Butthehasteningeveningwilldecide。Woulditwerecome!
AndyetIshudderatitsnearapproach。Aninterviewthatmustthusterminate，issurelytobewishedforbyme；andyetitisnotwithoutitsterrors。Wouldtoheavenitwerecomeandgone!
Ifeelnoreluctance，myfriendstobethusexplicit。Timewas，whentheseemotionswouldbehiddenwithimmeasurablesolicitude，fromeveryhumaneye。Alas!theseairyandfleetingimpulsesofshamearegone。Myscrupleswerepreposterousandcriminal。Theyarebredinallhearts，byaperverseandviciouseducation，andtheywouldstillhavemaintainedtheirplaceinmyheart，hadnotmyportionbeensetinmisery。Myerrorshavetaughtmethusmuchwisdom；thatthosesentimentswhichweoughtnottodisclose，itiscriminaltoharbour。
Itwasproposedtobegintherehearsalatfouro\'clock；I
countedtheminutesastheypassed；theirflightwasatoncetoorapidandtooslow；mysensationswereofanexcruciatingkind；