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  “Howsillythepooroldlightslook!“saidEvelynM。inacuriouslysubduedtoneofvoice。“Andourselves;itisn’tbecoming。“

  Itwastrue;theuntidyhair,andthegreenandyellowgems,whichhadseemedsofestivehalfanhourago,nowlookedcheapandslovenly。

  Thecomplexionsoftheelderladiessufferedterribly,and,asifconsciousthatacoldeyehadbeenturneduponthem,theybegantosaygood-nightandtomaketheirwayuptobed。

  Rachel,thoughrobbedofheraudience,hadgoneonplayingtoherself。

  FromJohnPeelshepassedtoBach,whowasatthistimethesubjectofherintenseenthusiasm,andonebyonesomeoftheyoungerdancerscameinfromthegardenandsatuponthedesertedgiltchairsroundthepiano,theroombeingnowsoclearthattheyturnedoutthelights。

  Astheysatandlistened,theirnerveswerequieted;theheatandsorenessoftheirlips,theresultofincessanttalkingandlaughing,wassmoothedaway。Theysatverystillasiftheysawabuildingwithspacesandcolumnssucceedingeachotherrisingintheemptyspace。

  Thentheybegantoseethemselvesandtheirlives,andthewholeofhumanlifeadvancingverynoblyunderthedirectionofthemusic。

  Theyfeltthemselvesennobled,andwhenRachelstoppedplayingtheydesirednothingbutsleep。

  Susanrose。“Ithinkthishasbeenthehappiestnightofmylife!“

  sheexclaimed。“Idoadoremusic,“shesaid,asshethankedRachel。

  “Itjustseemstosayallthethingsonecan’tsayoneself。“

  Shegaveanervouslittlelaughandlookedfromonetoanotherwithgreatbenignity,asthoughshewouldliketosaysomethingbutcouldnotfindthewordsinwhichtoexpressit。“Everyone’sbeensokind——

  soverykind,“shesaid。Thenshetoowenttobed。

  Thepartyhavingendedintheveryabruptwayinwhichpartiesdoend,HelenandRachelstoodbythedoorwiththeircloakson,lookingforacarriage。

  “Isupposeyourealisethattherearenocarriagesleft?“

  saidSt。John,whohadbeenouttolook。“Youmustsleephere。“

  “Oh,no,“saidHelen;“weshallwalk。“

  “Maywecometoo?“Hewetasked。“Wecan’tgotobed。Imaginelyingamongbolstersandlookingatone’swashstandonamorninglikethis——

  Isthatwhereyoulive?“Theyhadbeguntowalkdowntheavenue,andheturnedandpointedatthewhiteandgreenvillaonthehillside,whichseemedtohaveitseyesshut。

  “That’snotalightburning,isit?“Helenaskedanxiously。

  “It’sthesun,“saidSt。John。Theupperwindowshadeachaspotofgoldonthem。

  “Iwasafraiditwasmyhusband,stillreadingGreek,“shesaid。

  “Allthistimehe’sbeenediting_Pindar_。“

  Theypassedthroughthetownandturnedupthesteeproad,whichwasperfectlyclear,thoughstillunborderedbyshadows。

  Partlybecausetheyweretired,andpartlybecausetheearlylightsubduedthem,theyscarcelyspoke,butbreathedinthedeliciousfreshair,whichseemedtobelongtoadifferentstateoflifefromtheairatmidday。Whentheycametothehighyellowwall,wherethelaneturnedofffromtheroad,Helenwasfordismissingthetwoyoungmen。

  “You’vecomefarenough,“shesaid。“Gobacktobed。“

  Buttheyseemedunwillingtomove。

  “Let’ssitdownamoment,“saidHewet。Hespreadhiscoatontheground。“Let’ssitdownandconsider。“Theysatdownandlookedoutoverthebay;itwasverystill,theseawasripplingfaintly,andlinesofgreenandbluewerebeginningtostripeit。Therewerenosailingboatsasyet,butasteamerwasanchoredinthebay,lookingveryghostlyinthemist;itgaveoneunearthlycry,andthenallwassilent。

  Racheloccupiedherselfincollectingonegreystoneafteranotherandbuildingthemintoalittlecairn;shediditveryquietlyandcarefully。

  “Andsoyou’vechangedyourviewoflife,Rachel?“saidHelen。

  Racheladdedanotherstoneandyawned。“Idon’tremember,“shesaid,“Ifeellikeafishatthebottomofthesea。“Sheyawnedagain。

  Noneofthesepeoplepossessedanypowertofrightenherouthereinthedawn,andshefeltperfectlyfamiliarevenwithMr。Hirst。

  “Mybrain,onthecontrary,“saidHirst,“isinaconditionofabnormalactivity。“Hesatinhisfavouritepositionwithhisarmsbindinghislegstogetherandhischinrestingonthetopofhisknees。“Iseethrougheverything——absolutelyeverything。

  Lifehasnomoremysteriesforme。“Hespokewithconviction,butdidnotappeartowishforananswer。Nearthoughtheysat,andfamiliarthoughtheyfelt,theyseemedmereshadowstoeachother。

  “Andallthosepeopledowntheregoingtosleep,“Hewetbegandreamily,“thinkingsuchdifferentthings,——MissWarrington,Isuppose,isnowonherknees;theElliotsarealittlestartled,it’snotoften_they_getoutofbreath,andtheywanttogettosleepasquicklyaspossible;thenthere’sthepoorleanyoungmanwhodancedallnightwithEvelyn;he’sputtinghisflowerinwaterandaskinghimself,’Isthislove?’——andpooroldPerrott,Idaresay,can’tgettosleepatall,andisreadinghisfavouriteGreekbooktoconsolehimself——

  andtheothers——no,Hirst,“hewoundup,“Idon’tfinditsimpleatall。“

  “Ihaveakey,“saidHirstcryptically。Hischinwasstilluponhiskneesandhiseyesfixedinfrontofhim。

  Asilencefollowed。ThenHelenroseandbadethemgood-night。

  “But,“shesaid,“rememberthatyou’vegottocomeandseeus。“

  Theywavedgood-nightandparted,butthetwoyoungmendidnotgobacktothehotel;theywentforawalk,duringwhichtheyscarcelyspoke,andnevermentionedthenamesofthetwowomen,whowere,toaconsiderableextent,thesubjectoftheirthoughts。

  Theydidnotwishtosharetheirimpressions。Theyreturnedtothehotelintimeforbreakfast。

  Thereweremanyroomsinthevilla,butoneroomwhichpossessedacharacterofitsownbecausethedoorwasalwaysshut,andnosoundofmusicorlaughterissuedfromit。Everyoneinthehousewasvaguelyconsciousthatsomethingwentonbehindthatdoor,andwithoutintheleastknowingwhatitwas,wereinfluencedintheirownthoughtsbytheknowledgethatifthepasseditthedoorwouldbeshut,andiftheymadeanoiseMr。Ambroseinsidewouldbedisturbed。Certainactsthereforepossessedmerit,andotherswerebad,sothatlifebecamemoreharmoniousandlessdisconnectedthanitwouldhavebeenhadMr。Ambrosegivenupediting_Pindar_,andtakentoanomadexistence,inandoutofeveryroominthehouse。

  Asitwas,everyonewasconsciousthatbyobservingcertainrules,suchaspunctualityandquiet,bycookingwell,andperformingothersmallduties,oneodeafteranotherwassatisfactorilyrestoredtotheworld,andtheysharedthecontinuityofthescholar’slife。

  Unfortunately,asageputsonebarrierbetweenhumanbeings,andlearninganother,andsexathird,Mr。Ambroseinhisstudywassomethousandmilesdistantfromthenearesthumanbeing,whointhishouseholdwasinevitablyawoman。Hesathourafterhouramongwhite-leavedbooks,alonelikeanidolinanemptychurch,stillexceptforthepassageofhishandfromonesideofthesheettoanother,silentsaveforanoccasionalchoke,whichdrovehimtoextendhispipeamomentintheair。Asheworkedhiswayfurtherandfurtherintotheheartofthepoet,hischairbecamemoreandmoredeeplyencircledbybooks,whichlayopenonthefloor,andcouldonlybecrossedbyacarefulprocessofstepping,sodelicatethathisvisitorsgenerallystoppedandaddressedhimfromtheoutskirts。

  Onthemorningafterthedance,however,Rachelcameintoheruncle’sroomandhailedhimtwice,“UncleRidley,“beforehepaidheranyattention。

  Atlengthhelookedoverhisspectacles。

  “Well?“heasked。

  “Iwantabook,“shereplied。“Gibbon’s_History__of__the_

  _Roman__Empire_。MayIhaveit?“

  Shewatchedthelinesonheruncle’sfacegraduallyrearrangethemselvesatherquestion。Ithadbeensmoothasamaskbeforeshespoke。

  “Pleasesaythatagain,“saidheruncle,eitherbecausehehadnotheardorbecausehehadnotunderstood。

  Sherepeatedthesamewordsandreddenedslightlyasshedidso。

  “Gibbon!Whatonearthd’youwanthimfor?“heenquired。

  “Somebodyadvisedmetoreadit,“Rachelstammered。

  “ButIdon’ttravelaboutwithamiscellaneouscollectionofeighteenth-centuryhistorians!“heruncleexclaimed。

  “Gibbon!Tenbigvolumesatleast。“

  Rachelsaidthatshewassorrytointerrupt,andwasturningtogo。

  “Stop!“criedheruncle。Heputdownhispipe,placedhisbookononeside,androseandledherslowlyroundtheroom,holdingherbythearm。

  “Plato,“hesaid,layingonefingeronthefirstofarowofsmalldarkbooks,“andJorrocksnextdoor,whichiswrong。Sophocles,Swift。

  Youdon’tcareforGermancommentators,Ipresume。French,then。

  YoureadFrench?YoushouldreadBalzac。ThenwecometoWordsworthandColeridge,Pope,Johnson,Addison,Wordsworth,Shelley,Keats。

  Onethingleadstoanother。WhyisMarlowehere?Mrs。Chailey,Ipresume。Butwhat’stheuseofreadingifyoudon’treadGreek?

  Afterall,ifyoureadGreek,youneedneverreadanythingelse,purewasteoftime——purewasteoftime,“thusspeakinghalftohimself,withquickmovementsofhishands;theyhadcomeroundagaintothecircleofbooksonthefloor,andtheirprogresswasstopped。

  “Well,“hedemanded,“whichshallitbe?“

  “Balzac,“saidRachel,“orhaveyouthe_Speech__on__the_

  _American__Revolution_,UncleRidley?“

  “_The__Speech__on__the__American__Revolution_?“heasked。

  Helookedatherverykeenlyagain。“Anotheryoungmanatthedance?“

  “No。ThatwasMr。Dalloway,“sheconfessed。

  “GoodLord!“heflungbackhisheadinrecollectionofMr。Dalloway。

  Shechoseforherselfavolumeatrandom,submittedittoheruncle,who,seeingthatitwas_La__Cousine__bette_,badeherthrowitawayifshefoundittoohorrible,andwasabouttoleavehimwhenhedemandedwhethershehadenjoyedherdance?

  Hethenwantedtoknowwhatpeopledidatdances,seeingthathehadonlybeentoonethirty-fiveyearsago,whennothinghadseemedtohimmoremeaninglessandidiotic。Didtheyenjoyturningroundandroundtothescreechofafiddle?Didtheytalk,andsayprettythings,andifso,whydidn’ttheydoit,underreasonableconditions?

  Asforhimself——hesighedandpointedatthesignsofindustrylyingallabouthim,which,inspiteofhissigh,filledhisfacewithsuchsatisfactionthathisniecethoughtgoodtoleave。

  Onbestowingakissshewasallowedtogo,butnotuntilshehadboundherselftolearnatanyratetheGreekalphabet,andtoreturnherFrenchnovelwhendonewith,uponwhichsomethingmoresuitablewouldbefoundforher。

  Astheroomsinwhichpeopleliveareapttogiveoffsomethingofthesameshockastheirfaceswhenseenforthefirsttime,Rachelwalkedveryslowlydownstairs,lostinwonderatheruncle,andhisbooks,andhisneglectofdances,andhisqueer,utterlyinexplicable,butapparentlysatisfactoryviewoflife,whenhereyewascaughtbyanotewithhernameonitlyinginthehall。

  Theaddresswaswritteninasmallstronghandunknowntoher,andthenote,whichhadnobeginning,ran:——

  IsendthefirstvolumeofGibbonasIpromised。PersonallyIfindlittletobesaidforthemoderns,butI’mgoingtosendyouWedekindwhenI’vedonehim。Donne?HaveyoureadWebsterandallthatset?

  Ienvyyoureadingthemforthefirsttime。Completelyexhaustedafterlastnight。Andyou?

  TheflourishofinitialswhichshetooktobeSt。J。A。H。,wounduptheletter。ShewasverymuchflatteredthatMr。Hirstshouldhaverememberedher,andfulfilledhispromisesoquickly。

  Therewasstillanhourtoluncheon,andwithGibboninonehand,andBalzacintheothershestrolledoutofthegateanddownthelittlepathofbeatenmudbetweentheolivetreesontheslopeofthehill。Itwastoohotforclimbinghills,butalongthevalleythereweretreesandagrasspathrunningbytheriverbed。

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