides。Thesethingshefeared。and,inasense,thesethingsmightbecalledthehandsofGodreachedforthagainstsin。ButaboutGodhimselfhewasatease。hisactwasdoubtlessexceptional,butsowerehisexcuses,whichGodknew。itwasthere,andnotamongmen,thathefeltsureofjustice。

  Whenhehadgotsafeintothedrawing-room,andshutthedoorbehindhim,hewasawareofarespitefromalarms。Theroomwasquitedismantled,uncarpetedbesides,andstrewnwithpackingcasesandincongruousfurniture。severalgreatpier-glasses,inwhichhebeheldhimselfatvariousangles,likeanactoronastage。manypictures,framedandunframed,standing,withtheirfacestothewall。afineSheratonsideboard,acabinetofmarquetry,andagreatoldbed,withtapestryhangings。Thewindowsopenedtothefloor。butbygreatgoodfortunethelowerpartoftheshuttershadbeenclosed,andthisconcealedhimfromtheneighbours。Here,then,Markheimdrewinapackingcasebeforethecabinet,andbegantosearchamongthekeys。Itwasalongbusiness,forthereweremany。anditwasirksome,besides。for,afterall,theremightbenothinginthecabinet,andtimewasonthewing。Buttheclosenessoftheoccupationsoberedhim。Withthetailofhiseyehesawthedoor-evenglancedatitfromtimetotimedirectly,likeabesiegedcommanderpleasedtoverifythegoodestateofhisdefences。Butintruthhewasatpeace。Therainfallinginthestreetsoundednaturalandpleasant。Presently,ontheotherside,thenotesofapianowerewakenedtothemusicofahymn,andthevoicesofmanychildrentookuptheairandwords。Howstately,howcomfortablewasthemelody!Howfreshtheyouthfulvoices!

  Markheimgaveeartoitsmilingly,ashesortedoutthekeys。andhismindwasthrongedwithanswerableideasandimages。church-

  goingchildrenandthepealingofthehighorgan。childrenafield,bathersbythebrookside,ramblersonthebramblycommon,kite-

  flyersinthewindyandcloud-navigatedsky。andthen,atanothercadenceofthehymn,backagaintochurch,andthesomnolenceofsummerSundays,andthehighgenteelvoiceoftheparsonwhichhesmiledalittletorecallandthepaintedJacobeantombs,andthedimletteringoftheTenCommandmentsinthechancel。

  Andashesatthus,atoncebusyandabsent,hewasstartledtohisfeet。Aflashofice,aflashoffire,aburstinggushofblood,wentoverhim,andthenhestoodtransfixedandthrilling。Astepmountedthestairslowlyandsteadily,andpresentlyahandwaslaidupontheknob,andthelockclicked,andthedooropened。

  FearheldMarkheiminavice。Whattoexpectheknewnot,whetherthedeadmanwalking,ortheofficialministersofhumanjustice,orsomechancewitnessblindlystumblingintoconsignhimtothegallows。Butwhenafacewasthrustintotheaperture,glancedroundtheroom,lookedathim,noddedandsmiledasifinfriendlyrecognition,andthenwithdrewagain,andthedoorclosedbehindit,hisfearbrokeloosefromhiscontrolinahoarsecry。Atthesoundofthisthevisitantreturned。

  ’Didyoucallme?’heasked,pleasantly,andwiththatheenteredtheroomandclosedthedoorbehindhim。

  Markheimstoodandgazedathimwithallhiseyes。Perhapstherewasafilmuponhissight,buttheoutlinesofthenewcomerseemedtochangeandwaverlikethoseoftheidolsinthewaveringcandle-

  lightoftheshop。andattimeshethoughtheknewhim。andattimeshethoughtheborealikenesstohimself。andalways,likealumpoflivingterror,therelayinhisbosomtheconvictionthatthisthingwasnotoftheearthandnotofGod。

  Andyetthecreaturehadastrangeairofthecommonplace,ashestoodlookingonMarkheimwithasmile。andwhenheadded:’Youarelookingforthemoney,Ibelieve?’itwasinthetonesofeverydaypoliteness。

  Markheimmadenoanswer。

  ’Ishouldwarnyou,’resumedtheother,’thatthemaidhaslefthersweetheartearlierthanusualandwillsoonbehere。IfMr。

  Markheimbefoundinthishouse,Ineednotdescribetohimtheconsequences。’

  ’Youknowme?’criedthemurderer。

  Thevisitorsmiled。’Youhavelongbeenafavouriteofmine,’hesaid。’andIhavelongobservedandoftensoughttohelpyou。’

  ’Whatareyou?’criedMarkheim:’thedevil?’

  ’WhatImaybe,’returnedtheother,’cannotaffecttheserviceI

  proposetorenderyou。’

  ’Itcan,’criedMarkheim。’itdoes!Behelpedbyyou?No,never。

  notbyyou!Youdonotknowmeyet。thankGod,youdonotknowme!’

  ’Iknowyou,’repliedthevisitant,withasortofkindseverityorratherfirmness。’Iknowyoutothesoul。’

  ’Knowme!’criedMarkheim。’Whocandoso?Mylifeisbutatravestyandslanderonmyself。Ihavelivedtobeliemynature。

  Allmendo。allmenarebetterthanthisdisguisethatgrowsaboutandstiflesthem。Youseeeachdraggedawaybylife,likeonewhombravoshaveseizedandmuffledinacloak。Iftheyhadtheirowncontrol-ifyoucouldseetheirfaces,theywouldbealtogetherdifferent,theywouldshineoutforheroesandsaints!Iamworsethanmost。myselfismoreoverlaid。myexcuseisknowntomeandGod。But,hadIthetime,Icoulddisclosemyself。’

  ’Tome?’inquiredthevisitant。

  ’Toyoubeforeall,’returnedthemurderer。’Isupposedyouwereintelligent。Ithought-sinceyouexist-youwouldproveareaderoftheheart。Andyetyouwouldproposetojudgemebymyacts!Thinkofit。myacts!IwasbornandIhavelivedinalandofgiants。giantshavedraggedmebythewristssinceIwasbornoutofmymother-thegiantsofcircumstance。Andyouwouldjudgemebymyacts!Butcanyounotlookwithin?Canyounotunderstandthatevilishatefultome?Canyounotseewithinmetheclearwritingofconscience,neverblurredbyanywilfulsophistry,althoughtoooftendisregarded?Canyounotreadmeforathingthatsurelymustbecommonashumanity-theunwillingsinner?’

  ’Allthisisveryfeelinglyexpressed,’wasthereply,’butitregardsmenot。Thesepointsofconsistencyarebeyondmyprovince,andIcarenotintheleastbywhatcompulsionyoumayhavebeendraggedaway,soasyouarebutcarriedintherightdirection。Buttimeflies。theservantdelays,lookinginthefacesofthecrowdandatthepicturesonthehoardings,butstillshekeepsmovingnearer。andremember,itisasifthegallowsitselfwasstridingtowardsyouthroughtheChristmasstreets!

  ShallIhelpyou。I,whoknowall?ShallItellyouwheretofindthemoney?’

  ’Forwhatprice?’askedMarkheim。

  ’IofferyoutheserviceforaChristmasgift,’returnedtheother。

  Markheimcouldnotrefrainfromsmilingwithakindofbittertriumph。’No,’saidhe,’Iwilltakenothingatyourhands。ifI

  weredyingofthirst,anditwasyourhandthatputthepitchertomylips,Ishouldfindthecouragetorefuse。Itmaybecredulous,butIwilldonothingtocommitmyselftoevil。’

  ’Ihavenoobjectiontoadeath-bedrepentance,’observedthevisitant。

  ’Becauseyoudisbelievetheirefficacy!’Markheimcried。

  ’Idonotsayso,’returnedtheother。’butIlookonthesethingsfromadifferentside,andwhenthelifeisdonemyinterestfalls。

  Themanhaslivedtoserveme,tospreadblacklooksundercolourofreligion,ortosowtaresinthewheat-field,asyoudo,inacourseofweakcompliancewithdesire。Nowthathedrawssoneartohisdeliverance,hecanaddbutoneactofservice-torepent,todiesmiling,andthustobuildupinconfidenceandhopethemoretimorousofmysurvivingfollowers。Iamnotsohardamaster。Tryme。Acceptmyhelp。Pleaseyourselfinlifeasyouhavedonehitherto。pleaseyourselfmoreamply,spreadyourelbowsattheboard。andwhenthenightbeginstofallandthecurtainstobedrawn,Itellyou,foryourgreatercomfort,thatyouwillfinditeveneasytocompoundyourquarrelwithyourconscience,andtomakeatrucklingpeacewithGod。Icamebutnowfromsuchadeathbed,andtheroomwasfullofsinceremourners,listeningtotheman’slastwords:andwhenIlookedintothatface,whichhadbeensetasaflintagainstmercy,Ifounditsmilingwithhope。’

  ’Anddoyou,then,supposemesuchacreature?’askedMarkheim。

  ’DoyouthinkIhavenomoregenerousaspirationsthantosin,andsin,andsin,and,atthelast,sneakintoheaven?Myheartrisesatthethought。Isthis,then,yourexperienceofmankind?orisitbecauseyoufindmewithredhandsthatyoupresumesuchbaseness?andisthiscrimeofmurderindeedsoimpiousastodryuptheveryspringsofgood?’

  ’Murderistomenospecialcategory,’repliedtheother。’Allsinsaremurder,evenasalllifeiswar。Ibeholdyourrace,likestarvingmarinersonaraft,pluckingcrustsoutofthehandsoffamineandfeedingoneachother’slives。Ifollowsinsbeyondthemomentoftheiracting。Ifindinallthatthelastconsequenceisdeath。andtomyeyes,theprettymaidwhothwartshermotherwithsuchtakinggracesonaquestionofaball,dripsnolessvisiblywithhumangorethansuchamurdererasyourself。DoIsaythatI

  followsins?Ifollowvirtuesalso。theydiffernotbythethicknessofanail,theyarebothscythesforthereapingangelofDeath。Evil,forwhichIlive,consistsnotinactionbutincharacter。Thebadmanisdeartome。notthebadact,whosefruits,ifwecouldfollowthemfarenoughdownthehurtlingcataractoftheages,mightyetbefoundmoreblessedthanthoseoftherarestvirtues。Anditisnotbecauseyouhavekilledadealer,butbecauseyouareMarkheim,thatIoffertoforwardyourescape。’

  ’Iwilllaymyheartopentoyou,’answeredMarkheim。’Thiscrimeonwhichyoufindmeismylast。OnmywaytoitIhavelearnedmanylessons。itselfisalesson,amomentouslesson。HithertoI

  havebeendrivenwithrevolttowhatIwouldnot。Iwasabond-

  slavetopoverty,drivenandscourged。Therearerobustvirtuesthatcanstandinthesetemptations。minewasnotso:Ihadathirstofpleasure。Butto-day,andoutofthisdeed,Ipluckbothwarningandriches-boththepowerandafreshresolvetobemyself。Ibecomeinallthingsafreeactorintheworld。Ibegintoseemyselfallchanged,thesehandstheagentsofgood,thisheartatpeace。Somethingcomesovermeoutofthepast。somethingofwhatIhavedreamedonSabbatheveningstothesoundofthechurchorgan,ofwhatIforecastwhenIshedtearsovernoblebooks,ortalked,aninnocentchild,withmymother。Thereliesmylife。Ihavewanderedafewyears,butnowIseeoncemoremycityofdestination。’

  ’YouaretousethismoneyontheStockExchange,Ithink?’

  remarkedthevisitor。’andthere,ifImistakenot,youhavealreadylostsomethousands?’

  ’Ah,’saidMarkheim,’butthistimeIhaveasurething。’

  ’Thistime,again,youwilllose,’repliedthevisitorquietly。

  ’Ah,butIkeepbackthehalf!’criedMarkheim。

  ’Thatalsoyouwilllose,’saidtheother。

  ThesweatstarteduponMarkheim’sbrow。’Well,then,whatmatter?’

  heexclaimed。’Sayitbelost,sayIamplungedagaininpoverty,shallonepartofme,andthattheworse,continueuntiltheendtooverridethebetter?Evilandgoodrunstronginme,halingmebothways。Idonotlovetheonething,Iloveall。Icanconceivegreatdeeds,renunciations,martyrdoms。andthoughIbefallentosuchacrimeasmurder,pityisnostrangertomythoughts。Ipitythepoor。whoknowstheirtrialsbetterthanmyself?Ipityandhelpthem。Iprizelove,Ilovehonestlaughter。thereisnogoodthingnortruethingonearthbutIloveitfrommyheart。Andaremyvicesonlytodirectmylife,andmyvirtuestoliewithouteffect,likesomepassivelumberofthemind?Notso。good,also,isaspringofacts。’

  Butthevisitantraisedhisfinger。’Forsix-and-thirtyyearsthatyouhavebeeninthisworld,’saidbe,’throughmanychangesoffortuneandvarietiesofhumour,Ihavewatchedyousteadilyfall。

  Fifteenyearsagoyouwouldhavestartedatatheft。Threeyearsbackyouwouldhaveblenchedatthenameofmurder。Isthereanycrime,isthereanycrueltyormeanness,fromwhichyoustillrecoil?-fiveyearsfromnowIshalldetectyouinthefact!

  Downward,downward,liesyourway。norcananythingbutdeathavailtostopyou。’

  ’Itistrue,’Markheimsaidhuskily,’Ihaveinsomedegreecompliedwithevil。Butitissowithall:theverysaints,inthemereexerciseofliving,growlessdainty,andtakeonthetoneoftheirsurroundings。’

  ’Iwillpropoundtoyouonesimplequestion,’saidtheother。’andasyouanswer,Ishallreadtoyouyourmoralhoroscope。Youhavegrowninmanythingsmorelax。possiblyyoudorighttobeso-andatanyaccount,itisthesamewithallmen。Butgrantingthat,areyouinanyoneparticular,howevertrifling,moredifficulttopleasewithyourownconduct,ordoyougoinallthingswithalooserrein?’

  ’Inanyone?’repeatedMarkheim,withananguishofconsideration。

  ’No,’headded,withdespair,’innone!Ihavegonedowninall。’

  ’Then,’saidthevisitor,’contentyourselfwithwhatyouare,foryouwillneverchange。andthewordsofyourpartonthisstageareirrevocablywrittendown。’

  Markheimstoodforalongwhilesilent,andindeeditwasthevisitorwhofirstbrokethesilence。’Thatbeingso,’hesaid,’shallIshowyouthemoney?’

  ’Andgrace?’criedMarkheim。

  ’Haveyounottriedit?’returnedtheother。’Twoorthreeyearsago,didInotseeyouontheplatformofrevivalmeetings,andwasnotyourvoicetheloudestinthehymn?’

  ’Itistrue,’saidMarkheim。’andIseeclearlywhatremainsformebywayofduty。Ithankyoufortheselessonsfrommysoul。myeyesareopened,andIbeholdmyselfatlastforwhatIam。’

  Atthismoment,thesharpnoteofthedoor-bellrangthroughthehouse。andthevisitant,asthoughthisweresomeconcertedsignalforwhichhehadbeenwaiting,changedatonceinhisdemeanour。

  ’Themaid!’hecried。’Shehasreturned,asIforewarnedyou,andthereisnowbeforeyouonemoredifficultpassage。Hermaster,youmustsay,isill。youmustletherin,withanassuredbutratherseriouscountenance-nosmiles,nooveracting,andI

  promiseyousuccess!Oncethegirlwithin,andthedoorclosed,thesamedexteritythathasalreadyridyouofthedealerwillrelieveyouofthislastdangerinyourpath。Thenceforwardyouhavethewholeevening-thewholenight,ifneedful-toransackthetreasuresofthehouseandtomakegoodyoursafety。Thisishelpthatcomestoyouwiththemaskofdanger。Up!’hecried。

  ’up,friend。yourlifehangstremblinginthescales:up,andact!’

  Markheimsteadilyregardedhiscounsellor。’IfIbecondemnedtoevilacts,’hesaid,’thereisstillonedooroffreedomopen-I

  canceasefromaction。Ifmylifebeanillthing,Icanlayitdown。ThoughIbe,asyousaytruly,atthebeckofeverysmalltemptation,Icanyet,byonedecisivegesture,placemyselfbeyondthereachofall。Myloveofgoodisdamnedtobarrenness。itmay,andletitbe!ButIhavestillmyhatredofevil。andfromthat,toyourgallingdisappointment,youshallseethatIcandrawbothenergyandcourage。’

  Thefeaturesofthevisitorbegantoundergoawonderfulandlovelychange:theybrightenedandsoftenedwithatendertriumph,and,evenastheybrightened,fadedanddislimned。ButMarkheimdidnotpausetowatchorunderstandthetransformation。Heopenedthedoorandwentdownstairsveryslowly,thinkingtohimself。Hispastwentsoberlybeforehim。hebehelditasitwas,uglyandstrenuouslikeadream,randomaschance-medley-asceneofdefeat。Life,ashethusreviewedit,temptedhimnolonger。butonthefurthersideheperceivedaquiethavenforhisbark。Hepausedinthepassage,andlookedintotheshop,wherethecandlestillburnedbythedeadbody。Itwasstrangelysilent。Thoughtsofthedealerswarmedintohismind,ashestoodgazing。Andthenthebelloncemorebrokeoutintoimpatientclamour。

  Heconfrontedthemaiduponthethresholdwithsomethinglikeasmile。

  ’Youhadbettergoforthepolice,’saidhe:’Ihavekilledyourmaster。’

  THRAWNJANET

  THEReverendMurdochSouliswaslongministerofthemoorlandparishofBalweary,inthevaleofDule。Asevere,bleak-facedoldman,dreadfultohishearers,hedweltinthelastyearsofhislife,withoutrelativeorservantoranyhumancompany,inthesmallandlonelymanseundertheHangingShaw。Inspiteoftheironcomposureofhisfeatures,hiseyewaswild,scared,anduncertain。andwhenhedwelt,inprivateadmonitions,onthefutureoftheimpenitent,itseemedasifhiseyepiercedthroughthestormsoftimetotheterrorsofeternity。Manyyoungpersons,comingtopreparethemselvesagainsttheseasonoftheHolyCommunion,weredreadfullyaffectedbyhistalk。HehadasermononlstPeter,v。and8th,’Thedevilasaroaringlion,’ontheSundayaftereveryseventeenthofAugust,andhewasaccustomedtosurpasshimselfuponthattextbothbytheappallingnatureofthematterandtheterrorofhisbearinginthepulpit。Thechildrenwerefrightenedintofits,andtheoldlookedmorethanusuallyoracular,andwere,allthatday,fullofthosehintsthatHamletdeprecated。Themanseitself,whereitstoodbythewaterofDuleamongsomethicktrees,withtheShawoverhangingitontheoneside,andontheothermanycold,moorishhilltopsrisingtowardsthesky,hadbegun,ataveryearlyperiodofMr。Soulis’sministry,tobeavoidedintheduskhoursbyallwhovaluedthemselvesupontheirprudence。andguidmensittingattheclachanalehouseshooktheirheadstogetheratthethoughtofpassinglatebythatuncannyneighbourhood。Therewasonespot,tobemoreparticular,whichwasregardedwithespecialawe。ThemansestoodbetweenthehighroadandthewaterofDule,withagabletoeach。

  itsbackwastowardsthekirk-townofBalweary,nearlyhalfamileaway。infrontofit,abaregarden,hedgedwiththorn,occupiedthelandbetweentheriverandtheroad。Thehousewastwostorieshigh,withtwolargeroomsoneach。Itopenednotdirectlyonthegarden,butonacausewayedpath,orpassage,givingontheroadontheonehand,andclosedontheotherbythetallwillowsandeldersthatborderedonthestream。AnditwasthisstripofcausewaythatenjoyedamongtheyoungparishionersofBalwearysoinfamousareputation。Theministerwalkedthereoftenafterdark,sometimesgroaningaloudintheinstancyofhisunspokenprayers。

  andwhenhewasfromhome,andthemansedoorwaslocked,themoredaringschoolboysventured,withbeatinghearts,to’followmyleader’acrossthatlegendaryspot。

  Thisatmosphereofterror,surrounding,asitdid,amanofGodofspotlesscharacterandorthodoxy,wasacommoncauseofwonderandsubjectofinquiryamongthefewstrangerswhowereledbychanceorbusinessintothatunknown,outlyingcountry。ButmanyevenofthepeopleoftheparishwereignorantofthestrangeeventswhichhadmarkedthefirstyearofMr。Soulis’sministrations。andamongthosewhowerebetterinformed,somewerenaturallyreticent,andothersshyofthatparticulartopic。Nowandagain,only,oneoftheolderfolkwouldwarmintocourageoverhisthirdtumbler,andrecountthecauseoftheminister’sstrangelooksandsolitarylife。

  Fiftyyearssyne,whenMr。SouliscamfirstintoBa’weary,hewasstillayoungman-acallant,thefolksaid-fu’o’booklearnin’

  andgrandattheexposition,but,aswasnaturalinsaeyoungaman,wi’naeleevin’experienceinreligion。Theyoungersortweregreatlytakenwi’hisgiftsandhisgab。butauld,concerned,seriousmenandwomenweremovedeventoprayerfortheyoungman,whomtheytooktobeaself-deceiver,andtheparishthatwasliketobesaeill-supplied。Itwasbeforethedayso’themoderates-

  wearyfa’them。butillthingsarelikeguid-theybaithcomebitbybit,apickleatatime。andtherewerefolkeventhenthatsaidtheLordhadleftthecollegeprofessorstotheiraindevices,an’

  theladsthatwenttostudywi’themwadhaedonemairandbettersittin’inapeat-bog,liketheirforbearsofthepersecution,wi’

  aBibleundertheiroxterandaspeerito’prayerintheirheart。

  Therewasnaedoubt,onyway,butthatMr。Soulishadbeenowerlangatthecollege。Hewascarefulandtroubledformonythingsbesidestheaethingneedful。Hehadafecko’bookswi’him-

  mairthanhadeverbeenseenbeforeina’thatpresbytery。andasairwarkthecarrierhadwi’them,fortheywerea’liketohavesmooredintheDeil’sHagbetweenthisandKilmackerlie。Theywerebookso’divinity,tobesure,orsotheyca’dthem。buttheseriouswereo’opiniontherewaslittleserviceforsaemony,whenthehailo’God’sWordwouldgangintheneukofaplaid。Thenhewadsithalfthedayandhalfthenichtforbye,whichwasscantdecent-writin’,naeless。andfirst,theywerefearedhewadreadhissermons。andsyneitprovedhewaswritin’abookhimsel’,whichwassurelynofittin’foraneofhisyearsan’sma’

  experience。

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