\"Satisfied!ofcourse。Lor’,yougorgies!Brother,Igotomyhusbandandmyhouse。\"And,thereupon,Ursularoseanddeparted。
AfterwaitingalittletimeIalsoarose;itwasnowdark,andIthoughtIcoulddonobetterthanbetakemyselftothedingle;attheentranceofitIfoundMr。Petulengro。\"Well,brother,\"saidhe,\"whatkindofconversationhaveyouandUrsulahadbeneaththehedge?\"
\"Ifyouwishedtohearwhatweweretalkingabout,youshouldhavecomeandsatdownbesideus;youknewwherewewere。\"
\"Well,brother,Ididmuchthesame,forIwentandsatdownbehindyou。\"
\"Behindthehedge,Jasper?\"
\"Behindthehedge,brother。\"
\"Andheardallourconversation。\"
\"Everyword,brother;andarumconversationitwas。\"
\"’Tisanoldsaying,Jasper,thatlistenersneverhearanygoodofthemselves;perhapsyouheardtheepithetthatUrsulabestoweduponyou。\"
\"If,byepitaph,youmeanthatshecalledmealiar,Idid,brother,andshewasnotmuchwrong,forIcertainlydonotalwaysstickexactlytotruth;you,however,havenotmuchtocomplainofme。\"
\"YoudeceivedmeaboutUrsula,givingmetounderstandshewasnotmarried。\"
\"ShewasnotmarriedwhenItoldyouso,brother;thatis,nottoSylvester;norwasIawarethatshewasgoingtomarryhim。Ioncethoughtyouhadakindofregardforher,andI
amsureshehadasmuchforyouasaRomanychicanhaveforagorgio。Ihalfexpectedtohaveheardyoumakelovetoherbehindthehedge,butIbegintothinkyoucarefornothinginthisworldbutoldwordsandstrangestories。Lor’totakeayoungwomanunderahedge,andtalktoherasyoudidtoUrsula;andyetyougoteverythingoutofherthatyouwanted,withyourgammonaboutoldFulcherandMeridiana。
Youareacunningone,brother。\"
\"Thereyouaremistaken,Jasper。Iamnotcunning。IfpeoplethinkIam,itisbecause,beingmadeupofartthemselves,simplicityofcharacterisapuzzletothem。
Yourwomenarecertainlyextraordinarycreatures,Jasper。\"
\"Didn’tIsaytheywererumanimals?Brother,weRomansshallalwayssticktogetheraslongastheystickfasttous。\"
\"Doyouthinktheyalwayswill,Jasper?\"
\"Can’tsay,brother;nothinglastsforever。RomanychiesareRomanychiesstill,thoughnotexactlywhattheyweresixtyyearsago。Mywife,thougharumone,isnotMrs。
Herne,brother。IthinksheisratherfondofFrenchmenandFrenchdiscourse。Itellyouwhat,brother,ifevergypsyismbreaksup,itwillbeowingtoourchieshavingbeenbittenbythatmadpuppytheycallsgentility。\"
CHAPTERXII
TheDingleatNight—TheTwoSidesoftheQuestion—RomanFemales—FillingtheKettle—TheDream—TheTallFigure。
IDESCENDEDtothebottomofthedingle。Itwasnearlyinvolvedinobscurity。Todissipatethefeelingofmelancholywhichcameovermymind,Iresolvedtokindleafire;andhavingheapeddrysticksuponmyhearth,andaddedabilletortwo,Istruckalight,andsoonproducedablaze。
Sittingdown,Ifixedmyeyesupontheblaze,andsoonfellintoadeepmeditation。Ithoughtoftheeventsoftheday,thesceneatchurch,andwhatIhadheardatchurch,thedangeroflosingone’ssoul,thedoubtsofJasperPetulengroastowhetheronehadasoul。IthoughtoverthevariousargumentswhichIhadeitherheard,orwhichhadcomespontaneouslytomymind,fororagainsttheprobabilityofastateoffutureexistence。Theyappearedtometobetolerablyevenlybalanced。Ithenthoughtthatitwasatalleventstakingthesafestparttoconcludethattherewasasoul。Itwouldbeaterriblething,afterhavingpassedone’slifeinthedisbeliefoftheexistenceofasoul,towakeupafterdeathasoul,andtofindone’sselfalostsoul。Yes,methoughtIwouldcometotheconclusionthatonehasasoul。Choosingthesafeside,however,appearedtometobeplayingaratherdastardlypart。Ihadneverbeenanadmirerofpeoplewhochosethesafesideineverything;
indeedIhadalwaysentertainedathoroughcontemptforthem。
Surelyitwouldbeshowingmoremanhoodtoadoptthedangerousside,thatofdisbelief;Ialmostresolvedtodoso—butyetinaquestionofsomuchimportance,Ioughtnottobeguidedbyvanity。Thequestionwasnotwhichwasthesafe,butthetrueside?yethowwasItoknowwhichwasthetrueside?ThenIthoughtoftheBible—whichIhadbeenreadinginthemorning—thatspokeofthesoulandafuturestate;butwastheBibletrue?Ihadheardlearnedandmoralmensaythatitwastrue,butIhadalsoheardlearnedandmoralmensaythatitwasnot:howwasItodecide?Stillthatbalanceofprobabilities!IfIcouldbutseethewayoftruth,Iwouldfollowit,ifnecessary,uponhandsandknees;
onthatIwasdetermined;butIcouldnotseeit。Feelingmybrainbegintoturnround,Iresolvedtothinkofsomethingelse;andforthwithbegantothinkofwhathadpassedbetweenUrsulaandmyselfinourdiscoursebeneaththehedge。
Imuseddeeplyonwhatshehadtoldmeastothevirtueofthefemalesofherrace。Howsingularthatvirtuemustbewhichwaskeptpureandimmaculatebythepossessor,whilstindulginginhabitsoffalsehoodanddishonesty!Ihadalwaysthoughtthegypsyfemalesextraordinarybeings。Ihadoftenwonderedatthem,theirdress,theirmannerofspeaking,and,notleast,attheirnames;but,untilthepresentday,Ihadbeenunacquaintedwiththemostextraordinarypointconnectedwiththem。Howcametheypossessedofthisextraordinaryvirtue?wasitbecausetheywerethievish?Irememberedthatanancientthief—taker,whohadretiredfromhisusefulcalling,andwhofrequentlyvisitedtheofficeofmymasteratlaw,therespectableS—,whohadthemanagementofhisproperty—Irememberedtohaveheardthisworthy,withwhomIoccasionallyhelddiscourse,philosophicandprofound,whenheandIchancedtobealonetogetherintheoffice,saythatallfirst—ratethievesweresober,andofwell—regulatedmorals,theirbodilypassionsbeingkeptinabeyancebytheirloveofgain;butthisaxiomcouldscarcelyholdgoodwithrespecttothesewomen—
howeverthievishtheymightbe,theydidcareforsomethingbesidesgain:theycaredfortheirhusbands。Iftheydidthieve,theymerelythievedfortheirhusbands;andthough,perhaps,someofthemwerevain,theymerelyprizedtheirbeautybecauseitgavethemfavourintheeyesoftheirhusbands。Whateverthehusbandswere—andJasperhadalmostinsinuatedthatthemalesoccasionallyallowedthemselvessomelatitude—theyappearedtobeasfaithfultotheirhusbandsastheancientRomanmatronsweretotheirs。Romanmatrons!and,afterall,mightnotthesebeinrealityRomanmatrons?TheycalledthemselvesRomans;mightnottheybethedescendantsoftheoldRomanmatrons?MightnottheybeofthesamebloodasLucretia?Andwerenotmanyoftheirstrangenames—Lucretiaamongsttherest—handeddowntothemfromoldRome?ItistruetheirlanguagewasnotthatofoldRome;itwasnot,however,altogetherdifferentfromit。Afterall,theancientRomansmightbeatribeofthesepeople,whosettleddownandfoundedavillagewiththetiltsofcarts,which,bydegrees,andtheinfluxofotherpeople,becamethegrandcityoftheworld。Ilikedtheideaofthegrandcityoftheworldowingitsorigintoapeoplewhohadbeeninthehabitofcarryingtheirhousesintheircarts。
Why,afterall,shouldnottheRomansofhistorybeabranchoftheseRomans?Therewereseveralpointsofsimilaritybetweenthem;ifRomanmatronswerechaste,bothmenandwomenwerethieves。OldRomewasthethiefoftheworld;yetstillthereweredifficultiestoberemovedbeforeIcouldpersuademyselfthattheoldRomansandmyRomanswereidentical;andintryingtoremovethesedifficulties,Ifeltmybrainoncemorebeginningtoturn,andinhastetookupanothersubjectofmeditation,andthatwasthepatteran,andwhatUrsulahadtoldmeaboutit。
IhadalwaysentertainedastrangeinterestforthatsignbywhichintheirwanderingstheRomanesegavetothoseoftheirpeoplewhocamebehindintimationastothedirectionwhichtheytook;butitnowinspiredmewithgreaterinterestthanever,—nowthatIhadlearntthatthepropermeaningofitwastheleavesoftrees。Ihad,asIhadsaidinmydialoguewithUrsula,beenveryeagertolearnthewordforleafintheRomanianlanguage,buthadneverlearntittillthisday;
sopatteransignifiedleafofatree;andnooneatpresentknewthatbutmyselfandUrsula,whohadlearntitfromMrs。
Herne,thelast,itwassaid,oftheoldstock;andthenI
thoughtwhatstrangepeoplethegypsiesmusthavebeenintheoldtime。Theyweresufficientlystrangeatpresent,buttheymusthavebeenfarstrangerofold;theymusthavebeenamorepeculiarpeople—theirlanguagemusthavebeenmoreperfect—andtheymusthavehadagreaterstockofstrangesecrets。IalmostwishedthatIhadlivedsometwoorthreehundredyearsago,thatImighthaveobservedthesepeoplewhentheywereyetstrangerthanatpresent。IwonderedwhetherIcouldhaveintroducedmyselftotheircompanyatthatperiod,whetherIshouldhavebeensofortunateastomeetsuchastrange,half—malicious,halfgood—humouredbeingasJasper,whowouldhaveinstructedmeinthelanguage,thenmoredeservingofnotethanatpresent。WhatmightInothavedonewiththatlanguage,hadIknownitinitspurity?
Why,Imighthavewrittenbooksinit;yetthosewhospokeitwouldhardlyhaveadmittedmetotheirsocietyatthatperiod,whentheykeptmoretothemselves。YetIthoughtthatImightpossiblyhavegainedtheirconfidence,andhavewanderedaboutwiththem,andlearnttheirlanguage,andalltheirstrangeways,andthen—andthen—andasighrosefromthedepthofmybreast;forIbegantothink,\"SupposingIhadaccomplishedallthis,whatwouldhavebeentheprofitofit;andinwhatwouldallthiswildgypsydreamhaveterminated?\"
Thenroseanothersigh,yetmoreprofound,forIbegantothink,\"Whatwaslikelytobetheprofitofmypresentwayoflife;thelivingindingles,makingponyanddonkeyshoes,conversingwithgypsy—womenunderhedges,andextractingfromthemtheiroddsecrets?\"Whatwaslikelytobetheprofitofsuchakindoflife,evenshoulditcontinueforalengthoftime?—asuppositionnotveryprobable,forIwasearningnothingtosupportme,andthefundswithwhichIhadentereduponthislifeweregraduallydisappearing。Iwasliving,itistrue,notunpleasantly,enjoyingthehealthyairofheaven;but,uponthewhole,wasInotsadlymisspendingmytime?SurelyIwas;and,asIlookedback,itappearedtomethatIhadalwaysbeendoingso。WhathadbeentheprofitofthetongueswhichIhadlearnt?hadtheyeverassistedmeinthedayofhunger?No,no!itappearedtomethatIhadalwaysmisspentmytime,saveinoneinstance,whenbyadesperateeffortIhadcollectedallthepowersofmyimagination,andwrittenthe\"LifeofJosephSell;\"butevenwhenIwrotetheLifeofSell,wasInotinafalseposition?
ProvidedIhadnotmisspentmytime,wouldithavebeennecessarytomakethateffort,which,afterall,hadonlyenabledmetoleaveLondon,andwanderaboutthecountryforatime?ButcouldI,takingallcircumstancesintoconsideration,havedonebetterthanIhad?Withmypeculiartemperamentandideas,couldIhavepursuedwithadvantagetheprofessiontowhichmyrespectableparentshadendeavouredtobringmeup?ItappearedtomethatIcouldnot,andthatthehandofnecessityhadguidedmefrommyearliestyears,untilthepresentnight,inwhichIfoundmyselfseatedinthedingle,staringonthebrandsofthefire。Butceasingtothinkofthepastwhich,asirrecoverablygone,itwasuselesstoregret,evenweretherecausetoregretit,whatshouldIdoinfuture?ShouldI
writeanotherbookliketheLifeofJosephSell;takeittoLondon,andofferittoapublisher?ButwhenIreflectedonthegrislysufferingswhichIhadundergonewhilstengagedinwritingtheLifeofSell,Ishrankfromtheideaofasimilarattempt;moreover,IdoubtedwhetherIpossessedthepowertowriteasimilarwork—whetherthematerialsforthelifeofanotherSelllurkedwithintherecessesofmybrain?HadI
notbetterbecomeinrealitywhatIhadhithertobeenmerelyplayingat—atinkeroragypsy?ButIsoonsawthatIwasnotfittedtobecomeeitherinreality。Itwasmuchmoreagreeabletoplaythegypsyorthetinkerthantobecomeeitherinreality。Ihadseenenoughofgypsyingandtinkeringtobeconvincedofthat。Allofasuddentheideaoftillingthesoilcameintomyhead;tillingthesoilwasahealthfulandnoblepursuit!butmyideaoftillingthesoilhadnoconnectionwithBritain;forIcouldonlyexpecttotillthesoilinBritainasaserf。IthoughtoftillingitinAmerica,inwhichitwassaidtherewasplentyofwild,unclaimedland,ofwhichanyone,whochosetoclearitofitstrees,mighttakepossession。IfiguredmyselfinAmerica,inanimmenseforest,clearingthelanddestined,bymyexertions,tobecomeafruitfulandsmilingplain。
MethoughtIheardthecrashofthehugetreesastheyfellbeneathmyaxe;andthenIbethoughtmethatamanwasintendedtomarry—Ioughttomarry;andifImarried,wherewasIlikelytobemorehappyasahusbandandafatherthaninAmerica,engagedintillingtheground?IfanciedmyselfinAmerica,engagedintillingtheground,assistedbyanenormousprogeny。Well,whynotmarry,andgoandtillthegroundinAmerica?Iwasyoung,andyouthwasthetimetomarryin,andtolabourin。Ihadtheuseofallmyfaculties;myeyes,itistrue,wereratherdullfromearlystudy,andfromwritingtheLifeofJosephSell;butIcouldseetolerablywellwiththem,andtheywerenotbleared。I
feltmyarms,andthighs,andteeth—theywerestrongandsoundenough;sonowwasthetimetolabour,tomarry,eatstrongflesh,andbegetstrongchildren—thepowerofdoingallthiswouldpassawaywithyouth,whichwasterriblytransitory。Ibethoughtmethatatimewouldcomewhenmyeyeswouldbebleared,and,perhaps,sightless;myarmsandthighsstrengthlessandsapless;whenmyteethwouldshakeinmyjaws,evensupposingtheydidnotdropout。Nogoingawooingthen—nolabouring—noeatingstrongflesh,andbegettinglustychildrenthen;andIbethoughtmehow,whenallthisshouldbe,Ishouldbewailthedaysofmyyouthasmisspent,providedIhadnotinthemfoundedformyselfahome,andbegottenstrongchildrentotakecareofmeinthedayswhenIcouldnottakecareofmyself;andthinkingofthesethings,Ibecamesadderandsadder,andstaredvacantlyuponthefiretillmyeyesclosedinadoze。
Icontinueddozingoverthefire,untilrousingmyselfI
perceivedthatthebrandswerenearlyconsumed,andIthoughtofretiringforthenight。Iarose,andwasabouttoentermytent,whenathoughtstruckme。\"Suppose,\"thoughtI,\"thatIsopelBernersshouldreturninthemidstofthenight,howdarkanddrearywouldthedingleappearwithoutafire!
truly,Iwillkeepupthefire,andIwilldomore;Ihavenoboardtospreadforher,butIwillfillthekettle,andheatit,sothat,ifshecomes,Imaybeabletowelcomeherwithacupoftea,forIknowshelovestea。\"Thereupon,Ipiledmorewooduponthefire,andsoonsucceededinprocuringabetterblazethanbefore;then,takingthekettle,Isetoutforthespring。Onarrivingatthemouthofthedingle,whichfrontedtheeast,IperceivedthatCharles’swainwasnearlyoppositetoit,highaboveintheheavens,bywhichI
knewthatthenightwastolerablywelladvanced。Thegypsyencampmentlaybeforeme;allwashushedandstillwithinit,anditsinmatesappearedtobelockedinslumber;asI
advanced,however,thedogs,whichwerefastenedoutsidethetents,growledandbarked;butpresentlyrecognisingme,theywereagainsilent,someofthemwaggingtheirtails。AsI
drewnearaparticulartent,Iheardafemalevoicesay—
\"Someoneiscoming!\"and,asIwasabouttopassit,theclothwhichformedthedoorwassuddenlyliftedup,andablackheadandpartofahugenakedbodyprotruded。ItwastheheadandupperpartofthegiantTawno,who,accordingtothefashionofgypsymen,laynextthedoorwrappedinhisblanket;theblankethad,however,fallenoff,andthestarlightshoneclearonhisathletictawnybody,andwasreflectedfromhislargestaringeyes。
\"ItisonlyI,Tawno,\"saidI,\"goingtofillthekettle,asitispossiblethatMissBernersmayarrivethisnight。\"
\"Kos—ko,\"drawledoutTawno,andreplacedthecurtain。
\"Good,doyoucallit?\"saidthesharpvoiceofhiswife;
\"thereisnogoodinthematter!ifthatyoungchapwerenotlivingwiththerawneeintheillegalanduncertificatedline,hewouldnotbegettingupinthemiddleofthenighttofillherkettles。\"Passingon,Iproceededtothespring,whereIfilledthekettle,andthenreturnedtothedingle。
Placingthekettleuponthefire,Iwatchedittillitbegantoboil;thenremovingitfromthetopofthebrands,I
placeditclosebesidethefire,andleavingitsimmering,I
retiredtomytent;where,havingtakenoffmyshoes,andafewofmygarments,Ilaydownonmypalliasse,andwasnotlonginfallingasleep。IbelieveIsleptsoundlyforsometime,thinkinganddreamingofnothing;suddenly,however,mysleepbecamedisturbed,andthesubjectofthepatteransbegantooccupymybrain。IimaginedthatIsawUrsulatracingherhusband,LauncelotLovel,bymeansofhispatterans;Iimaginedthatshehadconsiderabledifficultyindoingso;thatshewasoccasionallyinterruptedbyparishbeadlesandconstables,whoaskedherwhithershewastravelling,towhomshegavevariousanswers。Presentlymethoughtthat,asshewaspassingbyafarm—yard,twofierceandsavagedogsflewather;Iwasingreattrouble,I
remember,andwishedtoassisther,butcouldnot,forthoughIseemedtoseeher,Iwasstillatadistance:andnowitappearedthatshehadescapedfromthedogs,andwasproceedingwithhercartalongagravellypathwhichtraversedawildmoor;Icouldhearthewheelsgratingamidstsandandgravel。ThenextmomentIwasawake,andfoundmyselfsittingupinmytent;therewasaglimmeroflightthroughthecanvascausedbythefire;afeelingofdreadcameoverme,whichwasperhapsnatural,onstartingsuddenlyfromone’ssleepinthatwildloneplace;Ihalfimaginedthatsomeonewasnighthetent;theideamademeratheruncomfortable,and,todissipateit,Iliftedupthecanvasofthedoorandpeepedout,and,lo!Ihadadistinctviewofatallfigurestandingbythetent。\"Whoisthat?\"saidI,whilstIfeltmybloodrushtomyheart。\"ItisI,\"saidthevoiceofIsopelBerners;\"youlittleexpectedme,Idaresay;
well,sleepon,Idonotwishtodisturbyou。\"\"ButIwasexpectingyou,\"saidI,recoveringmyself,\"asyoumayseebythefireandkettle。Iwillbewithyouinamoment。\"
PuttingoninhastethearticlesofdresswhichIhadflungoff,Icameoutofthetent,andaddressingmyselftoIsopel,whowasstandingbesidehercart,Isaid—\"justasIwasabouttoretiretorestIthoughtitpossiblethatyoumightcometo—night,andgoteverythinginreadinessforyou。Now,sitdownbythefirewhilstIleadthedonkeyandcarttotheplacewhereyoustay;Iwillunharnesstheanimal,andpresentlycomeandjoinyou。\"\"Ineednottroubleyou,\"saidIsopel;\"Iwillgomyselfandseeaftermythings。\"\"Wewillgotogether,\"saidI,\"andthenreturnandhavesometea。\"
Isopelmadenoobjection,andinabouthalf—an—hourwehadarrangedeverythingatherquarters,Ithenhastenedandpreparedtea。PresentlyIsopelrejoinedme,bringingherstool;shehaddivestedherselfofherbonnet,andherhairfelloverhershoulders;shesatdown,andIpouredoutthebeverage,handingheracup。\"Haveyoumadealongjourneyto—night?\"saidI。\"Averylongone,\"repliedBelle。\"I
havecomenearlytwentymilessincesixo’clock。\"\"IbelieveIheardyoucominginmysleep,\"saidI;\"didthedogsabovebarkatyou?\"\"Yes,\"saidIsopel,\"veryviolently;didyouthinkofmeinyoursleep?\"\"No,\"saidI,\"IwasthinkingofUrsulaandsomethingshehadtoldme。\"\"Whenandwherewasthat?\"saidIsopel。\"Yesterdayevening,\"saidI,\"beneaththedinglehedge。\"\"Thenyouweretalkingwithherbeneaththehedge?\"\"Iwas,\"saidI,\"butonlyupongypsymatters。
Doyouknow,Belle,thatshehasjustbeenmarriedtoSylvester,sothatyouneednotthinkthatsheandI—\"
\"Sheandyouarequiteatlibertytositwhereyouplease,\"
saidIsopel。\"However,youngman,\"shecontinued,droppinghertone,whichshehadslightlyraised,\"Ibelievewhatyousaid,thatyouweremerelytalkingaboutgypsymatters,andalsowhatyouweregoingtosay,ifitwas,asIsuppose,thatsheandyouhadnoparticularacquaintance。\"Isopelwasnowsilentforsometime。\"Whatareyouthinkingof?\"saidI。\"Iwasthinking,\"saidBelle,\"howexceedinglykinditwasofyoutogeteverythinginreadinessforme,thoughyoudidnotknowthatIshouldcome。\"\"Ihadapresentimentthatyouwouldcome,\"saidI;\"butyouforgetthatIhavepreparedthekettleforyoubefore,thoughitwastruethatIwasthencertainthatyouwouldcome。\"\"Ihadnotforgottenyourdoingso,youngman,\"saidBelle;\"butIwasbeginningtothinkthatyouwereutterlyselfish,caringfornothingbutthegratificationofyourownselfishwhims。\"\"Iamveryfondofhavingmyownway,\"saidI,\"bututterlyselfishIamnot,asIdaresayIshallfrequentlyprovetoyou。Youwilloftenfindthekettleboilingwhenyoucomehome。\"\"Notheatedbyyou,\"saidIsopel,withasigh。\"Bywhomelse?\"
saidI;\"surelyyouarenotthinkingofdrivingmeaway?\"
\"Youhaveasmuchrighthereasmyself,\"saidIsopel,\"asI
havetoldyoubefore;butImustbegoingmyself。\"\"Well,\"
saidI,\"wecangotogether;totellyouthetruth,Iamrathertiredofthisplace。\"\"Ourpathsmustbeseparate,\"
saidBelle。\"Separate,\"saidI,\"whatdoyoumean?Ishan’tletyougoalone,Ishallgowithyou;andyouknowtheroadisasfreetomeastoyou;besides,youcan’tthinkofpartingcompanywithme,consideringhowmuchyouwouldlosebydoingso;rememberthatyouknowscarcelyanythingoftheArmenianlanguage;now,tolearnArmenianfrommewouldtakeyoutwentyyears。\"
Bellefaintlysmiled。\"Come,\"saidI,\"takeanothercupoftea。\"Belletookanothercupoftea,andyetanother;wehadsomeindifferentconversation,afterwhichIaroseandgaveherdonkeyaconsiderablefeedofcorn。Bellethankedme,shookmebythehand,andthenwenttoherowntabernacle,andIreturnedtomine。
CHAPTERXIII
VisittotheLandlord—HisMortifications—HunterandhisClan—Resolution。
ONthefollowingmorning,afterbreakfastingwithBelle,whowassilentandmelancholy,Ileftherinthedingle,andtookastrollamongsttheneighbouringlanes。AftersometimeI
thoughtIwouldpayavisittothelandlordofthepublic—
house,whomIhadnotseensincethedaywhenhecommunicatedtomehisintentionofchanginghisreligion。Ithereforedirectedmystepstothehouse,andonenteringitfoundthelandlordstandinginthekitchen。Justthentwomean—lookingfellows,whohadbeendrinkingatoneofthetables,andwhoappearedtobetheonlycustomersinthehouse,gotup,brushedpastthelandlord,andsayinginasurlytone,weshallpayyousometimeorother,tooktheirdeparture。
\"That’sthewaytheyservemenow,\"saidthelandlord,withasigh。\"Doyouknowthosefellows,\"Idemanded,\"sinceyouletthemgoawayinyourdebt?\"\"Iknownothingaboutthem,\"saidthelandlord,\"savethattheyareacoupleofscamps。\"\"Thenwhydidyouletthemgoawaywithoutpayingyou?\"saidI。\"Ihadnotthehearttostopthem,\"saidthelandlord;\"and,totellyouthetruth,everybodyservesmesonow,andIsupposetheyareright,forachildcouldflogme。\"\"Nonsense,\"saidI,\"behavemorelikeaman,andwithrespecttothosetwofellowsrunafterthem,Iwillgowithyou,andiftheyrefusetopaythereckoningIwillhelpyoutoshakesomemoneyoutoftheirclothes。\"\"Thankyou,\"saidthelandlord;\"butastheyaregone,letthemgoon。Whattheyhavedrankisnotofmuchconsequence。\"\"Whatisthematterwithyou?\"saidI,staringatthelandlord,whoappearedstrangelyaltered;hisfeatureswerewildandhaggard,hisformerlybluffcheekswereconsiderablysunkenin,andhisfigurehadlostmuchofitsplumpness。\"Haveyouchangedyourreligionalready,andhasthefellowinblackcommandedyoutofast?\"\"Ihavenotchangedmyreligionyet,\"saidthelandlord,withakindofshudder;\"Iamtochangeitpubliclythisdayfortnight,andtheideaofdoingso—Idonotmindtellingyou—preysmuchuponmymind;
moreover,thenoiseofthethinghasgotabroad,andeverybodyislaughingatme,andwhat’smore,cominganddrinkingmybeer,andgoingawaywithoutpayingforit,whilstIfeelmyselflikeonebewitched,wishingbutnotdaringtotakemyownpart。Confoundthefellowinblack,I
wishIhadneverseenhim!yetwhatcanIdowithouthim?
ThebrewerswearsthatunlessIpayhimfiftypoundswithinafortnighthe’llsendadistresswarrantintothehouse,andtakeallIhave。Mypoornieceiscryingintheroomabove;