\"Iwonderifmotherwillaskmewhatitmeans?\"thoughtPearl。
Justthen,sheheardhermother’svoice,andflittingalongaslightlyasoneofthelittlesea—birds,appearedbeforeHesterPrynne,dancing,laughing,andpointingherfingertotheornamentuponherbosom。
\"MylittlePearl,\"saidHester,afteramoment’ssilence,\"thegreenletter,andonthychildishbosom,hasnopurport。Butdostthouknow,mychild,whatthislettermeanswhichthymotherisdoomedtowear?\"
\"Yes,mother,\"saidthechild。\"ItisthegreatletterA。Thouhasttaughtmeinthehorn—book。\"
Hesterlookedsteadilyintoherlittleface;but,thoughtherewasthatsingularexpressionwhichshehadsooftenremarkedinherblackeyes,shecouldnotsatisfyherselfwhetherPearlreallyattachedanymeaningtothesymbol。Shefeltamorbiddesiretoascertainthepoint。
\"Dostthouknow,child,whereforethymotherwearsthisletter?\"
\"TrulydoI!\"answeredPearl,lookingbrightlyintohermother’sface。\"Itisforthesamereasonthattheministerkeepshishandoverhisheart!\"
\"Andwhatreasonisthat?\"askedHester,halfsmilingattheabsurdincongruityofthechild’sobservation;but,onsecondthoughts,turningpale。\"Whathasthelettertodowithanyheart,savemine?\"
\"Nay,mother,IhavetoldallIknow,\"saidPearl,moreseriouslythanshewaswonttospeak。\"Askyonderoldmanwhomthouhastbeentalkingwith!Itmaybehecantell。Butingoodearnestnow,motherdear,whatdoesthisscarletlettermean?—andwhydostthouwearitonthybosom?—andwhydoestheministerkeephishandoverhisheart?\"
Shetookhermother’shandinbothherown,andgazedintohereyeswithanearnestnessthatwasseldomseeninherwildandcapriciouscharacter。ThethoughtoccurredtoHester,thatthechildmightreallybeseekingtoapproachherwithchildlikeconfidence,anddoingwhatshecould,andasintelligentlyassheknewhow,toestablishameeting—pointofsympathy。ItshowedPearlinanunwontedaspect。Heretofore,themother,whilelovingherchildwiththeintensityofasoulaffection,hadschooledherselftohopeforlittleotherreturnthanthewaywardnessofanAprilbreeze;whichspendsitstimeinairysport,andhasitsgustsofinexplicablepassion,andispetulantinitsbestofmoods,andchillsoftenerthancaressesyou,whenyoutakeittoyourbosom;inrequitalofwhichmisdemeanours,itwillsometimes,ofitsownvaguepurpose,kissyourcheekwithakindofdoubtfultenderness,andplaygentlywithyourhair,andthenbegoneaboutitsotheridlebusiness,leavingadreamypleasureatyourheart。Andthis,moreover,wasamother’sestimateofthechild’sdisposition。Anyotherobservermighthaveseenfewbutunamiabletraits,andhavegiventhemafardarkercolouring。ButnowtheideacamestronglyintoHester’smind,thatPearl,withherremarkableprecocityandacuteness,mightalreadyhaveapproachedtheagewhenshecouldbemadeafriend,andentrustedwithasmuchofhermother’ssorrowsascouldbeimparted,withoutirreverenceeithertotheparentorthechild。InthelittlechaosofPearl’scharacter,theremightbeseenemerging—andcouldhavebeen,fromtheveryfirst—thesteadfastprinciplesofanunflinchingcourage—anuncontrollablewill—asturdypride,whichmightbedisciplinedintoself—respect—andabitterscornofmanythings,which,whenexamined,mightbefoundtohavethetaintoffalsehoodinthem。Shepossessedaffections,too,thoughhithertoacridanddisagreeable,asaretherichestflavoursofunripefruit。
Withallthesesterlingattributes,thoughtHester,theevilwhichsheinheritedfromhermothermustbegreatindeed,ifanoblewomandonotgrowoutofthiselfishchild。
Pearl’sinevitabletendencytohoverabouttheenigmaofthescarletletterseemedaninnatequalityofherbeing。Fromtheearliestepochofherconsciouslife,shehadentereduponthisasherappointedmission。HesterhadoftenfanciedthatProvidencehadadesignofjusticeandretribution,inendowingthechildwiththismarkedpropensity;butnever,untilnow,hadshebethoughtherselftoask,whether,linkedwiththatdesign,theremightnotlikewisebeapurposeofmercyandbeneficence。IflittlePearlwereentertainedwithfaithandtrust,asaspiritmessengernolessthananearthlychild,mightitnotbehererrandtosootheawaythesorrowthatlaycoldinhermother’sheart,andconverteditintoatomb?—
andtohelphertoovercomethepassion,oncesowild,andevenyetneitherdeadnorasleep,butonlyimprisonedwithinthesametomb—likeheart?
SuchweresomeofthethoughtsthatnowstirredinHester’smind,withasmuchvivacityofimpressionasiftheyhadactuallybeenwhisperedintoherear。AndtherewaslittlePearl,allthiswhile,holdinghermother’shandinbothherown,andturningherfaceupward,whilesheputthesesearchingquestions,once,andagain,andstillathirdtime。
\"Whatdoesthelettermean,mother?—andwhydostthouwearit?—andwhydoestheministerkeephishandoverhisheart?\"
\"WhatshallIsay?\"thoughtHestertoherself。\"No!Ifthisbethepriceofthechild’ssympathy,Icannotpayit。\"
Thenshespokealoud。
\"SillyPearl,\"saidshe,\"whatquestionsarethese?Therearemanythingsinthisworldthatachildmustnotaskabout。WhatknowIoftheminister’sheart?Andasforthescarletletter,Iwearitforthesakeofitsgoldthread。\"
Inallthesevenbygoneyears,HesterPrynnehadneverbeforebeenfalsetothesymbolonherbosom。Itmaybethatitwasthetalismanofasternandsevere,butyetaguardianspirit,whonowforsookher;
asrecognisingthat,inspiteofhisstrictwatchoverherheart,somenewevilhadcreptintoit,orsomeoldonehadneverbeenexpelled。
AsforlittlePearl,theearnestnesssoonpassedoutofherface。
Butthechilddidnotseefittoletthematterdrop。Twoorthreetimes,ashermotherandshewenthomeward,andasoftenatsuppertime,andwhileHesterwasputtinghertobed,andonceaftersheseemedtobefairlyasleep,Pearllookedup,withmischiefgleaminginherblackeyes。
\"Mother,\"saidshe,\"whatdoesthescarletlettermean?\"
Andthenextmorning,thefirstindicationthechildgaveofbeingawakewasbypoppingupherheadfromthepillow,andmakingthatotherinquiry,whichshehadsounaccountablyconnectedwithherinvestigationsaboutthescarletletter—
\"Mother!—mother!—whydoestheministerkeephishandoverhisheart?\"
\"Holdthytongue,naughtychild!\"answeredhermother,withanasperitythatshehadneverpermittedtoherselfbefore。\"Donotteaseme;elseIshallshuttheeintothedarkcloset!\"
XVI。
AFORESTWALK。
HESTERPRYNNEremainedconstantinherresolvetomakeknowntoMr。Dimmesdale,atwhateverriskofpresentpainorulteriorconsequences,thetruecharacterofthemanwhohadcreptintohisintimacy。Forseveraldays,however,shevainlysoughtanopportunityofaddressinghiminsomeofthemeditativewalkswhichsheknewhimtobeinthehabitoftaking,alongtheshoresofthepeninsula,oronthewoodedhillsoftheneighbouringcountry。Therewouldhavebeennoscandal,indeed,norperiltotheholywhitenessoftheclergyman’sgoodfame,hadshevisitedhiminhisownstudy;wheremanyapenitent,erenow,hadconfessedsinsofperhapsasdeepadyeastheonebetokenedbythescarletletter。But,partlythatshedreadedthesecretorundisguisedinterferenceofoldRogerChillingworth,andpartlythatherconsciousheartimputedsuspicionwherenonecouldhavebeenfelt,andpartlythatboththeministerandshewouldneedthewholewideworldtobreathein,whiletheytalkedtogether—forallthesereasons,Hesterneverthoughofmeetinghiminanynarrowerprivacythanbeneaththeopensky。
Atlast,whileattendinginasick—chamber,whithertheReverendMr。
Dimmesdalehadbeensummonedtomakeaprayer,shelearntthathehadgone,thedaybefore,tovisittheApostleEliot,amonghisIndianconverts。Hewouldprobablyreturn,byacertainhour,intheafternoonofthemorrow。Betimes,therefore,thenextday,HestertooklittlePearl—whowasnecessarilythecompanionofallhermother’sexpeditions,howeverinconvenientherpresence—andsetforth。
Theroad,afterthetwowayfarershadcrossedfromthepeninsulatothemainland,wasnootherthanafootpath。Itstraggledonwardintothemysteryoftheprimevalforest。Thishemmeditinsonarrowly,andstoodsoblackanddenseoneitherside,anddisclosedsuchimperfectglimpsesoftheskyabove,that,toHester’smind,itimagednotamissthemoralwildernessinwhichshehadsolongbeenwandering。Thedaywaschillandsombre。Overheadwasagreyexpanseofcloud,slightlystirred,however,byabreeze;sothatagleamofflickeringsunshinemightnowandthenbeseenatitssolitaryplayalongthepath。Thisflittingcheerfulnesswasalwaysatthefartherextremityofsomelongvistathroughtheforest。Thesportivesunlight—feeblysportive,atbest,inthepredominantpensivenessofthedayandscene—withdrewitselfastheycamenigh,andleftthespotswhereithaddancedthedrearier,becausetheyhadhopedtofindthembright。
\"Mother,\"saidlittlePearl,\"thesunshinedoesnotloveyou。Itrunsawayandhidesitself,becauseitisafraidofsomethingonyourbosom。Now,see!Thereitis,playing,agoodwayoff。Standyouhere,andletmerunandcatchit。Iambutachild。Itwillnotfleefromme;forIwearnothingonmybosomyet!\"
\"Noreverwill,mychild,Ihope,\"saidHester。
\"Andwhynot,mother?\"askedPearl,stoppingshortjustatthebeginningofherrace。\"Willnotitcomeofitsownaccord,whenI
amawomangrown?\"
\"Runaway,child,\"answeredhermother,\"andcatchthesunshine!
Itwillsoonbegone。\"
Pearlsetforth,atagreatpace,and,asHestersmiledtoperceive,didactuallycatchthesunshine,andstoodlaughinginthemidstofit,allbrightenedbyitssplendour,andscintillatingwiththevivacityexcitedbyrapidmotion。Thelightlingeredaboutthelonelychild,asifgladofsuchaplaymate,untilhermotherhaddrawnalmostnighenoughtostepintothemagiccircletoo。
\"Itwillgonow,\"saidPearl,shakingherhead。
\"See!\"answeredHester,smiling。\"NowIcanstretchoutmyhand,andgraspsomeofit。\"
Assheattemptedtodoso,thesunshinevanished;or,tojudgefromthebrightexpressionthatwasdancingonPearl’sfeatures,hermothercouldhavefanciedthatthechildhadabsorbeditintoherself,andwouldgiveitforthagain,withagleamaboutherpath,astheyshouldplungeintosomegloomiershade。TherewasnootherattributethatsomuchimpressedherwithasenseofnewanduntransmittedvigourinPearl’snature,asthisnever—failingvivacityofspirits;
shehadnotthediseaseofsadness,whichalmostallchildren,intheselatterdays,inherit,withthescrofula,fromthetroublesoftheirancestors。Perhapsthistoowasadisease,andbutthereflexofthewildenergywithwhichHesterhadfoughtagainsthersorrows,beforePearl’sbirth。Itwascertainlyadoubtfulcharm,impartingahard,metalliclustretothechild’scharacter。Shewanted—whatsomepeoplewantthroughoutlife—agriefthatshoulddeeplytouchher,andthushumaniseandmakehercapableofsympathy。ButtherewastimeenoughyetforlittlePearl。
\"Come,mychild!\"saidHester,lookingaboutherfromthespotwherePearlhadstoodstillinthesunshine。\"Wewillsitdownalittlewaywithinthewood,andrestourselves。\"
\"Iamnotaweary,mother,\"repliedthelittlegirl。\"Butyoumaysitdown,ifyouwilltellmeastorymeanwhile。\"
\"Astory,child!\"saidHester。\"Andaboutwhat?\"
\"Oh,astoryabouttheBlackMan,\"answeredPearl,takingholdofhermother’sgown,andlookingup,halfearnestly,halfmischievously,intoherface。\"Howhehauntsthisforest,andcarriesabookwithhim—abig,heavybook,withironclasps;andhowthisuglyBlackManoffershisbookandanironpentoeverybodythatmeetshimhereamongthetrees;andtheyaretowritetheirnameswiththeirownblood。Andthenhesetshismarkontheirbosoms!DidstthouevermeettheBlackMan,mother?\"
\"Andwhotoldyouthisstory,Pearl?\"askedhermother,recognisingacommonsuperstitionoftheperiod。
\"Itwastheolddameinthechimney—corner,atthehousewhereyouwatchedlastnight,\"saidthechild。\"Butshefanciedmeasleepwhileshewastalkingofit。Shesaidthatathousandandathousandpeoplehadmethimhere,andhadwritteninhisbook,andhavehismarkonthem。Andthatugly—temperedlady,oldMistressHibbins,wasone。And,mother,theolddamesaidthatthisscarletletterwastheBlackMan’smarkonthee,andthatitglowslikearedflamewhenthoumeetesthimatmidnight,hereinthedarkwood。Isittrue,mother?
Anddostthougotomeethiminthenight—time?\"
\"Didstthoueverawake,andfindthymothergone?\"askedHester。
\"NotthatIremember,\"saidthechild。\"Ifthoufearesttoleavemeinourcottage,thoumightesttakemealongwiththee。Iwouldverygladlygo!But,mother,tellmenow!IstheresuchaBlackMan?Anddidstthouevermeethim?Andisthishismark?\"
\"WiltthouletmebeatpeaceifIoncetellthee?\"askedhermother。
\"Yes,ifthoutellestmeall,\"answeredPearl。
\"OnceinmylifeImettheBlackMan!\"saidhermother。\"Thisscarletletterishismark!\"
Thusconversing,theyenteredsufficientlydeepintothewoodtosecurethemselvesfromtheobservationofanycasualpassengeralongtheforesttrack。Heretheysatdownonaluxuriantheapofmoss;
which,atsomeepochoftheprecedingcentury,hadbeenagiganticpine,withitsrootsandtrunkinthedarksomeshade,anditsheadaloftintheupperatmosphere。Itwasalittledellwheretheyhadseatedthemselves,withaleaf—strewnbankrisinggentlyoneitherside,andabrookflowingthroughthemidst,overabedoffallenanddrownedleaves。Thetreesimpendingoverithadflungdowngreatbranches,fromtimetotime,whichchokedupthecurrent,andcompelledittoformeddiesandblackdepthsatsomepoints;while,initsswifterandlivelierpassages,thereappearedachannel—wayofpebbles,andbrown,sparklingsand。Lettingtheeyesfollowalongthecourseofthestream,theycouldcatchthereflectedlightfromitswater,atsomeshortdistancewithintheforest,butsoonlostalltracesofitamidthebewildermentoftree—trunksandunderbrush,andhereandthereahugerockcoveredoverwithgreylichens。Allthesegianttreesandbouldersofgraniteseemedintentonmakingamysteryofthecourseofthissmallbrook;fearing,perhaps,that,withitsnever—ceasingloquacity,itshouldwhispertalesoutoftheheartoftheoldforestwhenceitflowed,ormirroritsrevelationsonthesmoothsurfaceofapool。Continually,indeed,asitstoleonward,thestreamletkeptupababble,kind,quiet,soothing,butmelancholy,likethevoiceofayoungchildthatwasspendingitsinfancywithoutplayfulness,andknewnothowtobemerryamongsadacquaintanceandeventsofsombrehue。
\"Obrook!Ofoolishandtiresomelittlebrook!\"criedPearl,afterlisteningawhiletoitstalk。\"Whyartthousosad?Pluckupaspirit,anddonotbeallthetimesighingandmurmuring!\"
Butthebrook,inthecourseofitslittlelifetimeamongtheforest—trees,hadgonethroughsosolemnanexperiencethatitcouldnothelptalkingaboutit,andseemedtohavenothingelsetosay。
Pearlresembledthebrookinasmuchasthecurrentofherlifegushedfromawell—springasmysterious,andhadflowedthroughscenesshadowedasheavilywithgloom。But,unlikethelittlestream,shedancedandsparkled,andprattledairilyalonghercourse。
\"Whatdoesthissadlittlebrooksay,mother?\"inquiredshe。
\"Ifthouhadstasorrowofthineown,thebrookmighttelltheeofit,\"answeredhermother,\"evenasitistellingmeofmine!Butnow,Pearl,Ihearafootstepalongthepath,andthenoiseofoneputtingasidethebranches。Iwouldhavetheebetakethyselftoplay,andleavemetospeakwithhimthatcomesyonder。\"
\"IsittheBlackMan?\"askedPearl。
\"Wiltthougoandplay,child?\"repeatedhermother。\"Butdonotstrayfarintothewood。Andtakeheedthatthoucomeatmyfirstcall。\"
\"Yes,mother,\"answeredPearl。\"ButifitbetheBlackMan,wiltthounotletmestayamoment,andlookathim,withhisbigbookunderhisarm?\"
\"Go,sillychild!\"saidhermotherimpatiently。\"ItisnoBlackMan!
Thoucanstseehimnow,throughthetrees。Itistheminister!\"
\"Andsoitis!\"saidthechild。\"And,mother,hehashishandoverhisheart!Isitbecause,whentheministerwrotehisnameinthebook,theBlackMansethismarkinthatplace?Butwhydoeshenotwearitoutsidehisbosom,asthoudost,mother?\"
\"Gonow,child,andthoushaltteasemeasthouwiltanothertime,\"criedHesterPrynne。\"Butdonotstrayfar。Keepwherethoucansthearthebabbleofthebrook。\"
Thechildwentsingingaway,followingupthecurrentofthebrook,andstrivingtomingleamorelightsomecadencewithitsmelancholyvoice。Butthelittlestreamwouldnotbecomforted,andstillkepttellingitsunintelligiblesecretofsomeverymournfulmysterythathadhappened—ormakingapropheticlamentationaboutsomethingthatwasyettohappen—withinthevergeofthedismalforest。SoPearl,whohadenoughofshadowinherownlittlelife,chosetobreakoffallacquaintancewiththisrepiningbrook。Shesetherself,therefore,togatheringvioletsandwood—anemones,andsomescarletcolumbinesthatshefoundgrowinginthecrevicesofahighrock。
Whenherelf—childhaddeparted,HesterPrynnemadeasteportwotowardsthetrackthatledthroughtheforest,butstillremainedunderthedeepshadowofthetrees。Shebeheldtheministeradvancingalongthepath,entirelyalone,andleaningonastaffwhichhehadcutbythewayside。Helookedhaggardandfeeble,andbetrayedanervelessdespondencyinhisair,whichhadneversoremarkablycharacterisedhiminhiswalksaboutthesettlement,norinanyothersituationwherehedeemedhimselfliabletonotice。Hereitwaswoefullyvisible,inthisintenseseclusionoftheforest,whichofitselfwouldhavebeenaheavytrialtothespirits。Therewasalistlessnessinhisgait;asifhesawnoreasonfortakingonestepfarther,norfeltanydesiretodoso,butwouldhavebeenglad,couldhebegladofanything,toflinghimselfdownattherootofthenearesttree,andlietherepassive,forevermore。Theleavesmightbestrewhim,andthesoilgraduallyaccumulateandformalittlehillockoverhisframe,nomatterwhethertherewerelifeinitorno。Deathwastoodefiniteanobjecttobewishedfor,oravoided。
ToHester’seye,theReverendMr。Dimmesdaleexhibitednosymptomofpositiveandvivacioussuffering,exceptthat,aslittlePearlhadremarked,hekepthishandoverhisheart。
XVII。
THEPASTORANDHISPARISHIONER。
SLOWLYastheministerwalked,hehadalmostgoneby,beforeHesterPrynnecouldgathervoiceenoughtoattracthisobservation。Atlength,shesucceeded。
\"ArthurDimmesdale!\"shesaid,faintlyatfirst;thenlouder,buthoarsely:\"ArthurDimmesdale!\"
\"Whospeaks?\"answeredtheminister。
Gatheringhimselfquicklyup,hestoodmoreerect,likeamantakenbysurpriseinamoodtowhichhewasreluctanttohavewitnesses。Throwinghiseyesanxiouslyinthedirectionofthevoice,heindistinctlybeheldaformunderthetrees,cladingarmentsso,sombre,andsolittlerelievedfromthegreytwilightintowhichthecloudedskyandtheheavyfoliagehaddarkenedthenoontide,thatheknewnotwhetheritwereawomanorashadow。Itmaybe,thathispathwaythroughlifewashauntedthus,byaspectrethathadstolenoutfromamonghisthoughts。
Hemadeastepnigher,anddiscoveredthescarletletter。
\"Hester!HesterPrynne!\"saidhe。\"Isitthou?Artthouinlife?\"
\"Evenso!\"sheanswered。\"Insuchlifeashasbeenminethesesevenyearspast!Andthou,ArthurDimmesdale,dostthouyetlive?\"
Itwasnowonderthattheythusquestionedoneanother’sactualandbodilyexistence,andevendoubtedoftheirown。Sostrangelydidtheymeet,inthedimwood,thatitwaslikethefirstencounter,intheworldbeyondthegrave,oftwospiritswhohadbeenintimatelyconnectedintheirformerlife,butnowstoodcoldlyshuddering,inmutualdread;asnotyetfamiliarwiththeirstate,norwontedtothecompanionshipofdisembodiedbeings。Eachaghost,andawe—strickenattheotherghost!Theywereawe—strickenlikewiseatthemselves;becausethecrisisflungbacktothemtheirconsciousness,andrevealedtoeachheartitshistoryandexperience,aslifeneverdoes,exceptatsuchbreathlessepochs。Thesoulbehelditsfeaturesinthemirrorofthepassingmoment。Itwaswithfear,andtremulously,and,asitwere,byaslow,reluctantnecessity,thatArthurDimmesdaleputforthhishand,chillasdeath,andtouchedthechillhandofHesterPrynne。Thegrasp,coldasitwas,tookawaywhatwasdreariestintheinterview。Theynowfeltthemselves,atleast,inhabitantsofthesamesphere。
Withoutawordmorespoken—neitherhenorsheassumingtheguidance,butwithanunexpressedconsent—theyglidedbackintotheshadowofthewoods,whenceHesterhademerged,andsatdownontheheapofmosswheresheandPearlhadbeforebeensitting。Whentheyfoundvoicetospeak,itwas,atfirst,onlytoutterremarksandinquiriessuchasanytwoacquaintancesmighthavemade,aboutthegloomysky,thethreateningstorm,and,next,thehealthofeach。Thustheywentonward,notboldly,butstepbystep,intothethemesthatwerebroodingdeepestintheirhearts。Solongestrangedbyfateandcircumstances,theyneededsomethingslightandcasualtorunbefore,andthrowopenthedoorsofintercourse,sothattheirrealthoughtsmightbeledacrossthethreshold。
Afterawhile,theministerfixedhiseyesonHesterPrynne’s。
\"Hester,\"saidhe,\"hastthoufoundpeace?\"
Shesmileddrearily,lookingdownuponherbosom。
\"Hastthou?\"sheasked。
\"None!—nothingbutdespair!\"heanswered。\"WhatelsecouldIlookfor,beingwhatIam,andleadingsuchalifeasmine?WereIanatheist—amandevoidofconscience—awretchwithcoarseandbrutalinstincts—Imighthavefoundpeace,longerenow。Nay,Inevershouldhavelostit!But,asmattersstandwithmysoul,whateverofgoodcapacitythereoriginallywasinme,allofGod’sgiftsthatwerethechoicesthavebecometheministersofspiritualtorment。Hester,I
ammostmiserable。\"
\"Thepeoplereverencethee,\"saidHester。\"Andsurelythouworkestgoodamongthem!Doththisbringtheenocomfort?\"
\"Moremisery,Hester!—onlythemoremisery!\"answeredtheclergyman,withabittersmile。\"AsconcernsthegoodwhichImayappeartodo,Ihavenofaithinit。Itmustneedsbeadelusion。Whatcanaruinedsoul,likemine,effecttowardstheredemptionofothersouls?—orapollutedsoul,towardstheirpurification?Andasforthepeople’sreverence,wouldthatitwereturnedtoscornandhatred!
Canstthoudeemit,Hester,aconsolation,thatImuststandupinmypulpit,andmeetsomanyeyesturnedupwardtomyface,asifthelightofheavenwerebeamingfromit!—mustseemyflockhungryforthetruth,andlisteningtomywordsasifatongueofPentecostwerespeaking!—andthenlookinward,anddiscerntheblackrealityofwhattheyidolise?Ihavelaughed,inbitternessandagonyofheart,atthecontrastbetweenwhatIseemandwhatIam!AndSatanlaughsatit!\"
\"Youwrongyourselfinthis,\"saidHestergently。\"Youhavedeeplyandsorelyrepented。Yoursinisleftbehindyou,inthedayslongpast。Yourpresentlifeisnotlessholy,inverytruth,thanitseemsinpeople’seyes。Istherenorealityinthepenitencethussealedandwitnessedbygoodworks?Andwhereforeshoulditnotbringyoupeace?\"
\"No,Hester,no!\"repliedtheclergyman。\"Thereisnosubstanceinit!Itiscoldanddead,andcandonothingforme!Ofpenance,Ihavehadenough!Ofpenitence,therehasbeennone!Else,Ishouldlongagohavethrownoffthesegarmentsofmockholiness,andhaveshownmyselftomankindastheywillseemeatthejudgment—seat。Happyareyou,Hester,thatwearthescarletletteropenlyuponyourbosom!Mineburnsinsecret!Thoulittleknowestwhatareliefitis,afterthetormentofasevenyears’cheat,tolookintoaneyethatrecognisesmeforwhatIam!HadIonefriend—orwereitmyworstenemy!—towhom,whensickenedwiththepraisesofallothermen,Icoulddailybetakemyself,andbeknownasthevilestofallsinners,methinksmysoulmightkeepitselfalivethereby。Eventhusmuchoftruthwouldsaveme!But,now,itisallfalsehood!—allemptiness!—alldeath!\"
HesterPrynnelookedintohisface,buthesitatedtospeak。Yet,utteringhislong—restrainedemotionssovehementlyashedid,hiswordshereofferedhertheverypointofcircumstancesinwhichtointerposewhatshecametosay。Sheconqueredherfears,andspoke。
\"Suchafriendasthouhastevennowwishedfor,\"saidshe,\"withwhomtoweepoverthysin,thouhasinme,thepartnerofit!\"Againshehesitated,butbroughtoutthewordswithaneffort,\"Thouhastlonghadsuchanenemy,anddwellestwithhim,underthesameroof!\"
Theministerstartedtohisfeet,gaspingforbreath,andclutchingathisheart,asifhewouldhavetornitoutofhisbosom。
\"Ha!Whatsayestthou!\"criedhe。\"Anenemy!Andundermineownroof!Whatmeanyou?\"