第14章
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  `Hue!Hi—eee!\'cameasuddenloudshoutfromtheedgeofthegrove。

  Thecattlebrokeandfellbackquitespontaneously,wentrunningupthehill,theirfleecewavinglikefiretotheirmotion。Gudrunstoodsuspendedoutonthegrass,Ursularosetoherfeet。

  ItwasGeraldandBirkincometofindthem,andGeraldhadcriedouttofrightenoffthecattle。

  `Whatdoyouthinkyou\'redoing?\'henowcalled,inahigh,wonderingvexedtone。

  `Whyhaveyoucome?\'camebackGudrun\'sstridentcryofanger。

  `Whatdoyouthinkyouweredoing?\'Geraldrepeated,auto—matically。

  `Weweredoingeurythmics,\'laughedUrsula,inashakenvoice。

  Gudrunstoodalooflookingatthemwithlargedarkeyesofresentment,suspendedforafewmoments。Thenshewalkedawayupthehill,afterthecattle,whichhadgatheredinalittle,spell—boundclusterhigherup。

  `Whereareyougoing?\'Geraldcalledafterher。Andhefollowedherupthehill—side。Thesunhadgonebehindthehill,andshadowswereclingingtotheearth,theskyabovewasfulloftravellinglight。

  `Apoorsongforadance,\'saidBirkintoUrsula,standingbeforeherwithasardonic,flickeringlaughonhisface。Andinanothersecond,hewassingingsoftlytohimself,anddancingagrotesquestep—danceinfrontofher,hislimbsandbodyshakingloose,hisfaceflickeringpalely,aconstantthing,whilsthisfeetbeatarapidmockingtattoo,andhisbodyseemedtohangalllooseandquakinginbetween,likeashadow。

  `Ithinkwe\'veallgonemad,\'shesaid,laughingratherfrightened。

  `Pitywearen\'tmadder,\'heanswered,ashekeptuptheincessantshakingdance。Thensuddenlyheleaneduptoherandkissedherfingerslightly,puttinghisfacetohersandlookingintohereyeswithapalegrin。Shesteppedback,affronted。

  `Offended——?\'heaskedironically,suddenlygoingquitestillandreservedagain。`Ithoughtyoulikedthelightfantastic。\'

  `Notlikethat,\'shesaid,confusedandbewildered,almostaffronted。

  Yetsomewhereinsidehershewasfascinatedbythesightofhisloose,vibratingbody,perfectlyabandonedtoitsowndroppingandswinging,andbythepallid,sardonic—smilingfaceabove。Yetautomaticallyshestiffenedherselfaway,anddisapproved。Itseemedalmostanobscenity,inamanwhotalkedasarulesoveryseriously。

  `Whynotlikethat?\'hemocked。Andimmediatelyhedroppedagainintotheincrediblyrapid,slack—wagglingdance,watchinghermalevolently。

  Andmovingintherapid,stationarydance,hecamealittlenearer,andreachedforwardwithanincrediblymocking,satiricgleamonhisface,andwouldhavekissedheragain,hadshenotstartedback。

  `No,don\'t!\'shecried,reallyafraid。

  `Cordeliaafterall,\'hesaidsatirically。Shewasstung,asifthiswereaninsult。Sheknewheintendeditassuch,anditbewilderedher。

  `Andyou,\'shecriedinretort,`whydoyoualwaystakeyoursoulinyourmouth,sofrightfullyfull?\'

  `SothatIcanspititoutthemorereadily,\'hesaid,pleasedbyhisownretort。

  GeraldCrich,hisfacenarrowingtoanintentgleam,followedupthehillwithquickstrides,straightafterGudrun。Thecattlestoodwiththeirnosestogetheronthebrowofaslope,watchingthescenebelow,themeninwhitehoveringaboutthewhiteformsofthewomen,watchingaboveallGudrun,whowasadvancingslowlytowardsthem。Shestoodamoment,glancingbackatGerald,andthenatthecattle。

  Theninasuddenmotion,sheliftedherarmsandrushedsheeruponthelong—hornedbullocks,inshudderingirregularruns,pausingforasecondandlookingatthem,thenliftingherhandsandrunningforwardwithaflash,tilltheyceasedpawingtheground,andgaveway,snortingwithterror,liftingtheirheadsfromthegroundandflingingthemselvesaway,gallopingoffintotheevening,becomingtinyinthedistance,andstillnotstopping。

  Gudrunremainedstaringafterthem,withamask—likedefiantface。

  `Whydoyouwanttodrivethemmad?\'askedGerald,comingupwithher。

  Shetooknonoticeofhim,onlyavertedherfacefromhim。`It\'snotsafe,youknow,\'hepersisted。`They\'renasty,whentheydoturn。\'

  `Turnwhere?Turnaway?\'shemockedloudly。

  `No,\'hesaid,`turnagainstyou。\'

  `Turnagainstme?\'shemocked。

  Hecouldmakenothingofthis。

  `Anyway,theygoredoneofthefarmer\'scowstodeath,theotherday,\'

  hesaid。

  `WhatdoIcare?\'shesaid。

  `Icaredthough,\'hereplied,`seeingthatthey\'remycattle。\'

  `Howaretheyyours!Youhaven\'tswallowedthem。Givemeoneofthemnow,\'shesaid,holdingoutherhand。

  `Youknowwheretheyare,\'hesaid,pointingoverthehill。`Youcanhaveoneifyou\'dlikeitsenttoyoulateron。\'

  Shelookedathiminscrutably。

  `YouthinkI\'mafraidofyouandyourcattle,don\'tyou?\'sheasked。

  Hiseyesnarroweddangerously。Therewasafaintdomineeringsmileonhisface。

  `WhyshouldIthinkthat?\'hesaid。

  Shewaswatchinghimallthetimewithherdark,dilated,inchoateeyes。

  Sheleanedforwardandswungroundherarm,catchinghimalightblowonthefacewiththebackofherhand。

  `That\'swhy,\'shesaid,mocking。

  Andshefeltinhersoulanunconquerabledesirefordeepviolenceagainsthim。Sheshutoffthefearanddismaythatfilledherconsciousmind。Shewantedtodoasshedid,shewasnotgoingtobeafraid。

  Herecoiledfromtheslightblowonhisface。Hebecamedeadlypale,andadangerousflamedarkenedhiseyes。Forsomesecondshecouldnotspeak,hislungsweresosuffusedwithblood,hisheartstretchedalmosttoburstingwithagreatgushofungovernableemotion。Itwasasifsomereservoirofblackemotionhadburstwithinhim,andswampedhim。

  `Youhavestruckthefirstblow,\'hesaidatlast,forcingthewordsfromhislungs,inavoicesosoftandlow,itsoundedlikeadreamwithinher,notspokenintheouterair。

  `AndIshallstrikethelast,\'sheretortedinvoluntarily,withconfidentassurance。Hewassilent,hedidnotcontradicther。

  Shestoodnegligently,staringawayfromhim,intothedistance。Ontheedgeofherconsciousnessthequestionwasaskingitself,automatically:

  `Whyareyoubehavinginthisimpossibleandridiculousfashion。\'Butshewassullen,shehalfshovedthequestionoutofherself。

  Shecouldnotgetitcleanaway,soshefeltself—conscious。

  Gerald,verypale,waswatchingherclosely。Hiseyeswerelitupwithintentlights,absorbedandgleaming。Sheturnedsuddenlyonhim。

  `It\'syouwhomakemebehavelikethis,youknow,\'shesaid,almostsuggestive。

  `I?How?\'hesaid。

  Butsheturnedaway,andsetofftowardsthelake。Below,onthewater,lanternswerecomingalight,faintghostsofwarmflamefloatinginthepallorofthefirsttwilight。Theearthwasspreadwithdarkness,likelacquer,overheadwasapalesky,allprimrose,andthelakewaspaleasmilkinonepart。Awayatthelandingstage,tiniestpointsofcolouredrayswerestringingthemselvesinthedusk。Thelaunchwasbeingilluminated。

  Allround,shadowwasgatheringfromthetrees。

  Gerald,whitelikeapresenceinhissummerclothes,wasfollowingdowntheopengrassyslope。Gudrunwaitedforhimtocomeup。Thenshesoftlyputoutherhandandtouchedhim,sayingsoftly:

  `Don\'tbeangrywithme。\'

  Aflameflewoverhim,andhewasunconscious。Yethestammered:

  `I\'mnotangrywithyou。I\'minlovewithyou。\'

  Hismindwasgone,hegraspedforsufficientmechanicalcontrol,tosavehimself。Shelaughedasilverylittlemockery,yetintolerablycaressive。

  `That\'sonewayofputtingit,\'shesaid。

  Theterribleswooningburdenonhismind,theawfulswooning,thelossofallhiscontrol,wastoomuchforhim。Hegraspedherarminhisonehand,asifhishandwereiron。

  `It\'sallright,then,isit?\'hesaid,holdingherarrested。

  Shelookedatthefacewiththefixedeyes,setbeforeher,andherbloodrancold。

  `Yes,it\'sallright,\'shesaidsoftly,asifdrugged,hervoicecrooningandwitch—like。

  Hewalkedonbesideher,astriding,mindlessbody。Butherecoveredalittleashewent。Hesufferedbadly。Hehadkilledhisbrotherwhenaboy,andwassetapart,likeCain。

  TheyfoundBirkinandUrsulasittingtogetherbytheboats,talkingandlaughing。BirkinhadbeenteasingUrsula。

  `Doyousmellthislittlemarsh?\'hesaid,sniffingtheair。Hewasverysensitivetoscents,andquickinunderstandingthem。

  `It\'srathernice,\'shesaid。

  `No,\'hereplied,`alarming。\'

  `Whyalarming?\'shelaughed。

  `Itseethesandseethes,ariverofdarkness,\'hesaid,`puttingforthliliesandsnakes,andtheignisfatuus,androllingallthetimeonward。

  That\'swhatwenevertakeintocount——thatitrollsonwards。\'

  `Whatdoes?\'

  `Theotherriver,theblackriver。Wealwaysconsiderthesilverriveroflife,rollingonandquickeningalltheworldtoabrightness,onandontoheaven,flowingintoabrighteternalsea,aheavenofangelsthronging。

  Buttheotherisourrealreality——\'

  `Butwhatother?Idon\'tseeanyother,\'saidUrsula。

  `Itisyourreality,nevertheless,\'hesaid;`thatdarkriverofdissolution。

  Youseeitrollsinusjustastheotherrolls——theblackriverofcorruption。

  Andourflowersareofthis——oursea—bornAphrodite,allourwhitephosphorescentflowersofsensuousperfection,allourreality,nowadays。\'

  `YoumeanthatAphroditeisreallydeathly?\'askedUrsula。

  `Imeansheisthefloweringmysteryofthedeath—process,yes,\'hereplied。`Whenthestreamofsyntheticcreationlapses,wefindourselvespartoftheinverseprocess,thebloodofdestructivecreation。Aphroditeisborninthefirstspasmofuniversaldissolution——thenthesnakesandswansandlotus——marsh—flowers——andGudrunandGerald——bornintheprocessofdestructivecreation。\'

  `Andyouandme——?\'sheasked。

  `Probably,\'hereplied。`Inpart,certainly。Whetherwearethat,intoto,Idon\'tyetknow。\'

  `Youmeanweareflowersofdissolution——fleursdumal?Idon\'tfeelasifIwere,\'sheprotested。

  Hewassilentforatime。

  `Idon\'tfeelasifwewere,altogether,\'hereplied。`Somepeoplearepureflowersofdarkcorruption——lilies。Butthereoughttobesomeroses,warmandflamy。YouknowHerakleitossays\"adrysoulisbest。\"

  Iknowsowellwhatthatmeans。Doyou?\'

  `I\'mnotsure,\'Ursulareplied。`Butwhatifpeopleareallflowersofdissolution——whenthey\'reflowersatall——whatdifferencedoesitmake?\'

  `Nodifference——andallthedifference。Dissolutionrollson,justasproductiondoes,\'hesaid。`Itisaprogressiveprocess——anditendsinuniversalnothing——theendoftheworld,ifyoulike。Butwhyisn\'ttheendoftheworldasgoodasthebeginning?\'

  `Isupposeitisn\'t,\'saidUrsula,ratherangry。

  `Ohyes,ultimately,\'hesaid。`Itmeansanewcycleofcreationafter——butnotforus。Ifitistheend,thenweareoftheend——fleursdumalifyoulike。Ifwearefleursdumal,wearenotrosesofhappiness,andthereyouare。\'

  `ButIthinkIam,\'saidUrsula。`IthinkIamaroseofhappiness。\'

  `Ready—made?\'heaskedironically。

  `No——real,\'shesaid,hurt。

  `Ifwearetheend,wearenotthebeginning,\'hesaid。

  `Yesweare,\'shesaid。`Thebeginningcomesoutoftheend。\'

  `Afterit,notoutofit。Afterus,notoutofus。\'

  `Youareadevil,youknow,really,\'shesaid。`Youwanttodestroyourhope。Youwantustobedeathly。\'

  `No,\'hesaid,`Ionlywantustoknowwhatweare。\'

  `Ha!\'shecriedinanger。`Youonlywantustoknowdeath。\'

  `You\'requiteright,\'saidthesoftvoiceofGerald,outoftheduskbehind。

  Birkinrose。GeraldandGudruncameup。Theyallbegantosmoke,inthemomentsofsilence。Oneafteranother,Birkinlightedtheircigarettes。

  Thematchflickeredinthetwilight,andtheywereallsmokingpeacefullybythewater—side。Thelakewasdim,thelightdyingfromoffit,inthemidstofthedarkland。Theairallroundwasintangible,neitherherenorthere,andtherewasanunrealnoiseofbanjoes,orsuchlikemusic。

  Asthegoldenswimoflightoverheaddiedout,themoongainedbrightness,andseemedtobegintosmileforthherascendancy。Thedarkwoodsontheoppositeshoremeltedintouniversalshadow。Andamidthisuniversalunder—shadow,therewasascatteredintrusionoflights。Fardownthelakewerefantasticpalestringsofcolour,likebeadsofwanfire,greenandredandyellow。

  Themusiccameoutinalittlepuff,asthelaunch,allilluminated,veeredintothegreatshadow,stirringheroutlinesofhalf—livinglights,puffingouthermusicinlittledrifts。

  Allwerelightingup。Hereandthere,closeagainstthefaintwater,andatthefarendofthelake,wherethewaterlaymilkyinthelastwhitenessofthesky,andtherewasnoshadow,solitary,frailflamesoflanternsfloatedfromtheunseenboats。Therewasasoundofoars,andaboatpassedfromthepallorintothedarknessunderthewood,whereherlanternsseemedtokindleintofire,hanginginruddylovelyglobes。Andagain,inthelake,shadowyredgleamshoveredinreflectionabouttheboat。Everywherewerethesenoiselessruddycreaturesoffiredriftingnearthesurfaceofthewater,caughtatbytherarest,scarcevisiblereflections。

  Birkinbroughtthelanternsfromthebiggerboat,andthefourshadowywhitefiguresgatheredround,tolightthem。Ursulaheldupthefirst,Birkinloweredthelightfromtherosy,glowingcupofhishands,intothedepthsofthelantern。Itwaskindled,andtheyallstoodbacktolookatthegreatbluemoonoflightthathungfromUrsula\'shand,castingastrangegleamonherface。Itflickered,andBirkinwentbendingoverthewelloflight。Hisfaceshoneoutlikeanapparition,sounconscious,andagain,somethingdemoniacal。Ursulawasdimandveiled,loomingoverhim。

  `Thatisallright,\'saidhisvoicesoftly。

  Sheheldupthelantern。Ithadaflightofstorksstreamingthroughaturquoiseskyoflight,overadarkearth。

  `Thisisbeautiful,\'shesaid。

  `Lovely,\'echoedGudrun,whowantedtoholdonealso,andliftitupfullofbeauty。

  `Lightoneforme,\'shesaid。Geraldstoodbyher,incapacitated。Birkinlitthelanternsheheldup。Herheartbeatwithanxiety,toseehowbeautifulitwouldbe。Itwasprimroseyellow,withtallstraightflowersgrowingdarklyfromtheirdarkleaves,liftingtheirheadsintotheprimroseday,whilebutterflieshoveredaboutthem,inthepureclearlight。

  Gudrungavealittlecryofexcitement,asifpiercedwithdelight。

  `Isn\'titbeautiful,oh,isn\'titbeautiful!\'

  Hersoulwasreallypiercedwithbeauty,shewastranslatedbeyondherself。

  Geraldleanedneartoher,intoherzoneoflight,asiftosee。Hecameclosetoher,andstoodtouchingher,lookingwithherattheprimrose—shiningglobe。Andsheturnedherfacetohis,thatwasfaintlybrightinthelightofthelantern,andtheystoodtogetherinoneluminousunion,closetogetherandringedroundwithlight,alltherestexcluded。

  Birkinlookedaway,andwenttolightUrsula\'ssecondlantern。Ithadapaleruddysea—bottom,withblackcrabsandsea—weedmovingsinuouslyunderatransparentsea,thatpassedintoflamyruddinessabove。

  `You\'vegottheheavensabove,andthewatersundertheearth,\'saidBirkintoher。

  `Anythingbuttheearthitself,\'shelaughed,watchinghislivehandsthathoveredtoattendtothelight。

  `I\'mdyingtoseewhatmysecondoneis,\'criedGudrun,inavibratingratherstridentvoice,thatseemedtorepeltheothersfromher。

  Birkinwentandkindledit。Itwasofalovelydeepbluecolour,witharedfloor,andagreatwhitecuttle—fishflowinginwhitesoftstreamsalloverit。Thecuttle—fishhadafacethatstaredstraightfromtheheartofthelight,veryfixedandcoldlyintent。

  `Howtrulyterrifying!\'exclaimedGudrun,inavoiceofhorror。Gerald,atherside,gavealowlaugh。

  `Butisn\'titreallyfearful!\'shecriedindismay。

  Againhelaughed,andsaid:

  `ChangeitwithUrsula,forthecrabs。\'

  Gudrunwassilentforamoment。

  `Ursula,\'shesaid,`couldyoubeartohavethisfearfulthing?\'

  `Ithinkthecolouringislovely,\'saidUrsula。

  `SodoI,\'saidGudrun。`Butcouldyoubeartohaveitswingingtoyourboat?Don\'tyouwanttodestroyitatonce?\'

  `Ohno,\'saidUrsula。`Idon\'twanttodestroyit。\'

  `Welldoyoumindhavingitinsteadofthecrabs?Areyousureyoudon\'tmind?\'

  Gudruncameforwardtoexchangelanterns。

  `No,\'saidUrsula,yieldingupthecrabsandreceivingthecuttle—fish。

  YetshecouldnothelpfeelingratherresentfulatthewayinwhichGudrunandGeraldshouldassumearightoverher,aprecedence。

  `Comethen,\'saidBirkin。`I\'llputthemontheboats。\'

  HeandUrsulaweremovingawaytothebigboat。

  `Isupposeyou\'llrowmeback,Rupert,\'saidGerald,outofthepaleshadowoftheevening。

  `Won\'tyougowithGudruninthecanoe?\'saidBirkin。`It\'llbemoreinteresting。\'

  Therewasamoment\'spause。BirkinandUrsulastooddimly,withtheirswinginglanterns,bythewater\'sedge。Theworldwasallillusive。

  `Isthatallright?\'saidGudruntohim。

  `It\'llsuitmeverywell,\'hesaid。`Butwhataboutyou,andtherowing?Idon\'tseewhyyoushouldpullme。\'

  `Whynot?\'shesaid。`IcanpullyouaswellasIcouldpullUrsula。\'

  Byhertonehecouldtellshewantedtohavehimintheboattoherself,andthatshewassubtlygratifiedthatsheshouldhavepoweroverthemboth。Hegavehimself,inastrange,electricsubmission。

  Shehandedhimthelanterns,whilstshewenttofixthecaneattheendofthecanoe。Hefollowedafterher,andstoodwiththelanternsdanglingagainsthiswhite—flannelledthighs,emphasisingtheshadowaround。

  `Kissmebeforewego,\'camehisvoicesoftlyfromoutoftheshadowabove。

  Shestoppedherworkinreal,momentaryastonishment。

  `Butwhy?\'sheexclaimed,inpuresurprise。

  `Why?\'heechoed,ironically。

  Andshelookedathimfixedlyforsomemoments。Thensheleanedforwardandkissedhim,withaslow,luxuriouskiss,lingeringonthemouth。Andthenshetookthelanternsfromhim,whilehestoodswooningwiththeperfectfirethatburnedinallhisjoints。

  Theyliftedthecanoeintothewater,Gudruntookherplace,andGeraldpushedoff。

  `Areyousureyoudon\'thurtyourhand,doingthat?\'sheasked,solicitous。

  `BecauseIcouldhavedoneitperfectly。\'

  `Idon\'thurtmyself,\'hesaidinalow,softvoice,thatcaressedherwithinexpressiblebeauty。

  Andshewatchedhimashesatnearher,veryneartoher,inthesternofthecanoe,hislegscomingtowardshers,hisfeettouchinghers。Andshepaddledsoftly,lingeringly,longingforhimtosaysomethingmeaningfultoher。Butheremainedsilent。

  `Youlikethis,doyou?\'shesaid,inagentle,solicitousvoice。

  Helaughedshortly。

  `Thereisaspacebetweenus,\'hesaid,inthesamelow,unconsciousvoice,asifsomethingwerespeakingoutofhim。Andshewasasifmagicallyawareoftheirbeingbalancedinseparation,intheboat。Sheswoonedwithacutecomprehensionandpleasure。

  `ButI\'mverynear,\'shesaidcaressively,gaily。

  `Yetdistant,distant,\'hesaid。

  Againshewassilentwithpleasure,beforesheanswered,speakingwithareedy,thrilledvoice:

  `Yetwecannotverywellchange,whilstweareonthewater。\'Shecaressedhimsubtlyandstrangely,havinghimcompletelyathermercy。

  Adozenormoreboatsonthelakeswungtheirrosyandmoon—likelanternslowonthewater,thatreflectedasfromafire。Inthedistance,thesteamertwangedandthrummedandwashedwithherfaintly—splashingpaddles,trailingherstringsofcolouredlights,andoccasionallylightingupthewholesceneluridlywithaneffusionoffireworks,Romancandlesandsheafsofstarsandothersimpleeffects,illuminatingthesurfaceofthewater,andshowingtheboatscreepinground,lowdown。Thenthelovelydarknessfellagain,thelanternsandthelittlethreadedlightsglimmeredsoftly,therewasamuffledknockingofoarsandawavingofmusic。

  Gudrunpaddledalmostimperceptibly。Geraldcouldsee,notfarahead,therichblueandtheroseglobesofUrsula\'slanternsswayingsoftlycheektocheekasBirkinrowed,andiridescent,evanescentgleamschasinginthewake。Hewasaware,too,ofhisowndelicatelycolouredlightscastingtheirsoftnessbehindhim。

  Gudrunrestedherpaddleandlookedround。Thecanoeliftedwiththelightestebbingofthewater。Gerald\'swhitekneeswereveryneartoher。

  `Isn\'titbeautiful!\'shesaidsoftly,asifreverently。

  Shelookedathim,asheleanedbackagainstthefaintcrystalofthelantern—light。Shecouldseehisface,althoughitwasapureshadow。Butitwasapieceoftwilight。Andherbreastwaskeenwithpassionforhim,hewassobeautifulinhismalestillnessandmystery。Itwasacertainpureeffluenceofmaleness,likeanaromafromhissoftly,firmlymouldedcontours,acertainrichperfectionofhispresence,thattouchedherwithanecstasy,athrillofpureintoxication。Shelovedtolookathim。Forthepresentshedidnotwanttotouchhim,toknowthefurther,satisfyingsubstanceofhislivingbody。Hewaspurelyintangible,yetsonear。Herhandslayonthepaddlelikeslumber,sheonlywantedtoseehim,likeacrystalshadow,tofeelhisessentialpresence。

  `Yes,\'hesaidvaguely。`Itisverybeautiful。\'

  Hewaslisteningtothefaintnearsounds,thedroppingofwater—dropsfromtheoar—blades,theslightdrummingofthelanternsbehindhim,astheyrubbedagainstoneanother,theoccasionalrustlingofGudrun\'sfullskirt,analienlandnoise。Hismindwasalmostsubmerged,hewasalmosttransfused,lapsedoutforthefirsttimeinhislife,intothethingsabouthim。Forhealwayskeptsuchakeenattentiveness,concentratedandunyieldinginhimself。Nowhehadletgo,imperceptiblyhewasmeltingintoonenesswiththewhole。Itwaslikepure,perfectsleep,hisfirstgreatsleepoflife。Hehadbeensoinsistent,soguarded,allhislife。

  Butherewassleep,andpeace,andperfectlapsingout。

  `ShallIrowtothelanding—stage?\'askedGudrunwistfully。

  `Anywhere,\'heanswered。`Letitdrift。\'

  `Tellmethen,ifwearerunningintoanything,\'shereplied,inthatveryquiet,tonelessvoiceofsheerintimacy。

  `Thelightswillshow,\'hesaid。

  Sotheydriftedalmostmotionless,insilence。Hewantedsilence,pureandwhole。Butshewasuneasyyetforsomeword,forsomeassurance。

  `Nobodywillmissyou?\'sheasked,anxiousforsomecommunication。

  `Missme?\'heechoed。`No!Why?\'

  `Iwonderedifanybodywouldbelookingforyou。\'

  `Whyshouldtheylookforme?\'Andthenherememberedhismanners。`Butperhapsyouwanttogetback,\'hesaid,inachangedvoice。

  `No,Idon\'twanttogetback,\'shereplied。`No,Iassureyou。\'

  `You\'requitesureit\'sallrightforyou?\'

  `Perfectlyallright。\'

  Andagaintheywerestill。Thelaunchtwangedandhooted,somebodywassinging。Thenasifthenightsmashed,suddenlytherewasagreatshout,aconfusionofshouting,warringonthewater,thenthehorridnoiseofpaddlesreversedandchurnedviolently。

  Geraldsatup,andGudrunlookedathiminfear。

  `Somebodyinthewater,\'hesaid,angrily,anddesperately,lookingkeenlyacrossthedusk。`Canyourowup?\'

  `Where,tothelaunch?\'askedGudrun,innervouspanic。

  `Yes。\'

  `You\'lltellmeifIdon\'tsteerstraight,\'shesaid,innervousapprehension。

  `Youkeepprettylevel,\'hesaid,andthecanoehastenedforward。

  Theshoutingandthenoisecontinued,soundinghorridthroughthedusk,overthesurfaceofthewater。

  `Wasn\'tthisboundtohappen?\'saidGudrun,withheavyhatefulirony。Buthehardlyheard,andsheglancedoverhershouldertoseeherway。Thehalf—darkwatersweresprinkledwithlovelybubblesofswayinglights,thelaunchdidnotlookfaroff。Shewasrockingherlightsintheearlynight。Gudrunrowedashardasshecould。Butnowthatitwasaseriousmatter,sheseemeduncertainandclumsyinherstroke,itwasdifficulttopaddleswiftly。Sheglancedathisface。Hewaslookingfixedlyintothedarkness,verykeenandalertandsingleinhimself,instrumental。

  Herheartsank,sheseemedtodieadeath。`Ofcourse,\'shesaidtoherself,`nobodywillbedrowned。Ofcoursetheywon\'t。Itwouldbetooextravagantandsensational。\'Butherheartwascold,becauseofhissharpimpersonalface。Itwasasifhebelongednaturallytodreadandcatastrophe,asifhewerehimselfagain。

  Thentherecameachild\'svoice,agirl\'shigh,piercingshriek:

  `Di——Di——Di——Di——OhDi——OhDi——OhDi!\'

  ThebloodrancoldinGudrun\'sveins。

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