Butsixmonthshadnowelapsedfromthedateofthisletter,andwehadheardnofurtherintelligenceofmybrother。Myfather’scomplaintincreased;thegout,hisprincipalenemy,occasionallymountedhighupinhissystem,andwehadconsiderabledifficultyinkeepingitfromthestomach,whereitgenerallyprovesfatal。I
nowdevotedalmostthewholeofmytimetomyfather,onwhomhisfaithfulpartneralsolavishedeveryattentionandcare。IreadtheBibletohim,whichwashischiefdelight;andalsooccasionallysuchotherbooksasIthoughtmightproveentertainingtohim。Hisspiritsweregenerallyratherdepressed。Theabsenceofmybrotherappearedtopreyuponhismind。’Iwishhewerehere,’hewouldfrequentlyexclaim;’Ican’timaginewhatcanhavebecomeofhim;Itrust,however,hewillarriveintime。’Hestillsometimesrallied,andItookadvantageofthosemomentsofcomparativeeasetoquestionhimupontheeventsofhisearlylife。
Myattentionstohimhadnotpassedunnoticed,andhewaskind,fatherly,andunreserved。Ihadneverknownmyfathersoentertainingasatthesemoments,whenhislifewasbuttooevidentlydrawingtoaclose。Ihadnoideathatheknewandhadseensomuch;myrespectforhimincreased,andIlookeduponhimalmostwithadmiration。Hisanecdoteswereingeneralhighlycurious;someofthemrelatedtopeopleinthehigheststations,andtomenwhosenameswerecloselyconnectedwithsomeofthebrightestgloriesofournativeland。Hehadfrequentlyconversed-almostontermsoffamiliarity-withgoodoldGeorge。HehadknowntheconquerorofTippooSaib;andwasthefriendofTownshend,who,whenWolfefell,ledtheBritishgrenadiersagainsttheshrinkingregimentsofMontcalm。’Pity,’headded,’thatwhenold-oldasIamnow-heshouldhavedrivenhisownsonmadbyrobbinghimofhisplightedbride;butsoitwas;hemarriedhisson’sbride。Isawhimleadhertothealtar;ifevertherewasanangeliccountenance,itwasthatgirl’s;shewasalmosttoofairtobeoneofthedaughtersofwomen。Isthereanything,boy,thatyouwouldwishtoaskme?nowisthetime。’
’Yes,father;thereisoneaboutwhomIwouldfainquestionyou。’
’Whoisit?shallItellyouaboutElliot?’
’No,father,notaboutElliot;butpraydon’tbeangry;IshouldliketoknowsomethingaboutBigBen。’
’Youareastrangelad,’saidmyfather;’and,thoughoflateI
havebeguntoentertainamorefavourableopinionthanheretofore,thereisstillmuchaboutyouthatIdonotunderstand。Whydoyoubringupthatname?Don’tyouknowthatitisoneofmytemptations:youwishtoknowsomethingabouthim。Well!Iwillobligeyouthisonce,andthenfarewelltosuchvanities-
somethingabouthim。Iwilltellyou-his-skinwhenheflungoffhisclothes-andhehadaparticularknackindoingso-hisskin,whenhebaredhismightychestandbackforcombat;andwhenhefoughthestood,so……ifIrememberright-hisskin,I
say,wasbrownandduskyasthatofatoad。Ohme!Iwishmyeldersonwashere。’
CHAPTERXXVIII
Mybrother’sarrival-Theinterview-Night-Adyingfather-
Christ。
ATlastmybrotherarrived;helookedpaleandunwell;Imethimatthedoor。’Youhavebeenlongabsent,’saidI。
’Yes,’saidhe,’perhapstoolong;buthowismyfather?’
’Verypoorly,’saidI,’hehashadafreshattack;butwherehaveyoubeenoflate?’
’Farandwide,’saidmybrother;’butIcan’ttellyouanythingnow,Imustgotomyfather。ItwasonlybychancethatIheardofhisillness。’
’Stayamoment,’saidI。’Istheworldsuchafineplaceasyousupposedittobebeforeyouwentaway?’
’Notquite,’saidmybrother,’notquite;indeedIwish-butaskmenoquestionsnow,Imusthastentomyfather。’Therewasanotherquestiononmytongue,butIforbore;fortheeyesoftheyoungmanwerefulloftears。Ipointedwithmyfinger,andtheyoungmanhastenedpastmetothearmsofhisfather。
IforboretoaskmybrotherwhetherhehadbeentooldRome。
WhatpassedbetweenmyfatherandbrotherIdonotknow;theinterview,nodoubt,wastenderenough,fortheytenderlylovedeachother;butmybrother’sarrivaldidnotproducethebeneficialeffectuponmyfatherwhichIatfirsthopeditwould;itdidnotevenappeartohaveraisedhisspirits。Hewascomposedenough,however:’Ioughttobegrateful,’saidhe;’Iwishedtoseemyson,andGodhasgrantedmemywish;whatmorehaveItodonowthantoblessmylittlefamilyandgo?’
Myfather’sendwasevidentlyathand。
AnddidIshednotears?didIbreathenosighs?didIneverwringmyhandsatthisperiod?thereaderwillperhapsbeasking。
WhateverIdidandthoughtisbestknowntoGodandmyself;butitwillbeaswelltoobserve,thatitispossibletofeeldeeply,andyetmakenooutwardsign。
Andnowfortheclosingscene。
Atthedeadhourofnight,itmightbeabouttwo,IwasawakenedfromsleepbyacrywhichsoundedfromtheroomimmediatelybelowthatinwhichIslept。Iknewthecry,itwasthecryofmymother;andIalsoknewitsimport,yetImadenoefforttorise,forIwasforthemomentparalysed。Againthecrysounded,yetstillIlaymotionless-thestupidityofhorrorwasuponme。A
thirdtime,anditwasthenthat,byaviolenteffort,burstingthespellwhichappearedtobindme,Isprangfromthebedandrusheddownstairs。Mymotherwasrunningwildlyabouttheroom;shehadawoke,andfoundmyfathersenselessinthebedbyherside。I
essayedtoraisehim,andafterafeweffortssupportedhiminthebedinasittingposture。Mybrothernowrushedin,and,snatchingupalightthatwasburning,heheldittomyfather’sface。’Thesurgeon,thesurgeon!’hecried;then,droppingthelight,heranoutoftheroomfollowedbymymother;Iremainedalone,supportingthesenselessformofmyfather;thelighthadbeenextinguishedbythefall,andanalmosttotaldarknessreignedintheroom。Theformpressedheavilyagainstmybosom-atlastmethoughtitmoved。
Yes,Iwasright,therewasaheavingofthebreast,andthenagasping。WerethosewordswhichIheard?Yes,theywerewords,lowandindistinctatfirst,andthenaudible。Themindofthedyingmanwasrevertingtoformerscenes。IheardhimmentionnameswhichIhadoftenheardhimmentionbefore。Itwasanawfulmoment;Ifeltstupefied,butIstillcontrivedtosupportmydyingfather。Therewasapause,againmyfatherspoke:IheardhimspeakofMinden,andofMeredith,theoldMindensergeant,andthenheutteredanothername,whichatoneperiodofhislifewasmuchinhislips,thenameof……butthisisasolemnmoment!Therewasadeepgasp:Ishook,andthoughtallwasover;butIwasmistaken-myfathermoved,andrevivedforamoment;hesupportedhimselfinbedwithoutmyassistance。Imakenodoubtthatforamomenthewasperfectlysensible,anditwasthenthat,claspinghishands,heutteredanothernameclearly,distinctly-itwasthenameofChrist。Withthatnameuponhislips,thebraveoldsoldiersankbackuponmybosom,and,withhishandsstillclasped,yieldeduphissoul。
CHAPTERXXIX
Thegreeting-Queerfigure-Cheerup-Thecheerfulfire-Itwilldo-Thesallyforth-Trepidation-Lethimcomein。
’ONE-AND-NINEPENCE,sir,orthethingswhichyouhavebroughtwithyouwillbetakenawayfromyou!’
Suchwerethefirstwordswhichgreetedmyears,onedampmistymorninginMarch,asIdismountedfromthetopofacoachintheyardofaLondoninn。
Iturnedround,forIfeltthatthewordswereaddressedtomyself。
Plentyofpeoplewereintheyard-porters,passengers,coachmen,hostlers,andothers,whoappearedtobeintentonanythingbutmyself,withtheexceptionofoneindividual,whosebusinessappearedtoliewithme,andwhonowconfrontedmeatthedistanceofabouttwoyards。
Ilookedhardattheman-andaqueerkindofindividualhewastolookat-arakishfigure,aboutthirty,andofthemiddlesize,dressedinacoatsmartlycut,butthreadbare,verytightpantaloonsofbluestuff,tiedattheankles,dirtywhitestockingsandthinshoes,likethoseofadancing-master;hisfeatureswerenotugly,butratherhaggard,andheappearedtoowehiscomplexionlesstonaturethancarmine;infact,ineveryrespect,averyqueerfigure。
’One-and-ninepence,sir,oryourthingswillbetakenawayfromyou!’hesaid,inakindoflispingtone,comingyetnearertome。
Istillremainedstaringfixedlyathim,butneverawordanswered。
Oureyesmet;whereuponhesuddenlylosttheeasyimpudentairwhichhebeforewore。Heglanced,foramoment,atmyfist,whichIhadbythistimeclenched,andhisfeaturesbecameyetmorehaggard;hefaltered;afresh’one-and-ninepence,’whichhewasabouttoutter,diedonhislips;heshrankback,disappearedbehindacoach,andIsawnomoreofhim。
’One-and-ninepence,ormythingswillbetakenawayfromme!’saidItomyself,musingly,asIfollowedtheportertowhomIhaddeliveredmyscantybaggage;’amItoexpectmanyofthesegreetingsinthebigworld?Well,nevermind!IthinkIknowthecounter-sign!’AndIclenchedmyfistyetharderthanbefore。
SoIfollowedtheporter,throughthestreetsofLondon,toalodgingwhichhadbeenpreparedformebyanacquaintance。Themorning,asIhavebeforesaid,wasgloomy,andthestreetsthroughwhichIpassedweredankandfilthy;thepeople,also,lookeddankandfilthy;andso,probably,didI,forthenighthadbeenrainy,andIhadcomeupwardsofahundredmilesonthetopofacoach;myhearthadsunkwithinme,bythetimewereachedadarknarrowstreet,inwhichwasthelodging。
’Cheerup,youngman,’saidtheporter,’weshallhaveafineafternoon!’
AndpresentlyIfoundmyselfinthelodgingwhichhadbeenpreparedforme。Itconsistedofasmallroom,uptwopairofstairs,inwhichIwastosit,andanotherstillsmalleraboveit,inwhichI
wastosleep。IrememberthatIsatdown,andlookeddisconsolateaboutme-everythingseemedsocoldanddingy。Yethowlittleisrequiredtomakeasituation-howevercheerlessatfirstsight-
cheerfulandcomfortable。Thepeopleofthehouse,wholookedkindlyuponme,lightedafireinthedingygrate;and,then,whatachange!-thedingyroomseemeddingynomore!Ohtheluxuryofacheerfulfireafterachillnight’sjourney!Idrewneartotheblazinggrate,rubbedmyhands,andfeltglad。
And,whenIhadwarmedmyself,Iturnedtothetable,onwhich,bythistime,thepeopleofthehousehadplacedmybreakfast;andI