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  `Myuncleisright,’shesaid。`Ihavecausedtroubleandanxietyenoughtoyou,andtoallaboutme。Letmecausenomore,Marian——letSirPercivaldecide。’

  Iremonstratedwarmly,butnothingthatIcouldsaymovedher。

  `Iamheldtomyengagement,’shereplied;`Ihavebrokenwithmyoldlife。TheevildaywillnotcomethelesssurelybecauseIputitoff。

  No,Marian!onceagainmyuncleisright。Ihavecausedtroubleenoughandanxietyenough,andIwillcausenomore。’

  Sheusedtobepliabilityitself,butshewasnowinflexiblypassiveinherresignation——Imightalmostsayinherdespair。DearlyasIloveher,Ishouldhavebeenlesspainedifshehadbeenviolentlyagitated——itwassoshockinglyunlikehernaturalcharactertoseehercoldandinsensibleasIsawhernow。

  12th——SirPercivalputsomequestionstomeatbreakfastaboutLaura,whichleftmenochoicebuttotellhimwhatshehadsaid。

  Whileweweretalkingsheherselfcamedownandjoinedus。ShewasjustasunnaturallycomPosedinSirPercival’spresenceasshehadbeeninmine。

  Whenbreakfastwasoverhehadanopportunityofsayingafewwordstoherprivately,inarecessofoneofthewindows。Theywerenotmorethantwoorthreeminutestogether,andontheirseparatingshelefttheroomwithMrsVesey,whileSirPercivalcametome。Hesaidhehadentreatedhertofavourhimbymaintainingherprivilegeoffixingthetimeforthemarriageatherownwillandpleasure。Inreplyshehadmerelyexpressedheracknowledgments,andhaddesiredhimtomentionwhathiswishesweretoMissHalcombe。

  Ihavenopatiencetowritemore。Inthisinstance,asineveryother,SirPercivalhascarriedhispointwiththeutmostpossiblecredittohimself,inspiteofeverythingthatIcansayordo。Hiswishesarenow,whattheywere,ofcourse,whenhefirstcamehere;andLaurahavingresignedherselftotheoneinevitablesacrificeofthemarriage,remainsascoldlyhopelessandenduringasever。InpartingwiththelittleoccupationsandrelicsthatremindedherofHartright,sheseemstohavepartedwithallhertendernessandallherimpressibility。Itisonlythreeo’clockintheafternoonwhileIwritetheselines,andSirPercivalhasleftusalready,inthehappyhurryofabridegroom,toprepareforthebride’sreceptionathishouseinHampshire。Unlesssomeextraordinaryeventhappenstopreventittheywillbemarriedexactlyatthetimewhenhewishedtobemarried——beforetheendoftheyear。MyveryfingersburnasIwriteit!

  13th——Asleeplessnight,throughuneasinessaboutLaura。TowardsthemorningIcametoaresolutiontotrywhatchangeofscenewoulddotorouseher。Shecannotsurelyremaininherpresenttorporofinsensibility,ifItakeherawayfromLimmeridgeandsurroundherwiththepleasantfacesofoldfriends?AftersomeconsiderationIdecidedonwritingtotheArnolds,inYorkshire。Theyaresimple,kind-hearted,hospitablepeople,andshehasknownthemfromherchildhood。WhenIhadputtheletterinthepost-bagItoldherwhatIhaddone。Itwouldhavebeenarelieftomeifshehadshownthespirittoresistandobject。Butno——sheonlysaid,`Iwillgoanywherewithyou,Marian。Idaresayyouareright——Idaresaythechangewilldomegood。’

  14th——IwrotetoMrGilmore,informinghimthattherewasreallyaprospectofthismiserablemarriagetakingplace,andalsomentioningmyideaoftryingwhatchangeofscenewoulddoforLaura。Ihadnohearttogointoparticulars。Timeenoughforthemwhenwegetnearertotheendoftheyear。

  15th——Threelettersforme。Thefirst,fromtheArnolds,fullofdelightattheprospectofseeingLauraandme。Thesecond,fromoneofthegentlementowhomIwroteonWalterHartright’sbehalf,informingmethathehasbeenfortunateenoughtofindanopportunityofcomplyingwithmyrequest。Thethird,fromWalterhimself,thankingme,poorfellow,inthewarmestterms,forgivinghimanopportunityofleavinghishome,hiscountry,andhisfriends。AprivateexpeditiontomakeexcavationsamongtheruinedcitiesofCentralAmericais,itseems,abouttosailfromLiverpool。

  Thedraughtsmanwhohadbeenalreadyappointedtoaccompanyithaslostheart,andwithdrawnattheeleventhhour,andWalteristofillhisplace。

  Heistobeengagedforsixmonthscertain,fromthetimeofthelandinginHonduras,andforayearafterwards,iftheexcavationsaresuccessful,andifthefundsholdout。Hisletterendswithapromisetowritemeafarewelllinewhentheyareallonboardship,andwhenthepilotleavesthem。IcanonlyhopeandprayearnestlythatheandIarebothactinginthismatterforthebest。Itseemsofitstartlesme。Andyet,inhisunhappyposition,howcanIexpecthimorwishhimtoremainathome?

  16th——Thecarriageisatthedoor。LauraandIsetoutonourvisittotheArnoldstoday。POLESDEANLODGE,YORKSHIRE。

  23rd——Aweekinthesenewscenesandamongthesekind-heartedpeoplehasdonehersomegood,thoughnotsomuchasIhadhoped。Ihaveresolvedtoprolongourstayforanotherweekatleast。ItisuselesstogobacktoLimmeridgetillthereisanabsolutenecessityforourreturn。

  24th——Sadnewsbythismorning’spost。TheexpeditiontoCentralAmericasailedonthetwenty-first。Wehavepartedwithatrueman——wehavelostafaithfulfriend。WalterHartrighthasleftEngland。

  25th——Sadnewsyesterday——ominousnewstoday。SirPercivalGlydehaswrittentoMrFairlie,andMrFairliehaswrittentoLauraandme,torecallustoLimmeridgeimmediately。

  Whatcanthismean?Hasthedayforthemarriagebeenfixedinourabsence?

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  November27th——Myforebodingsarerealised。Themarriageisfixedforthetwenty-secondofDecember。

  ThedayafterweleftforPolesdeanLodgeSirPercivalwrote,itseems,toMrFairlie,tosaythatthenecessaryrepairsandalterationsinhishouseinHampshirewouldoccupyamuchlongertimeincompletionthanhehadoriginallyanticipated。Theproperestimatesweretobesubmittedtohimassoonaspossible,anditwouldgreatlyfacilitatehisenteringintodefinitearrangementswiththeworkpeople,ifhecouldbeinformedoftheexactperiodatwhichtheweddingceremonymightbeexpectedtotakeplace。

  Hecouldthenmakeallhiscalculationsinreferencetotime,besideswritingthenecessaryapologiestofriendswhohadbeenengagedtovisithimthatwinter,andwhocouldnot,ofcourse,bereceivedwhenthehousewasinthehandsoftheworkmen。

  TothisletterMrFairliehadrepliedbyrequestingSirPercivalhimselftosuggestadayforthemarriage,subjecttoMissFairlie’sapproval,whichherguardianwillinglyundertooktodohisbesttoobtain。SirPercivalwrotebackbythenextpost,andproposedinaccordancewithhisownviewsandwishesfromthefirstthelatterpartofDecember——perhapsthetwenty-second,ortwenty-fourth,oranyotherdaythattheladyandherguardianmightprefer。Theladynotbeingathandtospeakforherself,herguardianhaddecided,inherabsence,ontheearliestdaymentioned——thetwenty-secondofDecember,andhadwrittentorecallustoLimmeridgeinconsequence。

  Afterexplainingtheseparticularstomeataprivateinterviewyesterday,MrFairliesuggested,inhismostamiablemanner,thatIshouldopenthenecessarynegotiationstoday。Feelingthatresistancewasuseless,unlessIcouldfirstobtainLaura’sauthoritytomakeit,Iconsentedtospeaktoher,butdeclared,atthesametime,thatIwouldonnoconsiderationundertaketogainherconsenttoSirPercival’swishes。MrFairliecomplimentedmeonmy`excellentconscience,’muchashewouldhavecomplimentedme,ifhehadbeenoutwalking,onmy`excellentconstitution,’andseemedperfectlysatisfied,sofar,withhavingsimplyshiftedonemorefamilyresponsibilityfromhisownshoulderstomine。

  ThismorningIspoketoLauraasIhadpromised。Thecomposure——I

  mayalmostsay,theinsensibility——whichshehassostrangelyandsoresolutelymaintainedeversinceSirPercivalleftus,wasnotproofagainsttheshockofthenewsIhadtotellher。Sheturnedpaleandtrembledviolently。

  `Notsosoon!’shepleaded。`Oh,Marian,notsosoon!’

  Theslightesthintshecouldgivewasenoughforme。Irosetoleavetheroom,andfightherbattleforheratoncewithMrFairlie。

  rustasmyhandwasonthedoor,shecaughtfastholdofmydressandstoppedme。

  `Letmego!’Isaid。`MytongueburnstotellyourunclethatheandSirPercivalarenottohaveitalltheirownway。’

  Shesighedbitterly,andstillheldmydress。

  `No!’shesaidfaintly。`Toolate,Marian,toolate!’

  `Notaminutetoolate,’Iretorted。`Thequestionoftimeisourquestion——andtrustme,Laura,totakeawoman’sfulladvantageofit。’

  IunclaspedherhandfrommygownwhileIspoke;butsheslippedbothherarmsroundmywaistatthesamemoment,andheldmemoreeffectuallythanever。

  `Itwillonlyinvolveusinmoretroubleandmoreconfusion,’shesaid。

  `Itwillsetyouandmyuncleatvariance,andbringSirPercivalhereagainwithfreshcausesofcomplaint——’

  `Somuchthebetter!’Icriedoutpassionately。`Whocaresforhiscausesofcomplaint?Areyoutobreakyourhearttosethismindatease?Nomanunderheavendeservesthesesacrificesfromuswomen。Men!Theyaretheenemiesofourinnocenceandourpeace——theydragusawayfromourparents’

  loveandoursisters’friendship——theytakeusbodyandsoultothemselves,andfastenourhelplesslivestotheirsastheychainupadogtohiskennel。

  Andwhatdoesthebestofthemgiveusinreturn?Letmego,Laura——I’mmadwhenIthinkofit!’

  Thetears——miserable,weak,women’stearsofvexationandrage——

  startedtomyeyes。Shesmiledsadly,andputherhandkerchiefovermyfacetohideformethebetrayalofmyownweakness——theweaknessofallotherswhichsheknewthatImostdespised。

  `Oh,Marian!’shesaid。`Youcrying!Thinkwhatyouwouldsaytome,iftheplaceswerechanged,andifthosetearsweremine。Allyourloveandcourageanddevotionwillnotalterwhatmusthappen,soonerorlater。

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