foundthatthewomanwasbenumbedandhardlyabletomove。EvenwhenIaskedhertoenter,andsupplementedmywordswithgesturesincasesheshouldnotunderstandmylanguage,shestoodstock—still,onlyrockingslightlytoandfroasthoughshehadjuststrengthenoughlefttobalanceherselfonherfeet。Iwasafraid,fromtheconditioninwhichshewas,thatshemightdropdowndeadatanymoment。SoItookherbythehandtoleadherin。Butsheseemedtooweaktoevenmaketheattempt。WhenIpulledherslightlyforward,thinkingtohelpher,shetottered,andwouldhavefallenhadInotcaughtherinmyarms。Then,halfliftingher,Imovedherforwards。Herfeet,relievedofherweight,nowseemedabletomakethenecessaryeffort;andso,Ialmostcarryingher,wemovedintotheroom。Shewasattheveryendofherstrength;Ihadtoliftheroverthesill。Inobediencetohermotion,IclosedtheFrenchwindowandboltedit。Isupposedthewarmthoftheroom——thoughcool,itwaswarmerthanthedampairwithout——affectedherquickly,forontheinstantsheseemedtobegintorecoverherself。Inafewseconds,asthoughshehadreacquiredherstrength,sheherselfpulledtheheavycurtainacrossthewindow。Thisleftusindarkness,throughwhichIheardhersayinEnglish:
\"Light。Getalight!\"
Ifoundmatches,andatoncelitacandle。Asthewickflared,shemovedovertothedooroftheroom,andtriedifthelockandboltwerefastened。Satisfiedastothis,shemovedtowardsme,herwetshroudleavingatrailofmoistureonthegreencarpet。Bythistimethewaxofthecandlehadmeltedsufficientlytoletmeseeherclearly。Shewasshakingandquiveringasthoughinanague;shedrewthewetshroudaroundherpiteously。InstinctivelyIspoke:
\"CanIdoanythingforyou?\"
Sheanswered,stillinEnglish,andinavoiceofthrilling,almostpiercingsweetness,whichseemedsomehowtogostraighttomyheart,andaffectedmestrangely:\"Givemewarmth。\"
Ihurriedtothefireplace。Itwasempty;therewasnofirelaid。I
turnedtoher,andsaid:
\"Waitjustafewminuteshere。Ishallcallsomeone,andgethelp——
andfire。\"
Hervoiceseemedtoringwithintensityassheansweredwithoutapause:
\"No,no!RatherwouldIbe\"——hereshehesitatedforaninstant,butasshecaughtsightofhercerementswentonhurriedly——\"asIam。I
trustyou——notothers;andyoumustnotbetraymytrust。\"Almostinstantlyshefellintoafrightfulfitofshivering,drawingagainherdeath—clothesclosetoher,sopiteouslythatitwrungmyheart。
IsupposeIamapracticalman。Atanyrate,Iamaccustomedtoaction。ItookfromitsplacebesidemybedathickJaegerdressing—
gownofdarkbrown——itwas,ofcourse,ofextralength——andhelditouttoherasIsaid:
\"Putthaton。Itistheonlywarmthingherewhichwouldbesuitable。Stay;youmustremovethatwet——wet\"——Istumbledaboutforawordthatwouldnotbeoffensive——\"thatfrock——dress——costume——
whateveritis。\"Ipointedtowhere,inthecorneroftheroom,stoodachintz—coveredfolding—screenwhichfencesinmycoldspongebath,whichislaidreadyformeovernight,asIamanearlyriser。
Shebowedgravely,andtakingthedressing—gowninalong,white,finely—shapedhand,boreitbehindthescreen。Therewasaslightrustle,andthenahollow\"flop\"asthewetgarmentfellonthefloor;morerustlingandrubbing,andaminutelatersheemergedwrappedfromheadtofootinthelongJaegergarment,whichtrailedonthefloorbehindher,thoughshewasatallwoman。Shewasstillshiveringpainfully,however。Itookaflaskofbrandyandaglassfromacupboard,andofferedhersome;butwithamotionofherhandsherefusedit,thoughshemoanedgrievously。
\"Oh,Iamsocold——socold!\"Herteethwerechattering。Iwaspainedathersadcondition,andsaiddespairingly,forIwasatmywits’endtoknowwhattodo:
\"TellmeanythingthatIcandotohelpyou,andIwilldoit。Imaynotcallhelp;thereisnofire——nothingtomakeitwith;youwillnottakesomebrandy。WhatonearthcanIdotogiveyouwarmth?\"
Heranswercertainlysurprisedmewhenitcame,thoughitwaspracticalenough——sopracticalthatIshouldnothavedaredtosayit。Shelookedmestraightinthefaceforafewsecondsbeforespeaking。Then,withanairofgirlishinnocencewhichdisarmedsuspicionandconvincedmeatonceofhersimplefaith,shesaidinavoicethatatoncethrilledmeandevokedallmypity:
\"Letmerestforawhile,andcovermeupwithrugs。Thatmaygivemewarmth。Iamdyingofcold。AndIhaveadeadlyfearuponme——adeadlyfear。Sitbyme,andletmeholdyourhand。Youarebigandstrong,andyoulookbrave。Itwillreassureme。Iamnotmyselfacoward,butto—nightfearhasgotmebythethroat。Icanhardlybreathe。DoletmestaytillIamwarm。IfyouonlyknewwhatI
havegonethrough,andhavetogothroughstill,Iamsureyouwouldpitymeandhelpme。\"
TosaythatIwasastonishedwouldbeamilddescriptionofmyfeelings。Iwasnotshocked。ThelifewhichIhaveledwasnotonewhichmakesforprudery。Totravelinstrangeplacesamongststrangepeopleswithstrangeviewsoftheirownistohaveoddexperiencesandpeculiaradventuresnowandagain;amanwithouthumanpassionsisnotthetypenecessaryforanadventurouslife,suchasImyselfhavehad。Butevenamanofpassionsandexperiencescan,whenherespectsawoman,beshocked——evenprudish——wherehisownopinionofherisconcerned。Suchmustbringtoherguardinganygenerositywhichhehas,andanyself—restraintalso。Evenshouldsheplaceherselfinadoubtfulposition,herhonourcallstohishonour。Thisisacallwhichmaynotbe——MUSTnotbe——unanswered。Evenpassionmustpauseforatleastawhileatsoundofsuchatrumpet—call。
ThiswomanIdidrespect——muchrespect。Heryouthandbeauty;hermanifestignoranceofevil;hersuperbdisdainofconvention,whichcouldonlycomethroughhereditarydignity;herterriblefearandsuffering——fortheremustbemoreinherunhappyconditionthanmeetstheeye——wouldalldemandrespect,evenifonedidnothastentoyieldit。Nevertheless,Ithoughtitnecessarytoenteraprotestagainstherembarrassingsuggestion。Icertainlydidfeelafoolwhenmakingit,alsoacad。Icantrulysayitwasmadeonlyforhergood,andoutofthebestofme,suchasIam。Ifeltimpossiblyawkward;andstutteredandstumbledbeforeIspoke:
\"Butsurely——theconvenances!Yourbeingherealoneatnight!Mrs。
Grundy——convention——the——\"
Sheinterruptedmewithanincomparabledignity——adignitywhichhadtheeffectofshuttingmeuplikeaclasp—knifeandmakingmefeeladecidedinferior——andapoorshowatthat。Therewassuchagracioussimplicityandhonestyinit,too,suchself—respectingknowledgeofherselfandherposition,thatIcouldbeneitherangrynorhurt。I
couldonlyfeelashamedofmyself,andofmyownlittlenessofmindandmorals。Sheseemedinhericycoldness——nowspiritualaswellasbodily——likeanincarnatefigureofPrideassheanswered:
\"Whatareconvenancesorconventionstome!IfyouonlyknewwhereI
havecomefrom——theexistence(ifitcanbecalledso)whichIhavehad——theloneliness——thehorror!Andbesides,itisformetoMAKE
conventions,nottoyieldmypersonalfreedomofactiontothem。
EvenasIam——evenhereandinthisgarb——Iamaboveconvention。
Convenancesdonottroublemeorhamperme。That,atleast,IhavewonbywhatIhavegonethrough,evenifithadnevercometomethroughanyotherway。Letmestay。\"Shesaidthelastwords,inspiteofallherpride,appealingly。Butstill,therewasanoteofhighprideinallthis——inallshesaidanddid,inherattitudeandmovement,inthetonesofhervoice,intheloftinessofhercarriageandthesteadfastlookofheropen,starliteyes。Altogether,therewassomethingsorarelyloftyinherselfandallthatcladherthat,facetofacewithitandwithher,myfeebleattemptatmoralprecautionseemedpuny,ridiculous,andoutofplace。Withoutawordinthedoing,Itookfromanoldchiffonierchestanarmfulofblankets,severalofwhichIthrewoverherasshelay,forinthemeantime,havingreplacedthecoverlet,shehadlaindownatlengthonthebed。Itookachair,andsatdownbesideher。Whenshestretchedoutherhandfrombeneaththepileofwraps,Itookitinmine,saying:
\"Getwarmandrest。Sleepifyoucan。Youneednotfear;Ishallguardyouwithmylife。\"
Shelookedatmegratefully,herstarryeyestakinganewlightmorefullofilluminationthanwasaffordedbythewaxcandle,whichwasshadedfromherbymybody……Shewashorriblycold,andherteethchatteredsoviolentlythatIfearedlestsheshouldhaveincurredsomedangerousevilfromherwettingandthecoldthatfollowedit。
Ifelt,however,soawkwardthatIcouldfindnowordstoexpressmyfears;moreover,Ihardlydaredsayanythingatallregardingherselfafterthehaughtywayinwhichshehadreceivedmywell—meantprotest。ManifestlyIwasbuttoherasasortofrefugeandproviderofheat,altogetherimpersonal,andnottoberegardedinanydegreeasanindividual。InthesehumiliatingcircumstanceswhatcouldIdobutsitquiet——andwaitdevelopments?
Littlebylittlethefiercechatteringofherteethbegantoabateasthewarmthofhersurroundingsstolethroughher。Ialsofelt,eveninthisstrangelyawakeningposition,theinfluenceofthequiet;andsleepbegantostealoverme。SeveraltimesItriedtofenditoff,but,asIcouldnotmakeanyovertmovementwithoutalarmingmystrangeandbeautifulcompanion,Ihadtoyieldmyselftodrowsiness。
IwasstillinsuchanoverwhelmingstuporofsurprisethatIcouldnoteventhinkfreely。Therewasnothingformebuttocontrolmyselfandwait。BeforeIcouldwellfixmythoughtsIwasasleep。
Iwasrecalledtoconsciousnessbyhearing,eventhroughthepallofsleepthatboundme,thecrowingofacockinsomeoftheout—officesofthecastle。Atthesameinstantthefigure,lyingdeathlystillbutforthegentleheavingofherbosom,begantostrugglewildly。
Thesoundhadwonthroughthegatesofhersleepalso。Withaswift,glidingmotionsheslippedfromthebedtothefloor,sayinginafiercewhisperasshepulledherselfuptoherfullheight:
\"Letmeout!Imustgo!Imustgo!\"
BythistimeIwasfullyawake,andthewholepositionofthingscametomeinaninstantwhichIshallnever——cannever——forget:thedimlightofthecandle,nownearlyburneddowntothesocket,allthedimmerfromthefactthatthefirstgreygleamofmorningwasstealinginroundtheedgesoftheheavycurtain;thetall,slimfigureinthebrowndressing—gownwhoseover—lengthtrailedonthefloor,theblackhairshowingglossyinthelight,andincreasingbycontrastthemarblewhitenessoftheface,inwhichtheblackeyessentthroughtheirstarsfierygleams。Sheappearedquiteinafrenzyofhaste;hereagernesswassimplyirresistible。
Iwassostupefiedwithamazement,aswellaswithsleep,thatIdidnotattempttostopher,butbeganinstinctivelytohelpherbyfurtheringherwishes。Assheranbehindthescreen,and,asfarassoundcouldinformme,——beganfranticallytodisrobeherselfofthewarmdressing—gownandtodonagaintheice—coldwetshroud,Ipulledbackthecurtainfromthewindow,anddrewtheboltoftheglassdoor。AsIdidsoshewasalreadybehindme,shivering。AsIthrewopenthedoorsheglidedoutwithaswiftsilentmovement,buttremblinginanagonizedway。Asshepassedme,shemurmuredinalowvoice,whichwasalmostlostinthechatteringofherteeth:
\"Oh,thankyou——thankyouathousandtimes!ButImustgo。IMUST!
IMUST!Ishallcomeagain,andtrytoshowmygratitude。Donotcondemnmeasungrateful——tillthen。\"Andshewasgone。
Iwatchedherpassthelengthofthewhitepath,flittingfromshrubtoshruborstatueasshehadcome。Inthecoldgreylightoftheundevelopeddawnsheseemedevenmoreghostlythanshehaddoneintheblackshadowofthenight。
Whenshedisappearedfromsightintheshadowofthewood,Istoodontheterraceforalongtimewatching,incaseIshouldbeaffordedanotherglimpseofher,fortherewasnownodoubtinmymindthatshehadformesomestrangeattraction。IfelteventhenthatthelookinthosegloriousstarryeyeswouldbewithmealwayssolongasImightlive。Therewassomefascinationwhichwentdeeperthanmyeyesormyfleshormyheart——downdeepintotheverydepthsofmysoul。Mymindwasallinawhirl,sothatIcouldhardlythinkcoherently。Itallwaslikeadream;therealityseemedfaraway。
Itwasnotpossibletodoubtthatthephantomfigurewhichhadbeensoclosetomeduringthedarkhoursofthenightwasactualfleshandblood。Yetshewassocold,socold!AltogetherIcouldnotfixmymindtoeitherproposition:thatitwasalivingwomanwhohadheldmyhand,oradeadbodyreanimatedforthetimeortheoccasioninsomestrangemanner。
Thedifficultywastoogreatformetomakeupmyminduponit,evenhadIwantedto。But,inanycase,Ididnotwantto。Thiswould,nodoubt,comeintime。ButtillthenIwishedtodreamon,asanyonedoesinadreamwhichcanstillbeblissfulthoughtherebepausesofpain,orghastliness,ordoubt,orterror。
SoIclosedthewindowanddrewthecurtainagain,feelingforthefirsttimethecoldinwhichIhadstoodonthewetmarbleflooroftheterracewhenmybarefeetbegantogetwarmonthesoftcarpet。
TogetridofthechillfeelingIgotintothebedonwhichSHEhadlain,andasthewarmthrestoredmetriedtothinkcoherently。ForashortwhileIwasgoingoverthefactsofthenight——orwhatseemedasfactstomyremembrance。ButasIcontinuedtothink,thepossibilitiesofanyresultseemedtogetless,andIfoundmyselfvainlytryingtoreconcilewiththelogicoflifethegrimepisodeofthenight。Theeffortprovedtobetoomuchforsuchconcentrationaswaslefttome;moreover,interruptedsleepwasclamant,andwouldnotbedenied。WhatIdreamtof——ifIdreamtatall——Iknownot。I
onlyknowthatIwasreadyforwakingwhenthetimecame。Itcamewithaviolentknockingatmydoor。Isprangfrombed,fullyawakeinasecond,drewthebolt,andslippedbacktobed。Withahurried\"MayIcomein?\"AuntJanetentered。Sheseemedrelievedwhenshesawme,andgavewithoutmyaskinganexplanationofherperturbation:
\"Oh,laddie,Ihaebeensouneasyabootyeallthenicht。Ihaehaddreamsan’veesionsan’a’sortso’uncannyfancies。Ifearthat——\"
Shewasbynowdrawingbackthecurtain,andashereyestookinthemarksofwetalloverthefloorthecurrentofherthoughtschanged:
\"Why,laddie,whativerhaeyebeendoin’wi’yerbaith?Oh,themessyehaemade!’Tissinfultogiesictroublean’waste……\"Andsoshewenton。Iwasgladtohearthetirade,whichwasonlywhatagoodhousewife,outragedinhersentimentsoforder,wouldhavemade。
Ilistenedinpatience——withpleasurewhenIthoughtofwhatshewouldhavethought(andsaid)hadsheknowntherealfacts。Iwaswellpleasedtohavegotoffsoeasily。
RUPERT’SJOURNAL——Continued。
April10,1907。
ForsomedaysafterwhatIcall\"theepisode\"Iwasinastrangeconditionofmind。Ididnottakeanyone——notevenAuntJanet——intoconfidence。Evenshedear,andopen—heartedandliberal—mindedassheis,mightnothaveunderstoodwellenoughtobejustandtolerant;andIdidnotcaretohearanyadversecommentonmystrangevisitor。SomehowIcouldnotbearthethoughtofanyonefindingfaultwithherorinher,though,strangelyenough,Iwaseternallydefendinghertomyself;for,despitemywishes,embarrassingthoughtsWOULDcomeagainandagain,andagaininallsortsandvariantsofqueriesdifficulttoanswer。Ifoundmyselfdefendingher,sometimesasawomanhardpressedbyspiritualfearandphysicalsuffering,sometimesasnotbeingamenabletolawsthatgoverntheLiving。Indeed,IcouldnotmakeupmymindwhetherI
lookedonherasalivinghumanbeingorasonewithsomestrangeexistenceinanotherworld,andhavingonlyachancefootholdinourown。Insuchdoubtimaginationbegantowork,andthoughtsofevil,ofdanger,ofdoubt,evenoffear,begantocrowdonmewithsuchpersistenceandinsuchvariedformsthatIfoundmyinstinctofreticencegrowingintoasettledpurpose。ThevalueofthisinstinctiveprecautionwaspromptlyshownbyAuntJanet’sstateofmind,withconsequentrevelationofit。ShebecamefullofgloomyprognosticationsandwhatIthoughtweremorbidfears。ForthefirsttimeinmylifeIdiscoveredthatAuntJanethadnerves!Ihadlonghadasecretbeliefthatshewasgifted,tosomedegreeatanyrate,withSecondSight,whichquality,orwhateveritis,skilledinthepowersifnottheloreofsuperstition,managestokeepatstretchnotonlythemindofitsimmediatepathic,butofothersrelevanttoit。PerhapsthisnaturalqualityhadreceivedafreshimpetusfromthearrivalofsomecasesofherbookssentonbySirColin。Sheappearedtoreadandrereadtheseworks,whichwerechieflyonoccultsubjects,dayandnight,exceptwhenshewasimpartingtomechoiceexcerptsofthemostbalefulandfearsomekind。Indeed,beforeaweekwasoverIfoundmyselftobeanexpertinthehistoryofthecult,aswellasinitsmanifestations,whichlatterIhadbeenversedinforagoodmanyyears。
Theresultofallthiswasthatitsetmebrooding。Such,atleast,IgatheredwasthefactwhenAuntJanettookmetotaskforit。Shealwaysspeaksoutaccordingtoherconvictions,sothatherthinkingIbroodedwastomeaproofthatIdid;andafterapersonalexaminationIcame——reluctantly——totheconclusionthatshewasright,sofar,atanyrate,asmyouterconductwasconcerned。ThestateofmindIwasin,however,keptmefrommakinganyacknowledgmentofit——therealcauseofmykeepingsomuchtomyselfandofbeingsodistrait。AndsoIwenton,torturingmyselfasbeforewithintrospectivequestioning;andshe,withhermindsetonmyactions,andendeavouringtofindacauseforthem,continuedandexpoundedherbeliefsandfears。
Hernightlychatswithmewhenwewerealoneafterdinner——forIhadcometoavoidherquestioningatothertimes——keptmyimaginationathighpressure。Despitemyself,Icouldnotbutfindnewcauseforconcernintheperennialfountsofhersuperstition。Ihadthought,yearsago,thatIhadthensoundedthedepthsofthisbranchofpsychicism;butthisnewphaseofthought,foundedonthereallydeepholdwhichtheexistenceofmybeautifulvisitorandhersadanddreadfulcircumstanceshadtakenuponme,broughtmeanewconcerninthematterofself—importance。IcametothinkthatImustreconstructmyself—values,andbeginafreshunderstandingofethicalbeliefs。DowhatIwould,mymindwouldkeepturningontheuncannysubjectsbroughtbeforeit。Ibegantoapplythemonebyonetomyownlateexperience,andunconsciouslytotrytofittheminturntothepresentcase。
TheeffectofthisbroodingwasthatIwas,despitemyownwill,struckbythesimilarityofcircumstancesbearingonmyvisitor,andtheconditionsapportionedbytraditionandsuperstitiontosuchstrangesurvivalsfromearlieragesasthesepartialexistenceswhichareratherUndeadthanLiving——stillwalkingtheearth,thoughclaimedbytheworldoftheDead。AmongstthemaretheVampire,ortheWehr—Wolf。TothisclassalsomightbelonginameasuretheDoppelganger——oneofwhosedualexistencescommonlybelongstotheactualworldaroundit。So,too,thedenizensoftheworldofAstralism。Inanyofthesenamedworldsthereisamaterialpresence——whichmustbecreated,ifonlyforasingleorperiodicpurpose。Itmattersnotwhetheramaterialpresencealreadycreatedcanbereceptiveofadisembodiedsoul,orasoulunattachedcanhaveabodybuiltupforitoraroundit;or,again,whetherthebodyofadeadpersoncanbemadeseemingquickthroughsomediabolicinfluencemanifestedinthepresent,oraninheritanceorresultofsomebalefuluseofmaleficpowerinthepast。Theresultisthesameineachcase,thoughthewaysbewidelydifferent:asoulandabodywhicharenotinunitybutbroughttogetherforstrangepurposesthroughstrangermeansandbypowersstillmorestrange。
Throughmuchthoughtandaprocessofexclusionstheeerieformwhichseemedtobemostincorrespondencewithmyadventure,andmostsuitabletomyfascinatingvisitor,appearedtobetheVampire。
Doppelganger,Astralcreations,andallsuch—like,didnotcomplywiththeconditionsofmynightexperience。TheWehr—WolfisbutavariantoftheVampire,andsoneedednottobeclassedorexaminedatall。Thenitwasthat,thusfocussed,theLadyoftheShroud(forsoIcametoholdherinmymind)begantoassumeanewforce。AuntJanet’slibraryaffordedmeclueswhichIfollowedwithavidity。InmysecretheartIhatedthequest,anddidnotwishtogoonwithit。
ButinthisIwasnotmyownmaster。DowhatIwould——brushawaydoubtsneversooften,newdoubtsandimaginingscameintheirstead。
ThecircumstancealmostrepeatedtheparableoftheSevenDevilswhotooktheplaceoftheexorcisedone。DoubtsIcouldstand。
ImaginingsIcouldstand。ButdoubtsandimaginingstogethermadeaforcesofellthatIwasdriventoacceptanyreadingofthemysterywhichmightpresumablyaffordafootholdforsatisfyingthought。AndsoIcametoaccepttentativelytheVampiretheory——acceptit,atleast,sofarastoexamineitasjudiciallyaswasgivenmetodo。
Asthedaysworeon,sotheconvictiongrew。ThemoreIreadonthesubject,themoredirectlytheevidencespointedtowardsthisview。
ThemoreIthought,themoreobstinatebecametheconviction。I
ransackedAuntJanet’svolumesagainandagaintofindanythingtothecontrary;butinvain。Again,nomatterhowobstinateweremyconvictionsatanygiventime,unsettlementcamewithfreshthinkingovertheargument,sothatIwaskeptinaharassingstateofuncertainty。
Briefly,theevidenceinfavourofaccordbetweenthefactsofthecaseandtheVampiretheorywere:
Hercomingwasatnight——thetimetheVampireisaccordingtothetheory,freetomoveatwill。
Sheworehershroud——anecessityofcomingfreshfromgraveortomb;
forthereisnothingoccultaboutclothingwhichisnotsubjecttoastralorotherinfluences。
Shehadtobehelpedintomyroom——instrictaccordancewithwhatonescepticalcriticofoccultismhascalled\"theVampireetiquette。\"
Shemadeviolenthasteingettingawayatcock—crow。
Sheseemedpreternaturallycold;hersleepwasalmostabnormalinintensity,andyetthesoundofthecock—crowingcamethroughit。
ThesethingsshowedhertobesubjecttoSOMElaws,thoughnotinexactaccordwithinthosewhichgovernhumanbeings。Underthestressofsuchcircumstancesasshemusthavegonethrough,hervitalityseemedmorethanhuman——thequalityofvitalitywhichcouldoutliveordinaryburial。Again,suchpurposeasshehadshownindonning,understressofsomecompellingdirection,herice—coldwetshroud,and,wraptinit,goingoutagainintothenight,washardlynormalforawoman。
Butifso,andifshewasindeedaVampire,mightnotwhateveritmaybethatholdssuchbeingsinthrallbebysomemeansorotherexorcised?Tofindthemeansmustbemynexttask。Iamactuallypiningtoseeheragain。NeverbeforehaveIbeenstirredtomydepthsbyanyone。ComeitfromHeavenorHell,fromtheEarthortheGrave,itdoesnotmatter;Ishallmakeitmytasktowinherbacktolifeandpeace。IfshebeindeedaVampire,thetaskmaybehardandlong;ifshebenotso,andifitbemerelythatcircumstanceshavesogatheredroundherastoproducethatimpression,thetaskmaybesimplerandtheresultmoresweet。No,notmoresweet;forwhatcanbemoresweetthantorestorethelostorseeminglylostsoulofthewomanyoulove!There,thetruthisoutatlast!IsupposethatI
havefalleninlovewithher。Ifso,itistoolateformetofightagainstit。IcanonlywaitwithwhatpatienceIcantillIseeheragain。ButtothatendIcandonothing。Iknowabsolutelynothingabouther——notevenhername。Patience!