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  `Wehavealwaysallowedallwidowsofmenwhoworkedforthefirmaloadofcoalseverythreemonths。\'

  `Theymustpaycostpricehenceforward。Thefirmisnotacharityinstitution,aseverybodyseemstothink。\'

  Widows,thesestockfiguresofsentimentalhumanitarianism,hefeltadislikeatthethoughtofthem。Theywerealmostrepulsive。Whyweretheynotimmolatedonthepyreofthehusband,likethesatiinIndia?

  Atanyrate,letthempaythecostoftheircoals。

  Inathousandwayshecutdowntheexpenditure,inwayssofineastobehardlynoticeabletothemen。Theminersmustpayforthecartageoftheircoals,heavycartagetoo;theymustpayfortheirtools,forthesharpening,forthecareoflamps,forthemanytriflingthingsthatmadethebillofchargesagainsteverymanmountuptoashillingorsointheweek。Itwasnotgraspedverydefinitelybytheminers,thoughtheyweresoreenough。Butitsavedhundredsofpoundseveryweekforthefirm。

  GraduallyGeraldgotholdofeverything。Andthenbeganthegreatreform。

  Expertengineerswereintroducedineverydepartment。Anenormouselectricplantwasinstalled,bothforlightingandforhaulageunderground,andforpower。Theelectricitywascarriedintoeverymine。NewmachinerywasbroughtfromAmerica,suchastheminershadneverseenbefore,greatironmen,asthecuttingmachineswerecalled,andunusualappliances。Theworkingofthepitswasthoroughlychanged,allthecontrolwastakenoutofthehandsoftheminers,thebuttysystemwasabolished。Everythingwasrunonthemostaccurateanddelicatescientificmethod,educatedandexpertmenwereincontroleverywhere,theminerswerereducedtomeremechanicalinstruments。Theyhadtoworkhard,muchharderthanbefore,theworkwasterribleandheart—breakinginitsmechanicalness。

  Buttheysubmittedtoitall。Thejoywentoutoftheirlives,thehopeseemedtoperishastheybecamemoreandmoremechanised。Andyettheyacceptedthenewconditions。Theyevengotafurthersatisfactionoutofthem。AtfirsttheyhatedGeraldCrich,theysworetodosomethingtohim,tomurderhim。Butastimewenton,theyacceptedeverythingwithsomefatalsatisfaction。Geraldwastheirhighpriest,herepresentedthereligiontheyreallyfelt。Hisfatherwasforgottenalready。Therewasanewworld,aneworder,strict,terrible,inhuman,butsatisfyinginitsverydestructiveness。

  Themenweresatisfiedtobelongtothegreatandwonderfulmachine,evenwhilstitdestroyedthem。Itwaswhattheywanted。Itwasthehighestthatmanhadproduced,themostwonderfulandsuperhuman。Theywereexaltedbybelongingtothisgreatandsuperhumansystemwhichwasbeyondfeelingorreason,somethingreallygodlike。Theirheartsdiedwithinthem,buttheirsoulsweresatisfied。Itwaswhattheywanted。OtherwiseGeraldcouldneverhavedonewhathedid。Hewasjustaheadofthemingivingthemwhattheywanted,thisparticipationinagreatandperfectsystemthatsubjectedlifetopuremathematicalprinciples。Thiswasasortoffreedom,thesorttheyreallywanted。Itwasthefirstgreatstepinundoing,thefirstgreatphaseofchaos,thesubstitutionofthemechanicalprinciplefortheorganic,thedestructionoftheorganicpurpose,theorganicunity,andthesubordinationofeveryorganicunittothegreatmechanicalpurpose。Itwaspureorganicdisintegrationandpuremechanicalorganisation。Thisisthefirstandfineststateofchaos。

  Geraldwassatisfied。Heknewthecollierssaidtheyhatedhim。Buthehadlongceasedtohatethem。Whentheystreamedpasthimatevening,theirheavybootsslurringonthepavementwearily,theirshouldersslightlydistorted,theytooknonoticeofhim,theygavehimnogreetingwhatever,theypassedinagrey—blackstreamofunemotionalacceptance。Theywerenotimportanttohim,saveasinstruments,norhetothem,saveasasupremeinstrumentofcontrol。Asminerstheyhadtheirbeing,hehadhisbeingasdirector。Headmiredtheirqualities。Butasmen,personalities,theywerejustaccidents,sporadiclittleunimportantphenomena。Andtacitly,themenagreedtothis。ForGeraldagreedtoitinhimself。

  Hehadsucceeded。Hehadconvertedtheindustryintoanewandterriblepurity。Therewasagreateroutputofcoalthanever,thewonderfulanddelicatesystemranalmostperfectly。Hehadasetofreallycleverengineers,bothminingandelectrical,andtheydidnotcostmuch。Ahighlyeducatedmancostverylittlemorethanaworkman。Hismanagers,whowereallraremen,werenomoreexpensivethantheoldbunglingfoolsofhisfather\'sdays,whoweremerelycollierspromoted。Hischiefmanager,whohadtwelvehundredayear,savedthefirmatleastfivethousand。ThewholesystemwasnowsoperfectthatGeraldwashardlynecessaryanymore。

  Itwassoperfectthatsometimesastrangefearcameoverhim,andhedidnotknowwhattodo。Hewentonforsomeyearsinasortoftranceofactivity。Whathewasdoingseemedsupreme,hewasalmostlikeadivinity。

  Hewasapureandexaltedactivity。

  Butnowhehadsucceeded——hehadfinallysucceeded。Andonceortwicelately,whenhewasaloneintheeveningandhadnothingtodo,hehadsuddenlystoodupinterror,notknowingwhathewas。Andhewenttothemirrorandlookedlongandcloselyathisownface,athisowneyes,seekingforsomething。Hewasafraid,inmortaldryfear,butheknewnotwhatof。Helookedathisownface。Thereitwas,shapelyandhealthyandthesameasever,yetsomehow,itwasnotreal,itwasamask。Hedarednottouchit,forfearitshouldprovetobeonlyacompositionmask。Hiseyeswereblueandkeenasever,andasfirmintheirsockets。Yethewasnotsurethattheywerenotbluefalsebubblesthatwouldburstinamomentandleaveclearannihilation。Hecouldseethedarknessinthem,asiftheywereonlybubblesofdarkness。Hewasafraidthatonedayhewouldbreakdownandbeapurelymeaninglessbabblelappingroundadarkness。

  Buthiswillyetheldgood,hewasabletogoawayandread,andthinkaboutthings。Helikedtoreadbooksabouttheprimitiveman,booksofanthropology,andalsoworksofspeculativephilosophy。Hismindwasveryactive。Butitwaslikeabubblefloatinginthedarkness。Atanymomentitmightburstandleavehiminchaos。Hewouldnotdie。Heknewthat。

  Hewouldgoonliving,butthemeaningwouldhavecollapsedoutofhim,hisdivinereasonwouldbegone。Inastrangelyindifferent,sterileway,hewasfrightened。Buthecouldnotreacteventothefear。Itwasasifhiscentresoffeelingweredryingup。Heremainedcalm,calculativeandhealthy,andquitefreelydeliberate,evenwhilsthefelt,withfaint,smallbutfinalsterilehorror,thathismysticreasonwasbreaking,givingwaynow,atthiscrisis。

  Anditwasastrain。Heknewtherewasnoequilibrium。Hewouldhavetogoinsomedirection,shortly,tofindrelief。OnlyBirkinkeptthefeardefinitelyoffhim,savedhimhisquicksufficiencyinlife,bytheoddmobilityandchangeablenesswhichseemedtocontainthequintessenceoffaith。ButthenGeraldmustalwayscomeawayfromBirkin,asfromaChurchservice,backtotheoutsiderealworldofworkandlife。Thereitwas,itdidnotalter,andwordswerefutilities。Hehadtokeephimselfinreckoningwiththeworldofworkandmateriallife。Anditbecamemoreandmoredifficult,suchastrangepressurewasuponhim,asiftheverymiddleofhimwereavacuum,andoutsidewereanawfultension。

  Hehadfoundhismostsatisfactoryreliefinwomen。Afteradebauchwithsomedesperatewoman,hewentonquiteeasyandforgetful。Thedevilofitwas,itwassohardtokeepuphisinterestinwomennowadays。Hedidn\'tcareaboutthemanymore。APussumwasallrightinherway,butshewasanexceptionalcase,andevenshematteredextremelylittle。No,women,inthatsense,wereuselesstohimanymore。Hefeltthathismindneededacutestimulation,beforehecouldbephysicallyroused。

  WomenInLove:Chapter18CHAPTERXVIIIRabbitGUDRUNKNEWthatitwasacriticalthingforhertogotoShortlands。SheknewitwasequivalenttoacceptingGeraldCrichasalover。Andthoughshehungback,dislikingthecondition,yetsheknewshewouldgoon。Sheequivocated。Shesaidtoherself,intormentrecallingtheblowandthekiss,`afterall,whatisit?Whatisakiss?

  Whatevenisablow?Itisaninstant,vanishedatonce。IcangotoShortlandsjustforatime,beforeIgoaway,ifonlytoseewhatitislike。\'Forshehadaninsatiablecuriositytoseeandtoknoweverything。

  ShealsowantedtoknowwhatWinifredwasreallylike。Havingheardthechildcallingfromthesteamerinthenight,shefeltsomemysteriousconnectionwithher。

  Gudruntalkedwiththefatherinthelibrary。Thenhesentforhisdaughter。

  ShecameaccompaniedbyMademoiselle。

  `Winnie,thisisMissBrangwen,whowillbesokindastohelpyouwithyourdrawingandmakingmodelsofyouranimals,\'saidthefather。

  ThechildlookedatGudrunforamomentwithinterest,beforeshecameforwardandwithfaceavertedofferedherhand。TherewasacompletesangfroidandindifferenceunderWinifred\'schildishreserve,acertainirresponsiblecallousness。

  `Howdoyoudo?\'saidthechild,notliftingherface。

  `Howdoyoudo?\'saidGudrun。

  ThenWinifredstoodaside,andGudrunwasintroducedtoMademoiselle。

  `Youhaveafinedayforyourwalk,\'saidMademoiselle,inabrightmanner。

  `Quitefine,\'saidGudrun。

  Winifredwaswatchingfromherdistance。Shewasasifamused,butratherunsureasyetwhatthisnewpersonwaslike。Shesawsomanynewpersons,andsofewwhobecamerealtoher。Mademoisellewasofnocountwhatever,thechildmerelyputupwithher,calmlyandeasily,acceptingherlittleauthoritywithfaintscorn,compliantoutofchildisharroganceofindifference。

  `Well,Winifred,\'saidthefather,`aren\'tyougladMissBrangwenhascome?Shemakesanimalsandbirdsinwoodandinclay,thatthepeopleinLondonwriteaboutinthepapers,praisingthemtotheskies。\'

  Winifredsmiledslightly。

  `Whotoldyou,Daddie?\'sheasked。

  `Whotoldme?Hermionetoldme,andRupertBirkin。\'

  `Doyouknowthem?\'WinifredaskedofGudrun,turningtoherwithfaintchallenge。

  `Yes,\'saidGudrun。

  Winifredreadjustedherselfalittle。ShehadbeenreadytoacceptGudrunasasortofservant。Nowshesawitwasontermsoffriendshiptheywereintendedtomeet。Shewasratherglad。Shehadsomanyhalfinferiors,whomshetoleratedwithperfectgood—humour。

  Gudrunwasverycalm。Shealsodidnottakethesethingsveryseriously。

  Anewoccasionwasmostlyspectaculartoher。However,Winifredwasadetached,ironicchild,shewouldneverattachherself。Gudrunlikedherandwasintriguedbyher。Thefirstmeetingswentoffwithacertainhumiliatingclumsiness。NeitherWinifrednorherinstructresshadanysocialgrace。

  Soon,however,theymetinakindofmake—beliefworld。Winifreddidnotnoticehumanbeingsunlesstheywerelikeherself,playfulandslightlymocking。Shewouldacceptnothingbuttheworldofamusement,andtheseriouspeopleofherlifeweretheanimalsshehadforpets。Onthoseshelavished,almostironically,heraffectionandhercompanionship。Totherestofthehumanschemeshesubmittedwithafaintboredindifference。

  ShehadapekinesedogcalledLooloo,whichsheloved。

  `LetusdrawLooloo,\'saidGudrun,`andseeifwecangethisLooliness,shallwe?\'

  `Darling!\'criedWinifred,rushingtothedog,thatsatwithcontemplativesadnessonthehearth,andkissingitsbulgingbrow。`Darlingone,willyoubedrawn?Shallitsmummydrawitsportrait?\'Thenshechuckledgleefully,andturningtoGudrun,said:`Ohlet\'s!\'

  Theyproceededtogetpencilsandpaper,andwereready。

  `Beautifullest,\'criedWinifred,huggingthedog,`sitstillwhileitsmummydrawsitsbeautifulportrait。\'Thedoglookedupatherwithgrievousresignationinitslarge,prominenteyes。Shekisseditfervently,andsaid:`Iwonderwhatminewillbelike。It\'ssuretobeawful。\'

  Asshesketchedshechuckledtoherself,andcriedoutattimes:

  `Ohdarling,you\'resobeautiful!\'

  Andagainchuckling,sherushedtoembracethedog,inpenitence,asifsheweredoinghimsomesubtleinjury。Hesatallthetimewiththeresignationandfretfulnessofagesonhisdarkvelvetyface。Shedrewslowly,withawickedconcentrationinhereyes,herheadononeside,anintensestillnessoverher。Shewasasifworkingthespellofsomeenchantment。Suddenlyshehadfinished。Shelookedatthedog,andthenatherdrawing,andthencried,withrealgriefforthedog,andatthesametimewithawickedexultation:

  `Mybeautiful,whydidthey?\'

  Shetookherpapertothedog,andhelditunderhisnose。Heturnedhisheadasideasinchagrinandmortification,andsheimpulsivelykissedhisvelvetybulgingforehead。

  `\'saLoolie,\'salittleLoozie!Lookathisportrait,darling,lookathisportrait,thathismotherhasdoneofhim。\'Shelookedatherpaperandchuckled。Then,kissingthedogoncemore,sheroseandcamegravelytoGudrun,offeringherthepaper。

  Itwasagrotesquelittlediagramofagrotesquelittleanimal,sowickedandsocomical,aslowsmilecameoverGudrun\'sface,unconsciously。AndathersideWinifredchuckledwithglee,andsaid:

  `Itisn\'tlikehim,isit?He\'smuchlovelierthanthat。He\'ssobeautiful——mmm,Looloo,mysweetdarling。\'Andsheflewofftoembracethechagrinedlittledog。Helookedupatherwithreproachful,saturnineeyes,vanquishedinhisextremeagednessofbeing。Thensheflewbacktoherdrawing,andchuckledwithsatisfaction。

  `Itisn\'tlikehim,isit?\'shesaidtoGudrun。

  `Yes,it\'sverylikehim,\'Gudrunreplied。

  Thechildtreasuredherdrawing,carrieditaboutwithher,andshowedit,withasilentembarrassment,toeverybody。

  `Look,\'shesaid,thrustingthepaperintoherfather\'shand。

  `Whythat\'sLooloo!\'heexclaimed。Andhelookeddowninsurprise,hearingthealmostinhumanchuckleofthechildathisside。

  GeraldwasawayfromhomewhenGudrunfirstcametoShortlands。Butthefirstmorninghecamebackhewatchedforher。Itwasasunny,softmorning,andhelingeredinthegardenpaths,lookingattheflowersthathadcomeoutduringhisabsence。Hewascleanandfitasever,shaven,hisfairhairscrupulouslypartedattheside,brightinthesunshine,hisshort,fairmoustachecloselyclipped,hiseyeswiththeirhumorouskindtwinkle,whichwassodeceptive。Hewasdressedinblack,hisclothessatwellonhiswell—nourishedbody。Yetashelingeredbeforetheflower—bedsinthemorningsunshine,therewasacertainisolation,afearabouthim,asofsomethingwanting。

  Gudruncameupquickly,unseen。Shewasdressedinblue,withwoollenyellowstockings,liketheBluecoatboys。Heglancedupinsurprise。Herstockingsalwaysdisconcertedhim,thepale—yellowstockingsandtheheavyheavyblackshoes。Winifred,whohadbeenplayingaboutthegardenwithMademoiselleandthedogs,cameflittingtowardsGudrun。Thechildworeadressofblack—and—whitestripes。Herhairwasrathershort,cutroundandhanginglevelinherneck。

  `We\'regoingtodoBismarck,aren\'twe?\'shesaid,linkingherhandthroughGudrun\'sarm。

  `Yes,we\'regoingtodoBismarck。Doyouwantto?\'

  `Ohyes——ohIdo!IwantmostawfullytodoBismarck。Helookssosplendidthismorning,sofierce。He\'salmostasbigasalion。\'

  Andthechildchuckledsardonicallyatherownhyperbole。`He\'sarealking,hereallyis。\'

  `Bonjour,Mademoiselle,\'saidthelittleFrenchgoverness,waveringupwithaslightbow,abowofthesortthatGudrunloathed,insolent。

  `WinifredveuttantfaireleportraitdeBismarck——!Oh,maistoutelamatinee——\"WewilldoBismarckthismorning!\"——Bismarck,Bismarck,toujoursBismarck!C\'estunlapin,n\'est—cepas,mademoiselle?\'

  `Oui,c\'estungrandlapinblancetnoir。Vousnel\'avezpasvu?\'saidGudruninhergood,butratherheavyFrench。

  `Non,mademoiselle,Winifredn\'ajamaisvoulumelefairevoir。Tantdefoisjeleluiaidemande,\"Qu\'estcedoncqueceBismarck,Winifred?\"

  Maisellen\'apasvoulumeledire。SonBismarck,c\'etaitunmystere。\'

  `Oui,c\'estunmystere,vraimentunmystere!MissBrangwen,saythatBismarckisamystery,\'criedWinifred。

  `Bismarck,isamystery,Bismarck,c\'estunmystere,derBismarck,eristeinWunder,\'saidGudrun,inmockingincantation。

  `Ja,eristeinWunder,\'repeatedWinifred,withoddseriousness,underwhichlayawickedchuckle。

  `IsteraucheinWunder?\'cametheslightlyinsolentsneeringofMademoiselle。

  `Doch!\'saidWinifredbriefly,indifferent。

  `DochisternichteinKonig。Beesmarck,hewasnotaking,Winifred,asyouhavesaid。Hewasonly——iln\'etaitquechancelier。\'

  `Qu\'estcequ\'unchancelier?\'saidWinifred,withslightlycontemptuousindifference。

  `Achancelierisachancellor,andachancelloris,Ibelieve,asortofjudge,\'saidGeraldcomingupandshakinghandswithGudrun。`You\'llhavemadeasongofBismarcksoon,\'saidhe。

  Mademoisellewaited,anddiscreetlymadeherinclination,andhergreeting。

  `Sotheywouldn\'tletyouseeBismarck,Mademoiselle?\'hesaid。

  `Non,Monsieur。\'

  `Ay,verymeanofthem。Whatareyougoingtodotohim,MissBrangwen?

  Iwanthimsenttothekitchenandcooked。\'

  `Ohno,\'criedWinifred。

  `We\'regoingtodrawhim,\'saidGudrun。

  `Drawhimandquarterhimanddishhimup,\'hesaid,beingpurposelyfatuous。

  `Ohno,\'criedWinifredwithemphasis,chuckling。

  Gudrundetectedthetangofmockeryinhim,andshelookedupandsmiledintohisface。Hefelthisnervescaressed。Theireyesmetinknowledge。

  `HowdoyoulikeShortlands?\'heasked。

  `Oh,verymuch,\'shesaid,withnonchalance。

  `Gladyoudo。Haveyounoticedtheseflowers?\'

  Heledheralongthepath。Shefollowedintently。Winifredcame,andthegovernesslingeredintherear。Theystoppedbeforesomeveinedsalpiglossisflowers。

  `Aren\'ttheywonderful?\'shecried,lookingatthemabsorbedly。Strangehowherreverential,almostecstaticadmirationoftheflowerscaressedhisnerves。Shestoopeddown,andtouchedthetrumpets,withinfinitelyfineanddelicate—touchingfinger—tips。Itfilledhimwitheasetoseeher。Whensherose,hereyes,hotwiththebeautyoftheflowers,lookedintohis。

  `Whatarethey?\'sheasked。

  `Sortofpetunia,Isuppose,\'heanswered。`Idon\'treallyknowthem。\'

  `Theyarequitestrangerstome,\'shesaid。

  Theystoodtogetherinafalseintimacy,anervouscontact。Andhewasinlovewithher。

  ShewasawareofMademoisellestandingnear,likealittleFrenchbeetle,observantandcalculating。ShemovedawaywithWinifred,sayingtheywouldgotofindBismarck。

  Geraldwatchedthemgo,lookingallthewhileatthesoft,full,stillbodyofGudrun,initssilkycashmere。Howsilkyandrichandsoftherbodymustbe。Anexcessofappreciationcameoverhismind,shewastheall—desirable,theall—beautiful。Hewantedonlytocometoher,nothingmore。Hewasonlythis,thisbeingthatshouldcometoher,andbegiventoher。

  AtthesametimehewasfinelyandacutelyawareofMademoiselle\'sneat,brittlefinalityofform。Shewaslikesomeelegantbeetlewiththinankles,perchedonherhighheels,herglossyblackdressperfectlycorrect,herdarkhairdonehighandadmirably。Howrepulsivehercompletenessandherfinalitywas!Heloathedher。

  Yethedidadmireher。Shewasperfectlycorrect。Anditdidratherannoyhim,thatGudruncamedressedinstartlingcolours,likeamacaw,whenthefamilywasinmourning。Likeamacawshewas!Hewatchedthelingeringwayshetookherfeetfromtheground。Andherankleswerepaleyellow,andherdressadeepblue。Yetitpleasedhim。Itpleasedhimverymuch。

  Hefeltthechallengeinherveryattire——shechallengedthewholeworld。

  Andhesmiledastothenoteofatrumpet。

  GudrunandWinifredwentthroughthehousetotheback,wherewerethestablesandtheout—buildings。Everywherewasstillanddeserted。MrCrichhadgoneoutforashortdrive,thestablemanhadjustledroundGerald\'shorse。Thetwogirlswenttothehutchthatstoodinacorner,andlookedatthegreatblack—and—whiterabbit。

  `Isn\'thebeautiful!Oh,dolookathimlistening!Doesn\'thelooksilly!\'

  shelaughedquickly,thenadded`Oh,dolet\'sdohimlistening,doletus,helistenswithsomuchofhimself;——don\'tyoudarlingBismarck?\'

  `Canwetakehimout?\'saidGudrun。

  `He\'sverystrong。Hereallyisextremelystrong。\'ShelookedatGudrun,herheadononeside,inoddcalculatingmistrust。

  `Butwe\'lltry,shallwe?\'

  `Yes,ifyoulike。Buthe\'safearfulkicker!\'

  Theytookthekeytounlockthedoor。Therabbitexplodedinawildrushroundthehutch。

  `Hescratchesmostawfullysometimes,\'criedWinifredinexcitement。

  `Ohdolookathim,isn\'thewonderful!\'Therabbittoreroundthehutchinahurry。`Bismarck!\'criedthechild,inrousingexcitement。`Howdreadfulyouare!Youarebeastly。\'WinifredlookedupatGudrunwithsomemisgivinginherwildexcitement。Gudrunsmiledsardonicallywithhermouth。Winifredmadeastrangecrooningnoiseofunaccountableexcitement。`Nowhe\'sstill!\'

  shecried,seeingtherabbitsettleddowninafarcornerofthehutch。

  `Shallwetakehimnow?\'shewhisperedexcitedly,mysteriously,lookingupatGudrunandedgingveryclose。`Shallwegethimnow?——\'shechuckledwickedlytoherself。

  Theyunlockedthedoorofthehutch。Gudrunthrustinherarmandseizedthegreat,lustyrabbitasitcrouchedstill,shegraspeditslongears。

  Itsetitsfourfeetflat,andthrustback。Therewasalongscrapingsoundasitwashauledforward,andinanotherinstantitwasinmid—air,lungingwildly,itsbodyflyinglikeaspringcoiledandreleased,asitlashedout,suspendedfromtheears。Gudrunheldtheblack—and—whitetempestatarms\'length,avertingherface。Buttherabbitwasmagicallystrong,itwasallshecoulddotokeephergrasp。Shealmostlostherpresenceofmind。

  `Bismarck,Bismarck,youarebehavingterribly,\'saidWinifredinaratherfrightenedvoice,`Oh,doputhimdown,he\'sbeastly。\'

  Gudrunstoodforamomentastoundedbythethunder—stormthathadsprungintobeinginhergrip。Thenhercolourcameup,aheavyragecameoverherlikeacloud。Shestoodshakenasahouseinastorm,andutterlyovercome。

  Herheartwasarrestedwithfuryatthemindlessnessandthebestialstupidityofthisstruggle,herwristswerebadlyscoredbytheclawsofthebeast,aheavycrueltywelledupinher。

  Geraldcameroundasshewastryingtocapturetheflyingrabbitunderherarm。Hesaw,withsubtlerecognition,hersullenpassionofcruelty。

  `Youshouldletoneofthemendothatforyou,\'hesaidhurryingup。

  `Oh,he\'ssohorrid!\'criedWinifred,almostfrantic。

  Heheldouthisnervous,sinewyhandandtooktherabbitbytheears,fromGudrun。

  `It\'smostfearfullystrong,\'shecried,inahighvoice,likethecryingaseagull,strangeandvindictive。

  Therabbitmadeitselfintoaballintheair,andlashedout,flingingitselfintoabow。Itreallyseemeddemoniacal。GudrunsawGerald\'sbodytighten,sawasharpblindnesscomeintohiseyes。

  `Iknowthesebeggarsofold,\'hesaid。

  Thelong,demon—likebeastlashedoutagain,spreadontheairasifitwereflying,lookingsomethinglikeadragon,thenclosingupagain,inconceivablypowerfulandexplosive。Theman\'sbody,strungtoitsefforts,vibratedstrongly。Thenasuddensharp,white—edgedwrathcameupinhim。

  Swiftaslightninghedrewbackandbroughthisfreehanddownlikeahawkontheneckoftherabbit。Simultaneously,therecametheunearthlyabhorrentscreamofarabbitinthefearofdeath。Itmadeoneimmensewrithe,torehiswristsandhissleevesinafinalconvulsion,allitsbellyflashedwhiteinawhirlwindofpaws,andthenhehadslungitroundandhaditunderhisarm,fast。Itcoweredandskulked。Hisfacewasgleamingwithasmile。

  `Youwouldn\'tthinktherewasallthatforceinarabbit,\'hesaid,lookingatGudrun。Andhesawhereyesblackasnightinherpallidface,shelookedalmostunearthly。Thescreamoftherabbit,aftertheviolenttussle,seemedtohavetorntheveilofherconsciousness。Helookedather,andthewhitish,electricgleaminhisfaceintensified。

  `Idon\'treallylikehim,\'Winifredwascrooning。`Idon\'tcareforhimasIdoforLoozie。He\'shatefulreally。\'

  AsmiletwistedGudrun\'sface,assherecovered。Sheknewshewasrevealed。

  `Don\'ttheymakethemostfearfulnoisewhentheyscream?\'shecried,thehighnoteinhervoice,likeasea—gull\'scry。

  `Abominable,\'hesaid。

  `Heshouldn\'tbesosillywhenhehastobetakenout,\'Winifredwassaying,puttingoutherhandandtouchingtherabbittentatively,asitskulkedunderhisarm,motionlessasifitweredead。

  `He\'snotdead,isheGerald?\'sheasked。

  `No,heoughttobe,\'hesaid。

  `Yes,heought!\'criedthechild,withasuddenflushofamusement。

  Andshetouchedtherabbitwithmoreconfidence。`Hisheartisbeatingsofast。Isn\'thefunny?Hereallyis。\'

  `Wheredoyouwanthim?\'askedGerald。

  `Inthelittlegreencourt,\'shesaid。

  GudrunlookedatGeraldwithstrange,darkenedeyes,strainedwithunderworldknowledge,almostsupplicating,likethoseofacreaturewhichisathismercy,yetwhichishisultimatevictor。Hedidnotknowwhattosaytoher。Hefeltthemutualhellishrecognition。Andhefeltheoughttosaysomething,tocoverit。Hehadthepoweroflightninginhisnerves,sheseemedlikeasoftrecipientofhismagical,hideouswhitefire。Hewasunconfident,hehadqualmsoffear。

  `Didhehurtyou?\'heasked。

  `No,\'shesaid。

  `He\'saninsensiblebeast,\'hesaid,turninghisfaceaway。

  Theycametothelittlecourt,whichwasshutinbyoldredwallsinwhosecreviceswall—flowersweregrowing。Thegrasswassoftandfineandold,alevelfloorcarpetingthecourt,theskywasblueoverhead。Geraldtossedtherabbitdown。Itcrouchedstillandwouldnotmove。Gudrunwatcheditwithfainthorror。

  `Whydoesn\'titmove?\'shecried。

  `It\'sskulking,\'hesaid。

  Shelookedupathim,andaslightsinistersmilecontractedherwhiteface。

  `Isn\'titafool!\'shecried。`Isn\'titasickeningfool?\'

  Thevindictivemockeryinhervoicemadehisbrainquiver。Glancingupathim,intohiseyes,sherevealedagainthemocking,white—cruelrecognition。

  Therewasaleaguebetweenthem,abhorrenttothemboth。Theywereimplicatedwitheachotherinabhorrentmysteries。

  `Howmanyscratcheshaveyou?\'heasked,showinghishardforearm,whiteandhardandtorninredgashes。

  `Howreallyvile!\'shecried,flushingwithasinistervision。`Mineisnothing。\'

  Sheliftedherarmandshowedadeepredscoredownthesilkenwhiteflesh。

  `Whatadevil!\'heexclaimed。Butitwasasifhehadhadknowledgeofherinthelongredrentofherforearm,sosilkenandsoft。Hedidnotwanttotouchher。Hewouldhavetomakehimselftouchher,deliberately。

  Thelong,shallowredripseemedtornacrosshisownbrain,tearingthesurfaceofhisultimateconsciousness,lettingthroughtheforeverunconscious,unthinkableredetherofthebeyond,theobscenebeyond。

  `Itdoesn\'thurtyouverymuch,doesit?\'heasked,solicitous。

  `Notatall,\'shecried。

  Andsuddenlytherabbit,whichhadbeencrouchingasifitwereaflower,sostillandsoft,suddenlyburstintolife。Roundandroundthecourtitwent,asifshotfromagun,roundandroundlikeafurrymeteorite,inatensehardcirclethatseemedtobindtheirbrains。Theyallstoodinamazement,smilinguncannily,asiftherabbitwereobeyingsomeunknownincantation。Roundandrounditflew,onthegrassundertheoldredwallslikeastorm。

  Andthenquitesuddenlyitsettleddown,hobbledamongthegrass,andsatconsidering,itsnosetwitchinglikeabitoffluffinthewind。Afterhavingconsideredforafewminutes,asoftbunchwithablack,openeye,whichperhapswaslookingatthem,perhapswasnot,ithobbledcalmlyforwardandbegantonibblethegrasswiththatmeanmotionofarabbit\'squickeating。

  `It\'smad,\'saidGudrun。`Itismostdecidedlymad。\'

  Helaughed。

  `Thequestionis,\'hesaid,`whatismadness?Idon\'tsupposeitisrabbit—mad。\'

  `Don\'tyouthinkitis?\'sheasked。

  `No。That\'swhatitistobearabbit。\'

  Therewasaqueer,faint,obscenesmileoverhisface。Shelookedathimandsawhim,andknewthathewasinitiateasshewasinitiate。Thisthwartedher,andcontravenedher,forthemoment。

  `Godbepraisedwearen\'trabbits,\'shesaid,inahigh,shrillvoice。

  Thesmileintensifiedalittle,onhisface。

  `Notrabbits?\'hesaid,lookingatherfixedly。

  Slowlyherfacerelaxedintoasmileofobscenerecognition。

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