BecauseItellyouthiswillyouthinkmesomelittlegirlwhocultivatesagarden—fullofillusions?You,whoarewittyandwise,haveyounotguessedthatwhenMademoiselled’Estereceivedyourpedanticlessonshesaidtoherself:\"No,dearpoet,myfirstletterwasnotthepebblewhichavagabondchildflingsaboutthehighwaytofrightentheowneroftheadjacentfruit—trees,butanetcarefullyandprudentlythrownbyafishermanseatedonarockabovethesea,hopingandexpectingamiraculousdraught。\"
Allthatyousaysobeautifullyaboutthefamilyhasmyapproval。
Themanwhoisabletopleaseme,andofwhomIbelievemyselfworthy,willhavemyheartandmylife,——withtheconsentofmyparents,forIwillneithergrievethem,nortakethemunawares:
happily,Iamcertainofreigningoverthem;and,besides,theyarewhollywithoutprejudice。Indeed,ineveryway,Ifeelmyselfprotectedagainstanydelusionsinmydream。Ihavebuiltthefortresswithmyownhands,andIhaveletitbefortifiedbytheboundlessdevotionofthosewhowatchovermeasifIwereatreasure,——notthatIamunabletodefendmyselfintheopen,ifneedbe;for,letmesay,circumstanceshavefurnishedmewitharmorofproofonwhichisengravedtheword\"Disdain。\"Ihavethedeepesthorrorofallthatiscalculating,——ofallthatisnotpure,disinterested,andwhollynoble。Iworshipthebeautiful,theideal,withoutbeingromantic;thoughIHAVEbeen,inmyheartofhearts,inmydreams。ButIrecognizethetruthofthevariousthings,justeventovulgarity,whichyouhavewrittenmeaboutSocietyandsociallife。
Forthetimebeingweare,andwecanonlybe,twofriends。Whyseekanunseenfriend?youask。Yourpersonmaybeunknowntome,butyourmind,yourheartIKNOW;theypleaseme,andIfeelaninfinitudeofthoughtswithinmysoulwhichneedamanofgeniusfortheirconfidant。Idonotwishthepoemofmyhearttobewasted;IwouldhaveitknowntoyouasitistoGod。Whatapreciousthingisatruecomrade,onetowhomwecantellall!Youwillsurelynotrejecttheunpublishedleafletsofayounggirl’sthoughtswhentheyflytoyouliketheprettyinsectsflutteringtothesun?Iamsureyouhaveneverbeforemetwiththisgoodfortuneofthesoul,——thehonestconfidencesofanhonestgirl。