\"Well,well,smileagainifyoudonotwishtovexme。\"
\"Ishallsoondothat,if,asyouassureme,shewillnotmakemeloseyourlove。Butwhatmadetheoldgentlemangetmeagirllikethat?Doyouthinkhediditoutofmischief?\"
\"No,Idon’tthinkso。Iamsure,ontheotherhand,thathewantedtoletyouknowthatyouneednotfearbeingcomparedwithanybody。Areyoupleasedwithherinotherrespects?\"
\"Sheworkswell,andsheisveryrespectful。Shedoesnotspeakfourwordswithoutaddressingmeassignora,andsheiscarefultotranslatewhatshesaysfromItalianintoFrench。IhopethatinamonthIshallspeakwellenoughforustodispensewithherserviceswhenwegotoFlorence。IhaveorderedLeDuctoclearouttheroomIhavechosenforher,andIwillsendherherdinnerfromourowntable。Iwillbekindtoher,butIhopeyouwillnotmakemewretched。\"
\"Icouldnotdoso;andIdonotseewhattherecanbeincommonbetweenthegirlandmyself。\"
\"Thenyouwillpardonmyfears。\"
\"Themorereadilyastheyshewyourlove。\"
\"Ithankyou,butkeepmysecret。\"
IpromisednevertogiveaglancetoVeronique,ofwhomIwasalreadyafraid,butIlovedRosalieandwouldhavedoneanythingtosavehertheleastgrief。
Isettoatmytranslationafterdinner;itwasworkIliked。I
didnotgooutthatday,andIspentthewholeofthenextmorningwithM。deGrimaldi。
IwenttothebankerBelloniandchangedallmygoldintogigliatisequins。Imademyselfknownafterthemoneywaschanged,andtheheadcashiertreatedmewithgreatcourtesy。IhadbillsonthisbankerforfortythousandRomancrowns,andonLepribillsfortwentythousand。
Rosaliedidnotwanttogototheplayagain,soIgotherapieceofembroiderytoamuseherintheevening。Thetheatrewasanecessityforme;Ialwayswentunlessitinterferredwithsomestillsweeterpleasure。Iwentbymyself,andwhenIgothomeI
foundthemarquistalkingtomymistress。Iwaspleased,andafterIhadembracedtheworthynoblemanIcomplimentedRosalieonhavingkepthimtillmyarrival,addinggentlythatsheshouldhaveputdownherwork。
\"Askhim,\"shereplied,\"ifhedidnotmakemekeepon。HesaidhewouldgoifIdidn’t,soIgaveintokeephim。\"
Shethenrose,stoppedworking,andinthecourseofaninterestingconversationshesucceededinmakingthemarquispromisetostaytosupper,thusforestallingmyintention。Hewasnotaccustomedtotakeanythingatthathour,andatelittle;butIsawhewasenchantedwithmytreasure,andthatpleasedme,forIdidnotthinkIhadanythingtofearfromamanofsixty;
besides,IwasgladattheopportunityofaccustomingRosalietogoodsociety。Iwantedhertobealittlecoquettish,asawomanneverpleasesinsocietyunlesssheshewsadesiretoplease。
Althoughthepositionwasquiteastrangeoneforher,shemademeadmirethenaturalaptitudeofwomen,whichmaybeimprovedorspoiledbyartbutwhichexistsmoreorlessinthemall,fromthethronetothemilk—pail。ShetalkedtoM。deGrimaldiinawaythatseemedtohintshewaswillingtogivealittlehope。Asourguestdidnoteat,shesaidgraciouslythathemustcometodinnersomedaythatshemighthaveanopportunityofseeingwhetherhereallyhadanyappetite。
WhenhehadgoneItookheronmyknee,andcoveringherwithkissesaskedherwhereshehadlearnttotalktogreatpeoplesowell。
\"It’saneasymatter,\"shereplied。\"Youreyesspeaktomysoul,andtellmewhattodoandwhattosay。\"
Aprofessedrhetoriciancouldnothaveansweredmoreelegantlyormoreflatteringly。
Ifinishedthetranslation;IhaditcopiedoutbyCostaandtookittoRossi,themanager,whosaidhewouldputitondirectly,whenItoldhimIwasgoingtomakehimapresentoftheplay。I
namedtheactorsofmychoice,andaskedhimtobringthemtodinewithmeatmyinn,thatImightreadtheplayanddistributetheparts。
Aswillbeguessed,myinvitationwasaccepted,andRosalieenjoyeddiningwiththeactorsandactresses,andespeciallyhearingherselfcalledMadameCasanovaeverymoment。Veroniqueexplainedeverythingshedidnotunderstand。
Whenmyactorswereroundmeinaring,theybeggedmetotellthemtheirparts,butIwouldnotgiveinonthispoint。
\"Thefirstthingtobedone,\"saidI,\"isforyoutolistenattentivelytothewholepiecewithoutmindingaboutyourparts。
WhenyouknowthewholeplayIwillsatisfyyourcuriosity。\"
Iknewthatcarelessoridleactorsoftenpaynoattentiontoanythingexcepttheirownparts,andthusapiece,thoughwellplayedinitsparts,isbadlyrenderedasawhole。
Theysubmittedwithatolerablygoodgrace,whichthehighandmightyplayersoftheComedieFrancaisewouldcertainlynothavedone。JustasIwasbeginningmyheadingtheMarquisdeGrimaldiandthebankerBellonicameintocallonme。Iwasgladforthemtobepresentatthetrial,whichonlylastedanhourandaquarter。
AfterIhadheardtheopinionoftheactors,whobytheirpraiseofvarioussituationsshewedmethattheyhadtakenintheplot,I
toldCostatodistributetheparts;butnosoonerwasthisdonethanthefirstactorandthefirstactressbegantoexpresstheirdispleasure;she,becauseIhadgivenherthepartofLadyAlton;
he,becauseIhadnotgivenhimMurray’spart;buttheyhadtobearitasitwasmywill。Ipleasedeverybodybyaskingthemalltodinnerforthedayafterthemorrow,afterdinnerthepiecetoberehearsedforthefirsttime。
ThebankerBelloniaskedmetodinnerforthefollowingday,includingmylady,whoexcusedherselfwithgreatpoliteness,intheinvitation;andM。Grimaldiwasgladtotakemyplaceatdinneratherrequest。
WhenIgottoM。Belloni’s,IwasgreatlysurprisedtoseetheimpostorIvanoff,whoinsteadofpretendingnottoknowme,asheoughttohavedone,cameforwardtoembraceme。Isteppedbackandbowed,whichmightbeputdowntoafeelingofrespect,althoughmycoldnessandscantceremonywouldhaveconvincedanyobservanteyeofthecontrary。Hewaswelldressed,butseemedsad,thoughhetalkedagooddeal,andtosomepurpose,especiallyonpolitics。TheconversationturnedontheCourtofRussia,whereElizabethPetrovnareigned;andhesaidnothing,butsighedandturnedawaypretendingtowipethetearsfromhiseyes。Atdessert,heaskedmeifIhadheardanythingofMadameMorin,adding,asiftorecallthecircumstancetomymemory,thatwehadsuppedtogetherthere:
\"Ibelievesheisquitewell,\"Ianswered。
Hisservant,inyellowandredlivery,waitedonhimattable。
Afterdinnerhecontrivedtotellmethathehadamatterofthegreatestimportancehewantedtodiscusswithme。
\"Myonlydesiresir,istoavoidallappearanceofknowinganythingaboutyou。\"
\"Onewordfromyouwillgainmeahundredthousandcrowns,andyoushallhavehalf。\"
Iturnedmybackonhim,andsawhimnomoreatGenoa。
WhenIgotbacktotheinnIfoundM。deGrimaldigivingRosaliealessoninItalian。
\"Shehasgivenmeanexquisitedinner,\"saidhe,\"youmustbeveryhappywithher。\"
Inspiteofhishonestface,M。Grimaldiwasinlovewithher,butIthoughtIhadnothingtofear。Beforehewentsheinvitedhimtocometotherehearsalnextday。
WhentheactorscameInoticedamongstthemayoungmanwhosefaceIdidnotknow,andonmyenquiringRossitoldmehewastheprompter。
\"Iwon’thaveanyprompter;sendhimabouthisbusiness。\"
\"Wecan’tgetonwithouthim。\"
\"You’llhaveto;Iwillbetheprompter。\"
Theprompterwasdismissed,butthethreeactressesbegantocomplain。
\"Ifweknewourpartsaswellasthe’paternoster’weshouldbecertaintocometoadeadstopiftheprompterisn’tinhisbox。\"
\"Verygood,\"saidItotheactress,whowastoplayLindane,\"I
willoccupytheboxmyself,butIshallseeyourdrawers。\"
\"Youwouldhavesomedifficultyindoingthat,\"saidthefirstactor,\"shedoesn’twearany。\"
\"Somuchthebetter。\"
\"Youknownothingaboutit,\"saidtheactress。
Theseremarksputusallinhighspirits,andtheministersofThaliaendedbypromisingthattheywoulddispensewithaprompter。Iwaspleasedwiththewaythepiecewasread,andtheysaidtheywouldbeletter—perfectinthreedays。Butsomethinghappened。
OnthedayfixedfortherehearsaltheycamewithouttheLindaneandMurray。Theywerenotwell,butRossisaidtheywouldnotfailuseventually。ItookthepartofMurray,andaskedRosalietobetheLindane。
\"Idon’treadItalianwellenough,\"shewhispered,\"andIdon’twishtohavetheactorslaughingatme;butVeroniquecoulddoit。\"
\"Askifshewillreadthepart。\"
However,Veroniquesaidthatshecouldrepeatitbyheart。
\"Allthebetter,\"saidItoher,laughinginternally,asIthoughtofSoleure,forIsawthatIshouldthusbeobligedtomakelovetothegirltowhomIhadnotspokenforthefortnightshehadbeenwithus。Ihadnotevenhadagoodlookatherface。IwassoafraidofRosalie(whomIlovedbettereveryday)takingfright。
WhatIhadfearedhappened。WhenItookVeronique’shand,andsaid,\"Si,bellaLindana,debbeadorarvi!\"everybodyclapped,becauseIgavethewordstheirproperexpression;butglancingatRosalieIsawashadowonherface,andIwasangryatnothavingcontrolledmyselfbetter。Nevertheless,IcouldnothelpfeelingamazedatthewayVeroniqueplayedthepart。WhenItoldherthatIadoredhersheblusheduptohereyes;shecouldnothaveplayedthelove—sickgirlbetter。
Wefixedadayforthedress—rehearsalatthetheatre,andthecompanyannouncedthefirstnightaweekinadvancetoexcitepubliccuriosity。Thebillsran:
\"WeshallgiveVoltaire’sEcossaise,translatedbyananonymousauthor:noprompterwillbepresent。\"
IcannotgivethereaderanyideaofthetroubleIhadtoquietRosalie。Sherefusedtobecomforted;weptincessantly,andtouchedmyheartbygentlereproaches。
\"YouloveVeronique,\"saidshe,\"andyouonlytranslatedthatpiecetohaveanopportunityofdeclaringyourlove。\"
Isucceededinconvincingherthatshewrongedme,andatlastafterIhadlavishedcaressesonhershesufferedherselftobecalmed。Nextmorningshebeggedpardonforherjealousy,andtocureitinsistedonmyspeakingconstantlytoVeronique。Herheroismwentfarther。ShegotupbeforemeandsentmemycoffeebyVeronique,whowasasastonishedasIwas。
AtheartRosaliewasagreatcreature,capableofnobleresolves,butlikeallwomenshegavewaytosuddenemotions。Fromthatdayshegavemenomoresignsofjealousy,andtreatedhermaidwithmorekindnessthanever。Veroniquewasanintelligentandwell—
manneredgirl,andifmyhearthadnotbeenalreadyoccupiedshewouldhavereignedthere。
ThefirstnightoftheplayItookRosalietoabox,andshewouldhaveVeroniquewithher。M。deGrimaldididnotleaveherforamoment。Theplaywaspraisedtotheskies;thelargetheatrewasfullofthebestpeopleinGenoa。Theactorssurpassedthemselves,thoughtheyhadnoprompter,andwereloudlyapplauded。Thepieceranfivenightsandwasperformedtofullhouses。Rossi,hopingperhapsthatIwouldmakehimapresentofanotherplay,askedmyleavetogivemyladyasuperbpelisseoflynx—fur,whichpleasedherimmensely。
Iwouldhavedoneanythingtosparemysweethearttheleastanxiety,andyetfrommywantofthoughtIcontrivedtovexher。
IshouldneverhaveforgivenmyselfifProvidencehadnotordainedthatIshouldbethecauseofherfinalhappiness。
\"Ihavereasontosuspect,\"shesaidoneday,\"thatIamwithchild,andIamenchantedatthethoughtofgivingyouadearpledgeofmylove。\"
\"Ifitcomesatsuchatimeitwillbemine,andIassureyouI
shallloveitdearly。\"
\"Andifitcomestwoorthreeweekssooneryouwillnotbesurethatyouaretheparent?\"
\"Notquitesure;butIshallloveitjustaswell,andlookuponitasmychildaswellasyours。\"
\"Iamsureyoumustbethefather。ItisimpossiblethechildcanbePetri’s,whoonlyknewmeonce,andthenveryimperfectly,whilstyouandIhavelivedintenderloveforsolongatime。\"
Shewepthottears。
\"Calmyourself,dearest,Iimploreyou!Youareright;itcannotbePetri’schild。YouknowIloveyou,andIcannotdoubtthatyouarewithchildbymeandbymealone。Ifyougivemeababyasprettyasyourself,itwillbemineindeed。Calmyourself。\"
\"HowcanIbecalmwhenyoucanhavesuchasuspicion?\"
Wesaidnomoreaboutit;butinspiteofmytenderness,mycaresses,andallthetriflingcareswhichbearwitnesstolove,shewasoftensadandthoughtful。HowmanytimesIreproachedmyselfbitterlyforhavingletoutmysillycalculations。
Afewdayslatershegavemeasealedletter,saying,——
\"Theservanthasgivenmethisletterwhenyouwereaway。Iamoffendedbyhisdoingso,andIwantyoutoavengeme。\"
Icalledtheman,andsaid,——
\"Wheredidyougetthisletter?\"
\"Fromayoungman,whoisunknowntome。Hegavemeacrown,andbeggedmetogivethelettertotheladywithoutyourseeingme,andhepromisedtogivemetwocrownsmoreifIbroughthimareplytomorrow。IdidnotthinkIwasdoingwrong,sir,astheladywasatperfectlibertytotellyou。\"
\"That’sallverywell,butyoumustgo,asthelady,whogavemetheletterunopened,asyoucanseeforyourself,isoffendedwithyou。\"
IcalledLeDuc,whopaidthemanandsenthimaway。Iopenedtheletter,andfoundittobefromPetri。Rosalieleftmyside,notwishingtoreadthecontents。Theletterranasfollows:
\"Ihaveseenyou,mydearRosalie。Itwasjustasyouwerecomingoutofthetheatre,escortedbytheMarquisdeGrimaldi,whoismygodfather。Ihavenotdeceivedyou;IwasstillintendingtocomeandmarryyouatMarseillesnextspring,asIpromised。Iloveyoufaithfully,andifyouarestillmygoodRosalieIamreadytomarryyouhereinthepresenceofmykinfolk。IfyouhavedonewrongIpromisenevertospeakofit,forIknowthatitwasIwholedyouastray。Tellme,Ientreatyou,whetherImayspeaktotheMarquisdeGrimaldiwithregardtoyou。Iamreadytoreceiveyoufromthehandsofthegentlemanwithwhomyouareliving,providedyouarenothiswife。Besure,ifyouarestillfree,thatyoucanonlyrecoveryourhonourbymarryingyourseducer。\"
\"ThislettercomesfromanhonourablemanwhoisworthyofRosalie,\"Ithoughttomyself,\"andthat’smorethanIshallbe,unlessImarryhermyself。ButRosaliemustdecide。\"
Icalledhertome,gavehertheletter,andbeggedhertoreaditattentively。Shedidso,andgaveitmeback,askingmeifI
advisedhertoacceptPetri’soffer。
\"IfyoudodearRosalie,Ishalldieofgrief;butifIdonotyieldyou,myhonourbidsmemarryyou,andthatIamquitereadytodo。\"
Atthisthecharminggirlthrewherselfonmybreast,cryinginthevoiceoftruelove,\"Iloveyouandyoualone,darling;butitisnottruethatyourhonourbidsyoumarryme。Oursisamarriageoftheheart;ourloveismutual,andthatisenoughformyhappiness。\"
\"DearRosalie,Iadoreyou,butIamthebestjudgeofmyownhonour。IfPetriisawell—to—domanandamanwhowouldmakeyouhappy,Imusteithergiveyouuportakeyoumyself。\"
\"No,no;thereisnohurrytodecide。IfyoulovemeIamhappy,forIloveyouandnoneother。Ishallnotanswertheletter,andIdon’twanttohearanythingmoreofPetri。\"
\"YoumaybesurethatIwillsaynomoreofhim,butIamsurethatthemarquiswillhaveahandinit。\"
\"Idaresay,buthewon’tspeaktometwiceonthesubject。\"
Afterthistreaty——amoresincereonethanthePowersofEuropeusuallymake——IresolvedtoleaveGenoaassoonasIgotsomelettersforFlorenceandRome。InthemeanwhileallwaspeaceandlovebetweenmyselfandRosalie。Shehadnottheslightestshadowofjealousyinhersoul,andM。deGrimaldiwasthesolewitnessofourhappiness。
FiveorsixdayslaterIwenttoseethemarquisathiscasinoatSt。Pierred’Arena,andheaccostedmebysayingthathewashappytoseemeashehadanimportantmatterhewishedtodiscusswithme。Iguessedwhatitwouldbe,butbeggedhimtoexplainhimself。Hethenspokeasfollows:
\"Aworthymerchantofthetownbroughthisnephew,ayoungmannamedPetri,toseemetwodaysago。Hetoldmethattheyoungmanismygodson,andheaskedmetoprotecthim。IansweredthatashisgodfatherIowedhimmyprotection,andIpromisedtodowhatIcould。
\"Heleftmygodsontotalkitoverwithme,andheinformedmethatheknewyourmistressbeforeyoudidatMarseilles,thathehadpromisedtomarryhernextspring,thathehadseenherinmycompany,andthathavingfollowedushefoundoutthatshelivedwithyou。Hewastoldthatshewasyourwife,butnotbelievingit,wroteheralettersayingthathewasreadytomarryher;butthisletterfellintoyourhands,andhehashadnoreplytoit。
\"Hecouldnotmakeuphismindtoloseahopewhichmadehishappiness,soheresolvedtoascertain,throughmygoodoffices,whetherRosaliewouldaccepthisproposition。Heflattershimselfthatonhisinformingmeofhisprosperouscondition,Icantellyouthatheisalikelymantomakehiswifehappy。ItoldhimthatIknewyou,andwouldspeaktoyouonthematter,andafterwardsinformhimoftheresultofourinterview。
\"Ihavemadeenquiresintohiscondition,andfindthathehasalreadyamassedaconsiderablesumofmoney。Hiscredit,morals,andreputation,areallexcellent;besides,heishisuncle’ssoleheir,andtheunclepassesforamanverycomfortablyoff。Andnow,mydearM。Casanova,tellmewhatanswerIamtomake。\"
\"TellhimthatRosalieismuchobligedtohim,andbegshimtoforgether。Wearegoingawayinthreeorfourdays。Rosalielovesme,andIher,andIamreadytomarryherwhenevershelikes。\"
\"That’splainspeaking;butIshouldhavethoughtamanlikeyouwouldpreferfreedomtoawoman,howeverbeautiful,towhomyouwouldbeboundbyindissolubleties。WillyouallowmetospeaktoRosaliemyselfaboutit?\"
\"Youneednotask,myleave;speaktoher,butinyourownpersonandnotasrepresentingmyopinions。Iadoreher,andwouldnothaveherthinkthatIcouldcherishthethoughtofseparatingfromher。\"
\"Ifyoudon’twantmetomeddleinthematter,tellmesofrankly。\"
\"Onthecontrary,IwishyoutoseeforyourselfthatIamnotthetyrantofthewomanIadore。\"
\"Iwilltalktoherto—night。\"
Ididnotcomehometillsupper—time,thatthemarquismightsaywhathehadtosayinperfectfreedom。ThenobleGenoesesuppedwithus,andtheconversationturnedonindifferentsubjects。
Afterhehadgone,mysweethearttoldmewhathadpassedbetweenthem。Hehadspokentoherinalmostthesamewordsthathehadaddressedtome,andourreplieswerenearlyidentical,thoughshehadrequestedthemarquistosaynomoreabouthisgodson,towhichrequesthehadassented。
Wethoughtthemattersettled,andbusiedourselveswithpreparationsforourdeparture;butthreeorfourdaysafter,themarquis(whoweimaginedhadforgottenallabouthisgodson)cameandaskedustodinewithhimatSt。Pierred’Arena,whereRosaliehadneverbeen。
\"Iwantyoutoseemybeautifulgardenbeforeyougo,\"saidM。
Grimalditoher;\"itwillbeonemorepleasantrecollectionofyourstayforme。\"
Wewenttoseehimatnoonthenextday。Hewaswithanelderlymanandwoman,towhomheintroducedus。Heintroducedmebyname,andRosalieasapersonwhobelongedtome。
Weproceededtowalkinthegarden,wherethetwooldpeoplegotRosaliebetweenthem,andoverwhelmedherwithpolitenessandcomplimentaryremarks。She,whowashappyandinhighspirits,answeredinItalian,anddelightedthembyherintelligence,andthegracewhichshegavetohermistakesingrammar。
Theservantscametotellusthatdinnerwasready,andwhatwasmyastonishmentonenteringtheroomtoseethetablelaidforsix。Ididnotwantmuchinsightnowtoseethroughthemarquis’strick,butitwastoolate。Wesatdown,andjustthenayoungmancamein。
\"Youarealittlelate,\"saidthemarquis;andthen,withoutwaitingforhisapology,heintroducedhimtomeasM。Petri,hisgodson,andnephewtohisotherguests,andhemadehimsitdownathislefthand,Rosaliebeingonhisright。Isatoppositetoher,andseeingthatsheturnedaspaleasdeaththebloodrushedtomyface;Iwasterriblyenraged。Thissmalldespot’splotseemeddisgracefultome;itwasascandalousinsulttoRosalieandmyself——aninsultwhichshouldbewashedawayinblood。Iwastemptedtostabhimathistable,butinspiteofmyagitationI
constrainedmyself。WhatcouldIdo?TakeRosalie’sarm,andleavetheroomwithher?Ithoughtitover,butforeseeingtheconsequencesIcouldnotsummonupcourage。
Ihaveneverspentsoterribleanhourasatthatfataldinner。
NeitherRosalienormyselfateamorsel,andthemarquiswhohelpedalltheguestswasdiscreetenoughnottoseethatweleftonecourseafteranotheruntouched。ThroughoutdinnerheonlyspoketoPetriandhisuncle,givingthemopportunitiesforsayinghowlargeatradetheydid。Atdessertthemarquistoldtheyoungmanthathehadbettergoandlookafterhisaffairs,andafterkissinghishandhewithdrewwithabowtowhichnobodyreplied。
Petriwasabouttwenty—four,ofamoderateheight,withordinarybutyetgood—naturedandhonestfeatures;respectfulinhismanner,andsensiblethoughnotwittyinwhathesaid。Afterallwassaidanddone,IthoughthimworthyofRosalie,butI
shudderedatthethoughtthatifshebecamehiswifeshewaslosttomeforever。Afterhehadgone,themarquissaidhewassorryhehadnotknownhimbeforeashemightbeofusetohiminhisbusiness。
\"However,wewillseetothatinthefuture,\"saidhe,meaningly,\"Imeantomakehisfortune。\"
Atthistheuncleandaunt,whonodoubtknewwhattosay,begantolaudandextoltheirnephew,andendedbysayingthatastheyhadnochildrentheyweredelightedthatPetri,whowouldbetheirheir,wastohavehisexcellency’spatronage。
\"Wearelonging,\"theyadded,\"toseethegirlfromMarseillesheisgoingtomarry。Weshouldwelcomeherasabeloveddaughter。\"
Rosaliewhisperedtomethatshecouldbearitnolonger,andbeggedmetotakeheraway。Werose,andafterwehadsalutedthecompanywithcolddignitywelefttheroom。Themarquiswasvisiblydisconcerted。Asheescortedustothedoorhestammeredoutcompliments,forthewantofsomethingtosay,tellingRosaliethatheshouldnothavethehonourofseeingherthatevening,butthathehopedtocallonherthenextday。
Whenwewerebyourselvesweseemedtobreatheagain,andspoketooneanothertorelieveourselvesoftheoppressionwhichweighedonourminds。
Rosaliethought,aswellasI,thatthemarquishadplayedusashamefultrick,andshetoldmeIoughttowritehimanote,begginghimnottogivehimselfthetroubleofcallingonusagain。
\"Iwillfindsomemeansofvengeance,\"saidI;\"butIdon’tthinkitwouldbeagoodplantowritetohim。Wewillhastenourpreparationsforleaving,andreceivehimto—morrowwiththatcoldpolitenesswhichbearswitnesstoindignation。Aboveall,wewillnotmaketheslightestreferencetohisgodson。\"
\"IfPetrireallylovesme,\"saidshe,\"Ipityhim。Ithinkheisagoodfellow,andIdon’tfeelangrywithhimforbeingpresentatdinner,ashemaypossiblybeunawarethatleispresencewaslikelytogivemeoffence。ButIstillshudderwhenIthinkofit:IthoughtIshouldhavediedwhenoureyesmet!Throughoutdinnerhecouldnotseemyeyes,asIkeptthemnearlyshut,andindeedhecouldhardlyseeme。Didhelookatmewhilehewastalking?\"
\"No,heonlylookedatme。Iamassorryforhimasyouare,for,asyousay,helooksanhonestfellow。\"
\"Well,it’sovernow,andIhopeIshallmakeagoodsupper。Didyounoticewhattheauntsaid?Iamsureshewasintheplot。
Shethoughtshewouldgainmeoverbysayingshewasreadytotreatmelikeherownchild。Shewasadecent—lookingwoman,too。\"
Wemadeagoodsupper,andapleasantnightinclinedustoforgettheinsultthemarquishadputuponus。Whenwewokeupinthemorningwelaughedatit。Themarquiscametoseeusintheevening,andgreetingmewithanairofmingledconfusionandvexation,hesaidthatheknewhehaddonewronginsurprisingmeashehad,butthathewasreadytodoanythinginhispowerbywayofatonement,andtogivewhateversatisfactionIliked。
Rosaliedidnotgivemetimetoanswer。\"Ifyoureallyfeel,\"
saidshe,\"thatyouhaveinsultedus,thatisenough;weareamplyavenged。Butallthesame,sir,weshallbeonourguardagainstyouforthefuture,thoughthatwillbeforashortwhile,aswearejustleaving。\"
Withthisproudreplyshemadehimalowbowandlefttheroom。
WhenhewasleftalonewithmeM。Grimaldiaddressedmeasfollows:
\"Itakeagreatinterestinyourmistress’swelfare;andasIfeelsurethatshecannotlongbehappyinherpresentuncertainposition,whileIamsurethatshewouldmakemygodsonanexcellentwife,Iwasdeterminedthatbothofyoushouldmakehisacquaintance,forRosalieherselfknowsverylittleofhim。I
confessthatthemeansIemployedweredishonourable,butyouwillpardonthemeansforthesakeoftheexcellentendIhadinview。
Ihopeyouwillhaveapleasantjourney,andthatyoumayliveforalongtimeinuninterruptedhappinesswithyourcharmingmistress。Ihopeyouwillwritetome,andalwaysreckononmystandingyourfriend,anddoingeverythinginmypowerforyou。
BeforeIgo,IwilltellyousomethingwhichwillgiveyouanideaoftheexcellentdispositionofyoungPetri,towhosehappinessRosalieseemsessential。
\"Heonlytoldmethefollowing,afterIhadabsolutelyrefusedtotakechargeofaletterhehadwrittentoRosalie,despairingofbeingabletosenditanyotherway。AfterassuringmethatRosaliehadlovedhim,andthatconsequentlyshecouldnothaveanyfixedaversionforhim,headdedthatifthefearofbeingwithchildwasthereasonwhyshewouldnotmarryhimhewouldagreetoputoffthemarriagetillafterthechildwasborn,providedthatshewouldagreetostayinGenoainhiding,herpresencetobeunknowntoallsavehimself。Heofferstopayalltheexpensesofherstay。Hemadearemarkablywisereflectionwhenweweretalkingitover。
\"’Ifshegavebirthtoachildtoosoonafterourmarriage,’saidhe,’bothherhonourandminewouldsufferhurt;shemightalsolosethelikingofmyrelations,andifRosalieistobemywifeI
wanthertobehappyineverything。\"’
AtthisRosalie,whohadnodoubtbeenlisteningatthedoorafterthemannerofhersex,burstintotheroom,andastonishedmebythefollowingspeech:
\"IfM。PetrichidnottellyouthatitwaspossiblethatImightbewithchildbyhim,heisarighthonestman,butnowItellyousomyself。Idonotthinkitlikely,butstillitispossible。
Tellhim,sir,thatIwillremainatGenoauntilthechildisborn,inthecaseofmybeingpregnant,ofwhichIhavenocertainknowledge,oruntilIamquitesurethatIamnotwithchild。IfIdohaveachildthetruthwillbemadeknown。InthecaseoftherebeingnodoubtofM。Petri’sbeingtheparent,Iamreadytomarryhim;butifheseesforhimselfthatthechildisnothisI
hopehewillbereasonableenoughtoletmealoneforthefuture。
AstotheexpensesandmylodgingatGenoa,tellhimthatheneednottroublehimselfabouteither。\"
Iwaspetrified。Isawtheconsequenceofmyownimprudentwords,andmyheartseemedbroken。Themarquisaskedmeifthisdecisionwasgivenwithmyauthority,andIrepliedthatasmysweetheart’swillwasminehemighttakeherwordsforlaw。Hewentawayinhighglee,forheforesawthatallwouldgowellwithhisplanswhenoncehewasabletoexerthisinfluenceonRosalie。Theabsentalwaysfareill。
\"Youwanttoleaveme,then,Rosalie?\"saidI,whenwewerealone。
\"Yes,dearest,butitwillnotbeforlong。\"
\"Ithinkweshallneverseeeachotheragain。\"
\"Whynot,dearest?Youhaveonlytoremainfaithfultome。
Listentome。YourhonourandmyownmakeitimperativethatI
shouldconvincePetrithatIamnotwithchildbyhim,andyouthatIamwithchildbyyou。\"
\"Ineverdoubtedit,dearRosalie。\"
\"Yes,dear,youdoubteditonceandthatisenough。Ourpartingwillcostmemanyabittertear,butthesepangsarenecessarytomyfuturehappiness。Ihopeyouwillwritetome,andafterthechildisbornitwillbeforyoutodecideonhowIshallrejoinyou。IfIamnotpregnantIwillrejoinyouinacoupleofmonthsatlatest。\"
\"ThoughImaygrieveatyourresolveIwillnotopposeit,forI
promisedIwouldnevercrossyou。Isupposeyouwillgointoaconvent;andthemarquismustfindyouasuitableone,andprotectyoulikeafather。ShallIspeaktohimonthesubject?Iwillleaveyouasmuchmoneyasyouwillwant。\"
\"Thatwillnotbemuch。AsforM。deGrimaldi,heisboundinhonourtoprocuremeanasylum。Idon’tthinkitwillbenecessaryforyoutospeaktohimaboutit。\"
Shewasright,andIcouldnothelpadmiringthetrulyastonishingtactofthisgirl。
InthemorningIheardthattheself—styledIvanoffhadmadehisescapeanhourbeforethepoliceweretoarresthimatthesuitofthebanker,whohadfoundoutthatoneofthebillshehadpresentedwasforged。Hehadescapedonfoot,leavingallhisbaggagebehindhim。
NextdaythemarquiscametotellRosaliethathisgodsonhadnoobjectiontomaketoherplan。Headdedthattheyoungmanhopedshewouldbecomehiswife,whetherthechildprovedtobehisornot。
\"Hemayhopeasmuchashelikes,\"saidRosalie,withasmile。
\"Healsohopesthatyouwillallowhimtocallonyounowandthen。Ihavespokentomykinswoman,themother—superiorofconvent。Youaretohavetworooms,andaverygoodsortofwomanistokeepyoucompany,waitonyou,andnurseyouwhenthetimecomes。Ihavepaidtheamountyouaretopayeverymonthforyourboard。EverymorningIwillsendyouaconfidentialman,whowillseeyourcompanionandwillbringmeyourorders。AndImyselfwillcomeandseeyouatthegratingasoftenasyouplease。\"
Itwasthenmysadduty,whichthelawsofpolitenessenjoined,tothankthemarquisforhistrouble。
\"’Tistoyou,mylord,\"saidI,\"IentrustRosalie。Iamplacingher,Iamsure,ingoodhands。Iwillgoonmywayassoonassheisintheconvent;Ihopeyouwillwritealettertothemother—
superiorforhertotake。\"
\"Iwillwriteitdirectly,\"saidhe。
AndasRosaliehadtoldhimbeforethatshewouldpayforeverythingherself,hegaveherawrittencopyoftheagreementhehadmade。
\"Ihaveresolved,\"saidRosalietothemarquis,\"togointotheconventto—morrow,andIshallbeverygladtohaveashortvisitfromyouthedayafter。\"
\"Iwillbethere,\"saidthemarquis,\"andyoumaybesurethatI
willdoallinmypowertomakeyourstayagreeable。\"
Thenightwasasadoneforbothofus。Lovescarcelymadeapauseamidstouralternatecomplaintsandconsolations。Wesworetobefaithfulforever,andouroathsweresincere,asardentlovers’oathsalwaysare。Buttheyareasnoughtunlesstheyaresealedbydestiny,andthatnomortalmindmayknow。
Rosalie,whoseeyeswereredandwetwithtears,spentmostofthemorninginpackingupwithVeronique,whocriedtoo。Icouldnotlookather,asIfeltangrywithmyselfforthinkinghowprettyshewas。Rosaliewouldonlytaketwohundredsequins,tellingmethatifshewantedmoreshecouldeasilyletmeknow。
ShetoldVeroniquetolookaftermewellforthetwoorthreedaysIshouldspendatGenoa,mademeamutecurtsy,andwentoutwithCostatogetasedan—chair。Twohoursafter,aservantofthemarquis’scametofetchherbelongings,andIwasthusleftaloneandfullofgrieftillthemarquiscameandaskedmetogivehimsupper,advisingthatVeroniqueshouldbeaskedintokeepuscompany。
\"That’sararegirl,\"saidhe,\"youreallydon’tknowher,andyououghttoknowherbetter。\"
AlthoughIwasrathersurprised,IdidnotstoptoconsiderwhatthemotivesofthecraftyGenoesemightbe,andIwentandaskedVeroniquetocomein。Sherepliedpolitelythatshewoulddoso,addingthatsheknewhowgreatanhonourIdidher。
IshouldhavebeentheblindestofmenifIhadnotseenthattheclevermarquishadsucceededinhiswell—laidplans,andthathehaddupedmeasifIhadbeenthemerestfreshman。AlthoughI
hopedwithallmyheartthatIshouldgetRosaliebackagain,I
hadgoodreasonsforsuspectingthatallthemarquis’switwouldbeemployedtoseduceher,andIcouldnothelpthinkingthathewouldsucceed。
Nevertheless,inthepositionIwasin,Icouldonlykeepmyfearstomyselfandlethimdohisutmost。
Hewasnearlysixty,athoroughdiscipleofEpicurus,aheavyplayer,rich,eloquent,amasterofstate—craft,highlypopularatGenoa,andwellacquaintedwiththeheartsofmen,andstillmoresowiththeheartsofwomen。HehadspentagooddealoftimeatVenicetobemoreatliberty,andtoenjoythepleasuresoflifeathisease。Hehadnevermarried,andwhenaskedthereasonwouldreplythatheknewtoowellthatwomenwouldbeeithertyrantsorslaves,andthathedidnotwanttobeatyranttoanywoman,nortobeunderanywoman’sorders。HefoundsomewayofreturningtohisbelovedVenice,inspiteofthelawforbiddinganynoblewhohasfilledtheofficeofdogetoleavehisnativesoil。Thoughhebehavedtomeinaveryfriendlymannerheknewhowtomaintainanairofsuperioritywhichimposedonme。
NothingelsecouldhavegivenhimthecouragetoaskmetodinnerwhenPetriwastobepresent。IfeltthatIhadbeentricked,andIthoughtmyselfindutyboundtomakehimesteemmebymybehaviourforthefuture。ItwasgratitudeonhispartwhichmadehimsmooththewaytomyconquestofVeronique,whodoubtlessstruckhimasafitandproperpersontoconsolemeforthelossofRosalie。
Ididnottakeanypartintheconversationatsupper,butthemarquisdrewoutVeronique,andsheshone。ItwaseasyformetoseethatshehadmorewitandknowledgeoftheworldthanRosalie,butinmythenstateofmindthisgrievedratherthanrejoicedme。
M。deGrimaldiseemedsorrytoseememelancholy,andforcedme,asitwere,tojoinintheconversation。Ashewasreproachingmeinafriendlymannerformysilence,VeroniquesaidwithapleasingsmilethatIhadagoodreasontobesilentafterthedeclarationofloveIhadmadetoher,andwhichshehadreceivedsoill。Iwasastonishedatthis,andsaidthatIdidnotrememberhavingevermadehersuchadeclaration;butshemademelaughinspiteofmyself,whenshesaidthathernamethatdaywasLindane。
\"Ah,that’sinaplay,\"saidI,\"inreallifethemanwhodeclareshisloveinwordsisasimpleton;’tiswithdeedsthetruelovershewshislove。\"
\"Verytrue,butyourladywasfrightenedallthesame。\"
\"No,no,Veronique;sheisveryfondofyou。\"
\"Iknowsheis;butIhaveseenherjealousofme。\"
\"Ifso,shewasquitewrong。\"
Thisdialogue,whichpleasedmelittle,fellsweetlyonthemarquis’sears;hetoldmethathewasgoingtocallonRosalienextmorning,andthatifIlikedtogivehimasupper,hewouldcomeandtellmeaboutherintheevening。OfcourseItoldhimthathewouldbewelcome。
AfterVeroniquehadlightedmetomyroom,sheaskedmetoletmyservantswaitonme,asifshedidsonowthatmyladywasgone,peoplemighttalkabouther。
\"Youareright,\"saidI,\"kindlysendLeDuctome。\"
NextmorningIhadaletterfromGeneva。ItcamefrommyEpicureansyndic,whohadpresentedM。deVoltairewithmytranslationofhisplay,withanexceedinglypoliteletterfromme,inwhichIbeggedhispardonforhavingtakenthelibertyoftravestyinghisfineFrenchproseinItalian。ThesyndictoldmeplainlythatM。deVoltairehadpronouncedmytranslationtobeabadone。
Myself—esteemwassowoundedbythis,andbyhisimpolitenessinnotansweringmyletter,withwhichhecouldcertainlyfindnofault,whateverhiscriticismofmytranslationmightbe,thatI
becametheswornenemyofthegreatVoltaire。IhavecensuredhiminalltheworksIhavepublished,thinkingthatinwronginghimI
wasavengingmyself,tosuchanextentdidpassionblindme。AtthepresenttimeIfeelthatevenifmyworkssurvive,thesefeeblestingsofminecanhurtnobodybutmyself。PosteritywillclassmeamongsttheZoiluseswhoseownimpotencemadethemattackthisgreatmantowhomcivilizationandhumanhappinessowesomuch。TheonlycrimethatcantruthfullybeallegedagainstVoltaireishisattacksonreligion。Ifhehadbeenatruephilosopherhewouldneverhavespokenonsuchmatters,for,evenifhisattackswerebasedontruth,religionisnecessarytomorality,withoutwhichtherecanbenohappiness。
CHAPTERV
IFallinLoveWithVeronique——HerSister——PlotAgainstPlot——MyVictory——MutualDisappointmentIhaveneverlikedeatingbymyself,andthusIhaveneverturnedhermit,thoughIoncethoughtofturningmonk;butamonkwithoutrenouncingallthepleasuresoflifeliveswellinakindofholyidleness。Thisdisliketolonelinessmademegiveordersthatthetableshouldbelaidfortwo,andindeed,aftersuppingwiththemarquisandmyself,Veroniquehadsomerighttoexpectasmuch,tosaynothingofthoserightswhichherwitandbeautygaveher。
IonlysawCosta,andaskedhimwhathadbecomeofLeDuc。Hesaidhewasill。\"Thengobehindthelady’schair,\"saidI。Heobeyed,butsmiledashedidso。Prideisauniversalfailing,andthoughaservant’sprideisthesilliestofallitisoftenpushedtothegreatestextremes。
IthoughtVeroniqueprettierthanbefore。Herbehaviour,nowfreeandnowreserved,astheoccasiondemanded,shewedmethatshewasnonewhand,andthatshecouldhaveplayedthepartofaprincessinthebestsociety。Nevertheless(sostrangeathingistheheartofman),IwassorrytofindIlikedher,andmyonlyconsolationwasthathermotherwouldcomeandtakeherawaybeforethedaywasover。IhadadoredRosalie,andmyheartstillbledatthethoughtofourparting。
Thegirl’smothercamewhilewewerestillattable。ShewasastoundedatthehonourIshewedherdaughter,andsheoverwhelmedmewiththanks。
\"Youowemenogratitude,\"saidItoher;\"yourdaughterisclever,good,andbeautiful。\"
\"Thankthegentlemanforhiscompliment,\"saidthemother,\"foryouarereallystupid,wanton,andugly;\"andthensheadded,\"Buthowcouldyouhavethefacetositattablewiththegentlemaninadirtychemise?\"
\"Ishouldblush,mother,ifIthoughtyouwereright;butIputacleanoneononlytwohoursago。\"
\"Madam,\"saidItothemother,\"thechemisecannotlookwhitebesideyourdaughter’swhiterskin。\"
Thismadethemotherlaugh,andpleasedthegirlimmensely。Whenthemothertoldherthatshewascometotakeherback,Veroniquesaid,withaslysmile,——
\"Perhapsthegentlemanwon’tbepleasedatmyleavinghimtwenty—
fourhoursbeforehegoesaway。\"
\"Onthecontrary,\"saidI,\"Ishouldbeveryvexed。\"
\"Well;then,shecanstay,sir,\"saidthemother;\"butfordecency’ssakeImustsendheryoungersistertosleepwithher。\"
\"Ifyouplease,\"Irejoined。AndwiththatIleftthem。
ThethoughtofVeroniquetroubledme,asIknewIwastakenwithher,andwhatIhadtodreadwasacalculatedresistance。
ThemothercameintomyroomwhereIwaswriting,andwishedmeapleasantjourney,tellingmeforthesecondtimethatshewasgoingtosendherdaughterAnnette。Thegirlcameintheevening,accompaniedbyaservant,andafterloweringhermezzaro,andkissingmyhandrespectfully,sherangailytokisshersister。
Iwantedtoseewhatshewaslike,andcalledforcandles;andontheirbeingbroughtIfoundshewasablondeofakindIhadneverbeforeseen。Herhair,eyebrows,andeyelasheswerethecolourofpalegold,faireralmostthanherskin,whichwasextremelydelicate。Shewasveryshort—sighted,butherlargepaleblueeyeswerewonderfullybeautiful。Shehadthesmallestmouthimaginable,butherteeth,thoughregular,werenotsowhiteasherskin。ButforthisdefectAnnettemighthavepassedforaperfectbeauty。
Hershortnessofsightmadetoobrilliantalightpainfultoher,butasshestoodbeforemesheseemedtolikemelookingather。
Mygazefedhungrilyonthetwolittlehalf—spheres,whichwerenotyetripe,butsowhiteastomakemeguesshowravishingtherestofherbodymustbe。Veroniquedidnotshewherbreastssofreely。Onecouldseethatshewassuperblyshaped,buteverythingwascarefullyhiddenfromthegaze。Shemadehersistersitdownbesideherandwork,butwhenIsawthatshewasobligedtoholdthestuffclosetoherfaceItoldherthatsheshouldsparehereyes,forthatnightatallevents,andwiththatsheobedientlyputtheworkdown。
Themarquiscameasusual,andlikemyselfhethoughtAnnette,whomhehadneverseenbefore,anastonishingminiaturebeauty。
Takingadvantageofhisageandhighrank,thevoluptuousoldmandaredtopasshishandoverherbreast,andshe,whowastoorespectfultocrossmylord,lethimdoitwithoutmakingtheslightestobjection。Shewasacompoundofinnocenceandcoquetry。
Thewomanwhoshewinglittlesucceedsinmakingamanwanttoseemore,hasaccomplishedthree—fourthsofthetaskofmakinghimfallinlovewithher;forisloveanythingelsethanakindofcuriosity?Ithinknot;andwhatmakesmecertainisthatwhenthecuriosityissatisfiedthelovedisappears。Love,however,isthestrongestkindofcuriosityinexistence,andIwasalreadycuriousaboutAnnette。
M。GrimalditoldVeroniquethatRosaliewishedhertostaywithmetillIleftGenoa,andshewasasmuchastonishedatthisasI
was。
\"Bekindenoughtotellher,\"saidItothemarquis,\"thatVeroniquehasanticipatedherwishesandhasgothersisterAnnettetostaywithher。\"
\"Twoarealwaysbetterthanone,mydearfellow,\"repliedthecraftyGenoese。
Aftertheseremarksweleftthetwosisterstogetherandwentintomyroom,wherehesaid,——
\"YourRosalieiscontented,andyououghttocongratulateyourselfonhavingmadeherhappy,asIamsureshewillbe。Theonlythingthatvexesmeisthatyoucan’tgoandseeheryourselfwithanydecency。\"
\"Youareinlovewithher,mylord。\"
\"IconfessthatIam,butIamanoldman,anditvexesme。\"
\"That’snomatter,shewillloveyoutenderly;andifPetrieverbecomesherhusband,Iamsureshewillneverbeanythingmorethanagoodfriendtohim。WritetomeatFlorenceandtellmehowshereceiveshim。\"
\"Stayhereforanotherthreedays;thetwobeautiestherewillmakethetimeseemshort。\"
\"It’sexactlyforthatreasonthatIwanttogotomorrow。IamafraidofVeronique。\"
\"Ishouldn’thavethoughtthatyouwouldhaveallowedanywomantofrightenyou。\"
\"Iamafraidshehascastherfatalnetsaroundme,andwhenthetimecomesshewillbestrictlymoral。Rosalieismyonlylove。\"
\"Well,here’saletterfromher。\"
Iwentaparttoreadtheletter,thesightofwhichmademyheartbeatviolently;itranasfollows:
\"Dearest,——Iseeyouhaveplacedmeinthehandsofonewhowillcareformelikeafather。ThisisanewkindnesswhichIowetothegoodnessofyourheart。Iwillwritetoyouatwhateveraddressyousendme。IfyoulikeVeronique,mydarling,donotfearanyjealousyfromme;Ishouldbewrongtoentertainsuchafeelinginmypresentposition。Iexpectthatifyoumakemuchofhershewillnotbeabletoresist,andIshallbegladtohearthatsheislesseningyoursadness。Ihopeyouwillwritemeafewlinesbeforeyougo。\"
Iwentuptothemarquisandtoldhimtoreadit。Heseemedgreatlymoved。
\"Yes,\"saidhe,\"thedeargirlwillfindinmeherfriendandfather,andifshemarriesmygodsonandhedoesnottreatherasheought,hewillnotpossessherlong。Ishallrememberherinmywill,andthuswhenIamdeadmycarewillstillcontinue。ButwhatdoyouthinkofheradviceastoVeronique?Idon’texpectsheisexactlyavestalvirgin,thoughIhaveneverheardanythingagainsther。\"
Ihadorderedthatthetableshouldbelaidforfour,soAnnettesatdownwithoutourhavingtoaskher。LeDucappearedonthescene,andItoldhimthatifhewereillhemightgotobed。
\"Iamquitewell,\"saidhe。
\"Iamgladtohearit;butdon’ttroublenow,youshallwaitonmewhenIamatLeghorn。\"
IsawthatVeroniquewasdelightedatmysendinghimaway,andI
resolvedthenandtheretolaysiegetoherheart。Ibeganbytalkingtoherinaverymeaningmannerallsupper—time,whilethemarquisentertainedAnnette。IaskedhimifhethoughtIcouldgetafeluccanextdaytotakemetoLerici。
\"Yes,\"saidhe,\"wheneveryoulikeandwithasmanyoarsmenasyouplease;butIhopeyouwillputoffyourdeparturefortwoorthreedays。\"
\"No,\"Ireplied,oglingVeronique,\"thedelaymightcostmetoodear。\"
Theslypussansweredwithasmilethatshewedsheunderstoodmymeaning。
WhenwerosefromthetableIamusedmyselfwithAnnette,andthemarquiswithVeronique。Afteraquarterofanhourhecameandsaidtome,——
\"Certainpersonshaveaskedmetobegyoutostayafewdayslonger,oratleasttosuphereto—morrownight。\"
\"Verygood。Wewilltalkofthefewdaysmoreatsupperto—
morrow。\"
\"Victory!\"saidthemarquis;andVeroniqueseemedverygratefultomeforgrantingherrequest。Whenourguestwasgone,IaskedmynewhousekeeperifImightsendCostatobed。
\"Asmysisteriswithme,therecanbenogroundforanysuspicion。\"
\"Iamdelightedthatyouconsent;nowIamgoingtotalktoyou。\"
Sheproceededtodomyhair,butshegavenoanswertomysoftspeeches。WhenIwasonthepointofgettingintobedshewishedmegoodnight,andItriedtokissherbywayofreturn。Sherepulsedmeandrantothedoor,muchtomysurprise。Shewasgoingtoleavetheroom,whenIaddressedherinavoiceofgravepoliteness。
\"Ibegyouwillstay;Iwanttospeaktoyou;comeandsitbyme。
Whyshouldyourefusemeapleasurewhichafterallisameremarkoffriendship?\"
\"Because,thingsbeingastheyare,wecouldnotremainfriends,neithercouldwebelovers。\"
\"Lovers!whynot,weareperfectlyfree\"
\"Iamnotfree;Iamboundbycertainprejudiceswhichdonottroubleyou。\"
\"Ishouldhavethoughtyouweresuperiortoprejudices。\"
\"Therearesomeprejudiceswhichawomanoughttorespect。Thesuperiorityyoumentionisapitifulthing;alwaysthedupeofitself。Whatwouldbecomeofme,Ishouldliketoknow,ifI
abandonedmyselftothefeelingsIhaveforyou?\"
\"Iwaswaitingforyoutosaythat,dearVeronique。Whatyoufeelformeisnotlove。Ifitwereso,youwouldfeelasIdo,andyouwouldsoonbreakthebondsofprejudice。\"
\"Iconfessthatmyheadisnotquiteturnedyet,butstillIfeelthatIshallgrieveatyourdeparture。\"
\"Ifso,thatisnofaultofmine。ButtellmewhatIcandoforyouduringmyshortstayhere。\"
\"Nothing;wedonotknowoneanotherwellenough。\"
\"Iunderstandyou,butIwouldhaveyouknowthatIdonotintendtomarryanywomanwhoisnotmyfriend。\"
\"Youmeanyouwillnotmarryhertillyouhaveceasedtobeherlover?\"
\"Exactly。\"
\"YouwouldliketofinishwhereIwouldbegin。\"
\"Youmaybehappysomeday,butyouplayforhighstakes。\"
\"Well,well,it’sacaseofwinallorloseall。\"
\"That’sasmaybe。Butwithoutfurtherargumentitseemstomethatwecouldsafelyenjoyourlove,andpassmanyhappymomentsundisturbedbyprejudice。\"
\"Possibly,butonegetsburntfingersatthatgame,andIshudderattheverythoughtofit。No,no;leavemealone,thereismysisterwhowillwonderwhyIaminyourarms。\"
\"Verygood;IseeIwasmistaken,andRosalietoo。\"
\"Whywhatdidshethinkaboutme?\"
\"Shewroteandtoldmethatshethoughtyouwouldbekind。\"
\"Ihopeshe’mayn’thavetorepentforhavingbeentookindherself。\"
\"Goodbye,Veronique。\"
Ifeltvexedathavingmadethetrial,forinthesemattersonealwaysfeelsangryatfailure。IdecidedIwouldleaveherandherprecepts,trueorfalse,alone;butwhenIawokeinthemorningandsawhercomingtomybedwithapleasantsmileonherface,Isuddenlychangedmymind。IhadsleptuponmyangerandI
wasinloveagain。Ithoughtshehadrepented,andthatIshouldbevictoriouswhenIattackedheragain。Iputonasmilemyselfandbreakfastedgailywithherandhersister。Ibehavedinthesamewayatdinner;andthegeneralhighspiritswhichM。deGrimaldifoundprevailingintheevening,madehimthink,doubtless,thatweweregettingonwell,andhecongratulatedus。
Veroniquebehavedexactlyasifthemarquishadguessedthetruth,andIfeltsureofhavingheraftersupper,andintheecstasyofthethoughtIpromisedtostayforfourdayslonger。
\"Bravo,Veronique!\"saidthemarquis,\"that’stheway。Youareintendedbynaturetoruleyourloverswithanabsolutesway。\"
Ithoughtshewouldsaysomethingtodiminishthemarquis’scertaintythattherewasanagreementbetweenus,butshedidnothingofthesort,seemingtoenjoyhertriumphwhichmadeherappearmorebeautifulthanever;whilstIlookedatherwiththesubmissivegazeofacaptivewhogloriesin,hischain。Itookherbehaviourasanomenofmyapproachingconquest,anddidnotspeaktoM。deGrimaldialonelesthemightaskmequestionswhichIshouldnotcaretoanswer。Hetoldusbeforehewentawaythathewasengagedonthemorrow,andsocouldnotcometoseeustillthedayafter。
AssoonaswewerealoneVeroniquesaidtome,\"YouseehowIletpeoplebelievewhattheyplease;Ihadratherbethoughtkind,asyoucallit,thanridiculous,asanhonestgirlistermednow—a—
days。Isitnotso?\"
\"No,dearVeronique,Iwillnevercallyouridiculous,butIshallthinkyouhatemeifyoumakemepassanothernightintorture。
Youhaveinflamedme。\"
\"Oh,praybequiet!Forpity’ssakeleavemealone!Iwillnotinflameyouanymore。Oh!Oh!\"
Ihadenragedherbythrustingadaringhandintotheverydoorofthesanctuary。Sherepulsedmeandfled。Threeorfourminuteslaterhersistercametoundressme。ItoldhergentlytogotobedasIhadtowriteforthreeorfourhours;butnotcaringthatsheshouldcomeonabootlesserrandIopenedaboxandgaveherawatch。Shetookitmodestly,saying,——
\"Thisisformysister,Isuppose?\"
\"No,dearAnnette,it’sforyou。\"
Shegaveaskipofdelight,andIcouldnotpreventherkissingmyhand。
IproceededtowriteRosaliealetteroffourpages。Ifeltworriedanddispleasedwithmyselfandeveryoneelse。Itoreupmyletterwithoutreadingitover,andmakinganefforttocalmmyselfIwroteheranotherlettermoresubduedthanthefirst,inwhichIsaidnothingofVeronique,butinformedmyfairreclusethatIwasgoingonthedayfollowing。
Ididnotgotobedtillverylate,feelingoutoftemperwiththeworld。IconsideredthatIhadfailedinmydutytoVeronique,whethershelovedmeornot,forIlovedherandIwasamanofhonour。Ihadabadnight,andwhenIawokeitwasnoon,andonringingCostaandAnnetteappeared。TheabsenceofVeroniqueshewedhowIhadoffendedher。WhenCostahadlefttheroomI
askedAnnetteafterhersister,andshesaidthatshewasworking。
Iwroteheranote,inwhichIbeggedherpardon,promisingthatI
wouldneveroffendheragain,andbegginghertoforgeteverythingandtobejustthesameasbefore。Iwastakingmycoffeewhenshecameintomyroomwithanexpressionofmortificationwhichgrievedmeexcessively。
\"Forgeteverything,Ibeg,andIwilltroubleyounomore。Givememybuckles,asIamgoingforacountrywalk,andIshallnotbeintillsuppertime。Ishalldoubtlessgetanexcellentappetite,andasyouhavenothingmoretofearyouneednottroubletosendmeAnnetteagain。\"
Idressedmyselfinhaste,andleftthetownbythefirstroadthatcameinmyway,andIwalkedfastfortwohourswiththeintentionoftiringmyself,andofthusreadjustingthebalancebetweenmindandbody。Ihavealwaysfoundthatsevereexerciseandfreshairarethebestcureforanymentalperturbation。
Ihadwalkedformorethanthreeleagueswhenhungerandwearinessmademestopatavillageinn,whereIhadanomelettecooked。I
ateithungrilywithbrownbreadandwine,whichseemedtomedeliciousthoughitwasrathersharp。
IfelttootiredtowalkbacktoGenoa,soIaskedforacarriage;
buttherewasnosuchthingtobehad。Theinn—keeperprovidedmewithasorrynagandamantoguideme。Darknesswascomingon,andwehadmorethansixmilestodo。FinerainbegantofallwhenIstarted,andcontinuedalltheway,sothatIgothomebyeighto’clockwettotheskin,shiveringwithcold,deadtired,andinasoreplightfromtheroughsaddle,againstwhichmysatinbreecheswerenoprotection。Costahelpedmetochangemyclothes,andashewentoutAnnettecamein。
\"Whereisyoursister?\"
\"Sheisinbedwithabadheadache。Shegavemealetterforyou;
hereitis。\"
\"IhavebeenobligedtogotobedonaccountofasevereheadachetowhichIamsubject。Ifeelbetteralready,andIshallbeabletowaitonyouto—morrow。Itellyouasmuch,becauseIdonotwishyoutothinkthatmyillnessisfeigned。Iamsurethatyourrepentanceforhavinghumiliatedmeissincere,andIhopeinyourturnthatyouwillforgivemeorpityme,ifmywayofthinkingpreventsmefromconformingtoyours。\"
\"Annettedear,goandaskyoursisterifshewouldlikeustosupinherroom。\"
ShesooncamebacktellingmethatVeroniquewasobliged,butbeggedmetolethersleep。
IsuppedwithAnnette,andwasgladtoseethat,thoughsheonlydrankwater,herappetitewasbetterthanmine。Mypassionforhersisterpreventedmethinkingofher,butIfeltthatAnnettewouldotherwisehavetakenmyfancy。Whenweweretakingdessert,Iconceivedtheideaofmakingherdrunktogethertalkofhersister,soIgaveheraglassofLunelmuscat。
\"Ionlydrinkwater,sir。\"
\"Don’tyoulikewine?\"
\"Yes,butasIamnotusedtoitIamafraidofitsgettingintomyhead。\"
\"Thenyoucangotobed;youwillsleepallthebetter。\"
Shedrankthefirstglass,whichsheenjoyedimmensely,thenasecond,andthenathird。Herlittlebrainswereinsomeconfusionwhenshehadfinishedthethirdglass。Imadehertalkabouthersister,andinperfectfaithshetoldmeallthegoodimaginable。
\"ThenyouareveryfondofVeronique?\"saidI。
\"Oh,yes!Iloveherwithallmyheart,butshewillnotletmecaressher。\"
\"Nodoubtsheisafraidofyourceasingtoloveher。Butdoyouthinksheoughttomakemesufferso?\"
\"No,butifyouloveheryououghttoforgiveher。\"
Annettewasstillquitereasonable。Imadeherdrinkafourthglassofmuscat,butaninstantaftershetoldmethatshecouldnotseeanything,andwerosefromthetable。Annettebegantopleasemealittletoomuch,butIdeterminednottomakeanyattemptsuponherforfearoffindinghertoosubmissive。A
littleresistancesharpenstheappetite,whilefavoursgrantedwithtoomucheaseloseagreatdealoftheircharm。Annettewasonlyfourteen,shehadasoftheart,noknowledgeoftheworldorherownrights,andshewouldnothaveresistedmyembracesforfearofbeingrude。ThatsortofthingwouldonlypleasearichandvoluptuousTurk。