“Well,I’mgladofthat,“shesaid。“Iain’tgotanygrudgeagainstAnnabel,butneitherhaveIgotoneagainstyou。Anothermaninthatfamilywouldhaveaneasytimeinoneway,hewouldn’thavetodoanythinkin’forhimself——Elkanahandhisdaughterwoulddoallthatwasnecessary。Soyou’renotinlove。ThenIdon’tknowwhatdoesailyou。I’llsaythis,though,forabodythatain’tinloveyoucertainlystaywiththeDanielsesalongtime。
Youwentthererightaftermeetin’thisnoonandnowit’sseveno’clockandyou’vejustgothome。And’twasthesamelastSundayandtheonebefore。Beenthereallthetime,haveyou?“
Sheknewhehadnot,becauseshehadseenhimpasstheparsonage,ontheoppositesideoftheroad,twohoursbefore。Butshewascurioustolearnwhathisreplywouldbe。Itwasnoncommittal。
“No,“hesaidslowly。“Notallthetime。I——er——wentforashortwalk。“
Beforeshecouldinquireconcerningthatwalkhehadenteredthestudyandclosedthedoorafterhim。
Duringtheweekwhichfollowedthisparticularconversationhewasmoreabsent-mindedthanever。Therewereeveningswhenhespokescarcelyaword,butsatsilentinhischair,whileKeziah,lookingupfromhermending,watchedhimandguessedandwondered。Afterhehadgonetohisroomforthenight,shewouldhearhimpacingthefloor,backandforth,backandforth。Sheaskednomorequestions,however;mindingherownbusinesswasaspecialtyofKeziah’s,anditwasararequalityinTrumet。
Sundaywasacloudy,warmday,“muggy,“soCaptainZebdescribedit。AfterthemorningserviceMr。Ellery,asusual,wenthomewithCaptainDanielsandAnnabel。Keziahreturnedtotheparsonage,atealonelydinner,washedthedishes,andsatdowntoreadalibrarybook。Shereadforanhourandthen,findingitdifficulttokeephermindonthestory,gaveitup,closedthebookand,rising,walkedtothewindow。Butthemisty,hotlonelinessoftheafternoon,wasneitherinterestingnorcheerful,sosheturnedawayandwentupstairstoherownroom。Hertrunkwasinonecornerofthisroomandsheunlockedit,takingfromacompartmentofthetrayarosewoodwritingcase,inlaidwithmother-of-pearl,apresentfromherfather,whohadbroughtithomefromseawhenshewasagirl。
Fromthecaseshetookapacketoflettersandadaguerreotype。
Thelatterwastheportraitofayoungman,inhigh-collaredcoat,stock,andfancywaistcoat。Hishair,wornlongovertheears,wassmoothwithashinethatsuggestedoil,andinhisshirtfrontwasalargepin,whichmightpossiblyhavebeenmistakenbyacredulousobserverforadiamond。Mrs。Coffinlookedatthedaguerreotype,sighed,shuddered,andlaiditaside。Thensheopenedthepacketofletters。Selectingonefromthetopofthepile,shereaditslowly。And,assheread,shesighedagain。
Shedidnothearthebackdooroftheparsonageopenandclosesoftly。Nordidshehearthecautiousfootstepsintheroomsbelow。Whatarousedherfromherreadingwasherownname,spokenatthefootofthestairs。
“Keziah!Keziah,areyouthere?“
Shestarted,sprangup,andranoutintothehall,theletterstillinherhand。
“Whoisit?“sheaskedsharply。“Mr。Ellery,isthatyou?“
“No,“wastheanswer。“It’sme——Nat。Areyoubusy,Keziah?I
wanttoseeyouforaminute。“
Thehousekeeperhurriedlythrusttheletterintoherwaist。
“I’llberightdown,Nat,“sheanswered。“I’mcomin’。“
Hewasinthesittingroomwhensheentered。HewaswearinghisSundaysuitofblueandhissoftfelthatwasonthecentertable。
Sheheldoutherhandandheshookitheartily。
“Well!“sheobserved,smiling,“IdeclareifIdon’tbelieveyou’vegotthetiptoehabit。Thisisthesecondtimeyou’vesneakedintothehouseandscaredme’mosttodeath。Iaskedyoubeforeifyouwa’n’tashamedofyourselfandnowIaskitagain。“
Beforehecouldreplyshecaughtaglimpseofhisface。
“Whatisit?“sheasked。“Whatisthematter?Isanybodysick?
Isyourfather——“
“No,he’sallright。Thatis,he’saswellashehasbeenlately,thoughthatisn’tsayin’much。“
“IsGrace——“
“No,she’sallright,too,Iguess。Beensortofquietandsorrowfulforthelastfewweeks——orI’veseemedtonoticethatshehas——butIcal’lateit’snothin’serious。Iwouldn’twonderifthesamethingthat’stroublin’heriswhatailsme。“
“Butwhatisit?Whydon’tyoutellme?“
“I’mgoin’totellyou,Keziah。That’swhatIcomeherefor。I——“
“Sitdown,can’tyou?Don’tstanduptherelikealighthouse,shuttin’outthewholebroadsideoftheroom。YouaretheBIGGEST
thing!“
CaptainHammondselectedthemostsubstantialchairintheapartmentandsatdownuponit。Helookedathisfriendandshookhishead。
“Nouse,Keziah,“hesaid。“IfIwasasdeepdowninthebluesasthebottomoftheWhaleDeep,alookatthatfaceofyourswouldpullmetothetopagain。You’reagoodwoman!“
“Thanks!WhenIhavesparetimeonmyhandsI’llpracticetryin’
tobelievethat。Butwhatisthetrouble,Nat?Outwithit。“
“Well,Keziah,it’stroubleenough。DadandIhavehadafallin’
out。“
Mrs。Coffin’smouthandeyesopened。
“What?“shecried,inutterastonishment。
“Yes。It’strue。Wehadwhatwasnextdoortoarealquarrelafterdinnerto-day。ItwouldhavebeenarealoneifIhadn’twalkedoffandlefthim。He’sassetastherockofGibraltar,and——“
“Andyourfoundationsain’tgiventoslippin’much。NatHammond,I’msurprisedatyou!Whatwasitallabout?Religion?“
“No,notasliverofreligioninit。If’twasthat,Icoulddodge,orhauldownmycolors,ifIhadto。Butit’ssomethin’worse,enoughsightworse。Somethin’Ican’tdo——evenfordad——andwon’teither。Keziah,he’sdeadsetonmymarryin’Grace。SaysifI
don’the’llknowthatIdon’treallycareatinnickelforhim,orforhiswishes,orwhatbecomesofthegirlafterhe’sgone。“
“Nat!“
“It’safact。Yousee,dadrealizes,better’nIthoughthedid,thathishealthisprettyshakyandthatheislikelytofounder’mostanytime。Hesaysthatdon’tworryhim;ifheknewGraceandIwereprovidedforhe’dsliphiscablewithacleanmanifest。Butthedreamofhislife,hesays,hasbeenthatweshouldmarry。Andhewantstoseeitdone。“
Keziahwassilentforamoment。Thenshesaidslowly:
“AndGraceherself?Howdoesshefeelaboutit?Hashespokentoher?“
“Idon’tknow。Iguesslikelyhehas。Perhapsthat’swhyshe’sbeensosortofmournfullately。Butnevermindwhetherhehasornot;Iwon’tdoitandItoldhimso。Hegotredhotinajiffy。
Iwasungratefulandstubbornandallsortsofthings。AndI,bein’aHammond,withsomeoftheHammondbalkinessinme,Isetmyfootdownashardashis。Andwehadituntil——until——well,untilIsawhimstaggerandtremblesothatIactuallygotscaredandfearedhewasgoin’tokeeloverwherehestood。
“’Whycan’tyou?’hekeptsayin’。’ButWHYcan’tyou?Ain’tsheagirlanyonewouldbeproudtohaveforawife?’’Coursetherewasnoanswertothatbutyes。Thenbackhecomesagainwith’Thenwhycan’tyou?’Atlast,bein’frightened,asIsaid,thathemighthaveanothershockorsomethin’,IsaidI’dthinkitoverandcomeawayandlefthim。AndIcomestraighttoyou。Keziah,whatshallIdo?Whatcanyousaytohelpme?“
Keziahwassilent。Shewaslooking,notathercompanion,butatthecarpetcenterofoneofthebraidedrugsonthefloor。Herfacewasverygraveandthelinesabouthermouthseemedtodeepen。
Herhands,claspedinherlap,tightenedoneupontheother。Buthervoicewascalmwhen,atlast,shespoke。
“Nat,“shesaid,“there’sonlyonethingIcansay。Andthat’swhatyourfathersaid:Whycan’tyou?“
Thecaptainsprangfromhischair。
“What?“hecriedincredulously。“Whatareyousayin’?“
“Justwhatyourfathersaid,Nat。Whycan’tyoumarryGrace?
She’sadear,goodgirland——“
“Thatbe——keelhauled!KeziahCoffin,yousitthereandaskmewhyIcan’tmarryher!YOUdo?“
“Yes,Nat。“
“Keziah,you’recrazy!Don’ttalktomelikethat。We’renotjokin’now。YouknowwhyIcan’tmarryher,noranyoneelseinthisroundworldbutyou。“
“Nat,Ican’tmarryyou。“
“Iknow,Iknow。You’realwayssayin’that。Butyoudon’tmeanit。Youcan’tmeanit。Why,youandmehavebeenpickedoutforeachotherbytheAlmighty,Keziah。IswearIbelievejustthat。
Wewenttogetherwhenwewereboyandgirl,topartiesandsuch。
WewaspromisedwhenIfirstwenttosea。Ifithadn’tbeenforthatfoolrowwehad——and’twasallmyfaultandIknowit——youneverwouldhaveletthatda——thatmiserableAnseCoffincomenearyou。Andwhen’twastoolateandyou’dmarriedhim,themean,drunken,cruel——“
“Hush,Nat!hush!Stopit!“
“Hewas,andyouknowhewas。Yes,andworsebesides。Runnin’offandleavin’awifelikeyouto——Oh,myGod!whenIthinkImighthavebeenyourhusbandtolookoutforyouandtakecareofyou!
Thatyoumighthavebeenwithmeonboardmyships。That,whenI
comedownthecompaniononstormynightsImighthavefoundyoutheretocomfortmeand——OKeziah!wearen’tyounganymore。
What’stheuseoffoolin’?Iwantyou。I’mgoin’tohaveyou。
Coffinisdeadthesetenyears。WhenIheardhewasdrownedoffthereinSingapore,allIcouldsaywas:’Servehimright!’AndI
sayitnow。Icomehomethenmoredeterminedtogetyou。Sayyes,andlet’sbehappy。Do!“
“Ican’t,Nat。“
“Whynot?ForHeavensakes!whynot?Don’tyoucareforme?
You’veletmethink——well,atanyrate,Ihavethoughtyoudid。
Youusedto。Don’tyou?“
“Nat,I——Icareforyoumorethananybodyelseonearth。ButI
can’tmarryyou。Oh,don’tkeepaskin’it!Pleasedon’t。Ican’tmarryyou,Nat。No!“
“Well,notnow,maybe。Notthismonth,oreventhisyear,perhaps,butsomeday——“
“No,Nat。Youmustlisten。There’snouseofthisgoin’onanylonger。Imeanit。Ican’tmarryyou。“
“Youwon’t,youmean。“
“Well,ifyouwishtothinkso。ThenIwon’t。“
“Butbyandby——“
“No,notbyandby。Never,Nat。Never。“
Hedrewhishandacrosshisforehead。
“Never!“herepeated,moretohimselfthantoher。
“Never。Yes,Nat。“
“Then,bytheeverlastin’!I’lldosomethin’——“
“No,no,youwon’t。NatHammond,Iknowyou。You’reagreatbig,brave-hearted,sensibleman。Youwon’tbefoolish。You’lldo——
yes,Ithinkyou’dbetterdojustwhatyourfatherasksyoutodo。
MarryGrace,ifshewantsyouandwillhaveyou。She’llmakeyouagoodwife;you’lllearntocareforher,andIknowshe’llhavethebesthusbandthatagirlcouldhopefor。AndyouandIwillbefriends,justaswe’vealwaysbeen,and——“
“Keziah,stopthat!Stopit,doyouhear!Idon’twanttolistentosuchstuff。ItellyouI’mpastsoftsoap,andIdidn’tthinkyou’dgiveittome。“
“Nat!“
“Oh,yes,’Nat’!Alotyoucarefor’Nat’!NotareasononGod’sfootstoolwhyyouwon’thaveme——exceptone,andthatonethatyoudon’twantme。“
“Please,Nat!Icanhardlybelievethisisyou。Thistroublewithyourfatherhasupsetyou。Youdon’tmeanwhatyousay。You’renottalkin’likeyourselfand——“
“Stopit,Itellyou。Idon’tfeellikemyself。Ibankedonyou,Keziah。I’velivedforyou。Andnow——OKeziah,takeitback!
Givemealittlehope,justenoughtokeepmyheadabovewater。“
“I’dliketo,Nat。IonlywishIcould。But’twouldn’tbeanyuse。Ican’tdoit。“