’Well!’
’SoIhavebeenreadingtheBibleinancientArmenian。’
’Youtoldmesobefore。’
’Ifounditahighlydifficultlanguage。’
’Yes。’
’DifferingwidelyfromthelanguagesingeneralwithwhichIamacquainted。’
’Yes。’
’Exhibiting,however,somefeaturesincommonwiththem。’
’Yes。’
’AndsometimesagreeingremarkablyinwordswithacertainstrangewildspeechwithwhichIbecameacquainted-’
’Irish?’
’No,father,notIrish-withwhichIbecameacquaintedbythegreatestchanceintheworld。’
’Yes。’
’ButofwhichIneedsaynothingfartheratpresent,andwhichI
shouldnothavementionedbutforthatfact。’
’Well!’
’WhichIconsiderremarkable。’
’Yes。’
’TheArmenianiscopious。’
’Isit?’
’Withanalphabetofthirty-nineletters,butitisharshandguttural。’
’Yes。’
’Likethelanguageofmostmountainouspeople-theArmenianscallitHaik。’
’Dothey?’
’Andthemselves,Haik,also;theyarearemarkablepeople,and,thoughtheiroriginalhabitationistheMountainofArarat,theyaretobefound,liketheJews,allovertheworld。’
’Well!’
’Well,father,that’sallIcantellyouabouttheHaiks,orArmenians。’
’Andwhatdoesitallamountto?’
’Verylittle,father;indeed,thereisverylittleknownabouttheArmenians;theirearlyhistory,inparticular,isinvolvedinconsiderablemystery。’
’And,ifyouknewallthatitwaspossibletoknowaboutthem,towhatwoulditamount?towhatearthlypurposecouldyouturnit?
haveyouacquiredanyknowledgeofyourprofession?’
’Verylittle,father。’
’Verylittle!Haveyouacquiredallinyourpower?’
’Ican’tsaythatIhave,father。’
’Andyetitwasyourdutytohavedoneso。ButIseehowitis,youhaveshamefullymisusedyouropportunities;youarelikeonewho,sentintothefieldtolabour,passeshistimeinflingingstonesatthebirdsofheaven。’
’Iwouldscorntoflingastoneatabird,father。’
’YouknowwhatImean,andalltoowell,andthisattempttoevadedeservedreproofbyfeignedsimplicityisquiteincharacterwithyourgeneralbehaviour。Ihaveeverobservedaboutyouawantoffrankness,whichhasdistressedme;youneverspeakofwhatyouareabout,yourhopes,oryourprojects,butcoveryourselfwithmystery。IneverknewtillthepresentmomentthatyouwereacquaintedwithArmenian。’
’Becauseyouneveraskedme,father;there’snothingtoconcealinthematter-IwilltellyouinamomenthowIcametolearnArmenian。AladywhomImetatoneofMrs-’spartiestookafancytome,andhasdonemethehonourtoallowmetogoandseehersometimes。Sheisthewidowofarichclergyman,andonherhusband’sdeathcametothisplacetolive,bringingherhusband’slibrarywithher:Isoonfoundmywaytoit,andexaminedeverybook。Herhusbandmusthavebeenalearnedman,foramongstmuchGreekandHebrewIfoundseveralvolumesinArmenian,orrelatingtothelanguage。’
’Andwhydidyounottellmeofthisbefore?’
’Becauseyouneverquestionedme;but,Irepeat,thereisnothingtoconcealinthematter。Theladytookafancytome,and,beingfondofthearts,drewmyportrait;shesaidtheexpressionofmycountenanceputherinmindofAlfieri’sSaul。’
’Anddoyoustillvisither?’
’No,shesoongrewtiredofme,andtoldpeoplethatshefoundmeverystupid;shegavemetheArmenianbooks,however。’
’Saul,’saidmyfather,musingly,’Saul。Iamafraidshewasonlytoorightthere;hedisobeyedthecommandsofhismaster,andbroughtdownonhisheadthevengeanceofHeaven-hebecameamaniac,prophesied,andflungweaponsabouthim。’
’Hewas,indeed,anawfulcharacter-IhopeIshan’tturnoutlikehim。’
’Godforbid!’saidmyfather,solemnly;’butinmanyrespectsyouareheadstronganddisobedientlikehim。Iplacedyouinaprofession,andbesoughtyoutomakeyourselfmasterofitbygivingityourundividedattention。This,however,youdidnotdo,youknownothingofit,buttellmethatyouareacquaintedwithArmenian;butwhatIdislikemostisyourwantofcandour-youaremyson,butIknowlittleofyourrealhistory,youmayknowfiftythingsforwhatIamaware:youmayknowhowtoshoeahorseforwhatIamaware。’
’Notonlytoshoeahorse,father,buttomakehorse-shoes。’
’Perhapsso,’saidmyfather;’anditonlyservestoprovewhatI
wasjustsaying,thatIknowlittleaboutyou。’
’Butyoueasilymay,mydearfather;Iwilltellyouanythingthatyoumaywishtoknow-shallIinformyouhowIlearnttomakehorse-shoes?’
’No,’saidmyfather;’asyoukeptitasecretsolong,itmayaswellcontinuesostill。Hadyoubeenafrank,open-heartedboy,likeoneIcouldname,youwouldhavetoldmeallaboutitofyourownaccord。ButInowwishtoaskyouaseriousquestion-whatdoyouproposetodo?’
’Todo,father?’
’Yes!thetimeforwhichyouwerearticledtoyourprofessionwillsoonbeexpired,andIshallbenomore。’
’Donottalkso,mydearfather;Ihavenodoubtthatyouwillsoonbebetter。’
’Donotflatteryourself;Ifeelthatmydaysarenumbered,Iamsoongoingtomyrest,andIhaveneedofrest,forIamweary。
There,there,don’tweep!Tearswillhelpmeaslittleastheywillyou;youhavenotyetansweredmyquestion。Tellmewhatyouintendtodo?’
’IreallydonotknowwhatIshalldo。’
’ThemilitarypensionwhichIenjoywillceasewithmylife。ThepropertywhichIshallleavebehindmewillbebarelysufficientforthemaintenanceofyourmotherrespectably。Iagainaskyouwhatyouintendtodo。DoyouthinkyoucansupportyourselfbyyourArmenianoryourotheracquirements?’
’Alas!Ithinklittleatallaboutit;butIsupposeImustpushintotheworld,andmakeagoodfight,asbecomesthesonofhimwhofoughtBigBen;ifIcan’tsucceed,andamdriventotheworst,itisbutdying-’
’Whatdoyoumeanbydying?’
’Leavingtheworld;mylosswouldscarcelybefelt。Ihaveneverheldlifeinmuchvalue,andeveryonehasarighttodisposeashethinksbestofthatwhichishisown。’
’Ah!nowIunderstandyou;andwellIknowhowandwhereyouimbibedthathorribledoctrine,andmanysimilaroneswhichIhaveheardfromyourmouth;butIwishnottoreproachyou-Iviewinyourconductapunishmentformyownsins,andIbowtothewillofGod。Fewandevilhavebeenmydaysupontheearth;littlehaveI
donetowhichIcanlookbackwithsatisfaction。ItistrueIhaveservedmykingfiftyyears,andIhavefoughtwith-Heavenforgiveme,whatwasIabouttosay!-butyoumentionedtheman’sname,andourmindswillinglyrecallourancientfollies。Fewandevilhavebeenmydaysuponearth,ImaysaywithJacobofold,thoughI
donotmeantosaythatmycaseissohardashis;hehadmanyundutifulchildren,whilstIhaveonly-;butIwillnotreproachyou。IhavealsolikehimasontowhomIcanlookwithhope,whomayyetpreservemynamewhenIamgone,soletmebethankful;
perhaps,afterall,Ihavenotlivedinvain。Boy,whenIamgone,lookuptoyourbrother,andmayGodblessyouboth!There,don’tweep;buttaketheBible,andreadmesomethingabouttheoldmanandhischildren。’
Mybrotherhadnowbeenabsentforthespaceofthreeyears。Atfirsthislettershadbeenfrequent,andfromthemitappearedthathewasfollowinghisprofessioninLondonwithindustry;theythenbecameratherrare,andmyfatherdidnotalwayscommunicatetheircontents。Hislastletter,however,hadfilledhimandourwholelittlefamilywithjoy;itwasdatedfromParis,andthewriterwasevidentlyinhighspirits。AfterdescribingineloquenttermsthebeautiesandgaietiesoftheFrenchcapital,heinformedushowhehadplentyofmoney,havingcopiedacelebratedpictureofoneoftheItalianmastersforaHungariannobleman,forwhichhehadreceivedalargesum。’HewishesmetogowithhimtoItaly,’
addedhe,’butIamfondofindependence;and,ifeverIvisitoldRome,Iwillhavenopatronsnearmetodistractmyattention。’