Agamekeeper,curedbythedoctorofinflammationofthelungs,hadgivenmadamealittleItaliangreyhound;shetookheroutwalking,forshewentoutsometimesinordertobealoneforamoment,andnottoseebeforehereyestheeternalgardenandthedustyroad。ShewentasfarasthebeechesofBanneville,nearthedesertedpavilionwhichformsanangleofthewallonthesideofthecountry。Amidstthevegetationoftheditchtherearelongreedswithleavesthatcutyou。
Shebeganbylookingroundhertoseeifnothinghadchangedsincelastshehadbeenthere。Shefoundagaininthesameplacesthefoxglovesandwallflowers,thebedsofnettlesgrowingroundthebigstones,andthepatchesoflichenalongthethreewindows,whoseshutters,alwaysclosed,wererottingawayontheirrustyironbars。Herthoughts,aimlessatfirst,wanderedatrandom,likehergreyhound,whoranroundandroundinthefields,yelpingaftertheyellowbutterflies,chasingtheshrew-mice,ornibblingthepoppiesontheedgeofacornfield。
Thengraduallyherideastookdefiniteshape,and,sittingonthegrassthatshedugupwithlittleprodsofhersunshade,Emmarepeatedtoherself,“Goodheavens!WhydidImarry?“
Sheaskedherselfifbysomeotherchancecombinationitwouldhavenotbeenpossibletomeetanotherman;andshetriedtoimaginewhatwouldhavebeentheseunrealisedevents,thisdifferentlife,thisunknownhusband。All,surely,couldnotbelikethisone。Hemighthavebeenhandsome,witty,distinguished,attractive,suchas,nodoubt,heroldcompanionsoftheconventhadmarried。Whatweretheydoingnow?Intown,withthenoiseofthestreets,thebuzzofthetheatresandthelightsoftheballroom,theywerelivingliveswheretheheartexpands,thesensesbourgeonout。Butshe——herlifewascoldasagarretwhosedormerwindowlooksonthenorth,andennui,thesilentspider,wasweavingitswebinthedarknessineverycornerofherheart。
Sherecalledtheprizedays,whenshemountedtheplatformtoreceiveherlittlecrowns,withherhairinlongplaits。Inherwhitefrockandopenprunellashoesshehadaprettyway,andwhenshewentbacktoherseat,thegentlemenbentoverhertocongratulateher;thecourtyardwasfullofcarriages;farewellswerecalledtoherthroughtheirwindows;themusicmasterwithhisviolincasebowedinpassingby。Howfarallofthis!Howfaraway!ShecalledDjali,tookherbetweenherknees,andsmoothedthelongdelicatehead,saying,“Come,kissmistress;youhavenotroubles。“