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  minginblackmolassesandporkgravy。

  Hendersonlookedatitamoment;thenoverhisfacecamealookofutterdespair。

  Hedroppedhisheadinhisarmsandbrokeintouncontrolledcrying。

  \"Oh,myGod,Gillispie,\"hesobbed,\"I

  shalldieouthereinthiswretchedhole!I

  wantmymother。GreatGod,Gillispie,amIgoingtodiewithouteverseeingmymother?\"

  Gillispie,maddenedatthisanguish,whichhecouldinnowayalleviate,soughtcomfortbyfirstlightinghispipeandthentakinghisrevolveroutofhiship-pocketandplayingwithit。Hendersoncontinuedtoshakewithsobs,andCatherine,whohadneverbeforeinherlifeheardamancry,leanedagainstthedoorforamomenttogathercourage。

  Thensheranintothehousequickly,laugh-

  ingasshecame。ShetookHenderson\'sarmsawayfromhisfaceandlaidhimbackonthepillow,andshestoopedoverhimandkissedhisforeheadinthemostmatter-

  of-factway。

  \"That\'swhatyourmotherwoulddoifshewerehere,\"shecried,merrily。\"Where\'sthewater?\"

  Shewashedhisfaceandhandsalongtime,tilltheywerecoolandhisconvulsivesobshadceased。Thenshetookasliceofthinbreadfromherbasketandaspoonfulofamberjelly。Shebeataneggintosomemilkanddroppedalittleliquorwithinit,andservedthemtogetheronthefirstcleannapkinthathadbeeninthecabinofthethreeJohnssinceitwasbuiltAtthisthegreatfoolonthebedcriedagain,onlyquietly,tearsofweakhappi-

  nessrunningfromhisfeverisheyes。AndCatherinestraightenedthedisorderlycabin。

  Shecameeverydayfortwoweeks,andbythattimeHenderson,veryuncertainastothestrengthofhislegs,butoncemoreaccoutredinhisnativepluck,satupinachair,forwhichshehadmadecleansoftcushions,writingalettertohismother。Thefloorwasscrubbed;thecabinhadtakentoitselfcupboardsmadeofpacking-boxes;ithadclothes-pressesandshelves;curtainsatthewindows;boxesforallsortofnecessaries,fromflourtotobacco;andacook-bookonthewall,withaninscriptionwithinwhichwasmoreappropriatethanrespectful。

  Thedaythatsheannouncedthatshewouldhavenofurthercalltocomeback,Waite,whowaslookingafterthehousewhileGillispiewasafield,madealittlespeech。

  \"Afterthishere,\"hesaid,\"wefourstandserfallstogether。Nowlookhere,there\'slotsofthingscanhappentoapersononthiscussedpraira,andnoonebenoneth\'wiser。Soseehere,Mis\'Ford,everynightoneofusisa-goin\'toth\'roofofthisshack。Fromtherewecanseeyourplace。

  Ifanythingisth\'matter——itdon\'tsignifyhowlittleerhowbig——youhangalanternonth\'stickthatI\'llputalongsideth\'houseto-morrow。Yehcanh\'istth\'lightupwithastring,andeverymornin\'beforewegooutwe\'lllooktoo,andawhiterag\'llbringusquickaswecangitthere。Wedon\'tsaynothin\'aboutwhatweoweyeh,furthatain\'tourway,butwestickstoeachotherfromthison。”

  Catherine\'seyesweremoist。ShelookedatHenderson。Hisfacehadnoexpressioninitatall。Hedidnotevensaygood-bytoher,andsheturned,withthetearssud-

  denlydriedunderherlids,andwalkeddowntheroadinthetwilight。

  Weekswentby,andthoughGillispieandWaitewereoftenatCatherine\'s,Hendersonnevercame。GillispiegaveitoutashisopinionthatHendersonwasanungratefulpuppy;butWaitesaidnothing。Thisstrangeman,whoseemedlikeamereunto-

  wardaccidentofnature,hadchangeddur-

  ingthesummer。Hisbigill-shapedbodyhadgrownmoregaunt;hisdeep-setgrayeyeshadsunkdeeper;thegentlenesswhichhaddistinguishedhimevenonthewildrangesofMontanabecamemoremarked。

  LateinAugusthevolunteeredtotakeonhimselftheentirechargeofthenightwatch。

  \"It\'snicertobeoutatnight,\"hesaidtoCatherine。\"Thenyoudon\'tkeeplook-

  ingoffatthings;youcanlookinside;\"andhestruckhisbreastwithhissplayhand。

  Cattlearetimorousunderthestars。Thevastnessoftheplains,thesweepofthewindundertheunbrokenarch,frightenthem;

  theyaremadefortheclosecomfortsofthebarn-yard;andtheapprehensioniscon-

  tagious,aseveryranchmanknows。Waiterealizedtheneedofbecominggoodfriendswithhisanimals。Nightafternight,ridingupanddowninthetwilightofthestars,ordozing,rolledinhisblanket,intheshelterofaknoll,hewouldhearalowroar;itwasthecryofthealarmist。Thenfromeverydirectionthecattlewouldrisewithtremblingawkwardnessontheirknees,andanswer,givingoutsullenbellowings。Someofthemwouldbegintomovefromplacetoplace,spreadingthebaselessalarm,andthencamethetimeforaction,elseovertheplaininmerefruitlessfrenzywouldgothewholefranticband,lashedtomadnessbytheirownfears,tramplingeachother,heed-

  lessofanyobstacle,inpitiable,deadlyrout。

  Waiteknewthepremonitorysignswell,andatthefirstwarningbellowhewasonhisfeet,alertanddetermined,hisenergynervedforastruggleinwhichhealwaysconquered。

  Waitehadasecretwhichhetoldtonone,knowing,inhisunanalyticalfashion,thatitwouldnotbebelievedin。Butsoonaseverthedarkheadsofthecattlebegantoliftthemselves,hesentaresonantvoiceoutintothestillness。Thesongshesangwerehymns,andhemadethemintoasortofimperativelullaby。Waitelethislungsandsoulfillwiththebreathofthenight;

  hegavehimselfuptotheexaltationofmasteringthosetremblingbrutes。Mount-

  ing,melodious,withevenandpowerfulswinghelethisfullnotesfallontheairintheconfidenceofpower,andonebyonethereassuredcattlewouldliedownagain,lowinginsoftcontentment,andsofallasleepwithnosesstretchedoutinmuteattention,tilltheirpresencecouldhardlybeguessedexceptforthesweetaromaoftheircuds。

  Onenightintheearlydusk,hesawCath-

  erineFordhasteningacrosstheprairiewithBillDeems。Hesentahallooouttothem,whichtheybothansweredastheyranon。

  WaiteknewonwhaterrandofmercyCath-

  erinewasbent,andhethoughtofthechil-

  drenoveratthecabinalone。Thecattlewerequiet,thenightbeautiful,andhecon-

  cludedthatitwassafeenough,sincehewasonhispony,toridedownthereaboutmid-

  nightandseethatthelittleonesweresafe。

  Thedarksky,prickedwithpointsofin-

  tensestlight,hungoverhimsobeneficentlythatinhisheartthereleapedajoywhichevenhisever-presentsorrowcouldnotdis-

  turb。ThissorrowWaiteopenlyadmittednotonlytohimself,buttoothers。HehadsaidtoCatherine:\"Yousee,I\'llalwayshevtoloveyeh。An\'yeh\'llnotgitcrosswithme;I\'mnotgoin\'tobeinth\'way。”AndCatherinehadtoldhim,withtearsinhereyes,thathislovecouldneverbebutacom-

  forttoanywoman。Andthesewords,whichthepoorfellowhadinnosensemistaken,comfortedhimalways,becamepartofhisjoyasherodethere,underthosepiercingstars,tolookafterherlittleones。Hefoundthemsleepingintheirbunks,thebabytightinKitty\'sarms,thelittleboyabovethemintheupperbunk,withhishandinthelonghairofhisbrownspaniel。Waitesoftlykissedeachofthem,soKitty,whowashalfwaking,toldhermotherafterwards,andthen,bethinkinghimthatCatherinemightnotbeabletoreturnintimefortheirbreak-

  fast,foundthemilkandbread,andsetitforthemonthetable。Catherinehadbeenwriting,andherunfinishedletterlayopenbesidetheink。Hetookupthepenandwrote,\"Thechilddrenwasallasleepattwelv。

  \"J。W。”

  Hehadnotmorethangotonhisponyagainbeforeheheardanominoussoundthatmadehisheartleap。Itwasafranticdullpoundingofhoofs。Heknewinasecondwhatitmeant。Therewasastam-

  pedeamongthecattle。Iftheanimalshadallbeenhis,hewouldnothavelosthissenseofjudgment。Buttherealizationthathehadvoluntarilyundertakenthecareofthem,andthatthelargerpartofthembelongedtohisfriends,puthiminapassionofappre-

  hensionthat,asaranchman,wasalmostin-

  explicable。Hedidtheverythingofallothersthatnocattle-maninhisrightsenseswouldthinkofdoing。GillispieandHender-

  son,talkingitoverafterward,wereneverabletounderstandit。Itispossible——justbarelypossible——thatWaite,stilldrunkonhissolitarydreams,knewwhathewasdoing,andchosetobringhislittlechaptertoanendwhilethelineswerepleasant。Atanyrate,herodestraightforward,shoutingandwavinghisarmsinaninsaneendeavortoheadoffthatfranticmob。Thenoisewokethechildren,andtheypeeredfromthewindowasthepawingandbellowingherdplungedby,tramplingtheyoungsteersundertheirfeet。

  Intheearlymorning,CatherineFord,spentbothinmindandbody,camewalkingslowlyhome。Inherheartwasaprayerofthanks-

  giving。MaryDeemslaysleepingbackinhercomfortlessshack,withherlittlesonbyherside。

  \"ThewonderofGodisinit,\"saidCath-

  erinetoherselfasshewalkedhome。\"AlltheministersofalltheworldcouldnothavepreachedmesuchasermonasI\'vehadto-night。”

  Sodimhadbeenthelightandsoper-

  turbedhermindthatshehadnotnoticedhowtornandtrampledwastheroad。Butsuddenlyabulkinherpathwaystartledher。

  Itwasthedeadandmangledbodyofasteer。

  Shestoopedoverittoreadthebrandonitsflank。\"It\'soneofthethreeJohns\',\"shecriedout,lookinganxiouslyabouther。

  \"Howcouldthathavehappened?\"

  Thedirectionwhichthecattlehadtakenwastowardherhouse,andshehastenedhomeward。AndnotaquarterofamilefromherdoorshefoundthebodyofWaitebesidethatofhispony,crushedoutofitsfamiliarformintosomethingunspeakablyshapeless。Inherexcitementshehalfdragged,halfcarriedthatmutilatedbodyhome,andthenranuphersignalofalarmonthestickthatWaitehimselfhaderectedforherconvenience。Shethoughtitwouldbealongtimebeforeanyonereachedher,butshehadhardlyhadtimetobathethedisfiguredfaceandstraightenthedisfiguredbodybeforeHendersonwaspoundingatherdoor。Outsidestoodhisponypantingfromitsterrificexertions。Hendersonhadnotseenherbeforeforsixweeks。Nowhestaredatherwithfrightenedeyes。

  \"Whatisit?Whatisit?\"hecried。

  \"Whathashappenedtoyou,my——mylove?\"

  Atleastafterward,thinkingitoverassheworkedbydayortossedinhernarrowbunkatnight,itseemedtoCatherinethatthosewerethewordshespoke。Yetshecouldneverfeelsure;nothinginhismannerafterthatjustifiedtheimpassionedanxietyofhismannerinthosefirstfewuncertainmoments;

  forasecondlaterhesawthebodyofhisfriendandlearnedthelittlethatCatherineknew。Theyburiedhimthenextdayinalittlehollowwheretherewasaspringandsomewildaspens。

  \"Heneverlikedtheprairie,\"Catherinesaid,whensheselectedthespot。\"AndI

  wanthimtolieasshelteredaspossible。”

  Afterhehadbeenlaidatrest,andshewasback,busywithtidyingherneglectedshack,shefelltocryingsothatthechildrenwerescared。

  \"There\'snoonelefttocarewhatbecomesofus,\"shetoldthem,bitterly。\"Wemightstarveouthereforallthatanyonecares。”

  Andallthroughthenighthertearsfell,andshetoldherselfthattheywereallforthemanwhoselastthoughtwasforherandherbabies;shetoldherselfoverandoveragainthathertearswereallforhim。Afterthistheautumnbegantohurryon,andthesnowfellcapriciously,daysofbitingcoldgivingplacetoretrospectiveglancesatsummer。

  Thelastofthevegetablesweretakenoutofthegardenandburiedinthecellar;andafewtonsofcoal——dearalmostasdiamonds——werebroughtouttoprovideagainsttheseverestweather。Ordinarilybuffalochipswerethefuel。Catherinewasalarmedatthewayherwretchedlittlestoreofmoneybegantovanish。Thebabywasfretfulwithitsteething,andwasreallymorecarethanwhenshenursedit。Thedaysshortened,anditseemedtoherthatshewasforeverworkingbylamp-lightTheprairieswerebrownandforbidding,theskyoftenameregraypall。Themonotonyofthelifebegantoseemterrible。Sometimesherearsachedforasound。Foratimeinthesummersomanyhadseemedtoneedherthatshehadbeenhappyinspiteofherpovertyandherloneliness。Now,suddenly,noonewantedher。Shecouldfindnosourceofinspiration。

  Shewonderedhowshewasgoingtolivethroughthewinter,andkeepherpatienceandhergood-nature。

  \"You\'llloveme,\"shesaid,almostfiercely,onenighttothechildren——\"you\'lllovemamma,nomatterhowcrossandhomelyshegets,won\'tyou?\"

  Thecoldgrewdaybyday。Astrongwinterwassettingin。Catherinetookupherstudyofmedicineagain,andsatoverherbookstillmidnight。Itoccurredtoherthatshemightfitherselffornursingbyspring,andthatthechildrencouldbeputwithsomeone——shedidnotdaretothinkwithwhom。Butthiswastheonlysolutionshecouldfindtoherproblemofexistence。

  Novembersettleddowndrearily。Fewpassedtheshack。Catherine,whohadnoonetospeakwithexceptingthechildren,continuallydevisedamusementsforthem。

  Theygottolivinginaworldoffantasy,andwereneverthemselves,butalwayswildIndians,orarcticexplorers,orRobinsonCrusoes。KittyandRoderick,youngastheywere,foundanever-endingsourceofamusementintheselittlegrotesquedreamsanddramas。Thefundofmoneywasget-

  tingsolowthatCatherinewasobligedtoeconomizeeveninthenecessities。Ifithadnotbeenforhertwocows,shewouldhardlyhaveknownhowtofindfoodforherlittleones。Butshehadawonderfulwayofmak-

  ingthingswitheggsandmilk,andshekeptherlittletablealwaysinviting。ThedaybeforeThanksgivingshedeterminedthattheyshouldallhaveafrolic。

  \"ByChristmas,\"shesaidtoKitty,\"thesnowmaybesobadthatIcannotgettotown。We\'llhaveourhigholdtimenow。”

  ThereisnodenyingthatCatherineusedslangevenintalkingtothechildren。Thelittleponyhadbeensoldlongago,andgoingtotownmeantawalkoftwelvemiles。

  ButCatherinestartedoutearlyinthemorning,andwasbackbynightfall,notsoverymuchtheworse,andcarryinginherarmsbundleswhichmighthavefatiguedabronco。

  Thenextmorningshewasupearly,andwasashappyandridiculouslyexcitedovertheprospectoftheday\'smerrymakingasifshehadbeenKitty。Busyasshewas,shenoticedapeculiaroppressionintheair,whichintensifiedasthedaywenton。Theskyseemedtohangbutalittlewayabovetherollingstretchoffrost-bittengrass。ButKittylaughingoverhernewdoll,Roderickstartlingthesullensilencewithhisdrum,thesmellofthechicken,slaughteredtomakeaprairieholiday,browningintheoven,droveallapprehensionsfromCath-

  erine\'smind。Shewasacommoncreature。

  Suchverylittlethingscouldmakeherhappy。

  Shesangassheworked;andwhatwiththedrummingofherboy,andthelittleexultingshrieksofherbaby,theshackwasfilledwithadeafeningandexhilaratingdin。

  Itwasalittlepastnoon,whenshebecameconsciousthattherewassweepingdownonheragraysheetofsnowandice,andnottillthendidsherealizewhatthoseloweringcloudshadsignified。Foronemomentshestoodhalfparalyzed。Shethoughtofevery-

  thing,——ofthecattle,ofthechanceforbeingburiedinthisdrift,ofthestockofprovi-

  sions,ofthepowerofenduranceofthechildren。Whileshewasstillthinking,thefirstice-needlesoftheblizzardcamepepper-

  ingthewindows。Thecattleranbellowingtotheleesideofthehouseandcrouchedthere,andthechickensscurriedforthecoop。

  Catherineseizedsuchblanketsandbitsofcarpetasshecouldfind,andcrammedthematwindowsanddoors。Thenshepiledcoalonthefire,andclothedthechildreninalltheyhadthatwaswarmest,theirout-doorgar-

  mentsincluded;andwiththemcloseabouther,shesatandwaited。Thewindseemedtopushsteadilyatthewallsofthehouse。

  Thehowlingbecamehorrible。Shecouldseethatthechildrenwerecryingwithfright,butshecouldnothearthem。Theairwasdusky;thecold,inspiteofthefire,intol-

  erable。Ineverycreviceofthewretchedstructuretheiceandsnowmadetheirway。

  Itcamethroughtheroof,andbeganpilingupinlittlepointedstripsunderthecrevices。

  Catherineputthechildrenalltogetherinonebunk,coveredthemwithallthebed-

  clothesshehad,andthenstoodbeforethemdefiantly,facingthewest,fromwhencethewindwasdriving。Notsuddenly,butbysteadypressure,atlengththewindow-sashyielded,andthenextmomentthatwhirlwindwasinthehouse,——amaddeningtumultoficeandwind,leavingnoroomforresistance;

  akillingcold,againstwhichitwasfutiletofight。Catherinethrewthebedclothesovertheheadsofthechildren,andthenthrewherselfacrossthebunk,gaspingandchok-

  ingforbreath。Herbodywouldnothaveyieldedtothesufferingyet,sostronglymadeandsustainedwasit;butherdismaystifledher。Shesawinonehorrifiedmomentthefrozenformsofherbabies,nowsopinkandpleasanttothesense;andoblivioncametosaveherfromfurthermisery。

  Shewasalive——justbarelyalive——whenGillispieandHendersongotthere,threehourslater,theveryballsoftheireyesalmostfrozenintoblindness。Butforaninstinctstrongerthanreasontheywouldneverhavebeenabletohavefoundtheirwayacrossthattracklessstretch。Thechil-

  drenlyingunconsciousundertheircoveringswereneitherdeadnoractuallyfrozen,al-

  thoughthemenputtingtheirhandsontheirlittleheartscouldnotatfirstdiscoverthebeating。Stiffandsufferingastheseyoungfellowswere,itwasnoeasymattertogetthewindowbackintoplaceandre-lightthefire。Theyhadtiedflasksofliquorabouttheirwaists;andthisbeneficentfluidtheyusedwiththatsenseofappreciationwhichonlyapioneercanfeeltowardwhiskey。ItwashoursbeforeCatherinerewardedthemwithagleamofconsciousness。Herbodyhadbeenfrozeninmanyplaces。Herarms,outstretchedoverherchildrenandholdingtheclothesdownaboutthem,wererigid。

  Butconsciousnesscameatlength,dimlystrugglingupthroughherbrain;andoverhershesawherfriendsrubbingandrubbingthosestrongfirmarmsofherswithsnow。

  Shehalfraisedherhead,withahorrorofcomprehensioninhereyes,andlistened。A

  cryansweredher,——acryofdullpainfromthebaby。Hendersondroppedonhiskneesbesideher。

  \"Theyareallsafe,\"hesaid。\"Andwewillneverleaveyouagain。IhavebeenafraidtotellyouhowIloveyou。IthoughtImightoffendyou。IthoughtIoughttowait——youknowwhy。ButIwillneverletyouruntherisksofthisawfullifealoneagain。Youmustrenamethebaby。FromthisdayhisnameisJohn。AndwewillhavethethreeJohnsagainbackattheoldranch。Itdoesn\'tmatterwhetheryoulovemeornot,Catherine,Iamgoingtotakecareofyoujustthesame。Gillispieagreeswithme。”

  \"Damme,yes,\"mutteredGillispie,feelingofhiship-pocketforconsolationinhisoldmanner。

  Catherinestruggledtofindhervoice,butitwouldnotcome。

  \"Donotspeak,\"whisperedJohn。\"Tellmewithyoureyeswhetheryouwillcomeasmywifeoronlyasoursister。”

  Catherinetoldhim。

  \"ThisisThanksgivingday,\"saidhe。

  \"Andwedon\'tknowmuchaboutpraying,butIguessweallhavesomethinginourheartsthatdoesjustaswell。”

  \"Damme,yes,\"saidGillispie,again,ashepensivelycockedanduncockedhisre-

  volver。

  AResuscitationAFTERbeingdeadtwentyyears,hewalkedoutintothesunshine。

  Itwasasifthebonesofableachedskele-

  tonshouldjointhemselvesonsomeforgottenplain,andlookaboutthemforthevanishedflesh。

  Tobedeaditisnotnecessarytobeinthegrave。Thereareplaceswherethewormscreepabouttheheartinsteadofthebody。

  Thepenitentiaryisoneofthese。

  DavidCulrosshadbeeninthepenitentiarytwentyyears。Now,withthatworm-eatenheart,hecameoutintolibertyandlookedabouthimforthehabilimentswithwhichhehadformerlyclothedhimself,——forhope,self-respect,courage,pugnacity,andindustry。

  Buttheyhadvanishedandleftnotrace,likethefleshofthedeadmenontheplains,andso,morallyunapparelled,inthehideousskeletonofhismanhood,hewalkedondownthestreetunderthemid-Junesunshine。

  Youcanunderstand,canyounot,howaskeletonmightwishtogetbackintoitscomfortablegrave?DavidCulrosshadnotwalkedtwoblocksbeforehewasseizedwithanalmostuncontrollabledesiretobegtobeshieldedoncemoreinthatsafeandshamefulretreatfromwhichhehadjustbeenreleased。Ahorribleperceptionofthelargenessoftheworldsweptoverhim。

  Spaceandeternitycouldseemnolargertotheusualmanthanearth——thatsnugandinsignificantplanet——lookedtoDavidCulross。

  \"IfIgoback,\"hecried,despairingly,lookinguptothegreatbuildingthataroseabovethestonyhills,\"theywillnottakemein。”Hewasabsolutelywithoutarefuge,utterlywithoutadestination;hedidnothaveahope。Therewasnothinghedesiredexceptthesurroundingofthosefournarrowwallsbetweenwhichhehadlainatnightanddreamedthoseever-recurringdreams,——

  dreamswhichwereneverpropheciesorpromises,butalwaysthehackneyedhistoryofwhathehadsacrificedbyhiscrime,andrelinquishedbyhispride。

  Themenwhopassedhimlookedathimwithmingledamusementandpity。Theyknewthe\"prisonlook,\"andtheyknewtheprisonclothes。ForthoughtheStategivestoitsdischargedconvictsclotheswhicharelikethoseofothermen,itmakesahundredsuitsfromthesamesortofcloth。Thepoliceknowthefabric,andeventhecitizensrecognizeit。But,then,wereeachmandressedindifferentgarbhecouldnotbedisguised。Everyoneknowsinwhatdullschoolthatsidelongglanceislearned,thataimlessdroopingoftheshoulders,thatrhythmicliftingoftheheavyfoot。

  DavidCulrosswonderedifhiswillweredead。Heputittothetest。Helifteduphisheadtoapositionwhichithadnotheldformanymiserableyears。Heputhishandsinhispocketsinapitifulattemptatnon-

  chalance,andwalkeddownthestreetwithastepwhichwasmeanttobebrisk,butwhichwasinfactonlyuncertain。Inhispocketweretendollars。ThismuchtheStateequipsamanwithwhenitsendshimoutofitspenalhalls。Itgiveshimalsotransportationtoanypointwithinreasonabledistancethathemaydesiretoreach。Cul-

  rosshadrequestedatickettoChicago。HenaturallysaidChicago。Inthelongcolor-

  lessdaysithadbeeninChicagothatallthoseendlesslyrepeatedsceneshadbeenlaid。Walkingupthestreetnowwiththatwaveringineffectualgait,thesescenescamebacktosurgeinhisbrainlikewaterscease-

  lesslytossedinawind-sweptbasin。

  Therewastheoffice,bareandclean,wheretheyoungstoop-shoulderedclerkssatwrit-

  ing。Intheirfaceswasastrangeresem-

  blance,justastherewasinthebacksoftheledgers,andintheendlessbillsonthespindles。Ifoneofthemlaughed,itwasnotwithgayety,butwithgratificationatthediscomfitureofanother。Noneofthematewell。Noneofthemwererestedaftersleep。Allofthemrodeonthestuffyone-

  horsecarstoandfromtheirwork。Sun-

  daystheylayinbedverylate,andatemoredinnerthantheycoulddigest。Therewasacertainfellowshipamongthem,——suchfel-

  lowshipasabandofcaptivesamongcanni-

  balsmightfeel,eachofthemwaitingwithvitalcuriositytoseewhowasthenexttobeeaten。Butofthatfellowshipthatplansinunison,suffersinsympathy,enjoysvicari-

  ously,strengthensintofriendshipandcom-

  munionofsoultheyknewnothing。Indeed,suchcamaraderiewouldhavebeendisap-

  provedofbytheHeadClerk。Hewouldhavelookedonanemotionwithexactlythesamedispleasurethathewouldonanerrorinthefootingoftheyear\'saccounts。ItwastacitlyunderstoodthatonereachedtheproudpositionofHeadClerkbyhavingnoemotionswhatever。

  Culrossdidnotrememberhavingbeenbornwithapeninhishand,orevenwithonebehindhisear;butcertainlyfromthedayhehadbeenletoutofknickerbockershiscon-

  stantcompanionhadbeenthatgreatlyover-

  estimatedarticle。HisfatherdyingatatimethatcutshortDavid\'sschool-days,hewentoutarmedwithhisnewknowledgeofdouble-

  entry,determinedtomakeafortuneandacommercialname。Meantime,helivedinasuiteofthreeroomsonWestMadisonStreetwithhismother,whowasagoodwoman,andlivedwhereshedidthatshemightbenearherfavoritemeeting-house。Sheprayed,andcookedbaddinners,principallycomposedofdispiritingpastry。Herideaofhouse-keepingwastokeeptheshadesdown,whateverhappened;andwhenDavidlefthomeintheeveningforanypurposeofpleasure,shewept。Davidpersuadedhim-

  selfthathedespisedamusement,andwenttobedeachnightathalf-pastnineinafoldingbedsteadinthefrontroom,and,bybecomingabsolutelystolidfrommerevege-

  tation,imaginedthathewasalmostfittobeaHeadClerk。

  Walkingdownthestreetnowafterthetwentyyears,thinkingofthesedeadbutinno-

  centdays,thiswasthepicturehesaw;andashereflecteduponit,eventhedespoiledanddesolateyearsjustpassedseemedricherbycontrast。

  Hereachedthestationthusdreaming,andfound,ashehadbeentoldwhenthewardenbadehimgood-by,thatatrainwastobeathanddirectlyboundtothecity。Afewmomentslaterhewasonthattrain。Wellbackintheshadow,andoutofsightoftheotherpassengers,hegavehimselfuptotheenjoymentofthecomfortablecushion。Hewouldwillinglyhavelookedfromthewin-

  dow,——greenfieldswerenewandwonderful;

  driftingcloudsamarvel;men,houses,horses,farms,allarevelation,——butthosehauntingvisionswereathimagain,andwouldnotleavebrainoreyefreeforotherthings。

  Butthenextscenehadwarmertints。Itwastheinteriorofarichroom,——crimsonandamberfabrics,flowers,thegleamofastatuebeyondthedrapings;thesoundofatenderpianounflingingafamiliarmelody,andawoman。Shewasjustapartofalltheluxury。

  Hehimself,verytimidandconsciousofhisawkwardness,satnear,tryingbarrenlytogetsomeofhisthoughtsoutofhisbrainontohistongue。

  \"Strange,isn\'tit,\"thewomanbrokeinonherownmusic,\"thatwehaveseeneachothersoveryoftenandneverspoken?I\'veoftenthoughtintroductionswereridiculous。

  Fancyseeingapersonyearinandyearout,andreallyknowingallabouthim,andbeingperfectlyacquaintedwithhisname——atleasthisorhername,youknow——andthenneverspeaking!Someonecomesalong,andsays,\'MissLeBaron,thisisMr。

  Culross,\'justasifonedidn\'tknowthatallthetime!Andthereyouare!Youceasetobedumbfolks,andfalltotalking,andsayalotofthingsneitherofyoucareabout,andafterfiveorsixweeksoftimeandsun-

  drymeetings,getdowntohonestlysayingwhatyoumean。I\'msogladwe\'vegotthroughwiththatfirststage,andcansaywhatwethinkandtellwhatwereallylike。”

  Thentheplayingbeganagain,——aharp-

  likeinterminglingofsoftsounds。ZoeLeBaron\'shandswereverygirlish。Every-

  thingaboutherwasunformed。Evenhermindwasso。Butallpromisedafullcom-

  pletion。Thevoice,theshoulders,thesmile,thewords,thelips,thearms,thewholemindandbody,wereroundingtomaturity。

  \"Whydoyounevercometochurchinthemorning?\"asksMissLeBaron,wheel-

  ingaroundonherpiano-stoolsuddenly。

  \"Youareonlythereatnight,withyourmother。”

  \"Igoonlyonheraccount,\"repliesDavid,truthfully。\"InthemorningIamsotiredwiththeweek\'sworkthatIrestathome。

  Ioughttogo,Iknow。”

  \"Yes,youought,\"returnstheyoungwoman,gravely。\"Itdoesn\'treallyrestonetolieinbedlikethat。I\'vetrieditatboarding-school。Itwasnogoodwhatever。”

  \"Shouldyouadviseme,\"asksDavid,inaconfidingtone,\"toariseearlyonSunday?\"

  Thegirlblushesalittle。\"Byallmeans!\"

  shecries,hereyestwinkling,\"and——andcometochurch。Ourmorningsermonsarereallyverymuchbetterthanthoseintheevening。”Andsheplaysawaltz,andwhatwiththemusicandthewarmthoftheroomandtheperfumeoftheroses,asomethingnamelessandmysticalstealsoverthepoorclerk,andswatheshimaboutlikethefumesofopium。Theyarealone。Thesilenceismadedeeperbythatrhythmicunswellingofsound。Asthepainterflushesthebarewallintosplendor,theseemotionsillumi-

  natedhissoul,andgavetoitthathighcour-

  agethatcomeswhenmenorwomensuddenlyrealizethateachlifehasitssignificance,——

  theirownlivesnolessthanthelivesofothers。

  Themansittingthereintheshadowinthatnoisytrainsawinhisvisionhowtheladaroseandmoved,likeoneunderaspell,towardthepiano。Hefeltagaintheen-

  chantmentofthemusic-riddenquiet,oftheperfume,andthepresenceofthewoman。

  \"Knowingyouandspeakingwithyouhavenotmademuchdifferencewithme,\"

  hewhispers,drunkonthenewwineofpassion,\"forIhavelovedyousinceIsawyoufirst。Andthoughitissosweettohearyouspeak,yourvoiceisnomorebeautifulthanIthoughtitwouldbe。Ihavelovedyoualongtime,andIwanttoknow——\"

  Thebrokenmanintheshadowremem-

  beredhowtheladstopped,astonishedathisboldnessandhisfluency,overcomesuddenlyatthethoughtofwhathewassaying。Themusicstoppedwithadiscord。Thegirlarose,tremblingandscarlet。

  \"Iwouldnothavebelieveditofyou,\"

  shecries,\"totakeadvantageofmelikethis,whenIamalone——and——everything。

  Youknowverywellthatnothingbuttroublecouldcometoeitherofusfromyourtellingmeathinglikethat。”

  Heputshishandsuptohisfacetokeepoffheranger。Heistremblingwithconfusion。

  Thenshebrokeinpenitently,tryingtopullhishandsawayfromhishotface:

  \"Nevermind!Iknowyoudidn\'tmeananything。Begood,do,anddon\'tspoilthelovelytimeswehavetogether。Youknowverywellfatherandmotherwouldn\'tletusseeeachotheratallifthey——iftheythoughtyouweresayinganythingsuchasyousaidjustnow。”

  \"Oh,butIcan\'thelpit!\"criestheboy,despairingly。\"Ihaveneverlovedanybodyatalltillnow。Idon\'tmeannotanothergirl,youknow。ButyouarethefirstbeingIevercaredfor。IsometimesthinkmothercaresformebecauseIpaytherent。Andtheoffice——youcan\'timaginewhatthatislike。Themeninitaremovingcorpses。

  They\'reproudtobethatway,andsowasI

  tillIknewyouandlearnedwhatlifewaslike。

  AllthehappymomentsIhavehadhavebeenhere。Now,ifyoutellmethatwearenottocareforeachother——\"

  Therewassomeonecomingdownthehall。Thecurtainlifted。Amiddle-agedmanstoodtherelookingathim。

  \"Culross,\"saidhe,\"I\'mdisappointedinyou。Ididn\'tmeantolisten,butIcouldn\'thelphearingwhatyousaidjustnow。I

  don\'tblameyouparticularly。Youngmenwillbefools。AndIdonotinanywaymeantoinsultyouwhenItellyoutostopyourcominghere。Idon\'twanttoseeyouinsidethisdooragain,andafterawhileyouwillthankmeforit。Youhavetakenaveryunfairadvantageofmyinvitation。I

  makeallowancesforyouryouth。”

  Heheldbackthecurtainfortheladtopassout。Davidthrewamiserableglanceatthegirl。ShewasstandinglookingatherfatherwithanexpressionthatDavidcouldnotfathom。Hewentintothehall,pickeduphishat,andwalkedoutinsilence。

  Davidwonderedthatnight,walkingthechillystreetsafterhequittedthehouse,andoften,oftenafterward,ifthatcomfortableandprosperousgentleman,safebeyondtheperturbationsofyouth,hadanyideaofwhathehaddone。HowCOULDheknowanythingoftheblackmonotonyofthelifeofthemanheturnedfromhisdoor?The\"desk\'sdeadwood\"andallitshatefulslavery,thedulldarkenedroomswherehismotherprosedthroughendlessevenings,thebookless,joyless,hopelessexistencethathadcrampedhimallhisdaysroseupbeforehim,asastretchofunbrokenplainmayrisebeforealostmantillitmaddenshim。

  Thebowedmaninthecar-seatremem-

  beredwithaflushofreminiscentmiseryhowtheladturnedsuddenlyinhiswalkandenteredthedoorofadrinking-roomthatstoodopen。Itwasverycomfortablewithin。Thescreenskeptoutthechilloftheautumnnight,thesawdust-sprinkledfloorwasclean,thetablesplacedneartogether,thebarglittering,theattendantswhite-apronedandbrisk。

  Davidlikedtheplace,andhelikedbetterstillthelaughterthatcamefromaroomwithin。Ithadanoteinitalittledifferentfromanythinghehadeverheardbeforeinhislife,andonethatechoedhismood。Heventuredtoaskifhemightgointothefartherroom。

  Itdoesnotmeanmuchwhenmostyoungmengotoaplacelikethis。Theytaketheirbitofunwholesomedissipationquietlyenough,andarealittlecoarserandmorecarelesseachtimetheyindulgeinit,perhaps。

  Butcertainlytheiracts,whatevergradualdeteriorationtheymayindicate,bespeaknosuddenmoralrevolution。Withthisyoungclerkitwasdifferent。Hewasaworsemanfromthemomentheenteredthedoor,forhedidviolencetohisprinciples;hekilledhisself-respect。

  Hehadbeenpaidattheofficethatnight,andhehadthemoney——aweek\'smiserablepittance——inhispocket。Hiseveryactionrevealedthefactthathewasanoviceinrecklessness。Hisinnocentfacepiquedthemenwithin。Theygavehimawelcomethatamazedhim。Ofcoursetherestoftheeveningwasachaostohim。Thethroatdownwhichhepouredtheliquorwasastenderasachild\'s。Thementurnedhisheadwiththeirironicalcompliments。Theirboisterousgood-fellowshipwasasintoxicat-

  ingtothispooryoungrecluseastheliquor。

  Itwastherevulsionfromthisfeeling,whenhecametoaconsciousnessthatthemenwerelaughingathimandnotwithhim,thatwreckedhislife。Hehadgonefrombeertowhiskey,andfromwhiskeytobrandy,bythistime,atthesuggestionofthemen,andwasmakingawkwardlungeswithabilliardcue,spurredonbythemock-

  ingapplauseoftheothers。Oneyoungfellowwasparticularlyhilariousathisexpense。Hisjokesbecameinsults,orsotheyseemedtoDavid。

  Aquarrelfollowed,halfajestonthepartoftheother,allseriousasfarasDavidwasconcerned。Andthen——Well,whocouldtellhowithappened?ThebilliardcuewasinDavid\'shand,andtheskullofthejesterwassplit,ahorriblegapingthing,revolt-

  inglyanimal。

  Davidneversawhishomeagain。Hismothergaveitoutinchurchthatherheartwasbroken,andshewrotealettertoDavidbegginghimtoreform。Shesaidshewouldneverceasetoprayforhim,thathemightreturntograce。Hehadanattorney,animpecuniousandveryagedgentleman,whoselifewasavenerablefailure,andwhotalkedsomuchabouthispersonalinconveniencesfromindigestionthatheforgottotakeaverykeeninterestintheconcernsofhisclient。David\'strialmadenosensation。Hedidnotevenhavethecheapsympathyofthemorbid。Thecourt-roomwasalmostemptythedullspringdaywhentheeastwindbeatagainstthewindow,janglingtheloosepanesallthroughthereadingoftheverdict。

  Twentyyears!

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