Sarablushed,saidnothing,andthemotherlookedkindlyatus;butafteramoment’ssilenceshespokeatsomelength,andwiththeutmostcandourandwisdom。Shegavemecircumstantialinformationastothepositionofthefamilyandherhusband’srestrictedmeans,sayingthatunderthecircumstanceshecouldnothaveavoidedrunningintodebt,butthathehaddonewrongtobringthemallwithhimtoLondon。
\"Ifhehadbeenbyhimself,\"shesaid,\"hecouldhavelivedherecomfortablyenoughwithonlyoneservant,butwithafamilytoprovideforthetwothousandcrownsperannumprovidedbytheGovernmentarequiteinsufficient。MyoldfatherhassucceededinpersuadingtheStatetodischargemyhusband’sdebts,buttomakeuptheextraexpensetheywillnotemployaCharged’affaires;abankerwiththetitleofagentwillcollecttheinterestontheirEnglishsecurities。\"
SheendedbysayingthatshethoughtSarawasfortunatetohavepleasedme,butthatshewasnotsurewhetherherhusbandwouldconsenttothemarriage。
Theword\"marriage\"madeSarablush,andIwaspleased,thoughitwasevidenttherewouldbedifficultiesintheway。
M————F————camebackandtoldhiswifethattwoclothesdealerswouldcometopurchasetheirsuperfluousclothesintheafternoon;
butafterexplainingmyideasIhadnotmuchtroubleinconvincinghimthatitwouldbebetternottosellthem,andthathecouldbecomemydebtortotheamountoftwohundredpounds,onwhichhecouldpayinteresttillhewasabletoreturnmemycapital。Theagreementwaswrittenoutthesameday,butIdidnotmentionthemarriagequestion,ashiswifehadtoldmeshewoulddiscussitwithhiminprivate。
Onthethirddayhecamedownbyhimselftotalkwithme。
\"Mywife,\"hebegan,\"hastoldmeofyourintentions,andItakeitasagreathonour,Iassureyou;butIcannotgiveyoumySara,assheispromisedtoM。deW————,andfamilyreasonspreventmefromgoingbackfrommyword。Besidesmyoldfather,astrictCalvinist,wouldobjecttothedifferenceinreligion。HewouldneverbelievethathisdearlittlegrandchildwouldbehappywithaRomanCatholic\"
AsamatteroffactIwasnotatalldispleasedatwhathesaid。I
wascertainlyveryfondofSara,buttheword\"marriage\"hadadisagreeablesoundtome。Iansweredthatcircumstancesmightchangeintime,andthatinthemeanwhileIshouldbequitecontentifhewouldallowmetobethefriendofthefamilyandtotakeuponmyselfalltheresponsibilityofthejourney。Hepromisedeverything,andassuredmethathewasdelightedathisdaughterhavingwonmyaffection。
AfterthisexplanationIgaveSaraaswarmmarksofmyloveasdecencywouldallowinthepresenceofherfatherandmother,andI
couldseethatallthegirlthoughtofwaslove。
ThefifthdayIwentuptoherroom,andfindingherinbedallthefiresofpassionflamedupinmybreast,forsincemyfirstvisittotheirhouseIhadnotbeenalonewithher。Ithrewmyselfuponher,coveringherwithkisses,andsheshewedherselfaffectionatebutreserved。InvainIendeavouredtosucceed;sheopposedagentleresistancetomyefforts,andthoughshecaressedme,shewouldnotletmeattainmyend。
\"Why,divineSara,\"saidI,\"doyouopposemylovingecstasy?\"
\"Dearest,IentreatofyounottoaskforanymorethanIamwillingtogive。\"
\"Thenyounolongerloveme?\"
\"Cruelman,Iadoreyou!\"
\"Thenwhydoyoutreatmetoarefusal,afterhavingoncesurrenderedunreservedly?\"
\"Ihavegivenmyselftoyou,andwehavebothbeenhappy,andIthinkthatshouldbeenoughforus。\"
\"Theremustbesomereasonforthischange。Ifyouloveme,dearestSara,thisrenunciationmustbehardforyoutobear。\"
\"Iconfessit,butneverthelessIfeelitismyduty。Ihavemadeupmymindtosubduemypassionfromnoweakmotive,butfromasenseofwhatIowetomyself。Iamunderobligationstoyou,andifIweretorepaythedebtIhavecontractedwithmybodyIshouldbedegradedinmyowneyes。Whenweenjoyedeachotherbeforeonlylovewasbetweenus——therewasnoquestionofdebitandcredit。MyheartisnowthethrallofwhatIoweyou,andtothesedebtsitwillnotgivewhatitgavesoreadilytolove。\"
\"Thisisastrangephilosophy,Sara;believemeitisfallacious,andtheenemyofyourhappinessaswellasmine。Thesesophismsleadyouastrayandwoundmetotheheart。Givemesomecreditfordelicacyoffeeling,andbelievemeyouowemenothing。\"
\"Youmustconfessthatifyouhadnotlovedmeyouwouldhavedonenothingformyfather。\"
\"CertainlyIwillconfessnothingofthekind;Iwouldreadilydoasmuch,andmaybemore,outofregardforyourworthymother。Itisquitepossible,indeed,thatindoingthissmallserviceforyourfatherIhadnothoughtsofyouatall。\"
\"Itmightbeso;butIdonotbelieveitwasso。Forgiveme,dearest,butIcannotmakeupmymindtopaymydebtsinthewayyouwish。\"
\"Itseemstomethatifyouaregratefultomeyourloveoughttobestillmoreardent。\"
\"Itcannotbemoreardentthanitisalready。\"
\"Doyouknowhowgrievouslyyoumakemesuffer?\"
\"Alas!Isuffertoo;butdonotreproachme;letusloveeachotherstill。\"
Thisdialogueisnotthehundredthpartofwhatactuallypassedbetweenustilldinner—time。Themothercamein,andfindingmeseatedatthefootofthedaughter’sbed,laughed,andaskedmewhyI
keptherinbed。Iansweredwithperfectcoolnessthatwehadbeensointerestedinourconversationthatwehadnotnoticedtheflightoftime。
Iwenttodress,andasIthoughtovertheextraordinarychangewhichhadtakenplaceinSaraIresolvedthatitshouldnotlastforlong。
Wedinedtogethergaily,andSaraandIbehavedinallrespectsliketwolovers。IntheeveningItookthemtotheItalianOpera,cominghometoanexcellentsupper。
ThenextmorningIpassedinthecity,havingaccountstosettlewithmybankers。IgotsomelettersofexchangeonGeneva,andsaidfarewelltotheworthyMr。Bosanquet。IntheafternoonIgotacoachforMadameM————F————topaysomefarewellscalls,andIwenttosaygood—byetomydaughteratschool。Thedearlittlegirlburstintotears,sayingthatshewouldbelostwithoutme,andbeggingmenottoforgether。Iwasdeeplymoved。SophiebeggedmetogoandseehermotherbeforeIleftEngland,andIdecidedondoingso。
Atsupperwetalkedoverourjourney,andM。M————F————agreedwithmethatitwouldbebettertogobyDunkirkthanOstend。Hehadverylittlemorebusinesstoattendto。Hisdebtswerepaid,andhesaidhethoughthewouldhaveamatteroffiftyguineasinhispocketatthejourney’send,afterpayingathirdshareofallthetravellingexpenses。Ihadtoagreetothis,thoughImadeupmymindatthesametimenottolethimseeanyoftheaccounts。IhopedtowinSara,inonewayoranother,whenwegottoBerne。
Thenextday,afterbreakfast,Itookherhandinpresenceofhermother,andaskedherifshewouldgivemeherheartifIcouldobtainherfather’sconsentatBerne。
\"Yourmother,\"Iadded,\"haspromisedmethathersshallnotbewanting。\"
Atthisthemothergotup,andsayingthatwehadnodoubtagooddealtotalkover,sheandhereldestdaughterwentouttopaysomecalls。
AssoonaswewerealoneSarasaidthatshecouldnotunderstandhowIcouldhavethesmallestdoubtastowhetherherconsentwouldbegiven。
\"IhaveshewnyouhowwellIloveyou,\"saidshe,tenderly;\"andIamsureIshouldbeveryhappyasyourwife。Youmaybesurethatyourwisheswillbemine,andthat,howeverfaryouleadme,Switzerlandshallclaimnothoughtofmine。\"
IpressedtheamorousSaratomybosominatransportofdelight,whichwassharedbyher;butasshesawmegrowmoreardentshebeggedmetobemoderate。Claspingmeinherarmssheadjuredmenottoaskherforthatwhichshewasdeterminednottogranttillshewasminebylawfulwedlock。
\"Youwilldrivemetodespair!Haveyoureflectedthatthisresistancemaycostmemylife?Canyoulove,andyetentertainthisfatalprejudice?AndyetIamsureyouloveme,andpleasuretoo。\"
\"Yes,dearestone,Idoloveyou,andamorouspleasurewithyou;butyoumustrespectmydelicacy。\"
Myeyeswerewetwithtears,andshewassoaffectedthatshefellfaintingtotheground。Iliftedherupandgentlylaidheronthebed。Herpalloralarmedme。Ibroughtsmelling—salts,IrubbedherforeheadwithSavoy—water,andshesoonopenedhereyes,andseemeddelightedtofindmecalmagain。
Thethoughtoftakingadvantageofherhelplessnesswouldhavehorrifiedme。Shesatuponthebed,andsaid,——
\"Youhavejustgivenatrueproofofthesincerityofyouraffection。\"
\"Didyouthink,sweetheart,thatIwasvileenoughtoabuseyourweakness?CouldIenjoyapleasureinwhichyouhadnoshare?\"
\"Ididnotthinkyouwoulddosuchathing,butIshouldnothaveresisted,thoughitispossiblethatIshouldnothavelovedyouafterwards。\"
\"Sara,thoughyoudonotknow,youcharmmysouloutofmybody。\"
AfterthisIsatdownsadlyonthebed,andabandonedmyselftothemostmelancholyreflections,fromwhichSaradidnotendeavourtorouseme。
Hermothercameinandaskedwhyshewasonthebed,butnotatallsuspiciously。Saratoldherthetruth。
M。M————F————cameinsoonafter,andwedinedtogether,butsilently。WhatIhadheardfromthegirl’slipshadcompletelyoverwhelmedme。IsawIhadnothingtohopefor,andthatitwastimeformetolooktomyself。Sixweeksbefore,Godhaddeliveredmefrommybondagetoaninfamouswoman,andnowIwasindangerofbecomingtheslaveofanangel。SuchweremyreflectionswhilstSarawasfainting,butitwasnecessaryformetoconsiderthematteratmyleisure。
Therewasasaleofvaluablearticlesinthecity,themeanstakenfordisposingofthembeingalottery。Sarahadreadtheannouncement,andIaskedherwithhermotherandsistertocomewithmeandtakepartinit。Ihadnotmuchtroubleinobtainingtheirconsent,andwefoundourselvesindistinguishedcompany,amongthepersonspresentbeingtheCountessofHarrington,LadyStanhope,andEmilieandherdaughters。Emiliehadastrangecasebeforethecourts。Shehadgiveninformationtothepolicethatherhusbandhadbeenrobbedofsixthousandpounds,thougheveryonesaidthatsheherselfwasthethief。
MadameM————F————didnottakeaticket,butsheallowedmetotaketicketsforherdaughters,whowereinhighglee,sincefortenortwelveguineastheygotarticlesworthsixty。
EverydayIwasmoretakenwithSara;butfeelingsurethatIshouldonlyobtainslightfavoursfromher,Ithoughtitwastimetocometoanexplanation。SoaftersupperIsaidthatasitwasnotcertainthatSaracouldbecomemywifeIhaddeterminednottoaccompanythemtoBerne。ThefathertoldmeIwasverywise,andthatIcouldstillcorrespondwithhisdaughter,Sarasaidnothing,butIcouldseeshewasmuchgrieved。
Ipassedadreadfulnight;suchanexperiencewasaltogethernewtome。IweighedSara’sreasons,andtheyseemedtometobemerelyfrivolous,whichdrovemetoconcludethatmycaresseshaddispleasedher。
ForthelastthreedaysIfoundmyselfmorethanoncealonewithher;
butIwasstudiouslymoderate,andshecaressedmeinamannerthatwouldhavemademyblissifIhadnotalreadyobtainedtheonegreatfavour。ItwasatthistimeIlearntthetruthofthemaximthatifabstinenceissometimesthespuroflove,ithasalsothecontraryeffect。Sarahadbroughtmyfeelingtoapitchofgentlefriendship,whileaninfamousprostituteliketheCharpillon,whoknewhowtorenewhopeandyetgrantnothing,endedbyinspiringmewithcontempt,andfinallywithhatred。
ThefamilysailedforOstend,andIaccompaniedthemtothemouthoftheThames。IgaveSaraaletterforMadamedeW————。ThiswasthenameofthelearnedHedvigwhomshedidnotknow。Theyafterwardsbecamesisters—in—law,asSaramarriedabrotherofM。deW————,andwashappywithhim。
EvennowIamgladtoheartidingsofmyoldfriendsandtheirdoings,buttheinterestItakeinsuchmattersisnottobecomparedtomyinterestinsomeobscurestoryofancienthistory。Forourcontemporaries,thecompanions,ofouryouthfulfollies,wehaveakindofcontempt,somewhatsimilartothatwhichweentertainforourselves。FouryearsagoIwrotetoMadameG————atHamburg,andmyletterbegan:
\"Afterasilenceoftwenty—oneyears……\"
Shedidnotdeigntoreply,andIwasbynomeansdispleased。Wecarednolongerforoneanother,anditisquitenaturalthatitshouldbeso。
WhenItellmyreaderwhoMadameG————is,hewillbeamused。TwoyearsagoIsetoutforHamburg,butmygoodgeniusmademeturnbacktoDux;whathadItodoatHamburg?
AftermyguestsweregoneIwenttotheItalianOperaatCoventGarden,andmetGoudar,whoaskedmeifIwouldcometotheSartori’sconcert。HetoldmeIshouldseeabeautifulyoungEnglishwomantherewhospokeItalian。AsIhadjustlostSaraIdidnotmuchcareaboutmakingnewacquaintances,butstillIwascurioustoseetheyoungmarvel。Iindulgedmycuriosity,andIamgladtosaythatinsteadofbeingamusedIwaswearied,thoughtheyoungEnglishwomanwasprettyenough。AyoungLivonian,whocalledhimselfBaronofStenau,seemedextremelyinterestedinher。Aftersuppersheofferedusticketsforthenextconcert,andItookoneformyselfandoneforGondar,givinghertwoguineas,buttheLivonianbarontookfiftytickets,andgaveherabanknoteforfiftyguineas。Isawbythisthathewantedtotaketheplacebystorm,andIlikedhiswayofdoingit。Isupposedhimtoberich,withoutcaringtoenquireintohismeans。Hemadeadvancestomeandwebecamefriends,andthereaderwillseeinduetimewhatafatalacquaintancehewas。
OnedayasIwaswalkingwithGoudarinHydeParkheleftmetospeaktotwoladieswhoseemedpretty。
Hewasnotlongabsent,andsaid,whenherejoinedme,——
\"AHanoverianlady,awidowandthemotheroffivedaughters,cametoEnglandtwomonthsagowithherwholefamily。Shelivescloseby,andisoccupiedinsolicitingcompensationfromtheGovernmentforanyinjurythatwasdoneherbythepassageoftheDukeofCumberland’sarmy。Themotherherselfissickandandneverleavesherbed;shesendshertwoeldestdaughterstopetitiontheGovernment,andtheyarethetwoyoungladiesyouhavejustseen。
Theyhavenotmetwithanysuccess。Theeldestdaughteristwenty—
two,andtheyoungestfourteen;theyareallprettyandcanspeakEnglish,French,andGermanequallywell,andarealwaysgladtoseevisitors。Ihadbeentovisitthemmyself,butasIgavethemnothingIdonotcaretogotherealoneasecondtime。Ifyoulike,however,Icanintroduceyou。\"
\"Youirritatemycuriosity。Comealong,butiftheonethatpleasesmeisnotcomplaisantsheshallhavenothing。\"
\"Theywillnotevenallowonetotakethembythehand。\"
\"TheyareCharpillons,Isuppose。\"
\"Itlookslikeit。Butyouwon’tseeanymenthere:\"
WewereshewnintoalargeroomwhereInoticedthreeprettygirlsandanevil—lookingman。Ibeganwiththeusualcompliments,towhichthegirlsrepliedpolitely,butwithanairofgreatsadness。
Goudarspoketotheman,andthencametomeshrugginghisshoulders,andsaying,——
\"Wehavecomeatasadtime。Thatmanisabailiffwhohascometotakethemothertoprisonifshecan’tpayherlandlordthetwentyguineas’rentsheoweshim,andtheyhaven’tgotafarthing。Whenthemotherhasbeensenttoprisonthelandlordwillnodoubtturnthegirlsoutofdoors。\"
\"Theycanlivewiththeirmotherfornothing。\"
\"Notatall。Iftheyhavegotthemoneytheycanhavetheirmealsinprison,butnooneisallowedtoliveinaprisonexcepttheprisoners。\"
Iaskedoneofthemwherehersisterswere。
\"Theyhavegoneout,tolookformoney,forthelandlordwon’tacceptanysurety,andwehavenothingtosell。\"
\"Allthisisverysad;whatdoesyourmothersay?\"
\"Sheonlyweeps,andyet,thoughsheisillandcannotleaveherbed,theyaregoingtotakehertoprison。Bywayofconsolationthelandlordsayshewillhavehercarried。\"
\"Itisveryhard。Butyourlookspleaseme,mademoiselle,andifyouwillbekindImaybeabletoextricateyoufromthedifficulty。\"
\"Idonotknowwhatyoumeanby’kind。’\"
\"Yourmotherwillunderstand;goandaskher。\"
\"Sir,youdonotknowus;wearehonestgirls,andladiesofpositionbesides。\"
Withthesewordstheyoungwomanturnedherbackonme,andbegantoweepagain。Thetwoothers,whowerequiteaspretty,stoodstraightupandsaidnotaword。GoudarwhisperedtomeinItalianthatunlesswedidsomethingforthemweshouldcutbutasorryfigurethere;andIwascruelenoughtogoawaywithoutsayingaword。
CHAPTERXV
TheHanoveriansAswewereleavingthehousewemetthetwoeldestsisters,whocamehomelookingverysad。Iwasstruckbytheirbeauty,andextremelysurprisedtohearmyselfgreetedbyoneofthem,whosaid,——
\"ItisM。theChevalierdeSeingalt。\"
\"Himself,mademoiselle,andsorelygrievedatyourmisfortune。\"
\"Bekindenoughtocomeinagainforamoment。\"
\"IamsorrytosaythatIhaveanimportantengagement。\"
\"Iwillnotkeepyouforlongerthanaquarterofanhour。\"
Icouldnotrefusesosmallafavour,andsheemployedthetimeintellingmehowunfortunatetheyhadbeeninHanover,howtheyhadcometoLondontoobtaincompensation,oftheirfailure,theirdebts,thecrueltyofthelandlord,theirmother’sillness,theprisonthatawaitedher,thelikelihoodoftheirbeingcastintothestreet,andthecrueltyofalltheiracquaintances。
\"Wehavenothingtosell,andallourresourcesconsistoftwoshillings,whichweshallhavetospendonbread,onwhichwelive。\"
\"Whoareyourfriends?Howcantheyabandonyouatsuchatime?\"
Shementionedseveralnames——amongothers,LordBaltimore,MarquisCarracioli,theNeapolitanambassador,andLordPembroke。
\"Ican’tbelieveit,\"saidI,\"forIknowthetwolastnoblementobebothrichandgenerous。Theremustbesomegoodreasonfortheirconduct,sinceyouarebeautiful;andforthesegentlemenbeautyisabilltobehonouredonsight。\"
\"Yes,thereisareason。Theserichnoblemenabandonuswithcontempt。Theyrefusetotakepityonusbecausewerefusetoyieldtotheirguiltypassion。\"
\"Thatistosay,theyhavetakenafancytoyou,andasyouwillnothavepityonthemtheyrefusetohavepityonyou。Isitnotso?\"
\"Thatisexactlythesituation。\"
\"ThenIthinktheyareintheright。\"
\"Intheright?\"
\"Yes,Iamquiteoftheiropinion。Weleaveyoutoenjoyyoursenseofvirtue,andwespendourmoneyinprocuringthosefavourswhichyourefuseus。Yourmisfortunereallyisyourprettiness,ifyouwereuglyyouwouldgettwentyguineasfastenough。Iwouldgiveyouthemoneymyself,andtheactionwouldbeputdowntobenevolence;
whereas,asthecasestands,ifIweretogiveyouanythingitwouldbethoughtthatIwasactuatedbythehopeoffavourstocome,andI
shouldbelaughedat,anddeservedly,asadupe。\"
Ifeltthatthiswastheproperwaytospeaktothegirl,whoseeloquenceinpleadinghercausewassimplywonderful。
Shedidnotreplytomyoration,andIaskedherhowshecametoknowme。
\"IsawyouatRichmondwiththeCharpillon。\"
\"Shecostmetwothousandguineas,andIgotnothingformymoney;
butIhaveprofitedbythelesson,andinfutureIshallneverpayinadvance。\"
Justthenhermothercalledher,and,beggingmetowaitamoment,shewentintoherroom,andreturnedalmostdirectlywiththerequestthatIwouldcomeandspeaktotheinvalid。
Ifoundhersittingupinherbed;shelookedaboutforty—five,andstillpreservedtracesofherformerbeauty;hercountenanceboretheimprintofsadness,buthadnomarksofsicknesswhatsoever。Herbrilliantandexpressiveeyes,herintellectualface,andasuggestionofcraftabouther,allbademebeonmyguard,andasortoffalselikenesstotheCharpillon’smothermademestillmorecautious,andfortifiedmeinmyresolutiontogivenoheedtotheappealsofpity。
\"Madam,\"Ibegan,\"whatcanIdoforyou?\"
\"Sir,\"shereplied,\"Ihaveheardthewholeofyourconversationswithmydaughters,andyoumustconfessthatyouhavenottalkedtotheminaveryfatherlymanner。\"
\"Quiteso,buttheonlypartwhichIdesiretoplaywiththemisthatoflover,andafatherlystylewouldnothavebeensuitabletothepart。IfIhadthehappinessofbeingtheirfather,thecasewouldbealtered。WhatIhavesaidtoyourdaughtersiswhatIfeel,andwhatIthinkmostlikelytobringabouttheendIhaveinview。I
havenottheslightestpretencetovirtue,butIadorethefairsex,andnowyouandtheyknowtheroadtomypurse。Iftheywishtopreservetheirvirtue,whyletthem;nobodywilltroublethem,andthey,ontheirside,mustnotexpectanythingfrommen。Good—bye,madam;youmayreckononmyneveraddressingyourdaughtersagain。\"
\"Waitamoment,sir。MyhusbandwastheCountof————,andyouseethatmydaughtersareofrespectablebirth。\"
\"Haveyounotpityforoursituation?\"
\"Ipityyouextremely,andIwouldrelieveyouinaninstantifyourdaughterswereugly,butasitistheyarepretty,andthataltersthecase。\"
\"Whatanargument!\"
\"Itisaverystrongonewithme,andIthinkIamthebestjudgeofargumentswhichapplytomyself。Youwanttwentyguineas;well,youshallhavethemafteroneofyourfivecountesseshasspentajoyousnightwithme。\"
\"Whatlanguagetoawomanofmystation!Nobodyhaseverdaredtospeaktomeinsuchawaybefore。\"
\"Pardonme,butwhatuseisrankwithoutahalfpenny?Allowmetoretire。
\"To—daywehaveonlybreadtoeat。\"
\"Well,certainlythatisratherhardoncountesses。\"
\"Youarelaughingatthetitle,apparently。\"
\"Yes,Iam;butIdon’twanttooffendyou。Ifyoulike,Iwillstoptodinner,andpayforall,yourselfincluded。\"
\"Youareaneccentricindividual。Mygirlsaresad,forIamgoingtoprison。Youwillfindtheircompanywearisome。\"
\"Thatismyaffair。\"
\"Youhadmuchbettergivethemthemoneyyouwouldspendonthedinner。\"
\"No,madam。Imusthaveatleastthepleasuresofsightandsoundformymoney。Iwillstayyourarresttillto—morrow,andafterwardsProvidencemaypossiblyinterveneonyourbehalf。\"
\"Thelandlordwillnotwait。\"
\"Leavemetodealwithhim。\"
ItoldGoudartogoandseewhatthemanwouldtaketosendthebailiffawayfortwenty—fourhours。Hereturnedwiththemessagethathemusthaveaguineaandbailforthetwentyguineas,incasethelodgersmighttaketoflightbeforethenextday。
Mywinemerchantlivedcloseby。ItoldGondartowaitforme,andthematterwassoonsettledandthebailiffsentaway,andItoldthefivegirlsthattheymighttaketheireasefortwenty—fourhoursmore。
IinformedGondarofthestepsIhadtaken,andtoldhimtogooutandgetagooddinnerforeightpeople。Hewentonhiserrand,andI
summonedthegirlstotheirmother’sbedside,anddelightedthemallbytellingthemthatforthenexttwenty—fourhourstheyweretomakegoodcheer。TheycouldnotgetovertheirsurpriseatthesuddennessofthechangeIhadworkedinthehouse。
\"ButthisisallIcandoforyou,\"saidItothemother。\"Yourdaughtersarecharming,andIhaveobtainedaday’srespiteforyouallwithoutaskingforanythinginreturn;Ishalldine,sup,andpassthenightwiththemwithoutaskingsomuchasasinglekiss,butifyourideashavenotchangedbyto—morrowyouwillbeinexactlythesamepositionasyouwereafewminutesago,andIshallnottroubleyouanymorewithmyattentions。\"
\"Whatdoyoumeanmy’changingmyideas’?\"
\"Ineednottellyou,foryouknowperfectlywellwhatImean。\"
\"Mydaughtersshallneverbecomeprostitutes。\"
\"IwillproclaimtheirspotlesschastityalloverLondon——butIshallspendmyguineaselsewhere。\"
\"Youareacruelman。\"
\"IconfessIcanbeverycruel,butitisonlywhenIdon’tmeetwithkindness。\"
Goudarcamebackandwereturnedtotheladies’room,asthemotherdidnotliketoshewherselftomyfriend,tellingmethatIwastheonlymanshehadpermittedtoseeherinbedduringthewholetimeshehadbeeninLondon。
OurEnglishdinnerwasexcellentinitsway,butmychiefpleasurewastoseethevoracitywithwhichthegirlsdevouredthemeal。Onewouldhavethoughttheyweresavagesdevouringrawmeatafteralongfast。IhadgotacaseofexcellentwineandImadeeachofthemdrinkabottle,butnotbeingaccustomedtosuchanindulgencetheybecamequitedrunk。ThemotherhaddevouredthewholeoftheplentifulhelpingsIhadsentintoher,andshehademptiedabottleofBurgundy,whichshecarriedverywell。
Inspiteoftheirintoxication,thegirlswereperfectlysafe;Ikeptmyword,andGoudardidnottaketheslightestliberty。Wehadapleasantsupper,andafterabowlofpunchIleftthemfeelinginlovewiththewholebevy,andveryuncertainwhetherIshouldbeabletoshewasbraveafrontthenextday。
AsweweregoingawayGoudarsaidthatIwasconductingtheaffairadmirably,butifImadeasingleslipIshouldbeundone。
Isawthegoodsenseofhisadvice,anddeterminedtoshewthatIwasassharpashe。
Thenextday,feelinganxioustoheartheresultofthecouncilwhichthemotherhaddoubtlessheldwiththedaughters,Icalledattheirhouseatteno’clock。Thetwoeldestsisterswereout,endeavouringtobeatupsomemorefriends,andthethreeyoungestrusheduptomeasiftheyhadbeenspanielsandItheirmaster,buttheywouldnotevenallowmetokissthem。Itoldthemtheymadeamistake,andknockedatthemother’sdoor。Shetoldmetocomein,andthankedmeforthehappydayIhadgiventhem。
\"AmItowithdrawmybail,countess?\"
\"Youcandowhatyoulike,butIdonotthinkyoucapableofsuchanaction。\"
\"Youaremistaken。Youhavedoubtlessmadeadeepstudyofthehumanheart;butyoueitherknowlittleofthehumanmind,orelseyouthinkyouhavealargersharethananyotherperson。Allyourdaughtershaveinspiredmewithlove,butwereitamatteroflifeanddeathIwouldnotdoasinglethingforthemoryoubeforeyouhavedonemetheonlyfavourthatisinyourpower。Ileaveyoutoyourreflections,andmoreespeciallytoyourvirtues。\"
Shebeggedmetostay,butIdidnotevenlistentoher。Ipassedbythethreecharmers,andaftertellingmywinemerchanttowithdrawhissecurityIwentinafuriousmoodtocallonLordPembroke。AssoonasImentionedtheHanoveriansheburstoutlaughing,andsaidthesefalseinnocentsmustbemadetofulfiltheiroccupationinapropermanner。
\"Theycamewhiningtomeyesterday,\"heproceeded,\"andInotonlywouldnotgivethemanything,butIlaughedthemtoscorn。Theyhavegotabouttwelveguineasoutofmeonfalsepretences;theyareascunningslutsastheCharpillon。\"
ItoldhimwhatIhaddonethedaybefore,andwhatIintendedtooffer:twentyguineasforthefirst,andasmuchforeachoftheothers,butnothingtobepaidinadvance。
\"Ihadthesameideamyself,butIcriedoff,andIdon’tthinkyou’llsucceed,asLordBaltimoreofferedthemfortyapiece;thatistwohundredguineasinall,andthebargainhasfallenthroughbecausetheywantthemoneytobepaidinadvance。Theypaidhimavisityesterday,butfoundhimpitiless,forhehasbeentakeninseveraltimesbythem。\"
\"Weshallseewhatwillhappenwhenthemotherisunderlockandkey;
I’llbetweshallhavethemcheaply。\"
Icamehomefordinner,andGoudar,whohadjustbeenattheirhouse,reportedthatthebailiffwouldonlywaittillfouro’clock,thatthetwoeldestdaughtershadcomebackempty—handed,andthattheyhadbeenobligedtoselloneoftheirdressestobuyamorselofbread。
Ifeltcertainthattheywouldhaverecoursetomeagain,andIwasright。Wewereatdessertwhentheyputinanappearance。Imadethemsitdown,andtheeldestsisterexhaustedhereloquencetopersuademetogivethemanotherthreedays’grace。
\"Youwillfindmeinsensible,\"saidI,\"unlessyouarewillingtoadoptmyplan。Ifyouwishtohearit,kindlyfollowmeintothenextroom。\"
Shedidso,leavinghersisterwithGoudar,andmakinghersitdownonasofabesideme,Ishewedhertwentyguineas,saying,——
\"Theseareyours;butyouknowonwhatterms?\"
Sherejectedmyofferwithdisdain,andthinkingshemightwishtosalvehervirtuebybeingattacked,Isettowork;butfindingherresistanceseriousIletheralone,andbeggedhertoleavemyhouseimmediately。Shecalledtohersister,andtheybothwentout。
Intheevening,asIwasgoingtotheplay,Icalledonmywinemerchanttohearthenews。Hetoldmethatthemotherhadbeentakentoprison,andthattheyoungestdaughterhadgonewithher;buthedidnotknowwhathadbecomeofthefourothers。
Iwenthomefeelingquitesad,andalmostreproachingmyselffornothavingtakencompassiononthen;however,justasIwassittingdowntosuppertheyappearedbeforemelikefourMagdalens。Theeldest,whowastheoratorofthecompany,toldmethattheirmotherwasinprison,andthattheywouldhavetopassthenightinthestreetifI
didnottakepityonthem。
\"Youshallhaverooms,beds,andgoodfires,\"saidI,\"butfirstletmeseeyoueat。\"
Delightappearedoneverycountenance,andIhadnumerousdishesbroughtforthem。Theyateeagerlybutsadly,andonlydrankwater。
\"Yourmelancholyandyourabstinencedispleasesme,\"saidI,totheeldestgirl;\"goupstairsandyouwillfindeverythingnecessaryforyourcomfort,buttakecaretobegoneatseveninthemorningandnottoletmeseeyourfacesagain。\"
Theywentuptothesecondfloorwithoutaword。
Anhourafterwards,justasIwasgoingtobed,theeldestgirlcameintomyroomandsaidshewishedtohaveaprivateinterviewwithme。
Itoldmynegrotowithdraw,andaskedhertoexplainherself。
\"Whatwillyoudoforus,\"saidshe,\"ifIconsenttoshareyourcouch?\"
\"Iwillgiveyoutwentyguineas,andIwilllodgeandboardyouaslongasyougivemesatisfaction。\"
Withoutsayingawordshebegantoundress,andgotintobed。Shewassubmissiveandnothingmore,anddidnotgivemesomuchasakiss。AttheendofaquarterofanhourIwasdisgustedwithherandgotup,andgivingherabanknotefortwentyguineasItoldhertoputonherclothesandgobacktoherroom。
\"Youmustallleavemyhouseto—morrow,\"Isaid,\"forIamillpleasedwithyou。Insteadofgivingyourselfupforloveyouhaveprostitutedyourself。Iblushforyou。\"
Sheobeyedmutely,andIwenttosleepinanillhumour。
Ataboutseveno’clockinthemorningIwasawakenedbyahandshakingmegently。Iopenedmyeyes,andIwassurprisedtoseetheseconddaughter。
\"Whatdoyouwant?\"Isaid,coldly。
\"Iwantyoutotakepityonus,andshelterusinyourhouseforafewdayslonger。Iwillbeverygrateful。Mysisterhastoldmeall,youaredispleasedwithher,butyoumustforgiveher,forherheartisnotherown。SheisinlovewithanItalianwhoisinprisonfordebt。\"
\"AndIsupposeyouareinlovewithsomeoneelse?\"\"No,Iamnot。\"
\"Couldyouloveme?\"
Sheloweredhereyes,andpressedmyhandgently。Idrewhertowardsme,andembracedher,andasIfeltherkissesanswermine,Isaid,——
\"Youhaveconquered。\"
\"MynameisVictoire。\"
\"Ilikeit,andIwillprovetheomenatrueone。\"
Victoire,whowastenderandpassionate,mademespendtwodelicioushours,whichcompensatedmeformybadquarterofanhourofthenightbefore。
Whenourexploitswereover,Isaid,——
\"DearestVictoire,Iamwhollythroe。Letyourmotherbebroughthereassoonassheisfree。Herearetwentyguineasforyou。\"
Shedidnotexpectanything,andtheagreeablesurprisemadeherinanecstasy;shecouldnotspeak,butherheartwasfullofhappiness。
Itoowashappy,andIbelievedthatagreatpartofmyhappinesswascausedbytheknowledgethatIhaddoneagooddeed。Wearequeercreaturesallofus,whetherwearebadorgood。FromthatmomentI
gavemyservantsorderstolaythetableforeightpersonseveryday,andtoldthemthatIwasonlyathometoGoudar。Ispentmoneymadly,andfeltthatIwaswithinameasurabledistanceofpoverty。
Atnoonthemothercameinasedan—chair,andwenttobeddirectly。
Iwenttoseeher,anddidnotevinceanysurprisewhenshebegantothankmeformynoblegenerosity。ShewantedmetosupposethatshethoughtIhadgivenherdaughtersfortyguineasfornothing,andI
letherenjoyherhypocrisy。
IntheeveningItookthemtoCoventGarden,wherethecastratoTenduccisurprisedmebyintroducingmetohiswife,ofwhomhehadtwochildren。Helaughedatpeoplewhosaidthatacastratocouldnotprocreate。Naturehadmadehimamonsterthathemightremainaman;hewasborntriorchis,andasonlytwooftheseminalglandshadbeendestroyedtheremainingonewassufficienttoendowhimwithvirility。
WhenIgotbacktomysmallseraglioIsuppedmerrilywiththefivenymphs,andspentadeliciousnightwithVictoire,whowasoverjoyedathavingmademyconquest。Shetoldmethathersister’sloverwasaNeapolitan,callinghimselfMarquisdePetina,andthattheyweretogetmarriedassoonashewasoutofprison。Itseemedhewasexpectingremittances,andthemotherwouldbedelightedtoseeherdaughteramarchioness。
\"Howmuchdoesthemarquisowe?\"
\"Twentyguineas。\"
\"AndtheNeapolitanambassadorallowshimtolanguishinprisonforsuchabeggarlysum?Ican’tbelieveit。\"
\"Theambassadorwon’thaveanythingtodowithhim,becauseheleftNapleswithouttheleaveoftheGovernment。\"
\"Tellyoursisterthatiftheambassadorassuresmethatherlover’snameisreallytheMarquisdePetina,Iwillgethimoutofprisonimmediately。\"
Iwentouttoaskmydaughter,andanotherboarderofwhomIwasveryfond,todinner,andonmywaycalledontheMarquisofCaraccioli,anagreeableman,whoseacquaintanceIhadmadeatTurin。IfoundthefamousChevalierd’Eonathishouse,andIhadnoneedofaprivateinterviewtomakemyinquiriesaboutPetina。
\"Theyoungmanisreallywhatheprofessestome,\"saidtheambassador,\"butIwillneitherreceivehimnorgivehimanymoneytillIhearfrommyGovernmentthathehasreceivedleavetotravel。\"
Thatwasenoughforme,andIstayedthereforanhourlisteningtod’Eon’samusingstory。
EonhaddesertedtheembassyonaccountoftenthousandfrancswhichthedepartmentofforeignaffairsatVersailleshadrefusedtoallowhim,thoughthemoneywashisbyright。HehadplacedhimselfundertheprotectionoftheEnglishlaws,andaftersecuringtwothousandsubscribersataguineaapiece,hehadsenttopressahugevolumeinquartocontainingallthelettershehadreceivedfromtheFrenchGovernmentforthelastfiveorsixyears。
AboutthesametimeaLondonbankerhaddepositedthesumoftwentythousandguineasattheBankofEngland,beingreadytowagerthatsumthatEonwasawoman。Thebetwastakenbyanumberofpersonswhohadformedthemselvesintoakindofcompanyforthepurpose,andtheonlywaytodecideitwasthatEonshouldbeexaminedinthepresenceofwitnesses。Thechevalierwasofferedhalfthewager,buthelaughedthemtoscorn。Hesaidthatsuchanexaminationwoulddishonourhim,werehemanorwoman。Caracciolisaidthatitcouldonlydishonourhimifhewereawoman,butIcouldnotagreewiththisopinion。Attheendofayearthebetwasdeclaredoff;butinthecourseofthreeyearshereceivedhispardonfromtheking,andappearedatCourtinwoman’sdress,wearingthecrossofSt。Louis。
LouisXV。hadalwaysbeenawareofthechevalier’ssex,butCardinalFleurihadtaughthimthatitbecamekingstobeimpenetrable,andLouisremainedsoallhislife。
WhenIgothomeIgavetheeldestHanoveriantwentyguineas,tellinghertofetchhermarquisoutofprison,andbringhimtodinewithus,asIwantedtoknowhim。Ithoughtshewouldhavediedwithjoy。
Thethirdsister,havingtakencounselwithVictoire,anddoubtlesswithhermotheralso,determinedtoearntwentyguineasforherself,andshehadnotmuchtroubleindoingso。SheitwasonwhomLordPembrokehadcasttheeyeofdesire。
Thesefivegirlswerelikefivedishesplacedbeforeagourmand,whoenjoysthemoneaftertheother。Tomyfancythelastwasalwaysthebest。Thethirdsister’snamewasAugusta。
NextSundayIhadalargenumberofguests。Thereweremydaughterandherfriend,MadameCornelis,andherson。SophiewaskissedandcaressedbytheHanoverians,whileIbestowedahundredkissesonMissNancySteyne,whowasonlythirteen,butwhoseyoungbeautyworkedsadhavocwithmysenses。Myaffectionwassupposedtobefatherlyinitscharacter,but,alasIitwasofamuchmorefleshlykind。ThisMissNancy,whoseemedtomealmostdivine,wasthedaughterofarichmerchant。IsaidthatIwantedtomakeherfather’sacquaintance,andsherepliedthatherfatherproposedcomingtocallonmethatveryday。Iwasdelightedtohearofthecoincidence,andgaveorderthatheshouldbeshewninassoonashecame。
Thepoormarquiswastheonlysadfigureinthecompany。Hewasyoungandwell—made,butthinandrepulsivelyugly。Hethankedmeformykindness,sayingthatIhaddoneawisething,ashefeltsurethetimewouldcomewhenhewouldrepaymeahundredfold。
Ihadgivenmydaughtersixguineastobuyapelisse,andshetookmetomybedroomtoshewitme。Hermotherfollowedhertocongratulatemeonmyseraglio。
Atdinnergaietyreignedsupreme。IsatbetweenmydaughterandMissNancySteyne,andfelthappy。Mr。Steynecameinaswewereattheoysters。Hekissedhisdaughterwiththattenderaffectionwhichismorecharacteristic,Ithink,ofEnglishparentsthanthoseofanyothernation。
Mr。Steynehaddined,butheneverthelessateahundredscollopedoysters,inthepreparationofwhichmycookwaswonderfullyexpert;
healsohonouredthechampagnewithequalattention。
Wespentthreehoursatthetableandthenproceededtothethirdfloor,whereSophieaccompaniedhermother’ssingingonthepiano,andyoungCornelisdisplayedhisflute—playingtalents。Mr。Steynesworethathehadneverbeenpresentatsuchapleasantpartyinhislife,addingthatpleasurewasforbiddenfruitinEnglandonSundaysandholidays。ThisconvincedmethatSteynewasanintelligentman,thoughhisFrenchwasexecrable。Heleftatseven,aftergivingabeautifulringtomydaughter,whomheescortedbacktoschoolwithMissNancy。
TheMarquisPetinafoolishlyobservedtomethathedidnotknowwheretofindabed。Iunderstoodwhathewanted,butItoldhimhewouldeasilyfindonewithalittlemoney。TakinghissweetheartasideIgaveheraguineaforhim,begginghertotellhimnottovisitmeagaintillhewasinvited。
Whenalltheguestsweregone,Iledthefivesisterstothemother’sroom。Shewaswonderfullywell,eating,drinking,andsleepingtoadmiration,andneverdoinganything,notevenreadingorwriting。
Sheenjoyedthe’dolcefarniente’inalltheforceoftheterm。
However,shetoldmeshewasalwaysthinkingofherfamily,andofthelawswhichitimposedonher。
Icouldscarcelyhelplaughing,butIonlysaidthatiftheselawswerethesameasthosewhichhercharmingdaughtersfollowed,I
thoughtthemwiserthanSolon’s。
IdrewAugustaontomyknee,andsaid,——
\"Mylady,allowmetokissyourdelightfuldaughter。\"
Insteadofgivingmeadirectanswer,theoldhypocritebeganalongsermononthelawfulnessoftheparentalkiss。AllthetimeAugustawaslavishingonmesecretbutdeliciousendearments。
’Otempora!Omores!’
ThenextdayIwasstandingatmywindow,whentheMarquisCaraccioli,whowaspassingby,greetedme,andaskedmeifhecouldcomein。Ibadehimwelcome,andsummoningtheeldestsistertoldtheambassadorthatthisyoungladywasgoingtomarrytheMarquisPetinaassoonashisremittancesarrived。
Headdressedhimselftoher,andspokeasfollows:
\"Mademoiselle,itistruethatyourloverisreallyamarquis,butheisverypoorandwillneverhaveanymoney;andifhegoesbacktoNapleshewillbeimprisoned,andifheisreleasedfromtheStateprisonhiscreditorswillputhimintheVittoria。\"
Howeverthissalutarywarninghadnoeffect。
AftertheambassadorhadtakenhisleaveIwasdressingtotakearidewhenAugustatoldmethat,ifIliked,Hippolytahersisterwouldcomewithme,asshecouldridebeautifully。
\"That’samusing,\"saidI,\"makehercomedown。\"
Hippolytacamedownandbeggedmetoletherridewithme,sayingthatshewoulddomecredit。
\"Certainly;\"saidI,\"buthaveyouaman’sridingsuitorawoman’scostume?\"
\"No。\"
\"Thenwemustputofftheexcursiontillto—morrow。\"
Ispentthedayinseeingthatasuitwasmadeforher,andIfeltquiteamorouswhenPegu,thetailor,measuredherforthebreeches。
Everythingwasdoneintimeandwehadacharmingride,forshemanagedherhorsewithwonderfulskill。
Afteranexcellentsupper,towhichwinehadnotbeenlacking,thehappyHippolytaaccompaniedVictoireintomyroomandhelpedhertoundress。WhenshekissedhersisterIaskedifshewouldnotgivemeakisstoo,andaftersomejestingAugustachangedthejokeintoearnestbybiddinghercometobedbesideme,withouttakingthetroubletoaskmyleave,sosuredidshefeelofmyconsent。Thenightwaswellspent,andIhadnoreasontocomplainofwantofmaterial,butAugustawiselyletthenewcomerhavethelion’sshareofmyattentions。
Nextdaywerodeoutagainintheafternoon,followedbymynegro,whowasaskilfulhorsemanhimself。InRichmondParkHippolyta’sdexterityastonishedme;shedrewalleyesonher。Intheeveningwecamehomewellpleasedwithourday’sride,andhadagoodsupper。
AsthemealproceededInoticedthatGabrielle,theyoungestofall,lookedsadandalittlesulky。Iaskedherthereason,andwithalittlepoutthatbecameherchildishfaceadmirably,shereplied,——
\"BecauseIcanrideonhorsebackaswellasmysister。\"
\"Verygood,\"saidI,\"thenyoushallridethedayafterto—morrow。\"
Thisputherintoagoodtemperagain。
SpeakingofHippolyta’sskill,Iaskedherwhereshehadlearnttoride。Shesimplyburstoutlaughing。Iaskedherwhyshelaughed,andshesaid,——
\"Why,becauseIneverlearntanywhere;myonlymasterswerecourageandsomenaturalskill。\"
\"Andhasyoursisterlearnt?\"
\"No,\"saidGabrielle,\"butIcanridejustaswell。\"
Icouldscarcelybelieveit,forHippolytahadseemedtofloatonherhorse,andherridingskewedtheutmostskillandexperience。Hopingthathersisterwouldviewithher,IsaidthatIwouldtakethemouttogether,andtheveryideamadethembothjumpwithjoy。
Gabriellewasonlyfifteen,andhershape,thoughnotfullydeveloped,waswellmarked,andpromisedaperfectbeautybythetimeshewasinhermaturity。Fullofgraceandsimplicity,shesaidshewouldliketocomewithmetomyroom,andIreadilyacceptedheroffer,notcaringwhethertheschemehadbeenconcertedbetweenherandherothersisters。
Assoonaswewerealone,shetoldmethatshehadneverhadalover,andsheallowedmetoassuremyselfofthefactwiththesamechild—
likesimplicity。Gabriellewaslikealltheothers;IwouldhavechosenherifIhadbeenobligedtomakethechoice。Shemademefeelsorryforhersake,tohearthatthemotherhadmadeuphermindtoleave。InthemorningIgaveherherfeeoftwentyguineasandahandsomeringasamarkofmypeculiarfriendship,andwespentthedayingettingreadyourhabitsfortherideofthedayfollowing。
Gabriellegotonhorsebackasifshehadhadtwoyearsintheridingschool。Wewentalongthestreetsatawalkingpace,butassoonaswewereintheopencountrywebrokeintoafuriousgallop,andkeptituptillwegottoBarnet,wherewestoppedtobreakfast。Wehaddonethejourneyintwenty—fiveminutes,althoughthedistanceisnearlytenmiles。Thismayseemincredible,buttheEnglishhorsesarewonderfullyswift,andwewereallofuswellmounted。Mytwonymphslookedravishing。Iadoredthem,andIadoredmyselfformakingthemsohappy。
Justaswewereremounting,whoshouldarrivebutLordPembroke。HewasonhiswaytoSt。Alban’s。Hestoppedhishorse,andadmiredthegracefulridingofmytwocompanions;andnotrecognizingthemimmediately,hebeggedleavetopayhiscourttothem。HowIlaughedtomyself!Atlastherecognizedthem,andcongratulatedmeonmyconquest,askingifIlovedHippolyta。Iguessedhismeaning,andsaidIonlylovedGabrielle。
\"Verygood,\"saidhe;\"mayIcomeandseeyou?\"
\"Certainly,\"Ireplied。
Afterafriendlyhand—shakewesetoutoncemore,andweresoonbackinLondon。
Gabriellewasdoneupandwenttobeddirectly;shesleptontillthenextmorningwithoutmydisturbingherpeacefulsleep,andwhensheawokeandfoundherselfinmyarms,shebegantophilosophise。
\"Howeasyitis,\"saidshe,\"tobehappywhenoneisrich,andhowsaditistoseehappinessoutofone’sreachforlackofalittlemoney。YesterdayIwasthehappiestofbeings,andwhyshouldInotbeashappyallmydays?Iwouldgladlyagreethatmylifeshouldbeshortprovidedthatitshouldbeahappyone。\"
I,too,philosophised,butmyreflectionsweresombre。Isawmyresourcesallbutexhausted,andIbegantomeditateajourneytoLisbon。Ifmyfortunehadbeeninexhaustible,theHanoveriansmighthaveheldmeintheirsilkenfetterstotheendofmydays。ItseemedtomeasifIlovedthemmorelikeafatherthanalover,andthefactthatIsleptwiththemonlyaddedtothetendernessofthetie。IlookedintoGabrielle’seyes,andthereIsawbutlove。Howcouldsuchaloveexistinherunlessshewerenaturallyvirtuous,andyetdevoidofthoseprejudiceswhichareinstilledintousinourearlyyears。
ThenextdayPembrokecalledandaskedmetogivehimadinner。
Augustadelightedhim。Hemadeproposalstoherwhichexcitedherlaughterashedidnotwanttopaytillaftertheevent,andshewouldnotadmitthiscondition。However,hegaveherabanknotefortenguineasbeforeheleft,andsheaccepteditwithmuchgrace。Thedayafterhewroteheraletter,ofwhichIshallspeakpresently。
Afewminutesafterthenoblemanhadgonethemothersentformetocometoher,andafterpayinganeloquenttributetomyvirtues,mygenerosity,andmyunceasingkindnesstowardsherfamily,shemadethefollowingproposal:
\"AsIfeelsurethatyouhavealltheloveofafatherformydaughters,Iwishyoutobecometheirfatherinreality!Iofferyoumyhandandheart;becomemyhusband,youwillbetheirfather,theirlordandmine。Whatdoyousaytothis?\"
Ibitmylipshardandhadgreatdifficultyinrestrainingmyinclinationtolaughter。Nevertheless,theamazement,thecontempt,andtheindignationwhichthisunparalleledpieceofimpudencearousedinmesoonbroughtmetomyself。Iperceivedthatthisconsummatehypocritehadcountedonanabruptrefusal,andhadonlymadethisridiculousofferwiththeideaofconvincingmethatshewasundertheimpressionthatIhadleftherdaughtersasIhadfoundthem,andthatthemoneyIhadspentonthemwasmerelyasignofmytenderandfatherlyaffection。Ofcoursesheknewperfectlywellhowthelandlay,butshethoughttojustifyherselfbytakingthisstep。
ShewasawarethatIcouldonlylookuponsuchaproposalasaninsult,butshedidnotcareforthat。
Iresolvedtokeeponthemask,andrepliedthatherpropositionwasundoubtedlyaverygreathonourforme,butitwasalsoaveryimportantquestion,andsoIbeggedhertoallowmesometimeforconsideration。
WhenIgotbacktomyroomIfoundtherethemistressofthewretchedMarquisPetina,whotoldmethatherhappinessdependedonacertificatefromtheNeapolitanambassadorthatherloverwasreallythepersonheprofessedtobe。Withthisdocumenthewouldbeabletoclaimasumoftwohundredguineas,andthentheycouldbothgotoNaples,andhewouldmarryherthere。\"Hewilleasilyobtaintheroyalpardon,\"saidshe。\"You,andyoualone,canhelpusinthematter,andIcommendmyselftoyourkindness。\"
IpromisedtodoallIcouldforher。Infact,Icalledontheambassador,whomadenodifficultyaboutgivingtherequiredcertificate。Forthemomentmychillyconquestwasperfectlyhappy,butthoughIsawshewasverygratefultomeIdidnotaskhertoprovehergratitude。
CHAPTERXVI
AugustaBecomesLordPembroke’sTitularMistressTheKingofCorsica’sSon——M。duClaude,ortheJesuitLavalette——DepartureoftheHanoveriansIBalanceMyAccounts——TheBaronStenau——TheEnglishGirl,andWhatSheGaveMe——Daturi——MyFlightfromLondon——ComteSt。
Germain——WeselLordPembrokewrotetoAugustaofferingherfiftyguineasamonthforthreeyears,withlodging,,board,servants,andcarriageatSt。
Albans,withoutreckoningwhatshemightexpectfromhisgratefulaffectionifitwerereturned。
Augustatranslatedtheletterforme,andaskedformyadvice。
\"Ican’tgiveyouanycounsel,\"saidI,\"inamatterwhichonlyconcernsyourownheartandyourowninterests。\"
Shewentuptohermother,whowouldcometonoconclusionwithoutfirstconsultingme,because,asshesaid,Iwasthewisestandmostvirtuousofmen。Iamafraidthereaderwilldifferfromherhere,butIcomfortmyselfbythethoughtthatI,too,thinklikethereader。AtlastitwasagreedthatAugustashouldaccepttheofferifLordPembrokewouldfindasuretyinthepersonofsomereputableLondonmerchant,forwithherbeautyandnumerousgracesshewassureto,becomeLadyPembrokebeforelong。Indeed,themothersaidshewasperfectlycertainofit,asotherwiseshecouldnothavegivenherconsent,asherdaughterswerecountesses,andtoogoodtobeanyman’smistresses。
TheconsequencewasthatAugustawrotemylordaletter,andinthreedaysitwasallsettled。Themerchantdulysignedthecontract,atthefootofwhichIhadthehonourofinscribingmynameasawitness,andthenItookthemerchanttothemother,andhewitnessedhercessionofherdaughter。ShewouldnotseePembroke,butshekissedherdaughter,andheldaprivatecolloquywithher。
ThedayonwhichAugustaleftmyhousewassignalizedbyaneventwhichImustsetdown。
ThedayafterIhadgiventheMarquisPetina’sfuturebridetherequiredcertificate,IhadtakenoutGabrielleandHippolytaforaride。WhenIgothomeIfoundwaitingformeapersoncallinghimselfSirFrederick,whowassaidtobethesonofTheodore,KingofCorsica,whohaddiedinLondon。Thisgentlemansaidhewishedtospeaktomeinprivate,andwhenwewerealonehesaidhewasawareofmyacquaintancewiththeMarquisPetina,andbeingontheeveofdiscountingabilloftwohundredguineasforhimhewishedtobeinformedwhetheritwaslikelythathecouldmeetthebillwhenitfelldue。
\"ItisimportantthatIshouldbeinformedonthatpoint,\"headded,\"forthepersonswhoaregoingtodiscountthebillwantmetoputmysignaturetoit。\"
\"Sir,\"Ireplied,\"Icertainlyamacquaintedwiththemarquis,butI
knownothingabouthisfortune。However,theNeapolitanambassadorassuredmethathewastheMarquisPetina。\"
\"Ifthepersonswhohavethematterinhandshoulddropit,wouldyoudiscountthebill?Youshallhaveitcheap。\"
\"Inevermeddlewiththesespeculations。Goodday,SirFrederick。\"
ThenextdayGoudarcameandsaidthataM。duClaudewantedtospeaktome。
\"WhoisM。duClaude?\"
\"ThefamousJesuitLavalette,whowasconcernedinthegreatbankruptcycasewhichruinedtheSocietyinFrance。HefledtoEnglandunderafalsename。Iadviseyoutolistentohim,forhemusthaveplentyofmoney。\"
\"AJesuitandabankrupt;thatdoesnotsoundverywell。\"
\"Well,Ihavemethimingoodhouses,andknowingthatIwasacquaintedwithyouheaddressedhimselftome。Afterall,yourunnoriskinlisteningtowhathehastosay。\"
\"Well,well,youcantakemetohim;itwillbeeasiertoavoidanyentanglementthanifhecametoseeme。\"
GoudarwenttoLavalettetopreparetheway,andintheafternoonhetookmetoseehim。Iwaswellenoughpleasedtoseetheman,whoserascalityhaddestroyedtheinfamousworkofmanyyears。Hewelcomedmewithgreatpoliteness,andassoonaswewerealoneheshewedmeabillofPetina’s,saying,——
\"Theyoungmanwantsmetodiscountit,andsaysyoucangivemethenecessaryinformation。\"
IgavethereverendfatherthesameanswerasIhadgiventheKingofCorsica’sson,andlefthimangrywiththisMarquisofMiserywhohadgivenmesomuchneedlesstrouble。Iwasmindedtohavedonewithhim,andresolvedtolethimknowthroughhismistressthatIwouldnotbehisreference,butIcouldnotfindanopportunitythatday。
ThenextdayItookmytwonymphsforaride,andaskedPembroketodinner。InvainwewaitedforPetina’smistress;shewasnowheretobefound。Atnineo’clockIgotaletterfromher,withaGermanletterenclosedforhermother。Shesaidthatfeelingcertainthathermotherwouldnotgiveherconsenttohermarriage,shehadelopedwithherlover,whohadgottogetherenoughmoneytogotoNaples,andwhentheyreachedthattownhewouldmarryher。Shebeggedmetoconsolehermotherandmakeherlistentoreason,asshehadnotgoneoffwithanadventurerbutwithamanofrank,herequal。Mylipscurledintoasmileofpityandcontempt,whichmadethethreesisterscurious。IshewedthemtheletterIhadjustreceived,andaskedthemtocomewithmetotheirmother。
\"Notto—night,\"saidVictoire,\"thisterriblenewswouldkeepherawake。\"
Itookheradviceandwesuppedtogether,sadlyenough。
Ithoughtthepoorwretchwasruinedforlife,andIreproachedmyselfwithbeingthecauseofhermisfortune;forifIhadnotreleasedthemarquisfromprisonthiscouldneverhavehappened。TheMarquisCaracciolihadbeenrightinsayingthatIhaddoneagooddeed,butafoolishone。IconsoledmyselfinthearmsofmydearGabrielle。
Ihadapainfulscenewiththemotherthenextmorning。Shecursedherdaughterandherseducer,andevenblamedme。Sheweptandstormedalternately。
Itisneverofanyusetotryandconvincepeopleindistressthattheyarewrong,foronemayonlydoharm,whileiftheyarelefttothemselvestheysoonfeelthattheyhavebeenunjust,andaregratefultothepersonwholetthemexhausttheirgriefwithoutanycontradiction。
AfterthiseventIspentahappyfortnightinthesocietyofGabrielle,whomHippolytaandVictoirelookedonasmywife。ShemademyhappinessandImadehersinallsortsofways,butespeciallybymyfidelity;forItreatedhersistersasiftheyhadbeenmysisters,shewingnorecollectionofthefavoursIhadobtainedfromthem,andnevertakingtheslightestliberty,forI
knewthatfriendshipbetweenwomenwillhardlybrookamorousrivalry。
Ihadboughtthemdressesandlineninabundance,theywerewelllodgedandwellfed,Itookthemtothetheatreandtothecountry,andtheconsequencewastheyalladoredme,andseemedtothinkthatthismanneroflivingwouldgoonforever。Nevertheless,Iwaseverydaynearerandnearertomoralandphysicalbankruptcy。Ihadnomoremoney,andIhadsoldallmydiamondsandpreciousstones。I
stillpossessedmysnuff—boxes,mywatches,andnumeroustrifles,whichIlovedandhadnotthehearttosell;and,indeed,IshouldnothavegotthefifthpartofwhatIgaveforthem。ForawholemonthIhadnotpaidmycook,ormywinemerchant,butIlikedtofeelthattheytrustedme。AllIthoughtofwasGabrielle’slove,andofthisIassuredmyselfbyathousanddelicaciesandattentions。
ThiswasmyconditionwhenonedayVictoirecametomewithsadnessonherface,andsaidthathermotherhadmadeuphermindtoreturntoHanover,asshehadlostallhopeofgettinganythingfromtheEnglishCourt。
\"Whendoessheintendtoleave?\"
\"Inthreeorfourdays。\"
\"Andisshegoingwithouttellingme,asifshewereleavinganinnafterpayingherbill?\"
\"Onthecontrary,shewishestohaveaprivatetalkwithyou。\"
Ipaidheravisit,andshebeganbyreproachingmetenderlyfornotcomingtoseehermoreoften。ShesaidthatasIhadrefusedherhandshewouldnotruntheriskofincurringcensureorslanderofanykind。\"Ithankyoufrommyheart,\"sheadded,\"forallthekindnessyouhaveshewnmygirls,andIamgoingtotakethethreeI
haveleftaway,lestIlosethemasIhavelostthetwoeldest。Ifyoulike,youmaycometooandstaywithusaslongasyoulikeinmyprettycountryhousenearthecapital。\"
OfcourseIhadtothankherandreplythatmyengagementsdidnotallowmetoacceptherkindoffer。
Threedaysafter,Victoiretoldme,asIwasgettingup,thattheyweregoingonboardshipatthreeo’clock。HippolytaandGabriellemademecomeforaride,accordingtoapromiseIhadgiventhemthenightbefore。Thepoorthingsamusedthemselves,whileIgrievedbitterly,aswasmyhabitwhenIhadtoseparatefromanyonethatI
loved。
WhenwecamehomeIlaydownonmybed,nottakinganydinner,andseeingnothingofthethreesisterstilltheyhadmadeeverythingreadyforthejourney。Igotupdirectlybeforetheyleft,soasnottoseethemotherinmyownroom,andIsawherinhersjustasshewasabouttobetakendownintomycarriage,whichwasinreadinessatthedoor。Theimpudentcreatureexpectedmetogivehersomemoneyforthejourney,butperceivingthatIwasnotlikelytobleed,sheobserved,withinvoluntarysincerity,thatherpursecontainedthesumofahundredandfiftyguineas,whichIhadgiventoherdaughters;andthesedaughtersofherswerepresent,andsobbedbitterly。
WhentheyweregoneIclosedmydoorstoeveryone,andspentthreedaysinthemelancholyoccupationofmakingupmyaccounts。InthemonthIhadspentwiththeHanoveriansIhaddissipatedthewholeofthesumresultingfromthesaleofthepreciousstones,andIfoundthatIwasindebttotheamountoffourhundredguineas。IresolvedtogotoLisbonbysea,andsoldmydiamondcross,sixorsevengoldsnuff—boxes(afterremovingtheportraits),allmywatchesexceptone,andtwogreattrunksfullofclothes。IthendischargedmydebtsandfoundIwaseightyguineastothegood,thisbeingwhatremainedofthefinefortuneIhadsquanderedawaylikeafooloraphilosopher,or,perhaps,alittlelikeboth。IleftmyfinehousewhereIhadlivedsopleasantly,andtookalittleroomataguineaaweek。Istillkeptmynegro,asIhadeveryreasontobelievehimtobeafaithfulservant。
AftertakingthesemeasuresIwrotetoM。deBragadin,begginghimtosendmetwohundredsequins。
ThushavingmadeupmymindtoleaveLondonwithoutowingapennytoanyone,andunderobligationstonoman’spurse,IwaitedforthebillofexchangefromVenice。WhenitcameIresolvedtobidfarewelltoallmyfriendsandtotrymyfortuneinLisbon,butsuchwasnotthefatewhichtheficklegoddesshadassignedtome。
AfortnightafterthedepartureoftheHanoverians(itwastheendofFebruaryintheyear1764),myevilgeniusmademegotothe\"CanonTavern,\"whereIusuallydinedinaroombymyself。ThetablewaslaidandIwasjustgoingtositdown,whenBaronStenaucameinandbeggedmetohavemydinnerbroughtintothenextroom,whereheandhismistressweredining。
\"Ithankyou,\"saidI,\"forthesolitarymangrowswearyofhiscompany。\"
IsawtheEnglishwomanIhadmetatSartori’s,thesametowhomthebaronhadbeensogenerous。ShespokeItalian,andwasattractiveinmanyways,soIwaswellpleasedtofindmyselfoppositetoher,andwehadapleasantdinner。
Afterafortnight’sabstinenceitwasnotsurprisingthatsheinspiredmewithdesires,butIconcealedthemnevertheless,forherloverseemedtorespecther。IonlyallowedmyselftotellthebaronthatIthoughthimthehappiestofmen。
Towardsthecloseofthedinnerthegirlnoticedthreediceonthemantelandtookthemup,saying,——
\"Letushaveawagerofaguinea,andspenditonoystersandchampagne。\"
Wecouldnotrefuse,andthebaronhavinglostcalledthewaiterandgavehimhisorders。
Whilewewereeatingtheoystersshesuggestedthatweshouldthrowagaintoseewhichshouldpayforthedinner。
Wedidsoandshelost。
Ididnotlikemyluck,andwishingtoloseacoupleofguineasI
offeredtothrowagainstthebaron。Heaccepted,andtomyannoyanceIwon。Heaskedforhisrevengeandlostagain。
\"Idon’twanttowinyourmoney,\"saidI,\"andIwillgiveyouyourrevengeuptoahundredguineas。\"
Heseemedgratefulandwewentonplaying,andinlessthanhalfanhourheowedmeahundredguineas。
\"Letusgoon,\"saidhe。