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  `Howdidyoucomehere?’sheasked,withoutnoticingwhatIhadjustsaidtoher。

  `Don’tyouremembermytellingyou,whenwelastmet,thatIwasgoingtoCumberland?IhavebeeninCumberlandeversince——IhavebeenstayingallthetimeatLimmeridgeHouse。’

  `AtLimmeridgeHouse!’Herpalefacebrightenedassherepeatedthewords,herwanderingeyesfixedonmewithasuddeninterest。`Ah,howhappyyoumusthavebeen!’shesaid,lookingatmeeagerly,withoutashadowofitsformerdistrustleftinherexpression。

  Itookadvantageofhernewly-arousedconfidenceinmetoobserveherface,withanattentionandacuriositywhichIhadhithertorestrainedmyselffromshowing,forcaution’ssake。Ilookedather,withmymindfullofthatotherlovelyfacewhichhadsoominouslyrecalledhertomymemoryontheterracebymoonlight。IhadseenAnneCatherick’slikenessinMissFairlie。InowsawMissFairlie’slikenessinAnneCatherick——

  sawitallthemoreclearlybecausethepointsofdissimilaritybetweenthetwowerepresentedtomeaswellasthepointsofresemblance。Inthegeneraloutlineofthecountenanceandgeneralproportionofthefeatures——inthecolourofthehairandinthelittlenervousuncertaintyaboutthelips——intheheightandsizeofthefigure,andthecarriageoftheheadandbody,thelikenessappearedevenmorestartlingthanIhadeverfeltittobeyet。Buttheretheresemblanceended,andthedissimilarity,indetails,began。ThedelicatebeautyofMissFairlie’scomplexion,thetransparentclearnessofhereyes,thesmoothpurityofherskin,thetenderbloomofcolouronherlips,wereallmissingfromthewornwearyfacethatwasnowturnedtowardsmine。AlthoughIhatedmyselfevenforthinkingsuchathing,still,whileIlookedatthewomanbeforeme,theideawouldforceitselfintomymindthatonesadchange,inthefuture,wasallthatwaswantingtomakethelikenesscomplete,whichInowsawtobesoimperfectindetail。IfeversorrowandsufferingsettheirprofaningmarksontheyouthandbeautyofMissFairlie’sface,then,andthenonly,AnneCatherickandshewouldbethetwin-sistersofchanceresemblance,thelivingreflectionsofoneanother。

  Ishudderedatthethought。Merewassomethinghorribleintheblindunreasoningdistrustofthefuturewhichthemerepassageofitthroughmymindseemedtoimply。ItwasawelcomeinterruptiontoberousedbyfeelingAnneCatherick’shandlaidonmyshoulder。Thetouchwasasstealthyandassuddenasthatothertouchwhichhadpetrifiedmefromheadtofootonthenightwhenwefirstmet。

  `Youarelookingatme,andyouarethinkingofsomething,’shesaid,withherstrangebreathlessrapidityofutterance。`Whatisit?’

  `Nothingextraordinary,’Ianswered。`Iwasonlywonderinghowyoucamehere。’

  `Icamewithafriendwhoisverygoodtome。Ihaveonlybeenheretwodays。’

  `Andyoufoundyourwaytothisplaceyesterday?’

  `Howdoyouknowthat?’

  `Ionlyguessedit。’

  Sheturnedfromme,andkneltdownbeforetheinscriptiononcemore。

  `WhereshouldIgoifnothere?’shesaid。`ThefriendwhowasbetterthanamothertomeistheonlyfriendIhavetovisitatLimmeridge。Oh,itmakesmyheartachetoseeastainonhertomb!Itoughttobekeptwhiteassnow,forhersake。Iwastemptedtobegincleaningityesterday,andIcan’thelpcomingbacktogoonwithittoday。Isthereanythingwronginthat?Ihopenot。SurelynothingcanbewrongthatIdoforMrsFairlie’ssake?’

  Theoldgratefulsenseofherbenefactress’skindnesswasevidentlytherulingideastillinthePoorcreature’smind——thenarrowmindwhichhadbuttooplainlyopenedtonootherlastingimpressionsincethatfirstimpressionofheryoungerandhappierdays。Isawthatmybestchanceofwinningherconfidencelayinencouraginghertoproceedwiththeartlessemploymentwhichshehadcomeintotheburial-groundtopursue。Sheresumeditatonce,onmytellinghershemightdoso,touchingthehardmarbleastenderlyasifithadbeenasentientthing,andwhisperingthewordsoftheinscriptiontoherself,overandoveragain,asifthelostdaysofhergirlhoodhadreturnedandshewaspatientlylearningherlessononcemoreatMrsFairlie’sknees。

  `Shouldyouwonderverymuch,’Isaid,preparingthewayascautiouslyasIcouldforthequestionsthatweretocome,`ifIownedthatitisasatisfactiontome,aswellasasurprise,toseeyouhere?Ifeltveryuneasyaboutyouafteryouleftmeinthecab。’

  Shelookedupquicklyandsuspiciously。

  `Uneasy,’sherepeated。`Why?’

  `Astrangethinghappenedafterwepartedthatnight。Twomenovertookmeinachaise。TheydidnotseewhereIwasstanding,buttheystoppednearme,andspoketoapolicemanontheothersideoftheway。’

  Sheinstantlysuspendedheremployment。Thehandholdingthedampclothwithwhichshehadbeencleaningtheinscriptiondroppedtoherside。Theotherhandgraspedthemarblecrossattheheadofthegrave。Herfaceturnedtowardsmeslowly,withtheblanklookofterrorsetrigidlyonitoncemore。Iwentonatallhazards——itwastoolatenowtodrawback。

  `Thetwomenspoketothepoliceman,’Isaid,`andaskedhimifhehadseenyou。Hehadnotseenyou;andthenoneofthemenspokeagain,andsaidyouhadescapedfromhisAsylum。’

  Shesprangtoherfeetasifmylastwordshadsetthepursuersonhertrack。

  `Stop!andheartheend,’Icried。`Stop!andyoushallknowhowIbefriendedyou。Awordfrommewouldhavetoldthemenwhichwayyouhadgone——andIneverspokethatword。Ihelpedyourescape——Imadeitsafeandcertain。

  Think,trytothink。TrytounderstandwhatItellyou。’

  Mymannerseemedtoinfluencehermorethanmywords。Shemadeanefforttograspthenewidea。Herhandsshiftedthedampclothhesitatinglyfromonetotheother,exactlyastheyhadshiftedthelittletravelling-bagonthenightwhenIfirstsawher。Slowlythepurposeofmywordsseemedtoforceitswaythroughtheconfusionandagitationofhermind。Slowlyherfeaturesrelaxed,andhereyeslookedatmewiththeirexpressiongainingincuriositywhatitwasfastlosinginfear。

  `Youdon’tthinkIoughttobebackintheAsylum,doyou?’shesaid。

  `Certainlynot。Iamgladyouescapedfromit——IamgladIhelpedyou。’

  `Yes,yes,youdidhelpmeindeed;youhelpedmeatthehardpart,’

  shewentonalittlevacantly。`Itwaseasytoescape,orlshouldnothavegotaway。Theyneversuspectedmeastheysuspectedtheothers。I

  wassoquiet,andsoobedient,andsoeasilyfrightened。ThefindingLondonwasthehardpart,andthereyouhelpedme。DidIthankyouatthetime?

  Ithankyounowverykindly。’

  `WastheAsylumfarfromwhereyoumetme?Come!showthatyoubelievemetobeyourfriend,andtellmewhereitwas。’

  Shementionedtheplace——aprivateAsylum,asitssituationinformedme;aprivateAsylumnotveryfarfromthespotwhereIhadseenher——

  andthen,withevidentsuspicionoftheusetowhichImightputheranswer,anxiouslyrepeatedherformerinquiry,`Youdon’tthinkIoughttobetakenback,doyou?’

  `Onceagain,Iamgladyouescaped——Iamgladyouprosperedwellafteryouleftme,’Ianswered。`YousaidyouhadafriendinLondontogoto。

  ridyoufindthefriend?’

  `Yes。Itwasverylate,buttherewasagirlupatneedleworkinthehouse,andshehelpedmetorouseMrsClements。MrsClementsismyfriend。

  Agood,kindwoman,butnotlikeMrsFairlie。Ahno,nobodyislikeMrsFairlie!’

  `IsMrsClementsanoldfriendofyours?Haveyouknownheralongtime?’

  `Yes,shewasaneighbourofoursonce,athome,inHampshire,andlikedme,andtookcareofmewhenIwasalittlegirl。Yearsago。whenshewentawayfromus,shewrotedowninmyPrayer-hookformewhereshewasgoingtoliveinLondon,andshesaid,``Ifyouareeverintrouble,Anne,cometome。Ihavenohusbandalivetosaymenay,andnochildrentolookafter,andIwilltakecareofyou。’’Kindwords,weretheynot?IsupposeIrememberthembecausetheywerekind。It’slittleenoughIrememberbesides——littleenough,littleenough!’

  `Hadyounofatherormothertotakecareofyou?’

  `Father?——Ineversawhim——Ineverheardmotherspeakofhim。father?

  Ah,dear!heisdead,Isuppose。’

  `Andyourmother?’

  `Idon’tgetonwellwithher。Weareatroubleandafeartoeachother。’

  Atroubleandafeartoeachother!Atthosewordsthesuspicioncrossedmymind,forthefirsttime,thathermothermightbethepersonwhohadplacedherunderrestraint。

  `Don’taskmeaboutmother,’shewenton。`I’drathertalkofMrsClements。

  MrsClementsislikeyou,shedoesn’tthinkthatIoughttobebackintheAsylum,andsheisasgladasyouarethatIescapedfromit。Shecriedovermymisfortune,andsaiditmustbekeptsecretfromeverybody。’

  Her`misfortune。’Inwhatsensewassheusingthatword?Inasensewhichmightexplainhermotiveinwritingtheanonymousletter?Inasensewhichmightshowittobethetoocommonandtoocustomarymotivethathasledmanyawomantointerposeanonymoushindrancestothemarriageofthemanwhohasruinedher?Iresolvedtoattempttheclearingupofthisdoubtbeforemorewordspassedbetweenusoneitherside。

  `Whatmisfortune?’Iasked。

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