Butwhat,Omanofmischief!isthetendencyofthythoughts?
Frustratedinthyfirstdesign,thouwiltnotforegotheimmolationofthyvictim。Toexterminatemyreputationwasallthatremainedtothee,andthismyguardianhaspermitted。TodispossessPleyelofthisprejudicemaybeimpossible;butifthatbeeffected,itcannotbesupposedthatthywilesareexhausted;thycunningwilldiscoverinnumerableavenuestotheaccomplishmentofthymalignantpurpose。
WhyshouldIenterthelistsagainstthee?WouldtoheavenIcoulddisarmthyvengeancebymydeprecations!WhenIthinkofalltheresourceswithwhichnatureandeducationhavesuppliedthee;thatthyformisacombinationofsteelyfibresandorgansofexquisiteductilityandboundlesscompass,actuatedbyanintelligencegiftedwithinfiniteendowments,andcomprehendingallknowledge,Iperceivethatmydoomisfixed。
Whatobstaclewillbeabletodivertthyzealorrepelthyefforts?Thatbeingwhohashithertoprotectedmehasbornetestimonytotheformidablenessofthyattempts,sincenothinglessthansupernaturalinterferencecouldcheckthycareer。
Musingonthesethoughts,Iarrived,towardsthecloseoftheday,atPleyel\'shouse。Amonthbefore,Ihadtraversedthesamepath;buthowdifferentweremysensations!NowIwasseekingthepresenceofonewhoregardedmeasthemostdegenerateofhumankind。Iwastopleadthecauseofmyinnocence,againstwitnessesthemostexplicitandunerring,ofthosewhichsupportthefabricofhumanknowledge。ThenearerIapproachedthecrisis,themoredidmyconfidencedecay。Whenthechaisestoppedatthedoor,mystrengthrefusedtosupportme,andIthrewmyselfintothearmsofanancientfemaledomestic。Ihadnotcouragetoinquirewhetherhermasterwasathome。Iwastormentedwithfearsthattheprojectedjourneywasalreadyundertaken。Thesefearswereremoved,byheraskingmewhethersheshouldcallheryoungmaster,whohadjustgoneintohisownroom。Iwassomewhatrevivedbythisintelligence,andresolvedimmediatelytoseekhimthere。