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  Butitwasluncheontime,andnotonlyhadhenotasyetsaidawordofallthatwhichhehadcometosay,buthadnotasyetmadeanymovetowardsgettingitsaid。HowwashetoarrangethatLilyshouldbeleftalonewithhim?LadyJuliahadsaidthatsheshouldnotexpecthimbacktilldinner—time,andhehadansweredherlackadaisically,’Idon’tsupposeIshallbethereabovetenminutes。TheminuteswillsayallI’vegottosay,anddoallI’vegottodo。AndthenIsupposeIshallgoandcutnamesaboutbridges——eh,LadyJulia?’LadyJuliaunderstoodthewords;foronce,uponaformeroccasion,shehadfoundhimcuttingLily’snameontherailofawoodenbridgeinherbrother’sgrounds。ButhehadnowbeenacoupleofhoursattheSmallHouse,andhadnotsaidawordofthatwhichhehadcometosay。

  ’Areyougoingtowalkoutwithusafterlunch?’saidLily。

  ’Hewillhavehadwalkingenough,’saidMrsDale。

  ’We’llconvoyhimpartoftheway,’saidLily。

  ’I’mnotgoingyet,’saidJohnny,’unlessyouturnmeout。’

  ’Butwemusthaveourwalkbeforeitisdark,’saidLily。

  ’Youmightgoupwithhimtoyouruncle,’saidMrsDale。’Indeed,I

  promisedtogouptheremyself,andsodidyou,Grace,toseethemicroscope。IheardMrDalegiveordersthatoneofthoselong—leggedreptilesshouldbecaughtonpurposeforyourinspection。’

  MrsDale’slittleschemeforbringingthetwotogetherwasverytransparent,butitwasnotthelesswiseonthataccount。Schemeswilloftenbesuccessful,letthembeeversotransparent。Littleintriguesbecomenecessary,nottoconquerunwillingpeople,butpeoplewhoarewillingenough,who,nevertheless,cannotgivewayexceptunderthemachinationsofanintrigue。

  ’Idon’tthinkImindlookingatthelong—leggedcreature,today,’saidJohnny。

  ’Imustgoofcourse,’saidGrace。

  Lilysaidnothingatthemoment,eitheraboutthelong—leggedcreatureorthewalk。Thatwhichmustbe,mustbe。SheknewwellwhyJohnEameshadcomethere。SheknewthatthevisitstohismotherandtoLadyJuliawouldneverhavebeenmade,butthathemighthavethisinterview。Andhehadarighttodemand,atanyrate,asmuchasthat。Thatwhichmustbe,mustbe。AndthereforewhenbothMrsDaleandGracestoutlymaintainedtheirpurposeofgoinguptothesquire,LilyneitherattemptedtopersuadeJohntoaccompanythemnorsaidthatshewoulddosoherself。

  ’Iwillconvoyyouhomemyself,’shesaid,’andGrace,whenshehasdonewiththebeetle,shallcomeandmeetme。Won’tyou,Grace?’

  ’Certainly。’

  ’Wearenothelplessyoungladiesintheseparts,noryettimorous,’

  continuedLily。’Wecanwalkaboutwithoutbeingafraidofghosts,robbers,wildbulls,youngmen,orgypsies。Comethefieldpath,Grace。

  Iwillgoasfarasthebigoakwithhim,andthenIshallturnback,andIshallcomeinbythestileoppositethechurchgate,andthroughthegarden。Soyoucan’tmissme。’

  ’Idaresayhe’llcomebackwithyou,’saidGrace。

  ’No,hewon’t。Hewilldonothingofthekind。He’llhavetogoonandopenLadyJulia’sbottleofportwineforhisowndrinking。’

  AllthiswasverygoodonLily’spart,andverygoodalsoonthepartofMrsDale;andJohnwasofcourseverymuchobligedtothem。Buttherewasalackofromanceinitall,whichdidnotseemtohimtoarguewellastohissuccess。Hedidnotthinkmuchaboutit,buthefeltthatLilywouldnothavebeensoreadytoarrangetheirwalkhadsheintendedtoyieldtohisentreaty。Nodoubtintheselatterdaysplaingoodsensehadbecometheprevailingmarkofhercharacter——perhaps,asJohnnythought,alittletoostronglyprevailing;butevenwithallherplaingoodsenseanddeterminationtodispensewiththeabsurditiesofromanceintheaffairsofherlife,shewouldnothaveproposedherselfashiscompanionforawalkacrossthefieldsmerelythatshemighthaveanopportunityofacceptinghishand。Hedidnotsayallthistohimself,butheinstinctivelyfeltthatitwasso。Andhefeltalsothatitshouldhavebeenhisdutytoarrangethewalk,ortheproperopportunityforthescenethatwastocome。Shehaddoneitinstead——sheandhermotherbetweenthem,therebyforcinguponhimapainfulconvictionthathehimselfhadnotbeenequaltotheoccasion。’Ialwaysmakeamullofit,’hesaidtohimself,whenthegirlswentuptogettheirhats。

  Theywentdowntogetherthroughthegarden,andpartedwherethepathsledaway,onetothegreathouseandtheothertowardsthechurch。’I’llcertainlycomeandcalluponthesquirebeforeIgobacktoLondon,’

  saidJohnny。

  We’lltellhimso,’saidMrsDale。’Hewouldbesuretohearthatyouhadbeenwithus,evenifwesaidnothingaboutit。’

  ’Ofcoursehewould,’saidLily;’Hopkinshasseenhim。’Thentheyseparated,andLilyandJohnEamesweretogether。

  Hardlyawordwassaid,perhapsnotaword,tilltheyhadcrossedtheroadandgotintothefieldoppositetothechurch。Andinthisfirstfieldtherewasmorethanonepath,andthechildrenofthevillagewereoftenthere,andithadaboutitsomethingofapublicnature。JohnEamesfeltthatitwasbynomeansafittingfieldtosaythatwhichhehadtosay。Incrossingit,therefore,hemerelyremarkedthatthedaywasveryfineforwalking。Thenheaddedonespecialword,’Anditissogoodofyou,Lily,tocomewithme。’

  ’Iamverygladtocomewithyou。Iwoulddomorethanthat,John,toshowhowgladIamtoseeyou。’Thentheyhadcometothesecondlittlegate,andbeyondthatthefieldswerereallyfields,andtherewerestilesinsteadofwicket—gates,andthebusinessofthedaymustbebegun。

  ’Lily,wheneverIcomehereyousaythatyouaregladtoseeme?’

  ’AndsoIam——veryglad。Onlyyouwouldtakeitasmeaningwhatitdoesnotmean,Iwouldtellyou,thatofallmyfriendslivingawayfromthereachofmydailylife,youaretheonewhosecomingiseverthemostpleasanttome。’

  ’Oh,Lily!’

  ’Itwas,Ithink,onlyyesterdaythatIwastellingGracethatyouaremorelikeabrothertomethananyoneelse。Iwishitmightbeso。I

  whichwemightsweartobebrotherandsister。I’ddomoreforyouthenthanwalkacrossthefieldswithyoutoGuestwickCottage。YourprosperitywouldthenbethethingintheworldforwhichIshouldbemostanxious。Andifyoushouldmarry——’

  ’Itcanneverbelikethatbetweenus,’saidJohnny。

  ’Canitnot?Ithinkitcan。Perhapsnotthisyear,ornextyear;

  perhapsnotinthenextfiveyears。ButImakemyselfhappywiththinkingthatitmaybesosomeday。Ishallwaitforitpatiently,verypatiently,eventhoughyoushouldrebuffmeagainandagain——asyouhavedonenow。’

  ’Ihavenotrebuffedyou。’

  ’Notmaliciously,orinjuriously,oroffensively。Iwillbeverypatientandtakelittlerebuffswithoutcomplaining。Thisistheworstofitall。WhenGraceandIaretogetherwecannevermanageitwithouttearingourselvesalltopieces。Itismuchnicertohaveyoutohelpme。’

  ’Letmehelpyoualways,’hesaid,keepingherhandsinhisafterhehadaidedhertojumpfromthestiletotheground。

  ’Yes,asmybrother。’

  ’Thatisnonsense,Lily。’

  ’Isitnonsense?Nonsenseisahardword。’

  ’Itisnonsenseascomingfromyoutome。Lily,IsometimesthinkthatIampersecutingyou,writingtoyou,comingafteryou,asIamdoingnow——tellingthesamewhiningstory——asking,asking,andaskingforthatwhichyousayyouwillnevergiveme。AndthenIfeelashamedofmyself,andswearthatIwilldoitnomore。’

  ’Donotbeashamedofyourself;butyetdoitnomore。’

  ’Andthen,’hecontinued,withoutmindingherwords,’atothertimesI

  feelthatitmustbemyownfault;thatifIonlyperseveredwithsufficientenergy,Imustbesuccessful。AtsuchtimesIswearIwillnevergiveitup。’

  ’Oh,John,ifyoucouldonlyknowhowlittleworthyofsuchpursuititis。’

  ’Leavemetobethejudgeofthat,dear。Whenamanhastakenamonth,orperhapsonlyaweek,orperhapsnotmorethanhalf—an—hour,tomakeuphismind,itmaybeverywelltotellhimthathedoesn’tknowwhatheisabout。I’vebeenintheofficenowforoversevenyears,andthefirstdayIwentIputanoathintoabookthatIwouldcomebackandgetyouformywifewhenIhadgotenoughtoliveupon。’

  ’Didyou,John?’

  ’Yes。Icanshowittoyou。Iusedtocomeandhoverabouttheplaceintheolddays,beforeIwentuptoLondon,whenIwassuchafoolthatIcouldn’tspeaktoyouifImetyou。Iamspeakingofatimelongbefore——beforethatmancamedownhere。’

  ’Donotspeakofhim,John。’

  ’Imustspeakofhim。Amanisn’ttoholdhistonguewheneverythinghehasintheworldisatstake。Isupposehelovedyouafterafashion,once。’

  ’Pray,pray,donotspeakillofhim,John。’

  ’Iamnotgoingtoabusehim。Youcanjudgeofhimbyhisdeeds。I

  cannotsayanythingworseofhimthanwhattheysay。Isupposehelovedyou;buthecertainlydidnotloveyouasIhavedone。Ihaveatanyratebeentruetoyou。Yes,Lily,Ihavebeentruetoyou。Iamtruetoyou。Hedidnotknowwhathewasabout。Ido。IamjustifiedinsayingthatIdo。Iwantyoutobemywife。ItisnouseyourtalkingaboutitasthoughIonlyhalfwantedit。’

  ’Ididnotsaythat。’

  ’Isnotamantohaveanyreward?Ofcourseifyouhadmarriedhimtherewouldhavebeenanendofit。Hehadcomeinbetweenmeandmyhappiness,andImusthaveborneit,asothermenbearsuchsorrows。Butyouhavenotmarriedhim;and,ofcourse,IcannotbutfeelthatImayyethaveachance。Lily,answermethis。DoyoubelievethatIloveyou?’Butshedidnotanswerhim。’Youcanatanyratetellmethat。DoyouthinkthatIaminearnest?’

  ’Yes,Ithinkyouareinearnest。’

  ’AnddoyoubelievethatIloveyouwithallmyheartandallmystrengthandallmysoul?’

  ’Oh,John!’

  ’Butdoyou?’

  ’Ithinkyouloveme。’

  ’Think!WhatamItosayortodotomakeyouunderstandthatmyonlyideaofhappinessistheideathatsoonerorlaterImaygetyoutobemywife?Lily,willyousaythatitshallbeso?Speak,Lily。Thereisnoonethatwillnotbeglad。Yourunclewillconsent——hasconsented。

  Yourmotherwishesit。Bellwishesit。Mymotherwishesit。LadyJuliawishesit。Youwouldbedoingwhateverybodyaroundyouwantsyoutodo。

  Andwhyshouldyounotdoit?Itisn’tthatyoudislikeme。Youwouldn’ttalkaboutbeingmysister,ifyouhadnotsomesortofregardforme。’

  ’Ihavearegardforyou。’

  ’Thenwhywillyounotbemywife?Oh,Lily,saythewordnow,here,atonce。Saytheword,andyou’llmakemethehappiestfellowinallEngland。’Ashespokehetookherbybotharms,andheldherfast。Shedidnotstruggletogetawayfromhim,butstoodquitestill,lookingintohisface,whilethefirstsparkleofasalttearformeditselfineacheye。’Lily,onelittlewordwilldoit——halfaword,anod,asmile。JusttouchmyarmwithyourhandandIwilltakeitforayes。’I

  thinkthatshealmosttriedtotouchhim;thatthewordwasinherthroat,andthatshealmoststrovetospeakit。Buttherewasnosyllablespoken,andherfingersdidnotloosethemselvestofalluponhissleeve。’Lily,Lily,whatcanIsaytoyou?’

  ’IwishIcould,’shewhispered;——butthewhisperwassohoarsethathehardlyrecognizedthevoice。

  ’Andwhycanyounot?Whatistheretohinderyou?Thereisnothingtohinderyou,Lily。’

  ’Yes,John;thereisthatwhichmusthinderme。’

  ’Andwhatisit?’

  ’Iwilltellyou。Youaresogoodandsotrue,andsoexcellent——suchadear,dearfriend,thatIwilltellyoueverything,sothatyoumayreadmyheart。IwilltellyouasItellmamma——youandherandnooneelse;——foryouarethechoicefriendofmyheart。IcannotbeyourwifebecauseoftheloveIbearforanotherman。’

  ’Andthatmanishe——hewhocamehere?’

  ’Ofcourseitishe。Ithink,Johnny,youandIarealikeinthis,thatwhenwehaveloved,wecannotbringourselvestochange。Youwillnotchange,thoughitwouldbesomuchbetteryoushoulddoso。’

  ’No;Iwillneverchange。’

  ’NorcanI。WhenIsleepIdreamofhim。WhenIamaloneIcannotbanishhimfrommythoughts。Icannotdefinewhatitistolovehim。I

  wantnothingfromhim——nothing,nothing。ButImoveaboutthroughmylittleworldthinkingofhim,andIshalldosotilltheend。Iusedtofeelproudofmylove,thoughitmademesowretchedthatIthoughtitwouldkillme。Iamnotproudofitanylonger。Itisafoolishpoor—spiritedweakness——asthoughmyhearthasbeenonlyhalfformedinthemaking。Doyoubestronger,John。Amanshouldbestrongerthanawoman。’

  ’Ihavenoneofthatsortofstrength。’

  ’NorhaveI。Whatcanwedobutpityeachother,andswearthatwewillbefriends——dearfriends。Thereistheoak—treeandIhavegottoturnback。Wehavesaideverythingthatwecansay——unlessyouwilltellmethatyouwillbemybrother。’

  ’No;Iwillnottellyouthat。’

  ’Good—bye,then,Johnny。’

  Hepaused,holdingherbythehandandthinkingofanotherquestionwhichhelongedtoputtoher——consideringwhetherhewouldaskherthatquestionornot。Hehardlyknewwhetherhewereentitledtoaskit;——whetherornotheaskingofitwouldbeungenerous。Shehadsaidthatshewouldtellhimeverything——asshehadtoldeverythingtohermother。’Ofcourse,’hesaid,’Ihavenorighttoexpecttoknowanythingofyourfutureintentions。’

  ’Youmayknowthemall——asfarasIknowthemmyself。Ihavesaidthatyoushouldreadmyheart。’

  ’Ifthisman,whosenameIcannotbeartomention,shouldcomeagain——’

  ’Ifheweretocomeagainhewouldcomeinvain,John。’Shedidnotsaythathehadcomeagain。Shecouldtellherownsecret,butnotthatofanotherperson。

  ’Youwouldnotmarryhim,nowthatheisfree?’

  Shestoodandthoughtforawhilebeforesheansweredhim。’No,I

  shouldnotmarryhimnow。Ithinknot。’Thenshepausedagain。’Nay,I

  amsureIwouldnot。Afterwhathaspassed,Icouldnottrustmyselftodoit。Thereismyhandonit。Iwillnot。’

  ’No,Lily,Idonotwantthat。’

  ’ButIinsist。IwillnotmarryMrCrosbie。Butyoumustnotmisunderstandme,John。There;——allthatisoverformenow。Allthosedreamsaboutlove,andmarriage,andofahouseofmyown,andchildren——andacrosshusband,andawedding—ringgrowingalwaystighterasIgrowfatandolder。Ihavedreamedofsuchthingsasothergirlsdo——moreperhapsthanothergirls,morethanIshouldhavedone。AndnowIacceptthethingasfinished。Youwrotesomethinginyourbook,youdearJohn——somethingthatcouldnotbemadetocometrue。DearJohn,I

  wishforyoursakeitwasotherwise。IwillgohomeandIwillwriteinmybook,thisveryday,LilyDale,OldMaid。IfeverImakethatfalse,doyoucomeandaskmeforthepage。’

  ’LetitremaintheretillIamallowedtotearitforyou。’

  ’Iwillwriteit,anditshallneverbetornout。YouIcannotmarry。

  HimIwillnotmarry。Youmaybelieveme,Johnny,whenIsaytherecanneverbeathird。’

  ’Andisthattobetheendofit?’

  ’Yes;——thatistobetheendofit。Nottheendofourfriendship。Oldmaidshavefriends。’

  ’Itshallnotbetheendofit。Thereshallbenoendofitwithme。’

  ’But,John——’

  ’DonotsupposethatIwilltroubleyouagain——atanyratenotforawhile。Infiveyearsperhaps——’

  ’Now,Johnny,youarelaughingatme。Andofcourseitisthebestway。

  IfthereisnotGrace,andshehascaughtmebeforeIhaveturnedback。

  Good—bye,dearJohn。Godblessyou。Ithinkyouthefinestfellowintheworld。Ido,anddodoesmamma。RememberalwaysthatthereisatempleatAllingtoninwhichyourworshipisneverforgotten。’ThenshepressedhishandandturnedawayfromhimtomeetGraceCrawley。Johndidnotstoptospeakawordtohiscousin,butpursuedhiswayalone。

  ’Thatcousinofyours,’saidLily,’issimplythedearest,warmest—hearted,finestcreaturethateverwasseenintheshapeofaman。’

  ’Haveyoutoldhimthatyouthinkhimso?’saidGrace。

  ’Indeed,Ihave,’saidLily。

  ’Buthaveyoutoldthisfinest,warmest,dearestcreaturethatheshallberewardedwiththeprizehecovets?’

  ’No,Grace。Ihavetoldhimnothingofthekind。Ithinkheunderstandsitallnow。Ifhedoesnot,itisnotforthewantofmytellinghim。Idon’tsupposeanyladywasevermoreopen—spokentoagentlemanthatIhavebeentohim。’

  ’Andwhyhaveyousenthimawaydisappointed?Youknowyoulovehim。’

  ’Yousee,mydear,’saidLily,’youallowyourself,forthesakeofyourargument,touseawordinadoublesense,andyouattempttoconfoundmebydoingso。ButIamagreatdealtoocleverforyou,andhavethoughttoomuchaboutit,tobetakenininthatway。IcertainlyloveyourcousinJohn;andsodoIloveMrBoyce,thevicar。’

  ’YouloveJohnnymuchbetterthanyoudoMrBoyce。’

  ’True;verymuchbetter;butitisofthesamesortoflove。However,itisagreatdealtoodeepforyoutounderstand。You’retooyoung,andI

  shan’ttrytoexplainit。Butthelongandtheshortofitis——Iamnotgoingtomarryyourcousin。’

  ’Iwishyouwere,’saidGrace,’withallmyheart。’

  JohnEamesashereturnedtothecottagewasbynomeansabletofallbackuponthoseresolutionsastohisfuturelife,whichhehadformedforhimselfandcommunicatedtohisfriendDalrymple,andwhichhehadintendedtobringatonceintoforceintheeventofhisbeingrejectedbyLilyDale。’Iwillcleansemymindofitaltogether,’hehadsaid,’andthoughImaynotforgether,Iwillliveasthoughshewereforgotten。Ifshedeclinesmyproposalagain,Iwillacceptherwordasfinal。Iwillnotgoabouttheworldanylongerasastrickendeer——tobepitiedorelsebulliedbytherestoftheherd。’OnhiswaydowntoGuestwickhehadsworntwentytimesthatitshouldbeso。Hewouldmakeonemoreeffort,andthenhewouldgiveitup。Butnow,afterhisinterviewwithLily,hewasaslittledisposedtogiveitupasever。

  HesatuponagateinapaddockthroughwhichtherewasabackentranceintoLadyJulia’sgarden,andtheresworeathousandoathsthathewouldnevergiveherup。Hewas,atanyrate,surethatshewouldneverbecomethewifeofanyoneelse。Hewasequallysurethathewouldneverbecomethehusbandofanyotherwife。Hecouldtrusther。Yes;hewassureofthat。Butcouldhetrusthimself?Communingwithhimself,hetoldhimselfthatafterallhewasbutapoorcreature。Circumstanceshadbeenverygoodtohim,buthehaddonenothingforhimself。Hewasvain,andfoolish,andunsteady。Sohetoldhimselfwhilesittinguponthegate。Buthehad,atanyrate,beenconstanttoLily,andconstanthewouldremain。

  Hewouldnevermorementionhernametoanyone——unlessitweretoLadyJuliatonight。ToDalrymplehewouldnotopenhismouthabouther,butwouldplainlyaskhisfriendtobesilentonthatsubjectifhernameshouldbementionedbyhim。Butmorningandeveninghewouldprayforher,andinhisprayershewouldalwaysthinkofherashiswife。HewouldneverspeaktoanothergirlwithoutrememberingthathewasboundtoLily。Hewouldgonowhereintosocietywithoutrecallingtomindthefactthathewasboundbythechainsofasolemnengagement。IfheknewhimselfhewouldbeconstanttoLily。

  Andthenheconsideredinwhatmanneritwouldbebestandmostbecomingthatheshouldstillprosecutehisendeavourandrepeathisoffer。Hethoughtthathewouldwritetohereveryyear,onthesamedayoftheyear,yearafteryear,itmightbeforthenexttwentyyears。Andhisletterswouldbeverysimple。Sittingthereonthegateheplannedthewordingofhisletters;——ofhisfirstletter,andofhissecond,andofhisthird。Theyshouldbeveryliketoeachother——shouldhardlybemorethanarepetitionofthesamewords。’Ifnowyouarereadyforme,thenLily,amI,asever,stillreadyforyou。’Andthen,’ifnow’againandagain,’ifnow;——andstill’ifnow’。Whenhishairshouldbegrey,andthewrinklesonhischeeks——ay,thoughtheyshouldbeonhers,hewouldstillcontinuetotellherfromyeartoyearthathewasreadytotakeher。Surelysomedaythat’ifnow’wouldprevail。Andshoulditneverprevail,themeritofhisconstancyshouldbeitsownreward。

  Suchlettersasthoseshewouldsurelykeep。Thenhelookedforward,downintothevalleyofcomingyears,andfanciedherasshemightsitreadingtheminthetwilightofsomelongevening——letterswhichhadbeenwrittenallinvain。Hethoughtthathecouldlookforwardwithsomesatisfactiontowardsthecloseofhisowncareer,inhavingbeentheheroofsuchalove—story。Atanyrate,ifsuchastoryweretobehisstory,themelancholyattachedtoitshouldarisefromnofaultofhisown。Hewouldstillpresshertobehiswife。Andthenasherememberedthathewasonlytwenty—sevenandthatshewastwenty—four,hebegantomarvelatthefeelingofgreyoldagewhichhadcomeuponhim,andtriedtomakehimselfbelievethathewouldhaveheryetbeforethebloomwasoffhercheeks。

  HewentintothecottageandmadehiswayatonceintotheroominwhichLadyJuliawassitting。Shedidnotspeakatfirst,butlookedanxiouslyabouthisface。Andhedidnotspeak,butturnedtoatablenearthewindowandtookupabook——thoughtheroomwastoodarkforhimtoseetoreadthewords。’John,’atlastsaidLadyJulia。

  ’Well,mylady?’

  ’Haveyounothingtotellme,John?’

  ’Nothingonearth——exceptthesameoldstory,whichhasnowbecomeamatterofcourse。’

  ’But,John,willyounottellmewhatshesaid?’

  ’LadyJulia,shehassaidno;simplyno。Itisaveryeasywordtosay,andshehassaiditsooftenthatitseemstocomefromherquitenaturally。’Thenhegotacandleandsatdownoverthefirewithavolumeofanovel。Itwasnotyetpastfive,andLadyJuliadidnotgoupstairstodresstillsix,andthereforetherewasanhourduringwhichtheyweretogether。Johnhadatfirstbeenrathergrandtohisoldfriend,andveryuncommunicative。Butbeforethedressing—bellhadrunghehadbeencoaxedintoaconfidentialstrainandhadtoldeverything。

  ’Isupposeitiswrongandselfish,’hesaid。’IsupposeIamadoginamanger。ButIdoownthatthereisaconsolationtomeintheassurancethatshewillneverbethewifeofthatscoundrel。’

  ’Icouldneverforgiveherifsheweretomarryhimnow,’saidLadyJulia。

  ’Icouldneverforgivehim。Butshehassaidthatshewillnot,andI

  knowthatshewillnotforswearherself。Ishallgoonwithit,LadyJulia。Ihavemadeupmymindtothat。Isupposeitwillnevercometoanything,butIshallsticktoit。Icanliveanoldbacheloraswellasanotherman。AtanyrateIshallsticktoit。’Thenthegoodsillyoldwomancomfortedhimandapplaudedhimasthoughhewereaheroamongmen,anddidrewardhim,asLilyhadpredicted,byoneofthosenowrarebottlesofsuper—excellentportwhichhadcometoherfromherbrother’scellar。

  JohnEamesstayedouthistimeatthecottage,andwentovermorethanonceagaintoAllington,andcalledonthesquire,ononeoccasiondiningwithhimandmeetingthethreeladiesfromtheSmallHouse;andhewalkedwiththegirls,comportinghimselflikeanyordinaryman。ButhewasnotagainalonewithLilyDale,nordidhelearnwhethershehadintruthwrittenthosetwowordsinherbook。Butthereadermaybeknowthatshedidwritethemthereontheeveningofthedayonwhichthepromisewasmade。’LilianDale——OldMaid’。

  AndwhenJohn’sholidaywasover,hereturnedtohisdutiesattheelbowofSirRaffleBuffle。

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