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  Jimmywentonquickly:——‘You’relikeapoll—parrot,likeascreechin’poll—parrot。’Donkinstoppedandcockedhisheadattentivelyononeside。Hisbigearsstoodour,transparentandveined,resemblingthethinwingsofabat。

  ‘Yuss?’hesaid,withhisbacktowardsJimmy。

  ‘Yes!Chatteroutallyouknow——like……likeadirtywhitecockatoo。’

  Donkinwaited。Hecouldheartheother’sbreathing,longandslow;thebreathingofamanwithahundredweightorsoonthebreast—bone。

  Thenheaskedcalmly:——‘WhatdoIknow?’

  ‘What?……WhatItellyou……notmuch。Whatdoyouwant……totalkaboutmyhealthso……’

  ‘Hit’sabloomin’himposyshun。Abloomin’,stinkin’,first—classhimposyshun——buthitdon’ttykemehin。Nothit。’

  Jimmykeptstill。Donkinputhishandsinhispockets,andinoneslouchingstridecameuptothebunk。

  ‘Italk——what’sthehodds。Theyhain’tmenhere——sheeptheyhare。Adrivenlotofsheep。I’oldyouhup……Vynot?

  you’rewellhoff。’

  ‘Iam……Idon’tsayanythingaboutthat……’

  ‘Well,Let’emseehit。Let’emlarnwhatamancando。Ihamaman。Iknowhallaboutyer……’Jimmythrewhimselffurtherawayonthepillow;theotherstretchedouthisskinnyneck,jerkedhisbirdfacedownathimasthoughpeckingattheeyes。‘I

  hamaman。I’veseenthehinsideofeverychokeyintheColonisrather’ngivehupmyrights……’

  ‘Youareajail—prop,’saidJimmyweakly。

  ‘Iham……an’proudofittoo。You!You’aven’tthebloomin’

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  nerve——soyouhinventedthis’eredodge……’Hepaused,thenwithmarkedafterthoughtaccentuatedslowly:——‘Yerain’tsick——hareyer?’

  ‘No,’saidJimmyfirmly。‘Beenoutofsortsnowandagainthisyear,’hemumbledwithasuddendropinhisvoice。

  Donkinclosedoneeye,amicableandconfidential。Hewhispered:

  ——‘Ye’avedoneitafore——aven’tchee?’Jimmysmiled——thenasifunabletoholdbackhelethimselfgo:——‘Lastship——yes。Iwasoutofsortsonthepassage。See?Itwaseasy。TheypaidmeoffinCalcutta,andtheskippermadenobonesaboutiteither……I

  gotmymoneyallright。Laidupfifty—eightdays!Thefools!OLord!Thefools!Paidrightoff。’Helaughedspasmodically。Donkinchummedgiggling。ThenJimmycoughedviolently。‘Iamaswellasever,’

  hesaid,assoonashecoulddrawbreath。

  Donkinmadeaderisivegesture。‘Incourse,’

  hesaidprofoundly,‘hanyonecanseethat。’——‘Theydon’t。’saidJimmy,gaspinglikeafish。————‘Theywouldswallowanyyarn,’affirmedDonkin。——‘Don’tyouletontoomuch,’admonishedJimmyinanexhaustedvoice。

  ——‘Yourlittlegyme?Eh?’commentedDonkinjovially。

  Thenwithsuddendisgust:‘Yerhallforyerself,s’longhasye’reright……’

  SochargedwithegoismJamesWaitpulledtheblanketuptohischinandlaystillforawhile。Hisheavylipsprotrudedinaneverlastingblackpout。‘Whyareyousohotonmakingtrouble?’

  heaskedwithoutmuchinterest。

  ‘Coshit’sabloomin’shayme。Wehareputhon……badfood,badpay……Iwanthustokickupabloomin’row;ablamed’owlingrowthatwouldmake’emremember!Knockingpeoplehabout……brainhus……hindeed!

  Ain’twemen?’Hisaltruisticindignationblazed。Thenhesaidcalmly;——‘I’vebeena—hairingofyerclothes’——

  ‘Allright,’saidJimmylanguidly,‘bringthemin。’——‘Giv’usthekeyofyourchest,I’llput’emawayforyer,’saidDonkinwithfriendlyeagerness。——‘Bring’emin,Iwillputthemawaymyself。’answeredJamesWaitwithseverity。Donkinlookeddown,muttering……‘Whatd’yousay?

  Whatd’yousay?’inquiredWaitanxiously,——‘Nothink。

  Thenight’sdry,let’em’angouttillthemorning,’saidDonkin,inastrangelytremblingvoice,asthoughrestraininglaughterorrage。

  Jimmyseemedsatisfied。——‘Givemealittlewaterforthenightinmymug——there,’hesaid。

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  Donkintookastrideoverthedoorstep。——‘Gitityerself,’

  herepliedinasurlytone。‘Youcandoit,hunlessyouharesick。’

  ——‘OfcourseIcandoit,’saidWait,‘only……’

  ——‘Well,then,doit。’saidDonkinviciously,‘ifyercanlookhafteryerclothes,yercanlookhafteryerself。’

  Hewentondeckwithoutalookback。

  Jimmyreachedoutforthemug。Notadrop。Heputitbackgentlywithafaintsigh——andclosedhiseyes。Hethought:——ThatlunaticBelfastwillbringmesomewaterifIask。Fool。Iamverythirsty……Itwasveryhotinthecabin,anditseemedtoturnslowlyround,detachitselffromtheship,andswingoutsmoothlyintoaluminousaridspacewhereablacksunshone,spinningveryfast。Aplacewithoutanywater!Nowater!

  ApolicemanwiththefaceofDonkindrankaglassofbeerbythesideofanemptywell,andflewawayflappingvigorously。Ashipwhosemastheadsprotrudedthroughtheskyandcouldnotbeseen,wasdischarginggrain,andthewindwhirledthedryhusksinspiralsalongthequayofadockwithnowaterinit。Hewhirledthedryhusksinspiralsalongwiththehusks——andmoredry。Heexpandedhishollowchest。Theairstreamedincarryingawayinitsrushalotofstrangethingsthatresembledhouses,trees,people,lamp—posts……Nomore!Therewasnomoreair——andhehadnotfinisheddrawinghislongbreath。Buthewasingaol!Theywerelockinghimup。Adoorslammed。Theyturnedthekeytwice,flungabucketofwateroverhim——Phoo!Whatfor?

  Heopenedhiseyes,thinkingthefallhadbeenveryheavyforanemptyman——empty——empty。Hewasinhiscabin。Ah!Allright!

  Hisfacewasstreamingwithperspiration,hisarmsheavierthanlead。Hesawthecookstandinginthedoorway,abrasskeyinonehandandabrighttinhook—potintheother。

  ‘Ihavebeenlockingupforthenight,’

  saidthecook,beamingbenevolently。‘Eight—bellsjustgone。

  Ibroughtyouapotofcoldteaforyournight’sdrinking,Jimmy。Isweeteneditwithsomewhitecabinsugar,too。Well——itwon’tbreaktheship。’

  Hecamein,hungthepotontheedgeofthebunk,askedperfunctorily,‘Howgoesit?’andsatdownonthebox。

  ——‘H’m,’gruntedWaitinhospitably。Thecookwipedhisfacewithadirtycottonrag,which,afterwards,hetiedaroundhisneck。——‘That’showthemPage84

  firemendoinsteamboats,’hesaidserenely,andmuchpleasedwithhimself。‘Myworkisasheavyastheirs——I’mthinking——andlongerhours。didyoueverseethemdownthestokehold?Likefiendstheylook——firing——firing——firing——downthere。’

  Hepointedhisforefingeratthedeck。Somegloomythoughtdarkenedhisshiningface,fleeting,liketheshadowofatravelingcloudoverthelightofapeacefulsea。Therelievedwatchtrampednoisilyforward,passinginabodyacrossthesheenofthedoorway。Someonecried,‘Goodnight!’BelfaststoppedforamomentandlookedinatJimmy,quiveringandspeechlessasifwithrepressedemotion。Hegavethecookaglancechargedwithdismalforeboding,andvanished。Thecookclearedhisthroat,Jimmystaredupwardsandkeptasstillasamaninhiding。

  Thenightwasclear,withagentlebreeze。Theshipheeledoveralittle,slippingquietlyoverasombreseatowardstheinaccessibleandfestalsplendorofablackhorizonpiercedbypointsofflickeringfire。AbovethemastheadstheresplendentcurveoftheMilkyWayspannedtheskylikeatriumphantarchofeternallight,thrownoverthedarkpathwayoftheearth。Ontheforecastleheadamanwhistledwithloudprecisionalivelyjig,whileanothercouldbeheardfaintly,shufflingandstampingintime。Therecamefromforwardaconfusedmurmurofvoices,laughter——snatchesofsong。Thecookshookhishead,glancedobliquelyatJimmy,andbegantomutter。‘Aye。Danceandsing。That’salltheythinkof。IamsurprisedtheProvidencedon’tgettired……Theyforgetthedaythat’ssuretocome……butyou……’

  Jimmydrankagulpoftea,hurriedly,asthoughhehadstolenit,andshrankunderhisblanket,edgingawaytowardsthebulkhead。

  Thecookgotup,closedthedoor,thensatdownagainandsaiddistinctly:

  ——

  ‘WheneverIpokemygalleyfireIthinkofyouchaps——swearing,stealing,lying,andworse——asiftherewasnosuchthingasanotherworld……Notbadfellows,either,inaway,’

  heconcededslowly;then,afterapauseofregretfulmusinghewentoninaresignedtone:——‘Well,well。theywillhaveahottimeofit。Hot!DidIsay?ThefurnacesofoneofthemWhiteStarboatsain’tnothingtoit。’Hekeptquietforawhile。Therewasagreatstirinhisbrain;anaddledvisionofbrightoutlines;anexcitingrowofrousingPage85

  songsandgroansofpain。Hesuffered,enjoyed,admired,approved。Hewasdelighted,frightened,exalted——likeonthatevening(theonlytimeinhislife——twenty—sevenyearsago;helovedtorecallthenumberofyears)whenasayoungmanhehad——throughkeepingbadcompany——becomeintoxicatedinanEast—endmusic—hall。Atideofsuddenfeelingswepthimcleanoutofhisbody。Hesoared。Hecontemplatedthesecretofthehereafter。

  Itcommendeditselftohim。Itwasexcellent;helovedit,himself,allhands,andJimmy。Hisheartoverflowedwithtendernesswithcomprehension,withthedesiretomeddle,withanxietyforthesoulofthatblackman,withtheprideofpossessedeternity,withthefeelingofmight。Snatchhimupinhisarmsandpitchhimrightintothemiddleofsalvation……theblacksoul——blacker——body——rot——Devil。No!Talk——strength——

  Samson……Therewasagreatdinasofcymbalsinhisears;heflashedthroughanecstaticjumbleofshiningfaces,lilies,prayer—books,unearthlyjoy,whiteshirts,goldharps,blackcoats,wings。Hesawflowinggarments,cleanshavedfaces,aseaoflight————alakeofpitch。Thereweresweetscents,asmellofsulphur——redtonguesofflamelickingawhitemist。

  Anawesomevoicethundered!……Itlastedthreeseconds。

  ‘Jimmy!’hecriedinaninspiredtone。

  Thenhehesitated。Asparkofhumanpityglimmeredyetthroughtheinfernalfogofhissupremeconceit。

  ‘What?’saidJamesWait,unwillingly。

  Therewasasilence。Heturnedhisheadjusttheleastbitandstoleacautiousglance。Thecook’slipsmovedinaudibly;hisfacewasrapthiseyesturnedup。Heseemedtobementallyimploringdeckbeams,thebrasshookofthelamp,twocockroaches。

  ‘Lookhere,’saidJamesWait,‘I

  wanttogotosleep。IthinkIcould。’

  ‘Thisisnotimeforsleep!’exclaimedthecook,veryloud。Hehadprayerfullydivestedhimselfofthelastvestigeofhishumanity。Hewasavoice——afleshlessandsublimething,asonthatmemorablenight——thenightwhenhewentovertheseatomakecoffeeforperishingsinners。‘Thisisnotimeforsleeping,’

  herepeatedwithexaltation。‘Ican’tsleep。’

  ‘Don’tcaredamn,’saidWait,withfactitiousenergy。‘Ican。goan’turnin。’

  ‘Swear……intheveryjaws!……Intheveryjaws!

  Don’tyouseethefire……don’tyoufeelit?Blind,chock—fullofsin!

  Icanseeitforyou。Ican’tbearit。Ihearthecalltosaveyou。Nightandday。Jimmyletmesaveyou!’Thewordsofentreatyandmenacebrokeoutofhiminaroaringtorrent。Thecockroachesranaway。Jimmyperspired,wrigglingstealthilyunderhisblanket。Thecookyelled……‘Yourdaysarenumbered!……’——‘Getoutofthis,’

  boomedWait,courageously。——‘Praywithme!……’——

  ‘Iwon’t!……’thelittlecabinwasashotasanoven。

  Itcontainedanimmensityoffearandpain;anatmosphereofshrieksandmoans;prayersvociferatedlikeblasphemiesandwhisperedcurses。Outside,themencalledbyCharley,whoinformedthemintonesofdelightthattherewasarowgoingoninJimmy’splace,pushedbeforethecloseddoor,toostartledtoopenit。Allhandswerethere。Thewatchbelowhadjumpedup,asked:——‘Whatisit?’Otherssaid:——‘Listen!’

  Themuffledscreamingwenton:——‘Onyourknees!Onyourknees!’

  ——Shutup!——‘Never!Youaredeliveredintomyhands……Yourlifehasbeensaved……Purpose……Mercy……Repent。’——‘Youareacrazyfool!……’——‘Accountofyou……you……Neversleepinthisworld,ifI……’——‘Leaveoff。’

  ——‘No!……stokehold……onlythink!……’Thenanimpassionedscreechingbabblewherewordspatteredlikehail。——‘No!’

  shoutedJim。——‘Yes。Youare!……Nohelp……Everybodysaysso。’——‘Youlie!’——‘Iseeyoudyingthisminnyt!……beforemyeyes……asgoodasdeadnow。’

  ——‘Help!’shoutedJimmy,piercingly。——‘Notinthisvalley……lookupwards,’howledtheother。——‘Goaway!Murder!Help!’clamouredJimmy。Hisvoicebroke。Thereweremoanings,lowmutters,afewsobs。

  ‘What’sthematternow?’saidaseldom—heardvoice。——‘Fallback,men!Fallback,there!’repeatedMr。Creightonsternly,pushingthrough——‘Here’stheoldman。’

  whisperedsome。——‘Thecook’sinthere,sir’exclaimedseveral,backingaway。Thedoorclatteredopen;abroadstreamoflight4

  dartedoutonwonderingfaces;awarmwhiffofvitiatedairpassed。Thetwomatestoweredheadandshouldersabovethespare,grey—headedmanwhostoodrevealedbetweenthem,inshabbyclothes,stiffandangularlikeasmallcarvedfigure,andwithathin,composedface。Thecookgotupfromknees。Jimmysathighinthebunk,claspinghisdrawn—upPage87

  legs。Thetasselofthebluenightcapalmostimperceptiblytrembledoverhisknees。Theygazedastonishedathislong,curvedback,whilethewhitecornerofoneeyegleamedblindlyatthem。Hewasafraidtoturnhishead,heshrankwithinhimself;andtherewasanaspectastoundingandanimal—likeintheperfectionofhisexpectantimmobility。Athingofinstinct——theunthinkingstillnessofascaredbrute。

  ‘Whatareyoudoinghere?’askedMr。

  Baker,sharply。——‘Myduty,’saidthecook,withardour。

  ——‘Your……what?’beganthemate。CaptainAllistountouchedhisarmlightly。——‘Iknowhiscaper,’hesaid,inalowvoice。‘Coomeoutofthat,Podmore,’

  heorderedaloud。

  Thecookwrunghishands,shookhisfistsabovehishead,andhisarmsdroppedasiftooheavy。Foramomenthestooddistractedandspeechless。——‘Never,’hestammered,‘I……he……I。’

  ——‘What——do——you——say?’pronouncedCaptainAllistoun。

  ‘Comeoutatonce——or……’——‘Iamgoing。’

  saidthecook,withahastyandsombreresignation。Hestrodeoverthedoorstepfirmly——hesitated——madeafewsteps。Theylookedathiminsilence。——‘Imakeyouresponsible!’hecrieddesperately,turninghalfround。‘Thatmanisdying。Imakeyou……’

  ——‘Youthereyet?’calledthemasterinathreateningtone。——‘No,sir,’heexclaimedhurriedlyinastartledvoice。Theboatswainledhimawaybythearm;someonelaughed;Jimmyliftedhisheadforastealthyglance,andinoneunexpectedleapsprangoutofhisbunk;Mr。Bakermadeaclevercatchandfelthimverylimpinhisarms;

  thegroupatthedoorgruntedwithsurprise。——‘Helies,’

  gaspedWait。‘Hetalkedaboutblackdevils——heisadevil——

  awhitedevil——Iamallright。’Hestiffenedhimself,andMr。

  Baker,experimentally,lethimgo。Hestaggeredapaceortwo;CaptainAllistounwatchedhimwithaquietandpenetratinggaze;Belfastrantohissupport。Hedidnotappeartobeawareofanyonenearhim;hestoodsilentforamoment,battlingsingle—handedwithalegionofnamelessterrorsamidsttheeagerlooksofexcitedmenwhowatchedhimfaroff,utterlyaloneintheimpenetrablesolitudeofhisfear。Heavybreathingsstirredthedarkness。Theseagurgledthroughthescuppersastheshipheeledovertoashortpuffofwind。

  ‘Keephimawayfromme,’saidJamesWaitatlastinhisfinePage88

  baritonevoice,andleaningwithallhisweightonBelfast’sneck。‘I’vebeenbetterthislastweek……Iamwell……Iwasgoingbacktoduty……

  ——nowifyoulike——Captain。’Belfasthitchedhisshoulderstokeephimupright。

  ‘No,’saidthemaster,lookingathimfixedly。

  UnderJimmy’sarmpitBelfast’sredfacemoveduneasily。

  Arowofeyesgleamingstaredontheedgeoflight。Theypushedoneanotherwithelbows,turnedtheirheads,whispered。Waitlethischinfallonhisbreastand,withloweredeyelids,lookedroundinasuspiciousmanner。

  ‘Whynot?’criedavoicefromtheshadows,‘theman’sallright,sir。’

  ‘Iamallright,’saidWaitwitheagerness。

  ‘Beensick……better……turn—tonow。’Hesighed。——

  ‘HowlyMother!’exclaimedBelfastwithaheaveoftheshoulders,‘standup,Jimmy。’——‘Keepawayfrommethen,’saidWait,givingBelfastapetulantpush,andreelingagainstthedoor—post。Hischeek—bonesglistenedasthoughtheyhadbeenvarnished。Hesnatchedoffhisnight—cap,wipedhisperspiringfacewithit,flungitonthedeck。‘Iamcomingout,’

  hesaidwithoutstirring。

  ‘No。Youdon’t,’saidthemastercurtly。

  Barefeetshuffled,disapprovingvoicesmurmuredallround;hewentonasifhehadnotheard:——‘Youhavebeenskulkingnearlyallthepassageandnowyouwanttocomeout。Youthinkyouarenearenoughtothepay—tablenow。Smelltheshore,hey?’

  ‘I’vebeensick……now——better,’

  mumbledWaitglaringinthelight。——‘Youhavebeenshammingsick,’retortedCaptainAllistounwithseverity:‘Why……’

  hehesitatedforlessthanhalfasecond。‘Why,anybodycanseethat。There’snothingthematterwithyou,butyouchoosetolie—uptopleaseyourself——andnowyoushalllie—uptopleaseme。Mr。baker,myordersarethatthismanisnottobeallowedondecktotheendofthepassage。’

  Therewereexclamationsofsurprise,triumph,indignation。

  Thedarkgroupofmenswungacrossthelight。‘Whatfor?’

  ‘Toldyouso……’‘Bloomin’shame……’

  ——‘We’vegottosaysomethinghaboutthat,’screechedDonkinfromtherear。——‘Nevermind,Jim——’——‘We’llseeyourighted,’calledseveraltogether。Anelderlyseamansteppedtothefront。‘D’yemeantosay,sir,’heaskedominously,‘thatasickchapain’tallowedtogetwellinthis’erehooker?’BehindhimDonkinwhisperedexcitedlyamongstastaringcrowdwherenoonesparedhimaglance,butCaptainAllistounshookaforefingerattheangrybronzedfaceofthespeaker。——‘You——youholdyourtongue,’hesaidwarningly。——‘Thisisn’ttheway,’clamouredtwoorthreeyoungermen。‘Harewebloomin’masheens?’inquiredDonkininapiercingtone,anddivedundertheelbowsofthefrontrank。——‘Soonshow’imweain’tboys……’——‘Theman’samanifheisblack。’

  ——‘Weain’tgoin’toworkthisbloomin’shipshorthandedifSnowball’sallright……’——‘Hesaysheis。’

  ——‘Wellthen,strike,boys,strike!’——‘That’sthebloomin’ticket。’CaptainAllistounsaidsharplytothesecondmate:‘Keepquiet,Mr。Creighton,’andstoodcomposedinthetumult,listeningwithprofoundattentiontomixedgrowlsandscreeches,toeveryexclamationandeverycurseofthesuddenoutbreak。Somebodyslammedthecabindoortowithakick;thedarknessfullofmenacingmuttersleapedwithashortclatteroverthestreakoflight,andthemenbecamegesticulatingshadowsthatgrowled,hissed,laughedexcitedly。Mr。Bakerwhispered:——

  ‘Getawayfromthem,sir。’ThebigshapeofMr。Creightonhoveredsilentlyabouttheslightfigureofthemaster。——‘Wehavebeenhymposeduponallthisvoyage,’saidagruffvoice,‘butthis’erefancytakesthecake。’——‘Thatmanisashipmate。’——‘Arewebloomin’kids?’

  ——‘Theportwatchwillrefuseduty。’Charleycarriedawaybyhisfeelingswhistledshrilly,thenyelped:——‘Giv’

  usourJimmy!’Thisseemedtocauseavariationinthedisturbance。

  Therewasafreshburstofsquabblinguproar。Alotofquarrelsweregoingonatonce。——‘Yes’——‘No。’——

  ‘Neverbeensick。’——‘Goforthemtoonce。’

  ——‘Shutyermouth,youngster——thisismen’swork。’

  ——‘Isit?’mutteredCaptainAllistounbitterly。Mr。

  Bakergrunted:‘Ough!They’regonesilly。They’vebeensimmeringforthelastmonth。’——‘Ididnotice,’saidthemaster。——‘Theyhavestartedarowamongstthemselvesnow,’

  saidMr。Creightonwithdisdain,‘bettergetaft,sir。Wewillsoothethem。’——‘Keepyourtemper,Creighton,’

  saidthemaster。Andthethreemenbegantomoveslowlytowardsthecabindoor。

  Intheshadowsoftheforeriggingadarkmassstampededdied,advanced,retreated。Therewerewordsofreproach,encouragement,unbelief,execration。Theelderseamen,bewilderedandPage90

  angry,growledtheirdeterminationtogothroughwithsomethingorothere;

  buttheyoungerschoolofadvancedthoughtexposedtheirandJimmy’swrongswithconfusedshouts,arguingamongstthemselves。Theyclusteredroundthatmoribundcarcass,thefitemblemoftheiraspirations。andencouragingoneanothertheyswayed,theytrampedononespot,shoutingthattheywouldnotbe‘putupon’Insidethecabin,Belfast,helpingJimmyintohisbunk,twitchedalloverinhisdesirenottomissalltherow,andwithdifficultyrestrainedthetearsofhisfacileemotion。JamesWaitflatonhisbackundertheblanket,gaspedcomplaints。——‘Wewillbackyouup,neverfear,’assuredBelfast,busyabouthisfeet。——‘I’llcomeouttomorrow——skipperornoskipper。’

  Heliftedonearmwithgreatdifficulty,passedthehandoverhisface;

  ‘Don’tyouletthatcook……’hebreathedout。——‘No,no,’saidBelfast,turninghisbackonthebunk,‘I

  willputaheadonhimifhecomesnearyou。’——‘I

  willsmashhismug!’exclaimedfaintlyWait,enragedandweak;

  ‘Idon’twanttokillaman,but……’Hepantedfastlikeadogafteraruninsunshine。Someonejustoutsidethedoorshouted,‘He’sasfitasanyovus!’Belfastputhishandonthedoor—handle。——‘Here!’calledJamesWaithurriedlyandinsuchaclearvoicethattheotherspunroundwithastart。JamesWait,stretchedoutblackanddeathlikeinthedazzlinglight,turnedhisheadonthepillow。HiseyesstaredatBelfast,appealingandimpudent。

  ‘Iamratherweakfromlying—upsolong,’hesaiddistinctly。

  Belfastnodded。‘Gettingquitewellnow,’insistedWait。——‘Yes,Inoticedyougettingbetterthis……lastmonth,’

  saidBelfastlookingdown。‘Hallo!What’sthis?’heshoutedandranout。

  Hewasflatteneddirectlyagainstthesideofthehousebytwomenwholurchedagainsthim。Alotofdisputesseemedtobegoingonallround。Hegotclearandwasthreedistinctfiguresstandingaloneinthefainterdarknessunderthearchedfootofthemainsail,thatroseabovetheirheadslikeaconvexwallofahighedifice。Donkinhissed:

  ——‘Goforthem……it’sdark!’Thecrowdtookashortrunaftinabody——thentherewasacheck。Donkin,agileandthinflittedpastwithhisrightarmgoinglikeawindmill——andthenstoodstillsuddenlywithhisarmpointingrigidlyabovehisPage91

  head。Thehurtlingflightofsomesmallheavyobjectwasheard;itpassedbetweentheheadsofthetwomates,boundedheavilyalongthedeck,stucktheafterhatchwithaponderousanddeadenedblow。ThebulkyshapeofMr。Bakergrewdistinct。‘Cometoyoursenses,men!’

  hecried,advancingatthearrestedcrowd。‘Comeback,Mr。Baker!’

  calledthemaster’squietvoice。Heobeyedunwillingly。Therewasaminuteofsilence,thenadeafeninghubbubarose。AboveitArchiewasheardenergetically:

  ——‘IfyedoootageenIwulltell!’Therewereshouts。

  ‘Don’t!’‘Dropit!’——‘Weain’tthatkind!’Theblackclusterofhumanformsreeledagainstthebulwark,backagaintowardsthehouse。Shadowyfigurescouldbeseentottering,falling,leapingup。Ringboltsrangunderstumblingfeet。——

  ‘Dropit!’‘Letme!’——‘No!’

  ——‘Curseyou!……hah!’Thensoundsasofsomeone’sfacebeingslapped;apieceofironfellonthedeck;ashortscuffle,andsomeone’sshadowyshadowybodyscuttledrapidlyacrossthemainhatchbeforetheshadowofakick。Aragingvoicesobbedoutatorrentoffilthylanguage……——‘Throwingthings——goodGod!’gruntedMr。Bakerindismay。——‘Thatwasmeantforme,’saidthemasterquietly;‘Ifeltthewindofthatthing;whatwasit——anironbelaying—pin?’——‘ByJove!’

  mutteredMr。Creighton。Theconfusedvoicesofmentalkingamidshipsmingledwiththewashofthesea,ascendedbetweenthesilentanddistendedsails——seemedtoflowawayintothenight,furtherthanthehorizon,higherthanthesky。Thestarsburnedsteadilyovertheinclinedmastheads。Trailsoflightlayonthewater,brokebeforetheadvancinghull,and,aftershehadpassed,trembledforalongtimeasifinaweofthemurmuringsea。

  Meantimethehelmsman,anxioustoknowwhattherowwasabout,hadletgothewheel,and,bentdouble,ranwithlongstealthyfootstepstothebreakofthepoop。TheNarcissus,lefttoherself,cameupgentlytothewindwithoutanyonebeingawareofit。Shegaveaslightroll,andthesleepingsailswokesuddenly,comingalltogetherwithamightyflapagainstthemasts,thenfilledagainoneafteranotherinaquicksuccessionofloudreportsthatrandowntheloftyspars,tillthecollapsedmainsailflewoutlastwithaviolentjerk。Theshiptrembledfromtruckstokeel;thesailskeptonrattlinglikeadischargeofmusketry;

  thechainsheetsandlooseshacklesjingledaloftinathinpeal;theginblocksPage92

  groaned。Itwasasifaninvisiblehandhadgiventheshipanangryshaketorecallthementhatpeopledherdeckstothesenseofreality,vigilanceandduty。——‘Helmup!’criedthemastersharply。‘Runaft,Mr。Creighton,andseewhatthatfoolthereisupto。’——‘Flattenintheheadsheets。Standbytheweatherfore—braces,’growledMr。Baker。Startledmenranswiftlyrepeatingtheorders。Thewatchbelow,abandonedallatoncebythewatchondeck,driftedtowardstheforecastleintwosandthrees,arguingnoisilyastheywent。——‘Weshallseeto—morrow!’

  criedaloudvoice,asiftocoverwithamenacinghintaningloriousretreat。

  Andthenonlyorderswereheard,thefallingofheavycoilsofrope,therattlingofblocks。Singleton’swhiteheadflittedhereandthereinthenight,highabovedeck,liketheghostofabird。——‘Goingoff,sir!’shoutedMr。Creightonfromaft。——‘Fullagain。’

  ——‘Allright……’——‘Easeofftheheadsheets。Thatwilldothebraces。Coiltheropes,’gruntedMr。

  Baker,bustlingabout。

  Graduallythetrampingnoises,theconfusedsoundofvoices,diedout,andtheofficers,comingtogetheronthepoopdiscussedevents。

  Mr。Bakerwasbewilderedandgrunted;Mr。Creightonwascalmlyfurious;

  butCaptainAllistounwascomposedandthoughtful。HelistenedtoMr。Baker’sgrowlingargumentation,toCreighton’sinterjectedandsevereremarks,whilelookingdownonthedeckheweighedinhishandtheironbelaying—pin——thatamomentagohadjustmissedhishead——asifithadbeentheonlytangiblefactofthewholetransaction。Hewasoneofthosecommanderswhospeaklittle,seemtohearnothing,lookatnoone——andknoweverything,heareverywhisper,seeeveryfleetingshadowoftheirship’slife。Histwobigofficerstoweredabovehislean,shortfigure;theytalkedoverhishead;theyweredismayed,surprised,andangry,whilebetweenthemthelittlequietmanseemedtohavefoundhistaciturnserenityintheprofounddepthsofalargerexperience。Lightswereburningintheforecastle;

  nowandthenagustofbabblingchattercamefromforward,sweptoverthedecks,andbecamefaint,asiftheunconsciousshipglidinggentlythroughthegreatpeaceofthesea,hadleftbehindandforeverthefoolishnoiseofturbulentmankind。Butitwasrenewedagainandagain。Gesticulatingarms,profilesofheadswithopenmouthsappearedforamomentintheilluminatedsquaresofPage93

  doorways;blackfistsdarted——withdrew……‘Yes。Itwasmostdamnabletohavesuchanunprovokedrowsprungonone,’

  assentedthemaster……Atumultofyellsroseinthelight,abruptlyceased……Hedidn’tthinktherewouldbeanyfurthertroublejustthen……Abellwasstruckaft,another,forward,answeredinadeepertone,andtheclamourofringingmetalspreadroundtheshipinacircleofwidevibrationsthatebbedawayintotheimmeasurablenightofanemptysea……Didn’theknowthem!Didn’the!Inpastyears。Bettermen,too。Realmentostandbyoneinatightplace。Worsethandevilstoosometimes——downright,horneddevils。Pah!This——nothing。Amissasgoodasamile……Thewheelwasbeingrelievedintheusualway。——‘Fullandby,’

  said,veryloud,themangoingoff。——‘Fullandby,’

  repeatedtheother,catchingholdofthespokes。——‘Thisheadwindismytrouble,’exclaimedthemaster,stampinghisfootinsuddenanger;‘headwind!alltherestisnothing。’

  Hewascalmagaininamoment。‘Keepthemonthemoveto—night,gentlemen;justtoletthemfeelwe’vegotholdallthetime——quietly,youknow。Mindyoukeepyourhandsoffthem,Creighton。To—morrowIwilltalktothemlikeaDutchUncle。Acrazycrowdoftinkers!Yes,tinkers!

  Icouldcounttherealsailorsamongstthemonthefingersofonehand。

  Nothingwilldobutarow——if——you——please。’Hepaused。

  ‘DidyouthinkIhadgonewrongthereMr。Baker?’Hetappedhisforehead,laughedshort。‘WhenIsawhimstandingthere,threepartsdeadandsoscared——blackamongstthatgapinglot——nogrittofacewhat’scomingtousall——thenotioncametomeallatonce,beforeIcouldthink。Sorryforhim——likeyouwouldbeforasickbruter。Ifeveracreaturewasinamortalfunktodie!……IthoughtIwouldlethimgooutinhisownway。Kindofimpulse。Itnevercameintomyhead,thosefools……H’m!Standtoitnow——ofcourse。’

  Hestuckthebelaying—pininhispocket,seemedashamedofhimself,thensharply:——‘IfyouseePodmoreathistricksagaintellhimIwillhavehimputunderthepump。Hadtodoitoncebefore。Thefellowbreaksoutlikethatnowandthen。Goodcooktho’。’Hewalkedawayquickly,camebacktothecompanion。Thetwomatesfollowedhimthroughthestarlightwithamazedeyes。Hewentdownthreesteps,andchanginghistone,spokewithhisheadnearthedeck:——‘Ishan’tturninto—night。incaseofanything;justcallPage94

  outif……Didyouseetheeyesofthatsicknigger,Mr。Baker?Ifanciedhebeggedmeforsomething。What?Pastallhelp。Oneloneblackbeggaramongstthelotofus,andheseemedtolookthroughmeintotheveryhell。

  Fancy,thiswretchedPodmore!Well,lethimdieinpeace。Iammasterhereafterall。SaywhatIlike。Lethimbe。Hemighthavebeenhalfamanonce……Keepagoodlook—out。’Hedisappearedbelow,leavinghismatesfacingoneanother,andmoreimpressedthaniftheyhadseenastoneimageshedamiraculoustearofcompassionovertheincertitudesoflifeanddeath……

  Inthebluemistspreadingfromtwistedthreadsthatstooduprightinthebowlsofpipes,theforecastleappearedasvastasahall。

  Betweenthebeamsaheavycloudstagnated;andthelampssurroundedbyhalosburnedeachatthecoreofapurpleglowintwolifelessflameswithoutrays。Wreathsdriftedindenserwisps。Mensprawledaboutonthedeck,satinnegligentposes,or,bendingaknee,droopedwithoneshoulderagainstabulkhead。Lipsmoved,eyesflashed,wavingarmsmadesuddeneddiesinthesmoke。Themurmurofvoicesseemedtopileitselfhigherandhigherasifunabletorunoutquickenoughthroughthenarrowdoors。Thewatchbelowintheirshirts,andstridingonlongwhitelegsresembledravingsomnambulists;whilenowandthenoneofthewatchondeckwouldrushin,lookingstrangelyover—dressed,listenamoment,flingarapidsentenceintothenoiseandrunoutagain;butafewremainednearthedoor,fascinated,andwithoneearturnedtothedeck。——‘Sticktogether,boys,’

  roaredDavis。Belfasttriedtomakehimselfheard。Knowlesgrinnedinaslow,dazedway。Ashortfellowwithathickclippedbeardkeptonyellingperiodically:——‘Who’safeard?Who’safeard?’Anotheronejumpedup,excited,withblazingeyes,sentoutastingofunattachedcursesandsatdownquietly。Twomendiscussedfamiliarly,strikingoneanother’sbreastinturn,toclincharguments。Threeothers,withtheirheadsinabunch,spokealltogetherwithaconfidentialair,andatthetopoftheirvoices。Itwasastormychaosofspeechwhereintelligiblefragmentstossing,strucktheear。Onecouldhear:——‘Inthelastship’——‘Whocares?Tryitonanyoneofusif——。’‘Knockunder’——‘Notahand’sturn’——‘Hesaysheisallright’——‘I

  alwaysthought’——‘Nevermind……’Donkin,crouchingPage95

  allinaheapagainstthebowsprit,hunchedhisshoulder—bladesashighashisears,andhangingapeakednose,resembledasickvulturewithruffledplumes。Belfast,straddlinghislegs,hadafaceredwithyelling,andwitharmsthrownup,figuredaMaltesecross。ThetwoScandinavians,inacorner,hadthedumbfoundedanddistractedaspectofmengazingatacataclysm。And,beyondthelight,Singletonstoodinthesmoke,monumental,indistinct,withhisheadtouchingthebeam;likeastatueofheroicsizeinthegloomofacrypt。

  Hesteppedforward,impassiveandbig。Thenoisesubsidedlikeabrokenwave:butBelfastcriedoncemorewithupliftedarms:——

  ‘ThemanisdyingItellye!’thensatdownsuddenlyonthehatchandtookhisheadbetweenhishands。AlllookedatSingleton,gazingupwardsfromthedeckstaringoutofdarkcorners,orturningtheirheadswithcuriousglances。Theywereexpectantandappeasedasifthatoldman,wholookedatnoone,hadpossessedthesecretoftheiruneasyindignationsanddesires,asharpervision,aclearerknowledge。Andindeedstandingthereamongstthem,hehadtheuninterestedappearanceofonewhohadseenmultitudesofships,hadlistenedmanytimestovoicessuchastheirs,hadalreadyseenallthatcouldhappenonthewideseas。Theyheardhisvoicerumbleinhisbroadchestasthoughthewordshadbeenrollingtowardsthemoutofaruggedpast。‘Whatdoyouwanttodo?’heasked。Nooneanswered。OnlyKnowlesmuttered——‘Aye,aye,’andsomebodysaidlow:——‘It’sabloomin’shame。’

  Hewaitedmadeacontemptuousgesture。——‘Ihaveseenrowsaboardshipbeforesomeofyouwereborn,’hesaidslowly,‘forsomethingornothing;butneverforsuchathing。——’‘Themanisdying,Itellye,’repeatedBelfastwoefully,sittingatSingleton’sfeet。——‘Andablackfellow,too,’

  wentontheoldseaman,‘Ihaveseenthemdielikeflies。’

  Hestopped,thoughtful,asiftryingtorecollectgruesomethings,detailsofhorrors,hecatombsofniggers。Theylookedathimfascinated。Hewasoldenoughtorememberslavers,bloodymutinies,piratesperhaps;whocouldtellthroughwhatviolencesandterrorshehadlived!Whatwouldhesay?

  Hesaid:——‘Youcan’thelphim;diehemust。’Hemadeanotherpause。Hismoustacheandbeardstirred。Hechewedwords,mumbledbehindwhitehairs;incomprehensibleandexciting,likeanPage96

  oraclebehindaveil……——‘Stopashore——sick。——Instead——bringingallthisheadwind。Afraid。Theseawillhaveherown。——Dieinthesightofland。Alwaysso。Theyknowit——longpassage——moredays,moredollars。——youkeepquiet。——Whatdoyouwant?Can’thelphim。’

  Heseemedtowakeupfromadream。‘Youcan’thelpyourselves,’

  hesaidausterely,‘Skipper’snofool。Hehassomethinginhismind。Lookout——Isay!Iknow’em!’Witheyesfixedinfrontheturnedhisheadfromrighttoleft,fromlefttoright,asifinspectingalongrowofastuteskippers。——‘Hesaid’ewouldbrainme!’

  criedDonkininaheartrendingtone。Singletonpeereddownwardswithpuzzledattention,asthoughhecouldn’tfindhim。——‘Damnyou!’

  hesaidvaguely,givingitup。Heradiatedunspeakablewisdom,hardunconcern,thechillingairofresignation。Roundhimallthelistenersfeltthemselvessomehowcompletelyenlightenedbytheirdisappointment,and,mute,theylolledaboutwiththecarelesseaseofmenwhocandiscernperfectlytheirremediableaspectoftheirexistence。He,profoundandunconscious,wavedhisarmonce,andstrodeoutondeckwithoutanotherword。

  Belfastwaslostinaround—eyedmeditation。Oneortwovaultedheavilyintoupperberths,and,oncethere,sighed;othersdivedheadfirstinsidelowerbunks——swift,andturningroundinstantlyuponthemselves,likeanimalsgoingintolairs。Thegratingofaknifescrapingburntclaywasheard。Knowlesgrinnednomore。Daviessaid,inatoneofardentconviction:——‘Thenourskipper’slooney。’

  Archiemuttered:——‘Myfaith!wehaven’theardthelastofityet!’Fourbellswerestruck。——‘Halfourwatchbelowisgone!’criedKnowlesinalarm,thenreflected,‘Well,twohourssleepissomethingtowardsarest,’heobservedconsolingly。

  Somealreadypretendedtoslumber;andCharley,soundasleep,suddenlysaidafewslurredwordsinanarbitrary,blankvoice。——‘Thisblamedboyhasworrums!’commentedKnowlesfromunderablanket,andinalearnedmanner。BelfastgotupandapproachedArchie’sberth。

  ——‘wepulledhimout,’hewhisperedsadly。——‘Andnowwewillhavetochuckhimoverboard,’wentonBelfast,whoselowerliptrembled。——‘Chuckwhat?’askedArchie。

  ——‘PoorJimmy,’breathedoutBelfast。——‘Hebeblowed!’saidArchiewithuntruthfulbrutality,andsatupinhisPage97

  bunk;‘It’sallthroughhim。Ifithadn’tbeenforme,therewouldhavebeenmurderonboardthisship!’——‘Tain’thisfault,isit?’arguedBelfast,inamurmur;‘I’veputhimtobed……andheain’tnoheavierthananemptybeef—cask,’

  headded,withtearsinhiseyes。Archielookedathimsteadily,thenturnedhisnosetotheship’ssidewithdetermination。Belfastwanderedaboutasthoughhehadlosthiswayinthedimforecastle,andnearlyfelloverDonkin。Hecontemplatedhimfromonhighforawhile。‘Ain’tyegoingtoturnin?’heasked。Donkinlookeduphopelessly。——

  ‘Thatblack—’eartedScotchsonofathiefkickedme!’

  hewhisperedfromthefloor,inatoneofutterdesolation。——‘Andagoodjob,too!’saidBelfast,stillverydepressed;‘Youwereasnearhangingasdamn—itto—night,sonny。Don’tyouplayanyofyourmurtheringgamesaroundmyJimmy!Youhaven’tpulledhimout。Youjustmind!’CosifIstarttokickyou’——hebrightenedupabit——‘ifIstarttokickyou,itwillbeYankeefashion——

  tobreaksomething!’Hetappedlightlywithhisknucklesthetopofthebowedhead。‘Youmoind,mebhoy!’heconcluded,cheerily。Donkinletitpass。——‘Willtheysplitonme?’

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