Apennyforyourthoughts。
What?repliedGertywithasmilereinforcedbythewhitestofteeth。
Iwasonlywonderingwasitlate。
Becauseshewishedtogoodnessthey’dtakethesnottynosedtwinsandtheirbabyhometothemischiefoutofthatsothatwaswhyshejustgaveagentlehintaboutitsbeinglate。AndwhenCissycameupEdyaskedherthetimeandMissCissy,asglibasyoulike,saiditwashalfpastkissingtime,timetokissagain。ButEdywantedtoknowbecausetheyweretoldtobeinearly。
Wait,saidCissy,I’llaskmyunclePeterovertherewhat’sthetimebyhisconundrum。
Soovershewentandwhenhesawhercomingshecouldseehimtakehishandoutofhispocket,gettingnervous,andbeginningtoplaywithhiswatchchain,lookingatthechurch。PassionatenaturethoughhewasGertycouldseethathehadenormouscontroloverhimself。Onemomenthehadbeenthere,fascinatedbyalovelinessthatmadehimgaze,andthenextmomentitwasthequietgravefacedgentleman,selfcontrolexpressedineverylineofhisdistinguishedlookingfigure。
CissysaidtoexcuseherwouldhemindtellingherwhatwastherighttimeandGertycouldseehimtakingouthiswatch,listeningtoitandlookingupandclearinghisthroatandhesaidhewasverysorryhiswatchwasstoppedbuthethoughtitmustbeaftereightbecausethesunwasset。
Hisvoicehadaculturedringinitandthoughhespokeinmeasuredaccentstherewasasuspicionofaquiverinthemellowtones。Cissysaidthanksandcamebackwithhertongueoutandsaidunclesaidhiswaterworkswereoutoforder。
ThentheysangthesecondverseoftheTantumergoandCanonO’HanlongotupagainandcensedtheBlessedSacramentandkneltdownandhetoldFatherConroythatoneofthecandleswasjustgoingtosetfiretotheflowersandFatherConroygotupandsettleditallrightandshecouldseethegentlemanwindinghiswatchandlisteningtotheworksandsheswungherlegmoreinandoutintime。Itwasgettingdarkerbuthecouldseeandhewaslookingallthetimethathewaswindingthewatchorwhateverhewasdoingtoitandthenheputitbackandputhishandsbackintohispockets。ShefeltaKindofasensationrushingalloverherandsheknewbythefeelofherscalpandthatirritationagainstherstaysthatthatthingmustbecomingonbecausethelasttimetoowaswhensheclippedherhaironaccountofthemoon。Hisdarkeyesfixedthemselvesonheragaindrinkinginhereverycontour,literallyworshippingathershrine。Ifevertherewasundisguisedadmirationinaman’spassionategazeitwasthereplaintobeseenonthatman’sface。Itisforyou,GertrudeMacDowell,andyouknowit。
EdybegantogetreadytogoanditwashightimeforherandGertynoticedthatthatlittlehintshegavehadthedesiredeffectbecauseitwasalongwayalongthestrandtowheretherewastheplacetopushupthepushcarandCissytookoffthetwins’capsandtidiedtheirhairtomakeherselfattractiveofcourseandCanonO’HanlonstoodupwithhiscopepokingupathisneckandFatherConroyhandedhimthecardtoreadoffandhereadoutPanemdecloprstitistieisandEdyandCissyweretalkingaboutthetimeallthetimeandaskingherbutGertycouldpaythembackintheirowncoinandshejustansweredwithscathingpolitenesswhenEdyaskedherwassheheartbrokenaboutherbestboythrowingherover。Gertywincedsharply。Abriefcoldblazeshonefromhereyesthatspokevolumesofscornimmeasurable。Ithurt。Oyes,itcutdeepbecauseEdyhadherownquietwayofsayingthingslikethatsheknewwouldwoundliketheconfoundedlittlecatshewas。Gerty’slipspartedswiftlytoframethewordbutshefoughtbackthesobthatrosetoherthroat,soslim,soflawless,sobeautifullymouldeditseemedoneanartistmighthavedreamedof。Shehadlovedhimbetterthanheknew。Lighthearteddeceiverandficklelikeallhissexhewouldneverunderstandwhathehadmeanttoherandforaninstanttherewasintheblueeyesaquickstingingoftears。Theireyeswereprobinghermercilesslybutwithabraveeffortshesparkledbackinsympathyassheglancedathernewconquestforthemtosee。
O,respondedGerty,quickaslightning,laughing,andtheproudheadflashedup,IcanthrowmycapatwhoIlikebecauseit’sleapyear。
Herwordsrangoutcrystalclear,moremusicalthanthecooingoftheringdove,buttheycutthesilenceicily。Therewasthatinheryoungvoicethattoldthatshewasnotaonetobelightlytrifledwith。AsforMrReggywithhisswankandhisbitofmoneyshecouldjustchuckhimasideasifhewassomuchfilthandneveragainwouldshecastasmuchasasecondthoughtonhimandtearhissillypostcardintoadozenpieces。
Anditeverafterhedaredtopresumeshecouldgivehimonelookofmeasuredscornthatwouldmakehimshriveluponthespot。MisspunylittleEdy’scountenancefelltonoslightextentandGertycouldseebyherlookingasblackasthunderthatshewassimplyinatoweringragethoughshehidit,thelittlekinnatt,becausethatshafthadstruckhomeforherpettyjealousyandtheybothknewthatshewassomethingaloof,apartinanothersphere,thatshewasnotofthemandtherewassomebodyelsetoothatknewitandsawitsotheycouldputthatintheirpipeandsmokeit。
EdystraightenedupbabyBoardmantogetreadytogoandCissytuckedintheballandthespadesandbucketsanditwashightimetoobecausethesandmanwasonhiswayforMasterBoardmanjuniorandCissytoldhimtoothatBillyWinkswascomingandthatbabywastogodeedawandbabylookedjusttooducky,laughingupoutofhisgleefuleyes,andCissypokedhimlikethatoutoffuninhisweefattummyandbaby,withoutasmuchasbyyourleave,sentuphiscomplimentsontohisbrandnewdribblingbib。
Omy!Puddenypie!protestedCiss。Hehashisbibdestroyed。
Theslightcontretempsclaimedherattentionbutintwotwosshesetthatlittlemattertorights。
GertystifledasmotheredexclamationandgaveanervouscoughandEdyaskedwhatandshewasjustgoingtotellhertocatchitwhileitwasflyingbutshewaseverladylikeinherdeportmentsoshesimplypasseditoffwithconsummatetactbysayingthatthatwasthebenedictionbecausejustthenthebellrangoutfromthesteepleoverthequietseashorebecauseCanonO’HanlonwasuponthealtarwiththeveilthatFatherConroyputroundhimroundhisshouldersgivingthebenedictionwiththeblessedSacramentinhishands。
Howmovingthescenethereinthegatheringtwilight,thelastglimpseofErin,thetouchingchimeofthoseeveningbellsandatthesametimeabatflewforthfromtheiviedbelfrythroughthedusk,hither,thither,withatinylostcry。AndshecouldseefarawaythelightsofthelighthousessopicturesqueshewouldhavelovedtodowithaboxofpaintsbecauseitwaseasierthantomakeamanandsoonthelamplighterwouldbegoinghisroundspastthepresbyterianchurchgroundsandalongbyshadyTritonvilleavenuewherethecoupleswalkedandlightingthelampnearherwindowwhereReggyWylieusedtoturnhisfreewheellikeshereadinthatbookTheLamplighterbyMissCummins,authorofMabelVaughanandothertales。ForGertyhadherdreamsthatno-oneknewof。ShelovedtoreadpoetryandwhenshegotakeepsakefromBerthaSuppleofthatlovelyconfessionalbumwiththecoralpinkcovertowriteherthoughtsinshelaiditinthedrawerofhertoilettablewhich,thoughitdidnoterronthesideofluxury,wasscrupulouslyneatandclean。Itwasthereshekepthergirlishtreasurestrove,thetortoiseshellcombs,herchildofMarybadge,thewhiterosescent,theeyebrowleine,heralabasterpouncetboxandtheribbonstochangewhenherthingscamehomefromthewashandthereweresomebeautifulthoughtswritteninitinvioletinkthatsheboughtinHely’sofDameStreetforshefeltthatshetoocouldwritepoetryifshecouldonlyexpressherselflikethatpoemthatappealedtohersodeeplythatshehadcopiedoutofthenewspapershefoundoneeveningroundthepotherbs。Artthoureal,myideal?itwascalledbyLouisJ。Walsh,Magherafelt,andaftertherewassomethingabouttwilight,wiltthouever?andofttimesthebeautyofpoetry,sosadinitstransientloveliness,hadmistedhereyeswithsilenttearsthattheyearswereslippingbyforher,onebyone,andbutforthatoneshortcomingsheknewsheneedfearnocompetitionandthatwasanaccidentcomingdownDalkeyhillandshealwaystriedtoconcealit。Butitmustendshefelt。Ifshesawthatmagiclureinhiseyestherewouldbenoholdingbackforher。Lovelaughsatlocksmiths。
Shewouldmakethegreatsacrifice。Hereveryeffortwouldbetosharehisthoughts。Dearerthanthewholeworldwouldshebetohimandgildhisdayswithhappiness。Therewastheallimportantquestionandshewasdyingtoknowwasheamarriedmanorawidowerwhohadlosthiswifeorsometragedylikethenoblemanwiththeforeignnamefromthelandofsonghadtohaveherputintoamadhouse,cruelonlytobekind。Butevenif-whatthen?Woulditmakeaverygreatdifference?Fromeverythingintheleastindelicateherfinebrednatureinstinctivelyrecoiled。Sheloathedthatsortofperson,thefallenwomenofftheaccommodationwalkbesidetheDodderthatwentwiththesoldiersandcoarsemen,withnorespectforagirl’shonour,degradingthesexandbeingtakenuptothepolicestation。No,no:notthat。TheywouldbejustgoodfriendslikeabigbrotherandsisterwithoutallthatotherinspiteoftheconventionsofSocietywithabigess。Perhapsitwasanoldflamehewasinmourningforfromthedaysbeyondrecall。Shethoughtsheunderstood。Shewouldtrytounderstandhimbecausemenweresodifferent。Theoldlovewaswaiting,waitingwithlittlewhitehandsstretchedout,withblueappealingeyes。Heartofmine!
Shewouldfollowherdreamoflove,thedictatesofherheartthattoldherhewasherallinall,theonlymaninalltheworldforherforlovewasthemasterguide。Nothingelsemattered。Comewhatmightshewouldbewild,untrammelled,free。
CanonO’HanlonputtheBlessedSacramentbackintothetabernacleandthechoirsangLaudateDominumomnesgentesandthenhelockedthetabernacledoorbecausethebenedictionwasoverandFatherConroyhandedhimhishattoputonandcrosscatEdyaskedwasn’tshecomingbutJackyCaffreycalledout:
O,look,Cissy!
AndtheyalllookedwasitsheetlightningbutTommysawittoooverthetreesbesidethechurch,blueandthengreenandpurple。
It’sfireworks,CissyCaffreysaid。
Andtheyallrandownthestrandtoseeoverthehousesandthechurch,helterskelter,EdywiththepushcarwithbabyBoardmaninitandCissyholdingTommyandJackybythehandsotheywouldn’tfallrunning。
Comeon,Gerty,Cissycalled。It’sthebazaarfireworks。
ButGertywasadamant。Shehadnointentionofbeingattheirbeckandcall。Iftheycouldrunlikerossiesshecouldsitsoshesaidshecouldseefromwhereshewas。Theeyesthatwerefasteneduponhersetherpulsestingling。Shelookedathimamoment,meetinghisglance,andalightbrokeinuponher。Whitehotpassionwasinthatface,passionsilentasthegrave,andithadmadeherhis。Atlasttheywereleftalonewithouttheotherstopryandpassremarksandsheknewhecouldbetrustedtothedeath,steadfast,asterlingman,amanofinflexiblehonourtohisfingertips。
Hishandsandfacewereworkingandatremorwentoverher。Sheleanedbackfartolookupwherethefireworkswereandshecaughtherkneeinherhandssoasnottofallbacklookingupandtherewasnoonetoseeonlyhimandherwhensherevealedallhergracefulbeautifullyshapedlegslikethat,supplysoftanddelicatelyrounded,andsheseemedtohearthepantingofhisheart,hishoarsebreathing,becausesheknewaboutthepassionofmenlikethat,hot-blooded,becauseBerthaSuppletoldheronceindeadsecretandmadeherswearshe’dneveraboutthegentlemanlodgerthatwasstayingwiththemoutoftheCongestedDistrictsBoardthathadpicturescutoutofpapersofthoseskirtdancersandhighkickersandshesaidheusedtodosomethingnotverynicethatyoucouldimaginesometimesinthebed。Butthiswasaltogetherdifferentfromathinglikethatbecausetherewasallthedifferencebecauseshecouldalmostfeelhimdrawherfacetohisandthefirstquickhottouchofhishandsomelips。Besidestherewasabsolutionsolongasyoudidn’tdotheotherthingbeforebeingmarriedandthereoughttobewomenprieststhatwouldunderstandwithoutyourtellingoutandCissyCaffreytoosometimeshadthatdreamykindofdreamylookinhereyessothatshetoo,mydear,andWinnyRippinghamsomadaboutactors’photographsandbesidesitwasonaccountofthatotherthingcomingonthewayitdid。