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  ThereforehestartedoffontheMondaymorningafterbreakfastandwalkedintoSilverbridge,andashewalkedhebuiltvariouscastlesintheair。WhyshouldnonotmarryGrace——ifshewouldhavehim——andtakeherawaybeyondthereachofherfather’scalamity?Whyshouldhenotthrowoverhisownpeoplealtogether,money,position,society,andall,andgivehimselfuptolove?Werehetodoso,menmightsaythathewasfoolish,butnoonecouldhintthathewasdishonourable。Hisspiritwashighenoughtoteachhimtothinkthatsuchconductonhispartwouldhaveinitsomethingofmagnificence;but,yet,suchwasnothispurpose。IngoingtoMissPrettymanitwashisintentiontoapologisefornotdoingthismagnificentthing。Hismindwasquitemadeup。

  Neverthelesshebuiltcastlesintheair。

  ItsohappenedthatheencounteredtheyoungerMissPrettymaninthehall。Itwouldnotatallhavesuitedhimtorevealtoherthepurportofhisvisit,oraskhertoassisthissuitorreceivehisapologies。

  MissAnnePrettymanwastoocommonapersonageintheSilverbridgeworldtobefitforsuchemployment。MissAnnePrettymanwas,indeed,herselfsubmissivetohim,andtreatedhimwiththecourtesywhichisduetoasuperiorbeing。Hethereforesimplyaskedherwhetherhecouldbeallowedtoseehersister。

  ’Surely,MajorGrantly;——thatis,Ithinkso。Itisalittleearly,butIthinkshecanreceiveyou。’

  ’Itisearly,Iknow;butasIwanttosayawordortwoonbusiness——’

  ’Oh,onbusiness。Iamsureshewillseeyouonbusiness;shewillonlybetooproud。Ifyouwillbekindenoughtostepinherefortwominutes。’ThenMissAnne,havingdepositedthemajorinthelittleparlour,ranupstairswithhermessagetohersister。’Ofcourseit’saboutGraceCrawley’shesaidtoherselfasshewent。’Itcan’tbeaboutanythingelse。Iwonderwhathe’sgoingtosay。Ifhe’sgoingtopop,andthefatherinallthistrouble,he’sthefinestfellowthatevertrod。’SuchwereherthoughtsasshetappedatthedoorandannouncedinthepresenceofGracethattherewassomebodyinthehall。

  ’It’sMajorGrantly,’whisperedAnne,assoonasGracehadshutthedoorbehindher。

  ’SoIsupposebyyourtellinghernottogointothehall。Whathashecometosay?’

  ’HowonearthcanItellyouthat,Annabella?ButIsupposehecanhaveonlyonethingtosayafterallthathascomeandgone。Hecanonlyhavecomewithoneobject。’

  ’Hewouldn’thavecometomeforthat。Hewouldhaveaskedtoseeherself。’

  ’Shenevergoesoutnow,andhecan’tseeher。’

  ’OrhewouldhavegonetothemoveratHogglestock,’saidMissPrettyman。’Butofcoursehemustcomeupnowheishere。Wouldyoumindtellinghim?OfshallIringthebell?’

  ’I’lltellhim。Weneednotmakemorefussthannecessary,withtheservants,youknow。IsupposeI’dbetternotcomebackwithhim?’

  Therewasatoneofsupplicationintheyoungersister’svoiceasshemadethelastsuggestion,whichoughttohavemeltedtheheartoftheelder;butitwasunavailing。’Ashehasaskedtoseeme,Ithinkyouhadbetternot,’saidAnnabella。MissAnnePrettymanborehercrossmeekly,offerednoargumentonthesubject,andreturningtothelittleparlourwhereshehadleftthemajor,broughthimupstairs,andusheredhimintohersister’sroomwithoutevenenteringitagain,herself。

  MajorGrantlywasasintimatelyacquaintedwithMissAnnePrettymanasamanunderthirtymaywellbewithaladynearerfiftythanforty,whoisnotspeciallyconnectedwithhimbyanyfamilytie;butofMissPrettymanheknewpersonallyverymuchless。MissPrettyman,ashasbeforebeensaid,didnotgoout,andwasthereforenotcommontotheeyesoftheSilverbridgians。Shedidoccasionallyseeherfriendsinherownhouse,andGraceCrawley’slover,asthemajorhadcometobecalled,hadbeenthereonmorethanoneoccasion;butofrealpersonalintimacybetweenthemtherehadhithertoexistednone。Hemighthavespoken,perhapsadozenwordstoherinhislife。Hehadnowmorethanadozentospeaktoher,buthehardlyknewhowtocommencethem。

  Shehadgotupandcurtseyed,andhadthentakenhishandandaskedhimtositdown。’Mysistertellsmethatyouwanttoseeme,’shesaidinhersoftest,mildestvoice。

  ’Ido,MissPrettyman。Iwanttospeaktoyouaboutamatterthattroublesmeverymuch——verymuchindeed。’

  ’AnythingthatIcando,MajorGrantly——’

  ’Thankyou,yes。Iknowthatyouareverygood,orIshouldnothaveventuredtocomeandseeyou。IndeedIshouldn’ttroubleyounow,ofcourse,ifitwasonlyaboutmyself。IknowverywellwhatagreatfriendyouaretoMissCrawley。’

  ’Yes,Iam。WeloveGracedearlyhere。’

  ’SodoI,’saidthemajorbluntly;’Iloveherdearly,too。’Thenhepaused,asthoughhethoughtthatMissPrettymanoughttotakeupthespeech。ButMissPrettymanseemedtothinkquitedifferently,andhewasobligedtogoon。’Idon’tknowwhetheryouhaveeverheardaboutitornoticedit,or——or——or——’Hefeltthathewasveryawkward,andheblushed。Majorashewas,heblushedashesatbeforethewoman,tryingtotellhisstory,butnotknowinghowtotellit。’Thetruthis,MissPrettyman,Ihavedoneallbutaskhertobemywife,andnowhascomethisterribleaffairaboutherfather。’

  ’Itisaterribleaffair,MajorGrantly;veryterrible。’

  ’ByJove,youmaysaythat!’

  ’Ofcourse,MrCrawleyisasinnocentinthematterasyouorIare。’

  ’Youthinkso,MissPrettyman?’

  ’Thinkso!Ifeelsureofit。What;aclergymanoftheChurchofEngland,apious,hard—workingcountrygentleman,whomwehaveknownamongusbyhisgoodworksforyears,suddenlyturnthief,andpilferafewpounds!Itisnotpossible,MajorGrantly。Andthefatherofsuchadaughter,too!Itisnotpossible。Itmaydoformenofbusinesstothinkso,lawyersandsuchlike,whoareobligedtothinkinaccordancewiththeevidence,astheycallit;buttomymindtheideaismonstrous。Idon’tknowhowhegotit,andIdon’tcare;butI’mquitesurehedidnotstealit。Whoeverheardofanybodybecomingsobaseasthatallatonce?’

  Themajorwasstartledbyhereloquence,andbytheindignanttoneofvoiceinwhichitwasexpressed。Itseemedtotellhimthatshewouldgivehimnosympathyinthatwhichhehadcometosaytoher,andtoupbraidhimalreadyinthathewasnotpreparedtodothemagnificentthingofwhichhehadthoughtwhenhehadbeenbuildinghiscastlesintheair。Whyshouldhenotdothemagnificentthing?MissPrettyman’seloquencewassostrongthatithalfconvincedhimthattheBarchesterClubandMrWalkerhadcometoawrongconclusionafterall。

  ’AndhowdoesMissCrawleybearit?’heasked,desirousofpostponingforawhileanydeclarationofhisownpurpose。

  ’Sheisveryunhappy,ofcourse。Notthatshethinksevilofherfather。’

  ’Ofcourseshedoesnotthinkhimguilty。’

  ’Nobodythinkshimsointhishouse,MajorGrantly,’saidthelittlewoman,veryimperiously。’ButGraceis,naturallyenough,verysad;——verysadindeed。IdonotthinkIcanaskyoutoseehertoday。’

  ’Iwasnotthinkingofit,’saidthemajor。

  ’Poor,deargirl!Itisagreattrialforher。Doyouwishmetogiveheranymessage,MajorGrantly?’

  Themomenthadnowcomeinwhichhemustsaythatwhichhehadcometosay。Thelittlewomanwaitedforananswer,andashewasthere,withinherpowerasitwere,hemustspeak。Ifearthatwhathesaidwillnotbeapprovedbyanystrong—mindedperson。Ifearthatourloverwillhenceforthbeconsideredbysuchaoneasbeingaweak,wishy—washyman,whohadhardlyanymindofhisowntospeakof——thathewasamanofnoaccount,asthepoorpeoplesay。’MissPrettyman,whatmessageoughtI

  togiveher?’

  ’Nay,MajorGrantly,howcanItellyouthat?HowcanIputwordsintoyourmouth?’

  ’Itisn’tthewords,’hesaid;’butthefeelings。’

  ’AndhowcanItellthefeelingsinyourheart?’

  ’Oh,asforthat,Iknowwhatmyfeelingsare。Idoloveherwithallmyheart;——Ido,indeed。AfortnightagoIwasonlythinkingwhethershewouldacceptme,andwhethershewouldmindhavingEdithtotakecareof。’

  ’SheisveryfondofEdith——veryfondindeed。’

  ’Isshe?’saidthemajor,moredistractedthanever。Whyshouldhenotdothemagnificentthingafterall?’Butitisagreatchargeforagirlwhenshemarries。’

  ’Itisagreatcharge——averygreatcharge。Itisforyoutothinkwhetheryoushouldentrustsogreatachargetoonesoyoung。’

  ’Ihavenofearaboutthatatall。’

  ’NorshouldIhaveany——asyouaskme。WehaveknownGracewell,thoroughly,andarequitesurethatshewilldoherdutyinthatstateoflifetowhichitmaypleaseGodtocallher。’

  ThemajorwasawarewhenthiswassaidtohimthathehadnotcometoMissPrettymanforacharacterofthegirlheloved;andyethewasnotangryatreceivingit。Hewasneitherangry,norevenindifferent。Heacceptedthecharactermostgratefully,thoughhefeltthathewasbeingledawayfromhispurpose。Heconsoledhimselfforthishowever,byrememberingthatthepathwhichMissPrettymanwasnowleadinghim,ledtothemagnificent,andtothosepleasantcastlesintheairwhichhehadbeenbuildingashewalkedintoSilverbridge。’Iamquitesurethatsheisallthatyousay,’hereplied。’IndeedIhadmadeupmymindaboutthatlongago。’

  ’AndwhatcanIdoforyou,MajorGrantly?’

  ’YouthinkthatIoughtnottoseeher?’

  ’Iwillaskher,ifyouplease。IhavesuchtrustinherjudgmentthatIshouldleaveheraltogethertoherowndiscretion。’

  Themagnificentthingmustbedone,andthemajormadeuphismindaccordingly。Somethingofregretcameoverhisspiritashethoughtofafather—in—lawdisgracedanddegraded,andofhisownfatherbroken—hearted。Butnowtherewashardlyanyalternativelefttohim。

  Andwasitnotthemanlythingforhimtodo?Hehadlovedthegirlbeforethistroublehadcomeuponher,andwashenotboundtoaccepttheburdenwhichhislovehadbroughtwithit?’Iwillseeher,’hesaid,’atonce,ifyouwillletme,andaskhertobemywife。ButI

  mustseeheralone。’

  ThenMissPrettymanpaused。Hitherto,shehadundoubtedlybeenplayingherfishcautiously,orratherheryoungfriend’sfish——perhapsImaysaycunningly。Shehaddescendedtoartificeonbehalfofthegirlwhomsheloved,admired,andpitied。Shehadseensomewayintotheman’smind,andhadbeenpartlyawareofhispurpose——ofhisinfirmityofpurpose,ofhisdoublepurpose。ShehadperceivedthatawordfromhermighthelpGrace’schance,andhadledthemanontillhehadcommittedhimself,atanyratetoher。Indoingthisshehadbeenactuatedbyfriendshipratherthanbyabstractprinciple。Butnow,whenthemomenthadcomeinwhichshemustdecideuponsomeaction,shepaused。Wasitright,forthesakeofeitherofthem,thatanofferofmarriageshouldbemadeatsuchamomentasthis?Itmightbeverywell,inregardtosomefuturetime,thatthemajorshouldhavesocommittedhimself。Shesawsomethingoftheman’sspirit,andbelievedthat,havinggonesofar——havingsofartoldhislove,hewouldreturntohislovehereafter,lettheresultoftheCrawleytrialbewhatitmight。But——but,thiscouldbenopropertimeforlove—making。ThoughGracelovedtheman,asMissPrettymanknewwell,thoughGracelovedthechild,havingallowedherselftolongtocallitherown,thoughsuchamarriagecouldbethemakingofGrace’sfortuneasthosewholovedhercouldhardlyhavehopedthatitshouldeverhavebeenmade,shewouldcertainlyrefusetheman,ifheweretoproposetohernow。Shewouldrefusehim,andthenthemanwouldbefree;——freetochangehismindifhesawfit。Consideringallthesethings,craftilyintheexerciseofherfriendship,toocunningly,Ifear,tosatisfytheclaimsofahighmorality,sheresolvedthatthemajorhadbetternotseeMissCrawleyatthepresentmoment。MissPrettymanpausedbeforeshereplied,and,whenshedidspeak,MajorGrantlyhadrisenfromhischairandwasstandingwithhisbacktothefire。’MajorGrantly,’shesaid,’youshallseeifyouplease,andifshepleases;butIdoubtwhetherheransweratsuchamomentasthiswouldbethatwhichyouwouldwishtoreceive。’

  ’Youthinkshewouldrefuseme?’

  ’Idonotthinkshewouldacceptyounow。Shewouldfeel——Iamsureshewouldfeel,thatthesehoursofherfather’ssorrowarenothoursinwhichloveshouldbeeitherofferedoraccepted。Youshall,however,seeherifyouplease。’

  Themajorallowedhimselfamomentforthought;andashethoughthesighed。GraceCrawleyhadbecomemorebeautifulinhiseyesthanever,wasendowedbythesewordsfromMissPrettymanwithnewcharmsandbrightervirtuesthanhehadseenbefore。Letcomewhatmighthewouldaskhertobehiswifeonsomefutureday;ifhedidnotaskhernow。

  Forthepresent,perhaps,hehadbetterbeguidedbyMissPrettyman。

  ’ThenIwillnotseeher,’hesaid。

  ’Ithinkthatwouldbethewisercourse。’

  ’OfcourseyouknewbeforethisthatI——lovedher?’

  ’Ithoughtso,MajorGrantly。’

  ’AndthatIintendedtoaskhertobemywife?’

  ’Well;sinceyouputthequestiontomesoplainly,ImustconfessthatasGrace’sfriendIshouldnotquitehaveletthingsgoonastheyhavegone——thoughIamnotatalldisposedtointerferewithanygirlwhomI

  believetobepureandgoodasIknowhertobe——butstillIshouldhardlyhavebeenjustifiedinlettingthingsgoonastheyhavegone,ifIhadnotbelievedthatsuchwasyourpurpose。’

  ’Iwantedtosetmyselfrightwithyou,MissPrettyman。’

  ’Youarerightwithme——quiteright’;andshegotupandgavehimherhand。’Youareafine,noble—heartedgentleman,andIhopethatourGracemaylivetobeyourhappywife,andthemotherofyourdarlingchild,andthemotherofotherchildren。Idonotseehowawomancouldhaveahappierlotinlife。’

  ’AndwillyougiveGracemylove?’

  ’Iwilltellheratanyratethatyouhavebeenhere,andthatyouhaveinquiredafterherwiththegreatestkindness。Shewillunderstandwhatthatmeanswithoutanywordoflove。’

  ’CanIdoanythingforher——orherfather;Imeaninthewayofmoney?

  Idon’tmindmentioningittoyou,MissPrettyman。’

  ’Iwilltellherthatyouarereadytodoit,ifanythingcanbedone。

  FormyselfIfeelnodoubtthatthemysterywillbeclearedupatlast;

  andthen,ifyouwillcomehere,weshallbesogladtoseeyou。——I

  shallatleast。’

  Thenthemajorwent,andMissPrettymanherselfactuallydescendedwithhimintothehall,andbadehimfarewellmostaffectionatelybeforehersisterandtwoofthemaidswhocameouttoopenthedoor。MissAnnePrettyman,whenshesawthegreatfriendshipwithwhichthemajorwasdismissed,couldnotcontainherself,butaskedmostimpudentquestions,inawhisperindeed,butinsuchawhisperthatanysharp—earedmaid—servantcouldhearandunderstandthem。’Isitsettled,’sheaskedwhenhersisterhadascendedonlythefirstflightofstairs;——’hashepopped?’Thelookwithwhichhereldersisterpunishedanddismayedtheyounger,Iwouldnothavebornefortwentypounds。Shesimplylooked,andsaidnothing,butpassedon。Whenshehadregainedherroomsherangthebell,anddesiredtoasktheservanttoaskMissCrawleytobegoodenoughtosteptoher。PoorMissAnneretireddiscomfortedintothesolitudeofoneofthelowerrooms,andsatforsomeminutesallalone,recoveringfromtheshockofhersister’sanger。’Atanyrate,hehasn’tpopped,’shesaidtoherself,asshemadeherwaybacktotheschool。

  AfterthatMissPrettymanandMissCrawleywereclosetedtogetherforaboutanhour。Whatpassedbetweenthemneednotberepeatedherewordforword;butitmaybeunderstoodthatMissPrettymansaidnomorethansheoughttohavesaid,andthatGraceunderstoodallthatsheoughttohaveunderstood。

  ’Nomaneverbehavedwithmoreconsideratefriendship,ormorelikeagentleman,’saidMissPrettyman。

  ’Iamsureheisverygood,andIamsogladhedidnotasktoseeme,’

  saidGrace。ThenGracewentaway,andMissPrettymansatawhileinthought,consideringwhatshehaddone,notwithoutsomestingsofconscience。

  MajorGrantlyashewalkedhomewasnotaltogethersatisfiedwithhimself,thoughhegavehimselfcreditforsomediplomacywhichIdonotthinkhedeserved。HefeltthatMissPrettymanandtheworldingeneral,shouldtheworldingeneraleverhearanythingaboutit,wouldgivehimcreditforhavingbehavedwell;andthathehadobtainedthiscreditwithoutcommittinghimselftothenecessityofmarryingthedaughterofathief,shouldthingsturnoutbadlyinregardtothefather。But——andthisbutrobbedhimofallthepleasurewhichcomesfromrealsuccess——buthehadnottreatedGraceCrawleywiththeperfectgenerositywhichloveowes,andhewasinsomedegreeashamedofhimself。Hefelt,however,thathemightprobablyhaveGrace,shouldhechoosetoaskforherwhenthistroubleshouldhavepassedby。’AndI

  will,’hesaidtohimself,asheenteredthegateofhisownpaddock,andsawhischildinherperambulatorbeforethenurse。’AndIwillaskher,soonerorlater,letthingsgoastheymay。’Thenhetooktheperambulatorunderhisownchargeforhalf—an—hour,tothesatisfactionofthenurse,ofthechild,andofhimself。

  CHAPTERVIII

  MRCRAWLEYISTAKENTOSILVERBRIDGE

  IthadbecomenecessaryontheMondaymorningthatMrsCrawleyshouldobtainfromherhusbandanundertakingthatheshouldpresenthimselfbeforethemagistratesatSilverbridgeontheThursday。ShehadbeenmadetounderstandthatthemagistratesweresinningagainstthestrictruleoflawinnotissuingawarrantatonceforMrCrawley’sapprehension;andtheyweresosinningattheinstanceofMrWalker——atwhoseinstancetheywouldhavecommittedalmostanysinpracticablebyaboardofEnglishmagistrates,sogreatwastheirfaithinhim;andsheknewthatshewasboundtoanswerherengagement。Shehadalsoanothertasktoperform——that,namely,ofpersuadinghimtoemployanattorneyforhisdefence;andshewaspreparedwiththenameofanattorney,oneMrMason,alsoofSilverbridge,whohadbeenrecommendedtoherbyMrWalker。ButwhenshecametotheperformanceofthesetwotasksontheMondaymorning,shefoundthatshewasunabletoaccomplisheitherofthem。MrCrawleyfirstdeclaredthathewouldhavenothingtodowithanyattorney。Astothatheseemedtohavemadeuphismindbeforehand,andshesawatoncethatshehadnohopeofshakinghim。Butwhenshefoundthathewasequallyobstinateintheothermatter,andthathedeclaredthathewouldnotgobeforethemagistratesunlessheweremadetodoso——unlessthepolicemancameandfetchedhim,thenshealmostsankbeneaththeburdenofhertroubles,andforawhilewasdisposedtoletthingsgoastheywould。Howcouldshestrivetobearaloadthatwassomanifestlytooheavyforhershoulders?

  OntheSundaythepoormanhadexertedhimselftogetthroughhisSundayduties,andhehadsucceeded。Hehadsucceededsowellthathiswifehadthoughtthatthingsmightyetcomerightwithhim,thathewouldremember,beforeitwastoolate,thetruehistoryofthatunhappypieceofpaper,andthathewasrisingabovethathalfmadnesswhichformonthspasthadafflictedhim。

  OntheSundayevening,whenhewastiredwithhiswork,shethoughtitbesttosaynothingtohimaboutthemagistratesandthebusinessofThursday。ButonMondaymorningshecommencedhertask,feelingthatsheowedittoMrWalkertolosenomoretime。Hewasverydecidedinhismannersandmadehertounderstandthathewouldemploynolawyeronhisownbehalf。’WhyshouldIwantalawyer?Ihavedonenothingwrong,’hesaid。Thenshetriedtomakehimunderstandthatmanywhomayhavedonenothingwrongrequirealawyer’said。’Andwhoistopayhim?’heasked。

  Tothisshereplied,unfortunately,thattherewouldbenoneedofthinkingofthatatonce。’AndIamtogetfurtherintodebt!’hesaid。

  ’IamtoputmyselfrightbeforetheworldbyincurringdebtswhichI

  knowIcanneverpay?WhenithasbeenaquestionoffoodforthechildrenIhavebeenweak,butIwillnotbeweakinsuchamatterasthis。Iwillhavenolawyer。’Shedidnotregardthisdenialonhispartasverymaterial,thoughshewouldfainhavefollowedMrWalker’sadvicehadshebeenable;butwhen,laterintheday,hedeclaredthatthepoliceshouldfetchhim,thenherspiritsgaveway。EarlyinthemorninghehadseemedtoassenttotheexpedientofgoingintoSilverbridgeontheThursday,anditwasnottillafterhehadworkedhimselfintoarageabouttheproposedattorney,thatheutterlyrefusedtomakethejourney。Duringthewholeday,however,hisstatewassuchasalmosttobreakhiswife’heart。Hewoulddonothing。Hewouldnotgototheschool,norevenstirbeyondthehouse—door。Hewouldnotopenabook。

  Hewouldnoteat,norwouldheevensitattableorsaytheaccustomedgracewhenthescantymiddaymealwasplaceduponthetable。’Nothingisblessedtome,’hesaid,whenhiswifepressedhimtosaythewordfortheirchild’ssake。’ShallIsaythatIthankGodwhenmyheartisthankless?ShallIservemychildbyalie?’Thenforhourshesatinthesameposition,intheoldarm—chair,hangingoverthefirespeechless,sleepless,thinkingever,asshewellknew,oftheinjusticeoftheworld。Shehardlydaredtospeaktohim,sogreatwasthebitternessofhiswordswhenshewasgoadedtoreply。Atlast,lateintheevening,feelingthatitwouldbeherdutytosendtoMrWalkerearlyonthefollowingmorning,shelaidherhandgentlyonhisshoulderandaskedhimforhispromise。’ImaytellMrWalkerthatyouwillbethereonThursday?’

  ’No,’hesaid,shoutingather。’No。Iwillhavenosuchmessagesent。’Shestartedback,trembling。Notthatshewasaccustomedtotrembleathisways,ortoshowthatshefearedhiminhisparoxysms,butthathisvoicehadbeenlouderthanshehadbeforeknownit。’IwillholdnointercoursewiththematSilverbridgeinthismatter。Doyouhearme,Mary?’

  ’Ihearyou,Josiah;butImustkeepmywordtoMrWalker。IpromisedthatIwouldsendtohim。’

  ’Tellhim,then,thatIwillnotstirafootoutofthishouseonThursdayofmyownaccord。OnThursdayIshallbehere;andhereIwillremainallday——unlesstheytakemebyforce。’

  ’ButJosiah——’

  ’Willyouobeyme,orshallIwalkintoSilverbridgemyselfandtellthemanthatIwillnotcometohim。’Thenhearosefromhischairandstretchedforthhishandtohishatasthoughheweregoingforthimmediately,onhiswaytoSilverbridge。Thenightwasnowpitchdark,andtherainwasfalling,andabroadhewouldencounteralltheseverityofthepitilesswinter。Stillitmighthavebeenbetterthatheshouldhavegone。Theexerciseandthefreshair,eventhewetandthemud,wouldhaveservedtobringbackhismindtoreason。Buthiswifethoughtofthemiseryofthejourney,ofhisscantyclothing,ofhiswornboots,oftheneedtherewastopreservetheraimentwhichhewore;andsherememberedthathewasfasting——thathehadeatennothingsincethemorning,andthathewasnotfittobealone。Shestoppedhim,therefore,beforehecouldreachthedoor。

  ’Yourbiddingshallbedone,’shesaid——’ofcourse。’

  ’Tellthem,then,thattheymustseekmeiftheywantme。’

  ’But,Josiah,thinkoftheparish——ofthepeoplewhorespectyou——fortheirsakesletitnotbesaidthatyouweretakenawaybypolicemen。’

  ’WasStPaulnotboundinprison?Didhethinkofwhatthepeoplemightsee?’

  ’Ifitwerenecessary,Iwouldencourageyoutobearitwithoutamurmur。’

  ’Itisnecessary,whetheryoumurmur,ordonotmurmur。Murmurindeed!

  Whydoesnotyourvoiceascendtoheavenwithoneloudwailagainstthecrueltyofman?’Thenhewentforthfromtheroomintoanemptychamberontheothersideofthepassage;andhiswife,whenshefollowedhimthereafterafewminutes,foundhimonhisknees,withhisforeheadagainstthefloor,andwithhishandsclutchingatthescantyhairsofhishead。Oftenbeforehadsheseenhimso,onthesamespot,halfgrovelling,halfprostrateinprayer,revilinginhisagonyallthingsaroundhim——nay,nearlyallthingsabovehim——andyetstrivingtoreconcilehimselftohisCreatorbythehumiliationofhis

  confession。

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