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  Buthedidnotwritetheletterthatday,forasherummagedouthisbestpaper,hecameacrosssomethingwhichchangedhispurpose。Tumblingaboutinonepartofthedeskamongbills,passports,andbusinessdocumentsofvariouskindswereseveralofJo’sletters,andinanothercompartmentwerethreenotesfromAmy,carefullytiedupwithoneofherblueribbonsandsweetlysuggestiveofthelittledeadrosesputawayinside。withahalf—repentant,half—amusedexpression,LauriegatheredupallJo’sletters,smoothed,folded,andputthemneatlyintoasmalldrawerofthedesk,stoodaminuteturningtheringthoughtfullyonhisfinger,thenslowlydrewitoff,laiditwiththeletters,lockedthedrawer,andwentouttohearHighMassatSaintStefan’s,feelingasiftherehadbeenafuneral,andthoughnotoverwhelmedwithaffliction,thisseemedamoreproperwaytospendtherestofthedaythaninwritingletterstocharmingyoungladies。

  Theletterwentverysoon,however,andwaspromptlyanswered,forAmywashomesick,andconfesseditinthemostdelightfullyconfidingmanner。Thecorrespondenceflourishedfamously,andlettersflewtoandfrowithunfailingregularityallthroughtheearlyspring。Lauriesoldhisbusts,madeallumettesofhisopera,andwentbacktoParis,hopingsomebodywouldarrivebeforelong。HewanteddesperatelytogotoNice,butwouldnottillhewasasked,andAmywouldnotaskhim,forjustthenshewashavinglittleexperiencesofherown,whichmadeherratherwishtoavoidthequizzicaleyesof`outboy’。

  FredVaughnhadreturned,andputthequestiontowhichshehadoncedecidedtoanswer,\"Yes,thankyou,\"butnowshesaid,\"No,thankyou,\"kindlybutsteadily,forwhenthetimecame,hercouragefailedher,andshefoundthatsomethingmorethanmoneyandpositionwasneededtosatisfythenewlongingthatfilledherheartsofulloftenderhopesandfears。Thewords,\"Fredisagoodfellow,butnotatallthemanIfanciedyouwouldeverlike,\"andLaurie’sfacewhenheutteredthem,keptreturningtoheraspertinaciouslyasherowndidwhenshesaidinlook,ifnotinwords,\"Ishallmarryformoney。\"Ittroubledhertorememberthatnow,shewishedshecouldtakeitback,itsoundedsounwomanly。Shedidn’twantLaurietothinkheraheartless,worldlycreature。Shedidn’tcaretobeaqueenofsocietynowhalfsomuchasshedidtobealovablewoman。Shewassogladhedidn’thateherforthedreadfulthingsshesaid,buttookthemsobeautifullyandwaskinderthanever。Hislettersweresuchacomfort,forthehomeletterswereveryirregularandnothalfsosatisfactoryashiswhentheydidcome。Itwasnotonlyapleasure,butadutytoanswerthem,forthepoorfellowwasforlorn,andneededpetting,sinceJopersistedinbeingstonyhearted。Sheoughttohavemadeaneffortandtriedtolovehim。Itcouldn’tbeveryhard,manypeoplewouldbeproudandgladtohavesuchadearboycareforthem。ButJoneverwouldactlikeothergirls,sotherewasnothingtodobutbeverykindandtreathimlikeabrother。

  IfallbrothersweretreatedaswellasLauriewasatthisperiod,theywouldbeamuchhappierraceofbeingsthantheyare。Amyneverlecturednow。Sheaskedhisopiniononallsubjects,shewasinterestedineverythinghedid,madecharminglittlepresentsforhim,andsenthimtwolettersaweek,fulloflivelygossip,sisterlyconfidences,andcaptivatingsketchesofthelovelyscenesabouther。Asfewbrothersarecomplimentedbyhavingtheirletterscarriedaboutintheirsister’spockets,readandrereaddiligently,criedoverwhenshort,kissedwhenlong,andtreasuredcarefully,wewillnothintthatAmydidanyofthesefondandfoolishthings。Butshecertainlydidgrowalittlepaleandpensivethatspring,lostmuchofherrelishforsociety,andwentoutsketchingaloneagooddeal。Sheneverhadmuchtoshowwhenshecamehome,butwasstudyingnature,Idaresay,whileshesatforhours,withherhandsfolded,ontheterraceatValrosa,orabsentlysketchedanyfancythatoccurredtoher,astalwartknightcarvedonatomb,ayoungmanasleepinthegrass,withhishatoverhiseyes,oracurlyhairedgirlingorgeousarray,promenadingdownaballroomonthearmofatallgentleman,bothfacesbeingleftabluraccordingtothelastfashioninart,whichwassafebutnotaltogethersatisfactory。

  HerauntthoughtthatsheregrettedheranswertoFred,andfindingdenialsuselessandexplanationsimpossible,Amylefthertothinkwhatsheliked,takingcarethatLaurieshouldknowthatFredhadgonetoEgypt。Thatwasall,butheunderstoodit,andlookedrelieved,ashesaidtohimself,withavenerableair……

  \"Iwassureshewouldthinkbetterofit。Pooroldfellow!I’vebeenthroughitall,andIcansympathize。\"

  Withthatheheavedagreatsigh,andthen,asifhehaddischargedhisdutytothepast,puthisfeetuponthesofaandenjoyedAmy’sletterluxuriously。

  Whilethesechangesweregoingonabroad,troublehadcomeathome。ButthelettertellingthatBethwasfailingneverreachedAmy,andwhenthenextfoundheratVevay,fortheheathaddriventhemfromNiceinMay,andtheyhadtravelledslowlytoSwitzerland,bywayofGenoaandtheItalianlakes。Sheboreitverywell,andquietlysubmittedtothefamilydecreethatsheshouldnotshortenhervisit,forsinceitwastoolatetosaygoodbyetoBeth,shehadbetterstay,andletabsencesoftenhersorrow。Butherheartwasveryheavy,shelongedtobeathome,andeverydaylookedwistfullyacrossthelake,waitingforLaurietocomeandcomforther。

  Hedidcomeverysoon,forthesamemailbroughtletterstothemboth,buthewasinGermany,andittooksomedaystoreachhim。Themomenthereadit,hepackedhisknapsack,badeadieutohisfellowpedestrians,andwasofftokeephispromise,withaheartfullofjoyandsorrow,hopeandsuspense。

  HeknewVevaywell,andassoonastheboattouchedthelittlequay,hehurriedalongtheshoretoLaTour,wheretheCarrolswerelivingenpension。Thegarconwasindespairthatthewholefamilyhadgonetotakeapromenadeonthelake,butno,theblondemademoisellemightbeinthechateaugarden。Ifmonsierwouldgivehimselfthepainofsittingdown,aflashoftimeshouldpresenther。Butmonsieurcouldnotwaitevena`flashoftime’,andinthemiddleofthespeechdepartedtofindmademoisellehimself。

  Apleasantoldgardenonthebordersofthelovelylake,withchestnutsrustlingoverhead,ivyclimbingeverywhere,andtheblackshadowofthetowerfallingfaracrossthesunnywater。Atonecornerofthewide,lowwallwasaseat,andhereAmyoftencametoreadorwork,orconsoleherselfwiththebeautyallabouther。Shewassittingherethatday,leaningherheadonherhand,withahomesickheartandheavyeyes,thinkingofBethandwonderingwhyLauriedidnotcome。Shedidnothearhimcrossthecourtyardbeyond,norseehimpauseinthearchwaythatledfromthesubterraneanpathintothegarden。Hestoodaminutelookingatherwithneweyes,seeingwhatnoonehadeverseenbefore,thetendersideofAmy’scharacter。Everythingabouthermutelysuggestedloveandsorrow,theblottedlettersinherlap,theblackribbonthattiedupherhair,thewomanlypainandpatienceinherface,eventhelittleebonycrossatherthroatseemedpathetictoLaurie,forhehadgivenittoher,andsheworeitasheronlyornament。Ifhehadanydoubtsaboutthereceptionshewouldgivehim,theyweresetatresttheminuteshelookedupandsawhim,fordroppingeverything,sherantohim,exclaiminginatoneofunmistakableloveandlonging……

  \"Oh,Laurie,Laurie,Iknewyou’dcometome!\"

  Ithinkeverythingwassaidandsettledthen,forastheystoodtogetherquitesilentforamoment,withthedarkheadbentdownprotectinglyoverthelightone,AmyfeltthatnoonecouldcomfortandsustainhersowellasLaurie,andLauriedecidedthatAmywastheonlywomanintheworldwhocouldfillJo’splaceandmakehimhappy。Hedidnottellherso,butshewasnotdisappointed,forbothfeltthetruth,weresatisfied,andgladlylefttheresttosilence。

  InaminuteAmywentbacktoherplace,andwhileshedriedhertears,Lauriegatheredupthescatteredpapers,findinginthesightofsundrywell—wornlettersandsuggestivesketchesgoodomensforthefuture。Ashesatdownbesideher,amyfeltshyagain,andturnedrosyredattherecollectionofherimpulsivegreeting。

  \"Icouldn’thelpit,Ifeltsolonelyandsad,andwassoverygladtoseeyou。Itwassuchasurprisetolookupandfindyou,justasIwasbeginningtofearyouwouldn’tcome,\"shesaid,tryinginvaintospeakquitenaturally。

  \"IcametheminuteIheard。IwishIcouldsaysomethingtocomfortyouforthelossofdearlittleBeth,butIcanonlyfeel,and……\"Hecouldnotgetanyfurther,forhertooturnedbashfulallofasudden,anddidnotquiteknowwhattosay。HelongedtolayAmy’sheaddownonhisshoulder,andtellhertohaveagoodcry,buthedidnotdare,sotookherhandinstead,andgaveitasympatheticsqueezethatwasbetterthanwords。

  \"Youneedn’tsayanything,thiscomfortsme,\"shesaidsoftly。\"Bethiswellandhappy,andImustn’twishherback,butIdreadthegoinghome,muchasIlongtoseethemall。Wewon’ttalkaboutitnow,foritmakesmecry,andIwanttoenjoyyouwhileyoustay。Youneedn’tgorightback,needyou?\"

  \"Notifyouwantme,dear。\"

  \"Ido,somuch。AuntandFloareverykind,butyouseemlikeoneofthefamily,anditwouldbesocomfortabletohaveyouforalittlewhile。\"

  AmyspokeandlookedsolikeahomesickchildwhoseheartwasfullthatLaurieforgothisbashfulnessallatonce,andgaveherjustwhatshewanted——thepettingshewasusedtoandthecheerfulconversationsheneeded。

  \"Poorlittlesoul,youlookasifyou’dgrievedyourselfhalfsick!I’mgoingtotakecareofyou,sodon’tcryanymore,butcomeandwalkaboutwithme,thewindistoochillyforyoutositstill,\"hesaid,inthehalf—caressing,half—commandingwaythatAmyliked,ashetiedonherhat,drewherarmthroughhis,andbegantopaceupanddownthesunnywalkunderthenew—leavedchestnuts。Hefeltmoreateaseuponhislegs,andAmyfounditpleasanttohaveastrongarmtoleanupon,afamiliarfacetosmileather,andakindvoicetotalkdelightfullyforheralone。

  Thequaintoldgardenhadshelteredmanypairsoflovers,andseemedexpresslymadeforthem,sosunnyandsecludedwasit,withnothingbutthetowertooverlookthem,andthewidelaketocarryawaytheechooftheirwords,asitrippledbybelow。Foranhourthisnewpairwalkedandtalked,orrestedonthewall,enjoyingthesweetinfluenceswhichgavesuchacharmtotimeandplace,andwhenanunromanticdinnerbellwarnedthemaway,Amyfeltasifsheleftherburdenoflonlinessandsorrowbehindherinthechateaugarden。

  ThemomentMrs。Carrolsawthegirl’salteredface,shewasilluminatedwithanewidea,andexclaimedtoherself,\"NowIunderstanditall——thechildhasbeenpiningforyoungLaurence。Blessmyheart,Ineverthoughtofsuchathing!\"

  Withpraiseworthydiscretion,thegoodladysaidnothing,andbetrayednosignofenlightenment,butcordiallyurgedLaurietostayandbeggedAmytoenjoyhissociety,foritwoulddohermoregoodthansomuchsolitude。Amywasamodelofdocility,andasherauntwasagooddealoccupiedwithFlo,shewaslefttoentertainherfriend,anddiditwithmorethanherusualsuccess。

  AtNice,LauriehadloungedandAmyhadscolded。AtVevay,Lauriewasneveridle,butalwayswalking,riding,boating,orstudyinginthemostenergeticmanner,whileAmyadmiredeverythinghedidandfollowedhisexampleasfarandasfastasshecould。Hesaidthechangewasowingtotheclimate,andshedidnotcontradicthim,beinggladofalikeexcuseforherownrecoveredhealthandspirits。

  Theinvigoratingairdidthembothgood,andmuchexerciseworkedwholesomechangesinmindsaswellasbodies。Theyseemedtogetclearerviewsoflifeanddutyupthereamongtheeverlastinghills。Thefreshwindsblewawaydespondingdoubts,delusivefancies,andmoodymists。Thewarmspringsunshinebroughtoutallsortsofaspiringideas,tenderhopes,andhappythoughts。Thelakeseemedtowashawaythetroublesofthepast,andthegrandoldmountainstolookbenignlydownuponthemsaying,\"Littlechildren,loveoneanother。\"

  Inspiteofthenewsorrow,itwasaveryhappytime,sohappythatLauriecouldnotbeartodisturbitbyaword。Ittookhimalittlewhiletorecoverfromhissurpriseatthecureofhisfirst,andashehadfirmlybelieved,hislastandonlylove。HeconsoledhimselffortheseemingdisloyaltybythethoughtthatJo’ssisterwasalmostthesameasJo’sself,andtheconvictionthatitwouldhavebeenimpossibletoloveanyotherwomanbutAmysosoonandsowell。Hisfirstwooinghadbeenofthetempestuousorder,andhelookedbackupon;itasifthroughalongvistaofyearswithafeelingofcompassionblendedwithregret。Hewasnotashamedofit,butputitawayasoneofthebitter—sweetexperiencesofhislife,forwhichhecouldbegratefulwhenthepainwasover。Hissecondwooing,heresolved,shouldbeascalmandsimpleaspossible。Therewasnoneedofhavingascene,hardlyanyneedoftellingAmythathelovedher,sheknewitwithoutwordsandhadgivenhimhisanswerlongago。Itallcameaboutsonaturallythatnoonecouldcomplain,andheknewthateverybodywouldbepleased,evenJo。Butwhenourfirstlittlepassionhasbeencrushed,weareapttobewaryandslowinmakingasecondtrial,soLaurieletthedayspass,enjoyingeveryhour,andleavingtochancetheutteranceofthewordthatwouldputanendtothefirstandsweetestpartofhisnewromance。

  Hehadratherimaginedthatthedénoumentwouldtakeplaceinthechâteaugardenbymoonlight,andinthemostgracefulanddecorusmanner,butitturnedoutexactlythereverse,forthematterwassettledonthelakeatnoondayinafewbluntwords。Theyhadbeenfloatingaboutallthemorning,fromgloomySt。GingolftosunnyMontreux,withtheAlpsofSavoyononeside,MontSt。BernardandtheDentduMidiontheother,prettyVevayinthevalley,andLausanneuponthehillbeyond,acloudlessblueskyoverhead,andthebluerlakebelow,dottedwiththepicturesqueboatsthatlooklikewhite—wingedgulls。

  TheyhadbeentalkingofBonnivard,astheyglidedpastChillon,andofRousseau,astheylookedupatClarens,wherehewrotehisHéloïse。Neitherhadreadit,buttheyknewitwasalovestory,andeachprivatelywonderedifitwashalfasinterestingastheirown。Amyhadbeendabblingherhandinthewaterduringthelittlepausethatfellbetweenthem,andwhenshelookedup,Lauriewasleaningonhisoarswithanexpressioninhiseyesthatmadehersayhastily,merelyforthesakeofsayingsomething……

  \"Youmustbetired。Restalittle,andletmerow。Itwilldomegood,forsinceyoucameIhavebeenaltogetherlazyandluxurious。\"

  \"I’mnottired,butyoumaytakeanoar,ifyoulike。There’sroomenough,thoughIhavetositnearlyinthemiddle,elsetheboatwon’ttrim,\"returnedLaurie,asifheratherlikedthearrangment。

  Feelingthatshehadnotmendedmattersmuch,Amytooktheofferedthirdofaseat,shookherhairoverherface,andacceptedanoar。Sherowedaswellasshedidmanyotherthings,andthoughsheusedbothhands,andLauriebutone,theoarskepttime,andtheboatwentsmoothlythroughthewater。

  \"Howwellwepulltogether,don’twe?\"saidAmy,whoobjectedtosilencejustthen。

  \"SowellthatIwishwemightalwayspullinthesameboat。Willyou,Amy?\"verytenderly。

  \"Yes,Laurie,\"verylow。

  Thentheybothstoppedrowing,andunconsciouslyaddedaprettylittletableauofhumanloveandhappinesstothedissolvingviewsreflectedinthelake。

  GoodWives:Chapter19CHAPTER19AllAloneItwaseasytopromiseself—abnegationwhenselfwaswrappedupinanother,andheartandsoulwerepurifiedbyasweetexample。Butwhenthehelpfulvoicewassilent,thedailylessonover,thebelovedpresencegone,andnothingremainedbutlonelinessandgrief,thenJofoundherpromiseveryhardtokeep。Howcouldshe`comfortFatherandMother’whenherownheartachedwithaceaselesslongingforhersister,howcouldshe`makethehousecheerful’whenallitslightandwarmthandbeautyseemedtohavedeserteditwhenBethlefttheoldhomeforthenew,andwhereinalltheworldcouldshe`findsomeuseful,happyworktodo’,thatwouldtaketheplaceofthelovingservicewhichhadbeenitsownreward?Shetriedinablind,hopelesswaytodoherduty,secretlyrebellingagainstitallthewhile,foritseemedunjustthatherfewjoysshouldbelessened,herburdensmadeheavier,andlifegetharderandharderasshetoiledalong。Somepeopleseemedtogetallsunshine,andsomeallshadow。Itwasnotfair,forshetriedmorethanAmytobegood,butnevergotanyreward,onlydisappointment,troubleandhardwork。

  PoorJo,theseweredarkdaystoher,forsomethinglikedespaircameoverherwhenshethoughtofspendingallherlifeinthatquiethouse,devotedtohumdrumcares,afewsmallpleasures,andthedutythatneverseemedtogrowanyeasier。\"Ican’tdoit。Iwasn’tmeantforalifelikethis,andIknowIshallbreakawayanddosomethingdesperateifsomebodydoesn’tcomeandhelpme,\"shesaidtoherself,whenherfirsteffortsfailedandshefellintothemoody,miserablestateofmindwhichoftencomeswhenstrongwillshavetoyieldtotheinevitable。

  Butsomeonedidcomeandhelpher,thoughJodidnotrecognizehergoodangelsatoncebecausetheyworefamiliarshapesandusedthesimplespellsbestfittedtopoorhumanity。Oftenshestartedupatnight,thinkingBethcalledher,andwhenthesightofthelittleemptybedmadehercrywiththebittercryofunsubmissivesorrow,\"Oh,Beth,comeback!Comeback!\"shedidnotstretchoutheryearningarmsinvain。For,asquicktohearhersobbingasshehadbeentohearhersister’sfaintestwhisper,hermothercametocomforther,notwithwordsonly,butthepatienttendernessthatsoothesbyatouch,tearsthatweremuteremindersofagreatergriefthanJo’s,andbrokenwhispers,moreeloquentthanprayers,becausehopefulresignationwenthand—in—handwithnaturalsorrow。Sacredmoments,whenhearttalkedtoheartinthesilenceofthenight,turningafflictiontoablessing,whichchastenedgriefandstrengthenedlove。Feelingthis,Jo’sburdenseemedeasiertobear,dutygrewsweeter,andlifelookedmoreendurable,seenfromthesafeshelterofhermother’sarms。

  Whenachingheartwasalittlecomforted,troubledmindlikewisefoundhelp,foronedayshewenttothestudy,andleaningoverthegoodgrayheadliftedtowelcomeherwithatranquilsmile,shesaidveryhumbly,\"Father,talktomeasyoudidtoBeth。Ineeditmorethanshedid,forI’mallwrong。\"

  \"Mydear,nothingcancomfortmelikethis,\"heanswered,withafalterinhisvoice,andbotharmsroundher,asifhetoo,neededhelp,anddidnotfeartoaskforit。

  Then,sittinginBeth’slittlechairclosebesidehim,Jotoldhertroubles,theresentfulsorrowforherloss,thefruitlesseffortsthatdiscouragedher,thewantoffaiththatmadelifelooksodark,andallthesadbewildermentwhichwecalldespair。Shegavehimentireconfidence,hegaveherthehelpsheneeded,andbothfoundconsolationintheact。Forthetimehadcomewhentheycouldtalktogethernotonlyasfatheranddaughter,butasmanandwoman,ableandgladtoserveeachotherwithmutualsympathyaswellasmutuallove。Happy,thoughtfultimesthereintheoldstudywhichJocalled`thechurchofonemember’,andfromwhichshecamewithfreshcourage,recoveredcheerfulness,andamoresubmissivespirit。Fortheparentswhohadtaughtonechildtomeetdeathwithoutfear,weretryingnowtoteachanothertoacceptlifewithoutdespondencyordistrust,andtouseitsbeautifulopportunitieswithgratitudeandpower。

  OtherhelpshadJo——humble,wholesomedutiesanddelightsthatwouldnotbedeniedtheirpartinservingher,andwhichsheslowlylearnedtoseeandvalue。Broomsanddishclothsnevercouldbeasdistastefulastheyoncehadbeen,forBethhadpresidedoverboth,andsomethingofherhousewifelyspiritseemedtolingeraroundthelittlemopandtheoldbrush,neverthrownaway。Assheusedthem,JofoundherselfhummingthesongsBethusedtohum,imitatingBeth’sorderlyways,andgivingthelittletoucheshereandtherethatkepteverythingfreshandcozy,whichwasthefirststeptowardmakinghomehappy,thoughshedidn’tknowittillHannahsaidwithanapprovingsqueezeofthehand……

  \"Youthoughtfulcreeter,you’redeterminedweshan’tmissthatdearlambefyoucanhelpit。Wedon’tsaymuch,butweseeit,andtheLordwillblessyoufor’t,seeefHedon’t。\"

  Astheysatsewingtogether,JodiscoveredhowmuchimprovedhersisterMegwas,howwellshecouldtalk,howmuchsheknewaboutgood,womanlyimpulses,thoughts,andfeelings,howhappyshewasinhusbandandchildren,andhowmuchtheywerealldoingforeachother。

  \"Marriageisanexcellentthing,afterall。IwonderifIshouldblossomouthalfaswellasyouhave,ifItriedit?\"saidJo,assheconstructedakiteforDemiinthetopsy—turvynursery。

  \"It’sjustwhatyouneedtobringoutthetenderwomanlyhalfofyournature,Jo。Youarelikeachestnutburr,pricklyoutside,butsilky—softwithin,andasweetkernal,ifonecanonlygetatit。Lovewillmakeyoushowyourheartoneday,andthentheroughburrwillfalloff。\"

  \"Frostopenschestnutburrs,ma`am,andittakesagoodshaketobringthemdown。Boysgonutting,andIdon’tcaretobebaggedbythem,\"returnedJo,pastingawayatthekitewhichnowindthatblowswouldevercarryup,forDaisyhadtiedherselfonasabob。

  Meglaughed,forshewasgladtoseeaglimmerofJo’soldspirit,butshefeltitherdutytoenforceheropinionbyeveryargumentinherpower,andthesisterlychatswerenotwasted,especiallyastwoofMeg’smosteffectiveargumentswerethebabies,whomJolovedtenderly。Griefisthebestopenerofsomehearts,andJo’swasnearlyreadyforthebag。Alittlemoresunshinetoripenthenut,then,notaboy’simpatientshake,butaman’shandreacheduptopickitgentlyfromtheburr,andfindthekernalsoundandsweet。Ifshesuspectedthis,shewouldhaveshutuptight,andbeenmorepricklythanever,fortunatelyshewasn’tthinkingaboutherself,sowhenthetimecame,downshedropped。

  Now,ifshehadbeentheheroineofamoralstorybook,sheoughtatthisperiodofherlifetohavebecomequitesaintly,renouncedtheworld,andgoneaboutdoinggoodinamortifiedbonnet,withtractsinherpocket。But,yousee,Jowasn’taheroine,shewasonlyastrugglinghumangirllikehundredsofothers,andshejustactedouthernature,beingsad,cross,listless,orenergetic,asthemoodsuggested。It’shighlyvirtuoustosaywe’llbegood,butwecan’tdoitallatonce,andittakesalongpull,astrongpull,andapullalltogetherbeforesomeofusevengetourfeetsetintherightway。Johadgotsofar,shewaslearningtodoherduty,andtofeelunhappyifshedidnot,buttodoitcheerfully,ah,thatwasanotherthing!Shehadoftensaidshewantedtodosomethingsplendid,nomatterhowhard,andnowshehadherwish,forwhatcouldbemorebeautifulthantodevoteherlifetoFatherandMother,tryingtomakehomeashappytothemastheyhadtoher?Andifdifficultieswerenecessarytoincreasethesplendoroftheeffort,whatcouldbeharderforarestless,ambitiousgirlthantogiveupherownhopes,plans,anddesires,andcheerfullyliveforothers?

  Providencehadtakenheratherword。Herewasthetask,notwhatshehadexpected,butbetterbecauseselfhadnopartinit。Now,couldshedoit?Shedecidedthatshewouldtry,andinherfirstattemptshefoundthehelpsIhavesuggested。Stillanotherwasgivenher,andshetookit,notasareward,butasacomfort,asChristiantooktherefreshmentaffordedbythelittlearborwhereherested,asheclimbedthehillcalledDifficulty。

  \"Whydon’tyouwrite?Thatalwaysusedtomakeyouhappy,\"saidhermotheronce,whenthedespondingfitover—shadowedJo。

  \"I’venohearttowrite,andifIhad,nobodycaresformythings。\"

  \"Wedo。Writesomethingforus,andnevermindtherestoftheworld。Tryit,dear。I’msureitwoulddoyougood,andpleaseusverymuch。\"

  \"Don’tbelieveIcan。\"ButJogotoutherdeskandbegantooverhaulherhalf—finishedmanuscripts。

  Anhourafterwardhermotherpeepedinandthereshewas,scratchingaway,withherblackpinaforeon,andanabsorbedexpression,whichcausedMrs。Marchtosmileandslipaway,wellpleasedwiththesuccessofhersuggestion。Joneverknewhowithappened,butsomethinggotintothatstorythatwentstraighttotheheartsofthosewhoreadit,forwhenherfamilyhadlaughedandcriedoverit,herfathersentit,muchagainstherwill,tooneofthepopularmagazines,andtoheruttersurprise,itwasnotonlypaidfor,butothersrequested。Lettersfromseveralpersons,whosepraisewashonor,followedtheappearanceofthelittlestory,newspaperscopiedit,andstrangersaswellasfriends,admiredit。Forasmallthingitwasagreatsuccess,andJowasmoreastonishedthanwhenhernovelwascommendedandcondemnedallatonce。

  \"Idon’tunderstandit。Whatcantherebeinasimplelittlestorylikethattomakepeoplepraiseitso?\"shesaid,quitebewildered。

  \"Thereistruthinit,Jo,that’sthesecret。Humorandpathosmakeitalive,andyouhavefoundyourstyleatlast。Youwrotewithnotthoughtsoffameandmoney,andputyourheartintoit,mydaughter。Youhavehadthebitter,nowcomesthesweet。Doyourbest,andgrowashappyasweareinyoursuccess。\"

  \"IfthereisanythinggoodortrueinwhatIwrite,itisn’tmine。IoweitalltoyouandMotherandBeth,\"saidJo,moretouchedbyherfather’swordsthanbyanyamountofpraisefromtheworld。

  Sotaughtbyloveandsorrow,Jowroteherlittlestories,andsentthemawaytomakefriendsforthemselvesandher,findingitaverycharitableworldtosuchhumblewanderers,fortheywerekindlywelcomed,andsenthomecomfortabletokenstotheirmother,likedutifulchildrenwhomgoodfortuneovertakes。

  WhenAmyandLauriewroteoftheirengagement,Mrs。MarchfearedthatJowouldfinditdifficulttorejoiceoverit,butherfearsweresoonsetatrest,forthoughtJolookedgraveatfirst,shetookitveryquietly,andwasfullofhopesandplansfor`thechildren’beforeshereadthelettertwice。Itwasasortofwrittenduet,whereineachglorifiedtheotherinlover—likefashion,verypleasanttoreadandsatisfactorytothinkof,fornoonehadanyobjectiontomake。

  \"Youlikeit,Mother?\"saidJo,astheylaiddownthecloselywrittensheetsandlookedatoneanother。

  \"Yes,Ihopeditwouldbeso,eversinceAmywrotethatshehadrefusedFred。Ifeltsurethenthatsomethingbetterthanwhatyoucallthe`mercenaryspirit’hadcomeoverher,andahinthereandthereinherlettersmademesuspectthatloveandLauriewouldwintheday。\"

  \"Howsharpyouare,Marmee,andhowsilent!Youneversaidaworkedtome。\"

  \"Mothershaveneedofsharpeyesanddiscreettongueswhentheyhavegirlstomanage。Iwashalfafraidtoputtheideaintoyourhead,lestyoushouldwriteandcongratulatethembeforethethingwassettled。\"

  \"I’mnotthescatterbrainIwas。Youmaytrustme。I’msoberandsensibleenoughforanyone’sconfidantenow。\"

  \"Soyouare,mydear,andIshouldhavemadeyoumine,onlyIfancieditmightpainyoutolearnthatyourTeddylovedsomeoneelse。\"

  \"Now,Mother,didyoureallythinkIcouldbesosillyandselfish,afterI’drefusedhislove,whenitwasfreshest,ifnotbest?\"

  \"Iknewyouweresincerethen,Jo,butlatelyIhavethoughtthatifhecameback,andaskedagain,youmightperhaps,feellikegivinganotheranswer。Forgiveme,dear,Ican’thelpseeingthatyouareverylonely,andsometimesthereisahungrylookinyoureyesthatgoestomyheart。SoIfanciedthatyourboymightfilltheemptyplaceifhetriednow。\"

  \"No,Mother,itisbetterasitis,andI’mgladAmyhaslearnedtolovehim。Butyouarerightinonething。Iamlonely,andperhapsifTeddyhadtriedagain,Imighthavesaid`Yes’,notbecauseIlovehimanymore,butbecauseIcaremoretobelovedthanwhenhewentaway。\"

  \"I’mgladofthat,Jo,foritshowsthatyouaregettingon。Thereareplentytoloveyou,sotrytobesatisfiedwithFatherandMother,sistersandbrothers,friendsandbabies,tillthebestloverofallcomestogiveyouyourreward。\"

  \"Mothersarethebestloversintheworld,butIdon’tmindwhisperingtoMarmeethatI’dliketotryallkinds。It’sverycurious,butthemoreItrytosatisfymyselfwithallsortsofnaturalaffections,themoreIseemtowant。I’dnoideaheartscouldtakeinsomany。Mineissoelastic,itneverseemsfullnow,andIusedtobequitecontentedwithmyfamily。Idon’tunderstandit。\"

  \"Ido。\"AndMrs。Marchsmiledherwisesmile,asJoturnedbacktheleavestoreadwhatAmysaidofLaurie。

  \"ItissobeautifultobelovedasLaurielovesme。Heisn’tsentimental,doesn’tsaymuchaboutit,butIseeandfeelitinallhesaysanddoes,anditmakesmesohappyandsohumblethatIdon’tseemtobethesamegirlIwas。Ineverknewhowgoodandgenerousandtenderhewastillnow,forheletsmereadhisheart,andIfinditfullofnobleimpulsesandhopesandpurposes,andamsoproudtoknowit’smine。Hesayshefeelsasifhe`couldmakeaprosperousvoyagenowwithmeaboardasmate,andlotsofloveforballast’。Iprayhemay,andtrytobeallhebelievesme,forIlovemygallantcaptainwithallmyheartandsoulandmight,andneverwilldeserthim,whileGodletsusbetogether。Oh,Mother,Ineverknewhowmuchlikeheaventhisworldcouldbe,whentwopeopleloveandliveforoneanother!\"

  \"Andthat’sourcool,reserved,andworldlyAmy!Truly,lovedoesworkmiracles。Howvery,veryhappytheymustbe!\"AndJolaidtherustlingsheetstogetherwithacarefulhand,asonemightshutthecoversofalovelyromance,whichholdsthereaderfasttilltheendcomes,andhefindshimselfaloneintheworkadayworldagain。

  By—and—byJoroamedawayupstairs,foritwasrainy,andshecouldnotwalk。Arestlessspiritpossessedher,andtheoldfeelingcameagain,notbitterasitoncewas,butasorrowfullypatientwonderwhyonesistershouldhaveallsheasked,theothernothing。Itwasnottrue,sheknewthatandtriedtoputitaway,butthenaturalcravingforaffectionwasstrong,andAmy’shappinesswokethehungrylongingforsomeoneto`lovewithheartandsoul,andclingtowhileGodletthembetogether’。Upinthegarret,whereJo’sunquietwanderingsendedstoodfourlittlewoodenchestsinarow,eachmarkedwithitsownersname,andeachfilledwithrelicsofthechildhoodandgirlhoodendednowforall。Joglancedintothem,andwhenshecametoherown,leanedherchinontheedge,andstaredabsentlyatthechaoticcollection,tillabundleofoldexercisebookscaughthereye。Shedrewthemout,turnedthemover,andrelivedthatpleasantwinteratkindMrs。Kirke’s。Shehadsmiledatfirst,thenshelookedthoughtful,nextsad,andwhenshecametoalittlemessagewrittenintheProfessor’shand,herlipsbegantotremble,thebooksslidoutofherlap,andshesatlookingatthefriendlywords,astheytookanewmeaning,andtouchedatenderspotinherheart。

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