第18章
加入书架 A- A+
点击下载App,搜索"Women in Love",免费读到尾

  Andsheboremanychildren。For,astimewenton,sheneveropposedherhusbandinwordordeed。Shetooknonoticeofhim,externally。Shesubmittedtohim,lethimtakewhathewantedanddoashewantedwithher。Shewaslikeahawkthatsullenlysubmitstoeverything。Therelationbetweenherandherhusbandwaswordlessandunknown,butitwasdeep,awful,arelationofutterinter—destruction。Andhe,whotriumphedintheworld,hebecamemoreandmorehollowinhisvitality,thevitalitywasbledfromwithinhim,asbysomehaemorrhage。Shewashulkedlikeahawkinacage,butherheartwasfierceandundiminishedwithinher,thoughhermindwasdestroyed。

  Sotothelasthewouldgotoherandholdherinhisarmssometimes,beforehisstrengthwasallgone。Theterriblewhite,destructivelightthatburnedinhereyesonlyexcitedandrousedhim。Tillhewasbledtodeath,andthenhedreadedhermorethananything。Buthealwayssaidtohimself,howhappyhehadbeen,howhehadlovedherwithapureandconsumingloveeversincehehadknownher。Andhethoughtofheraspure,chaste;

  thewhiteflamewhichwasknowntohimalone,theflameofhersex,wasawhiteflowerofsnowtohismind。Shewasawonderfulwhitesnow—flower,whichhehaddesiredinfinitely。Andnowhewasdyingwithallhisideasandinterpretationsintact。Theywouldonlycollapsewhenthebreathlefthisbody。Tillthentheywouldbepuretruthsforhim。Onlydeathwouldshowtheperfectcompletenessofthelie。Tilldeath,shewashiswhitesnow—flower。Hehadsubduedher,andhersubjugationwastohimaninfinitechastityinher,avirginitywhichhecouldneverbreak,andwhichdominatedhimasbyaspell。

  Shehadletgotheouterworld,butwithinherselfshewasunbrokenandunimpaired。Sheonlysatinherroomlikeamoping,dishevelledhawk,motionless,mindless。Herchildren,forwhomshehadbeensofierceinheryouth,nowmeantscarcelyanythingtoher。Shehadlostallthat,shewasquitebyherself。OnlyGerald,thegleaming,hadsomeexistenceforher。Butoflateyears,sincehehadbecomeheadofthebusiness,hetoowasforgotten。Whereasthefather,nowhewasdying,turnedforcompassiontoGerald。Therehadalwaysbeenoppositionbetweenthetwoofthem。Geraldhadfearedanddespisedhisfather,andtoagreatextenthadavoidedhimallthroughboyhoodandyoungmanhood。Andthefatherhadfeltveryoftenarealdislikeofhiseldestson,which,neverwantingtogivewayto,hehadrefusedtoacknowledge。HehadignoredGeraldasmuchaspossible,leavinghimalone。

  Since,however,Geraldhadcomehomeandassumedresponsibilityinthefirm,andhadprovedsuchawonderfuldirector,thefather,tiredandwearyofalloutsideconcerns,hadputallhistrustofthesethingsinhisson,implicitly,leavingeverythingtohim,andassumingarathertouchingdependenceontheyoungenemy。ThisimmediatelyrousedapoignantpityandallegianceinGerald\'sheart,alwaysshadowedbycontemptandbyunadmittedenmity。

  ForGeraldwasinreactionagainstCharity;andyethewasdominatedbyit,itassumedsupremacyintheinnerlife,andhecouldnotconfuteit。

  Sohewaspartlysubjecttothatwhichhisfatherstoodfor,buthewasinreactionagainstit。Nowhecouldnotsavehimself。Acertainpityandgriefandtendernessforhisfatherovercamehim,inspiteofthedeeper,moresullenhostility。

  ThefatherwonshelterfromGeraldthroughcompassion。ButforlovehehadWinifred。Shewashisyoungestchild,shewastheonlyoneofhischildrenwhomhehadevercloselyloved。Andherhelovedwithallthegreat,overweening,shelteringloveofadyingman。Hewantedtoshelterherinfinitely,infinitely,towrapherinwarmthandloveandshelter,perfectly。Ifhecouldsavehersheshouldneverknowonepain,onegrief,onehurt。Hehadbeensorightallhislife,soconstantinhiskindnessandhisgoodness。Andthiswashislastpassionaterighteousness,hisloveforthechildWinifred。Somethingstroubledhimyet。Theworldhadpassedawayfromhim,ashisstrengthebbed。Therewerenomorepoorandinjuredandhumbletoprotectandsuccour。Thesewerealllosttohim。Therewerenomoresonsanddaughterstotroublehim,andtoweighonhimasanunnaturalresponsibility。ThesetoohadfadedoutofrealityAllthesethingshadfallenoutofhishands,andlefthimfree。

  Thereremainedthecovertfearandhorrorofhiswife,asshesatmindlessandstrangeinherroom,orasshecameforthwithslow,prowlingstep,herheadbentforward。Butthisheputaway。Evenhislife—longrighteousness,however,wouldnotquitedeliverhimfromtheinnerhorror。Still,hecouldkeepitsufficientlyatbay。Itwouldneverbreakforthopenly。Deathwouldcomefirst。

  ThentherewasWinifred!Ifonlyhecouldbesureabouther,ifonlyhecouldbesure。SincethedeathofDiana,andthedevelopmentofhisillness,hiscravingforsuretywithregardtoWinifredamountedalmosttoobsession。Itwasasif,evendying,hemusthavesomeanxiety,someresponsibilityoflove,ofCharity,uponhisheart。

  Shewasanodd,sensitive,inflammablechild,havingherfather\'sdarkhairandquietbearing,butbeingquitedetached,momentaneous。Shewaslikeachangelingindeed,asifherfeelingsdidnotmattertoher,really。

  Sheoftenseemedtobetalkingandplayinglikethegayestandmostchildishofchildren,shewasfullofthewarmest,mostdelightfulaffectionforafewthings——forherfather,andforheranimalsinparticular。ButifsheheardthatherbelovedkittenLeohadbeenrunoverbythemotor—carsheputherheadononeside,andreplied,withafaintcontractionlikeresentmentonherface:`Hashe?\'Thenshetooknomorenotice。Sheonlydislikedtheservantwhowouldforcebadnewsonher,andwantedhertobesorry。Shewishednottoknow,andthatseemedherchiefmotive。Sheavoidedhermother,andmostofthemembersofherfamily。ShelovedherDaddy,becausehewantedheralwaystobehappy,andbecauseheseemedtobecomeyoungagain,andirresponsibleinherpresence。ShelikedGerald,becausehewassoself—contained。Shelovedpeoplewhowouldmakelifeagameforher。Shehadanamazinginstinctivecriticalfaculty,andwasapureanarchist,apurearistocratatonce。Forsheacceptedherequalswherevershefoundthem,andsheignoredwithblitheindifferenceherinferiors,whethertheywereherbrothersandsisters,orwhethertheywerewealthyguestsofthehouse,orwhethertheywerethecommonpeopleortheservants。

  Shewasquitesingleandbyherself,derivingfromnobody。Itwasasifshewerecutofffromallpurposeorcontinuity,andexistedsimplymomentbymoment。

  Thefather,asbysomestrangefinalillusion,feltasifallhisfatedependedonhisensuringtoWinifredherhappiness。Shewhocouldneversuffer,becausesheneverformedvitalconnections,shewhocouldlosethedearestthingsofherlifeandbejustthesamethenextday,thewholememorydroppedout,asifdeliberately,shewhosewillwassostrangelyandeasilyfree,anarchistic,almostnihilistic,wholikeasoullessbirdflitsonitsownwill,withoutattachmentorresponsibilitybeyondthemoment,whoinhereverymotionsnappedthethreadsofseriousrelationshipwithblithe,freehands,reallynihilistic,becausenevertroubled,shemustbetheobjectofherfather\'sfinalpassionatesolicitude。

  WhenMrCrichheardthatGudrunBrangwenmightcometohelpWinifredwithherdrawingandmodellinghesawaroadtosalvationforhischild。

  HebelievedthatWinifredhadtalent,hehadseenGudrun,heknewthatshewasanexceptionalperson。HecouldgiveWinifredintoherhandsasintothehandsofarightbeing。Herewasadirectionandapositiveforcetobelenttohischild,heneednotleaveherdirectionlessanddefenceless。

  Ifhecouldbutgraftthegirlontosometreeofutterancebeforehedied,hewouldhavefulfilledhisresponsibility。Andhereitcouldbedone。

  HedidnothesitatetoappealtoGudrun。

  Meanwhile,asthefatherdriftedmoreandmoreoutoflife,Geraldexperiencedmoreandmoreasenseofexposure。Hisfatherafterallhadstoodforthelivingworldtohim。WhilsthisfatherlivedGeraldwasnotresponsiblefortheworld。Butnowhisfatherwaspassingaway,Geraldfoundhimselfleftexposedandunreadybeforethestormofliving,likethemutinousfirstmateofashipthathaslosthiscaptain,andwhoseesonlyaterriblechaosinfrontofhim。Hedidnotinheritanestablishedorderandalivingidea。Thewholeunifyingideaofmankindseemedtobedyingwithhisfather,thecentralisingforcethathadheldthewholetogetherseemedtocollapsewithhisfather,thepartswerereadytogoasunderinterribledisintegration。

  Geraldwasasifleftonboardofashipthatwasgoingasunderbeneathhisfeet,hewasinchargeofavesselwhosetimberswereallcomingapart。

  Heknewthatallhislifehehadbeenwrenchingattheframeoflifetobreakitapart。Andnow,withsomethingoftheterrorofadestructivechild,hesawhimselfonthepointofinheritinghisowndestruction。Andduringthelastmonths,undertheinfluenceofdeath,andofBirkin\'stalk,andofGudrun\'spenetratingbeing,hehadlostentirelythatmechanicalcertaintythathadbeenhistriumph。Sometimesspasmsofhatredcameoverhim,againstBirkinandGudrunandthatwholeset。Hewantedtogobacktothedullestconservatism,tothemoststupidofconventionalpeople。

  HewantedtoreverttothestrictestToryism。Butthedesiredidnotlastlongenoughtocarryhimintoaction。

  Duringhischildhoodandhisboyhoodhehadwantedasortofsavagedom。

  ThedaysofHomerwerehisideal,whenamanwaschiefofanarmyofheroes,orspenthisyearsinwonderfulOdyssey。Hehatedremorselesslythecircumstancesofhisownlife,somuchthatheneverreallysawBeldoverandthecollieryvalley。HeturnedhisfaceentirelyawayfromtheblackenedminingregionthatstretchedawayontherighthandofShortlands,heturnedentirelytothecountryandthewoodsbeyondWilleyWater。ItwastruethatthepantingandrattlingofthecoalminescouldalwaysbeheardatShortlands。

  Butfromhisearliestchildhood,Geraldhadpaidnoheedtothis。Hehadignoredthewholeoftheindustrialseawhichsurgedincoal—blackenedtidesagainstthegroundsofthehouse。Theworldwasreallyawildernesswhereonehuntedandswamandrode。Herebelledagainstallauthority。

  Lifewasaconditionofsavagefreedom。

  Thenhehadbeensentawaytoschool,whichwassomuchdeathtohim。

  HerefusedtogotoOxford,choosingaGermanuniversity。HehadspentacertaintimeatBonn,atBerlin,andatFrankfurt。There,acuriosityhadbeenarousedinhismind。Hewantedtoseeandtoknow,inacuriousobjectivefashion,asifitwereanamusementtohim。Thenhemusttrywar。Thenhemusttravelintothesavageregionsthathadsoattractedhim。

  Theresultwas,hefoundhumanityverymuchalikeeverywhere,andtoamindlikehis,curiousandcold,thesavagewasduller,lessexcitingthantheEuropean。Sohetookholdofallkindsofsociologicalideas,andideasofreform。Buttheyneverwentmorethanskin—deep,theywerenevermorethanamentalamusement。Theirinterestlaychieflyinthereactionagainstthepositiveorder,thedestructivereaction。

  Hediscoveredatlastarealadventureinthecoal—mines。Hisfatheraskedhimtohelpinthefirm。Geraldhadbeeneducatedinthescienceofmining,andithadneverinterestedhim。Now,suddenly,withasortofexultation,helaidholdoftheworld。

  Therewasimpressedphotographicallyonhisconsciousnessthegreatindustry。Suddenly,itwasreal,hewaspartofit。Downthevalleyranthecollieryrailway,linkingminewithmine。Downtherailwayranthetrains,shorttrainsofheavilyladentrucks,longtrainsofemptywagons,eachonebearinginbigwhiteletterstheinitials:

  `C。B。&Co。\'

  Thesewhitelettersonallthewagonshehadseensincehisfirstchildhood,anditwasasifhehadneverseenthem,theyweresofamiliar,andsoignored。Nowatlasthesawhisownnamewrittenonthewall。Nowhehadavisionofpower。

  Somanywagons,bearinghisinitial,runningalloverthecountry。HesawthemasheenteredLondoninthetrain,hesawthematDover。Sofarhispowerramified。HelookedatBeldover,atSelby,atWhatmore,atLethleyBank,thegreatcollieryvillageswhichdependedentirelyonhismines。

  Theywerehideousandsordid,duringhischildhoodtheyhadbeensoresinhisconsciousness。Andnowhesawthemwithpride。Fourrawnewtowns,andmanyuglyindustrialhamletswerecrowdedunderhisdependence。Hesawthestreamofminersflowingalongthecausewaysfromtheminesattheendoftheafternoon,thousandsofblackened,slightlydistortedhumanbeingswithredmouths,allmovingsubjugatetohiswill。Hepushedslowlyinhismotor—carthroughthelittlemarket—toponFridaynightsinBeldover,throughasolidmassofhumanbeingsthatweremakingtheirpurchasesanddoingtheirweeklyspending。Theywereallsubordinatetohim。Theywereuglyanduncouth,buttheywerehisinstruments。HewastheGodofthemachine。Theymadewayforhismotor—carautomatically,slowly。

  Hedidnotcarewhethertheymadewaywithalacrity,orgrudgingly。

  Hedidnotcarewhattheythoughtofhim。Hisvisionhadsuddenlycrystallised。

  Suddenlyhehadconceivedthepureinstrumentalityofmankind。Therehadbeensomuchhumanitarianism,somuchtalkofsufferingsandfeelings。

  Itwasridiculous。Thesufferingsandfeelingsofindividualsdidnotmatterintheleast。Theyweremereconditions,liketheweather。Whatmatteredwasthepureinstrumentalityoftheindividual。Asamanasofaknife:

  doesitcutwell?Nothingelsemattered。

  Everythingintheworldhasitsfunction,andisgoodornotgoodinsofarasitfulfilsthisfunctionmoreorlessperfectly。Wasamineragoodminer?Thenhewascomplete。Wasamanageragoodmanager?Thatwasenough。Geraldhimself,whowasresponsibleforallthisindustry,washeagooddirector?Ifhewere,hehadfulfilledhislife。Therestwasby—play。

  Themineswerethere,theywereold。Theyweregivingout,itdidnotpaytoworktheseams。Therewastalkofclosingdowntwoofthem。ItwasatthispointthatGeraldarrivedonthescene。

  Helookedaround。Therelaythemines。Theywereold,obsolete。Theywerelikeoldlions,nomoregood。Helookedagain。Pah!themineswerenothingbuttheclumsyeffortsofimpureminds。Theretheylay,abortionsofahalf—trainedmind。Lettheideaofthembesweptaway。Heclearedhisbrainofthem,andthoughtonlyofthecoalintheunderearth。Howmuchwasthere?

  Therewasplentyofcoal。Theoldworkingscouldnotgetatit,thatwasall。Thenbreaktheneckoftheoldworkings。Thecoallaythereinitsseams,eventhoughtheseamswerethin。Thereitlay,inertmatter,asithadalwayslain,sincethebeginningoftime,subjecttothewillofman。Thewillofmanwasthedeterminingfactor。Manwasthearchgodofearth。Hismindwasobedienttoservehiswill。Man\'swillwastheabsolute,theonlyabsolute。

  AnditwashiswilltosubjugateMattertohisownends。Thesubjugationitselfwasthepoint,thefightwasthebe—all,thefruitsofvictoryweremereresults。ItwasnotforthesakeofmoneythatGeraldtookoverthemines。Hedidnotcareaboutmoney,fundamentally。Hewasneitherostentatiousnorluxurious,neitherdidhecareaboutsocialposition,notfinally。

  Whathewantedwasthepurefulfilmentofhisownwillinthestrugglewiththenaturalconditions。Hiswillwasnow,totakethecoaloutoftheearth,profitably。Theprofitwasmerelytheconditionofvictory,butthevictoryitselflayinthefeatachieved。Hevibratedwithzestbeforethechallenge。Everydayhewasinthemines,examining,testing,heconsultedexperts,hegraduallygatheredthewholesituationintohismind,asageneralgraspstheplanofhiscampaign。

  Thentherewasneedforacompletebreak。Themineswererunonanoldsystem,anobsoleteidea。Theinitialideahadbeen,toobtainasmuchmoneyfromtheearthaswouldmaketheownerscomfortablyrich,wouldallowtheworkmensufficientwagesandgoodconditions,andwouldincreasethewealthofthecountryaltogether。Gerald\'sfather,followinginthesecondgeneration,havingasufficientfortune,hadthoughtonlyofthemen。Themines,forhim,wereprimarilygreatfieldstoproducebreadandplentyforallthehundredsofhumanbeingsgatheredaboutthem。Hehadlivedandstrivenwithhisfellowownerstobenefitthemeneverytime。Andthemenhadbeenbenefitedintheirfashion。Therewerefewpoor,andfewneedy。

  Allwasplenty,becausetheminesweregoodandeasytowork。Andtheminers,inthosedays,findingthemselvesricherthantheymighthaveexpected,feltgladandtriumphant。Theythoughtthemselveswell—off,theycongratulatedthemselvesontheirgood—fortune,theyrememberedhowtheirfathershadstarvedandsuffered,andtheyfeltthatbettertimeshadcome。Theyweregratefultothoseothers,thepioneers,thenewowners,whohadopenedoutthepits,andletforththisstreamofplenty。

  Butmanisneversatisfied,andsotheminers,fromgratitudetotheirowners,passedontomurmuring。Theirsufficiencydecreasedwithknowledge,theywantedmore。Whyshouldthemasterbesoout—of—all—proportionrich?

  TherewasacrisiswhenGeraldwasaboy,whentheMasters\'Federationcloseddowntheminesbecausethemenwouldnotacceptareduction。Thislock—outhadforcedhomethenewconditionstoThomasCrich。BelongingtotheFederation,hehadbeencompelledbyhishonourtoclosethepitsagainsthismen。He,thefather,thePatriarch,wasforcedtodenythemeansoflifetohissons,hispeople。He,therichmanwhowouldhardlyenterheavenbecauseofhispossessions,mustnowturnuponthepoor,uponthosewhowerenearerChristthanhimself,thosewhowerehumbleanddespisedandclosertoperfection,thosewhoweremanlyandnobleintheirlabours,andmustsaytothem:`Yeshallneitherlabournoreatbread。\'

  Itwasthisrecognitionofthestateofwarwhichreallybrokehisheart。

  Hewantedhisindustrytoberunonlove。Oh,hewantedlovetobethedirectingpowerevenofthemines。Andnow,fromunderthecloakoflove,theswordwascynicallydrawn,theswordofmechanicalnecessity。

  Thisreallybrokehisheart。Hemusthavetheillusionandnowtheillusionwasdestroyed。Themenwerenotagainsthim,buttheywereagainstthemasters。Itwaswar,andwillynillyhefoundhimselfonthewrongside,inhisownconscience。Seethingmassesofminersmetdaily,carriedawaybyanewreligiousimpulse。Theideaflewthroughthem:`Allmenareequalonearth,\'andtheywouldcarrytheideatoitsmaterialfulfilment。

  Afterall,isitnottheteachingofChrist?Andwhatisanidea,ifnotthegermofactioninthematerialworld。`Allmenareequalinspirit,theyareallsonsofGod。Whencethenthisobviousdisquality?\'

  Itwasareligiouscreedpushedtoitsmaterialconclusion。ThomasCrichatleasthadnoanswer。Hecouldbutadmit,accordingtohissinceretenets,thatthedisqualitywaswrong。Buthecouldnotgiveuphisgoods,whichwerethestuffofdisquality。Sothemenwouldfightfortheirrights。

  Thelastimpulsesofthelastreligiouspassionleftonearth,thepassionforequality,inspiredthem。

  Seethingmobsofmenmarchedabout,theirfaceslightedupasforholywar,withasmokeofcupidity。Howdisentanglethepassionforequalityfromthepassionofcupidity,whenbeginsthefightforequalityofpossessions?

  ButtheGodwasthemachine。EachmanclaimedequalityintheGodheadofthegreatproductivemachine。EverymanequallywaspartofthisGodhead。

  Butsomehow,somewhere,ThomasCrichknewthiswasfalse。WhenthemachineistheGodhead,andproductionorworkisworship,thenthemostmechanicalmindispurestandhighest,therepresentativeofGodonearth。Andtherestaresubordinate,eachaccordingtohisdegree。

  Riotsbrokeout,Whatmorepit—headwasinflames。Thiswasthepitfurthestinthecountry,nearthewoods。Soldierscame。FromthewindowsofShortlands,onthatfatalday,couldbeseentheflareoffireintheskynotfaroff,andnowthelittlecollierytrain,withtheworkmen\'scarriageswhichwereusedtoconveytheminerstothedistantWhatmore,wascrossingthevalleyfullofsoldiers,fullofredcoats。Thentherewasthefar—offsoundoffiring,thenthelaternewsthatthemobwasdispersed,onemanwasshotdead,thefirewasputout。

  Gerald,whowasaboy,wasfilledwiththewildestexcitementanddelight。

  Helongedtogowiththesoldierstoshootthemen。Buthewasnotallowedtogooutofthelodgegates。Atthegateswerestationedsentrieswithguns。Geraldstoodnearthemindelight,whilstgangsofderisiveminersstrolledupanddownthelanes,callingandjeering:

  `Nowthen,threeha\'portho\'coppers,let\'sseetheeshootthygun。\'

  Insultswerechalkedonthewallsandthefences,theservantsleft。

  AndallthiswhileThomasCrichwasbreakinghisheart,andgivingawayhundredsofpoundsincharity。Everywheretherewasfreefood,asurfeitoffreefood。Anybodycouldhavebreadforasking,andaloafcostonlythree—ha\'pence。Everydaytherewasafreeteasomewhere,thechildrenhadneverhadsomanytreatsintheirlives。OnFridayafternoongreatbasketfulsofbunsandcakesweretakenintotheschools,andgreatpitchersofmilk,theschoolchildrenhadwhattheywanted。Theyweresickwitheatingtoomuchcakeandmilk。

  Andthenitcametoanend,andthemenwentbacktowork。Butitwasneverthesameasbefore。Therewasanewsituationcreated,anewideareigned。Eveninthemachine,thereshouldbeequality。Nopartshouldbesubordinatetoanyotherpart:allshouldbeequal。Theinstinctforchaoshadentered。Mysticequalityliesinabstraction,notinhavingorindoing,whichareprocesses。Infunctionandprocess,oneman,onepart,mustofnecessitybesubordinatetoanother。Itisaconditionofbeing。

  Butthedesireforchaoshadrisen,andtheideaofmechanicalequalitywastheweaponofdisruptionwhichshouldexecutethewillofman,thewillforchaos。

  Geraldwasaboyatthetimeofthestrike,buthelongedtobeaman,tofightthecolliers。Thefatherhoweverwastrappedbetweentwohalftruths,andbroken。HewantedtobeapureChristian,oneandequalwithallmen。

  Heevenwantedtogiveawayallhehad,tothepoor。Yethewasagreatpromoterofindustry,andheknewperfectlythathemustkeephisgoodsandkeephisauthority。Thiswasasdivineanecessityinhim,astheneedtogiveawayallhepossessed——moredivine,even,sincethiswasthenecessityheactedupon。Yetbecausehedidnotactontheotherideal,itdominatedhim,hewasdyingofchagrinbecausehemustforfeitit。Hewantedtobeafatheroflovingkindnessandsacrificialbenevolence。

  Thecolliersshoutedtohimabouthisthousandsayear。Theywouldnotbedeceived。

  WhenGeraldgrewupinthewaysoftheworld,heshiftedtheposition。

  Hedidnotcareabouttheequality。ThewholeChristianattitudeofloveandself—sacrificewasoldhat。Heknewthatpositionandauthorityweretherightthingintheworld,anditwasuselesstocantaboutit。Theyweretherightthing,forthesimplereasonthattheywerefunctionallynecessary。Theywerenotthebe—allandtheend—all。Itwaslikebeingpartofamachine。Hehimselfhappenedtobeacontrolling,centralpart,themassesofmenwerethepartsvariouslycontrolled。Thiswasmerelyasithappened。Aswellgetexcitedbecauseacentralhubdrivesahundredouterwheelsorbecausethewholeuniversewheelsroundthesun。Afterall,itwouldbemeresillinesstosaythatthemoonandtheearthandSaturnandJupiterandVenushavejustasmuchrighttobethecentreoftheuniverse,eachofthemseparately,asthesun。Suchanassertionismademerelyinthedesireofchaos。

  Withoutbotheringtothinktoaconclusion,Geraldjumpedtoaconclusion。Heabandonedthewholedemocratic—equalityproblemasaproblemofsilliness。Whatmatteredwasthegreatsocialproductivemachine。Letthatworkperfectly,letitproduceasufficiencyofeverything,leteverymanbegivenarationalportion,greaterorlessaccordingtohisfunctionaldegreeormagnitude,andthen,provisionmade,letthedevilsupervene,leteverymanlookafterhisownamusementsandappetites,solongasheinterferedwithnobody。

  SoGeraldsethimselftowork,toputthegreatindustryinorder。Inhistravels,andinhisaccompanyingreadings,hehadcometotheconclusionthattheessentialsecretoflifewasharmony。Hedidnotdefinetohimselfatallclearlywhatharmonywas。Thewordpleasedhim,hefelthehadcometohisownconclusions。Andheproceededtoputhisphilosophyintopracticebyforcingorderintotheestablishedworld,translatingthemysticwordharmonyintothepracticalwordorganisation。

  Immediatelyhesawthefirm,herealisedwhathecoulddo。HehadafighttofightwithMatter,withtheearthandthecoalitenclosed。

  Thiswasthesoleidea,toturnupontheinanimatematteroftheunderground,andreduceittohiswill。Andforthisfightwithmatter,onemusthaveperfectinstrumentsinperfectorganisation,amechanismsosubtleandharmoniousinitsworkingsthatitrepresentsthesinglemindofman,andbyitsrelentlessrepetitionofgivenmovement,willaccomplishapurposeirresistibly,inhumanly。ItwasthisinhumanprincipleinthemechanismhewantedtoconstructthatinspiredGeraldwithanalmostreligiousexaltation。

  He,theman,couldinterposeaperfect,changeless,godlikemediumbetweenhimselfandtheMatterhehadtosubjugate。Thereweretwoopposites,hiswillandtheresistantMatteroftheearth。Andbetweenthesehecouldestablishtheveryexpressionofhiswill,theincarnationofhispower,agreatandperfectmachine,asystem,anactivityofpureorder,puremechanicalrepetition,repetitionadinfinitum,henceeternalandinfinite。

  Hefoundhiseternalandhisinfiniteinthepuremachine—principleofperfectco—ordinationintoonepure,complex,infinitelyrepeatedmotion,likethespinningofawheel;butaproductivespinning,astherevolvingoftheuniversemaybecalledaproductivespinning,aproductiverepetitionthrougheternity,toinfinity。AndthisistheGodmotion,thisproductiverepetitionadinfinitum。AndGeraldwastheGodofthemachine,DeusexMachina。AndthewholeproductivewillofmanwastheGodhead。

  Hehadhislife—worknow,toextendovertheearthagreatandperfectsysteminwhichthewillofmanransmoothandunthwarted,timeless,aGodheadinprocess。Hehadtobeginwiththemines。Thetermsweregiven:

  firsttheresistantMatteroftheunderground;thentheinstrumentsofitssubjugation,instrumentshumanandmetallic;andfinallyhisownpurewill,hisownmind。Itwouldneedamarvellousadjustmentofmyriadinstruments,human,animal,metallic,kinetic,dynamic,amarvellouscastingofmyriadtinywholesintoonegreatperfectentirety。Andthen,inthiscasetherewasperfectionattained,thewillofthehighestwasperfectlyfulfilled,thewillofmankindwasperfectlyenacted;forwasnotmankindmysticallycontra—distinguishedagainstinanimateMatter,wasnotthehistoryofmankindjustthehistoryoftheconquestoftheonebytheother?

  Theminerswereoverreached。Whiletheywerestillinthetoilsofdivineequalityofman,Geraldhadpassedon,grantedessentiallytheircase,andproceededinhisqualityofhumanbeingtofulfilthewillofmankindasawhole。Hemerelyrepresentedtheminersinahighersensewhenheperceivedthattheonlywaytofulfilperfectlythewillofmanwastoestablishtheperfect,inhumanmachine。Butherepresentedthemveryessentially,theywerefarbehind,outofdate,squabblingfortheirmaterialequality。

  Thedesirehadalreadytransmutedintothisnewandgreaterdesire,foraperfectinterveningmechanismbetweenmanandMatter,thedesiretotranslatetheGodheadintopuremechanism。

  AssoonasGeraldenteredthefirm,theconvulsionofdeathranthroughtheoldsystem。Hehadallhislifebeentorturedbyafuriousanddestructivedemon,whichpossessedhimsometimeslikeaninsanity。Thistempernowenteredlikeavirusintothefirm,andtherewerecrueleruptions。Terribleandinhumanwerehisexaminationsintoeverydetail;therewasnoprivacyhewouldspare,nooldsentimentbuthewouldturnitover。Theoldgreymanagers,theoldgreyclerks,thedodderingoldpensioners,helookedatthem,andremovedthemassomuchlumber。Thewholeconcernseemedlikeahospitalofinvalidemployees。Hehadnoemotionalqualms。Hearrangedwhatpensionswerenecessary,helookedforefficientsubstitutes,andwhenthesewerefound,hesubstitutedthemfortheoldhands。

  `I\'veapitifulletterherefromLetherington,\'hisfatherwouldsay,inatoneofdeprecationandappeal。`Don\'tyouthinkthepoorfellowmightkeeponalittlelonger。Ialwaysfanciedhedidverywell。\'

  `I\'vegotamaninhisplacenow,father。He\'llbehappieroutofit,believeme。Youthinkhisallowanceisplenty,don\'tyou?\'

  `Itisnottheallowancethathewants,poorman。Hefeelsitverymuch,thatheissuperannuated。Sayshethoughthehadtwentymoreyearsofworkinhimyet。\'

  `NotofthiskindofworkIwant。Hedoesn\'tunderstand。\'

  Thefathersighed。Hewantednottoknowanymore。Hebelievedthepitswouldhavetobeoverhaulediftheyweretogoonworking。Andafterall,itwouldbeworstinthelongrunforeverybody,iftheymustclosedown。

  Sohecouldmakenoanswertotheappealsofhisoldandtrustyservants,hecouldonlyrepeat`Geraldsays。\'

  Sothefatherdrewmoreandmoreoutofthelight。Thewholeframeofthereallifewasbrokenforhim。Hehadbeenrightaccordingtohislights。

  Andhislightshadbeenthoseofthegreatreligion。Yettheyseemedtohavebecomeobsolete,tobesupersededintheworld。Hecouldnotunderstand。

  Heonlywithdrewwithhislightsintoaninnerroom,intothesilence。

  Thebeautifulcandlesofbelief,thatwouldnotdotolighttheworldanymore,theywouldstillburnsweetlyandsufficientlyintheinnerroomofhissoul,andinthesilenceofhisretirement。

  Geraldrushedintothereformofthefirm,beginningwiththeoffice。

  Itwasneedfultoeconomiseseverely,tomakepossiblethegreatalterationshemustintroduce。

  `Whatarethesewidows\'coals?\'heasked。

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