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  “Thelivesofthesepeople,“shetriedtoexplain,theaimlessness,thewaytheylive。Onegoesfromonetoanother,andit’sallthesame。

  Onenevergetswhatonewantsoutofanyofthem。“

  HeremotionalstateandherconfusionwouldhavemadeheraneasypreyifHelenhadwishedtoargueorhadwishedtodrawconfidences。

  Butinsteadoftalkingshefellintoaprofoundsilenceastheywalkedon。Aimless,trivial,meaningless,ohno——whatshehadseenatteamadeitimpossibleforhertobelievethat。

  Thelittlejokes,thechatter,theinanitiesoftheafternoonhadshrivelledupbeforehereyes。Underneaththelikingsandspites,thecomingstogetherandpartings,greatthingswerehappening——

  terriblethings,becausetheyweresogreat。Hersenseofsafetywasshaken,asifbeneathtwigsanddeadleavesshehadseenthemovementofasnake。Itseemedtoherthatamoment’srespitewasallowed,amoment’smake-believe,andthenagaintheprofoundandreasonlesslawasserteditself,mouldingthemalltoitsliking,makinganddestroying。

  ShelookedatRachelwalkingbesideher,stillcrushingtheleavesinherfingersandabsorbedinherownthoughts。Shewasinlove,andshepitiedherprofoundly。Butsherousedherselffromthesethoughtsandapologised。“I’mverysorry,“shesaid,“butifI’mdull,it’smynature,anditcan’tbehelped。“Ifitwasanaturaldefect,however,shefoundaneasyremedy,forshewentontosaythatshethoughtMr。Flushing’sschemeaverygoodone,onlyneedingalittleconsideration,whichitappearedshehadgivenitbythetimetheyreachedhome。Bythattimetheyhadsettledthatifanythingmorewassaid,theywouldaccepttheinvitation。

  WhenconsideredindetailbyMr。FlushingandMrs。Ambrosetheexpeditionprovedneitherdangerousnordifficult。

  Theyfoundalsothatitwasnotevenunusual。EveryyearatthisseasonEnglishpeoplemadepartieswhichsteamedashortwayuptheriver,landed,andlookedatthenativevillage,boughtacertainnumberofthingsfromthenatives,andreturnedagainwithoutdamagedonetomindorbody。Whenitwasdiscoveredthatsixpeoplereallywishedthesamethingthearrangementsweresooncarriedout。

  SincethetimeofElizabethveryfewpeoplehadseentheriver,andnothinghasbeendonetochangeitsappearancefromwhatitwastotheeyesoftheElizabethanvoyagers。ThetimeofElizabethwasonlydistantfromthepresenttimebyamomentofspacecomparedwiththeageswhichhadpassedsincethewaterhadrunbetweenthosebanks,andthegreenthicketsswarmedthere,andthesmalltreeshadgrowntohugewrinkledtreesinsolitude。

  Changingonlywiththechangeofthesunandtheclouds,thewavinggreenmasshadstoodthereforcenturyaftercentury,andthewaterhadrunbetweenitsbanksceaselessly,sometimeswashingawayearthandsometimesthebranchesoftrees,whileinotherpartsoftheworldonetownhadrisenupontheruinsofanothertown,andthemeninthetownshadbecomemoreandmorearticulateandunlikeeachother。Afewmilesofthisriverwerevisiblefromthetopofthemountainwheresomeweeksbeforethepartyfromthehotelhadpicnicked。SusanandArthurhadseenitastheykissedeachother,andTerenceandRachelastheysattalkingaboutRichmond,andEvelynandPerrottastheystrolledabout,imaginingthattheyweregreatcaptainssenttocolonisetheworld。

  Theyhadseenthebroadbluemarkacrossthesandwhereitflowedintothesea,andthegreencloudoftreesmassthemselvesaboutitfartherup,andfinallyhideitswatersaltogetherfromsight。

  Atintervalsforthefirsttwentymilesorsohouseswerescatteredonthebank;bydegreesthehousesbecamehuts,and,laterstill,therewasneitherhutnorhouse,buttreesandgrass,whichwereseenonlybyhunters,explorers,ormerchants,marchingorsailing,butmakingnosettlement。

  ByleavingSantaMarinaearlyinthemorning,drivingtwentymilesandridingeight,theparty,whichwascomposedfinallyofsixEnglishpeople,reachedtheriver-sideasthenightfell。

  Theycamecanteringthroughthetrees——Mr。andMrs。Flushing,HelenAmbrose,Rachel,Terence,andSt。John。Thetiredlittlehorsesthenstoppedautomatically,andtheEnglishdismounted。

  Mrs。Flushingstrodetotheriver-bankinhighspirits。Thedayhadbeenlongandhot,butshehadenjoyedthespeedandtheopenair;

  shehadleftthehotelwhichshehated,andshefoundthecompanytoherliking。Theriverwasswirlingpastinthedarkness;

  theycouldjustdistinguishthesmoothmovingsurfaceofthewater,andtheairwasfullofthesoundofit。Theystoodinanemptyspaceinthemidstofgreattree-trunks,andouttherealittlegreenlightmovingslightlyupanddownshowedthemwherethesteamerlayinwhichtheyweretoembark。

  Whentheyallstooduponitsdecktheyfoundthatitwasaverysmallboatwhichthrobbedgentlybeneaththemforafewminutes,andthenshovedsmoothlythroughthewater。Theyseemedtobedrivingintotheheartofthenight,forthetreesclosedinfrontofthem,andtheycouldhearallroundthemtherustlingofleaves。Thegreatdarknesshadtheusualeffectoftakingawayalldesireforcommunicationbymakingtheirwordssoundthinandsmall;and,afterwalkingroundthedeckthreeorfourtimes,theyclusteredtogether,yawningdeeply,andlookingatthesamespotofdeepgloomonthebanks。Murmuringverylowintherhythmicaltoneofoneoppressedbytheair,Mrs。Flushingbegantowonderwheretheyweretosleep,fortheycouldnotsleepdownstairs,theycouldnotsleepinadogholesmellingofoil,theycouldnotsleepondeck,theycouldnotsleep——Sheyawnedprofoundly。ItwasasHelenhadforeseen;thequestionofnakednesshadrisenalready,althoughtheywerehalfasleep,andalmostinvisibletoeachother。

  WithSt。John’shelpshestretchedanawning,andpersuadedMrs。Flushingthatshecouldtakeoffherclothesbehindthis,andthatnoonewouldnoticeifbychancesomepartofherwhichhadbeenconcealedforforty-fiveyearswaslaidbaretothehumaneye。

  Mattresseswerethrowndown,rugsprovided,andthethreewomenlayneareachotherinthesoftopenair。

  Thegentlemen,havingsmokedacertainnumberofcigarettes,droppedtheglowingendsintotheriver,andlookedforatimeattherippleswrinklingtheblackwaterbeneaththem,undressedtoo,andlaydownattheotherendoftheboat。Theywereverytired,andcurtainedfromeachotherbythedarkness。Thelightfromonelanternfelluponafewropes,afewplanksofthedeck,andtherailoftheboat,butbeyondthattherewasunbrokendarkness,nolightreachedtheirfaces,orthetreeswhichweremassedonthesidesoftheriver。

  SoonWilfridFlushingslept,andHirstslept。Hewetalonelayawakelookingstraightupintothesky。Thegentlemotionandtheblackshapesthatweredrawnceaselesslyacrosshiseyeshadtheeffectofmakingitimpossibleforhimtothink。Rachel’spresencesonearhimlulledthoughtasleep。Beingsonearhim,onlyafewpacesoffattheotherendoftheboat,shemadeitasimpossibleforhimtothinkaboutherasitwouldhavebeenimpossibletoseeherifshehadstoodquiteclosetohim,herforeheadagainsthisforehead。

  Insomestrangewaytheboatbecameidentifiedwithhimself,andjustasitwouldhavebeenuselessforhimtogetupandsteertheboat,sowasituselessforhimtostruggleanylongerwiththeirresistibleforceofhisownfeelings。Hewasdrawnonandonawayfromallheknew,slippingoverbarriersandpastlandmarksintounknownwatersastheboatglidedoverthesmoothsurfaceoftheriver。

  Inprofoundpeace,envelopedindeeperunconsciousnessthanhadbeenhisformanynights,helayondeckwatchingthetree-topschangetheirpositionslightlyagainstthesky,andarchthemselves,andsinkandtowerhuge,untilhepassedfromseeingthemintodreamswherehelaybeneaththeshadowofthevasttrees,lookingupintothesky。

  Whentheywokenextmorningtheyhadgoneaconsiderablewayuptheriver;ontherightwasahighyellowbankofsandtuftedwithtrees,ontheleftaswampquiveringwithlongreedsandtallbamboosonthetopofwhich,swayingslightly,perchedvividgreenandyellowbirds。Themorningwashotandstill。Afterbreakfasttheydrewchairstogetherandsatinanirregularsemicircleinthebow。

  Anawningabovetheirheadsprotectedthemfromtheheatofthesun,andthebreezewhichtheboatmadeairedthemsoftly。Mrs。Flushingwasalreadydottingandstripinghercanvas,herheadjerkingthiswayandthatwiththeactionofabirdnervouslypickingupgrain;

  theothershadbooksorpiecesofpaperorembroideryontheirknees,atwhichtheylookedfitfullyandagainlookedattheriverahead。

  AtonepointHewetreadpartofapoemaloud,butthenumberofmovingthingsentirelyvanquishedhiswords。Heceasedtoread,andnoonespoke。Theymovedonundertheshelterofthetrees。

  Therewasnowacoveyofredbirdsfeedingononeofthelittleisletstotheleft,oragainablue-greenparrotflewshriekingfromtreetotree。Astheymovedonthecountrygrewwilderandwilder。

  Thetreesandtheundergrowthseemedtobestranglingeachothernearthegroundinamultitudinouswrestle;whilehereandthereasplendidtreetoweredhighabovetheswarm,shakingitsthingreenumbrellaslightlyintheupperair。Hewetlookedathisbooksagain。

  Themorningwaspeacefulasthenighthadbeen,onlyitwasverystrangebecausehecouldseeitwaslight,andhecouldseeRachelandhearhervoiceandbeneartoher。Hefeltasifhewerewaiting,asifsomehowhewerestationaryamongthingsthatpassedoverhimandaroundhim,voices,people’sbodies,birds,onlyRacheltoowaswaitingwithhim。Helookedathersometimesasifshemustknowthattheywerewaitingtogether,andbeingdrawnontogether,withoutbeingabletoofferanyresistance。Againhereadfromhisbook:

  Whoeveryouareholdingmenowinyourhand,Withoutonethingallwillbeuseless。

  Abirdgaveawildlaugh,amonkeychuckledamaliciousquestion,and,asfirefadesinthehotsunshine,hiswordsflickeredandwentout。

  Bydegreesastherivernarrowed,andthehighsandbanksfelltolevelgroundthicklygrownwithtrees,thesoundsoftheforestcouldbeheard。Itechoedlikeahall。Thereweresuddencries;

  andthenlongspacesofsilence,suchasthereareinacathedralwhenaboy’svoicehasceasedandtheechoofitstillseemstohauntabouttheremoteplacesoftheroof。OnceMr。Flushingroseandspoketoasailor,andevenannouncedthatsometimeafterluncheonthesteamerwouldstop,andtheycouldwalkalittlewaythroughtheforest。

  “Therearetracksallthroughthetreesthere,“heexplained。

  “We’renodistancefromcivilisationyet。“

  Hescrutinisedhiswife’spainting。Toopolitetopraiseitopenly,hecontentedhimselfwithcuttingoffonehalfofthepicturewithonehand,andgivingaflourishintheairwiththeother。

  “God!“Hirstexclaimed,staringstraightahead。“Don’tyouthinkit’samazinglybeautiful?“

  “Beautiful?“Helenenquired。Itseemedastrangelittleword,andHirstandherselfbothsosmallthatsheforgottoanswerhim。

  Hewetfeltthathemustspeak。

  “That’swheretheElizabethansgottheirstyle,“hemused,staringintotheprofusionofleavesandblossomsandprodigiousfruits。

  “Shakespeare?IhateShakespeare!“Mrs。Flushingexclaimed;

  andWilfridreturnedadmiringly,“Ibelieveyou’retheonlypersonwhodarestosaythat,Alice。“ButMrs。Flushingwentonpainting。

  Shedidnotappeartoattachmuchvaluetoherhusband’scompliment,andpaintedsteadily,sometimesmutteringahalf-audiblewordorgroan。

  Themorningwasnowveryhot。

  “LookatHirst!“Mr。Flushingwhispered。Hissheetofpaperhadslippedontothedeck,hisheadlayback,andhedrewalongsnoringbreath。

  TerencepickedupthesheetofpaperandspreaditoutbeforeRachel。

  ItwasacontinuationofthepoemonGodwhichhehadbeguninthechapel,anditwassoindecentthatRacheldidnotunderstandhalfofitalthoughshesawthatitwasindecent。

  HewetbegantofillinwordswhereHirsthadleftspaces,buthesoonceased;hispencilrolledondeck。Graduallytheyapproachednearerandnearertothebankontheright-handside,sothatthelightwhichcoveredthembecamedefinitelygreen,fallingthroughashadeofgreenleaves,andMrs。Flushingsetasidehersketchandstaredaheadofherinsilence。Hirstwokeup;

  theywerethencalledtoluncheon,andwhiletheyateit,thesteamercametoastandstillalittlewayoutfromthebank。

  Theboatwhichwastowedbehindthemwasbroughttotheside,andtheladieswerehelpedintoit。

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