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  ’Don’t,’saidJohnny,recoilingintruthfromthepicturebywhichhewasrevolted。’Neveragain,’shesaid,’neveragain!Butyouforceditfromme,andnowIshallnotclosemyeyesforaweek。’

  Shethenbecameverycomfortablyconfidential,anddiscussedtheaffairsofpoorMrsDobbsBroughtonwithagreatdealofsatisfaction。’Iwenttoseeher,ofcourse,butshesentmedownwordtosaythattheshockwouldbetoomuchforher。Idonotwonderthatsheshouldnotseeme。

  PoorMaria!Shecametomeforadvice,youknow,whenDobbsBroughtonfirstproposedtoher;andIwasobligedtotellherwhatIreallythought。Iknewhercharacterwell?\"DearMaria,\"Isaid,\"ifyouthinkthatyoucanlovehim,takehim!\"\"IthinkIcan,\"shereplied。\"But,\"

  saidI,\"makeyourselfquitesureaboutthebusiness。\"Andhowhasitturnedout?Sheneverlovedhim。WhatheartshehasshehasgiventothatwretchedDalrymple。’

  ’Idon’tseethatheisparticularlywretched,’saidJohnny,pleadingforhisfriend。

  ’Heiswretched,andsoyou’llfind。ShegavehimherheartaftergivingherhandtopoorDobbs;andasforthebusiness,thereisn’tasmuchleftaswillpayforhermourning。Idon’twonderthatshecouldnotbringherselftoseeme。’

  ’Andwhathasbecomeofthebusiness?’

  ’ItbelongstoMrsVanSiever——toherandMusselboro。PoorBroughtonhadsomelittlemoney,andithasgoneamongthem。Musselboro,whoneverhadapenny,willbearichman。OfcourseyouknowthatheisgoingtomarryClara?’

  ’Nonsense!’

  ’Ialwaystoldyouthatitwouldbeso。AndnowyoumayperhapsacknowledgethatConwayDalrymple’sprospectsarenotverybrilliant。I

  hopehelikesbeingcutoutbyMrMusselboro!OfcoursehewillhavetomarryMaria。Idonotseehowhecanescape。Indeed,sheistoogoodforhim;——onlyaftersuchamarriageasthat,therewouldbeanendtoallhisprospectsasanartist。ThebestthingforthemwouldbetogotoNewZealand。’

  JohnEamescertainlylikedtheseeveningswithMissDemolines。Hesatathiseaseinacomfortablechair,andamusedhimselfbywatchingherdifferentlittleplots。Andthenshehadbrighteyes,andsheflatteredhim,andallowedhimtoscoldheroccasionally。Andnowandagaintheremightbesomemoreattraction,whenshewouldadmithimtotakeherhand——orthelike。Itwasbetterthantositsmokingwithmenathisclub。ButhecouldnotsitupallnightevenwithMadalinaDemolines,andatelevenhegotuptotakehisleave。’WhenshallyouseeMissDale?’sheaskedhimsuddenly。

  ’Idonotknow,’heanswered,frowningather。HealwaysfrownedatherwhenshespoketohimofMissDale。

  ’Idonotintheleastcareforyourfrowns,’shesaidplayfully,puttingupherhandstosmoothhisbrows。’IthinkIknowyouintimatelyenoughtonameyourgoddesstoyou。’

  ’Sheisn’tmygoddess。’

  ’Averycoldgoddess,Ishouldthink,fromwhatIhear。Iwishtoaskyouforapromiserespectingher。’

  ’Whatpromise?’

  ’Willyougrantittome?’

  ’HowcanItelltillIhear?’

  ’Youmustpromisemenottospeakofmewhenyouseeher。’

  ’ButwhymustIpromisethat?’

  ’Promiseme。’

  ’Notunlessyoutellmewhy。’JohnnyhadalreadyassuredhimselfthatnothingcouldbemoreimprobablethanthatheshouldmentionthenameofMissDemolinestoLilyDale。

  ’Verywell,sir。Thenyoumaygo。AndImustsaythatunlessyoucancomplywithsoslightarequestasthat,Ishallnotcaretoseeyouhereagain。MrEames,whyshouldyouwanttospeakevilofmetoMissDale?’

  ’Idonotwanttospeakevilofyou。’

  ’Iknowthatyoucouldnotspeakofmetoherwithoutatleastridicule。

  Come,promiseme。YoushallcomehereThursdayevening,andIwilltellyouwhyIhaveaskedyou。’

  ’Tellmenow。’

  Shehesitatedamoment,andthenshookherhead。’No。Icannottellyounow。Myheartisstillbleedingwiththememoryofthatpoorman’sface。Iwillnottellyounow。Andyetisnotthatyoumustgivemethepromise。Willyounottrustmesofarasthat?’

  ’IwillnotspeakofyoutoMissDale。’

  ’Thereismyownfriend!Andnow,John,mindyouarehereathalf—pasteightonThursday。Punctuallyathalf—pasteight。ThereisathingI

  havetotellyou,whichIwilltellyouthenifyouwillcome。Ihadthoughttohavetoldyoutoday。’

  ’Andwhynotnow?’

  ’Icannot。Myfeelingsaretoomanyforme。IshouldnevergothroughwithitafterallthathasbetweenusaboutpoorBroughton。Ishouldbreakdown;indeedIshould。Gonow,forIamtired。’Thenhavingprobablytakenamomentaryadvantageofthatmorepotentattractiontowhichwehavebeforealluded,helefttheroomverysuddenly。

  HelefttheroomverysuddenlybecauseMadalina’smovementshadbeensosudden,andherwordssofullofimpulse。HehadbecomeawarethatinthislittlegameinwhichhewasplayinginPorchesterTerraceeverythingoughttobedoneaftersomeunaccustomedandspecialfashion。

  So——havingclaspedMadalinaforonemomentinhisarms——hemadearushattheroomdoor,andwasoutonthelandinginasecond。HewasalittletooquickforoldLadyDemolines。Theskirtofwhosenight—dress——asitseemedtoJohnny——hesawwhiskingaway,inatanotherdoor。Itwasnothing,however,tohimifoldLadyDemolines,whowasalwaystooilltobeseen,chosetoroamaboutherownhouseinhernight—dress。

  Whenhefoundhimselfaloneinthestreet,hismindrevertedtoDobbsBroughtonandthefateofthewretchedman,andhesaunteredslowlydownParisGardens,thathemightlookatthehouseinwhichhehaddinedwithamanwhohaddestroyedhimselfbyhisownhands。Hestoodforamomentlookingupatthewindows,inwhichtherewasnownolight,thinkingofthepoorwomanwhomhehadseeninthemidstofluxury,andwhowasnowleftawidowinsuchmiserablecircumstances!AsforthesuggestionthathisfriendConwaywouldmarryher,hedidnotbelieveitforamoment。HeknewtoowellwhatthesuggestionsofhisMadalinawereworth,andthemotivesfromwhichtheysprung。ButhethoughtitmightbetruethatMrsVanSieverhadabsorbedalltherewasoftheproperty,andpossibly,also,thatMusselborowastomarryherdaughter。Atanyrate,hewouldgotoDalrymple’srooms,andifhecouldfindhim,wouldlearnthetruth。HeknewenoughofDalrymple’swaysoflife,andofthewaysofhisfriend’schambersandstudio,tocarenothingforthelatenessofthehour,andinaveryfewminuteshewassittinginDalrymple’sarm—chair。HefoundSiphDunnthere,smokinginunperturbedtranquillity,andaslongasthatlastedhecouldasknoquestionsaboutMrsBroughton。Hetoldthem,therefore,ofhisadventuresabroad,andofCrawley’sescape。Butatlast,havingfinishedhisthirdpipe,SiphDunntookhisleave。

  ’Tellme,’saidJohn,assoonasDunnhadclosedthedoor,’whatisthisIhearaboutDobbsBroughton?’

  ’Hehasblownhisbrainsout。Thatisall。’

  ’Howterriblyshocking!’

  ’Yes;itshockedusallatfirst。Weareusedtoitnow。’

  ’Andthebusiness?’

  ’Thathasgonetothedogs。Theysayatleastthathisshareofithaddoneso。’

  ’Andhewasruined?’

  ’Theysayso。Thatis,Musselborosaysso,andMrsVanSiever。’

  ’Andwhatdoyousay,Conway?’

  ’ThelessIsaythebetter。Ihavemyhopes——onlyyou’resuchatalkativefellow,onecan’ttrustyou。’

  ’Inevertoldanysecretofyours,oldfellow。’

  ’Well——thatfactis,Ihaveanideathatsomethingmaybesavedforthepoorwoman。Ithinkthattheyarewrongingher。OfcourseallIcandoisputthematterintolawyer’shandsandpaythelawyer’sbill。SoI

  wenttoyourcousin,andhehastakenthecaseup。Ihopehewon’truinme。’

  ’ThenIsupposeyouarequarrellingwithMrsVan?’

  ’Thatdoesn’tmatter。Shehasquarrelledwithme。’

  ’AndwhataboutJael,Conway?TheytellmeJaelisgoingtobecomeMrsMusselboro。’

  ’Whotoldyouthat?’

  ’Abird。’

  ’Yes;Iknowwhothebirdis。Idon’tthinkthatJaelwillbecomeMrsMusselboro。Idon’tthinkJaelwouldbecomeMrsMusselboro,ifJaelweretheonlywoman,andMusselborotheonlymaninLondon。Totellyoualittlebitofasecret,Johnny,IthinkthatJaelwillbecomethewifeofConwayDalrymple。Thatismyopinion;andasfarasIcanjudge,itistheopinionofJaelalso。’

  ’ButnottheopinionofMrsVan。Thebirdtoldmeanotherthing,Conway。’

  ’Whatotherthing?’

  ’Thebirdhintedthatallthiswouldendinyourmarryingthewidowofthatpoorwretchwhodestroyedhimself。’

  ’Johnny,myboy,’saidtheartistafteramoment’ssilence,’ifIgiveyouabitofadvice,willyouprofitbyit?’

  ’I’lltry,ifit’snotdisagreeable。’

  ’Whetheryouprofitbyit,orwhethernot,keepittoyourself。Iknowthebirdbetterthanyoudo,andIstronglycautionyoutobewareofthebird。Thebirdisabirdofprey,andaltogetheranuncleanbird。Thebirdwantsamate,anddoesn’tmuchcarehowshegetsit。Andthebirdwantsmoney,anddoesn’tcarehowshegetsit。Thebirdisadecidedlybadbird,andnotatallfittotaketheplaceofdomesticheninadecentfarmyard。InplainEnglish,Johnny,you’llfindsomeday,ifyougoovertooftentoPorchesterTerrace,eitherthatyouaregoingtomarrythebird,orelsethatyouareemployingyourcousinToogoodforyoudefenceinanactionforbreachofpromise,broughtagainstyoubythatvenerableoldbird,thebird’smamma。’

  ’Ifit’stobeeither,itwillbethelatter,’saidJohnny,ashetookuphishattogoaway。

  CHAPTERLXXVI

  ITHINKHEISLIGHTOFHEART

  MrsArabinremainedonedayintown。MrToogoodinspiteofhisasseverationthathewouldnotbudgefromBarchestertillhehadseenMrCrawleythroughallhistroubles,didrunuptoLondonassoonasthenewsreachedhimthatJohnEameshadreturned。HecameupandtookMrsArabin’sdeposition,whichhesentdowntoMrWalker。Itmightstillbenecessary,MrsArabinwastold,thatsheshouldgointocourt,andtherestateonoaththatshehadgiventhechequetoMrCrawley;butMrWalkerwasoftheopinionthatthecircumstanceswouldenablethejudgetocalluponthegrandjurynottofindatruebillagainstMrCrawley,andthatthewholeaffair,asfarasMrCrawleywasconcerned,wouldthusbebroughttoanend。ToogoodwasstillveryanxioustoplaceDanStringerinthedock,butMrWalkerdeclaredthattheywouldfailiftheymadetheattempt。DanhadbeenexaminedbeforethemagistratesatBarchester,andhavingpersistedinhisstatementthathehadheardnothingaboutMrCrawleyandthecheque。ThishesaidintheteethofthewordswhichhadfallenfromhimunawaresinthepresenceofMrToogood。Buttheycouldnotpunishhimforalie——notevenforsuchalieasthat!Hewasnotuponoath,andtheycouldnotmakehimresponsibletothelawbecausehehadheldhistongueuponamatterastowhichitwasmanifesttothemallthathehadknownthewholehistoryduringtheentireperiodofMrCrawley’spersecution。Theycouldonlycalluponhimtoaccountforhispossessionofthecheque,andthishedidbysayingthatithadbeenpaidtohimbyJemScuttle,whoreceivedallmoneysappertainingtothehotelstables,andaccountedforthemonceaweek。JemScuttlehadsimplytoldhimthathehadtakenthechequefromMrSoames,andJemhadsincegonetoNewZealand。ItwasquitetruethatJem’sdeparturehadfollowedsuspiciouslycloseuponthepaymentoftherenttoMrsArabin,andthatJemhadbeenincloseamitywithDanStringeruptothemomentofhisdeparture。ThatDanStringerhadnotbecomehonestlypossessedofthecheque,everybodyknew;but,nevertheless,themagistrateswereoftheopinion,MrWalkercoincidingwiththem,thattherewasnoevidenceagainsthimsufficienttosecureaconviction。Thestory,however,ofMrCrawley’sinjurieswassowellknowninBarchester,andthefeelingagainstthemanwhohadpermittedhimtobethusinjuredwassostrong,thatDanStringerdidnotaltogetherescapewithoutpunishment。SomeroughspiritsinBarchestercalledonenightat’TheDragonofWantly’

  andbeggedMrDanStringerwouldbekindenoughtocomeandtakeawalkwiththemthatevening;andwhenitwasintimatedtothemthatDanStringerhadnotjustthenanydesireforexercise,theyrequestedtobeallowedtogointothebackparlourandmakeaneveningwithDanStringerinthatrecess。Therewasaterriblerowat’TheDragonofWantly’thatnight,andDanwithdifficultywasrescuedbythepolice。

  OnthefollowingmorninghewassmuggledoutofBarchesterbyanearlytrain,andhasnevermorebeenseeninthatcity。Rumoursofhim,however,weresoonheard,fromwhichitappearedthathehadmadehimselfacquaintedwiththecasualwardofmorethanoneworkhouseinLondon。HiscousinJohnlefttheinnalmostimmediately——as,indeed,hemusthavedonehadtherebeennoquestionofMrSoames’scheque——andthentherewasnothingmoreheardoftheStringersinBarchester。

  MrsArabinremainedintownoneday,andwouldhaveremainedlonger,waitingforherhusband,hadnotaletterfromhersisterimpresseduponherthatitmightbewellthatsheshouldbewithherfatherassoonaspossible。’Idon’tmeantomakeyouthinkthatthereisanyimmediatedanger,’MrsGrantlysaid,’and,indeed,wecannotsaythatheisill;

  butitseemsthattheextremityofoldagehascomeuponhimalmostsuddenly,andthatheisasweakasachild。Hisonlydelightiswithchildren,especiallywithPosy,whosegravityinhermanagementofhimiswonderful。Hehasnotlefthisroomnowformorethanaweek,andheeatsverylittle。Itmaybethathewillliveforyears;butIshouldbedeceivingyouifIdidnotletyouknowthatboththearchdeaconandI

  thinkthatthetimeofhisdeparturefromusisnearathand。’Afterreadingthisletter,MrsArabincouldnotwaitintownforherhusband,eventhoughhewasexpectedintwodaysandthoughshehadbeentoldthatherpresenceinBarchesterwasnotimmediatelyrequiredonbehalfofMrCrawley。

  ButduringthatonedayshekeptherpromisetoJohnEamesbygoingtoLilyDale。MrsArabinhadbecomeveryfondofJohnny,andfeltthathedeservedtheprizewhichhehadbeensolongtryingtowin。Thereader,perhaps,maynotagreewithMrsArabin。Thereader,whomayhavecaughtacloserinsightintoJohnny’scharacterthanMrsArabinhadobtained,may,perhaps,thinkthatayoungmanwhocouldamusehimselfwithMissDemolineswasunworthyofLilyDale。Ifso,ImaydeclareformyselfthatIandthereaderareinaccordaboutJohnEames。Itishardtomeasureworthandworthlessnessinsuchmatters,asthereisnostandardforsuchmeasurement。MyoldfriendJohnascertainlynohero——wasveryunheroicinmanyphasesofhislife;butthen,ifallthegirlsaretowaitforheroes,Ifearthatthedifficultiesinthewayofmatrimonialarrangements,greatastheyareatpresent,willbeveryseriouslyenhanced。Johnnywasnotecstatic,norheroic,nortranscendental,norverybeautifulinhismanliness;hewasnotamantobreakhisheartforloveortohavehisstorywritteninepic;buthewasanaffectionate,kindly,honestyoungman;andIthinkmostgirlsmighthavedoneworsethantakehim。Whetherhewaswisetoaskassistanceinhislove—makingsooftenashehaddone,thatmaybeanotherquestion。

  MrsArabinwasintimatelyacquaintedwithMrsThorne,andthereforetherewasnothingoddinhergoingtoMrsThorne’shouse。MrsThornewasverygladtoseeher,andtoldheralltheBarsetshirenews——muchmorethanMrsArabinwouldhavelearnedinaweekatthedeanery;forMrsThornehadamarvellousgiftofpickingupnews。ShehadalreadyheardthewholestoryofMrSoames’scheque,andexpressedherconvictionthattheleastthatcouldbedoneinamendstoMrCrawleywastomakehimabishop。’Andyouseethepalaceisvacant,’saidMrsThorne。

  ’Thepalacevacant!’saidMrsArabin。

  ’Itisjustasgood。NowthatMrsProudiehasgone,Idon’tsupposethebishopwillaccountformuch。Icanassureyou,MrsArabin,Ifeltthatpoorwoman’sdeathsomuch!SheusedtoregardmeasoneofthestaunchestoftheProudieites!Sheoncewhisperedtomesuchadelightfullywickedstoryaboutthedeanandthearchdeacon。WhenItoldherthattheyweremyparticularfriends,sheputonalookofhorror。

  ButIdon’tthinkshebelievedme。’ThenEmilyDunstableenteredtheroom,andwithhercameLilyDale。MrsArabinhadneverbeforeseenLily,andcoursetheywereintroduced。’IamsorrytosaythatMissDaleisgoinghometoAllingtontomorrow,’saidEmily。’ButsheiscomingtoChaldicotesinMay,’saidMrsThorne。’Ofcourse,MrsArabin,youknowwhatgaladoingswearegoingtohaveinMay?’Thentherewerevariouscivillittlespeechesmadeoneachside,andMrsArabinexpressedawishthatshemightmeetMissDaleinBarsetshire。Butallthisdidnotbringhernearertoherobject。

  ’IparticularlywishtosayawordtoMissDale——heretoday,ifshewillallowme,’saidMrsArabin。

  ’I’msureshewill——twentywords;won’tyou,Lily?’saidMrsThorne,preparingtoleavetheroom。ThenMrsArabinapologised,andMrsThorne,bustlingup,saidthatitdidnotsignify,andLily,remainingquitestillonthesofa,wonderedwhatitwasallabout——andintwominutesLilyandMrsArabinwerealonetogether。LilyhadjusttimetosurmisedthatMrsArabin’svisitmusthavesomereferencetoMrCrosbie——rememberingthatCrosbiehadmarriedhiswifeoutofBarsetshire,andforgettingaltogetherthatMrsArabinhadbeenjustbroughthomefromItalybyJohnEames。

  ’Iamafraid,MissDale,youwillthinkmeveryimpertinent,’saidMrsArabin。

  ’IamsureIshallnotthinkthat,’saidLily。

  ’Ibelieveyouknew,beforeMrEamesstarted,thathewasgoingtoItalytofindmeandmyhusband?’saidMrsArabin。ThenLilyputMrCrosbiealtogetheroutofherhead,andbecameawarethathewasnottobethesubjectofthecomingconversation。Shewasalmostsorrythatitwasnotso。TherewasnodoubtinhermindastowhatshewouldhavesaidtoanyonewhomighthavetakenupCrosbie’scause。Onthatmattershecouldnowhavegivenaverydecisiveanswerinafewwords。Butonthatothermattershewasmuchmoreindoubt。Sheremembered,however,everywordofthenoteshehadreceivedfromMD。SherememberedalsothewordsofJohn’snotetothatyoungwoman。Andherheartwasstillhardagainsthim。’Yes,’shesaid;’MrEamescamehereonenightandtolduswhyhewasgoing。Iwasverygladthathewasgoing,becauseIthoughtitwasright。’

  ’Youknow,ofcourse,howsuccessfulhehasbeen?ItwasIwhogavethechequetoMrCrawley。’

  ’SoMrsThornehasheard。DrThornehaswrittentotellherthewholestory。’

  ’AndnowIhavecometolookforMrEames’sreward。’

  ’Hisreward,MrsArabin?’

  ’Yes;orrathertopleadforhim。Youwillnot,Ihope,beangrywithhimbecausehehastoldmemuchofhislifestorywhileweweretravellinghometogether。’

  ’Oh,no,’saidLily,smiling。’Howcouldhehavechosenabetterfriendinwhomtotrust?’

  ’Hecouldcertainlyhavechosennonewhowouldtakehispartmoresincerely。Heissogoodandamiable!Heissopleasantinhisways,andsofittedtomakeawomanhappy!Andthen,MissDale,heisalsosodevoted!’

  ’Heisanoldfriend,MrsArabin。’

  ’Sohehastoldme。’

  ’Andweallofuslovehimdearly。Mammaisverymuchattachedtohim。’

  ’Unlessheflattershimself,thereisnoonebelongingtoyouwhowouldnotwishthatheshouldbeneareranddearerstill。’

  ’Itmaybeso。Idonotsaythatitisnotso。Mammaandmyunclearebothfondofhim。’

  ’Anddoesthatnotgoalongway?’saidMrsArabin。

  ’Itoughtnottodoso,’saidLily。’Itoughtnottogoanywayatall。’

  ’Oughtitnot?ItseemstomethatIcouldneverhavebroughtmyselftomarryanyonewhommyfriendshadnotliked。’

  ’Ah!thatisanotherthing。’

  ’Butisitnotarecommendationtoamanthathasbeensosuccessfulwithyourfriendsastomakethemallfeelthatyoumighttrustyourselftohimwithperfectsafety?’TothisLilymadenoanswer,andMrsArabinwentontopleadherfriend’scausewithalltheeloquenceshecoulduse,insistingonallhisvirtues,hisgoodtemper,hiskindness,hisconstancy——andnotforgettingthefactthattheworldwasinclinedtousehimverywell。StillLilymadenoanswer。ShehadpromisedMrsArabinthatshewouldnotregardherinterferenceasimpertinent,andthereforesherefrainedfromanywordthatmightseemtoshowoffence。

  Nordidshefeeloffence。ItwassomethinggainedbyJohnEamesinLily’sestimationthatheshouldhavesuchafriendasMrsArabintotakeaninterestinhiswelfare。Buttherewasaself—dependence,perhapsonemaycallitanobstinacyaboutLilyDale,whichmadeherdeterminedthatshewouldnotbedrivenhitherorthitherbyanypressurefromwithout。WhyhadJohnEames,attheverymomentwhenheshouldhavebeendoinghisbesttodrivefromherbreastthememoryofpastfollies——whenhewouldhavestriventodosohadhereallybeenearnestinhissuit——whyatsuchamomenthadheallowedhimselftocorrespondintermsofaffectionwithsuchawomanasMD?WhileMrsArabinwaspleadingforJohnEames,LilywasrepeatingtoherselfcertainwordswhichJohnhadwrittentothatwoman——’Everandalwaysyoursunalterably’。Suchwerenottheexactwords,butsuchwastheforminwhichLily,dishonestly,chosetorepeatthemtoherself。Andwhywasitsowithher?IntheolddaysshewouldhaveforgivenCrosbieanyoffenceatawordoralook——anypossiblelettertoanyMD,letherhavebeeneversoabominable!Nay——hadshenotevenforgivenhimtheoffenceofdesertingherselfaltogetheronbehalfofawomanasdetestableascouldbeanyMDofJohnny’schoosing——awomanwhoseonlyrecommendationhadbeenhertitle?AndyetshewouldnotforgiveJohnEames,thoughtheevidenceagainsthimwasofsoflimsyanature——butratherstrovetoturntheflimsinessofthatevidenceintostrength!Whywasitso?Unheroicashemightbe,JohnEameswassurelyabettermanandabiggermanthatAdolphusCrosbie。Itwassimplythis:shehadfalleninlovewiththeone,andhadneverfalleninlovewiththeother!Shehadfalleninlovewiththeoneman,thoughinhersimplewayshehadmadeastruggleagainstsuchfeeling;andshehadnotcometolovetheotherman,thoughshehadtoldherselfthatitwouldbewellthatsheshoulddosoifitwerepossible。Againandagainshehadhalfdeclaredtoherselfthatshewouldtakehimasherhusbandandleavethelovetocomeafterwards;butwhenthemomentcamefordoingso,shecouldnotdoit。

  ’MayInotsayawordofcomforttohim?’saidMrsArabin。

  ’Hewillbeverycomfortablewithoutanysuchword,’saidLily,laughing。

  ’Butheisnotcomfortable;ofthatyoumaybeverysure。’

  ’Yourseverandunalterably,JE,’saidLilytoherself。’Youdonotdoubthisaffection?’continuedMrsArabin。

  ’Ineitherdoubtitnorcreditit。’

  ’ThenIthinkyouwronghim。AndthereasonwhyIhaveventuredtocometoyouisthatyoumayknowtheimpressionwhichhehasmadeupononewhowasbuttheotherdayastrangertohim。Iamsurethathelovesyou。’

  ’Ithinkheislightofheart。’

  ’Oh,no,MissDale。’

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