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  `Themisfortuneofmybeingshutup,’sheanswered,witheveryappearanceoffeelingsurprisedatmyquestion。`Whatothermisfortunecouldtherebe?’

  Ideterminedtopersist,asdelicatelyandforbearinglyaspossible。

  ItwasofverygreatimportancethatIshouldbeabsolutelysureofeverystepintheinvestigationwhichInowgainedinadvance。

  `Thereisanothermisfortune,’Isaid,`towhichawomanmaybeliable,andbywhichshemaysufferlifelongsorrowandshame。’

  `Whatisit?’sheaskedeagerly。

  `Themisfortuneofbelievingtooinnocentlyinherownvirtue,andinthefaithandhonourofthemansheloves,’Ianswered。

  Shelookedupatmewiththeartlessbewildermentofachild。Nottheslightestconfusionorchangeofcolour——notthefaintesttraceofanysecretconsciousnessofshamestrugglingtothesurfaceappearedinherface——thatfacewhichbetrayedeveryotheremotionwithsuchtransparentclearness。Nowordsthateverwerespokencouldhaveassuredme,asherlookandmannernowassuredme,thatthemotivewhichIhadassignedforherwritingtheletterandsendingittoMissFairliewasplainlyanddistinctlythewrongone。Thatdoubt,atanyrate,wasnowsetatrest;buttheveryremovalofitopenedanewprospectofuncertainty。Theletter,asIknewfrompositivetestimony,pointedatSirPercivalGlyde,thoughitdidnotnamehim。Shemusthavehadsomestrongmotive,originatinginsomedeepsenseofinjury,forsecretlydenouncinghimtoMissFairlieinsuchtermsasshehademployed,andthatmotivewasunquestionablynottobetracedtothelossofherinnocenceandhercharacter。Whateverwronghemighthaveinflictedonherwasnotofthatnature。Ofwhatnaturecoulditbe?

  `Idon’tunderstandyou,’shesaid,afterevidentlytryinghard,andtryinginvain,todiscoverthemeaningofthewordsIhadlastsaidtoher。

  `Nevermind,’Ianswered。`Letusgoonwithwhatweweretalkingabout。

  TellmehowlongyoustayedwithMrsClementsinLondon,andhowyoucamehere。’

  `Howlong?’sherepeated。`IstayedwithMrsClementstillwebothcametothisplace,twodaysago。’

  `Youarelivinginthevillage,then?’Isaid。`ItisstrangeIshouldnothaveheardofyou,thoughyouhaveonlybeenheretwodays。’

  `No,no,notinthevillage。Threemilesawayatafarm。Doyouknowthefarm?TheycallitTodd’sCorner。’

  Irememberedtheplaceperfectly——wehadoftenpassedbyitinourdrives。Itwasoneoftheoldestfarmsintheneighbourhood,situatedinasolitary,shelteredspot,inlandatthejunctionoftwohills。

  `TheyarerelationsofMrsClementsatTodd’sCorner,’shewenton,`andtheyhadoftenaskedhertogoandseethem。Shesaidshewouldgo,andtakemewithher,forthequietandthefreshair。Itwasverykind,wasitnot?Iwouldhavegoneanywheretobequiet,andsafe,andoutoftheway。ButwhenIheardthatTodd’sComerwasnearLimmeridge——ohI

  IwassohappyIwouldhavewalkedallthewaybarefoottogetthere,andseetheschoolsandthevillageandLimmeridgeHouseagain。TheyareverygoodpeopleatTodd’sCorner。IhopeIshallstaytherealongtime。ThereisonlyonethingIdon’tlikeaboutthem,anddon’tlikeaboutMrsClements——’

  `Whatisit?’

  `Theywillteasemeaboutdressingallinwhite——theysayitlookssoparticular。Howdotheyknow?MrsFairlieknewbest。MrsFairliewouldneverhavemademewearthisuglybluecloakIAhIshewasfondofwhiteinherlifetime,andhereiswhitestoneabouthergrave——andIammakingitwhiterforhersake。Sheoftenworewhiteherself,andshealwaysdressedherlittledaughterinwhite。IsMissFairliewellandhappy?Doesshewearwhitenow,assheusedwhenshewasagirl?’

  HervoicesankwhenshePutthequestionsaboutMissFairlie,andsheturnedherheadfartherandfartherawayfromme。IthoughtIdetected,inthealterationofhermanner,anuneasyconsciousnessoftheriskshehadruninsendingtheanonymousletter,andIinstantlydeterminedsotoframemyanswerastosurpriseherintoowningit。

  `MissFairliewasnotverywellorveryhappythismorning,’Isaid。

  Shemurmuredafewwords,buttheywerespokensoconfusedly,andinsuchalowtone,thatIcouldnotevenguessatwhattheymeant。

  `DidyouaskmewhyMissFairliewasneitherwellnorhappythismorning?’

  Icontinued。

  `No,’shesaidquicklyandeagerly——`ohno,Ineveraskedthat。’

  `Iwilltellyouwithoutyourasking,’Iwenton。`MissFairliehasreceivedyourletter。’

  Shehadbeendownonherkneesforsomelittletimepast,carefullyremovingthelastweather-stainsleftabouttheinscriptionwhilewewerespeakingtogether。ThefistsentenceofthewordsIhadjustaddressedtohermadeherpauseinheroccupation,andturnslowlywithoutrisingfromherknees,soastofaceme。Thesecondsentenceliterallypetrifiedher。Theclothshehadbeenholdingdroppedfromherhands——herlipsfellapart——allthelittlecolourthattherewasnaturallyinherfaceleftitinaninstant。

  `Howdoyouknow?shesaidfaintly。`Whoshowedittoyou?’Thebloodrushedbackintoherface——rushedoverwhelmingly,asthesenserusheduponhermindthatherownwordshadbetrayedher。Shestruckherhandstogetherindespair。`Ineverwroteit,’shegaspedaffrightedly;`Iknownothingaboutit!’

  `Yes,’Isaid,`youwroteit,andyouknowaboutit。Itwaswrongtosendsuchaletter,itwaswrongtofrightenMissFairlie。Ifyouhadanythingtosaythatitwasrightandnecessaryforhertohear,youshouldhavegoneyourselftoLimmeridgeHouse——youshouldhavespokentotheyoungladywithyourownlips。’

  Shecroucheddownovertheflatstoneofthegave,tillherfacewashiddenonit,andmadenoreply。

  `MissFairliewillbeasgoodandkindtoyouashermotherwas,ifyoumeanwell,’Iwenton。`MissFairliewillkeepyoursecret,andnotletyoucometoanyharm。Willyouseehertomorrowatthefarm?WillyoumeetherinthegardenatLimmeridgeHouse?’

  `Oh,ifIcoulddie,andbehiddenandatrestwithyou!’Herlipsmurmuredthewordscloseonthegrave-stone,murmuredthemintonesofpassionateendearment,tothedeadremainsbeneath。`YouknowhowI

  loveyourchild,foryoursake!Oh,MrsFairlie!MrsFairlie!tellmehowtosaveher。Bemydarlingandmymotheroncemore,andtellmewhattodoforthebest。’

  Iheardherlipskissingthestone——Isawherhandsbeatingonitpassionately。Thesoundandthesightdeeplyaffectedme。Istoopeddown,andtookthepoorhelplesshandstenderlyinmine,andtriedtosootheher。

  Itwasuseless。Shesnatchedherhandsfromme,andnevermovedherfacefromthestone。Seeingtheurgentnecessityofquietingheratanyhazardandbyanymeans,Iappealedtotheonlyanxietythatsheappearedtofeel,inconnectionwithmeandwithmyopinionofher——theanxietytoconvincemeofherfitnesstobemistressofherownactions。

  `Come,come,’Isaidgently。`Trytocomposeyourself,oryouwillmakemealtermyopinionofyou。Don’tletmethinkthatthepersonwhoputyouintheAsylummighthavehadsomeexcuse——’

  Thenextwordsdiedawayonmylips。TheinstantIriskedthatchancereferencetothepersonwhohadputherintheAsylumshespranguponherknees。Amostextraordinaryandstartlingchangepassedoverher。Herface,atallordinarytimessotouchingtolookat,initsnervoussensitiveness,weakness,anduncertainty,becamesuddenlydarkenedbyanexpressionofmaniacallyintensehatredandfear,whichcommunicatedawild,unnaturalforcetoeveryfeature。Hereyesdilatedinthedimeveninglight,liketheeyesofawildanimal。Shecaughtupthecloththathadfallenatherside,asifithadbeenalivingcreaturethatshecouldkill,andcrusheditinbothherhandswithsuchconvulsivestrength,thatthefewdropsofmoistureleftinittrickleddownonthestonebeneathher。

  `Talkofsomethingelse,’shesaid,whisperingthroughherteeth。`I

  shalllosemyselfifyoutalkofthat。’

  EveryvestigeofthegentlerthoughtswhichhadWedhermindhardlyaminutesinceseemedtobesweptfromitnow。ItwasevidentthattheimpressionleftbyMrsFairlie’skindnesswasnot,asIhadsupposed,theonlystrongimpressiononhermemory。Withthegratefulremembranceofherschool-daysatLimmeridge,thereexistedthevindictiveremembranceofthewronginflictedonherbyherconfinementintheAsylum。Whohaddonethatwrong?Coulditreallybehermother?

  Itwashardtogiveuppursuingtheinquirytothatfinalpoint,butIforcedmyselftoabandonallideaofcontinuingit。SeeingherasIsawhernow,itwouldhavebeencrueltothinkofanythingbutthenecessityandthehumanityofrestoringhercomposure。

  `Iwilltalkofnothingtodistressyou,’Isaidsoothingly。

  `Youwantsomething,’sheansweredsharplyandsuspiciously。`Don’tlookatmelikethat。Speaktome——tellmewhatyouwant。’

  `Ionlywantyoutoquietyourself,adwhenyouarecalmer,tothinkoverwhatIhavesaid。’

  `Said?’Shepaused——twistedtheclothinherhands,backwardsandforwards,andwhisperedtoherself,`Whatisithesaid?’Sheturnedagaintowardsme,andshookherheadimpatiently,`Whydon’tyouhelpme?’sheasked,withangrysuddenness。

  `Yes,yes,’Isaid,`Iwillhelpyou,andyouwillsoonremember。I

  askedyoutoseeMissFairlietomorrow,andtotellherthetruthabouttheletter。’

  `Ah!MissFairlie——Fairlie——Fairlie——’

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