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  OneSeptemberevening,fourmonthslater,whenMrs。Barnetwasinperfecthealth,andMrs。Downebutaweakeningmemory,anerrand-boypausedtoresthimselfinfrontofMr。Barnet’soldhouse,depositinghisbasketononeofthewindow-sills。Thestreetwasnotyetlighted,buttherewerelightsinthehouse,andatintervalsaflittingshadowfellupontheblindathiselbow。Wordsalsowereaudiblefromthesameapartment,andtheyseemedtobethoseofpersonsinviolentaltercation。Buttheboycouldnotgathertheirpurport,andhewentonhisway。

  TenminutesafterwardsthedoorofBarnet’shouseopened,andatallclosely-veiledladyinatravelling-dresscameoutanddescendedthefreestonesteps。Theservantstoodinthedoorwaywatchingherasshewentwithameasuredtreaddownthestreet。WhenshehadbeenoutofsightforsomeminutesBarnetappearedatthedoorfromwithin。

  ’Didyourmistressleavewordwhereshewasgoing?’heasked。

  ’No,sir。’

  ’Isthecarriageorderedtomeetheranywhere?’

  ’No,sir。’

  ’Didshetakealatch-key?’

  ’No,sir。’

  Barnetwentinagain,satdowninhischair,andleanedback。Theninsolitudeandsilencehebroodedoverthebitteremotionsthatfilledhisheart。Itwasforthisthathehadgratuitouslyrestoredhertolife,andmadehisunionwithanotherimpossible!Theeveningdrewon,andnobodycametodisturbhim。Atbedtimehetoldtheservantstoretire,thathewouldsitupforMrs。Barnethimself;andwhentheyweregoneheleanedhisheaduponhishandandmusedforhours。

  Theclockstruckone,two;stillhiswifecamenot,and,withimpatienceaddedtodepression,hewentfromroomtoroomtillanotherwearyhourhadpassed。ThiswasnotaltogetheranewexperienceforBarnet;butshehadneverbeforesoprolongedherabsence。Atlasthesatdownagainandfellasleep。

  Heawokeatsixo’clocktofindthatshehadnotreturned。Insearchingabouttheroomshediscoveredthatshehadtakenacaseofjewelswhichhadbeenhersbeforehermarriage。Ateightanotewasbroughthim;itwasfromhiswife,inwhichshestatedthatshehadgonebythecoachtothehouseofadistantrelativenearLondon,andexpressedawishthatcertainboxes,articlesofclothing,andsoon,mightbesenttoherforthwith。ThenotewasbroughttohimbyawaiterattheBlack-BullHotel,andhadbeenwrittenbyMrs。

  Barnetimmediatelybeforeshetookherplaceinthestage。

  Bytheeveningthisorderwascarriedout,andBarnet,withasenseofrelief,walkedoutintothetown。Afairhadbeenheldduringtheday,andthelargeclearmoonwhichroseoverthemostprominenthillflungitslightupontheboothsandstandingsthatstillremainedinthestreet,mixingitsrayscuriouslywiththosefromtheflaringnaphthalamps。Thetownwasfullofcountry-peoplewhohadcomeintoenjoythemselves,andonthisaccountBarnetstrolledthroughthestreetsunobserved。Withacertainrecklessnesshemadefortheharbour-road,andpresentlyfoundhimselfbytheshore,wherehewalkedontillhecametothespotnearwhichhisfriendthekindlyMrs。Downehadlostherlife,andhisownwife’slifehadbeenpreserved。Atremulouspathwayofbrightmoonshinenowstretchedoverthewaterwhichhadengulfedthem,andnotalivingsoulwasnear。

  Hereheruminatedontheircharacters,andnextontheyounggirlinwhomhenowtookamoresensitiveinterestthanatthetimewhenhehadbeenfreetomarryher。Nothing,sofarashewasaware,hadeverappearedinhisownconducttoshowthatsuchaninterestexisted。Hehadmadeitapointoftheutmoststrictnesstohinderthatfeelingfrominfluencinginthefaintestdegreehisattitudetowardshiswife;andthiswasmadeallthemoreeasyforhimbythesmalldemandMrs。Barnetmadeuponhisattentions,forwhichsheeverevincedthegreatestcontempt;thusunwittinglygivinghimthesatisfactionofknowingthattheirseveranceowednothingtojealousy,or,indeed,toanypersonalbehaviourofhisatall。Herconcernwasnotwithhimorhisfeelings,asshefrequentlytoldhim;butthatshehad,inamomentofweakness,thrownherselfawayuponacommonburgherwhenshemighthaveaimedat,andpossiblybroughtdown,apeeroftherealm。HerfrequentdepreciationofBarnetinthesetermshadattimesbeensointensethathewassorelytemptedtoretaliateonheregotismbyowningthathelovedatthesamelowlevelonwhichhelived;butprudencehadprevailed,forwhichhewasnowthankful。

  Somethingseemedtosoundupontheshinglebehindhimoverandabovetherakingofthewave。Helookedround,andaslightgirlishshapeappearedquiteclosetohim,Hecouldnotseeherfacebecauseitwasinthedirectionofthemoon。

  ’Mr。Barnet?’theramblersaid,intimidsurprise。ThevoicewasthevoiceofLucySavile。

  ’Yes,’saidBarnet。’HowcanIrepayyouforthispleasure?’

  ’Ionlycamebecausethenightwassoclear。Iamnowonmywayhome。’

  ’Iamgladwehavemet。Iwanttoknowifyouwillletmedosomethingforyou,togivemeanoccupation,asanidleman?IamsureIoughttohelpyou,forIknowyouarealmostwithoutfriends。’

  Shehesitated。’Whyshouldyoutellmethat?’shesaid。

  ’Inthehopethatyouwillbefrankwithme。’

  ’Iamnotaltogetherwithoutfriendshere。ButIamgoingtomakealittlechangeinmylife——togooutasateacheroffreehanddrawingandpracticalperspective,ofcourseImeanonacomparativelyhumblescale,becauseIhavenotbeenspeciallyeducatedforthatprofession。ButIamsureIshalllikeitmuch。’

  ’Youhaveanopening?’

  ’Ihavenotexactlygotit,butIhaveadvertisedforone。’

  ’Lucy,youmustletmehelpyou!’

  ’Notatall。’

  ’Youneednotthinkitwouldcompromiseyou,orthatIamindifferenttodelicacy。Ibearinmindhowwestand。Itisveryunlikelythatyouwillsucceedasteacheroftheclassyoumention,soletmedosomethingofadifferentkindforyou。Saywhatyouwouldlike,anditshallbedone。’

  ’No;ifIcan’tbeadrawing-mistressorgoverness,orsomethingofthatsort,IshallgotoIndiaandjoinmybrother。’

  ’IwishIcouldgoabroad,anywhere,everywherewithyou,Lucy,andleavethisplaceanditsassociationsforever!’

  Sheplayedwiththeendofherbonnet-string,andhastilyturnedaside。’Don’tevertouchuponthatkindoftopicagain,’shesaid,withaquickseveritynotfreefromanger。’Itsimplymakesitimpossibleformetoseeyou,muchlessreceiveanyguidancefromyou。No,thankyou,Mr。Barnet;youcandonothingformeatpresent;andasIsupposemyuncertaintywillendinmyleavingforIndia,Ifearyouneverwill。IfeverIthinkyouCANdoanything,Iwilltakethetroubletoaskyou。Tillthen,good-bye。’

  Thetoneofherlatterwordswasequivocal,andwhileheremainedindoubtwhetheragentleironywasorwasnotinwroughtwiththeirsound,shesweptlightlyroundandlefthimalone。Hesawherformgetsmallerandsmalleralongthedampbeltofsea-sandbetweenebbandflood;andwhenshehadvanishedroundthecliffintotheharbour-road,hehimselffollowedinthesamedirection。

  ThatherhopesfromanadvertisementshouldbethesinglethreadwhichheldLucySavileinEnglandwastoomuchforBarnet。OnreachingthetownhewentstraighttotheresidenceofDowne,nowawidowerwithfourchildren。Theyoungmotherlessbroodhadbeensenttobedaboutaquarterofanhourearlier,andwhenBarnetenteredhefoundDownesittingalone。ItwasthesameroomasthatfromwhichthefamilyhadbeenlookingoutforDowneatthebeginningoftheyear,whenDownehadslippedintothegutterandhiswifehadbeensoenviablytendertowardshim。Theoldneatnesshadgonefromthehouse;articleslayinplaceswhichcouldshownoreasonfortheirpresence,asifmomentarilydepositedtheresomemonthsago,andforgotteneversince;therewerenoflowers;thingswerejumbledtogetheronthefurniturewhichshouldhavebeenincupboards;andtheplaceingeneralhadthatstagnant,unrenovatedairwhichusuallypervadesthemaimedhomeofthewidower。

  Downesoonrenewedhiscustomaryfull-wordedlamentoverhiswife,andevenwhenhehadworkedhimselfuptotears,wentonvolubly,asifalistenerwerealuxurytobeenjoyedwheneverhecouldbecaught。

  ’Shewasatreasurebeyondcompare,Mr。Barnet!Ishallneverseesuchanother。Nobodynowtonurseme——nobodytoconsolemeinthosedailytroubles,youknow,Barnet,whichmakeconsolationsonecessarytoanaturelikemine。Itwouldbeunbecomingtorepine,forherspirit’shomewaselsewhere——thetenderlightinhereyesalwaysshowedit;butitisalongdrearytimethatIhavebeforeme,andnobodyelsecaneverfillthevoidleftinmyheartbyherloss——nobody——nobody!’AndDownewipedhiseyesagain。

  ’Shewasagoodwomaninthehighestsense,’gravelyansweredBarnet,who,thoughDowne’swordsdrewgenuinecompassionfromhisheart,couldnothelpfeelingthatatenderreticencewouldhavebeenafinertributetoMrs。Downe’sreallysterlingvirtuesthansuchasecond-classlamentasthis。

  ’Ihavesomethingtoshowyou,’Downeresumed,producingfromadrawerasheetofpaperonwhichwasanelaboratedesignforacanopiedtomb。’Thishasbeensentmebythearchitect,butitisnotexactlywhatIwant。’

  ’YouhavegotJonestodoit,Isee,themanwhoiscarryingoutmyhouse,’saidBarnet,asheglancedatthesignaturetothedrawing。

  ’Yes,butitisnotquitewhatIwant。Iwantsomethingmorestriking——morelikeatombIhaveseeninSt。Paul’sCathedral。

  Nothinglesswilldojusticetomyfeelings,andhowfarshortofthemthatwillfall!’

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