AfterthispoemofourpacificRestorationhadbeensung,andthecontractsandleasessigned,weleftthatravishingland,allflowery,gay,solemn,lonelybyturns,andcameheretokneelwithourhappinessatthefeetofherwhogaveittous。
CalysteandIbothfelttheneedofthankingthesisteroftheVisitation。InmemoryofherhehasquarteredhisownarmswiththoseofDesTouches,whichare:partycouped,trancheandtailleorandsinople,onthelattertwoeaglesargent。Hemeanstotakeoneoftheeaglesargentforhisownsupporterandputthismottoinitsbeak:/Souviegne-vous/。
YesterdaywewenttotheconventoftheladiesoftheVisitation,towhichweweretakenbytheAbbeGrimont,afriendoftheduGuenicfamily,whotoldusthatyourdearFelicite,mamma,wasindeedasaint。Shecouldnotverywellbeanythingelsetohim,forherconversion,whichwasthoughttobehisdoing,hasledtohisappointmentasvicar-generalofthediocese。MademoiselledesTouchesdeclinedtoreceiveCalyste,andwouldonlyseeme。I
foundherslightlychanged,thinnerandpaler;butsheseemedmuchpleasedatmyvisit。”TellCalyste,”shesaid,inalowvoice,”thatitisamatterofconsciencewithmenottoseehim,forIampermittedtodoso。I
prefernottobuythathappinessbymonthsofsuffering。Ah,youdonotknowwhatitcostsmetoreplytothequestion,’Ofwhatareyouthinking?’Certainlythemotherofthenoviceshasnoconceptionofthenumberandextentoftheideaswhicharerushingthroughmymindwhensheasksthatquestion。SometimesIamseeingItalyorParis,withallitssights;alwaysthinking,however,ofCalyste,whois”——shesaidthisinthatpoeticwayyouknowandadmiresomuch——”whoisthesunofmemorytome。Ifound,”shecontinued,”thatIwastoooldtobereceivedamongtheCarmelites,andIhaveenteredtheorderofSaint-FrancoisdeSalessolelybecausehesaid,’Iwillbareyourheadsinsteadofyourfeet,’——objecting,ashedid,toausteritieswhichmortifiedthebodyonly。Itis,intruth,theheadthatsins。Thesaintlybishopwasrighttomakehisruleausteretowardtheintellect,andterribleagainstthewill。ThatiswhatIsought;formyheadwastheguiltypartofme。ItdeceivedmeastomyheartuntilI