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  `No,really,it\'simpossible!\'Ursulawouldreplydistinctly。Andsothetwogirlstookitoutoftheiruniversalenemy。Buttheirfatherbecamemoreandmoreenraged。

  Ursulawasallsnowywhite,savethatherhatwaspink,andentirelywithouttrimming,andhershoesweredarkred,andshecarriedanorange—colouredcoat。AndinthisguisetheywerewalkingallthewaytoShortlands,theirfatherandmothergoinginfront。

  Theywerelaughingattheirmother,who,dressedinasummermaterialofblackandpurplestripes,andwearingahatofpurplestraw,wassettingforthwithmuchmoreoftheshynessandtrepidationofayounggirlthanherdaughterseverfelt,walkingdemurelybesideherhusband,who,asusual,lookedrathercrumpledinhisbestsuit,asifhewerethefatherofayoungfamilyandhadbeenholdingthebabywhilsthiswifegotdressed。

  `Lookattheyoungcoupleinfront,\'saidGudruncalmly。Ursulalookedathermotherandfather,andwassuddenlyseizedwithuncontrollablelaughter。

  Thetwogirlsstoodintheroadandlaughedtillthetearsrandowntheirfaces,astheycaughtsightagainoftheshy,unworldlycoupleoftheirparentsgoingonahead。

  `Weareroaringatyou,mother,\'calledUrsula,helplesslyfollowingafterherparents。

  MrsBrangwenturnedroundwithaslightlypuzzled,exasperatedlook。

  `Ohindeed!\'shesaid。`Whatistheresoveryfunnyaboutme,I

  shouldliketoknow?\'

  Shecouldnotunderstandthattherecouldbeanythingamisswithherappearance。Shehadaperfectcalmsufficiency,aneasyindifferencetoanycriticismwhatsoever,asifshewerebeyondit。Herclotheswerealwaysratherodd,andasaruleslip—shod,yetsheworethemwithaperfecteaseandsatisfaction。Whatevershehadon,solongasshewasbarelytidy,shewasright,beyondremark;suchanaristocratshewasbyinstinct。

  `Youlooksostately,likeacountryBaroness,\'saidUrsula,laughingwithalittletendernessathermother\'snaivepuzzledair。

  `JustlikeacountryBaroness!\'chimedinGudrun。Nowthemother\'snaturalhauteurbecameself—conscious,andthegirlsshriekedagain。

  `Gohome,youpairofidiots,greatgigglingidiots!\'criedthefatherinflamedwithirritation。

  `Mm—m—er!\'booedUrsula,pullingafaceathiscrossness。

  Theyellowlightsdancedinhiseyes,heleanedforwardinrealrage。

  `Don\'tbesosillyastotakeanynoticeofthegreatgabies,\'saidMrsBrangwen,turningonherway。

  `I\'llseeifI\'mgoingtobefollowedbyapairofgigglingyellingjackanapes——\'hecriedvengefully。

  Thegirlsstoodstill,laughinghelplesslyathisfury,uponthepathbesidethehedge。

  `Whyyou\'reassillyastheyare,totakeanynotice,\'saidMrsBrangwenalsobecomingangrynowhewasreallyenraged。

  `Therearesomepeoplecoming,father,\'criedUrsula,withmockingwarning。

  Heglancedroundquickly,andwentontojoinhiswife,walkingstiffwithrage。Andthegirlsfollowed,weakwithlaughter。

  Whenthepeoplehadpassedby,Brangwencriedinaloud,stupidvoice:

  `I\'mgoingbackhomeifthere\'sanymoreofthis。I\'mdamnedifI\'mgoingtobemadeafoolofinthisfashion,inthepublicroad。\'

  Hewasreallyoutoftemper。Atthesoundofhisblind,vindictivevoice,thelaughtersuddenlyleftthegirls,andtheirheartscontractedwithcontempt。Theyhatedhiswords`inthepublicroad。\'Whatdidtheycareforthepublicroad?ButGudrunwasconciliatory。

  `Butweweren\'tlaughingtohurtyou,\'shecried,withanuncouthgentlenesswhichmadeherparentsuncomfortable。`Wewerelaughingbecausewe\'refondofyou。\'

  `We\'llwalkoninfront,iftheyaresotouchy,\'saidUrsula,angry。AndinthiswisetheyarrivedatWilleyWater。Thelakewasblueandfair,themeadowsslopeddowninsunshineononeside,thethickdarkwoodsdroppedsteeplyontheother。Thelittlepleasure—launchwasfussingoutfromtheshore,twangingitsmusic,crowdedwithpeople,flappingitspaddles。Neartheboat—housewasathrongofgaily—dressedpersons,smallinthedistance。Andonthehigh—road,someofthecommonpeoplewerestandingalongthehedge,lookingatthefestivitybeyond,enviously,likesoulsnotadmittedtoparadise。

  `Myeye!\'saidGudrun,sottovoce,lookingatthemotleyofguests,`there\'saprettycrowdifyoulike!Imagineyourselfinthemidstofthat,mydear。\'

  Gudrun\'sapprehensivehorrorofpeopleinthemassunnervedUrsula。

  `Itlooksratherawful,\'shesaidanxiously。

  `Andimaginewhatthey\'llbelike——imagine!\'saidGudrun,stillinthatunnerving,subduedvoice。Yetsheadvanceddeterminedly。

  `Isupposewecangetawayfromthem,\'saidUrsulaanxiously。

  `We\'reinaprettyfixifwecan\'t,\'saidGudrun。HerextremeironicloathingandapprehensionwasverytryingtoUrsula。

  `Weneedn\'tstay,\'shesaid。

  `Icertainlyshan\'tstayfiveminutesamongthatlittlelot,\'saidGudrun。

  Theyadvancednearer,tilltheysawpolicemenatthegates。

  `Policementokeepyouin,too!\'saidGudrun。`Myword,thisisabeautifulaffair。\'

  `We\'dbetterlookafterfatherandmother,\'saidUrsulaanxiously。

  `Mother\'sperfectlycapableofgettingthroughthislittlecelebration,\'

  saidGudrunwithsomecontempt。

  ButUrsulaknewthatherfatherfeltuncouthandangryandunhappy,soshewasfarfromherease。Theywaitedoutsidethegatetilltheirparentscameup。Thetall,thinmaninhiscrumpledclotheswasunnervedandirritableasaboy,findinghimselfonthebrinkofthissocialfunction。Hedidnotfeelagentleman,hedidnotfeelanythingexceptpureexasperation。

  Ursulatookherplaceathisside,theygavetheirticketstothepoliceman,andpassedinontothegrass,fourabreast;thetall,hot,ruddy—darkmanwithhisnarrowboyishbrowdrawnwithirritation,thefresh—faced,easywoman,perfectlycollectedthoughherhairwasslippingononeside,thenGudrun,hereyesroundanddarkandstaring,herfullsoftfaceimpassive,almostsulky,sothatsheseemedtobebackingawayinantagonismevenwhilstshewasadvancing;andthenUrsula,withtheodd,brilliant,dazzledlookonherface,thatalwayscamewhenshewasinsomefalsesituation。

  Birkinwasthegoodangel。Hecamesmilingtothemwithhisaffectedsocialgrace,thatsomehowwasneverquiteright。Buthetookoffhishatandsmiledatthemwitharealsmileinhiseyes,sothatBrangwencriedoutheartilyinrelief:

  `Howdoyoudo?You\'rebetter,areyou?\'

  `Yes,I\'mbetter。Howdoyoudo,MrsBrangwen?IknowGudrunandUrsulaverywell。\'

  Hiseyessmiledfullofnaturalwarmth。Hehadasoft,flatteringmannerwithwomen,particularlywithwomenwhowerenotyoung。

  `Yes,\'saidMrsBrangwen,coolbutyetgratified。`Ihaveheardthemspeakofyouoftenenough。\'

  Helaughed。Gudrunlookedaside,feelingshewasbeingbelittled。Peoplewerestandingaboutingroups,somewomenweresittingintheshadeofthewalnuttree,withcupsofteaintheirhands,awaiterineveningdresswashurryinground,somegirlsweresimperingwithparasols,someyoungmen,whohadjustcomeinfromrowing,weresittingcross—leggedonthegrass,coatless,theirshirt—sleevesrolledupinmanlyfashion,theirhandsrestingontheirwhiteflanneltrousers,theirgaudytiesfloatingabout,astheylaughedandtriedtobewittywiththeyoungdamsels。

  `Why,\'thoughtGudrunchurlishly,`don\'ttheyhavethemannerstoputtheircoatson,andnottoassumesuchintimacyintheirappearance。\'

  Sheabhorredtheordinaryyoungman,withhishairplasteredback,andhiseasy—goingchumminess。

  HermioneRoddicecameup,inahandsomegownofwhitelace,trailinganenormoussilkshawlblotchedwithgreatembroideredflowers,andbalancinganenormousplainhatonherhead。Shelookedstriking,astonishing,almostmacabre,sotall,withthefringeofhergreatcream—colouredvividly—blotchedshawltrailingonthegroundafterher,herthickhaircominglowoverhereyes,herfacestrangeandlongandpale,andtheblotchesofbrilliantcolourdrawnroundher。

  `Doesn\'tshelookweird!\'Gudrunheardsomegirlstitterbehindher。Andshecouldhavekilledthem。

  `Howdoyoudo!\'sangHermione,comingupverykindly,andglancingslowlyoverGudrun\'sfatherandmother。Itwasatryingmoment,exasperatingforGudrun。Hermionewasreallysostronglyentrenchedinherclasssuperiority,shecouldcomeupandknowpeopleoutofsimplecuriosity,asiftheywerecreaturesonexhibition。Gudrunwoulddothesameherself。Butsheresentedbeinginthepositionwhensomebodymightdoittoher。

  Hermione,veryremarkable,anddistinguishingtheBrangwensverymuch,ledthemalongtowhereLauraCrichstoodreceivingtheguests。

  `ThisisMrsBrangwen,\'sangHermione,andLaura,whoworeastiffembroideredlinendress,shookhandsandsaidshewasgladtoseeher。ThenGeraldcameup,dressedinwhite,withablackandbrownblazer,andlookinghandsome。

  HetoowasintroducedtotheBrangwenparents,andimmediatelyhespoketoMrsBrangwenasifshewerealady,andtoBrangwenasifhewerenotagentleman。Gerladwassoobviousinhisdemeanour。Hehadtoshakehandswithhislefthand,becausehehadhurthisright,andcarriedit,bandagedup,inthepocketofhisjacket。Gudrunwasverythankfulthatnoneofherpartyaskedhimwhatwasthematterwiththehand。

  Thesteamlaunchwasfussingin,allitsmusicjingling,peoplecallingexcitedlyfromonboard。Geraldwenttoseetothedebarkation,BirkinwasgettingteaforMrsBrangwen,BrangwenhadjoinedaGrammar—Schoolgroup,Hermionewassittingdownbytheirmother,thegirlswenttothelanding—stagetowatchthelaunchcomein。

  Shehootedandtootedgaily,thenherpaddlesweresilent,theropeswerethrownashore,shedriftedinwithalittlebump。Immediatelythepassengerscrowdedexcitedlytocomeashore。

  `Waitaminute,waitaminute,\'shoutedGeraldinsharpcommand。

  Theymustwaittilltheboatwastightontheropes,tillthesmallgangwaywasputout。Thentheystreamedashore,clamouringasiftheyhadcomefromAmerica。

  `Ohit\'ssonice!\'theyounggirlswerecrying。`It\'squitelovely。\'

  Thewaitersfromonboardranouttotheboat—housewithbaskets,thecaptainloungedonthelittlebridge。Seeingallsafe,GeraldcametoGudrunandUrsula。

  `Youwouldn\'tcaretogoonboardforthenexttrip,andhaveteathere?\'

  heasked。

  `Nothanks,\'saidGudruncoldly。

  `Youdon\'tcareforthewater?\'

  `Forthewater?Yes,Ilikeitverymuch。\'

  Helookedather,hiseyessearching。

  `Youdon\'tcareforgoingonalaunch,then?\'

  Shewasslowinanswering,andthenshespokeslowly。

  `No,\'shesaid。`Ican\'tsaythatIdo。\'Hercolourwashigh,sheseemedangryaboutsomething。

  `Unpeutropdemonde,\'saidUrsula,explaining。

  `Eh?Tropdemonde!\'Helaughedshortly。`Yesthere\'safairnumberof\'em。\'

  Gudrunturnedonhimbrilliantly。

  `HaveyoueverbeenfromWestminsterBridgetoRichmondononeoftheThamessteamers?\'shecried。

  `No,\'hesaid,`Ican\'tsayIhave。\'

  `Well,it\'soneofthemostvileexperiencesI\'veeverhad。\'

  Shespokerapidlyandexcitedly,thecolourhighinhercheeks。`Therewasabsolutelynowheretositdown,nowhere,amanjustabovesang\"RockedintheCradleoftheDeep\"thewholeway;hewasblindandhehadasmallorgan,oneofthoseportableorgans,andheexpectedmoney;soyoucanimaginewhatthatwaslike;therecameaconstantsmellofluncheonfrombelow,andpuffsofhotoilymachinery;thejourneytookhoursandhoursandhours;andformiles,literallyformiles,dreadfulboysranwithusontheshore,inthatawfulThamesmud,goinginuptothewaist——theyhadtheirtrousersturnedback,andtheywentuptotheirhipsinthatindescribableThamesmud,theirfacesalwaysturnedtous,andscreaming,exactlylikecarrioncreatures,screaming\"\'Erey\'aresir,\'erey\'aresir,\'erey\'aresir,\"exactlylikesomefoulcarrionobjects,perfectlyobscene;andpaterfamiliasonboard,laughingwhentheboyswentrightdowninthatawfulmud,occasionallythrowingthemaha\'penny。Andifyou\'dseentheintentlookonthefacesoftheseboys,andthewaytheydartedinthefilthwhenacoinwasflung——really,novultureorjackalcoulddreamofapproachingthem,forfoulness。Ineverwouldgoonapleasureboatagain——never。\'

  Geraldwatchedherallthetimeshespoke,hiseyesglitteringwithfaintrousedness。Itwasnotsomuchwhatshesaid;itwassheherselfwhorousedhim,rousedhimwithasmall,vividpricking。

  `Ofcourse,\'hesaid,`everycivilisedbodyisboundtohaveitsvermin。\'

  `Why?\'criedUrsula。`Idon\'thavevermin。\'

  `Andit\'snotthat——it\'sthequalityofthewholething——

  paterfamiliaslaughingandthinkingitsport,andthrowingtheha\'pennies,andmaterfamiliasspreadingherfatlittlekneesandeating,continuallyeating——\'repliedGudrun。

  `Yes,\'saidUrsula。`Itisn\'ttheboyssomuchwhoarevermin;it\'sthepeoplethemselves,thewholebodypolitic,asyoucallit。\'

  Geraldlaughed。

  `Nevermind,\'hesaid。`Youshan\'tgoonthelaunch。\'

  Gudrunflushedquicklyathisrebuke。

  Therewereafewmomentsofsilence。Gerald,likeasentinel,waswatchingthepeoplewhoweregoingontotheboat。Hewasverygood—lookingandself—contained,buthisairofsoldierlyalertnesswasratherirritating。

  `Willyouhaveteaherethen,orgoacrosstothehouse,wherethere\'satentonthelawn?\'heasked。

  `Can\'twehavearowingboat,andgetout?\'askedUrsula,whowasalwaysrushingintoofast。

  `Togetout?\'smiledGerald。

  `Yousee,\'criedGudrun,flushingatUrsula\'soutspokenrudeness,`wedon\'tknowthepeople,wearealmostcompletestrangershere。\'

  `Oh,Icansoonsetyouupwithafewacquaintances,\'hesaideasily。

  Gudrunlookedathim,toseeifitwereill—meant。Thenshesmiledathim。

  `Ah,\'shesaid,`youknowwhatwemean。Can\'twegoupthere,andexplorethatcoast?\'Shepointedtoagroveonthehillockofthemeadow—side,neartheshorehalfwaydownthelake。`Thatlooksperfectlylovely。Wemightevenbathe。Isn\'titbeautifulinthislight。Really,it\'slikeoneofthereachesoftheNile——asoneimaginestheNile。\'

  Geraldsmiledatherfactitiousenthusiasmforthedistantspot。

  `You\'resureit\'sfarenoughoff?\'heaskedironically,addingatonce:

  `Yes,youmightgothere,ifwecouldgetaboat。Theyseemtobeallout。\'

  Helookedroundthelakeandcountedtherowingboatsonitssurface。

  `Howlovelyitwouldbe!\'criedUrsulawistfully。

  `Anddon\'tyouwanttea?\'hesaid。

  `Oh,\'saidGudrun,`wecouldjustdrinkacup,andbeoff。\'

  Helookedfromonetotheother,smiling。Hewassomewhatoffended——

  yetsporting。

  `Canyoumanageaboatprettywell?\'heasked。

  `Yes,\'repliedGudrun,coldly,`prettywell。\'

  `Ohyes,\'criedUrsula。`Wecanbothofusrowlikewater—spiders。\'

  `Youcan?There\'slightlittlecanoeofmine,thatIdidn\'ttakeoutforfearsomebodyshoulddrownthemselves。Doyouthinkyou\'dbesafeinthat?\'

  `Ohperfectly,\'saidGudrun。

  `Whatanangel!\'criedUrsula。

  `Don\'t,formysake,haveanaccident——becauseI\'mresponsibleforthewater。\'

  `Sure,\'pledgedGudrun。

  `Besides,wecanbothswimquitewell,\'saidUrsula。

  `Well——thenI\'llgetthemtoputyouupatea—basket,andyoucanpicnicalltoyourselves,——that\'stheidea,isn\'tit?\'

  `Howfearfullygood!Howfrightfullyniceifyoucould!\'criedGudrunwarmly,hercolourflushingupagain。Itmadethebloodstirinhisveins,thesubtlewaysheturnedtohimandinfusedhergratitudeintohisbody。

  `Where\'sBirkin?\'hesaid,hiseyestwinkling。`Hemighthelpmetogetitdown。\'

  `Butwhataboutyourhand?Isn\'tithurt?\'askedGudrun,rathermuted,asifavoidingtheintimacy。Thiswasthefirsttimethehurthadbeenmentioned。Thecuriouswaysheskirtedroundthesubjectsentanew,subtlecaressthroughhisveins。Hetookhishandoutofhispocket。Itwasbandaged。

  Helookedatit,thenputitinhispocketagain。Gudrunquiveredatthesightofthewrappeduppaw。

  `OhIcanmanagewithonehand。Thecanoeisaslightasafeather,\'

  hesaid。`There\'sRupert!——Rupert!\'

  Birkinturnedfromhissocialdutiesandcametowardsthem。

  `Whathaveyoudonetoit?\'askedUrsula,whohadbeenachingtoputthequestionforthelasthalfhour。

  `Tomyhand?\'saidGerald。`Itrappeditinsomemachinery。\'

  `Ugh!\'saidUrsula。`Anddidithurtmuch?\'

  `Yes,\'hesaid。`Itdidatthetime。It\'sgettingbetternow。Itcrushedthefingers。\'

  `Oh,\'criedUrsula,asifinpain,`Ihatepeoplewhohurtthemselves。

  Icanfeelit。\'Andsheshookherhand。

  `Whatdoyouwant?\'saidBirkin。

  Thetwomencarrieddowntheslimbrownboat,andsetitonthewater。

  `You\'requitesureyou\'llbesafeinit?\'Geraldasked。

  `Quitesure,\'saidGudrun。`Iwouldn\'tbesomeanastotakeit,iftherewastheslightestdoubt。ButI\'vehadacanoeatArundel,andIassureyouI\'mperfectlysafe。\'

  Sosaying,havinggivenherwordlikeaman,sheandUrsulaenteredthefrailcraft,andpushedgentlyoff。Thetwomenstoodwatchingthem。

  Gudrunwaspaddling。Sheknewthemenwerewatchingher,anditmadeherslowandratherclumsy。Thecolourflewinherfacelikeaflag。

  `Thanksawfully,\'shecalledbacktohim,fromthewater,astheboatslidaway。`It\'slovely——likesittinginaleaf。\'

  Helaughedatthefancy。Hervoicewasshrillandstrange,callingfromthedistance。Hewatchedherasshepaddledaway。Therewassomethingchildlikeabouther,trustfulanddeferential,likeachild。Hewatchedherallthewhile,assherowed。AndtoGudrunitwasarealdelight,inmake—belief,tobethechildlike,clingingwomantothemanwhostoodthereonthequay,sogood—lookingandefficientinhiswhiteclothes,andmoreoverthemostimportantmansheknewatthemoment。Shedidnottakeanynoticeofthewavering,indistinct,lambentBirkin,whostoodathisside。Onefigureatatimeoccupiedthefieldofherattention。

  Theboatrustledlightlyalongthewater。Theypassedthebatherswhosestripedtentsstoodbetweenthewillowsofthemeadow\'sedge,anddrewalongtheopenshore,pastthemeadowsthatslopedgoldeninthelightofthealreadylateafternoon。Otherboatswerestealingunderthewoodedshoreopposite,theycouldhearpeople\'slaughterandvoices。ButGudrunrowedontowardstheclumpoftreesthatbalancedperfectinthedistance,inthegoldenlight。

  Thesistersfoundalittleplacewhereatinystreamflowedintothelake,withreedsandflowerymarshofpinkwillowherb,andagravellybanktotheside。Heretheyrandelicatelyashore,withtheirfrailboat,thetwogirlstookofftheirshoesandstockingsandwentthroughthewater\'sedgetothegrass。Thetinyripplesofthelakewerewarmandclear,theyliftedtheirboatontothebank,andlookedroundwithjoy。Theywerequitealoneinaforsakenlittlestream—mouth,andontheknolljustbehindwastheclumpoftrees。

  `Wewillbathejustforamoment,\'saidUrsula,`andthenwe\'llhavetea。\'

  Theylookedround。Nobodycouldnoticethem,orcouldcomeupintimetoseethem。InlessthanaminuteUrsulahadthrownoffherclothesandhadslippednakedintothewater,andwasswimmingout。Quickly,Gudrunjoinedher。Theyswamsilentlyandblissfullyforafewminutes,circlingroundtheirlittlestream—mouth。Thentheyslippedashoreandranintothegroveagain,likenymphs。

  `Howlovelyitistobefree,\'saidUrsula,runningswiftlyhereandtherebetweenthetreetrunks,quitenaked,herhairblowingloose。Thegrovewasofbeech—trees,bigandsplendid,asteel—greyscaffoldingoftrunksandboughs,withlevelspraysofstronggreenhereandthere,whilstthroughthenorthernsidethedistanceglimmeredopenasthroughawindow。

  Whentheyhadrunanddancedthemselvesdry,thegirlsquicklydressedandsatdowntothefragranttea。Theysatonthenorthernsideofthegrove,intheyellowsunshinefacingtheslopeofthegrassyhill,aloneinalittlewildworldoftheirown。Theteawashotandaromatic,thereweredeliciouslittlesandwichesofcucumberandofcaviare,andwinycakes。

  `Areyouhappy,Prune?\'criedUrsulaindelight,lookingathersister。

  `Ursula,I\'mperfectlyhappy,\'repliedGudrungravely,lookingatthewesteringsun。

  `SoamI。\'

  Whentheyweretogether,doingthethingstheyenjoyed,thetwosisterswerequitecompleteinaperfectworldoftheirown。Andthiswasoneoftheperfectmomentsoffreedomanddelight,suchaschildrenaloneknow,whenallseemsaperfectandblissfuladventure。

  Whentheyhadfinishedtea,thetwogirlssaton,silentandserene。

  ThenUrsula,whohadabeautifulstrongvoice,begantosingtoherself,softly:`AnnchenvonTharau。\'Gudrunlistened,asshesatbeneaththetrees,andtheyearningcameintoherheart。Ursulaseemedsopeacefulandsufficientuntoherself,sittingthereunconsciouslycrooninghersong,strongandunquestionedatthecentreofherownuniverse。AndGudrunfeltherselfoutside。Alwaysthisdesolating,agonisedfeeling,thatshewasoutsideoflife,anonlooker,whilstUrsulawasapartaker,causedGudruntosufferfromasenseofherownnegation,andmadeher,thatshemustalwaysdemandtheothertobeawareofher,tobeinconnectionwithher。

  `DoyoumindifIdoDalcrozetothattune,Hurtler?\'sheaskedinacuriousmutedtone,scarcemovingherlips。

  `Whatdidyousay?\'askedUrsula,lookingupinpeacefulsurprise。

  `WillyousingwhileIdoDalcroze?\'saidGudrun,sufferingathavingtorepeatherself。

  Ursulathoughtamoment,gatheringherstrayingwitstogether。

  `Whileyoudo——?\'sheaskedvaguely。

  `Dalcrozemovements,\'saidGudrun,sufferingtorturesofself—consciousness,evenbecauseofhersister。

  `OhDalcroze!Icouldn\'tcatchthename。Do——Ishouldlovetoseeyou,\'criedUrsula,withchildishsurprisedbrightness。`WhatshallIsing?\'

  `Singanythingyoulike,andI\'lltaketherhythmfromit。\'

  ButUrsulacouldnotforherlifethinkofanythingtosing。However,shesuddenlybegan,inalaughing,teasingvoice:

  `Mylove——isahigh—bornlady——\'

  Gudrun,lookingasifsomeinvisiblechainweighedonherhandsandfeet,beganslowlytodanceintheeurythmicmanner,pulsingandflutteringrhythmicallywithherfeet,makingslower,regulargestureswithherhandsandarms,nowspreadingherarmswide,nowraisingthemaboveherhead,nowflingingthemsoftlyapart,andliftingherface,herfeetallthetimebeatingandrunningtothemeasureofthesong,asifitweresomestrangeincantation,herwhite,raptformdriftinghereandthereinastrangeimpulsiverhapsody,seemingtobeliftedonabreezeofincantation,shudderingwithstrangelittleruns。Ursulasatonthegrass,hermouthopeninhersinging,hereyeslaughingasifshethoughtitwasagreatjoke,butayellowlightflashingupinthem,asshecaughtsomeoftheunconsciousritualisticsuggestionofthecomplexshudderingandwavinganddriftingofhersister\'swhiteform,thatwasclutchedinpure,mindless,tossingrhythm,andawillsetpowerfulinakindofhypnoticinfluence。

  `Myloveisahigh—bornlady——Sheis—s—s——ratherdarkthanshady——\'rangoutUrsula\'slaughing,satiricsong,andquicker,fiercerwentGudruninthedance,stampingasifsheweretryingtothrowoffsomebond,flingingherhandssuddenlyandstampingagain,thenrushingwithfaceupliftedandthroatfullandbeautiful,andeyeshalfclosed,sightless。

  Thesunwaslowandyellow,sinkingdown,andintheskyfloatedathin,ineffectualmoon。

  Ursulawasquiteabsorbedinhersong,whensuddenlyGudrunstoppedandsaidmildly,ironically:

  `Ursula!\'

  `Yes?\'saidUrsula,openinghereyesoutofthetrance。

  Gudrunwasstandingstillandpointing,amockingsmileonherface,towardstheside。

  `Ugh!\'criedUrsulainsuddenpanic,startingtoherfeet。

  `They\'requiteallright,\'rangoutGudrun\'ssardonicvoice。

  OntheleftstoodalittleclusterofHighlandcattle,vividlycolouredandfleecyintheeveninglight,theirhornsbranchingintothesky,pushingforwardtheirmuzzlesinquisitively,toknowwhatitwasallabout。Theireyesglitteredthroughtheirtangleofhair,theirnakednostrilswerefullofshadow。

  `Won\'ttheydoanything?\'criedUrsulainfear。

  Gudrun,whowasusuallyfrightenedofcattle,nowshookherheadinaqueer,half—doubtful,half—sardonicmotion,afaintsmileroundhermouth。

  `Don\'ttheylookcharming,Ursula?\'criedGudrun,inahigh,stridentvoice,somethinglikethescreamofaseagull。

  `Charming,\'criedUrsulaintrepidation。`Butwon\'ttheydoanythingtous?\'

  AgainGudrunlookedbackathersisterwithanenigmaticsmile,andshookherhead。

  `I\'msuretheywon\'t,\'shesaid,asifshehadtoconvinceherselfalso,andyet,asifshewereconfidentofsomesecretpowerinherself,andhadtoputittothetest。`Sitdownandsingagain,\'shecalledinherhigh,stridentvoice。

  `I\'mfrightened,\'criedUrsula,inapatheticvoice,watchingthegroupofsturdyshortcattle,thatstoodwiththeirkneesplanted,andwatchedwiththeirdark,wickedeyes,throughthemattedfringeoftheirhair。

  Nevertheless,shesankdownagain,inherformerposture。

  `Theyarequitesafe,\'cameGudrun\'shighcall。`Singsomething,you\'veonlytosingsomething。\'

  Itwasevidentshehadastrangepassiontodancebeforethesturdy,handsomecattle。

  Ursulabegantosing,inafalsequaveringvoice:

  `WaydowninTennessee——\'

  Shesoundedpurelyanxious。Nevertheless,Gudrun,withherarmsoutspreadandherfaceuplifted,wentinastrangepalpitatingdancetowardsthecattle,liftingherbodytowardsthemasifinaspell,herfeetpulsingasifinsomelittlefrenzyofunconscioussensation,herarms,herwrists,herhandsstretchingandheavingandfallingandreachingandreachingandfalling,herbreastsliftedandshakentowardsthecattle,herthroatexposedasinsomevoluptuousecstasytowardsthem,whilstshedriftedimperceptiblynearer,anuncannywhitefigure,towardsthem,carriedawayinitsownrapttrance,ebbinginstrangefluctuationsuponthecattle,thatwaited,andduckedtheirheadsalittleinsuddencontractionfromher,watchingallthetimeasifhypnotised,theirbarehornsbranchingintheclearlight,asthewhitefigureofthewomanebbeduponthem,intheslow,hypnotisingconvulsionofthedance。Shecouldfeelthemjustinfrontofher,itwasasifshehadtheelectricpulsefromtheirbreastsrunningintoherhands。Soonshewouldtouchthem,actuallytouchthem。

  Aterribleshiveroffearandpleasurewentthroughher。Andallthewhile,Ursula,spell—bound,keptupherhigh—pitchedthin,irrelevantsong,whichpiercedthefadingeveninglikeanincantation。

  Gudruncouldhearthecattlebreathingheavilywithhelplessfearandfascination。Oh,theywerebravelittlebeasts,thesewildScotchbullocks,wildandfleecy。Suddenlyoneofthemsnorted,duckeditshead,andbacked。

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