第48章
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  “Youthinkyouhave。”saidMrShaw;“youOxfordandCambridgegentlementhinkyouhaveexaminedeverything。Ihaveexaminedverylittlemyselfexceptthebottomsofoldkettlesandsaucepans,butifyouwillanswermeafewquestions,IwilltellyouwhetherornoyouhaveexaminedmuchmorethanIhave。”

  Ernestexpressedhisreadinesstobequestioned。

  “Then。”saidthetinker,“givemethestoryoftheResurrectionofJesusChristastoldinStJohn’sgospel。”

  IamsorrytosaythatErnestmixedupthefouraccountsinadeplorablemanner;heevenmadetheangelcomedownandrollawaythestoneandsituponit。Hewascoveredwithconfusionwhenthetinkerfirsttoldhimwithoutthebookofsomeofhismanyinaccuracies,andthenverifiedhiscriticismsbyreferringtotheNewTestamentitself。

  “Now。”saidMrShawgoodnaturedly,“Iamanoldmanandyouareayoungone,soperhapsyou’llnotmindmygivingyouapieceofadvice。Ilikeyou,forIbelieveyoumeanwell,butyou’vebeenrealbadbroughtup,andIdon’tthinkyouhaveeverhadsomuchasachanceyet。Youknownothingofoursideofthequestion,andI

  havejustshownyouthatyoudonotknowmuchmoreofyourown,butIthinkyouwillmakeakindofCarlylesortofamansomeday。NowgoupstairsandreadtheaccountsoftheResurrectioncorrectlywithoutmixingthemup,andhaveaclearideaofwhatitisthateachwritertellsus,thenifyoufeelinclinedtopaymeanothervisitIshallbegladtoseeyou,forIshallknowyouhavemadeagoodbeginningandmeanbusiness。Tillthen,Sir,Imustwishyouaverygoodmorning。”

  Ernestretreatedabashed。AnhoursufficedhimtoperformthetaskenjoineduponhimbyMrShaw;andattheendofthathourthe“No,no,no。”whichstillsoundedinhisearsashehearditfromTowneley,cameringingupmoreloudlystillfromtheverypagesoftheBibleitself,andinrespectofthemostimportantofalltheeventswhicharerecordedinit。SurelyErnest’sfirstday’sattemptatmorepromiscuousvisiting,andatcarryingouthisprinciplesmorethoroughly,hadnotbeenunfruitful。ButhemustgoandhaveatalkwithPryer。HethereforegothislunchandwenttoPryer’slodgings。Pryernotbeingathome,heloungedtotheBritishMuseumReadingRoom,thenrecentlyopened,sentforthe“VestigesofCreation。”whichhehadneveryetseen,andspenttherestoftheafternooninreadingit。

  ErnestdidnotseePryeronthedayofhisconversationwithMrShaw,buthedidsonextmorningandfoundhiminagoodtemper,whichoflatehehadrarelybeen。Sometimes,indeed,hehadbehavedtoErnestinawaywhichdidnotbodewellfortheharmonywithwhichtheCollegeofSpiritualPathologywouldworkwhenithadoncebeenfounded。Italmostseemedasthoughheweretryingtogetacompletemoralascendencyoverhim,soastomakehimacreatureofhisown。

  Hedidnotthinkitpossiblethathecouldgotoofar,andindeed,whenIreflectuponmyhero’sfollyandinexperience,thereismuchtobesaidinexcusefortheconclusionwhichPryercameto。

  Asamatteroffact,however,itwasnotso。Ernest’sfaithinPryerhadbeentoogreattobeshakendownallinamoment,butithadbeenweakenedlatelymorethanonce。Ernesthadfoughthardagainstallowinghimselftoseethis,neverthelessanythirdpersonwhoknewthepairwouldhavebeenabletoseethattheconnectionbetweenthetwomightendatanymoment,forwhenthetimeforoneofErnest’ssnipe-likechangesofflightcame,hewasquickinmakingit;thetime,however,wasnotyetcome,andtheintimacybetweenthetwowasapparentlyallthatithadeverbeen。ItwasonlythathorridmoneybusinesssosaidErnesttohimselfthatcausedanyunpleasantnessbetweenthem,andnodoubtPryerwasright,andhe,Ernest,muchtoonervous。However,thatmightstandoverforthepresent。

  Inlikemanner,thoughhehadreceivedashockbyreasonofhisconversationwithMrShaw,andbylookingatthe“Vestiges。”hewasasyettoomuchstunnedtorealisethechangewhichwascomingoverhim。Ineachcasethemomentumofoldhabitscarriedhimforwardintheolddirection。HethereforecalledonPryer,andspentanhourandmorewithhim。

  Hedidnotsaythathehadbeenvisitingamonghisneighbours;thistoPryerwouldhavebeenlikearedragtoabull。HeonlytalkedinmuchhisusualveinabouttheproposedCollege,thelamentablewantofinterestinspiritualthingswhichwascharacteristicofmodernsociety,andotherkindredmatters;heconcludedbysayingthatforthepresenthefearedPryerwasindeedright,andthatnothingcouldbedone。

  “Asregardsthelaity。”saidPryer,“nothing;notuntilwehaveadisciplinewhichwecanenforcewithpainsandpenalties。Howcanasheepdogworkaflockofsheepunlesshecanbiteoccasionallyaswellasbark?Butasregardsourselveswecandomuch。”

  Pryer’smannerwasstrangethroughouttheconversation,asthoughhewerethinkingallthetimeofsomethingelse。HiseyeswanderedcuriouslyoverErnest,asErnesthadoftennoticedthemwanderbefore:thewordswereaboutChurchdiscipline,butsomehoworotherthedisciplinepartofthestoryhadaknackofdroppingoutafterhavingbeenagainandagainemphaticallydeclaredtoapplytothelaityandnottotheclergy:onceindeedPryerhadpettishlyexclaimed:“Oh,bothertheCollegeofSpiritualPathology。”Asregardstheclergy,glimpsesofaprettylargeclovenhoofkeptpeepingoutfromunderthesaintlyrobeofPryer’sconversation,totheeffect,thatsolongastheyweretheoreticallyperfect,practicalpeccadilloes——orevenpeccadaccios,ifthereissuchaword,wereoflessimportance。Hewasrestless,asthoughwantingtoapproachasubjectwhichhedidnotquiteventuretotouchupon,andkeptharpinghedidthisabouteverythirddayonthewretchedlackofdefinitionconcerningthelimitsofviceandvirtue,andthewayinwhichhalftheviceswantedregulatingratherthanprohibiting。Hedweltalsoontheadvantagesofcompleteunreserve,andhintedthatthereweremysteriesintowhichErnesthadnotyetbeeninitiated,butwhichwouldenlightenhimwhenhegottoknowthem,ashewouldbeallowedtodowhenhisfriendssawthathewasstrongenough。

  Pryerhadoftenbeenlikethisbefore,butneversonearly,asitseemedtoErnest,comingtoapoint——thoughwhatthepointwashecouldnotfullyunderstand。HisinquietudewascommunicatingitselftoErnest,whowouldprobablyerelonghavecometoknowasmuchasPryercouldtellhim,buttheconversationwasabruptlyinterruptedbytheappearanceofavisitor。Weshallneverknowhowitwouldhaveended,forthiswastheverylasttimethatErnesteversawPryer。PerhapsPryerwasgoingtobreaktohimsomebadnewsabouthisspeculations。

  ErnestnowwenthomeandoccupiedhimselftillluncheonwithstudyingDeanAlford’snotesuponthevariousEvangelisticrecordsoftheResurrection,doingasMrShawhadtoldhim,andtryingtofindoutnotthattheywereallaccurate,butwhethertheywereallaccurateorno。Hedidnotcarewhichresultheshouldarriveat,buthewasresolvedthathewouldreachoneortheother。WhenhehadfinishedDeanAlford’snoteshefoundthemcometothis,namely,thatnooneyethadsucceededinbringingthefouraccountsintotolerableharmonywitheachother,andthattheDean,seeingnochanceofsucceedingbetterthanhispredecessorshaddone,recommendedthatthewholestoryshouldbetakenontrust——andthisErnestwasnotpreparedtodo。

  Hegothisluncheon,wentoutforalongwalk,andreturnedtodinnerathalfpastsix。WhileMrsJuppwasgettinghimhisdinner——

  asteakandapintofstout——shetoldhimthatMissSnowwouldbeveryhappytoseehiminaboutanhour’stime。Thisdisconcertedhim,forhismindwastoounsettledforhimtowishtoconvertanyonejustthen。Hereflectedalittle,andfoundthat,inspiteofthesuddenshocktohisopinions,hewasbeingirresistiblydrawntopaythevisitasthoughnothinghadhappened。Itwouldnotlookwellforhimnottogo,forhewasknowntobeinthehouse。HeoughtnottobeintoogreatahurrytochangehisopinionsonsuchamatterastheevidenceforChrist’sResurrectionallofasudden——

  besidesheneednottalktoMissSnowaboutthissubjectto-day——

  therewereotherthingshemighttalkabout。Whatotherthings?

  Ernestfelthisheartbeatfastandfiercely,andaninwardmonitorwarnedhimthathewasthinkingofanythingratherthanofMissSnow’ssoul。

  Whatshouldhedo?Fly,fly,fly——itwastheonlysafety。ButwouldChristhavefled?EventhoughChristhadnotdiedandrisenfromthedeadtherecouldbenoquestionthatHewasthemodelwhoseexamplewewereboundtofollow。ChristwouldnothavefledfromMissSnow;hewassureofthat,forHewentaboutmoreespeciallywithprostitutesanddisreputablepeople。Now,asthen,itwasthebusinessofthetrueChristiantocallnottherighteousbutsinnerstorepentance。Itwouldbeinconvenienttohimtochangehislodgings,andhecouldnotaskMrsJupptoturnMissSnowandMissMaitlandoutofthehouse。Wherewashetodrawtheline?Whowouldbejustgoodenoughtoliveinthesamehousewithhim,andwhojustnotgoodenough?

  Besides,wherewerethesepoorgirlstogo?Washetodrivethemfromhousetohousetilltheyhadnoplacetoliein?Itwasabsurd;hisdutywasclear:hewouldgoandseeMissSnowatonce,andtryifhecouldnotinducehertochangeherpresentmodeoflife;ifhefoundtemptationbecomingtoostrongforhimhewouldflythen——sohewentupstairswithhisBibleunderhisarm,andaconsumingfireinhisheart。

  HefoundMissSnowlookingveryprettyinaneatly,nottosaydemurely,furnishedroom。Ithinkshehadboughtanilluminatedtextortwo,andpinneditupoverherfire-placethatmorning。

  Ernestwasverymuchpleasedwithher,andmechanicallyplacedhisBibleuponthetable。Hehadjustopenedatimidconversationandwasdeepinblushes,whenahurriedstepcameboundingupthestairsasthoughofoneoverwhomtheforceofgravityhadlittlepower,andamanburstintotheroomsaying,“I’mcomebeforemytime。”ItwasTowneley。

  HisfacedroppedashecaughtsightofErnest。“What,youhere,Pontifex!Well,uponmyword!”

  Icannotdescribethehurriedexplanationsthatpassedquicklybetweenthethree——enoughthatinlessthanaminuteErnest,blushingmorescarletthanever,slunkoff,Bibleandall,deeplyhumiliatedashecontrastedhimselfandTowneley。BeforehehadreachedthebottomofthestaircaseleadingtohisownroomheheardTowneley’sheartylaughthroughMissSnow’sdoor,andcursedthehourthathewasborn。

  ThenitflasheduponhimthatifhecouldnotseeMissSnowhecouldatanyrateseeMissMaitland。Heknewwellenoughwhathewantednow,andasfortheBible,hepusheditfromhimtotheotherendofhistable。Itfelloverontothefloor,andhekickeditintoacorner。ItwastheBiblegivenhimathischristeningbyhisaffectionateaunt,ElizabethAllaby。True,heknewverylittleofMissMaitland,butignorantyoungfoolsinErnest’sstatedonotreflectorreasonclosely。MrsBaxterhadsaidthatMissMaitlandandMissSnowwerebirdsofafeather,andMrsBaxterprobablyknewbetterthanthatoldliar,MrsJupp。Shakespearesays:

  OOpportunity,thyguiltisgreat’Tisthouthatexecut’stthetraitor’streason:

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