`Whoisit?’sheaskedherself。`All-orone?’Andwithoutkeepingupherendoftheconversation,thethreadofwhichtheharassedyoungmanshewasdancingwithlostandcouldnotpickupagain,sheobeyedwithexternallivelinesstheperemptoryshoutsofKorsunskystartingthemallintothegrandrond,andthenintothechaine,andatthesametimeshekeptwatchwithagrowingpangatherheart。`No,it’snotadmirationofthecrowdthathasintoxicatedher,buttheadorationofone。Andthatone?Canitbehe?’EverytimehespoketoAnnathejoyouslightflashedintohereyes,andthesmileofhappinesscurvedherredlips。Sheseemedtomakeanefforttocontrolherself,inordernottoshowthesesignsofdelight,buttheyappearedonherfaceofthemselves。
`Butwhatofhim?’Kittylookedathimandwashorrified。WhatwaspicturedsoclearlytoKittyinthemirrorofAnna’sfaceshesawinhim。Whathadbecomeofhisalwayscalm,firmmanner,andthecarelesslycalmexpressionofhisface?Noweverytimeheturnedtoherhebenthishead,asthoughhewouldhavefallenatherfeet,andinhiseyestherewasnothingbuthumblesubmissionanddread。`Iwouldnotoffendyou,’hiseyesseemedtobesayingeachtime,`butIwanttosavemyself,andIdon’tknowhow。’
OnhisfacewasalooksuchasKittyhadneverseenbefore。
Theywerespeakingofcommonacquaintances,keepingupthesmallestofsmalltalk,buttoKittyitseemedthateverywordtheysaidwasdeterminingtheirfateandhers。Andstrangelyenough,althoughtheywereactuallytalkingofhowabsurdIvanIvanovichwaswithhisFrench,andhowtheEletskygirlmighthavemadeabettermatch,thesewordswereyetfraughtwithsignificanceforthem,andtheysensedthisasmuchasKittydid。Thewholeball,thewholeworld,everythingseemedscreenedbyafogwithinKitty’ssoul。Nothingbutthesterndisciplineofherbringing-upsupportedherandforcedhertodowhatwasexpectedofher-thatis,todance,toanswerquestions,totalk,eventosmile。Butbeforethemazurka,whentheywerebeginningtorearrangethechairsandafewcouplesmovedoutofthesmallerroomsintothebigroom,amomentofdespairandhorrorcameforKitty。
Shehadrefusedfivepartners,andnowshewasnotdancingthemazurka。