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  \"Easyforhim,\"mutteredPeterbitterly。\"Alwaysdoeshaveanappointmentoutsidethemomentshebegins。\"

  Tommyappearedtobethrowingherverysoulintotheperformance。

  Passers—byinCraneCourtpaused,regardedthefirst—floorwindowsofthepublishingandeditorialofficesofGoodHumourwithtroubledlooks,thenhurriedon。

  \"Shehas——remarkablyfirmdouch!\"shoutedthedoctorintoPeter’sear。\"Willseeyou——evening。Someting——saytoyou。\"

  Thefatlittledoctortookhishatanddeparted。Tommy,ceasingsuddenly,cameoverandseatedherselfonthearmofPeter’schair。

  \"Feelinggrumpy?\"askedTommy。

  \"Itisn’t,\"explainedPeter,\"thatImindthenoise。I’dputupwiththatifIcouldseethegoodofit。\"

  \"It’sgoingtohelpmetogetahusband,dad。Seemstomeanoddwayofdoingit;butBillysaysso,andBillyknowsallabouteverything。\"

  \"Ican’tunderstandyou,asensiblegirl,listeningtosuchnonsense,\"saidPeter。\"It’sthatthattroublesme。\"

  \"Dad,whereareyourwits?\"demandedTommy。\"Isn’tBillyactinglikeabrick?Why,hecouldgointoFleetStreettohalfadozenotherpapersandmakefivehundredayearasadvertising—agent——youknowhecould。Buthedoesn’t。Hestickstous。Ifmymakingmyselfridiculouswiththattinpottheypersuadedhimwasapianoisgoingtopleasehim,isn’titcommonsenseandsoundbusiness,tosaynothingofgoodnatureandgratitude,formetodoit?Dad,I’vegotasurpriseforhim。Listen。\"AndTommy,springingfromthearmofPeter’schair,returnedtothepiano。

  \"Whatwasit?\"questionedTommy,havingfinished。\"Couldyourecogniseit?\"

  \"Ithink,\"saidPeter,\"itsoundedlike——Itwasn’t’Home,SweetHome,’wasit?\"

  Tommyclappedherhands。\"Yes,itwas。You’llendbylikingityourself,dad。We’llhavemusical’AtHomes。’\"

  \"Tommy,haveIbroughtyouupproperly,doyouthink?\"

  \"Nodad,youhaven’t。Youhaveletmehavemyownwaytoomuch。

  Youknowtheproverb:’Goodmothersmakebaddaughters。’Clodd’sright;you’vespoiltme,dad。Doyouremember,dad,whenIfirstcametoyou,sevenyearsago,araggedlittlebratoutofthestreets,thatdidn’tknowitselfwhether’twasaboyoragirl?DoyouknowwhatIthoughttomyselfthemomentIseteyesonyou?

  ’Here’sasoftoldjuggins;I’llbeallrightifIcangetinhere!’Itmakesyousmart,knockingaboutintheguttersandbeingknockedabout;youreadfacesquickly。\"

  \"Doyourememberyourcooking,Tommy?You’hadanaptitudeforit,’accordingtoyourownidea。\"

  Tommylaughed。\"Iwonderhowyoustoodit。\"

  \"Youweresoobstinate。Youcametomeas’cookandhousekeeper,’

  andascookandhousekeeper,andasnothingelse,wouldyouremain。

  IfIsuggestedanychange,upwouldgoyourchinintotheair。I

  darednotevendineouttoooften,youweresuchalittletyrant。

  Theonlythingyouwerealwaysreadytodo,ifIwasn’tsatisfied,wastomarchoutofthehouseandleaveme。Whereverdidyougetthatsavageindependenceofyours?\"

  \"Idon’tknow。Ithinkitmusthavebeenfromawoman——perhapsshewasmymother;Idon’tknow——whousedtositupinthebedandcough,allnightitseemedtome。Peoplewouldcometoseeus——

  ladiesinfineclothes,andgentlemenwithoilyhair。Ithinktheywantedtohelpus。Manyofthemhadkindvoices。Butalwaysahardlookwouldcomeintoherface,andshewouldtellthemwhateventhenIknewtobeuntrue——itwasoneofthefirstthingsIcanrecollect——thatwehadeverythingwewanted,thatweneedednohelpfromanyone。Theywouldgoaway,shruggingtheirshoulders。I

  grewupwiththefeelingthatseemedtohavebeenburntintomybrain,thattotakefromanybodyanythingyouhadnotearnedwasshameful。Idon’tthinkIcoulddoitevennow,notevenfromyou。

  Iamusefultoyou,dad——Idohelpyou?\"

  TherehadcreptaterrorintoTommy’svoice。Peterfeltthelittlehandsuponhisarmtrembling。

  \"Helpme?Why,youworklikeanigger——likeaniggerissupposedtowork,butdoesn’t。Noone——whateverwepaidhim——woulddohalfasmuch。Idon’twanttomakeyourheadmoreswollenthanitis,youngwoman,butyouhavetalent;Iamnotsureitisnotgenius。\"

  Peterfeltthelittlehandstightenuponhisarm。

  \"Idowantthispapertobeasuccess;thatiswhyIstrumuponthepianotopleaseClodd。Isithumbug?\"

  \"Iamafraiditis;buthumbugisthesweetoilthathelpsthiswhirlingworldofourstospinroundsmoothly。Toomuchofitcloys:wedropitverygently。\"

  \"Butyouaresureitisonlyhumbug,Tommy?\"ItwasPeter’svoiceintowhichfearhadenterednow。\"ItisnotthatyouthinkheunderstandsyoubetterthanIdo——woulddomoreforyou?\"

  \"YouwantmetotellyouallIthinkofyou,andthatisn’tgoodforyou,dad——nottoooften。Itwouldbeyouwhowouldhaveswelledheadthen。\"

  \"Iamjealous,Tommy,jealousofeveryonethatcomesnearyou。

  Lifeisatragedyforusoldfolks。Weknowtheremustcomeadaywhenyouwillleavethenest,leaveusvoiceless,ridiculous,flittingamongbarebranches。Youwillunderstandlater,whenyouhavechildrenofyourown。Thisfoolishtalkaboutahusband!Itisworseforamanthanitisforthewoman。Themotherlivesagaininherchild:themanisrobbedofall。\"

  \"Dad,doyouknowhowoldIam?——thatyouaretalkingterriblenonsense?\"

  \"Hewillcome,littlegirl。\"

  \"Yes,\"answeredTommy,\"Isupposehewill;butnotforalongwhile——oh,notforaverylongwhile。Don’t。Itfrightensme。\"

  \"You?Whyshoulditfrightenyou?\"

  \"Thepain。Itmakesmefeelacoward。Iwantittocome;Iwanttotastelife,todrainthewholecup,tounderstand,tofeel。Butthatistheboyinme。Iammorethanhalfaboy,Ialwayshavebeen。Butthewomaninme:itshrinksfromtheordeal。\"

  \"Youtalk,Tommy,asifloveweresomethingterrible。\"

  \"Thereareallthingsinit;Ifeelit,dad。Itislifeinasingledraught。Itfrightensme。\"

  Thechildwasstandingwithherfacehiddenbehindherhands。OldPeter,alwaysverybadatlying,stoodsilent,notknowingwhatconsolationtoconcoct。Theshadowpassed,andTommy’slaughingeyeslookedoutagain。

  \"Haven’tyouanythingtodo,dad——outside,Imean?\"

  \"Youwanttogetridofme?\"

  \"Well,I’venothingelsetooccupymetilltheproofscomein。I’mgoingtopractise,hard。\"

  \"IthinkI’llturnovermyarticleontheEmbankment,\"saidPeter。

  \"There’sonethingyouallofyououghttobegratefultomefor,\"

  laughedTommy,assheseatedherselfatthepiano。\"Idoinduceyoualltotakemorefreshairthanotherwiseyouwould。\"

  Tommy,leftalone,setherselftohertaskwiththeenergyandthoroughnessthatwerecharacteristicofher。Strugglingwithcomplicatedscales,TommybenthereyescloserandcloseroverthepagesofCzerny’sExercises。Glancinguptoturnapage,Tommy,tohersurprise,mettheeyesofastranger。Theywerebrowneyes,theirexpressionsympathetic。Belowthem,lookinggoldenwiththesunlightfallingonit,wasamoustacheandbeardcutshortinVandykefashion,notaltogetherhidingapleasantmouth,aboutthecornersofwhichlurkedasmile。

  \"Ibegyourpardon,\"saidthestranger。\"Iknockedthreetimes。

  Perhapsyoudidnothearme?\"

  \"No,Ididn’t,\"confessedTommy,closingthebookofCzerny’sExercises,andrisingwithchinatananglethat,toanyoneacquaintedwiththechartofTommy’stemperament,mighthavesuggestedtheadvisabilityofseekingshelter。

  \"ThisistheeditorialofficeofGoodHumour,isitnot?\"inquiredthestranger。

  \"Itis。\"

  \"Istheeditorin?\"

  \"Theeditorisout。\"

  \"Thesub—editor?\"suggestedthestranger。

  \"Iamthesub—editor。\"

  Thestrangerraisedhiseyebrows。Tommy,onthecontrary,loweredhers。

  \"Wouldyoumindglancingthroughthat?\"Thestrangerdrewfromhispocketafoldedmanuscript。\"Itwillnottakeyouamoment。I

  ought,ofcourse,tohavesentitthroughthepost;butIamsotiredofsendingthingsthroughthepost。\"

  Thestranger’smannerwascompoundedofdignifiedimpudencecombinedwithpathetichumility。Hiseyesbothchallengedandpleaded。Tommyheldoutherhandforthepaperandretiredwithitbehindtheprotectionofthebigeditorialdeskthat,flankedononesidebyascreenandontheotherbyaformidablerevolvingbookcase,stretchedfortress—likeacrossthenarrowroom。Thestrangerremainedstanding。

  \"Yes。It’spretty,\"criticisedthesub—editor。\"Worthprinting,perhaps,notworthpayingfor。\"

  \"Notmerelya——anominalsum,sufficienttodistinguishitfromtheworkoftheamateur?\"

  Tommypursedherlips。\"Poetryisquiteadruginthemarket。Wecangetasmuchaswewantofitfornothing。\"

  \"Sayhalfacrown,\"suggestedthestranger。

  Tommyshotaswiftglanceacrossthedesk,andforthefirsttimesawthewholeofhim。Hewascladinathreadbare,long,brownulster——long,thatis,itwouldhavebeenuponanordinaryman,butthestrangerhappeningtoberemarkablytall,itappearedonhimridiculouslyshort,reachingonlytohisknees。Roundhisneckandtuckedintohiswaistcoat,thuscompletelyhidingtheshirtandcollarhemayhavebeenwearingormaynot,wascarefullyarrangedabluesilkmuffler。Hishands,whichwerebare,lookedblueandcold。Yettheblackfrock—coatandwaistcoatandFrenchgreytrousersboretheunmistakablecutofafirst—classtailorandfittedhimtoperfection。Hishat,whichhehadrestedonthedesk,shoneresplendent,andthehandleofhissilkumbrellawasaneagle’sheadingold,withtwosmallrubiesfortheeyes。

  \"Youcanleaveitifyoulike,\"consentedTommy。\"I’llspeaktotheeditoraboutitwhenhereturns。\"

  \"Youwon’tforgetit?\"urgedthestranger。

  \"No,\"answeredTommy。\"Ishallnotforgetit。\"

  Herblackeyeswerefixeduponthestrangerwithoutherbeingawareofit。Shehaddroppedunconsciouslyintoher\"stocktaking\"

  attitude。

  \"Thankyouverymuch,\"saidthestranger。\"Iwillcallagainto—

  morrow。\"

  Thestranger,movingbackwardtothedoor,wentout。

  Tommysatwithherfacebetweenherhands。Czerny’sExerciseslayneglected。

  \"Anybodycalled?\"askedPeterHope。

  \"No,\"answeredTommy。\"Oh,justaman。Leftthis——notbad。\"

  \"Theoldstory,\"musedPeter,asheunfoldedthemanuscript。\"Weallofusbeginwithpoetry。Thenwetaketoproseromances;

  poetrydoesn’tpay。Finally,wewritearticles:’HowtobeHappythoughMarried,’’WhatshallwedowithourDaughters?’Itislifesummarised。Whatisitallabout?\"

  \"Oh,theusualsortofthing,\"explainedTommy。\"Hewantshalfacrownforit。\"

  \"Poordevil!Lethimhaveit。\"

  \"That’snotbusiness,\"growledTommy。

  \"Nobodywilleverknow,\"saidPeter。\"We’llenteritas’telegrams。’\"

  Thestrangercalledearlythenextday,pocketedhishalf—crown,andleftanothermanuscript——anessay。Alsoheleftbehindhimhisgold—handledumbrella,takingawaywithhiminsteadanoldalpacathingCloddkeptinreserveforexceptionallydirtyweather。Peterpronouncedtheessayusable。

  \"Hehasastyle,\"saidPeter;\"hewriteswithdistinction。Makeanappointmentformewithhim。\"

  Clodd,onmissinghisumbrella,wasindignant。

  \"What’sthegoodofthisthingtome?\"commentedClodd。\"Sortofthingforadudeinapantomime!Thefellowmustbeablitheringass!\"

  Tommygavetothestrangermessagesfrombothwhennexthecalled。

  Heappearedmoregrievedthansurprisedconcerningtheumbrellas。

  \"Youdon’tthinkMr。Cloddwouldliketokeepthisumbrellainexchangeforhisown?\"hesuggested。

  \"Hardlyhisstyle,\"explainedTommy。

  \"It’sverypeculiar,\"saidthestranger,withasmile。\"Ihavebeentryingtogetridofthisumbrellaforthelastthreeweeks。

  Onceuponatime,whenIpreferredtokeepmyownumbrella,peopleusedtotakeitbymistake,leavingallkindsofshabbythingsbehindtheminexchange。Now,whenI’dreallyliketogetquitofit,nobodywillhaveit。\"

  \"Whydoyouwanttogetridofit?\"askedTommy。\"Itlooksaverygoodumbrella。\"

  \"Youdon’tknowhowithampersme,\"saidthestranger。\"Ihavetoliveuptoit。Itrequiresacertainamountofresolutiontoenteracheaprestaurantaccompaniedbythatumbrella。WhenIdo,thewaitersdrawmyattentiontothemostexpensivedishesandrecommendmespecialbrandsoftheirso—calledchampagne。TheyseemquitesurprisedifIonlywantachopandaglassofbeer。I

  haven’talwaysgotthecouragetodisappointthem。Itisreallybecomingquiteacursetome。IfIuseittostopa’bus,threeorfourhansomsdashupandquarreloverme。Ican’tdoanythingI

  wanttodo。Iwanttolivesimplyandinexpensively:itwillnotletme。\"

  Tommylaughed。\"Can’tyouloseit?\"

  Thestrangerlaughedalso。\"Loseit!Youhavenoideahowhonestpeopleare。Ihadn’tmyself。Thewholeworldhasgoneupinmyestimationwithinthelastfewweeks。Peoplerunaftermeforquitelongdistancesandforceitintomyhand——peopleonrainydayswhohaven’tgotumbrellasoftheirown。Itisthesamewiththishat。\"Thestrangersighedashetookitup。\"IamalwaystryingtogetOFFwithsomethingreasonablyshabbyinexchangeforit。Iamalwaysfoundoutandstopped。\"

  \"Whydon’tyoupawnthem?\"suggestedthepracticableTommy。

  Thestrangerregardedherwithadmiration。

  \"Doyouknow,Ineverthoughtofthat,\"saidthestranger。\"Ofcourse。Whatagoodidea!Thankyousomuch。\"

  Thestrangerdeparted,evidentlymuchrelieved。

  \"Sillyfellow,\"musedTommy。\"Theywon’tgivehimaquarterofthevalue,andhewillsay:’Thankyousomuch,’andbequitecontented。\"ItworriedTommyagooddealthatday,thethoughtofthatstranger’shelplessness。

  Thestranger’snamewasRichardDanvers。HelivedtheothersideofHolborn,inFeatherstoneBuildings,butmuchofhistimecametobespentintheofficesofGoodHumour。

  Peterlikedhim。\"Fullofpromise,\"wasPeter’sopinion。\"Hiscriticismofthatarticleofmineon’TheEducationofWoman’

  showedbothsenseandfeeling。Ascholarandathinker。\"

  Flipp,theoffice—boy(speltPhilip),likedhim;andFlipp’sattitude,ingeneral,wascensorial。\"He’sallright,\"pronouncedFlipp;\"nothingstuck—upabouthim。He’sgotplentyofsense,lyinghiddenaway。\"

  MissRamsbothamlikedhim。\"Themen——themenwethinkaboutatall,\"explainedMissRamsbotham——\"maybedividedintotwoclasses:

  themenweoughttolike,butdon’t;andthementhereisnoparticularreasonforourliking,butthatwedo。PersonallyI

  couldgetveryfondofyourfriendDick。Thereisnothingwhateverattractiveabouthimexcepthimself。\"

  EvenTommylikedhiminherway,thoughattimesshewasseverewithhim。

  \"Ifyoumeanabigstreet,\"grumbledTommy,whowasgoingoverproofs,\"whynotsayabigstreet?Whymustyoualwayscallita’mainartery’?\"

  \"Iamsorry,\"apologisedDanvers。\"Itisnotmyownidea。Youtoldmetostudythehigher—classjournals。\"

  \"Ididn’ttellyoutoselectandfollowalltheirfaults。Hereitisagain。Yourcrowdisalwaysa’hydra—headedmonster’;yourtea’thecupthatcheersbutnotinebriates。’\"

  \"IamafraidIamadealoftroubletoyou,\"suggestedthestaff。

  \"Iamafraidyouare,\"agreedthesub—editor。

  \"Don’tgivemeup,\"pleadedthestaff。\"Imisunderstoodyou,thatisall。IwillwriteEnglishforthefuture。\"

  \"Shallbegladifyouwill,\"growledthesub—editor。

  DickDanversrose。\"Iamsoanxiousnottogetwhatyoucall’thesack’fromhere。\"

  Thesub—editor,mollified,thoughtthestaffneedbeundernoapprehension,provideditshoweditselfteachable。

  \"Ihavebeenratheraworthlessfellow,MissHope,\"confessedDickDanvers。\"IwasbeginningtodespairofmyselftillIcameacrossyouandyourfather。Theatmospherehere——Idon’tmeanthematerialatmosphereofCraneCourt——issoinvigorating:itssimplicity,itssincerity。Iusedtohaveideals。Itriedtostiflethem。Thereisasetthatsneersatallthatsortofthing。

  NowIseethattheyaregood。Youwillhelpme?\"

  Everywomanisamother。Tommyfeltforthemomentthatshewantedtotakethisbigboyonherkneeandtalktohimforhisgood。Hewasonlyanovergrownlad。Butsoexceedinglyovergrown!Tommyhadtocontentherselfwithholdingoutherhand。DickDanversgraspedittightly。

  Cloddwastheonlyonewhodidnotapproveofhim。

  \"Howdidyougetholdofhim?\"askedCloddoneafternoon,heandPeteraloneintheoffice。

  \"Hecame。Hecameintheusualway,\"explainedPeter。

  \"Whatdoyouknowabouthim?\"

  \"Nothing。Whatistheretoknow?Onedoesn’taskforacharacterwithajournalist。\"

  \"No,Isupposethatwouldn’twork。Foundoutanythingabouthimsince?\"

  \"Nothingagainsthim。Whysosuspiciousofeverybody?\"

  \"Becauseyouarejustawoollylambandwantadogtolookafteryou。Whoishe?Onafirstnighthegivesawayhisstallandsneaksintothepit。Whenyousendhimtoapicture—gallery,hedodgestheprivateviewandgoesonthefirstshillingday。Ifaninvitationcomestoapublicdinner,heasksmetogoandeatitforhimandtellhimwhatit’sallabout。Thatdoesn’tsuggestthefrankandhonestjournalist,doesit?\"

  \"Itisunusual,itcertainlyisunusual,\"Peterwasboundtoadmit。

  \"Idistrusttheman,\"saidClodd。\"He’snotourclass。Whatishedoinghere?\"

  \"Iwillaskhim,Clodd;Iwillaskhimstraightout。\"

  \"Andbelievewhateverhetellsyou。\"

  \"No,Ishan’t。\"

  \"Thenwhat’sthegoodofaskinghim?\"

  \"Well,whatamItodo?\"demandedthebewilderedPeter。

  \"Getridofhim,\"suggestedClodd。

  \"Getridofhim?\"

  \"Gethimaway!Don’thavehiminandoutoftheofficealldaylong—lookingatherwiththosecollie—dogeyesofhis,arguingartandpoetrywithherinthatcushat—dovevoiceofhis。Gethimcleanaway——ifitisn’ttoolatealready。\"

  \"Nonsense,\"saidPeter,whohadturnedwhite,however。\"She’snotthatsortofgirl。\"

  \"Notthatsortofgirl!\"CloddhadnopatiencewithPeterHope,andtoldhimso。\"Whyarethereneverinkstainsonherfingersnow?Thereusedtobe。Whydoesshealwayskeepalemoninherdrawer?Whendidshelasthaveherhaircut?I’lltellyouifyoucaretoknow——theweekbeforehecame,fivemonthsago。Sheusedtohaveitcutonceafortnight:saidittickledherneck。WhydoesshejumponpeoplewhentheycallherTommyandtellthemthathernameisJane?ItneverusedtobeJane。Maybewhenyou’reabitolderyou’llbegintonoticethingsforyourself。\"

  Cloddjammedhishatonhisheadandflunghimselfdownthestairs。

  Peter,slippingoutaminutelater,boughthimselfanounceofsnuff。

  \"Fiddle—de—dee!\"saidPeterashehelpedhimselftohisthirteenthpinch。\"Don’tbelieveit。I’llsoundher。Ishan’tsayaword——

  I’lljustsoundher。\"

  Peterstoodwithhisbacktothefire。Tommysatatherdesk,correctingproofsofafancifulstory:TheManWithoutaPast。

  \"Ishallmisshim,\"saidPeter;\"IknowIshall。\"

  \"Misswhom?\"demandedTommy。

  \"Danvers,\"sighedPeter。\"Italwayshappensso。Yougetfriendlywithaman;thenhegoesaway——abroad,backtoAmerica,Lordknowswhere。Youneverseehimagain。\"

  Tommylookedup。Therewastroubleinherface。

  \"Howdoyouspell’harassed’?\"questionedTommy!\"twor’sorone。\"

  \"Oner,\"Peterinformedher,\"twos’s。\"

  \"Ithoughtso。\"ThetroublepassedfromTommy’sface。

  \"Youdon’taskwhenhe’sgoing,youdon’taskwherehe’sgoing,\"

  complainedPeter。\"Youdon’tseemtobeinterestedintheleast。\"

  \"Iwasgoingtoask,sosoonasIhadfinishedcorrectingthissheet,\"explainedTommy。\"Whatreasondoeshegive?\"

  Peterhadcrossedoverandwasstandingwherehecouldseeherfaceilluminedbythelamplight。

  \"Itdoesn’tupsetyou——thethoughtofhisgoingaway,ofyourneverseeinghimagain?\"

  \"Whyshouldit?\"Tommyansweredhissearchinggazewithaslightlypuzzledlook。\"Ofcourse,I’msorry。Hewasbecominguseful。Butwecouldn’texpecthimtostopwithusalways,couldwe?\"

  Peter,rubbinghishands,brokeintoachuckle。\"Itoldhim’twasallfiddlesticks。Clodd,hewouldhaveityouweregrowingtocareforthefellow。\"

  \"ForDickDanvers?\"Tommylaughed。\"Whateverputthatintohishead?\"

  \"Oh,well,therewereoneortwolittlethingsthatwehadnoticed。\"

  \"We?\"

  \"ImeanthatCloddhadnoticed。\"

  I’mgladitwasCloddthatnoticedthem,notyou,dad,thoughtTommytoherself。They’dhavebeenprettyobviousifyouhadnoticedthem。

  \"Itnaturallymademeanxious,\"confessedPeter。\"Yousee,weknowabsolutelynothingofthefellow。\"

  \"Absolutelynothing,\"agreedTommy。

  \"Hemaybeamanofthehighestintegrity。Personally,Ithinkheis。Ilikehim。Ontheotherhand,hemaybeathorough—pacedscoundrel。Idon’tbelieveforamomentthatheis,buthemaybe。

  Impossibletosay。\"

  \"Quiteimpossible,\"agreedTommy。

  \"Consideredmerelyasajournalist,itdoesn’tmatter。Hewriteswell。Hehasbrains。There’sanendofit。\"

  \"Heisverypainstaking,\"agreedTommy。

  \"Personally,\"addedPeter,\"Ilikethefellow。\"Tommyhadreturnedtoherwork。

  OfwhatusewasPeterinacrisisofthiskind?Petercouldn’tscold。Petercouldn’tbully。TheonlypersontotalktoTommyasTommyknewsheneededtobetalkedtowasoneJane,ayoungwomanofdignitywithsenseoftheproprieties。

  \"Idohopethatatleastyouarefeelingashamedofyourself,\"

  remarkedJanetoTommythatsamenight,asthetwainsattogetherintheirlittlebedroom。

  \"Donenothingtobeashamedof,\"growledTommy。

  \"Makingafoolofyourselfopenly,foreverybodytonotice。\"

  \"Cloddain’teverybody。He’sgoteyesatthebackofhishead。

  Seesthingsbeforetheyhappen。\"

  \"Where’syourwoman’spride:fallinginlovewithamanwhohasneverspokentoyou,exceptintermsofthemostordinarycourtesy。\"

  \"I’mnotinlovewithhim。\"

  \"Amanaboutwhomyouknowabsolutelynothing。\"

  \"Notinlovewithhim。\"

  \"Wheredoeshecomefrom?Whoishe?\"

  \"Idon’tknow,don’tcare;nothingtodowithme。\"

  \"Justbecauseofhissofteyes,andhiswheedlingvoice,andthathalf—caressing,half—devotionalmannerofhis。Doyouimaginehekeepsitspeciallyforyou?Igaveyoucreditformoresense。\"

  \"I’mnotinlovewithhim,Itellyou。He’sdownonhisluck,andI’msorryforhim,that’sall。\"

  \"Andifheis,whosefaultwasit,doyouthink?\"

  \"Itdoesn’tmatter。Wearenoneofussaints。He’stryingtopullhimselftogether,andIrespecthimforit。It’sourdutytobecharitableandkindtooneanotherinthisworld!\"

  \"Oh,well,I’lltellyouhowyoucanbekindtohim:bypointingouttohimthatheiswastinghistime。Withhistalents,nowthatheknowshisbusiness,hecouldbeonthestaffofsomebigpaper,earningagoodincome。Putitnicelytohim,butbefirm。Insistonhisgoing。Thatwillbeshowingtruekindnesstohim——andtoyourself,too,I’mthinking,mydear。\"

  AndTommyunderstoodandappreciatedthesoundgoodsenseunderlyingJane’sadvice,andtheverynextdaybutone,seizingthefirstopportunity,acteduponit;andallwouldhavegoneascontemplatedifonlyDickDanvershadsatstillandlistened,asithadbeenarrangedinTommy’sprogrammethatheshould。

  \"ButIdon’twanttogo,\"saidDick。

  \"Butyououghttowanttogo。Stayingherewithusyouaredoingyourselfnogood。\"

  Heroseandcametowhereshestoodwithonefootuponthefender,lookingdownintothefire。Hisdoingthisdisconcertedher。Solongasheremainedseatedattheotherendoftheroom,shewasthesub—editor,counsellingthestaffforitsowngood。Nowthatshecouldnotraisehereyeswithoutencounteringhis,shefeltpainfullyconsciousofbeingnothingmoreimportantthanalittlewomanwhowastrembling。

  \"Itisdoingmeallthegoodintheworld,\"hetoldher,\"beingneartoyou。\"

  \"Oh,pleasedositdownagain,\"sheurgedhim。\"Icantalktoyousomuchbetterwhenyou’resittingdown。\"

  Buthewouldnotdoanythingheshouldhavedonethatday。Insteadhetookherhandsinhis,andwouldnotletthemgo;andthereasonandthewillwentoutofher,leavingherhelpless。

  \"Letmebewithyoualways,\"hepleaded。\"Itmeansthedifferencebetweenlightanddarknesstome。Youhavedonesomuchforme。

  Willyounotfinishyourwork?Willyounottrustme?Itisnohotpassionthatcanpassaway,myloveforyou。Itspringsfromallthatisbestinme——fromthepartofmethatiswholesomeandjoyousandstrong,thepartofmethatbelongstoyou。\"

  Releasingher,heturnedaway。

  \"Theotherpartofme——theblackguard——itisdead,dear,——deadandburied。IdidnotknowIwasablackguard,Ithoughtmyselfafinefellow,tillonedayitcamehometome。SuddenlyIsawmyselfasIreallywas。AndthesightofthethingfrightenedmeandIranawayfromit。IsaidtomyselfIwouldbeginlifeafresh,inanewcountry,freeofeverytiethatcouldbindmetothepast。Itwouldmeanpoverty——privation,maybe,inthebeginning。Whatofthat?Thestrugglewouldbraceme。Itwouldbegoodsport。Ah,well,youcanguesstheresult:theawakeningtothecoldfacts,thereactionoffeeling。InwhatwaywasIworsethanothermen?

  WhowasI,toplaythepriginaworldwhereotherswerelaughinganddining?Ihadtrampedyourcitytillmybootswerewornintoholes。Ihadbuttoabandonmyquixoticideals——returntowhereshamelaywaitingforme,tobewelcomedwiththefattedcalf。ItwouldhaveendedsohadInotchancedtopassbyyourdoorthatafternoonandhearyoustrummingonthepiano。\"

  SoBillywasright,afterall,thoughtTommytoherself,thepianodoeshelp。

  \"Itwassoincongruous——apianoinCraneCourt——Ilookedtoseewherethenoisecamefrom。Ireadthenameofthepaperonthedoorpost。’Itwillbemylastchance,’Isaidtomyself。’Thisshalldecideit。’\"

  Hecamebacktoher。Shehadnotmoved。\"Iamnotafraidtotellyouallthis。Youaresobig—hearted,sohuman;youwillunderstand,youcanforgive。Itisallpast。Lovingyoutellsamanthathehasdonewithevil。Willyounottrustme?\"

  Sheputherhandsinhis。\"Iamtrustingyou,\"shesaid,\"withallmylife。Don’tmakeamuddleofit,dear,ifyoucanhelpit。\"

  Itwasanoddwooing,asTommylaughinglytoldherselfwhenshecametothinkitoverinherroomthatnight。Butthatishowitshapeditself。

  WhattroubledhermostwasthathehadnotbeenquitefrankwithPeter,sothatPeterhadtodefendheragainstherself。

  \"Iattackedyousosuddenly,\"explainedPeter,\"youhadnottimetothink。Youactedfrominstinct。Awomanseekstohideherloveevenfromherself。\"

  \"Iexpect,afterall,Iammoreofagirlthanaboy,\"fearedTommy:\"Iseemtohavesomanywomanishfailings。\"

  Petertookhimselfintoquiteplacesandtrainedhimselftofacethefactthatanotherwouldbemoretoherthanhehadeverbeen,andCloddwentabouthisworklikeabearwithasorehead;buttheyneitherofthemneedhavetroubledthemselvessomuch。Themarriagedidnottakeplacetillnearlyfifteenyearshadpassedaway,andmuchwaterhadtoflowbeneatholdLondonBridgebeforethatday。

  Thepastisnoteasilygotridof。Atalewasoncewrittenofawomanwhokilledherbabeandburieditinalonelywood,andlaterstolebackinthenightandsawthere,whiteinthemoonlight,achild’shandcallingthroughtheearth,andburieditagainandyetagain;butalwaysthatwhitebabyhandcalledupwardsthroughtheearth,trampleitdownasshewould。Tommyreadthestoryoneeveninginanoldmiscellany,andsatlongbeforethedeadfire,thebookopenonherlap,andshivered;fornowsheknewthefearthathadbeenhauntingher。

  Tommylivedexpectingher。ShecameonenightwhenTommywasalone,workinglateintheoffice。Tommyknewherthemomentsheenteredthedoor,ahandsomewoman,withsnake—like,rustlingskirts。Sheclosedthedoorbehindher,anddrawingforwardachair,seatedherselftheothersideofthedesk,andthetwolookedlongandanxiouslyatoneanother。

  \"TheytoldmeIshouldfindyouherealone,\"saidthewoman。\"Itisbetter,isitnot?\"

  \"Yes,\"saidTommy,\"itisbetter。\"

  \"Tellme,\"saidthewoman,\"areyouverymuchinlovewithhim?\"

  \"WhyshouldItellyou?\"

  \"Because,ifnot——ifyouhavemerelyacceptedhimthinkinghimagoodcatch——whichheisn’t,mydear;hasn’tapennytoblesshimselfwith,andneverwillifhemarriesyou——why,thenthematterissoonsettled。Theytellmeyouareabusiness—likeyounglady,andIampreparedtomakeabusiness—likeproposition。\"

  Therewasnoanswer。Thewomanshruggedhershoulders。

  \"If,ontheotherhand,youarethatabsurdcreature,ayounggirlinlove——why,then,Isupposeweshallhavetofightforhim。\"

  \"Itwouldbemoresporting,woulditnot?\"suggestedTommy。

  \"Letmeexplainbeforeyoudecide,\"continuedthewoman。\"DickDanversleftmesixmonthsago,andhaskeptfrommeeversince,becausehelovedme。\"

  \"Itsoundsacuriousreason。\"

  \"IwasamarriedwomanwhenDickDanversandIfirstmet。Sinceheleftme——formysakeandhisown——Ihavereceivedinformationofmyhusband’sdeath。\"

  \"AnddoesDick——doesheknow?\"askedthegirl。

  \"Notyet。Ihaveonlylatelylearntthenewsmyself。\"

  \"Thenifitisasyousay,whenheknowshewillgobacktoyou。\"

  \"Therearedifficultiesintheway。\"

  \"Whatdifficulties?\"

  \"Mydear,this。Totryandforgetme,hehasbeenmakinglovetoyou。Mendothesethings。Imerelyaskyoutoconvinceyourselfofthetruth。Goawayforsixmonths——disappearentirely。Leavehimfree——uninfluenced。Ifhelovesyou——ifitbenotmerelyasenseofhonourthatbindshim——youwillfindhimhereonyourreturn。Ifnot——ifintheintervalIhavesucceededinrunningoffwithhim,well,isnotthetwoorthreethousandpoundsIampreparedtoputintothispaperofyoursafairpriceforsuchalover?\"

  Tommyrosewithalaughofgenuineamusement。Shecouldneveraltogetherputasidehersenseofhumour,letFatecomewithwhatterrifyingfaceitwould。

  \"Youmayhavehimfornothing——ifheisthatman,\"thegirltoldher;\"heshallbefreetochoosebetweenus。\"

  \"Youmeanyouwillreleasehimfromhisengagement?\"

  \"ThatiswhatImean。\"

  \"Whynottakemyoffer?Youknowthemoneyisneeded。Itwillsaveyourfatheryearsofanxietyandstruggle。Goaway——travel,foracoupleofmonths,ifyou’reafraidofthesix。Writehimthatyoumustbealone,tothinkthingsover。\"

  Thegirlturneduponher。

  \"Andleaveyouafreefieldtolieandtrick?\"

  Thewoman,too,hadrisen。\"Doyouthinkhereallycaresforyou?

  Atthemomentyouinteresthim。Atnineteeneverywomanisamystery。Whenthemoodispast——anddoyouknowhowlongaman’smoodlasts,youpoorchit?Tillhehascaughtwhatheisrunningafter,andhastastedit——thenhewillthinknotofwhathehaswon,butofwhathehaslost:ofthesocietyfromwhichhehascuthimselfadrift;ofalltheoldpleasuresandpursuitshecannolongerenjoy;oftheluxuries——necessitiestoamanofhisstamp——

  thatmarriagewithyouhasdeprivedhimof。Thenyourfacewillbeaperpetualremindertohimofwhathehaspaidforit,andhewillcurseiteverytimeheseesit。\"

  \"Youdon’tknowhim,\"thegirlcried。\"Youknowjustapartofhim——thepartyouwouldknow。Alltherestofhimisagoodman,thatwouldratherhisself—respectthanalltheluxuriesyoumention——youincluded。\"

  \"Itseemstoresolveitselfintowhatmannerofmanheis,\"laughedthewoman。

  Thegirllookedatherwatch。\"Hewillbehereshortly;heshalltellushimself。\"

  \"Howdoyoumean?\"

  \"Thathere,betweenthetwoofus,heshalldecide——thisverynight。\"Sheshowedherwhitefacetothewoman。\"DoyouthinkI

  couldlivethroughaseconddayliketothis?\"

  \"Thescenewouldberidiculous。\"

  \"Therewillbenoneheretoenjoythehumourofit。\"

  \"Hewillnotunderstand。\"

  \"Oh,yes,hewill,\"thegirllaughed。\"Come,youhavealltheadvantages;youarerich,youareclever;youbelongtohisclass。

  Ifheelectstostopwithme,itwillbebecauseheismyman——

  mine。Areyouafraid?\"

  Thewomanshivered。Shewrappedherfurcloakabouthercloserandsatdownagain,andTommyreturnedtoherproofs。Itwaspress—

  night,andtherewasmuchtobedone。

  Hecamealittlelater,thoughhowlongthetimemayhaveseemedtothetwowomenonecannotsay。Theyheardhisfootsteponthestair。Thewomanroseandwentforward,sothatwhenheopenedthedoorshewasthefirsthesaw。Buthemadenosign。Possiblyhehadbeenschoolinghimselfforthismoment,knowingthatsoonerorlateritmustcome。Thewomanheldoutherhandtohimwithasmile。

  \"Ihavenotthehonour,\"hesaid。

  Thesmilediedfromherface。\"Idonotunderstand,\"shesaid。

  \"Ihavenotthehonour,\"herepeated。\"Idonotknowyou。\"

  Thegirlwasleaningwithherbackagainstthedeskinasomewhatmannishattitude。Hestoodbetweenthem。ItwillalwaysremainLife’schiefcomicsuccess:themanbetweentwowomen。Thesituationhasamusedtheworldforsomanyyears。Yet,somehow,hecontrivedtomaintainacertaindignity。

  \"Maybe,\"hecontinued,\"youareconfoundingmewithaDickDanverswholivedinNewYorkuptoafewmonthsago。Iknewhimwell——aworthlessscampyouhaddonebetternevertohavemet。\"

  \"Youbearawonderfulresemblancetohim,\"laughedthewoman。

  \"Thepoorfoolisdead,\"heanswered。\"Andheleftforyou,mydearlady,thisdyingmessage:that,fromthebottomofhissoul,hewassorryforthewronghehaddoneyou。Heaskedyoutoforgivehim——andforgethim。\"

  \"Theyearappearstobeopeningunfortunatelyforme,\"saidthewoman。\"Firstmylover,thenmyhusband。\"

  Hehadnervedhimselftofighttheliving。Thiswasablowfromthedead。Themanhadbeenhisfriend。

  \"Dead?\"

  \"Hewaskilled,itappears,inthatlastexpeditioninJuly,\"

  answeredthewoman。\"IreceivedthenewsfromtheForeignOfficeonlyafortnightago。\"

  Anuglylookcameintohiseyes——thelookofacorneredcreaturefightingforitslife。\"Whyhaveyoufollowedmehere?WhydoI

  findyouherealonewithher?Whathaveyoutoldher?\"

  Thewomanshruggedhershoulders。\"Onlythetruth。\"

  \"Allthetruth?\"hedemanded——\"all?Ah!bejust。Tellheritwasnotallmyfault。Tellherallthetruth。\"

  \"Whatwouldyouhavemetellher?ThatIplayedPotiphar’swifetoyourJoseph?\"

  \"Ah,no!Thetruth——onlythetruth。ThatyouandIwereapairofidlefoolswiththedevildancingroundus。Thatweplayedafool’sgame,andthatitisover。\"

  \"Isitover?Dick,isitover?\"Sheflungherarmstowardshim;

  buthethrewherfromhimalmostbrutally。\"Themanisdead,I

  tellyou。Hisfollyandhissinliedeadwithhim。Ihavenothingtodowithyou,noryouwithme。\"

  \"Dick!\"shewhispered。\"Dick,cannotyouunderstand?Imustspeakwithyoualone。\"

  Buttheydidnotunderstand,neitherthemannorthechild。

  \"Dick,areyoureallydead?\"shecried。\"Haveyounopityforme?

  DoyouthinkthatIhavefollowedyouheretogrovelatyourfeetformerewhim?AmIactinglikeawomansaneandsound?Don’tyouseethatIammad,andwhyIammad?MustItellyoubeforeher?

  Dick——\"Shestaggeredtowardshim,andthefinecloakslippedfromhershoulders;andthenitwasthatTommychangedfromachildintoawoman,andraisedtheotherwomanfromthegroundwithcrooningwordsofencouragementsuchasmothersuse,andledhertotheinnerroom。\"Donotgo,\"shesaid,turningtoDick;\"Ishallbebackinafewminutes。\"

  HecrossedtooneofthewindowsagainstwhichbeattheCity’sroar,anditseemedtohimasthethrobofpassingfootstepsbeatingdownthroughthedarknesstowherehelayinhisgrave。

  Shere—entered,closingthedoorsoftlybehindher。\"Itistrue?\"

  sheasked。

  \"Itcanbe。Ihadnotthoughtofit。\"

  Theyspokeinlow,matter—of—facttones,aspeopledowhohavegrownwearyoftheirownemotions。

  \"Whendidhegoaway——herhusband?\"

  \"About——itisFebruarynow,isitnot?Abouteighteenmonthsago。\"

  \"Anddiedjusteightmonthsago。Ratherconveniently,poorfellow。\"

  \"Yes,I’mgladheisdead——poorLawrence。\"

  \"Whatistheshortesttimeinwhichamarriagecanbearranged?\"

  \"Idonotknow,\"heansweredlistlessly。\"Idonotintendtomarryher。\"

  \"Youwouldleavehertobearitalone?\"

  \"Itisnotasifshewereapoorwoman。Youcandoanythingwithmoney。\"

  \"Itwillnotmendreputation。Herpositioninsocietyiseverythingtothatclassofwoman。\"

  \"Mymarryinghernow,\"hepointedout,\"wouldnotsaveher。\"

  \"Practicallyspeakingitwould,\"thegirlpleaded。\"Theworlddoesnotgooutofitswaytofindoutthingsitdoesnotwanttoknow。

  Marryherasquietlyaspossibleandtravelforayearortwo。\"

  \"WhyshouldI?Ah!itiseasyenoughtocallamanacowardfordefendinghimselfagainstawoman。Whatishetodowhenheisfightingforhislife?Mendonotsinwithgoodwomen。\"

  \"Thereisthechildtobeconsidered,\"sheurged——\"yourchild。Yousee,dear,wealldowrongsometimes。Wemustnotletotherssufferforourfaultmore——morethanwecanhelp。\"

  Heturnedtoherforthefirsttime。\"Andyou?\"

  \"I?Oh,Ishallcryforalittlewhile,butlateronIshalllaugh,asoften。Lifeisnotalllove。Ihavemywork。\"

  Heknewherwellbythistime。Andalsoitcametohimthatitwouldbeafinerthingtobeworthyofherthaneventopossessher。

  Sohedidherbiddingandwentoutwiththeotherwoman。Tommywasgladitwaspress—night。Shewouldnotbeabletothinkforhourstocome,andthen,perhaps,shewouldbefeelingtootired。Workcanbeverykind。

  Werethisanartisticstory,here,ofcourse,onewouldwrite\"Finis。\"Butintheworkadayworldoneneverknowstheendingtillitcomes。Haditbeenotherwise,IdoubtIcouldhavefoundcouragetotellyouthisstoryofTommy。Itisnotalltrue——atleast,Idonotsupposeso。Onedriftsunconsciouslyalittlewayintodream—landwhenonesitsoneselfdowntorecallthehappeningsoflongago;whileFancy,withaslywink,whisperseverandagaintoMemory:\"Letmetellthisincident——picturethatscene:Icanmakeitsomuchmoreinterestingthanyouwould。\"ButTommy——howcanIputitwithoutsayingtoomuch:thereissomeoneIthinkofwhenIspeakofher?Torememberonlyherdearwounds,andnotthehealingofthem,wouldhavebeenatasktoopainful。Ilovetodwellontheirnextmeeting。Flipp,passinghimonthesteps,didnotknowhim,thetall,sunburntgentlemanwiththesweet,grave—

  facedlittlegirl。

  \"Seenthatfacesomewherebefore,\"musedFlipp,asatthecornerofBedfordStreetheclimbedintoahansom,\"seenitsomewhereonathinnerman。\"

  ForDickDanvers,thathedidnotrecogniseFlipp,therewasmoreexcuse。AveryoldyoungmanhadFlippbecomeatthirty。Flippnolongerenjoyedpopularjournalism。Heproducedit。

  Thegold—bounddoorkeeperfearedthemightyCloddwouldbeunabletoseesoinsignificantanatomasanunappointedstranger,butwouldletthecardofMr。RichardDanverspleadforitself。Tothegold—boundkeeper’ssurprisecamedownthemessagethatMr。Danverswastobeatonceshownup。

  \"Ithought,somehow,youwouldcometomefirst,\"saidtheportlyClodd,advancingwithout—stretchedhand。\"Andthisis——?\"

  \"Mylittlegirl,Honor。Wehavebeentravellingforthelastfewmonths。\"

  Cloddtookthegrave,smallfacebetweenhisbig,roughhands:

  \"Yes。Sheislikeyou。Butlooksasifsheweregoingtohavemoresense。Forgiveme,Iknewyourfathermydear,\"laughedClodd;\"whenhewasyounger。\"

  Theylittheircigarsandtalked。

  \"Well,notexactlydead;weamalgamatedit,\"winkedCloddinanswertoDanvers’inquiry。\"ItwasjustatrifleTOOhigh—class。

  Besides,theoldgentlemanwasnotgettingyounger。Ithurthimalittleatfirst。ButthencameTommy’sgreatsuccess,andthathasreconciledhimtoallthings。DotheyknowyouareinEngland?\"

  \"No,\"explainedDanvers;\"wearrivedonlylastnight。\"

  Cloddcalleddirectionsdownthespeaking—tube。

  \"Youwillfindhardlyanychangeinher。Onestillhastokeepone’seyeuponherchin。Shehasnotevenlostheroldhabitoftakingstockofpeople。Youremember。\"Cloddlaughed。

  Theytalkedalittlelonger,tilltherecameawhistle,andCloddputhiseartothetube。

  \"Ihavetoseeheronbusiness,\"saidClodd,rising;\"youmayaswellcomewithme。Theyarestillintheoldplace,GoughSquare。\"

  Tommywasout,butPeterwasexpectinghereveryminute。

  PeterdidnotknowDick,butwouldnotadmitit。Forgetfulnesswasasignofage,andPeterstillfeltyoung。

  \"Iknowyourfacequitewell,\"saidPeter;\"can’tputanametoit,that’sall。\"

  Cloddwhisperedittohim,togetherwithinformationbringinghistoryuptodate。Andthenlightfellupontheoldlinedface。

  HecametowardsDick,meaningtotakehimbybothhands,but,perhapsbecausehehadbecomesomewhatfeeble,heseemedgladwhentheyoungermanputhisarmsaroundhimandheldhimforamoment。

  Itwasun—English,andbothofthemfeltalittleashamedofthemselvesafterwards。

  \"Whatwewant,\"saidClodd,addressingPeter,\"wethree——you,I,andMissDanvers——isteaandcakes,withcreaminthem;andIknowashopwheretheysellthem。Wewillcallbackforyourfatherinhalfanhour。\"CloddexplainedtoMissDanvers;\"hehastotalkoveramatterofbusinesswithMissHope。\"

  \"Iknow,\"answeredthegrave—facedlittleperson。ShedrewDick’sfacedowntohersandkissedit。Andthenthethreewentouttogether,leavingDickstandingbythewindow。

  \"Couldn’twehidesomewheretillshecomes?\"suggestedMissDanvers。\"Iwanttoseeher。\"

  Sotheywaitedintheopendoorwayofanearprinting—housetillTommydroveup。BothPeterandCloddwatchedthechild’sfacewithsomeanxiety。Shenoddedgravelytoherselfthreetimes,thenslippedherhandintoPeter’s。

  Tommyopenedthedoorwithherlatchkeyandpassedin。

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