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  Whenhespokeagainitwasclearthathisformersweethearthadcleanvanishedfromhismind,andthatthetalkhadbroughtbacktheFairyLadytriumphantinhisheart。Hetalkedofher——soonhewaslettingouttheoddestthings,queerlovesecretsitwouldbetreacherytorepeat。Ithink,indeed,thatwasthequeerestthinginthewholeaffair,tohearthatneatlittlegrocermanafterhisstorywasdone,withaglassofwhiskybesidehimandacigarbetweenhisfingers,witnessing,withsorrowstill,thoughnow,indeed,withatime-bluntedanguish,oftheinappeasablehungeroftheheartthatpresentlycameuponhim。“Icouldn’teat,“hesaid,“Icouldn’tsleep。Imademistakesinordersandgotmixedwithchange。Thereshewasdayandnight,drawingmeanddrawingme。Oh,Iwantedher。Lord!howIwantedher!Iwasupthere,mosteveningsIwasupthereontheKnoll,oftenevenwhenitrained。IusedtowalkovertheKnollandrounditandroundit,callingforthemtoletmein。Shouting。NearblubberingIwasattimes。DaftIwasandmiserable。Ikeptonsayingitwasallamistake。AndeverySundayafternoonIwentupthere,wetandfine,thoughIknewaswellasyoudoitwasn’tnogoodbyday。AndI’vetriedtogotosleepthere。“

  Hestoppedsharplyanddecidedtodrinksomewhisky。

  “I’vetriedtogotosleepthere,“hesaid,andIcouldswearhislipstrembled。“I’vetriedtogotosleepthere,oftenandoften。And,youknow,Icouldn’t,sir——never。I’vethoughtifIcouldgotosleepthere,theremightbesomething。ButI’vesatupthereandlaidupthere,andIcouldn’t——notforthinkingandlonging。It’sthelonging……I’vetried——“

  Heblew,drankuptherestofhiswhiskyspasmodically,stoodupsuddenlyandbuttonedhisjacket,staringcloselyandcriticallyatthecheapoleographsbesidethemantelmeanwhile。Thelittleblacknotebookinwhichherecordedtheordersofhisdailyroundprojectedstifflyfromhisbreastpocket。Whenallthebuttonswerequitedone,hepattedhischestandturnedonmesuddenly。“Well,“

  hesaid,“Imustbegoing。“

  Therewassomethinginhiseyesandmannerthatwastoodifficultforhimtoexpressinwords。“Onegetstalking,“hesaidatlastatthedoor,andsmiledwanly,andsovanishedfrommyeyes。

  AndthatisthetaleofMr。SkelmersdaleinFairylandjustashetoldittome。

  ThesceneamidstwhichClaytontoldhislaststorycomesbackveryvividlytomymind。Therehesat,forthegreaterpartofthetime,inthecorneroftheauthenticsettlebythespaciousopenfire,andSandersonsatbesidehimsmokingtheBroseleyclaythatborehisname。

  TherewasEvans,andthatmarvelamongactors,Wish,whoisalsoamodestman。WehadallcomedowntotheMermaidClubthatSaturdaymorning,exceptClayton,whohadsleptthereovernight——whichindeedgavehimtheopeningofhisstory。Wehadgolfeduntilgolfingwasinvisible;wehaddined,andwewereinthatmoodoftranquilkindlinesswhenmenwillsufferastory。WhenClaytonbegantotellone,wenaturallysupposedhewaslying。Itmaybethatindeedhewaslying——ofthatthereaderwillspeedilybeabletojudgeaswellasI。

  Hebegan,itistrue,withanairofmatter-of-factanecdote,butthatwethoughtwasonlytheincurableartificeoftheman。

  “Isay!“heremarked,afteralongconsiderationoftheupwardrainofsparksfromthelogthatSandersonhadthumped,“youknowIwasaloneherelastnight?“

  “Exceptforthedomestics,“saidWish。

  “Whosleepintheotherwing,“saidClayton。“Yes。Well——“Hepulledathiscigarforsomelittletimeasthoughhestillhesitatedabouthisconfidence。Thenhesaid,quitequietly,“Icaughtaghost!“

  “Caughtaghost,didyou?“saidSanderson。“Whereisit?“

  AndEvans,whoadmiresClaytonimmenselyandhasbeenfourweeksinAmerica,shouted,“CAUGHTaghost,didyou,Clayton?I’mgladofit!Tellusallaboutitrightnow。“

  Claytonsaidhewouldinaminute,andaskedhimtoshutthedoor。

  Helookedapologeticallyatme。“There’snoeavesdroppingofcourse,butwedon’twanttoupsetourveryexcellentservicewithanyrumoursofghostsintheplace。There’stoomuchshadowandoakpanellingtotriflewiththat。Andthis,youknow,wasn’taregularghost。

  Idon’tthinkitwillcomeagain——ever。“

  “Youmeantosayyoudidn’tkeepit?“saidSanderson。

  “Ihadn’ttheheartto,“saidClayton。

  AndSandersonsaidhewassurprised。

  Welaughed,andClaytonlookedaggrieved。“Iknow,“hesaid,withtheflickerofasmile,“butthefactisitreallyWASaghost,andI’massureofitasIamthatIamtalkingtoyounow。I’mnotjoking。ImeanwhatIsay。“

  Sandersondrewdeeplyathispipe,withonereddisheyeonClayton,andthenemittedathinjetofsmokemoreeloquentthanmanywords。

  Claytonignoredthecomment。“Itisthestrangestthingthathaseverhappenedinmylife。Youknow,Ineverbelievedinghostsoranythingofthesort,before,ever;andthen,youknow,Ibagoneinacorner;andthewholebusinessisinmyhands。“

  Hemeditatedstillmoreprofoundly,andproducedandbegantopierceasecondcigarwithacuriouslittlestabberheaffected。

  “Youtalkedtoit?“askedWish。

  “Forthespace,probably,ofanhour。“

  “Chatty?“Isaid,joiningthepartyofthesceptics。

  “Thepoordevilwasintrouble,“saidClayton,bowedoverhiscigar-endandwiththeveryfaintestnoteofreproof。

  “Sobbing?“someoneasked。

  Claytonheavedarealisticsighatthememory。“GoodLord!“hesaid;

  “yes。“Andthen,“Poorfellow!yes。“

  “Wheredidyoustrikeit?“askedEvans,inhisbestAmericanaccent。

  “Ineverrealised,“saidClayton,ignoringhim,“thepoorsortofthingaghostmightbe,“andhehungusupagainforatime,whilehesoughtformatchesinhispocketandlitandwarmedtohiscigar。

  “Itookanadvantage,“hereflectedatlast。

  Wewerenoneofusinahurry。“Acharacter,“hesaid,“remainsjustthesamecharacterforallthatit’sbeendisembodied。That’sathingwetoooftenforget。Peoplewithacertainstrengthorfixityofpurposemayhaveghostsofacertainstrengthandfixityofpurpose——mosthauntingghosts,youknow,mustbeasone-idea’dasmonomaniacsandasobstinateasmulestocomebackagainandagain。

  Thispoorcreaturewasn’t。“Hesuddenlylookedupratherqueerly,andhiseyewentroundtheroom。“Isayit,“hesaid,“inallkindliness,butthatistheplaintruthofthecase。Evenatthefirstglancehestruckmeasweak。“

  Hepunctuatedwiththehelpofhiscigar。

  “Icameuponhim,youknow,inthelongpassage。HisbackwastowardsmeandIsawhimfirst。RightoffIknewhimforaghost。Hewastransparentandwhitish;cleanthroughhischestIcouldseetheglimmerofthelittlewindowattheend。Andnotonlyhisphysiquebuthisattitudestruckmeasbeingweak。Helooked,youknow,asthoughhedidn’tknowintheslightestwhateverhemeanttodo。Onehandwasonthepanellingandtheotherflutteredtohismouth。Like——SO!“

  “Whatsortofphysique?“saidSanderson。

  “Lean。Youknowthatsortofyoungman’sneckthathastwogreatflutingsdowntheback,hereandhere——so!Andalittle,meanishheadwithscrubbyhair——Andratherbadears。Shouldersbad,narrowerthanthehips;turn-downcollar,ready-madeshortjacket,trousersbaggyandalittlefrayedattheheels。That’showhetookme。

  Icameveryquietlyupthestaircase。Ididnotcarryalight,youknow——thecandlesareonthelandingtableandthereisthatlamp——

  andIwasinmylistslippers,andIsawhimasIcameup。Istoppeddeadatthat——takinghimin。Iwasn’tabitafraid。Ithinkthatinmostoftheseaffairsoneisnevernearlysoafraidorexcitedasoneimaginesonewouldbe。Iwassurprisedandinterested。

  Ithought,’GoodLord!Here’saghostatlast!AndIhaven’tbelievedforamomentinghostsduringthelastfive-and-twentyyears。’“

  “Um,“saidWish。

  “IsupposeIwasn’tonthelandingamomentbeforehefoundoutI

  wasthere。Heturnedonmesharply,andIsawthefaceofanimmatureyoungman,aweaknose,ascrubbylittlemoustache,afeeblechin。

  Soforaninstantwestood——helookingoverhisshoulderatmeandregardedoneanother。Thenheseemedtorememberhishighcalling。

  Heturnedround,drewhimselfup,projectedhisface,raisedhisarms,spreadhishandsinapprovedghostfashion——cametowardsme。

  Ashedidsohislittlejawdropped,andheemittedafaint,drawn-out’Boo。’No,itwasn’t——notabitdreadful。I’ddined。I’dhadabottleofchampagne,andbeingallalone,perhapstwoorthree——perhapsevenfourorfive——whiskies,soIwasassolidasrocksandnomorefrightenedthanifI’dbeenassailedbyafrog。’Boo!’Isaid。

  ’Nonsense。Youdon’tbelongtoTHISplace。Whatareyoudoinghere?’

  “Icouldseehimwince。’Boo-oo,’hesaid。

  “’Boo——behanged!Areyouamember?’Isaid;andjusttoshowIdidn’tcareapinforhimIsteppedthroughacornerofhimandmadetolightmycandle。’Areyouamember?’Irepeated,lookingathimsideways。

  “Hemovedalittlesoastostandclearofme,andhisbearingbecamecrestfallen。’No,’hesaid,inanswertothepersistentinterrogationofmyeye;’I’mnotamember——I’maghost。’

  “’Well,thatdoesn’tgiveyoutherunoftheMermaidClub。Isthereanyoneyouwanttosee,oranythingofthatsort?’anddoingitassteadilyaspossibleforfearthatheshouldmistakethecarelessnessofwhiskyforthedistractionoffear,Igotmycandlealight。

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