Atlastthedaycame,thecarriagedroveup,thelittlehumblepacketscontainingtokensofloveandremembrancewerereadyanddisposedinthehalllongsince——Georgewasinhisnewsuit,forwhichthetailorhadcomepreviouslytomeasurehim。Hehadsprungupwiththesunandputonthenewclothes,hismotherhearinghimfromtheroomcloseby,inwhichshehadbeenlying,inspeechlessgriefandwatching。Daysbeforeshehadbeenmakingpreparationsfortheend,purchasinglittlestoresfortheboy’suse,markinghisbooksandlinen,talkingwithhimandpreparinghimforthechange——fondlyfancyingthatheneededpreparation。
Sothathehadchange,whatcaredhe?Hewaslongingforit。Byathousandeagerdeclarationsastowhathewoulddo,whenhewenttolivewithhisgrandfather,hehadshownthepoorwidowhowlittletheideaofpartinghadcasthimdown。”Hewouldcomeandseehismammaoftenonthepony。”hesaid。”Hewouldcomeandfetchherinthecarriage;theywoulddriveinthepark,andsheshouldhaveeverythingshewanted。”
Thepoormotherwasfaintocontentherselfwiththeseselfishdemonstrationsofattachment,andtriedtoconvinceherselfhowsincerelyhersonlovedher。Hemustloveher。Allchildrenwereso:alittleanxiousfornovelty,and——no,notselfish,butself-willed。Herchildmusthavehisenjoymentsandambitionintheworld。Sheherself,byherownselfishnessandimprudentloveforhimhaddeniedhimhisjustrightsandpleasureshitherto。
Iknowfewthingsmoreaffectingthanthattimorousdebasementandself-humiliationofawoman。Howsheownsthatitissheandnotthemanwhoisguilty;howshetakesallthefaultsonherside;howshecourtsinamannerpunishmentforthewrongswhichshehasnotcommittedandpersistsinshieldingtherealculprit!Itisthosewhoinjurewomenwhogetthemostkindnessfromthem——theyareborntimidandtyrantsandmaltreatthosewhoarehumblestbeforethem。
SopoorAmeliahadbeengettingreadyinsilentmiseryforherson’sdeparture,andhadpassedmanyandmanyalongsolitaryhourinmakingpreparationsfortheend。