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  We’vemoved,andtheyhaven’t。Sonobodycares。Marriagewithoutadecentchanceofreliefisonlyasortofslave—owning;peopleoughtn’ttoowneachother。Everybodyseesthatnow。IfIrenebrokesuchlaws,whatdoesitmatter?\"

  \"It’snotformetodisagreethere,\"saidJolyon;\"butthat’sallquitebesidethemark。Thisisamatterofhumanfeeling。\"

  \"Ofcourseitis,\"criedJune,\"thehumanfeelingofthosetwoyoungthings。\"

  \"Mydear,\"saidJolyonwithgentleexasperation;\"you’retalkingnonsense。\"

  \"I’mnot。Iftheyprovetobereallyfondofeachother,whyshouldtheybemadeunhappybecauseofthepast?\"

  \"Youhaven’tlivedthatpast。Ihave——throughthefeelingsofmywife;throughmyownnervesandmyimagination,asonlyonewhoisdevotedcan。\"

  June,too,rose,andbegantowanderrestlessly。

  \"If,\"shesaidsuddenly,\"shewerethedaughterofPhilipBosinney,I

  couldunderstandyoubetter。Irenelovedhim,sheneverlovedSoames。\"

  Jolyonutteredadeepsound—thesortofnoiseanItalianpeasantwomanutterstohermule。Hishearthadbegunbeatingfuriously,buthepaidnoattentiontoit,quitecarriedawaybyhisfeelings。

  \"Thatshowshowlittleyouunderstand。NeitherInorJon,ifIknowhim,wouldmindalove—past。It’sthebrutalityofaunionwithoutlove。ThisgirlisthedaughterofthemanwhoonceownedJon’smotherasanegro—slavewasowned。Youcan’tlaythatghost;don’ttryto,June!It’saskingustoseeJonjoinedtothefleshandbloodofthemanwhopossessedJon’smotheragainstherwill。It’snogoodmincingwords;Iwantitclearonceforall。AndnowI

  mustn’ttalkanymore,orIshallhavetositupwiththisallnight。\"And,puttinghishandoverhisheart,JolyonturnedhisbackonhisdaughterandstoodlookingattheriverThames。

  June,whobynatureneversawahornet’snestuntilshehadputherheadintoit,wasseriouslyalarmed。Shecameandslippedherarmthroughhis。Notconvincedthathewasright,andsheherselfwrong,becausethatwasnotnaturaltoher,shewasyetprofoundlyimpressedbytheobviousfactthatthesubjectwasverybadforhim。Sherubbedhercheekagainsthisshoulder,andsaidnothing。

  Aftertakingherelderlycousinacross,Fleurdidnotlandatonce,butpulledinamongthereeds,intothesunshine。Thepeacefulbeautyoftheafternoonseducedforalittleonenotmuchgiventothevagueandpoetic。Inthefieldbeyondthebankwhereherskifflayup,amachinedrawnbyagreyhorsewasturninganearlyfieldofhay。Shewatchedthegrasscascadingoverandbehindthelightwheelswithfascination——itlookedsocoolandfresh。Theclickandswishblendedwiththerustleofthewillowsandthepoplars,andthecooingofawood—pigeon,inatrueriversong。Alongside,inthedeepgreenwater,weeds,likeyellowsnakes,werewrithingandnosingwiththecurrent;piedcattleonthefarthersidestoodintheshadelazilyswishingtheirtails。Itwasanafternoontodream。AndshetookoutJon’sletters——notfloweryeffusions,buthauntedintheirrecitalofthingsseenanddonebyalongingveryagreeabletoher,andallending\"YourdevotedJ。\"Fleurwasnotsentimental,herdesireswereeverconcreteandconcentrated,butwhatpoetrytherewasinthedaughterofSoamesandAnnettehadcertainlyinthoseweeksofwaitinggatheredroundhermemoriesofJon。Theyallbelongedtograssandblossom,flowersandrunningwater。Sheenjoyedhiminthescentsabsorbedbyhercrinklingnose。ThestarscouldpersuadeherthatshewasstandingbesidehiminthecentreofthemapofSpain;andofanearlymorningthedewycobwebs,thehazysparkleandpromiseofthedaydowninthegarden,wereJonpersonifiedtoher。

  Twowhiteswanscamemajesticallyby,whileshewasreadinghisletters,followedbytheirbroodofsixyoungswansinaline,withjustsomuchwaterbetweeneachtailandhead,aflotillaofgreydestroyers。Fleurthrustherlettersback,gotouthersculls,andpulleduptothelanding—stage。Crossingthelawn,shewonderedwhethersheshouldtellherfatherofJune’svisit。Ifhelearnedofitfromthebutler,hemightthinkitoddifshedidnot。Itgaveher,too,anotherchancetostartleoutofhimthereasonofthefeud。Shewent,therefore,uptheroadtomeethim。

  SoameshadgonetolookatapatchofgroundonwhichtheLocalAuthoritieswereproposingtoerectaSanatoriumforpeoplewithweaklungs。Faithfultohisnativeindividualism,hetooknopartinlocalaffairs,contenttopaytherateswhichwerealwaysgoingup。

  Hecouldnot,however,remainindifferenttothisnewanddangerousscheme。Thesitewasnothalfamilefromhisownhouse。Hewasquiteofopinionthatthecountryshouldstampouttuberculosis;butthiswasnottheplace。Itshouldbedonefartheraway。Hetook,indeed,anattitudecommontoalltrueForsytes,thatdisabilityofanysortinotherpeoplewasnothisaffair,andtheStateshoulddoitsbusinesswithoutprejudicinginanywaythenaturaladvantageswhichhehadacquiredorinherited。Francie,themostfree—spiritedForsyteofhisgeneration(exceptperhapsthatfellowJolyon)hadonceaskedhiminhermaliciousway:\"DidyoueverseethenameForsyteinasubscriptionlist,Soames?\"Thatwasasitmightbe,butaSanatoriumwoulddepreciatetheneighbourhood,andheshouldcertainlysignthepetitionwhichwasbeinggotupagainstit。

  Returningwiththisdecisionfreshwithinhim,hesawFleurcoming。

  Shewasshowinghimmoreaffectionoflate,andthequiettimedownherewithherinthissummerweatherhadbeenmakinghimfeelquiteyoung;AnnettewasalwaysrunninguptoTownforonethingoranother,sothathehadFleurtohimselfalmostasmuchashecouldwish。Tobesure,youngMonthadformedahabitofappearingonhismotor—cyclealmosteveryotherday。Thankgoodness,theyoungfellowhadshavedoffhishalf—toothbrushes,andnolongerlookedlikeamountebank!WithagirlfriendofFleur’swhowasstayinginthehouse,andaneighbouringyouthorso,theymadetwocouplesafterdinner,inthehall,tothemusicoftheelectricpianola,whichperformedFox—trotsunassisted,withasurprisedshineonitsexpressivesurface。Annette,even,nowandthenpassedgracefullyupanddowninthearmsofoneorotheroftheyoungmen。AndSoames,comingtothedrawing—roomdoor,wouldlifthisnosealittlesideways,andwatchthem,waitingtocatchasmilefromFleur;thenmovebacktohischairbythedrawing—roomhearth,toperuseTheTimesorsomeothercollector’spricelist。Tohisever—anxiouseyesFleurshowednosignsofrememberingthatcapriceofhers。

  Whenshereachedhimonthedustyroad,heslippedhishandwithinherarm。

  \"Who,doyouthink,hasbeentoseeyou,Dad?Shecouldn’twait!

  Guess!\"

  \"Ineverguess,\"saidSoamesuneasily。\"Who?\"

  \"Yourcousin,JuneForsyte。\"

  QuiteunconsciouslySoamesgrippedherarm。\"Whatdidshewant?\"

  \"Idon’tknow。Butitwasratherbreakingthroughthefeud,wasn’tit?\"

  \"Feud?Whatfeud?\"

  \"Theonethatexistsinyourimagination,dear。\"

  Soamesdroppedherarm。Wasshemocking,ortryingtodrawhimon?

  \"Isupposeshewantedmetobuyapicture,\"hesaidatlast。

  \"Idon’tthinkso。Perhapsitwasjustfamilyaffection。\"

  \"She’sonlyafirstcousinonceremoved,\"mutteredSoames。

  \"Andthedaughterofyourenemy。\"

  \"Whatd’youmeanbythat?\"

  \"Ibegyourpardon,dear;Ithoughthewas。\"

  \"Enemy!\"repeatedSoames。\"It’sancienthistory。Idon’tknowwhereyougetyournotions。\"

  \"FromJuneForsyte。\"

  Ithadcometoherasaninspirationthatifhethoughtsheknew,orwereontheedgeofknowledge,hewouldtellher。

  Soameswasstartled,butshehadunderratedhiscautionandtenacity。

  \"Ifyouknow,\"hesaidcoldly,\"whydoyouplagueme?\"

  Fleursawthatshehadoverreachedherself。

  \"Idon’twanttoplagueyou,darling。Asyousay,whywanttoknowmore?Whywanttoknowanythingofthat’small’mystery——Jem’enfiche,asProfondsays?\"

  \"Thatchap!\"saidSoamesprofoundly。

  Thatchap,indeed,playedaconsiderable,ifinvisible,partthissummer——forhehadnotturnedupagain。EversincetheSundaywhenFleurhaddrawnattentiontohimprowlingonthelawn,Soameshadthoughtofhimagooddeal,andalwaysinconnectionwithAnnette,fornoreason,exceptthatshewaslookinghandsomerthanforsometimepast。Hispossessiveinstinct,subtle,lessformal,moreelasticsincetheWar,keptallmisgivingunderground。AsonelooksonsomeAmericanriver,quietandpleasant,knowingthatanalligatorperhapsislyinginthemudwithhissnoutjustraisedandindistinguishablefromasnagofwood——soSoameslookedontheriverofhisownexistence,subconsciousofMonsieurProfond,refusingtoseemorethanthesuspicionofhissnout。Hehadatthisepochinhislifepracticallyallhewanted,andwasasnearlyhappyashisnaturewouldpermit。Hissenseswereatrest;hisaffectionsfoundalltheventtheyneededinhisdaughter;hiscollectionwaswellknown,hismoneywellinvested;hishealthexcellent,saveforatouchoflivernowandagain;hehadnotyetbeguntoworryseriouslyaboutwhatwouldhappenafterdeath,incliningtothinkthatnothingwouldhappen。Heresembledoneofhisowngilt—edgedsecurities,andtoknockthegiltoffbyseeinganythinghecouldavoidseeingwouldbe,hefeltinstinctively,perverseandretrogressive。Thosetwocrumpledrose—leaves,Fleur’scapriceandMonsieurProfond’ssnout,wouldlevelawayifhelayonthemindustriously。

  ThateveningChance,whichvisitsthelivesofeventhebest—investedForsytes,putaclueintoFleur’shands。Herfathercamedowntodinnerwithoutahandkerchief,andhadoccasiontoblowhisnose。

  \"I’llgetyouone,dear,\"shehadsaid,andranupstairs。Inthesachetwhereshesoughtforit——anoldsachetofveryfadedsilk——

  thereweretwocompartments:oneheld,handkerchiefs;theotherwasbuttoned,andcontainedsomethingflatandhard。BysomechildishimpulseFleurunbuttonedit。Therewasaframeandinitaphotographofherselfasalittlegirl。Shegazedatit,fascinated,asoneisbyone’sownpresentment。Itslippedunderherfidgetingthumb,andshesawthatanotherphotographwasbehind。Shepressedherowndownfurther,andperceivedaface,whichsheseemedtoknow,ofayoungwoman,verygood—looking,inaveryoldstyleofeveningdress。Slippingherownphotographupoveritagain,shetookoutahandkerchiefandwentdown。Onlyonthestairsdidsheidentifythatface。Surely——surelyJon’smother!Theconvictioncameasashock。

  Andshestoodstillinaflurryofthought。Why,ofcourse!Jon’sfatherhadmarriedthewomanherfatherhadwantedtomarry,hadcheatedhimoutofher,perhaps。Then,afraidofshowingbyhermannerthatshehadlightedonhissecret,sherefusedtothinkfurther,and,shakingoutthesilkhandkerchief,enteredthedining—

  room。

  \"Ichosethesoftest,Father。\"

  \"H’m!\"saidSoames;\"Ionlyusethoseafteracold。Nevermind!\"

  ThateveningpassedforFleurinputtingtwoandtwotogether;

  recallingthelookonherfather’sfaceintheconfectioner’sshop——alookstrangeandcoldlyintimate,aqueerlook。Hemusthavelovedthatwomanverymuchtohavekeptherphotographallthistime,inspiteofhavinglosther。Unsparingandmatter—of—fact,herminddartedtohisrelationswithherownmother。Hadheeverreallylovedher?Shethoughtnot。Jonwasthesonofthewomanhehadreallyloved。Surely,then,heoughtnottomindhisdaughterlovinghim;itonlywantedgettingusedto。Andasighofsheerreliefwascaughtinthefoldsofhernightgownslippingoverherhead。

  III

  MEETINGS

  YouthonlyrecognisesAgebyfitsandstarts。Jon,forone,hadneverreallyseenhisfather’sagetillhecamebackfromSpain。ThefaceofthefourthJolyon,wornbywaiting,gavehimquiteashock——

  itlookedsowanandold。Hisfather’smaskhadbeenforcedawrybytheemotionofthemeeting,sothattheboysuddenlyrealisedhowmuchhemusthavefelttheirabsence。Hesummonedtohisaidthethought:’Well,Ididn’twanttogo!’ItwasoutofdateforYouthtodefertoAge。ButJonwasbynomeanstypicallymodern。Hisfatherhadalwaysbeen\"sojolly\"tohim,andtofeelthatonemeanttobeginagainatoncetheconductwhichhisfatherhadsufferedsixweeks’lonelinesstocurewasnotagreeable。

  Atthequestion,\"Well,oldman,howdidthegreatGoyastrikeyou?\"

  hisconscienceprickedhimbadly。ThegreatGoyaonlyexistedbecausehehadcreatedafacewhichresembledFleur’s。

  Onthenightoftheirreturn,hewenttobedfullofcompunction;butawokefullofanticipation。ItwasonlythefifthofJuly,andnomeetingwasfixedwithFleuruntiltheninth。Hewastohavethreedaysathomebeforegoingbacktofarm。Somehowhemustcontrivetoseeher!

  Inthelivesofmenaninexorablerhythm,causedbytheneedfortrousers,noteventhefondestparentscandeny。Onthesecondday,therefore,JonwenttoTown,andhavingsatisfiedhisconsciencebyorderingwhatwasindispensableinConduitStreet,turnedhisfacetowardPiccadilly。StrattonStreet,whereherClubwas,adjoinedDevonshireHouse。ItwouldbethemerestchancethatsheshouldbeatherClub。ButhedawdleddownBondStreetwithabeatingheart,noticingthesuperiorityofallotheryoungmentohimself。Theyworetheirclotheswithsuchanair;theyhadassurance;theywereold。HewassuddenlyoverwhelmedbytheconvictionthatFleurmusthaveforgottenhim。Absorbedinhisownfeelingforheralltheseweeks,hehadmislaidthatpossibility。Thecornersofhismouthdrooped,hishandsfeltclammy。Fleurwiththepickofyouthatthebeckofhersmile—Fleurincomparable!Itwasanevilmoment。Jon,however,hadagreatideathatonemustbeabletofaceanything。

  Andhebracedhimselfwiththatdourrefectioninfrontofabric—a—

  bracshop。Atthishigh—watermarkofwhatwasoncetheLondonseason,therewasnothingtomarkitoutfromanyotherexceptagreytophatortwo,andthesun。Jonmovedon,andturningthecornerintoPiccadilly,ranintoValDartiemovingtowardtheIseeumClub,towhichhehadjustbeenelected。

  \"Hallo!youngman!Whereareyouoffto?\"

  Jongushed。\"I’vejustbeentomytailor’s。\"

  Vallookedhimupanddown。\"That’sgood!I’mgoinginheretoordersomecigarettes;thencomeandhavesomelunch。\"

  Jonthankedhim。HemightgetnewsofherfromVal!

  TheconditionofEngland,thatnightmareofitsPressandPublicmen,wasseenindifferentperspectivewithinthetobacconist’swhichtheynowentered。

  \"Yes,sir;preciselythecigaretteIusedtosupplyyourfatherwith。

  Blessme!Mr。MontagueDartiewasacustomerherefrom——letmesee——

  theyearMeltonwontheDerby。Oneofmyverybestcustomershewas。\"Afaintsmileilluminedthetobacconist’sface。\"Many’sthetiphe’sgivenme,tobesure!Isupposehetookacoupleofhundredoftheseeveryweek,yearin,yearout,andneverchangedhiscigarette。Veryaffablegentleman,broughtmealotofcustom。I

  wassorryhemetwiththataccident。Onemissesanoldcustomerlikehim。\"

  Valsmiled。Hisfather’sdeceasehadclosedanaccountwhichhadbeenrunninglonger,probably,thananyother;andinaringofsmokepuffedoutfromthattime—honouredcigaretteheseemedtoseeagainhisfather’sface,dark,good—looking,moustachioed,alittlepuffy,intheonlyhaloithadearned。Hisfatherhadhisfamehere,anyway——amanwhosmokedtwohundredcigarettesaweek,whocouldgivetips,andrunaccountsforever!Tohistobacconistahero!

  Eventhatwassomedistinctiontoinherit!

  \"Ipaycash,\"hesaid;\"howmuch?\"

  \"Tohisson,sir,andcash——tenandsix。IshallneverforgetMr。

  MontagueDartie。I’veknownhimstandtalkin’tomehalfanhour。

  Wedon’tgetmanylikehimnow,witheverybodyinsuchahurry。TheWarwasbadformanners,sir——itwasbadformanners。Youwereinit,Isee。\"

  \"No,\"saidVal,tappinghisknee,\"Igotthisinthewarbefore。

  Savedmylife,Iexpect。Doyouwantanycigarettes,Jon?\"

  Ratherashamed,Jonmurmured,\"Idon’tsmoke,youknow,\"andsawthetobacconist’slipstwisted,asifuncertainwhethertosay\"GoodGod!\"or\"Now’syourchance,sir!\"

  \"That’sright,\"saidVal;\"keepoffitwhileyoucan。You’llwantitwhenyoutakeaknock。Thisisreallythesametobacco,then?\"

  \"Identical,sir;alittledearer,that’sall。Wonderfulstayingpower——theBritishEmpire,Ialwayssay。\"

  \"Sendmedownahundredaweektothisaddress,andinvoiceitmonthly。Comeon,Jon。\"

  JonenteredtheIseeumwithcuriosity。ExcepttolunchnowandthenattheHotch—Potchwithhisfather,hehadneverbeeninaLondonClub。TheIseeum,comfortableandunpretentious,didnotmove,couldnot,solongasGeorgeForsytesatonitsCommittee,wherehisculinaryacumenwasalmostthecontrollingforce。TheClubhadmadeastandagainstthenewlyrich,andithadtakenallGeorgeForsyte’sprestige,andpraiseofhimasa\"goodsportsman,\"tobringinProsperProfond。

  Thetwowerelunchingtogetherwhenthehalf—brothers—in—lawenteredthedining—room,andattractedbyGeorge’sforefinger,satdownattheirtable,Valwithhisshrewdeyesandcharmingsmile,Jonwithsolemnlipsandanattractiveshynessinhisglance。Therewasanairofprivilegearoundthatcornertable,asthoughpastmasterswereeatingthere。Jonwasfascinatedbythehypnoticatmosphere。

  Thewaiter,leaninthechaps,pervadedwithsuchfree—masonicaldeference。HeseemedtohangonGeorgeForsyte’slips,towatchthegloatinhiseyewithakindofsympathy,tofollowthemovementsoftheheavyclub—markedsilverfondly。HisliveriedarmandconfidentialvoicealarmedJon,theycamesosecretlyoverhisshoulder。

  ExceptforGeorge’s\"Yourgrandfathertippedmeonce;hewasadeucedgoodjudgeofacigar!\"neitherhenortheotherpastmastertookanynoticeofhim,andhewasgratefulforthis。Thetalkwasallaboutthebreeding,points,andpricesofhorses,andhelistenedtoitvaguelyatfirst,wonderinghowitwaspossibletoretainsomuchknowledgeinahead。Hecouldnottakehiseyesoffthedarkpastmaster——whathesaidwassodeliberateanddiscouraging——suchheavy,queer,smiled—outwords。Jonwasthinkingofbutterflies,whenheheardhimsay:

  \"IwanttoseeMr。SoamesForsydetakeaninterestin’orses。\"

  \"OldSoames!He’stoodryafile!\"

  WithallhismightJontriednottogrowred,whilethedarkpastmasterwenton。

  \"Hisdaughter’sanattractivesmallgirl。Mr。SoamesForsydeisabitold—fashioned。Iwanttoseehimhaveapleasuresomeday。\"

  GeorgeForsytegrinned。

  \"Don’tyouworry;he’snotsomiserableashelooks。He’llnevershowhe’senjoyinganything——theymighttryandtakeitfromhim。

  OldSoames!Oncebit,twiceshy!\"

  \"Well,Jon,\"saidVal,hastily,\"ifyou’vefinished,we’llgoandhavecoffee。\"

  \"Whowerethose?\"Jonasked,onthestairs。\"Ididn’tquite———\"

  \"OldGeorgeForsyteisafirstcousinofyourfather’sandofmyUncleSoames。He’salwaysbeenhere。Theotherchap,Profond,isaqueerfish。Ithinkhe’shangingroundSoames’wife,ifyouaskme!\"

  Jonlookedathim,startled。\"Butthat’sawful,\"hesaid:\"Imean——

  forFleur。\"

  \"Don’tsupposeFleurcaresverymuch;she’sveryup—to—date。\"

  \"Hermother!\"

  \"You’reverygreen,Jon。\"

  Jongrewred。\"Mothers,\"hestammeredangrily,\"aredifferent。\"

  \"You’reright,\"saidValsuddenly;\"butthingsaren’twhattheywerewhenIwasyourage。There’sa’To—morrowwedie’feeling。That’swhatoldGeorgemeantaboutmyUncleSoames。Hedoesn’tmeantodieto—morrow。\"

  Jonsaid,quickly:\"What’sthematterbetweenhimandmyfather?\"

  \"Stablesecret,Jon。Takemyadvice,andbottleup。You’lldonogoodbyknowing。Havealiqueur?\"

  Jonshookhishead。

  \"Ihatethewaypeoplekeepthingsfromone,\"hemuttered,\"andthensneeratoneforbeinggreen。\"

  \"Well,youcanaskHolly。Ifshewon’ttellyou,you’llbelieveit’sforyourowngood,Isuppose。\"

  Jongotup。\"Imustgonow;thanksawfullyforthelunch。\"

  Valsmiledupathimhalf—sorry,andyetamused。Theboylookedsoupset。

  \"Allright!SeeyouonFriday。\"

  \"Idon’tknow,\"murmuredJon。

  Andhedidnot。Thisconspiracyofsilencemadehimdesperate。Itwashumiliatingtobetreatedlikeachild!HeretracedhismoodystepstoStrattonStreet。ButhewouldgotoherClubnow,andfindouttheworst!TohisenquirythereplywasthatMissForsytewasnotintheClub。Shemightbeinperhapslater。ShewasofteninonMonday——theycouldnotsay。Jonsaidhewouldcallagain,and,crossingintotheGreenPark,flunghimselfdownunderatree。Thesunwasbright,andabreezeflutteredtheleavesoftheyounglime—

  treebeneathwhichhelay;buthisheartached。Suchdarknessseemedgatheredroundhishappiness。HeheardBigBenchime\"Three\"abovethetraffic。Thesoundmovedsomethinginhim,and,takingoutapieceofpaper,hebegantoscribbleonitwithapencil。Hehadjottedastanza,andwassearchingthegrassforanotherverse,whensomethinghardtouchedhisshoulder—agreenparasol。ThereabovehimstoodFleur!

  \"Theytoldmeyou’dbeen,andwerecomingback。SoIthoughtyoumightbeouthere;andyouare——it’sratherwonderful!\"

  \"Oh,Fleur!Ithoughtyou’dhaveforgottenme。\"

  \"WhenItoldyouthatIshouldn’t!\"

  Jonseizedherarm。

  \"It’stoomuchluck!Let’sgetawayfromthisside。\"HealmostdraggedheronthroughthattoothoughtfullyregulatedPark,tofindsomecoverwheretheycouldsitandholdeachother’shands。

  \"Hasn’tanybodycutin?\"hesaid,gazingroundatherlashes,insuspenseabovehercheeks。

  \"Thereisayoungidiot,buthedoesn’tcount。\"

  Jonfeltatwitchofcompassionforthe—youngidiot。

  \"YouknowI’vehadsunstroke;Ididn’ttellyou。\"

  \"Really!Wasitinteresting?\"

  \"No。Motherwasanangel。Hasanythinghappenedtoyou?\"

  \"Nothing。ExceptthatIthinkI’vefoundoutwhat’swrongbetweenourfamilies,Jon。\"

  Hisheartbeganbeatingveryfast。

  \"Ibelievemyfatherwantedtomarryyourmother,andyourfathergotherinstead。\"

  \"Oh!\"

  \"Icameonaphotoofher;itwasinaframebehindaphotoofme。

  Ofcourse,ifhewasveryfondofher,thatwouldhavemadehimprettymad,wouldn’tit?\"

  Jonthoughtforaminute。\"Notifshelovedmyfatherbest。\"

  \"Butsupposetheywereengaged?\"

  \"Ifwewereengaged,andyoufoundyoulovedsomebodybetter,Imightgocracked,butIshouldn’tgrudgeityou。\"

  \"Ishould。Youmustn’teverdothatwithme,Jon。

  \"MyGod!Notmuch!\"

  \"Idon’tbelievethathe’severreallycaredformymother。\"

  Jonwassilent。Val’swords——thetwopastmastersintheClub!

  \"Yousee,wedon’tknow,\"wentonFleur;\"itmayhavebeenagreatshock。Shemayhavebehavedbadlytohim。Peopledo。\"

  \"Mymotherwouldn’t。\"

  Fleurshruggedhershoulders。\"Idon’tthinkweknowmuchaboutourfathersandmothers。Wejustseetheminthelightofthewaytheytreatus;butthey’vetreatedotherpeople,youknow,beforewewereborn—plenty,Iexpect。Yousee,they’rebothold。Lookatyourfather,withthreeseparatefamilies!\"

  \"Isn’tthereanyplace,\"criedJon,\"inallthisbeastlyLondonwherewecanbealone?\"

  \"Onlyataxi。\"

  \"Let’sgetone,then。\"

  Whentheywereinstalled,Fleuraskedsuddenly:\"AreyougoingbacktoRobinHill?Ishouldliketoseewhereyoulive,Jon。I’mstayingwithmyauntforthenight,butIcouldgetbackintimefordinner。Iwouldn’tcometothehouse,ofcourse。\"

  Jongazedatherenraptured。

  \"Splendid!Icanshowityoufromthecopse,weshan’tmeetanybody。

  There’satrainatfour。\"

  ThegodofpropertyandhisForsytesgreatandsmall,leisured,official,commercial,orprofessional,liketheworkingclasses,stillworkedtheirsevenhoursaday,sothatthosetwoofthefourthgenerationtravelleddowntoRobinHillinanemptyfirst—classcarriage,dustyandsun—warmed,ofthattooearlytrain。Theytravelledinblissfulsilence,holdingeachother’shands。

  Atthestationtheysawnooneexceptporters,andavillagerortwounknowntoJon,andwalkedoutupthelane,whichsmelledofdustandhoneysuckle。

  ForJon——sureofhernow,andwithoutseparationbeforehim——itwasamiraculousdawdle,morewonderfulthanthoseontheDowns,oralongtheriverThames。Itwaslove—in—a—mist——oneofthoseilluminedpagesofLife,whereeverywordandsmile,andeverylighttouchtheygaveeachotherwereaslittlegoldandredandbluebutterfliesandflowersandbirdsscrolledinamongthetext——ahappycommuning,withoutafterthought,whichlastedthirty—sevenminutes。Theyreachedthecoppiceatthemilkinghour。Jonwouldnottakeherasfarasthefarmyard;onlytowhereshecouldseethefieldleadinguptothegardens,andthehousebeyond。Theyturnedinamongthelarches,andsuddenly,atthewindingofthepath,cameonIrene,sittingonanoldlogseat。

  Therearevariouskindsofshocks:tothevertebrae;tothenerves;

  tomoralsensibility;and,morepotentandpermanent,topersonaldignity。ThislastwastheshockJonreceived,comingthusonhismother。Hebecamesuddenlyconsciousthathewasdoinganindelicatething。TohavebroughtFleurdownopenly——yes!Buttosneakherinlikethis!Consumedwithshame,heputonafrontasbrazenashisnaturewouldpermit。

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