Ibeggedthemtoseekforhereverywherewhendawnappeared,andtoletmeknowofherreturnthatImightfallatherfeettobegpardon,andneverseeherfaceagain。IalsopromisedtopayforallthedamageIhaddone,andtogivethemafullreceiptforthebillsofexchange。Aftertheseacts,donetotheeverlastingshameofmygoodsense,afterthisapologymadetoprocuresseswholaughedatmeandmyhonour,Iwenthome,promisingtwoguineastotheservantwhoshouldbringmetidingsthatheryoungmistresshadcomehome。
OnleavingthehouseIfoundthewatchmanatthedoor;hehadbeenwaitingtoseemehome。Itwastwoo’clock。Ithrewmyselfonmybed,andthesixhoursofsleepIobtained,thoughtroubledbyfearfuldreams,probablysavedmefrommadness。
Ateighto’clockIheardaknockatthedoor,andonopeningthewindowfounditwasoneoftheservantsfromthehouseofmyfoes。I
criedouttoletherin,andIbreathedagainonhearingthatMissCharpillonhadjustarrivedinasedan—chairinapitiablecondition,andthatshehadbeenputtobed。
\"Imadehastetocomeandtellyou,\"saidthecunningmaid,\"notforthesakeofyourtwoguineas,butbecauseIsawyouweresounhappy。\"
Thisdupedmedirectly。Igaveherthetwoguineas,andmadehersitdownonmybed,begginghertotellmeallabouthermistress’sreturn。Ididnotdreamthatshehadbeenschooledbymyenemies;
butduringthewholeofthisperiodIwasdeprivedoftherightuseofmyreason。
Theslutbeganbysayingthatheryoungmistresslovedme,andhadonlydeceivedmeinaccordancewithhermother’sorders。
\"Iknowthat,\"Isaid,\"butwheredidshepassthenight?\"
\"Atashopwhichshefoundopen,andwhereshewasknownfromhavingboughtvariousarticlesthere。Sheisinbedwithafever,andIamafraiditmayhaveseriousconsequencesassheisinhermonthlyperiod。\"
\"That’simpossible,forIcaughtherintheactwithherhairdresser。\"
\"Oh,thatprovesnothing!thepooryoungmandoesnotlookintothingsveryclosely。\"
\"Butsheisinlovewithhim。\"
\"Idon’tthinkso,thoughshehasspentseveralhoursinhiscompany。\"
\"Andyousaythatshelovesme!\"
\"Oh,thathasnothingtodowithit!Itisonlyawhimofherswiththehairdresser。\"
\"TellherthatIamcomingtopassthedaybesideherbed,andbringmeherreply。\"
\"Iwillsendtheothergirlifyoulike。\"
\"No,sheonlyspeaksEnglish。\"
Shewentaway,andasshehadnotreturnedbythreeo’clockIdecidedoncallingtohearhowshewas。Iknockedatthedoor,andoneoftheauntsappearedandbeggedmenottoenterasthetwofriendsofthehousewerethereinafuryagainstme,andherniecelayinadelirium,cryingout\"There’sSeingalt,there’sSeingalt!He’sgoingtokillme。Help!help!\"\"ForGod’ssake,sir,goaway,\"
Iwenthomedesperate,withouttheslightestsuspicionthatitwasallalie。Ispentthewholedaywithouteatinganything;Icouldnotswallowamouthful。AllnightIkeptawake,andthoughItookseveralglassesofstrongwatersIcouldobtainnorest。
Atnineo’clockthenextmorningIknockedattheCharpillon’sdoor,andtheoldauntcameandheldithalfopenasbefore。Sheforbademetoenter,sayingthatherniecewasstilldelirious,continuallycallingonmeinhertransports,andthatthedoctorhaddeclaredthatifthediseasecontinueditscourseshehadnottwenty—fourhourstolive。\"Thefrightyougaveherhasarrestedherperiods;
sheisinaterriblestate。\"
\"O,fatalhairdresser!\"Iexclaimed。
\"Thatwasamereyouthfulfolly;youshouldhavepretendednottohaveseenanything。\"
\"Youthinkthatpossible,youoldwitch,doyou?Donotletherlackforanything;takethat。\"
WiththesewordsIgaveherabanknotefortenguineasandwentaway,likethefoolIwas。OnmywaybackImetGoudar,whowasquitefrightenedatmyaspect。IbeggedhimtogoandseehowtheCharpillonreallywas,andthentocomeandpasstherestofthedaywithme。Anhourafterhecamebackandsaidhehadfoundthemallintearsandthatthegirlwasinextremis。
\"Didyouseeher?\"
\"No,theysaidshecouldseenoone。\"
\"Doyouthinkitisalltrue?\"
\"Idon’tknowwhattothink;butoneofthemaids,whotellsmethetruthasarule,assuredmethatshehadbecomemadthroughhercoursesbeingstopped,whileshehasalsoafeverandviolentconvulsions。Itisallcredibleenough,forthesearetheusualresultsofashockwhenawomanisinsuchasituation。Thegirltoldmeitwasallyourfault。\"
Ithentoldhimthewholestory。Hecouldonlypityme,butwhenheheardthatIhadneithereatennorsleptforthelastforty—eighthourshesaidverywiselythatifIdidnottakecareIshouldlosemyreasonormylife。Iknewit,butIcouldfindnoremedy。Hespentthedaywithmeanddidmegood。AsIcouldnoteatIdrankagooddeal,andnotbeingabletosleepIspentthenightinstridingupanddownmyroomlikeamanbesidehimself。
Onthethirdday,havingheardnothingpositiveabouttheCharpillon,Iwentoutatseveno’clockinthemorningtocallonher。AfterI
hadwaitedaquarterofanhourinthestreet,thedoorwaspartlyopened,andIsawthemotherallintears,butshewouldnotletmecomein。Shesaidherdaughterwasinthelastagony。Atthesameinstantapaleandthinoldmancameout,tellingthemotherthatwemustresignourselvestothewillofGod。Iaskedtheinfamouscreatureifitwerethedoctor。
\"Thedoctorisnogoodnow,\"saidtheoldhypocrite,weepinganew,\"heisaministeroftheGospel,andthereisanotherofthemupstairs。Mypoordaughter!Inanotherhourshewillbenomore。\"
Ifeltasifanicyhandhadcloseduponmyheart。Iburstintotearsandleftthewoman,saying,——
\"Itistruethatmyhanddealttheblow,butherdeathliesatyourdoor。\"
AsIwalkedawaymykneesseemedtobendunderme,andIenteredmyhousedeterminedtocommitsuicide,——
Withthisfearfulidea,IgaveordersthatIwasnotathometoanyone。AssoonasIgottomyroomIputmywatches,rings,snuff—
boxes,purseandpocket—bookinmycasket,andshutitupinmyescritoire。IthenwrotealettertotheVenetianambassador,informinghimthatallmypropertywastogotoM。deBragadinaftermydeath。Isealedtheletterandputitwiththecasket,andtookthekeywithme,andalsosilvertotheamountofafewguineas。I
tookmypistolsandwentoutwiththefirmintentionofdrowningmyselfintheThames,neartheTowerofLondon。
Ponderingovermyplanwiththeutmostcoolness,Iwentandboughtsomeballsofleadaslargeasmypocketswouldhold,andasheavyasIcouldbear,tocarrytotheTower,whereIintendedtogoonfoot。
OnmywayIwasstrengthenedinmypurposebythereflection,thatifIcontinuedtoliveIshouldbetormentedfortheremainderofmydaysbythepaleshadeoftheCharpillonreproachingmeashermurderer。Ievencongratulatedmyselfonbeingabletocarryoutmypurposewithoutanyeffort,andIalsofeltasecretprideinmycourage。
IwalkedslowlyonaccountoftheenormousweightIbore,whichwouldassuremeaspeedypassagetothebottomoftheriver。
ByWestminsterBridgemygoodfortunemadememeetSirEdgar,arichyoungEnglishman,wholivedacarelessandjoyouslife。IhadmadehisacquaintanceatLordPembroke’s,andhehaddinedwithmeseveraltimes。Wesuitedoneanother,hisconversationwasagreeable,andwehadpassedmanypleasanthourstogether。Itriedtoavoidhim,buthesawme,andcameupandtookmebythearminafriendlymanner。
\"Whereareyougoing?Comewithme,unlessyouaregoingtodeliversomecaptive。Comealong,weshallhaveapleasantparty。\"
\"Ican’tcome,mydearfellow,letmego。\"
\"What’sthematter?Ihardlyrecognizedyou,youlookedsosolemn。\"
\"Nothingisthematter。\"
\"Nothing?Youshouldlookatyourfaceintheglass。NowIfeelquitesurethatyouaregoingtocommitafoolishaction。\"
\"Notatall。\"
\"It’snogooddenyingit。\"
\"Itellyouthere’snothingthematterwithme。Goodbye,Ishallseeyouagain。\"
\"It’snogood,Iwon’tleaveyou。Comealong,wewillwalktogether。\"
Hiseyeshappeningtofallonmybreechespocket,henoticedmypistol,andputtinghishandontheotherpockethefelttheotherpistol,andsaid,——
\"Youaregoingtofightaduel;Ishouldliketoseeit。Iwon’tinterferewiththeaffair,butneitherwillIleaveyou。\"
Itriedtoputonasmile,andassuredhimthathewasmistaken,andthatIwasonlygoingforawalktopassthetime。
\"Verygood,\"saidEdgar,\"thenIhopemysocietyisaspleasanttoyouasyoursistome;Iwon’tleaveyou。Afterwehavetakenawalkwewillgoanddineatthe’Canon。’Iwillgettwogirlstocomeandjoinus,andweshallhaveagaylittlepartyoffour。\"
\"Mydearfriend,youmustexcuseme;Iaminamelancholymood,andI
wanttobealonetogetoverit。\"
\"Youcanbealoneto—morrow,ifyoulike,butIamsureyouwillbeallrightinthenextthreehours,andifnot,whyIwillshareyourmadness。Wheredidyouthinkofdining?\"
\"Nowhere;Ihavenoappetite。Ihavebeenfastingforthelastthreedays,andIcanonlydrink。\"
\"Ah!Ibegintoseedaylight。Somethinghascrossedyou,andyouaregoingtoletitkillyouasitkilledoneofmybrothers。Imustseewhatcanbedone。\"
Edgarargued,insisted,andjokedtillatlastIsaidtomyself,\"A
daylongerwillnotmatter,Icandothedeedwhenheleavesme,andIshallonlyhavetobearwithlifeafewhourslonger。\"
WhenEdgarheardthatIhadnoparticularobjectincrossingthebridgehesaidthatwehadbetterturnback,andIletmyselfbepersuaded;butinhalfanhourIbeggedhimtotakemesomewherewhereIcouldwaitforhim,asIcouldnotbeartheweightoftheleadanylonger。IgavehimmywordofhonourthatIwouldmeethimatthe\"Canon。\"
AssoonasIwasaloneIemptiedmypockets,andputtheleadenballsintoacupboard。ThenIlaydownandbegantoconsiderwhetherthegood—naturedyoungmanwouldpreventmecommittingsuicide,ashehadalreadymademepostponeit。
Ireasoned,notasonethathopes,butratherasonethatforesawthatEdgarwouldhindermefromshorteningmydays。ThusIwaitedinthetavernfortheyoungEnglishman,doubtfulwhetherhewasdoingmeaserviceoraninjury。
Hecamebackbeforelong,andwaspleasedtofindme。
\"Ireckonedonyourkeepingyourword,\"saidhe。
\"YoudidnotthinkthatIwouldbreakmywordofhonour。\"
\"That’sallright;Iseeyouareonthewaytorecovery。\"
Thesensibleandcheerfultalkoftheyoungmandidmegood,andI
begantofeelbetter,whenthetwoyoungwantons,oneofwhomwasaFrenchwoman,arrivedinhighspirits。Theyseemedintendedforpleasure,andNaturehaddoweredthemwithgreatattractions。I
appreciatedtheircharms,butIcouldnotwelcometheminthemannertowhichtheywereaccustomed。Theybegantothinkmesomepoorvaletudinarian;butthoughIwasintorments,afeelingofvanitymademeendeavourtobehavesensibly。IgavethemsomecoldkissesandbeggedEdgartotellhisfellow—countrywomanthatifIwerenotthreepartsdeadIwouldprovehowlovelyandcharmingIthoughther。
Theypitiedme。Amanwhohasspentthreedayswithouteatingorsleepingisalmostincapableofanyvoluptuousexcitement,butmerewordswouldnothaveconvincedthesepriestessesofVenusifEdgarhadnotgiventhemmyname。Ihadareputation,andIsawthatwhentheyheardwhoIwastheywerefullofrespect。TheyallhopedthatBacchusandComuswouldpleadthecauseofLove,andIletthemtalk,knowingthattheirhopeswerevain。
WehadanEnglishdinner;thatis,adinnerwithouttheessentialcourseofsoup,soIonlytookafewoystersandadraughtofdeliciouswine,butIfeltbetter,andwaspleasedtoseeEdgaramusinghimselfwiththetwonymphs。
TheyoungmadcapsuddenlyproposedthatthegirlsshoulddanceahornpipeinthecostumeofMotherEve,andtheyconsentedontheconditionthatwewouldadoptthedressofFatherAdam,andthatblindmusiciansweresummoned。ItoldthemthatIwouldtakeoffmyclothestoobligethem,butthatIhadnohopesofbeingabletoimitatetheseductiveserpent。Iwasallowedtoretainmydress,ontheconditionthatifIfelttheprickofthefleshIshouldimmediatelyundress。Iagreedtodoso,andtheblindmusiciansweresentfor,andwhiletheytunedtheirinstrumentstoilettesweremade,andtheorgybegan。
Ittaughtmesameusefullessons。Ilearntfromitthatamorouspleasuresaretheeffectandnotthecauseofgaiety。Isatgazingatthreenakedbodiesofperfectgraceandbeauty,thedanceandthemusicwereravishingandseductive,butnothingmadeanyimpressiononme。Afterthedancewasoverthemaledancertreatedthetwofemales,oneaftertheother,untilhewasforcedtorest。TheFrenchgirlcameuptoascertainwhetherIskewedanysignsoflife,butfeelingmyhopelessconditionshepronouncedmeuseless。
WhenitwasalloverIbeggedEdgartogivetheFrenchgirlfourguineas,andtopaymyshare,asIhadverylittlemoneyaboutme。
WhatshouldIhavesaidifIhadbeentoldinthemorningthatinsteadofdrowningmyselfIshouldtakepartinsopleasantanentertainment?
ThedebtIhadcontractedwiththeyoungEnglishmanmademeresolvetoputoffmysuicidetoanotherday。AfterthenymphshadgoneI
triedtogetridofEdgar,butinvain;hetoldmeIwasgettingbetter,thattheoystersIhadtakenskewedmystomachwasimproving,andthatifIcamewithhimtoRanelaghIshouldbeabletomakeagooddinnerthenextday。Iwasweakandindifferentandletmyselfbepersuaded,andgotintoacoachwithEdgarinobediencetotheStoicmaximIhadlearntinthehappydaysofmyyouth:’SequereDeum’。
Weenteredthefinerotundawithourhatsoff,andbegantowalkroundandround,ourarmsbehindourbacks——acommoncustominEngland,atleastinthosedays。
Aminuetwasbeingdanced,andIwassoattractedbyaladywhodancedextremelywellthatIwaitedforhertoturnround。WhatmademenoticehermoreparticularlywasthatherdressandhatwereexactlylikethoseIhadgiventotheCharpillonafewdaysbefore,butasIbelievedthepoorwretchtobedeadordyingthelikenessdidnotinspiremewithanysuspicion。Buttheladyturnedround,liftedherface,andIsaw——theCharpillonherself!
Edgartoldmeafterwardsthatatthatmomenthethoughttoseemefalltothegroundinanepilepticfit;Itrembledandshudderedsoterribly。
However,IfeltsosureshewasillthatIcouldnotbelievemyowneyes,andthedoubtbroughtmetomysenses。
\"Shecan’tbetheCharpillon,\"Isaidtomyself,\"sheissomeothergirllikeher,andmyenfeebledsenseshaveledmeastray。\"Inthemeanwhilethelady,intentonherdancing,didnotglanceinmydirection,butIcouldaffordtowait。Atlastsheliftedherarmstomakethecurtsyattheendoftheminuet,IwentupinstinctivelyasifIwereabouttodancewithher;shelookedmeintheface,andfled。
Iconstrainedmyself;butnowthattherecouldbenodoubtmyshudderingfitreturned,andImadehastetositdown。Acoldsweatbedewedmyfaceandmywholebody。EdgaradvisedmetotakeacupofteabutIbeggedhimtoleavemealoneforafewmoments。
IwasafraidthatIwasonthepointofdeath;Itrembledallover,andmyheartbeatsorapidlythatIcouldnothavestooduphadI
wished。
Atlast,insteadofdying,Igotnewlife。WhatawonderfulchangeI
experienced!Littlebylittlemypeaceofmindreturned,andIcouldenjoytheglitterofthemultitudinouswaxlights。ByslowdegreesI
passedthroughalltheshadesoffeelingbetweendespairandanecstasyofjoy。MysoulandmindweresoastonishedbytheshockthatIbegantothinkIshouldneverseeEdgaragain。
\"Thisyoungman,\"Isaidtomyself,\"ismygoodgenius,myguardianangel,myfamiliarspirit,whohastakentheformofEdgartorestoremetomysensesagain。\"
Ishouldcertainlyhavepersistedinthisideaifmyfriendhadnotreappearedbeforeverylong。
Chancemighthavethrownhiminthewayofoneofthoseseductivecreatureswhomakeoneforgeteverythingelse;hemighthaveleftRanelaghwithouthavingtimetotellmehewasgoing,andIshouldhavegonebacktoLondonfeelingperfectlycertainthatIhadonlyseenhisearthlyshape。ShouldIhavebeendisabusedifIhadseenhimafewdaysafter?Possibly;butIamnotsureofit。Ihavealwayshadahankeringaftersuperstition,ofwhichIdonotboast;
butIconfessthefact,andleavethereadertojudgeme。
However,hecamebackinhighspirits,butanxiousaboutme。Hewassurprisedtofindmefullofanimation,andtohearmetalkinginapleasantstrainonthesurroundingobjectsandpersons。
\"Why,youarelaughing!\"saidhe,\"yoursadnesshasdeparted,then?\"
\"Yes,goodgenius,butIamhungry,andIwantyoutodomeafavour,ifyouhavenootherpressingengagements。\"
\"Iamfreetillthedayafterto—morrow,andtillthenyoucandowhatyoulikewithme。\"
\"Iowemylifetoyou,buttomakeyourgiftcompleteIwantyoutospendthisnightandthewholeofthenextdaywithme。\"
\"Done。\"
\"Thenletusgohome。\"
\"Withallmyheart;comealong。\"
Ididnottellhimanythingaswewereinthecoach,andwhenwegothomeIfoundnothingfresh,exceptanotefromGoudar,whichIputinmypocket,intendingtoreserveallbusinessforthenextday。
Itwasanhouraftermidnight。Agoodsupperwasservedtous,andwefellto;formypartIdevouredmyfoodlikeawildbeast。Edgarcongratulatedme,andwewenttobed,andIsleptprofoundlytillnoon。WhenIawokeIbreakfastedwithEdgar,andtoldhimthewholestory,whichwouldhaveendedwithmylifeifhehadnotmetmeonWestminsterBridge,andhehadnotbeenkeenenoughtomarkmycondition。Itookhimtomyroom,andshewedhimmyescritoire,mycasket,andmywill。IthenopenedGoudar’sletter,andread:
\"Iamquitesurethatthegirlyouknowofisveryfarfromdying,asshehasgonetoRanelaghwithLordGrosvenor。\"
AlthoughEdgarwasaprofligate,hewasasensibleman,andmystorymadehimfurious。Hethrewhisarmsaroundmyneck,andtoldmeheshouldalwaysthinkthedayonwhichherescuedmefromdeathforsounworthyanobjectthehappiestinhislife。HecouldscarcelycredittheinfamyoftheCharpillonandhermother。HetoldmeI
couldhavethemotherarrested,thoughIhadnotgotthebillsofexchange,ashermother’sletteracknowledgingherdaughter’spossessionofthebillswassufficientevidence。
Withoutinforminghimofmyintention,Iresolvedthatmomenttohaveherarrested。Beforewepartedwesworeeternalfriendship,butthereaderwillseebeforelongwhatapenancethekindEnglishmanhadtodoforbefriendingme。
ThenextdayIwenttotheattorneyIhademployedagainstCountSchwerin。AfterhearingmystoryhesaidthatIhadanundoubtedclaim,andthatIcouldarrestthemotherandthetwoaunts。
WithoutlosingtimeIwentbeforeamagistrate,whotookmysworninformationandgrantedmeawarrant。ThesameofficialwhohadarrestedSchwerintookchargeoftheaffair;butashedidnotknowthewomenbysightitwasnecessarythatsomeonewhodidshouldgowithhim,forthoughhewascertainofsurprisingthemtheremightbeseveralotherwomenpresent,andhemightnotarresttherightones。
AsGoudarwouldnothaveundertakenthedelicatetaskofpointingthemout,Iresolvedonaccompanyinghimmyself。
ImadeanappointmentwithhimatanhourwhenIknewtheywouldbeallintheparlour。Hewastoenterdirectlythedoorwasopened,andIwouldcomeinatthesameinstantandpointoutthewomenhehadtoarrest。InEnglandalljudicialproceedingsareconductedwiththeutmostpunctuality,andeverythingwentoffasIhadarranged。ThebailiffandhissubalternsteppedintotheparlourandIfollowedintheirfootsteps。Ipointedoutthemotherandthetwosistersandthenmadehastetoescape,forthesightoftheCharpillon,dressedinblack,standingbythehearth,mademeshudder。Ifeltcured,certainly;butthewoundsshehadgivenmewerenotyethealed,andIcannotsaywhatmighthavehappenediftheCircehadhadthepresenceofmindtothrowherarmsaboutmyneckandbegformercy。
AssoonasIhadseenthesewomeninthehandsofjusticeIfled,tastingthesweetsofvengeance,whichareverygreat,butyetasignofunhappiness。TherageinwhichIhadarrestedthethreeprocuresses,andmyterrorinseeingthewomanwhohadwell—nighkilledme,shewedthatIwasnotreallycured。TobesoImustflyfromthemandforgetthemaltogether。
ThenextmorningGoudarcameandcongratulatedmeontheboldstepI
hadtaken,whichproved,hesaid,thatIwaseithercuredormoreinlovethanever。\"IhavejustcomefromDenmarkStreet,\"headded,\"andIonlysawthegrandmother,whowasweepingbitterly,andanattorney,whomnodoubtshewasconsulting。\"
\"Thenyouhaveheardwhathashappened?\"
\"Yes,IcameupaminuteafteryouhadgoneandIstayedtillthethreeoldslutsmadeuptheirmindstogowiththeconstable。Theyresistedandsaidheoughttoleavethemtillthenextday,whentheywouldbeabletofindsomeonetobailthem。Thetwobravosdrewtheirswordstoresistthelaw,buttheotherconstabledisarmedthemoneaftertheother,andthethreewomenwereledoff。TheCharpillonwantedtoaccompanythem,butitwasjudgedbestthatsheshouldremainatliberty,inordertotryandsetthemfree。\"
Goudarconcludedbysayingthatheshouldgoandseetheminprison,andifIfeltdisposedtocometoanarrangementhewouldmediatebetweenus。ItoldhimthattheonlyarrangementIwouldacceptwasthepaymentofthesixthousandfrancs,andthattheymightthinkthemselvesveryluckythatIdidnotinsistonhavingmyinterest,andthusrepayingmyselfinpartforthesumstheyhadcheatedoutofme。
Afortnightelapsedwithoutmyhearinganymoreofthematter。TheCharpillondinedwiththemeveryday,andinfact,keptthem。Itmusthavecostheragooddeal,fortheyhadtworooms,andtheirlandlordwouldnotallowthemtohavetheirmealspreparedoutsidetheprison。GoudartoldmethattheCharpillonsaidshewouldneverbegmetolistentohermother,thoughsheknewshehadonlytocallonmetoobtainanythingshewanted。Shethoughtmethemostabominableofmen。IfIfeelobligedtomaintainthatshewasequallyabominable,ImustconfessthatonthisoccasionsheshewedmorestrengthofmindthanI;butwhereasIhadactedoutofpassion,hermisdeedswerecalculated,andtendedsolelytoherowninterests。
ForthewholeofthisfortnightIhadsoughtforEdgarinvain,butonemorninghecametoseeme,lookinginhighspirits。
\"Wherehaveyoubeenhidingallthistime?\"saidI,\"Ihavebeenlookingforyoueverywhere。\"
\"Lovehasbeenkeepingmeaprisoner,\"saidhe,\"Ihavegotsomemoneyforyou。\"
\"Forme?Fromwhatquarter?\"
\"OnbehalfoftheAnsperghers。Givemeareceiptandthenecessarydeclaration,forIamgoingtorestorethemmyselftothepoorCharpillon,whohasbeenweepingforthelastfortnight。\"
\"Idaresayshehas,Ihaveseenherweepmyself;butIlikethewayinwhichshehaschosenthebeingwhodeliveredmefromherchainsasaprotector。DoessheknowthatIowemylifetoyou?\"
\"SheonlyknewthatIwaswithyouatRanelaghwhenyousawherdancinginsteadofdying,butIhavetoldherthewholestorysince。\"
\"Nodoubtshewantsyoutopleadwithmeinherfavour。\"
\"Bynomeans。Shehasjustbeentellingmethatyouareamonsterofingratitude,forshelovedyouandgaveyouseveralproofsofheraffection,butnowshehatesyou。\"
\"ThankHeavenforthat!Thewretchedwoman!It’scurioussheshouldhaveselectedyouasherloverbywayoftakingvengeanceonme,buttakecare!shewillpunishyou。\"
\"Itmaybeso,butatalleventsit’sapleasantkindofpunishment。\"
\"Ihopeyoumaybehappy,butlooktoyourself;sheisamistressinallsortsofdeceit。\"
Edgarcountedmeouttwohundredandfiftyguineas,forwhichIgavehimareceiptandthedeclarationherequired,andwiththesedocumentshewentoffinhighspirits。
AfterthisImightsurelyflattermyselfthatallwasatanendbetweenus,butIwasmistaken。
JustaboutthistimetheCrownPrinceofBrunswick,nowthereigningduke,marriedtheKingofEngland’ssister。TheCommonCouncilpresentedhimwiththefreedomoftheCity,andtheGoldsmith’sCompanyadmittedhimintotheirsociety,andgavehimasplendidboxcontainingthedocumentswhichmadehimaLondoncitizen。TheprincewasthefirstgentlemaninEurope,andyethedidnotdisdaintoaddthisnewhonourtoafamilyillustriousforfourteenhundredyears。
OnthisoccasionLadyHarringtonwasthemeansofgettingMadameCornelistwohundredguineas。ShelentherroominSohoSquaretoaconfectionerwhogaveaballandsuppertoathousandpersonsatthreeguineaseach。Ipaidmythreeguineas,andhadthehonourofstandingupalltheeveningwithsixhundredothers,forthetableonlyseatedfourhundred,andtherewereseveralladieswhowereunabletoprocureseats。ThateveningIsawLadyGraftonseatedbesidetheDukeofCumberland。Sheworeherhairwithoutanypowder,andalltheotherladieswereexclaimingaboutit,andsayinghowveryunbecomingitwas。Theycouldnotanathematizetheinnovatortoomuch,butinlessthansixmonthsLadyGrafton’sstyleofdoingthehairbecamecommon,crossedtheChannel,andspreadalloverEurope,thoughithasbeengivenanothername。Itisstillinfashion,andistheonlymethodthatcanboasttheageofthirtyyears,thoughitwassounmercifullyridiculedatfirst。
Thesupperforwhichthegiverofthefeasthadreceivedthreethousandguineas,orsixty—fivethousandfrancs,containedamostvariedassortmentofdelicacies,butasIhadnotbeendancing,anddidnotfeeltakenwithanyoftheladiespresent,Ileftatoneinthemorning。ItwasSunday,adayonwhichallpersons,savecriminals,areexemptfromarrest;but,nevertheless,thefollowingadventurebefellme:
Iwasdressedmagnificently,andwasdrivinghomeinmycarriage,withmynegroandanotherservantseatedbehindme;andjustasweenteredPallMallIheardavoicecrying,\"Goodnight,Seingalt。\"I
putmyheadoutofthewindowtoreply,andinaninstantthecarriagewassurroundedbymenarmedwithpistols,andoneofthemsaid,——
\"Intheking’sname!\"
Myservantaskedwhattheywanted,andtheyanswered,——
\"TotakehimtoNewgate,forSundaymakesnodifferencetocriminals。\"
\"AndwhatcrimehaveIcommitted?\"
\"Youwillhearthatinprison。\"
\"Mymasterhasarighttoknowhiscrimebeforehegoestoprison,\"
saidthenegro。
\"Yes,butthemagistrate’sabed。\"
Thenegrostucktohisposition,however,andthepeoplewhohadcomeupdeclaredwithoneconsentthathewasintheright。
Thehead—constablegavein,andsaidhewouldtakemetoahouseinthecity。
\"Thendrivetothatcity,\"saidI,\"andhavedonewithit。\"
Westoppedbeforethehouse,andIwasplacedinalargeroomonthegroundfloor,furnishedsolelywithbenchesandlongtables。Myservantsentbackthecarriage,andcametokeepmecompany。Thesixconstablessaidtheycouldnotleaveme,andtoldmeIshouldsendoutforsomemeatanddrinkforthem。Itoldmynegrotogivethemwhattheywanted,andtobeasamicablewiththemaswaspossible。
AsIhadnotcommittedanycrime,Iwasquiteatease;Iknewthatmyarrestmustbetheeffectofaslander,andasIwasawarethatLondonjusticewasspeedyandequitable,IthoughtIshouldsoonbefree。ButIblamedmyselfforhavingtransgressedtheexcellentmaxim,nevertoansweranyoneinthenighttime;forifIhadnotdonesoIshouldhavebeeninmyhouse,andnotinprison。Themistake,however,hadbeencommitted,andtherewasnothingtobedonebuttowaitpatiently。IamusedmyselfbyreflectingonmyrapidpassagefromanumerousandexaltedassemblagetothevileplaceInowoccupied,thoughIwasstilldressedlikeaprince。
Atlastthedaydawned,andthekeeperofthetaverncametoseewhotheprisonerwas。Icouldnothelpinglaughingathimwhenhesawme,forheimmediatelybegantoabusetheconstablesfornotawakinghimwhenIcame;hehadlosttheguineaIshouldhavepaidforaprivateroom。Atlastnewswasbroughtthatthemagistratewassitting,andthatImustbebroughtup。
Acoachwassummoned,andIgotintoit,forifIhaddaredtowalkalongthestreetsinmymagnificentattirethemobwouldhavepeltedme。
Iwentintothehallofjustice,andalleyeswereatonceattractedtowardsme;mysilksandsatinsappearedtothemtheheightofimpertinence。
AttheendoftheroomIsawagentlemansittinginanarm—chair,andconcludedhimtobemyjudge。Iwasright,andthejudgewasblind。
Heworeabroadbandroundhishead,passingoverhiseyes。Amanbesideme,guessingIwasaforeigner,saidinFrench,——
\"Beofgoodcourage,Mr。Fieldingisajustandequitablemagistrate。\"
Ithankedthekindlyunknown,andwasdelightedtoseebeforemethisfamousandestimablewriter,whoseworksareanhonourtotheEnglishnation。
Whenmyturncame,theclerkofthecourttoldMr。Fieldingmyname,atleast,soIpresume。
\"SignorCasanova,\"saidhe,inexcellentItalian,\"bekindenoughtostepforward。Iwishtospeaktoyou。\"
Iwasdelightedtoheartheaccentsofmynativetongue,andmakingmywaythroughthepressIcameuptothebarofthecourt,andsaid,——
\"Eccomi,Signore。\"
HecontinuedtospeakItalian,andsaid,——
\"SignordeCasanova,ofVenice,youarecondemnedtoperpetualconfinementintheprisonsofHisMajestytheKingofGreatBritain。\"
\"Ishouldliketoknow,sir,forwhatcrimeIamcondemned。Wouldyoubekindenoughtoinformmeastoitsnature?\"
\"Yourdemandisareasonableone,forwithusnooneiscondemnedwithoutknowingthecauseofhiscondemnation。Youmustknow,then,thattheaccusation(whichissupportedbytwowitnesses)chargesyouwithintendingtodogrievousbodilyharmtothepersonofaprettygirl;andasthisprettygirlaforesaidgoesindreadofyou,thelawdecreesthatyoumustbekeptinprisonfortherestofyourdays。\"
\"Sir,thisaccusationisagroundlesscalumny;tothatIwilltakemyoath!Itisverypossibleindeedthatthegirlmayfearmyvengeancewhenshecomestoconsiderherownconduct,butIcanassureyouthatIhavehadnosuchdesignshitherto,andIdon’tthinkIevershall。\"
\"Shehastwowitnesses。\"
\"Thentheyarefalseones。ButmayIaskyourworshipthenameofmyaccuser?\"
\"MissCharpillon。\"
\"Ithoughtasmuch;butIhavenevergivenheraughtbutproofsofmyaffection。\"
\"Thenyouhavenowishtodoheranybodilyharm?\"
\"Certainlynot。\"
\"ThenIcongratulateyou。Youcandineathome;butyoumustfindtwosureties。Imusthaveanassurancefromthemouthsoftwohouseholdersthatyouwillnevercommitsuchacrime。\"
\"WhomshallIfindtodoso?\"
\"Twowell—knownEnglishmen,whosefriendshipyouhavegained,andwhoknowthatyouareincapableofsuchanaction。Sendforthem,andiftheyarrivebeforeIgotodinnerIwillsetyouatliberty。\"
Theconstabletookmebacktoprison,whereIhadpassedthenight,andIgavemyservantstheaddressesofallthehouseholdersI
recollected,biddingthemexplainmysituation,andtobeasquickaspossible。Theyoughttohavecomebeforenoon,butLondonissuchalargeplace!Theydidnotarrive,andthemagistratewenttodinner。
Icomfortedmyselfbythethoughtthathewouldsitintheafternoon,butIhadtoputupwithadisagreeableexperience。
Thechiefconstable,accompaniedbyaninterpreter,cametosaythatImustgotoNewgate。Thisisaprisonwherethemostwretchedandabjectcriminalsarekept。
IsignifiedtohimthatIwasawaitingbail,andthathecouldtakemetoNewgateintheeveningifitdidnotcome,butheonlyturnedadeafeartomypetition。Theinterpretertoldmeinawhisperthatthefellowwascertainlypaidbytheothersidetoputmetotrouble,butthatifIlikedtobribehimIcouldstaywhereIwas。
\"Howmuchwillhewant?\"
Theinterpretertooktheconstableaside,andthentoldmethatI
couldstaywhereIwasfortenguineas。
\"ThensaythatIshouldliketoseeNewgate。\"
Acoachwassummoned,andIwastakenaway。
WhenIgottothisabodeofmiseryanddespair,ahell,suchasDantemighthaveconceived,acrowdofwretches,someofwhomweretobehangedinthecourseoftheweek,greetedmebyderidingmyelegantattire。Ididnotanswerthem,andtheybegantogetangryandtoabuseme。ThegaolerquietedthembysayingthatIwasaforeigneranddidnotunderstandEnglish,andthentookmetoacell,informingmehowmuchitwouldcostme,andoftheprisonrules,asifhefeltcertainthatIshouldmakealongstay。Butinthecourseofhalfanhour,theconstablewhohadtriedtogettenguineasoutofmetoldmethatbailhadarrivedandthatmycarriagewasatthedoor。
IthankedGodfromthebottomofmyheart,andsoonfoundmyselfinthepresenceoftheblindmagistrate。MybailconsistedofPegu,mytailor,andMaisonneuve,mywinemerchant,whosaidtheywerehappytobeabletorendermethisslightservice。InanotherpartofthecourtInoticedtheinfamousCharpillon,Rostaing,Goudar,andanattorney。Theymadenoimpressiononme,andIcontentedmyselfwithgivingthemalookofprofoundcontempt。
Mytwosuretieswereinformedoftheamountinwhichtheyweretobailme,andsignedwithalightheart,andthenthemagistratesaid,politely,——
\"SignorCasanova,pleasetosignyournamefordoubletheamount,andyouwillthenbeafreemanagain。\"
Iwenttowardstheclerk’stable,andonaskingthesumIwastoanswerforwasinformedthatitwasfortyguineas,eachofmysuretiessigningfortwenty。Isignedmyname,tellingGoudarthatifthemagistratecouldhaveseentheCharpillonhewouldhavevaluedherbeautyattenthousandguineas。Iaskedthenamesofthetwowitnesses,andwastoldthattheywereRostaingandBottarelli。I
lookedcontemptuouslyatRostaing,whowasaspaleasdeath,andavertingmyfacefromtheCharpillonoutofpity,Isaid,——
\"Thewitnessesareworthyofthecharge。\"
Isalutedthejudgewithrespect,althoughhecouldnotseeme,andaskedtheclerkifIhadanythingtopay。Herepliedinthenegative,andadisputeensuedbetweenhimandtheattorneyofmyfairenemy,whowasdisgustedonhearingthatshecouldnotleavethecourtwithoutpayingthecostsofmyarrest。
JustasIwasgoing,fiveorsixwell—knownEnglishmenappearedtobailmeout,andweremortifiedtohearthattheyhadcometoolate。
Theybeggedmetoforgivethelawsoftheland,whichareonlytoooftenconvertedintoameansfortheannoyanceofforeigners。
Atlast,afteroneofthemosttediousdaysIhaveeverspent,I
returnedhomeandwenttobed,laughingattheexperienceIhadundergone。
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FLIGHTFROMLONDONTOBERLIN
CHAPTERXIV
Bottarelli——ALetterfromPauline——TheAvengingParrot——Pocchini——
Guerra,theVenetian——IMeetSaraAgain;MyIdeaofMarryingHerandSettlinginSwitzerland——TheHanoveriansThusendedthefirstactofthecomedy;thesecondbeganthenextmorning。Iwasjustgettingup,whenIheardanoiseatthestreetdoor,andonputtingmyheadoutofthewindowIsawPocchini,thescoundrelwhohadrobbedmeatStuttgarttryingtogetintomyhouse。
IcriedoutwrathfullythatIwouldhavenothingtodowithhim,andslammeddownmywindow。
AlittlelaterGoudarputinanappearance。HehadgotacopyoftheSt。James’sChronicle,containingabriefreportofmyarrest,andofmybeingsetalibertyunderabailofeightyguineas。Mynameandthelady’sweredisguised,butRostaingandBottarelliweresetdownplainly,andtheeditorpraisedtheirconduct。IfeltasifIshouldliketoknowBottarelli,andbeggedGoudartotakemetohim,andMartinelli,happeningtocalljustthen,saidhewouldcomewithus。
Weenteredawretchedroomonthethirdfloorofawretchedhouse,andtherewebeheldapictureofthegreatestmisery。Awomanandfivechildrenclothedinragsformedtheforeground,andinthebackgroundwasBottarelli,inanolddressing—gown,writingatatableworthyofPhilemonandBaucis。Heroseaswecamein,andthesightofhimmovedmetocompassion。Isaid,——
\"Doyouknowme,sir?\"
\"No,sir,Idonot。\"
\"IamCasanova,againstwhomyouborefalsewitness;whomyoutriedtocastintoNewgate。\"
\"Iamverysorry,butlookaroundyouandsaywhatchoicehaveI?I
havenobreadtogivemychildren。Iwilldoasmuchinyourfavouranothertimefornothing。\"
\"Areyounotafraidofthegallows?\"
\"No,forperjuryisnotpunishedwithdeath;besidesitisverydifficulttoprove。\"
\"Ihaveheardyouareapoet。\"
\"Yes。IhavelengthenedtheDidoneandabridgedtheDemetrio。\"
\"Youareagreatpoet,indeed!\"
Ifeltmorecontemptthanhatredfortherascal,andgavehiswifeaguinea,forwhichshepresentedmewithawretchedpamphletbyherhusband:\"TheSecretsoftheFreemasonsDisplayed。\"Bottarellihadbeenamonkinhisnativecity,Pisa,andhadfledtoEnglandwithhiswife,whohadbeenanun。
AboutthistimeM。deSaasurprisedmebygivingmealetterfrommyfairPortuguese,whichconfirmedthesadfateofpoorClairmont。
PaulinesaidshewasmarriedtoCountAl————。IwasastonishedtohearM。deSaaobservethathehadknownallaboutPaulinefromthemomentshearrivedinLondon。Thatisthehobbyofalldiplomatists;
theylikepeopletobelievethattheyareomniscient。However,M。deSaawasamanofworthandtalent,andonecouldexcusethisweaknessasanincidentinseparablefromhisprofession;whilemostdiplomatistsonlymakethemselvesridiculousbytheirassumptionofuniversalknowledge。
M。deSaahadbeenalmostasbadlytreatedbytheCharpillonasmyself,andwemighthavecondoledwithoneanother,butthesubjectwasnotmentioned。
Afewdaysafterwards,asIwaswalkingidlyabout,IpassedaplacecalledtheParrotMarket。AsIwasamusingmyselfbylookingatthesecuriousbirds,Isawafineyoungoneinacage,andaskedwhatlanguageitspoke。Theytoldmethatitwasquiteyounganddidnotspeakatallyet,soIboughtitfortenguineas。IthoughtIwouldteachthebirdaprettyspeech,soIhadthecagehungbymybed,andrepeateddozensoftimeseverydaythefollowingsentence:\"TheCharpillonisabiggerwh——ethanhermother。\"
TheonlyendIhadinviewwasmyprivateamusement,andinafortnightthebirdhadlearntthephrasewiththeutmostexactness;
andeverytimeitutteredthewordsitaccompaniedthemwithashriekoflaughterwhichIhadnottaughtit,butwhichmademelaughmyself。
OnedayGondarheardthebird,andtoldmethatifIsentittotheExchangeIshouldcertainlygetfiftyguineasforit。Iwelcomedtheidea,andresolvedtomaketheparrottheinstrumentofmyvengeanceagainstthewomanwhohadtreatedmesobadly。Isecuredmyselffromfearofthelaw,whichissevereinsuchcases,byentrustingthebirdtomynegro,towhomsuchmerchandisewasverysuitable。
Forthefirsttwoorthreedaysmyparrotdidnotattractmuchattention,itsobservationsbeinginFrench;butassoonasthosewhoknewthesubjectofthemhadheardit,itsaudienceincreasedandbidsweremade。Fiftyguineasseemedrathertoomuch,andmynegrowantedmetolowertheprice,butIwouldnotagree,havingfalleninlovewiththisoddrevenge。
InthecourseofaweekGoudarcametoinformmeoftheeffecttheparrot’scriticismhadproducedintheCharpillonfamily。Asthevendorwasmynegro,therecouldbenodoubtastowhomitbelonged,andwhohadbeenitsmasteroflanguages。GoudarsaidthattheCharpillonthoughtmyvengeanceveryingenious,butthatthemotherandauntswerefurious。Theyhadconsultedseveralcounsel,whoagreedinsayingthataparrotcouldnotbeindictedforlibel,butthattheycouldmakemepaydearlyformyjestiftheycouldprovethatIhadbeenthebird’sinstructor。Goudarwarnedmetobecarefulofowningtothefact,astwowitnesseswouldsufficetoundome。
ThefacilitywithwhichfalsewitnessesmaybeproducedinLondonissomethingdreadful。Ihavemyselfseenthewordevidencewritteninlargecharactersinawindow;thisisasmuchastosaythatfalsewitnessesmaybeprocuredwithin。
TheSt。James’sChroniclecontainedanarticleonmyparrot,inwhichthewriterremarkedthattheladieswhomthebirdinsultedmustbeverypoorandfriendless,ortheywouldhaveboughtitatonce,andhavethuspreventedthethingfrombecomingthetalkofthetown。Headded,——
\"Theteacheroftheparrothasnodoubtmadethebirdaninstrumentofhisvengeance,andhasdisplayedhiswitindoingso;heoughttobeanEnglishman。\"
ImetmygoodfriendEdgar,andaskedhimwhyhehadnotboughtthelittleslanderer。
\"Becauseitdelightsallwhoknowanythingabouttheobjectoftheslander,\"saidhe。
AtlastJarbefoundapurchaserforfiftyguineas,andIheardafterwardsthatLordGrosvenorhadboughtittopleasetheCharpillon,withwhomheoccasionallydivertedhimself。
Thusmyrelationswiththatgirlcametoanend。Ihaveseenhersincewiththegreatestindifference,andwithoutanyrenewaloftheoldpain。
Oneday,asIwasgoingintoSt。James’sPark,Isawtwogirlsdrinkingmilkinaroomonthegroundfloorofahouse。Theycalledouttome,butnotknowingthemIpassedonmyway。However,ayoungofficerofmyacquaintancecameaftermeandsaidtheywereItalians,andbeingcurioustoseethemIretractedmysteps。
WhenIenteredtheroomIwasaccostedbythescoundrellyPocchini,dressedinamilitaryuniform,whosaidhehadthehonourofintroducingmetohisdaughters。
\"Indeed,\"saidI,\"Iremembertwootherdaughtersofyoursrobbingmeofasnuff—boxandtwowatchesatStuttgart。\"
\"Youlie!\"saidtheimpudentrascal。
Igavehimnoverbalanswer,buttookupaglassofmilkandflungitinhisface,andthenlefttheroomwithoutmoreado。
Iwaswithoutmysword。TheyoungofficerwhohadbroughtmeintotheplacefollowedmeandtoldmeImustnotgowithoutgivinghisfriendsomesatisfaction。
\"Tellhimtocomeout,anddoyouescorthimtotheGreenPark,andI
shallhavethepleasureofgivinghimacaninginyourpresence,unlessyouwouldliketofightforhim;ifso,youmustletmegohomeandgetmysword。Butdoyouknowthismanwhomyoucallyourfriend?\"
\"No,butheisanofficer,anditisIthatbroughthimhere。\"
\"Verygood,Iwillfighttothelastdropofmyblood;butIwarnyouyourfriendisathief。Butgo;Iwillawaityou。\"
Inthecourseofaquarterofanhourtheyallcameout,buttheEnglishmanandPocchinifollowedmealone。Therewereagoodmanypeopleabout,andIwentbeforethemtillwereachedHydePark。
Pocchiniattemptedtospeaktome,butIreplied,liftingmycane,——
\"Scoundrel,drawyoursword,unlessyouwantmetogiveyouathrashing!\"
\"Iwillneverdrawuponadefencelessman。\"
Igavehimablowwithmycanebywayofanswer,andthecoward,insteadofdrawinghissword,begantocryoutthatIwishedtodrawhimintoafight。TheEnglishmanburstoutlaughingandbeggedmetopardonhisinterference,andthen,takingmebythearm,said,——
\"Comealong,sir,Iseeyouknowthegentleman。\"
Thecowardwentoffinanotherdirection,grumblingashewent。
OnthewayIinformedtheofficeroftheverygoodreasonsIhadfortreatingPocchiniasarogue,andheagreedthatIhadbeenperfectlyright。\"Unfortunately,\"headded,\"Iaminlovewithoneofhisdaughters。\"
WhenwewereinthemidstofSt。James’sParkwesawthem,andI
couldnothelplaughingwhenInoticedGoudarwithoneofthemoneachside。
\"Howdidyoucometoknowtheseladies?\"saidI。
\"Theirfatherthecaptain,\"heanswered,\"hassoldmejewels;heintroducedmetothem。\"
\"Wheredidyouleaveourfather?\"askedone。
\"InHydePark,aftergivinghimacaning。\"
\"Youservedhimquiteright。\"
TheyoungEnglishmanwasindignanttohearthemapprovingmyill—
treatmentoftheirfather,andshookmyhandandwentaway,swearingtomethathewouldneverbeseenintheircompanyagain。
AwhimofGoudar’s,towhichIwasweakenoughtoconsent,mademedinewiththesemiserablewomeninatavernonthebordersofLondon。
TherascallyGoudarmadethemdrunk,andinthisstatetheytoldsometerribletruthsabouttheirpretendedfather。Hedidnotlivewiththem,butpaidthemnocturnalvisitsinwhichherobbedthemofallthemoneytheyhadearned。Hewastheirpander,andmadethemrobtheirvisitorsinstructingthemtopassitoffasajokeifthetheftwasdiscovered。Theygavehimthestolenarticles,butheneversaidwhathedidwiththem。Icouldnothelplaughingatthisinvoluntaryconfession,rememberingwhatGoudarhadsaidaboutPocchinisellinghimjewels。
AfterthiswretchedmealIwentawayleavingthedutyofescortingthembacktoGoudar。Hecameandsawmethenextday,andinformedmethatthegirlshadbeenarrestedandtakentoprisonjustastheywereenteringtheirhouse。
\"IhavejustbeentoPocchini’s,\"saidhe,\"butthelandlordtellsmehehasnotbeeninsinceyesterday。\"
TheworthyandconscientiousGoudaraddedthathedidnotcareifheneversawhimagain,asheowedthefellowtenguineasforawatch,whichhisdaughtershadprobablystolen,andwhichwaswellworthdouble。
FourdayslaterIsawhimagain,andheinformedmethattherascalhadleftLondonwithaservant—maid,whomhehadengagedataregistryofficewhereanynumberofservantsarealwaysreadytotakeservicewiththefirstcomer。Thekeeperoftheofficeanswersfortheirfidelity。
\"Thegirlhehasgonewithisaprettyone,fromwhatthemantellsme,andtheyhavetakenshipfromLondon。IamsorryhewentawaybeforeIcouldpayhimforthewatch;Iamdreadingeverymomenttomeettheindividualfromwhomitwasstolen。\"
Ineverheardwhatbecameofthegirls,butPocchiniwillre—appearonthesceneinduecourse。
Iledatranquilandorderlylife,whichIshouldhavebeenpleasedtocontinuefortheremainderofmydays;butcircumstancesandmydestinyordereditotherwise,andagainsttheseitisnotbecominginaChristianphilosophertocomplain。Iwentseveraltimestoseemydaughteratherschool,andIalsofrequentedtheBritishMuseum,whereImetDr。Mati。OnedayIfoundanAnglicanministerwithhim,andIaskedtheclergymanhowmanydifferentsectstherewereinEngland。
\"Sir,\"herepliedinverytolerableItalian,\"noonecangiveapositiveanswertothatquestion,foreveryweeksomesectdiesandsomenewoneisbroughtintobeing。Allthatisnecessaryisforamanofgoodfaith,orsomeroguedesirousofmoneyornotoriety,tostandinsomefrequentedplaceandbeginpreaching。HeexplainssometextsoftheBibleinhisownfashion,andifhepleasesthegapersaroundhimtheyinvitehimtoexpoundnextSunday,ofteninatavern。
Hekeepstheappointmentandexplainshisnewdoctrinesinaspiritedmanner。Thenpeoplebegintotalkofhim;hedisputeswithministersofothersects;heandhisfollowersgivethemselvesaname,andthethingisdone。Thus,oralmostthus,areallthenumerousEnglishsectsproduced。\"
AboutthistimeM。SteffanoGuerra,anobleVenetianwhowastravellingwiththeleaveofhisGovernment,lostacaseagainstanEnglishpainterwhohadexecutedaminiaturepaintingofoneoftheprettiestladiesinLondon,Guerrahavinggivenawrittenpromisetopaytwenty—fiveguineas。WhenitwasfinishedGuerradidnotlikeit,andwouldnottakeitorpaytheprice。TheEnglishman,inaccordancewiththeEnglishcustom,beganbyarrestinghisdebtor;
butGuerrawasreleasedonbail,andbroughtthematterbeforethecourts,whichcondemnedhimtopaythetwenty—fiveguineas。Heappealed,lostagain,andwasintheendobligedtopay。Guerracontentedthathehadorderedaportrait,thatapicturebearingnolikenesstotheladyinquestionwasnotaportrait,andthathehadthereforearighttorefusepayment。Thepainterrepliedthatitwasaportraitasithadbeenpaintedfromlife。Thejudgmentwasthatthepaintermustlivebyhistrade,andthatasGuerrahadgivenhimpaintingtodohemustthereforeprovidehimwiththewherewithaltolive,seeingthattheartistsworehehaddonehisbesttocatchthelikeness。Everybodythoughtthissentencejust,andsodidI;butI
confessitalsoseemedratherhard,especiallytoGuerra,whowithcostshadtopayahundredguineasfortheminiature。
Malingan’sdaughterdiedjustasherfatherreceivedapublicboxontheearfromanoblemanwholikedpiquet,butdidnotlikeplayerswhocorrectedthecapricesoffortune。IgavethepoorwretchthewherewithaltoburyhisdaughterandtoleaveEngland。HediedsoonafteratLiege,andhiswifetoldmeofthecircumstance,sayingthathehadexpiredregrettinghisinabilitytopayhisdebts。
M。M————F————cametoLondonastherepresentativeofthecantonofBerne,andIcalled,butwasnotreceived。IsuspectedthathehadgotwindofthelibertiesIhadtakenwithprettySara,anddidnotwantmetohaveanopportunityforrenewingthem。Hewasasomewhateccentricman,soIdidnottakeoffence,andhadalmostforgottenallaboutitwhenchanceledmetotheMaryleboneTheatreoneevening。Thespectatorssatatlittletables,andthechargeforadmittancewasonlyashilling,buteveryonewasexpectedtoordersomething,wereitonlyapotofale。
OngoingintothetheatreIchancedtositdownbesideagirlwhomI
didnotnoticeatfirst,butsoonafterIcameinsheturnedtowardsme,andIbeheldaravishingprofilewhichsomehowseemedfamiliar;
butIattributedthattotheideaofperfectbeautythatwasgravenonmysoul。ThemoreIlookedatherthesurerIfeltthatIhadneverseenherbefore,thoughasmileofinexpressibleslynesshadbeguntoplayaboutherlips。Oneofherglovesfell,andIhastenedtorestoreittoher,whereuponshethankedmeinafewwell—chosenFrenchsentences。
\"MadamisnotEnglish,then?\"saidI,respectfully。
\"No,sir,IamaSwiss,andafriendofyours。\"
AtthisIlookedround,andonmyrighthandsatMadameM————F————,thenhereldestdaughter,thenherhusband。Igotup,andafterbowingtothelady,forwhomIhadagreatesteem,Isalutedherhusband,whoonlyrepliedbyaslightmovementofthehead。IaskedMadameM————F————whatherhusbandhadagainstme,andshesaidthatPossanohadwrittentohimtellingsomedreadfulstoriesaboutme。
Therewasnottimeformetoexplainandjustifymyself,soIdevotedallmyenergiestothetaskofwinningthedaughter’sgoodgraces。
Inthreeyearsshehadgrownintoaperfectbeauty:sheknewit,andbyherblushesasshespoketomeIknewshewasthinkingofwhathadpassedbetweenusinthepresenceofmyhousekeeper。Iwasanxioustofindoutwhethershewouldacknowledgethefact,ordenyitaltogether。IfshehaddonesoIshouldhavedespisedher。WhenI
hadseenherbefore,theblossomofherbeautywasstillinthebud,nowithadopenedoutinallitssplendour。
\"CharmingSara,\"Isaid,\"youhavesoenchantedmethatIcannothelpaskingyouacoupleofquestions,whichifyouvaluemypeaceofmindyouwillanswer。DoyourememberwhathappenedatBerne?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"Anddoyourepentofwhatyoudid?\"
\"No。\"
Nomanofanydelicacycouldaskthethirdquestion,whichmaybeunderstood。IfeltsurethatSarawouldmakemehappy—nay,thatshewasevenlongingforthemoment,andgavereinstomypassions,determinedtoconvinceherthatIwasdeservingofherlove。
Thewaitercametoenquireifwehadanyorders,andIbeggedMadameM————F————toallowmetoofferhersomeoysters。Aftertheusualpoliterefusalsshegavein,andIprofitedbyheracceptancetoorderallthedelicaciesoftheseason,includingahare(agreatdelicacyinLondon),champagne,choiceliqueurs,larks,ortolans,truffles,sweetmeats——everything,infact,thatmoneycouldbuy,andIwasnotatallsurprisedwhenthebillprovedtoamounttotenguineas。ButIwasverymuchsurprisedwhenM。M————F————,whohadeatenlikeaTurkanddrunklikeaSwiss,saidcalmlythatitwastoodear。
Ibeggedhimpolitelynottotroublehimselfaboutthecost;andbywayofprovingthatIdidnotsharehisopinion,Igavethewaiterhalf—a—guinea;theworthymanlookedasifhewishedthatsuchcustomerscamemoreoften。TheSwiss,whohadbeenpaleandgloomyenoughashortwhilebefore;wasrubicundandaffable。Saraglancedatmeandsqueezedmyhand;Ihadconquered。
Whentheplaywasover,M————F————askedmeifIwouldallowhimtocallonme。Iembracedhiminreply。Hisservantcamein,andsaidthathecouldnotfindacoach;andI,feelingrathersurprisedthathehadnotbroughthiscarriage,offeredhimtheuseofmine,tellingmymantogetmeasedan—chair。
\"Iacceptyourkindoffer,\"saidhe,\"ontheconditionthatyouallowmetooccupythechair。\"
Iconsentedtothisarrangement,andtookthemotherandthetwodaughterswithmeinthecarriage。
Ontheway,MadameM————F————wasverypolite,gentlyblamingherhusbandfortherudenessofwhichIhadtocomplain。IsaidthatI
wouldavengemyselfbypayinganassiduouscourttohiminthefuture;butshepiercedmetotheheartbysayingthattheywereonthepointofdeparting。\"Wewantedtogoonthedayafternext,\"shesaid,\"andto—morrowweshallhavetoleaveourpresentroomstotheirnewoccupants。Amatterofbusinesswhichmyhusbandwasnotabletoconcludewillobligeustostayforanotherweek,andto—
morrowweshallhavethedoubletaskofmovingandfindingnewapartments。\"
\"Thenyouhavenotyetgotnewrooms?\"
\"No,butmyhusbandsaysheiscertaintofindsometo—morrowmorning。\"
\"Furnished,Isuppose,forasyouintendtoleaveyouwillbeselling,yourfurniture。\"
\"Yes,andweshallhavetopaytheexpensesofcarriagetothebuyer。\"
OnhearingthatM。M————F————wassureoffindinglodgings,Iwasprecludedfromofferingtoaccommodatetheminmyownhouse,astheladymightthinkthatIonlymadetheofferbecauseIwassureitwouldnotbeaccepted。
Whenwegottothedooroftheirhousewealighted,andthemotherbeggedmetocomein。Sheandherhusbandsleptonthesecondfloor,andthetwogirlsonthethird。Everythingwasupsidedown,andasMadameM————F————hadsomethingtosaytothelandladysheaskedmetogoupwithherdaughters。Itwascold,andtheroomweenteredhadnofireinit。ThesisterwentintotheroomadjoiningandI
stayedwithSara,andallofasuddenIclaspedhertomybreast,andfeelingthatherdesireswereasardentasmineIfellwithherontoasofawherewemingledourbeingsinallthedelightsofvoluptuousardours。Butthishappinesswasshortlived;scarcelywastheworkachievedwhenweheardafootsteponthestair。Itwasthefather。
IfM————F————hadhadanyeyeshemusthavefoundusout,formyfaceborethemarksofagitation,thenatureofwhichitwaseasytodivine。Weexchangedafewbriefcompliments;Ishookhishandanddisappeared。IwasinsuchastateofexcitementwhenIgothomethatImadeupmymindtoleaveEnglandandtofollowSaratoSwitzerland。InthenightIformedmyplans,andresolvedtoofferthefamilymyhouseduringthetimetheystayedinEngland,andifnecessarytoforcethemtoacceptmyoffer。
InthemorningIhastenedtocallonM————F————,andfoundhimonhisdoorstep。
\"Iamgoingtotryandgetacoupleofrooms,\"saidhe。
\"Theyarealreadyfound,\"Ireplied。\"Myhouseisatyourservice,andyoumustgivemethepreference。Letuscomeupstairs。\"
\"Everybodyisinbed。\"
\"Nevermind,\"saidI,andweproceededtogoupstairs。
MadameM————F————apologizedforbeinginbed。HerhusbandtoldherthatIwantedtoletthemsomerooms,butIlaughedandsaidI
desiredtheywouldacceptmyhospitalityasthatofafriend。Aftersomepolitedenialsmyofferwasaccepted,anditwasagreedthatthewholefamilyshouldtakeuptheirquarterswithmeintheevening。
Iwenthome,andwasgivingthenecessaryorderswhenIwastoldthattwoyoungladieswishedtoseeme。Iwentdowninperson,andIwasagreeablysurprisedtoseeSaraandhersister。Iaskedthemtocomein,andSaratoldmethatthelandladywouldnotlettheirbelongingsoutofthehousebeforeherfatherpaidadebtoffortyguineas,althoughacitymerchanthadassuredheritshouldbesettledinaweek。ThelongandsnortofitwasthatSara’sfatherhadsentmeabillandbeggedmetodiscountit。
Itookthebillandgaveherabanknoteforfiftypoundsinexchange,tellingherthatshecouldgivemethechangeanothertime。
Shethankedmewithgreatsimplicityandwentherway,leavingmedelightedwiththeconfidenceshehadplacedinme。
ThefactofM。M————F————’swantingfortyguineasdidnotmakemedivinethathewasinsomestraits,forIlookedateverythingthroughrose—colouredglasses,andwasonlytoohappytobeofservicetohim。
Imadeaslightdinnerinordertohaveabetterappetiteforsupper,andspenttheafternooninwritingletters。IntheeveningM。M————
F————’smancamewiththreegreattrunksandinnumerablecard—boardboxes,tellingmethatthefamilywouldsoonfollow;butIawaitedtheminvaintillnineo’clock。Ibegantogetalarmedandwenttothehouse,whereIfoundthemallinastateofconsternation。Twoill—lookingfellowswhowereintheroomenlightenedme;andassumingajovialandunconcernedair,Isaid,——
\"I’llwager,now,thatthisistheworkofsomefiercecreditor。\"
\"Youareright,\"answeredthefather,\"butIamsureofdischargingthedebtinfiveorsixdays,andthat’swhyIputoffmydeparture。\"
\"Thenyouwerearrestedafteryouhadsentonyourtrunks。\"
\"Justafter。\"
\"Andwhathaveyoudone?\"
\"Ihavesentforbail。\"
\"Whydidyounotsendtome?\"
\"Thankyou,Iamgratefulforyourkindness,butyouareaforeigner,andsuretieshavetobehouseholders。\"
\"Butyououghttohavetoldmewhathadhappened,forIhavegotyouanexcellentsupper,andIamdyingofhunger。\"
Itwaspossiblethatthisdebtmightexceedmymeans,soIdidnotdaretooffertopayit。ItookSaraaside,andonhearingthatallhistroublewasonaccountofadebtofahundredandfiftypounds,I
askedthebailiffwhetherwecouldgoawayifthedebtwaspaid。
\"Certainly,\"saidhe,shewingmethebillofexchange。
Itookoutthreebanknotesoffiftypoundseach,andgavethemtotheman,andtakingthebillIsaidtothepoorSwiss,——
\"YoushallpaymethemoneybeforeyouleaveEngland。\"
Thewholefamilyweptwithjoy,andafterembracingthemallI
summonedthemtocomeandsupwithmeandforgetthetroublesoflife。
Wedroveofftomyhouseandhadamerrysupper,thoughtheworthymothercouldnotquiteforgethersadness。AftersupperItookthemtotheroomswhichhadbeenpreparedforthem,andwithwhichtheyweredelighted,andsoIwishedthemgoodnight,tellingthemthattheyshouldbewellentertainedtilltheirdeparture,andthatI
hopedtofollowthemintoSwitzerland。
WhenIawokethenextdayIwasinahappyframeofmind。OnexaminingmydesiresIfoundthattheyhadgrowntoostrongtobeovercome,butIdidnotwishtoovercomethem。IlovedSara,andI
feltsocertainofpossessingherthatIputalldesiresoutofmymind;desiresarebornonlyofdoubt,anddoubttormentsthesoul。
Sarawasmine;shehadgivenherselftomeoutofpurepassion,withoutanyshadowofself—interest。
Iwenttothefather’sroom,andfoundhimengagedinopeninghistrunks。Hiswifelookedsad,soIaskedherifshewerenotwell。
Sherepliedthatherhealthwasperfect,butthatthethoughtoftheseavoyagetroubledhersorely。Thefatherbeggedmetoexcusehimatbreakfastashehadbusinesstoattendto。Thetwoyoungladiescamedown,andafterwehadbreakfastIaskedthemotherwhytheywereunpackingtheirtrunkssoshortatimebeforestarting。Shesmiledandsaidthatonetrunkwouldbeampleforalltheirpossessions,astheyhadresolvedtosellallsuperfluities。AsI
hadseensomebeautifuldresses,finelinen,andexquisitelace,I
couldnotrefrainfromsayingthatitwouldbeagreatpitytosellcheaplywhatwouldhavetobereplaceddearly。
\"Youareright,\"shesaid,\"but,nevertheless,thereisnopleasuresogreatastheconsciousnessofhavingpaidone’sdebts。\"
\"Youmustnotsellanything,\"Ireplied,inalivelymanner,\"forasIamgoingtoSwitzerlandwithyouIcanpayyourdebts,andyoushallrepaymewhenyoucan。\"
Atthesewordsastonishmentwasdepictedonherface。
\"Ididnotthinkyouwerespeakingseriously,\"saidshe。
\"Perfectlyseriously,andhereistheobjectofmyvows。\"
WiththesewordsIseizedSara’shandandcovereditwithkisses。