Darrow，layingasidehispen，lookedatherforamomentinsilence；thenhestoodupandshutthedoor。
\"Imustgoto—morrowearly，\"hesaid，sittingdownbesideher。Hisvoicewasgrave，withaslighttingeofsadness。
Shesaidtoherself：\"HeknowswhatIamfeeling……\"andnowthethoughtmadeherfeellessalone。Theexpressionofhisfacewassternandyettender：forthefirsttimesheunderstoodwhathehadsuffered。
Shehadnodoubtastothenecessityofgivinghimup，butitwasimpossibletotellhimsothen。Shestoodupandsaid：\"I’llleaveyoutoyourletters。\"Hemadenoprotest，butmerelyanswered：\"You’llcomedownpresentlyforawalk？\"anditoccurredtoheratoncethatshewouldwalkdowntotheriverwithhim，andgiveherselfforthelasttimethetragicluxuryofsittingathissideinthelittlepavilion。\"Perhaps，\"shethought，\"itwillbeeasiertotellhimthere。\"
Itdidnot，onthewayhomefromtheirwalk，becomeanyeasiertotellhim；buthersecretdecisiontodosobeforeheleftgaveherakindoffactitiouscalmandlaidamelancholyecstasyuponthehour。Stillskirtingthesubjectthatfannedtheirveryfaceswithitsflame，theyclungpersistentlytoothertopics，anditseemedtoAnnathattheirmindshadneverbeennearertogetherthaninthishourwhentheirheartsweresoseparate。Intheglowofinterchangedloveshehadgrownlessconsciousofthatotherglowofinterchangedthoughtwhichhadonceilluminedhermind。ShehadforgottenhowDarrowhadwidenedherworldandlengthenedoutallherperspectives，andwithapangofdoubledestitutionshesawherselfaloneamonghershrunkenthoughts。
Forthefirsttime，then，shehadaclearvisionofwhatherlifewouldbewithouthim。Sheimaginedherselftryingtotakeupthedailyround，andallthathadlightenedandanimateditseemedequallylifelessandvain。Shetriedtothinkofherselfaswhollyabsorbedinherdaughter’sdevelopment，likeothermothersshehadseen；butshesupposedthosemothersmusthavehadstoredmemoriesofhappinesstonourishthem。Shehadhadnothing，andallherstarvedyouthstillclaimeditsdue。
Whenshewentuptodressfordinnershesaidtoherself：
\"I’llhavemylasteveningwithhim，andthen，beforewesaygoodnight，I’lltellhim。\"
Thispostponementdidnotseemunjustified。Darrowhadshownherhowhedreadedvainwords，howresolvedhewastoavoidallfruitlessdiscussion。Hemusthavebeenintenselyawareofwhathadbeengoingoninhermindsincehisreturn，yetwhenshehadattemptedtorevealittohimhehadturnedfromtherevelation。Shewasthereforemerelyfollowingthelinehehadtracedinbehaving，tillthefinalmomentcame，asthoughtherewerenothingmoretosay……
Thatmomentseemedatlasttobeathandwhen，atherusualhourafterdinner，MadamedeChantellerosetogoupstairs。
Shelingeredalittletobidgood—byetoDarrow，whomshewasnotlikelytoseeinthemorning；andheraffableallusionstohispromptreturnsoundedinAnna’searlikethenoteofdestiny。
Acoldrainhadfallenallday，andforgreaterwarmthandintimacytheyhadgoneafterdinnertotheoak—room，shuttingoutthechillyvistaofthefartherdrawing—rooms。
Theautumnwind，comingupfromtheriver，criedaboutthehousewithavoiceoflossandseparation；andAnnaandDarrowsatsilent，asiftheyfearedtobreakthehushthatshutthemin。Thesolitude，thefire—light，theharmonyofsofthangingsandolddimpictures，woveaboutthemaspellofsecuritythroughwhichAnnafelt，fardowninherheart，themuffledbeatofaninextinguishablebliss。Howcouldshehavethoughtthatthislastmomentwouldbethemomenttospeaktohim，whenitseemedtohavegatheredupintoitsflightallthescatteredsplendoursofherdream？
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Darrowcontinuedtostandbythedoorafterithadclosed。
Annafeltthathewaslookingather，andsatstill，disdainingtoseekrefugeinanyevasivewordormovement。
Forthelasttimeshewantedtolethimtakefromherthefulnessofwhatthesightofhercouldgive。
Hecrossedoverandsatdownonthesofa。Foramomentneitherofthemspoke；thenhesaid：\"To—night，dearest，I
musthavemyanswer。\"
Shestraightenedherselfundertheshockofhisseemingtotaketheverywordsfromherlips。
\"To—night？\"wasallthatshecouldfalter。
\"Imustbeoffbytheearlytrain。Therewon’tbemorethanamomentinthemorning。\"
Hehadtakenherhand，andshesaidtoherselfthatshemustfreeitbeforeshecouldgoonwithwhatshehadtosay。
Thensherejectedthisconcessiontoaweaknessshewasresolvedtodefy。Totheendshewouldleaveherhandinhishand，hereyesinhiseyes：shewouldnot，intheirfinalhourtogether，beafraidofanypartofherloveforhim。
\"You’lltellmeto—night，dear，\"heinsistedgently；andhisinsistencegaveherthestrengthtospeak。
\"There’ssomethingImustaskyou，\"shebrokeout，perceiving，assheheardherwords，thattheywerenotintheleastwhatshehadmeanttosay。
Hesatstill，waiting，andshepressedon：\"Dosuchthingshappentomenoften？\"
Thequietroomseemedtoresoundwiththelongreverberationsofherquestion。Shelookedawayfromhim，andhereleasedherandstoodup。
\"Idon’tknowwhathappenstoothermen。Suchathingneverhappenedtome……\"
Sheturnedhereyesbacktohisface。Shefeltlikeatravelleronagiddypathbetweenacliffandaprecipice：
therewasnothingforitnowbuttogoon。
\"Hadit……haditbegun……beforeyoumetherinParis？\"
\"No；athousandtimesno！I’vetoldyouthefactsastheywere。\"
\"Allthefacts？\"
Heturnedabruptly。\"Whatdoyoumean？\"
Herthroatwasdryandtheloudpulsesdrummedinhertemples。
\"Imean——abouther……Perhapsyouknew……knewthingsabouther……beforehand。\"
Shestopped。Theroomhadgrownprofoundlystill。Alogdroppedtothehearthandbrokethereinahissingshower。
Darrowspokeinaclearvoice。\"Iknewnothing，absolutelynothing，\"hesaid。
Shehadtheanswertoherinmostdoubt——toherlastshamefulunavowedhope。Shesatpowerlessunderherwoe。
Hewalkedtothefireplaceandpushedbackthebrokenlogwithhisfoot。Aflameshotoutofit，andintheupwardglareshesawhispaleface，sternwithmisery。
\"Isthatall？\"heasked。
Shemadeaslightsignwithherheadandhecameslowlybacktoher。\"Thenisthistobegood—bye？\"
Againshesignedafaintassent，andhemadenoefforttotouchherordrawnearer。\"YouunderstandthatIsha’n’tcomeback？\"
Hewaslookingather，andshetriedtoreturnhislook，buthereyeswereblindwithtears，andindreadofhisseeingthemshegotupandwalkedaway。Hedidnotfollowher，andshestoodwithherbacktohim，staringatabowlofcarnationsonalittletablestrewnwithbooks。Hertearsmagnifiedeverythingshelookedat，andthestreakedpetalsofthecarnations，theirfringededgesandfrailcurledstamens，presseduponher，hugeandvivid。ShenoticedamongthebooksavolumeofversehehadsentherfromEngland，andtriedtorememberwhetheritwasbeforeorafter……
Shefeltthathewaswaitingforhertospeak，andatlastsheturnedtohim。\"Ishallseeyouto—morrowbeforeyougo……\"
Hemadenoanswer。
Shemovedtowardthedoorandhehelditopenforher。Shesawhishandonthedoor，andhissealringinitssettingoftwistedsilver；andthesenseoftheendofallthingscametoher。
Theywalkeddownthedrawing—rooms，betweentheshadowyreflectionsofscreensandcabinets，andmountedthestairssidebyside。Attheendofthegallery，alampbroughtoutturbidgleamsinthesmokybattle—pieceaboveit。
OnthelandingDarrowstopped；hisroomwasthenearesttothestairs。\"Goodnight，\"hesaid，holdingouthishand。
AsAnnagavehimhersthespringsofgriefbrokelooseinher。Shestruggledwithhersobs，andsubduedthem；butherbreathcameunevenly，andtohideheragitationsheleanedonhimandpressedherfaceagainsthisarm。
\"Don’t——don’t，\"hewhispered，soothingher。
Hertroubledbreathingsoundedloudlyinthesilenceofthesleepinghouse。Shepressedherlipstight，butcouldnotstopthenervouspulsationsinherthroat，andheputanarmaboutherand，openinghisdoor，drewheracrossthethresholdofhisroom。Thedoorshutbehindherandshesatdownontheloungeatthefootofthebed。Thepulsationsinherthroathadceased，butsheknewtheywouldbeginagainifshetriedtospeak。
Darrowwalkedawayandleanedagainstthemantelpiece。Thered—veiledlampshoneonhisbooksandpapers，onthearm—
chairbythefire，andthescatteredobjectsonhisdressing—table。Alogglimmeredonthehearth，andtheroomwaswarmandfaintlysmoke—scented。Itwasthefirsttimeshehadeverbeeninaroomhelivedin，amonghispersonalpossessionsandthetracesofhisdailyusage。Everyobjectaboutherseemedtocontainaparticleofhimself：thewholeairbreathedofhim，steepingherinthesenseofhisintimatepresence。
Suddenlyshethought：\"ThisiswhatSophyVinerknew\"……andwithatorturingprecisionshepicturedthemaloneinsuchascene……Hadhetakenthegirltoanhotel……wheredidpeoplegoinsuchcases？Wherevertheywere，thesilenceofnighthadbeenaroundthem，andthethingsheusedhadbeenstrewnabouttheroom……Anna，ashamedofdwellingonthedetestedvision，stoodupwithaconfusedimpulseofflight；thenawaveofcontraryfeelingarrestedherandshepausedwithloweredhead。
Darrowhadcomeforwardassherose，andsheperceivedthathewaswaitingforhertobidhimgoodnight。Itwasclearthatnootherpossibilityhadevenbrushedhismind；andthefact，forsomedimreason，humiliatedher。\"Whynot……whynot？\"somethingwhisperedinher，asthoughhisforbearance，histacitrecognitionofherpride，wereaslightonotherqualitiesshewantedhimtofeelinher。
\"Inthemorning，then？\"sheheardhimsay。
\"Yes，inthemorning，\"sherepeated。
Shecontinuedtostandinthesameplace，lookingvaguelyabouttheroom。Foroncebeforetheyparted——sinceparttheymust——shelongedtobetohimallthatSophyVinerhadbeen；butsheremainedrootedtothefloor，unabletofindawordorimagineagesturethatshouldexpresshermeaning。
Exasperatedbyherhelplessness，shethought：\"Don’tIfeelthingsasotherwomendo？\"
Hereyefellonanote—caseshehadgivenhim。Itwaswornatthecornerswiththefrictionofhispocketanddistendedwiththicklypackedpapers。Shewonderedifhecarriedherlettersinit，andsheputherhandoutandtouchedit。
Allthatheandshehadeverfeltorseen，theircloseencountersofwordandlook，andtheclosercontactoftheirsilences，trembledthroughheratthetouch。Sherememberedthingshehadsaidthathadbeenlikenewskiesaboveherhead：wayshehadthatseemedapartoftheairshebreathed。Thefaintwarmthofhergirlishlovecamebacktoher，gatheringheatasitpassedthroughherthoughts；andherheartrockedlikeaboatonthesurgeofitslonglongmemories。\"It’sbecauseIlovehimintoomanyways，\"shethought；andslowlysheturnedtothedoor。
ShewasawarethatDarrowwasstillsilentlywatchingher，butheneitherstirrednorspoketillshehadreachedthethreshold。Thenhemetherthereandcaughtherinhisarms。
\"Notto—night——don’ttellmeto—night！\"hewhispered；andsheleanedawayfromhim，closinghereyesforaninstant，andthenslowlyopeningthemtothefloodoflightinhis。
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AnnaandDarrow，thenextday，sataloneinacompartmentoftheParistrain。
Anna，whentheyenteredit，hadputherselfinthefarthestcornerandplacedherbagontheadjoiningseat。ShehaddecidedsuddenlytoaccompanyDarrowtoParis，hadevenpersuadedhimtowaitforalatertraininorderthattheymighttraveltogether。Shehadanintenselongingtobewithhim，analmostmorbidterroroflosingsightofhimforamoment：whenhejumpedoutofthetrainandranbackalongtheplatformtobuyanewspaperforhershefeltasthoughsheshouldneverseehimagain，andshiveredwiththecoldmiseryofherlastjourneytoParis，whenshehadthoughtherselfpartedfromhimforever。Yetshewantedtokeephimatadistance，ontheothersideofthecompartment，andasthetrainmovedoutofthestationshedrewfromherbagthelettersshehadthrustinitassheleftthehouse，andbegantoglanceoverthemsothatherloweredlidsshouldhidehereyesfromhim。
Shewashisnow，hisforlife：therecouldneveragainbeanyquestionofsacrificingherselftoEffie’swelfare，ortoanyotherabstractconceptionofduty。Effieofcoursewouldnotsuffer；Annawouldpayforherblissasawifebyredoubleddevotionasamother。Herscrupleswerenotovercome；butforthetimetheirvoicesweredrownedinthetumultuousrumourofherhappiness。
AssheopenedherlettersshewasconsciousthatDarrow’sgazewasfixedonher，andgraduallyitdrewhereyesupward，andshedrankdeepofthepassionatetendernessinhis。Thenthebloodrosetoherfaceandshefeltagainthedesiretoshieldherself。SheturnedbacktoherlettersandherglancelitonanenvelopeinscribedinOwen’shand。
Herheartbegantobeatoppressively：shewasinamoodwhenthesimplestthingsseemedominous。WhatcouldOwenhavetosaytoher？Onlythefirstpagewascovered，anditcontainedsimplytheannouncementthat，inthecompanyofayoungcompatriotwhowasstudyingattheBeauxArts，hehadplannedtoleaveforSpainthefollowingevening。
\"Hehasn’tseenher，then！\"wasAnna’sinstantthought；andherfeelingwasastrangecompoundofhumiliationandrelief。Thegirlhadkeptherword，liveduptothelineofconductshehadsetherself；andAnnahadfailedinthesameattempt。Shedidnotreproachherselfwithherfailure；butshewouldhavebeenhappieriftherehadbeenlessdiscrepancybetweenherwordstoSophyVinerandtheactwhichhadfollowedthem。Itirritatedherobscurelythatthegirlshouldhavebeensomuchsurerofherpowertocarryoutherpurpose……
AnnalookedupandsawthatDarrow’seyeswereonthenewspaper。Heseemedcalmandsecure，almostindifferenttoherpresence。\"Willitbecomeamatterofcoursetohimsosoon？\"shewonderedwithatwingeofjealousy。Shesatmotionless，hereyesfixedonhim，tryingtomakehimfeeltheattractionofhergazeasshefelthis。Itsurprisedandshamedhertodetectanewelementinherloveforhim：
asortofsuspicioustyrannicaltendernessthatseemedtodepriveitofallserenity。Finallyhelookedup，hissmileenvelopedher，andshefeltherselfhisineveryfibre，hissocompletelyandinseparablythatshesawthevanityofimagininganyotherfateforherself。
TogiveherselfacountenancesheheldoutOwen’sletter。
Hetookitandglanceddownthepage，hisfacegrowngrave。
Shewaitednervouslytillhelookedup。
\"That’sagoodplan；thebestthingthatcouldhappen，\"hesaid，ajustperceptibleshadeofconstraintinhistone。
\"Oh，yes，\"shehastilyassented。Shewasawareofafaintcurrentofreliefsilentlycirculatingbetweenthem。TheywerebothgladthatOwenwasgoing，thatforawhilehewouldbeoutoftheirway；anditseemedtoherhorriblethatsomuchofthestuffoftheirhappinessshouldbemadeofsuchunavowedfeelings……
\"Ishallseehimthisevening，\"shesaid，wishingDarrowtofeelthatshewasnotafraidofmeetingherstep—son。
\"Yes，ofcourse；perhapshemightdinewithyou。\"
Thewordsstruckherasstrangelyobtuse。DarrowwastomeethisAmbassadoratthestationonthelatter’sarrival，andwouldinallprobabilityhavetospendtheeveningwithhim，andAnnaknewhehadbeenconcernedatthethoughtofhavingtoleaveheralone。ButhowcouldhespeakinthatcarelesstoneofherdiningwithOwen？Sheloweredhervoicetosay：\"I’mafraidhe’sdesperatelyunhappy。\"
Heanswered，withatingeofimpatience：\"It’smuchthebestthingthatheshouldtravel。\"
\"Yes——butdon’tyoufeel……\"Shebrokeoff。Sheknewhowhedislikedtheseidlereturnsontheirrevocable，andherfearofdoingorsayingwhathedislikedwastingedbyanewinstinctofsubserviencyagainstwhichherpriderevolted。
Shethoughttoherself：\"Hewillseethechange，andgrowindifferenttomeashedidtoHER……\"andforamomentitseemedtoherthatshewasrelivingtheexperienceofSophyViner。
Darrowmadenoattempttolearntheendofherunfinishedsentence。HehandedbackOwen’sletterandreturnedtohisnewspaper；andwhenhelookedupfromitafewminuteslateritwaswithaclearbrowandasmilethatirresistiblydrewherbacktohappierthoughts。
Thetrainwasjustenteringastation，andamomentlatertheircompartmentwasinvadedbyacommonplacecouplepreoccupiedwiththebestowalofbulgingpackages。Anna，attheirapproach，feltthepossessiveprideofthewomaninlovewhenstrangersarebetweenherselfandthemansheloves。SheaskedDarrowtoopenthewindow，toplaceherbaginthenet，torollherrugintoacushionforherfeet；
andwhilehewasthusbusiedwithhershewasconsciousofanewdevotioninhistone，inhiswayofbendingoverherandmeetinghereyes。Hewentbacktohisseat，andtheylookedateachotherlikeloverssmilingatahappysecret。
Anna，beforegoingbacktoGivre，hadsuggestedOwen’smovingintoherapartment，buthehadpreferredtoremainatthehoteltowhichhehadsenthisluggage，andonarrivinginParisshedecidedtodrivethereatonce。Shewasimpatienttohavethemeetingover，andgladthatDarrowwasobligedtoleaveheratthestationinordertolookupacolleagueattheEmbassy。ShedreadedhisseeingOwenagain，andyetdarednottellhimso，andtoensurehisremainingawayshementionedanurgentengagementwithherdress—makerandalonglistofcommissionstobeexecutedforMadamedeChantelle。
\"Ishallseeyouto—morrowmorning，\"shesaid；butherepliedwithasmilethathewouldcertainlyfindtimetocometoherforamomentonhiswaybackfrommeetingtheAmbassador；andwhenhehadputherinacabheleanedthroughthewindowtopresshislipstohers。
Sheblushedlikeagirl，thinking，halfvexed，halfhappy：
\"Yesterdayhewouldnothavedoneit……\"andadozenscarcelydefinabledifferencesinhislookandmannerseemedallatoncetobesummedupintheboyishact。\"Afterall，I’mengagedtohim，\"shereflected，andthensmiledattheabsurdityoftheword。Thenextinstant，withapangofself—reproach，sherememberedSophyViner’scry：\"Iknewallthewhilehedidn’tcare……\"\"Poorthing，ohpoorthing！\"
Annamurmured……
AtOwen’shotelshewaitedinatremorwhiletheporterwentinsearchofhim。Wordwaspresentlybroughtbackthathewasinhisroomandbeggedhertocomeup，andasshecrossedthehallshecaughtsightofhisportmanteauxlyingonthefloor，alreadylabelledfordeparture。
Owensatatatablewriting，hisbacktothedoor；andwhenhestoodupthewindowwasbehindhim，sothat，intherainyafternoonlight，hisfeatureswerebarelydiscernible。
\"Dearest——soyou’rereallyoff？\"shesaid，hesitatingamomentonthethreshold。
Hepushedachairforward，andtheysatdown，eachwaitingfortheothertospeak。Finallysheputsomerandomquestionabouthistravelling—companion，aslowshymeditativeyouthwhomhehadonceortwicebroughtdowntoGivre。Shereflectedthatitwasnaturalheshouldhavegiventhisuncommunicativecomradethepreferenceoverhislivelieracquaintances，andaloudshesaid：\"I’msogladFredRempsoncangowithyou。\"
Owenansweredinthesametone，andforafewminutestheirtalkdraggeditselfonoveradrywasteofcommon—places。
Annanoticedthat，thoughreadyenoughtoimparthisownplans，Owenstudiouslyabstainedfromputtinganyquestionsabouthers。Itwasevidentfromhisallusionsthathemeanttobeawayforsometime，andhepresentlyaskedherifshewouldgiveinstructionsaboutpackingandsendingafterhimsomewinterclotheshehadleftatGivre。Thisgavehertheopportunitytosaythatsheexpectedtogobackwithinadayortwoandwouldattendtothematterassoonasshereturned。Sheadded：\"IcameupthismorningwithGeorge，whoisgoingontoLondonto—morrow，\"intending，bytheuseofDarrow’sChristianname，togiveOwenthechancetospeakofhermarriage。Buthemadenocomment，andshecontinuedtohearthenamesoundingonunfamiliarlybetweenthem。
Theroomwasalmostdark，andshefinallystoodupandglancedaboutforthelight—switch，saying：\"Ican’tseeyou，dear。\"
\"Oh，don’t——Ihatethelight！\"Owenexclaimed，catchingherbythewristandpushingherbackintoherseat。Hegaveanervouslaughandadded：\"I’mhalf—blindwithneuralgia。I
supposeit’sthisbeastlyrain。\"
\"Yes；itwilldoyougoodtogetdowntoSpain。\"
Sheaskedifhehadtheremediesthedoctorhadgivenhimforapreviousattack，andonhisreplyingthathedidn’tknowwhathe’ddonewiththestuff，shesprangup，offeringtogotothechemist’s。Itwasarelieftohavesomethingtodoforhim，andsheknewfromhis\"Oh，thanks——wouldyou？\"thatitwasarelieftohimtohaveapretextfornotdetainingher。Hisnaturalimpulsewouldhavebeentodeclarethathedidn’twantanydrugs，andwouldbeallrightinnotime；andhisacquiescenceshowedherhowprofoundlyhefelttheuselessnessoftheirtryingtoprolongtheirtalk。Hisfacewasnownomorethanawhiteblurinthedusk，butshefeltitsindistinctnessasaveildrawnoverachingintensitiesofexpression。\"Heknows……heknows……\"shesaidtoherself，andwonderedwhetherthetruthhadbeenrevealedtohimbysomecorroborativefactorbythesheerforceofdivination。
Hehadrisenalso，andwasclearlywaitingforhertogo，andsheturnedtothedoor，saying：\"I’llbebackinamoment。\"
\"Oh，don’tcomeupagain，please！\"Hepaused，embarrassed。
\"Imean——Imaynotbehere。I’vegottogoandpickupRempson，andseeaboutsomefinalthingswithhim。\"
Shestoppedonthethresholdwithasinkingheart。Hemeantthistobetheirleave—taking，then——andhehadnotevenaskedherwhenshewastobemarried，orspokenofseeingheragainbeforeshesetoutfortheothersideoftheworld。
\"Owen！\"shecried，andturnedback。
Hestoodmutelybeforeherinthedimness。
\"Youhaven’ttoldmehowlongyou’retobegone。\"
\"Howlong？Oh，yousee……that’srathervague……Ihatedefinitedates，youknow……\"
Hepausedandshesawhedidnotmeantohelpherout。Shetriedtosay：\"You’llbehereformywedding？\"butcouldnotbringthewordstoherlips。Insteadshemurmured：\"InsixweeksIshallbegoingtoo……\"andherejoined，asifhehadexpectedtheannouncementandpreparedhisanswer：\"Oh，bythattime，verylikely……\"
\"Atanyrate，Iwon’tsaygood—bye，\"shestammered，feelingthetearsbeneathherveil。
\"No，no；rathernot！\"hedeclared；buthemadenomovement，andshewentupandthrewherarmsabouthim。\"You’llwriteme，won’tyou？\"
\"Ofcourse，ofcourse————\"
Herhandsslippeddownintohis，andforaminutetheyheldeachotherdumblyinthedarkness；thenhegaveavaguelaughandsaid：\"It’sreallytimetolightup。\"Hepressedtheelectricbuttonwithonehandwhilewiththeotherheopenedthedoor；andshepassedoutwithoutdaringtoturnback，lestthelightonhisfaceshouldshowherwhatshefearedtosee。