Andso,inspiteofall——inspiteofallbeliefs,fixedortransitory,withamindwhirlingamidcontestingforcesandcompellingbeliefs——Isteppedintothechurchoverwhelmedwiththatmostreceptiveofatmospheres——doubt。
InonethingonlywasIfixed:hereatleastwasnodoubtormisgivingwhatever。IintendedtogothroughwhatIhadundertaken。
Moreover,IfeltthatIwasstrongenoughtocarryoutmyintention,whatevermightbeoftheUnknown——howeverhorrible,howeverterrible。
WhenIhadenteredthechurchandclosedtheheavydoorbehindme,thesenseofdarknessandlonelinessinalltheirhorrorenfoldedmeround。Thegreatchurchseemedalivingmystery,andservedasanalmostterriblebackgroundtothoughtsandremembrancesofunutterablegloom。Myadventurouslifehashaditsownschoolingtoenduranceandupholdingone’scourageintryingtimes;butithasitscontrainfulnessofmemory。
Ifeltmywayforwardwithbothhandsandfeet。Everysecondseemedasifithadbroughtmeatlasttoadarknesswhichwasactuallytangible。Allatonce,andwithnoheedofsequenceororder,Iwasconsciousofallaroundme,theknowledgeorperceptionofwhich——orevenspeculationonthesubject——hadneverenteredmymind。TheyfurnishedthedarknesswithwhichIwasencompassedwithallthecrowdedphasesofadream。Iknewthatallaroundmewerememorialsofthedead——thatintheCryptdeep—wroughtintherockbelowmyfeetlaythedeadthemselves。Someofthem,perhaps——oneofthemIknew——
hadevenpassedthegrimportalsoftimeUnknown,andhad,bysomemysteriouspoweroragency,comebackagaintomaterialearth。Therewasnoresting—placeforthoughtwhenIknewthattheveryairwhichIbreathedmightbefullofdenizensofthespirit—world。Inthatimpenetrableblacknesswasaworldofimaginingwhosepossibilitiesofhorrorwereendless。
IalmostfanciedthatIcouldseewithmortaleyesdownthroughthatrockyfloortowhere,inthelonelyCrypt,lay,inhertombofmassivestoneandunderthatbewilderingcoverletofglass,thewomanwhomIlove。Icouldseeherbeautifulface,herlongblacklashes,hersweetmouth——whichIhadkissed——relaxedinthesleepofdeath。
Icouldnotethevoluminousshroud——apieceofwhichasaprecioussouvenirlayeventhensoclosetomyheart——thesnowywoollencoverletwroughtoveringoldwithsprigsofpine,thesoftdentinthecushiononwhichherheadmustforsolonghavelain。Icouldseemyself——withinmyeyesthememoryofthatfirstvisit——comingonceagainwithgladsteptorenewthatdearsight——dear,thoughitscorchedmyeyesandharrowedmyheart——andfindingthegreatersorrow,thegreaterdesolationoftheemptytomb!
There!IfeltthatImustthinknomoreofthatlestthethoughtshouldunnervemewhenIshouldmostwantallmycourage。Thatwaymadnesslay!Thedarknesshadalreadysufficientterrorsofitsownwithoutbringingtoitsuchgrimremembrancesandimaginings……
AndIhadyettogothroughsomeordealwhich,eventoherwhohadpassedandrepassedtheportalsofdeath,wasfulloffear。
Itwasamercifulrelieftomewhen,ingropingmywayforwardsthroughthedarkness,Istruckagainstsomeportionofthefurnishingofthechurch。FortunatelyIwasallstrunguptotension,elseI
shouldneverhavebeenabletocontrolinstinctively,asIdid,theshriekwhichwasrisingtomylips。
Iwouldhavegivenanythingtohavebeenabletolightevenamatch。
Asinglesecondoflightwould,Ifelt,havemadememyownmanagain。ButIknewthatthiswouldbeagainsttheimpliedconditionofmybeingthereatall,andmighthavehaddisastrousconsequencestoherwhomIhadcometosave。Itmightevenfrustratemyscheme,andaltogetherdestroymyopportunity。Atthatmomentitwasborneuponmemorestronglythaneverthatthiswasnotamerefightformyselformyownselfishpurposes——notmerelyanadventureorastruggleforonlylifeanddeathagainstunknowndifficultiesanddangers。ItwasafightonbehalfofherIloved,notmerelyforherlife,butperhapsevenforhersoul。
Andyetthisverythinking——understanding——createdanewformofterror。Forinthatgrim,shroudingdarknesscamememoriesofothermomentsofterriblestress。
Ofwild,mysticritesheldinthedeepgloomofAfricanforests,when,amidscenesofrevoltinghorror,Obiandthedevilsofhiskindseemedtorevealthemselvestorecklessworshippers,surfeitedwithhorror,whoselivescountedfornaught;whenevenhumansacrificewasanepisode,andthereekofolddeviltriesandrecentcarnagetaintedtheair,tillevenI,whowas,attheriskofmylife,aprivilegedspectatorwhohadcomethroughdangerswithoutendtobeholdthescene,roseandfledinhorror。
Ofscenesofmysteryenactedinrock—cuttemplesbeyondtheHimalayas,whosefanaticpriests,coldasdeathandasremorseless,inthereactionoftheirphrenzyofpassion,foamedatthemouthandthensankintomarblequiet,aswithinnereyestheybeheldthevisionsofthehellishpowerswhichtheyhadinvoked。
Ofwild,fantasticdancesoftheDevil—worshippersofMadagascar,whereeventheverysemblanceofhumanitydisappearedinthefantasticexcessesoftheirorgies。
Ofstrangedoingsofgloomandmysteryintherock—perchedmonasteriesofThibet。
Ofawfulsacrifices,alltomysticends,intheinnermostrecessesofCathay。
Ofweirdmovementswithmassesofpoisonoussnakesbythemedicine—
menoftheZuniandMochiIndiansinthefarsouth—westoftheRockies,beyondthegreatplains。
OfsecretgatheringsinvasttemplesofoldMexico,andbydimaltarsofforgottencitiesintheheartofgreatforestsinSouthAmerica。
OfritesofinconceivablehorrorinthefastnessesofPatagonia。
Of……HereIoncemorepulledmyselfup。SuchthoughtswerenokindofproperpreparationforwhatImighthavetoendure。Myworkthatnightwastobebasedonlove,onhope,onself—sacrificeforthewomanwhoinalltheworldwastheclosesttomyheart,whosefutureIwastoshare,whetherthatsharingmightleadmetoHellorHeaven。Thehandwhichundertooksuchataskmusthavenotrembling。
Still,thosehorriblememorieshad,Iamboundtosay,ausefulpartinmypreparationfortheordeal。TheywereoffactwhichIhadseen,ofwhichIhadmyselfbeeninpartasharer,andwhichIhadsurvived。Withsuchexperiencesbehindme,couldtherebeaughtbeforememoredreadful?……
Moreover,ifthecomingordealwasofsupernaturalorsuperhumanorder,couldittranscendinlivinghorrorthevilestandmostdesperateactsofthebasestmen?……
WithrenewedcourageIfeltmywaybeforeme,tillmysenseoftouchtoldmethatIwasatthescreenbehindwhichlaythestairtotheCrypt。
ThereIwaited,silent,still。
Myownpartwasdone,sofarasIknewhowtodoit。Beyondthis,whatwastocomewas,sofarasIknew,beyondmyowncontrol。IhaddonewhatIcould;therestmustcomefromothers。Ihadexactlyobeyedmyinstructions,fulfilledmywarrantytotheutmostinmyknowledgeandpower。Therewas,therefore,leftformeinthepresentnothingbuttowait。
Itisapeculiarityofabsolutedarknessthatitcreatesitsownreaction。Theeye,weariedoftheblackness,beginstoimagineformsoflight。HowfarthisiseffectedbyimaginationpureandsimpleI
knownot。Itmaybethatnerveshavetheirownsensesthatbringthoughttothedepositorycommontoallthehumanfunctions,but,whatevermaybethemechanismortheobjective,thedarknessseemstopeopleitselfwithluminousentities。
SowasitwithmeasIstoodlonelyinthedark,silentchurch。Hereandthereseemedtoflashtinypointsoflight。
Inthesamewaythesilencebegantobebrokennowandagainbystrangemuffledsounds——thesuggestionofsoundsratherthanactualvibrations。Thesewereallatfirstoftheminorimportanceofmovement——rustlings,creakings,faintstirrings,fainterbreathings。
Presently,whenIhadsomewhatrecoveredfromthesortofhypnotictrancetowhichthedarknessandstillnesshadduringthetimeofwaitingreducedme,Ilookedaroundinwonder。
Thephantomsoflightandsoundseemedtohavebecomereal。Thereweremostcertainlyactuallittlepointsoflightinplaces——notenoughtoseedetailsby,butquitesufficienttorelievetheuttergloom。Ithought——thoughitmayhavebeenaminglingofrecollectionandimagination——thatIcoulddistinguishtheoutlinesofthechurch;
certainlythegreataltar—screenwasdimlyvisible。InstinctivelyI
lookedup——andthrilled。There,hunghighaboveme,was,surelyenough,agreatGreekCross,outlinedbytinypointsoflight。
Ilostmyselfinwonder,andstoodstill,inapurelyreceptivemood,unantagonistictoaught,willingforwhatevermightcome,readyforallthings,inratheranegativethanapositivemood——amoodwhichhasanaspectofspiritualmeekness。Thisisthetruespiritoftheneophyte,and,thoughIdidnotthinkofitatthetime,theproperattitudeforwhatiscalledbytheChurchinwhosetempleIstooda\"neo—nymph。\"
Asthelightgrewalittleinpower,thoughneverincreasingenoughfordistinctness,Isawdimlybeforemeatableonwhichrestedagreatopenbook,whereonwerelaidtworings——oneofsliver,theotherofgold——andtwocrownswroughtofflowers,boundatthejoiningoftheirstemswithtissue——oneofgold,theotherofsilver。
IdonotknowmuchoftheritualoftheoldGreekChurch,whichisthereligionoftheBlueMountains,butthethingswhichIsawbeforemecouldbenoneotherthanenlighteningsymbols。InstinctivelyI
knewthatIhadbeenbroughthither,thoughinthisgrimway,tobemarried。Theveryideaofitthrilledmetotheheart’score。I
thoughtthebestthingIcoulddowouldbetostayquitestill,andnotshowsurpriseatanythingthatmighthappen;butbesureIwasalleyesandears。
Ipeeredanxiouslyaroundmeineverydirection,butIcouldseenosignofherwhomIhadcometomeet。
Incidentally,however,Inoticedthatinthelighting,suchasitwas,therewasnoflame,no\"living\"light。Whateverlighttherewascamemuffled,asthoughthroughsomegreentranslucentstone。Thewholeeffectwasterriblyweirdanddisconcerting。
PresentlyIstarted,as,seeminglyoutofthedarknessbesideme,aman’shandstretchedoutandtookmine。Turning,Ifoundclosetomeatallmanwithshiningblackeyesandlongblackhairandbeard。Hewascladinsomekindofgorgeousrobeofclothofgold,richwithvarietyofadornment。Hisheadwascoveredwithahigh,over—hanginghatdrapedcloselywithablackscarf,theendsofwhichformedalong,hangingveiloneitherside。Theseveils,fallingoverthemagnificentrobesofclothofgold,hadanextraordinarilysolemneffect。
Iyieldedmyselftotheguidinghand,andshortlyfoundmyself,sofarasIcouldsee,atonesideofthesanctuary。
Inthefloorclosetomyfeetwasayawningchasm,intowhich,fromsohighovermyheadthatintheuncertainlightIcouldnotdistinguishitsorigin,hungachain。Atthesightastrangewaveofmemorysweptoverme。Icouldnotbutrememberthechainwhichhungovertheglass—coveredtombintheCrypt,andIhadaninstinctivefeelingthatthegrimchasminthefloorofthesanctuarywasbuttheothersideoftheopeningintheroofofthecryptfromwhichthechainoverthesarcophagusdepended。
Therewasacreakingsound——thegroaningofawindlassandtheclankingofachain。Therewasheavybreathingclosetomesomewhere。IwassointentonwhatwasgoingonthatIdidnotseethatonebyone,seemingtogrowoutofthesurroundingdarkness,severalblackfiguresinmonkishgarbappearedwiththesilenceofghosts。Theirfaceswereshroudedinblackcowls,whereinwereholesthroughwhichIcouldseedarkgleamingeyes。Myguideheldmetightlybythehand。Thisgavemeafeelingofsecurityinthetouchwhichhelpedtoretainwithinmybreastsomesemblanceofcalm。
Thestrainofthecreakingwindlassandtheclankingchaincontinuedforsolongthatthesuspensebecamealmostunendurable。Atlasttherecameintosightanironring,fromwhichasacentredependedfourlesserchainsspreadingwide。InafewsecondsmoreIcouldseethatthesewerefixedtothecornersofthegreatstonetombwiththecoveringofglass,whichwasbeingdraggedupward。Asitaroseitfilledcloselythewholeaperture。Whenitsbottomhadreachedtheleveloftheflooritstopped,andremainedrigid。Therewasnoroomforoscillation。Itwasatoncesurroundedbyanumberofblackfigures,whoraisedtheglasscoveringandboreitawayintothedarkness。Thentheresteppedforwardaverytallman,black—bearded,andwithhead—gearlikemyguide,butmadeintripletiers,healsowasgorgeouslyarrayedinflowingrobesofclothofgoldrichlyembroidered。Heraisedhishand,andforthwitheightotherblack—
cladfiguressteppedforward,andbendingoverthestonecoffin,raisedfromittherigidformofmyLady,stillcladinherShroud,andlaiditgentlyonthefloorofthesanctuary。
Ifeltitagracethatatthatinstantthedimlightsseemedtogrowless,andfinallytodisappear——allsavethetinypointsthatmarkedtheoutlineofthegreatCrosshighoverhead。Theseonlygavelightenoughtoaccentuatethegloom。Thehandthatheldminenowreleasedit,andwithasighIrealizedthatIwasalone。Afterafewmomentsmoreofthegroaningofthewinchandclankingofthechaintherewasasharpsoundofstonemeetingstone;thentherewassilence。I
listenedacutely,butcouldnothearnearmetheslightestsound。
Eventhecautious,restrainedbreathingaroundme,ofwhichuptothenIhadbeenconscious,hadceased。Notknowing,inthehelplessnessofmyignorance,whatIshoulddo,IremainedasIwas,stillandsilent,foratimethatseemedendless。Atlast,overcomebysomeemotionwhichIcouldnotatthemomentunderstand,Islowlysanktomykneesandbowedmyhead。Coveringmyfacewithmyhands,Itriedtorecalltheprayersofmyyouth。Itwasnot,Iamcertain,thatfearinanyformhadcomeuponme,orthatIhesitatedorfalteredinmyintention。ThatmuchIknownow;Iknewiteventhen。
Itwas,Ibelieve,thattheprolongedimpressivegloomandmysteryhadatlasttouchedmetothequick。ThebendingofthekneeswasbutsymbolicalofthebowingofthespirittoahigherPower。WhenI
hadrealizedthatmuch,IfeltmorecontentthanIhaddonesinceI
hadenteredthechurch,andwiththerenewedconsciousnessofcourage,tookmyhandsfrommyface,andliftedagainmybowedhead。
ImpulsivelyIsprangtomyfeetandstooderect——waiting。AllseemedtohavechangedsinceIhaddroppedonmyknees。Thepointsoflightabouttimechurch,whichhadbeeneclipsed,hadcomeagain,andweregrowinginpowertoapartialrevealingofthedimexpanse。Beforemewasthetablewiththeopenbook,onwhichwerelaidthegoldandsilverringsandthetwocrownsofflowers。Therewerealsotwotallcandles,withtiniestflamesofblue——theonlylivinglighttobeseen。
Outofthedarknesssteppedthesametallfigureinthegorgeousrobesandthetriplehat。HeledbythehandmyLady,stillcladinherShroud;butoverit,descendingfromthecrownofherhead,wasaveilofveryoldandmagnificentlaceofastonishingfineness。EveninthatdimlightIcouldnotetheexquisitebeautyofthefabric。
Theveilwasfastenedwithabunchoftinyspraysoforange—blossommingledwithcypressandlaurel——astrangecombination。Inherhandshecarriedagreatbouquetofthesame。Itssweetintoxicatingodourfloateduptomynostrils。Itandthesentimentwhichitsverypresenceevokedmademequiver。
Yieldingtotheguidingofthehandwhichheldhers,shestoodatmyleftsidebeforethetable。Herguidethentookhisplacebehindher。Ateitherendofthetable,torightandleftofus,stoodalong—beardedpriestinsplendidrobes,andwearingthehatwithdependingveilofblack。Oneofthem,whoseemedtobethemoreimportantofthetwo,andtooktheinitiative,signedtoustoputourrighthandsontheopenbook。MyLady,ofcourse,understoodtheritual,andknewthewordswhichthepriestwasspeaking,andofherownaccordputoutherhand。Myguideatthesamemomentdirectedmyhandtothesameend。ItthrilledmetotouchmyLady’shand,evenundersuchmysteriousconditions。
AfterthepriesthadsigneduseachthriceontheforeheadwiththesignoftheCross,hegavetoeachofusatinylightedtaperbroughttohimforthepurpose。Thelightswerewelcome,notsomuchforthesolaceoftheaddedlight,greatasthatwas,butbecauseitallowedustoseealittlemoreofeachother’sfaces。ItwasrapturetometoseethefaceofmyBride;andfromtheexpressionofherfaceI
wasassuredthatshefeltasIdid。Itgavemeaninexpressiblepleasurewhen,ashereyesrestedonme,theregrewafaintblushoverthegreypallorofhercheeks。
Thepriestthenputinsolemnvoicetoeachofusinturn,beginningwithme,thequestionsofconsentwhicharecommontoallsuchrituals。IansweredaswellasIcould,followingthemurmuredwordsofmyguide。MyLadyansweredoutproudlyinavoicewhich,thoughgivensoftly,seemedtoring。Itwasaconcern——evenagrief——tomethatIcouldnot,inthepriest’squestioning,catchhername,ofwhich,strangelyenough,——Iwasignorant。But,asIdidnotknowthelanguage,andasthephraseswerenotinaccordliterallywithourownritual,Icouldnotmakeoutwhichwordwasthename。
Aftersomeprayersandblessings,rhythmicallyspokenorsungbyaninvisiblechoir,thepriesttooktheringsfromtheopenbook,and,aftersigningmyforeheadthricewiththegoldoneasherepeatedtheblessingineachcase,placeditonmyrighthand;thenhegavemyLadythesilverone,withthesameritualthricerepeated。Isupposeitwastheblessingwhichistheeffectivepointinmakingtwointoone。
Afterthis,thosewhostoodbehindusexchangedourringsthrice,takingthemfromonefingerandplacingthemontheother,sothatattheendmywifeworethegoldringandIthesilverone。
Thencameachant,duringwhichthepriestswungthecenserhimself,andmywifeandIheldourtapers。Afterthatheblessedus,theresponsescomingfromthevoicesoftheunseensingersinthedarkness。
Afteralongritualofprayerandblessing,sungintriplicate,thepriesttookthecrownsofflowers,andputoneontheheadofeach,crowningmefirst,andwiththecrowntiedwithgold。Thenhesignedandblesseduseachthrice。Theguides,whostoodbehindus,exchangedourcrownsthrice,astheyhadexchangedtherings;sothatatthelast,asIwasgladtosee,mywifeworethecrownofgold,andIthatofsilver。
Thentherecame,ifitispossibletodescribesuchathing,ahushovereventhatstillness,asthoughsomeformofaddedsolemnityweretobegonethrough。Iwasnotsurprised,therefore,whenthepriesttookinhishandsthegreatgoldenchalice。Kneeling,mywifeandI
partooktogetherthrice。
Whenwehadrisenfromourkneesandstoodforalittlewhile,thepriesttookmylefthandinhisright,andI,bydirectionofmyguide,gavemyrighthandtomywife。Andsoinaline,thepriestleading,wecircledroundthetableinrhythmicmeasure。Thosewhosupportedusmovedbehindus,holdingthecrownsoverourheads,andreplacingthemwhenwestopped。
Afterahymn,sungthroughthedarkness,thepriesttookoffourcrowns。Thiswasevidentlytheconclusionoftheritual,forthepriestplacedusineachother’sarmstoembraceeachother。Thenheblessedus,whowerenowmanandwife!
Thelightswentoutatonce,someasifextinguished,othersslowlyfadingdowntoblackness。
Leftinthedark,mywifeandIsoughteachother’sarmsagain,andstoodtogetherforafewmomentshearttoheart,tightlyclaspingeachother,andkissedeachotherfervently。
Instinctivelyweturnedtothedoorofthechurch,whichwasslightlyopen,sothatwecouldseethemoonlightstealinginthroughtheaperture。Withevensteps,sheholdingmetightlybytheleftarm——
whichisthewife’sarm,wepassedthroughtheoldchurchandoutintothefreeair。
Despiteallthatthegloomhadbroughtme,itwassweettobeintheopenairandtogether——thisquiteapartfromournewrelationstoeachother。Themoonrodehigh,andthefulllight,comingafterthedimnessordarknessinthechurch,seemedasbrightasday。Icouldnow,forthefirsttime,seemywife’sfaceproperly。Theglamourofthemoonlightmayhaveservedtoenhanceitsetherealbeauty,butneithermoonlightnorsunlightcoulddojusticetothatbeautyinitslivinghumansplendour。AsIgloriedinherstarryeyesIcouldthinkofnothingelse;butwhenforamomentmyeyes,rovingroundforthepurposeofprotection,caughtsightofherwholefigure,therewasapangtomyheart。Thebrilliantmoonlightshowedeverydetailinterribleeffect,andIcouldseethatsheworeonlyherShroud。Inthemomentofdarkness,afterthelastbenediction,beforeshereturnedtomyarms,shemusthaveremovedherbridalveil。Thismay,ofcourse,havebeeninaccordancewiththeestablishedritualofherchurch;but,allthesame,myheartwassore。Theglamourofcallinghermyveryownwassomewhatobscuredbythebridaladornmentbeingshorn。Butitmadenodifferenceinhersweetnesstome。Togetherwewentalongthepaththroughthewood,shekeepingequalstepwithmeinwifelyway。
WhenwehadcomethroughthetreesnearenoughtoseetheroofoftheCastle,nowgildedwiththemoonlight,shestopped,andlookingatmewitheyesfulloflove,said:
\"HereImustleaveyou!\"
\"What?\"Iwasallaghast,andIfeltthatmychagrinwasexpressedinthetoneofhorrifiedsurpriseinmyvoice。Shewentonquickly:
\"Alas!ItisimpossiblethatIshouldgofarther——atpresent!\"
\"Butwhatistopreventyou?\"Iqueried。\"Youarenowmywife。Thisisourwedding—night;andsurelyyourplaceiswithme!\"Thewailinhervoiceassheansweredtouchedmetothequick:
\"Oh,Iknow,Iknow!Thereisnodearerwishinmyheart——therecanbenone——thantosharemyhusband’shome。Oh,mydear,mydear,ifyouonlyknewwhatitwouldbetometobewithyoualways!ButindeedImaynot——notyet!Iamnotfree!Ifyoubutknewhowmuchthatwhichhashappenedto—nighthascostme——orhowmuchcosttoothersaswellastomyselfmaybeyettocome——youwouldunderstand。
Rupert\"——itwasthefirsttimeshehadeveraddressedmebyname,andnaturallyitthrilledmethroughandthrough——\"Rupert,myhusband,onlythatItrustyouwithallthefaithwhichisinperfectlove——
mutuallove,IdarenothavedonewhatIhavedonethisnight。But,dear,Iknowthatyouwillbearmeout;thatyourwife’shonourisyourhonour,evenasyourhonourismine。Myhonourisgiventothis;andyoucanhelpme——theonlyhelpIcanhaveatpresent——bytrustingme。Bepatient,mybeloved,bepatient!Oh,bepatientforalittlelonger!Itshallnotbeforlong。SosoonasevermysoulisfreedIshallcometoyou,myhusband;andweshallneverpartagain。Becontentforawhile!BelievemethatIloveyouwithmyverysoul;andtokeepawayfromyourdearsideismorebitterformethanevenitcanbeforyou!Think,mydearone,Iamnotasotherwomenare,assomedayyoushallclearlyunderstand。Iamatthepresent,andshallbeforalittlelonger,constrainedbydutiesandobligationsputuponmebyothers,andforothers,andtowhichIampledgedbythemostsacredpromises——givennotonlybymyself,butbyothers——andwhichImustnotforgo。TheseforbidmetodoasIwish。
Oh,trustme,mybeloved——myhusband!\"
Sheheldoutherhandsappealingly。Themoonlight,fallingthroughthethinningforest,showedherwhitecerements。Thentherecollectionofallshemusthavesuffered——theawfullonelinessinthatgrimtombintheCrypt,thedespairingagonyofonewhoishelplessagainsttheunknown——sweptovermeinawaveofpity。WhatcouldIdobutsaveherfromfurtherpain?Andthiscouldonlybebyshowinghermyfaithandtrust。Ifshewastogobacktothatdreadfulcharnel—house,shewouldatleasttakewithhertheremembrancethatonewholovedherandwhomsheloved——towhomshehadbeenlatelyboundinthemysteryofmarriage——trustedhertothefull。Ilovedhermorethanmyself——morethanmyownsoul;andIwasmovedbypitysogreatthatallpossibleselfishnesswasmergedinitsdepths。Ibowedmyheadbeforeher——myLadyandmyWife——asI
said: