theyhavemanydefects。Somearefrivolous,heedless,foppish,ambitious,dissipated;and,believeme,nomatterhowimposinginnocencemaybe,howchivalrousapoetis,youwillmeetwithmanyadegeneratetroubadourinParisreadytocultivateyouraffectiononlytobetrayit。Bysuchamanyourletterwouldbeinterpretedotherwisethanitisbyme。Hewouldseeathoughtthatisnotinit,whichyou,inyourinnocence,havenotsuspected。Thereareasmanynaturesastherearewriters。Iamdeeplyflatteredthatyouhavejudgedmecapableofunderstandingyou;buthadyou,perchance,fallenuponahypocrite,ascoffer,onewhosebooksmaybemelancholybutwhoselifeisaperpetualcarnival,youwouldhavefoundastheresultofyourgenerousimprudenceanevil—mindedman,thefrequenterofgreen—rooms,perhapsaheroofsomegayresort。Inthebowerofclematiswhereyoudreamofpoets,canyousmelltheodorofthecigarwhichdrivesallpoetryfromthemanuscript?
Butletuslookstillfurther。Howcouldthedreamy,solitarylifeyoulead,doubtlessbythesea—shore,interestapoet,whosemissionitistoimagineall,andtopaintall?Whatrealitycanequalimagination?TheyounggirlsofthepoetsaresoidealthatnolivingdaughterofEvecancompetewiththem。Andnowtellme,whatwillyougain,——you,ayounggirl,broughtuptobethevirtuousmotherofafamily,——ifyoulearntocomprehendtheterribleagitationsofapoet’slifeinthisdreadfulcapital,whichmaybedefinedbyonesentence,——thehellinwhichmenlove。
Ifthedesiretobrightenthemonotonousexistenceofayounggirlthirstingforknowledgehasledyoutotakeyourpeninhandandwritetome,hasnotthestepitselftheappearanceofdegradation?WhatmeaningamItogivetoyourletter?Areyouoneofarejectedcaste,anddoyouseekafriendfarawayfromyou?
Or,areyouafflictedwithpersonalugliness,yetfeelingwithinyouanoblesoulwhichcangiveandreceiveaconfidence?Alas,alas,theconclusiontobedrawnisgrievous。Youhavesaidtoomuch,ortoolittle;youhavegonetoofar,ornotfarenough。
Eitherletusdropthiscorrespondence,or,ifyoucontinueit,tellmemorethanintheletteryouhavenowwrittenme。