SowasI。
Sheslippedonehandfree，andwasstrokingmyhairwithitinagentlemotherlyway。Ibowedmyhotheadonhershoulderandfeltadimsenseofpeace，arestfulnesswhichwasverypleasant。
\"Youmusttakemetheresomeday，darling，\"shewassaying。
\"ItisnotonlythatIloveyousomuch，Iwanttoseeyourcountry——yourpeople——yourmother——\"shepausedreverently。
\"Oh，howIshallloveyourmother！\"
Ihadnotbeeninlovemanytimes——myexperiencedidnotcomparewithTerry’s。ButsuchasIhadwassodifferentfromthisthatIwasperplexed，andfullofmixedfeelings：partlyagrowingsenseofcommongroundbetweenus，apleasantrestedcalmfeeling，whichIhadimaginedcouldonlybeattainedinoneway;andpartlyabewilderedresentmentbecausewhatIfoundwasnotwhatIhadlookedfor。
Itwastheirconfoundedpsychology！Heretheywerewiththisprofoundhighlydevelopedsystemofeducationsobredintothemthateveniftheywerenotteachersbyprofessiontheyallhadageneralproficiencyinit——itwassecondnaturetothem。
Andnochild，stormilydemandingacookie\"betweenmeals，\"
wasevermoresubtlydivertedintoaninterestinhouse—buildingthanwasIwhenIfoundanapparentlyimperativedemandhaddisappearedwithoutmynoticingit。
Andallthetimethosetendermothereyes，thosekeenscientificeyes，notingeveryconditionandcircumstance，andlearninghowto\"taketimebytheforelock\"andavoiddiscussionbeforeoccasionarose。
Iwasamazedattheresults。Ifoundthatmuch，verymuch，ofwhatIhadhonestlysupposedtobeaphysiologicalnecessitywasapsychologicalnecessity——orsobelieved。Ifound，aftermyideasofwhatwasessentialhadchanged，thatmyfeelingschangedalso。
Andmorethanall，Ifoundthis——afactorofenormousweight——thesewomenwerenotprovocative。Thatmadeanimmensedifference。
ThethingthatTerryhadsocomplainedofwhenwefirstcame——thattheyweren’t\"feminine，\"theylacked\"charm，\"nowbecameagreatcomfort。Theirvigorousbeautywasanaestheticpleasure，notanirritant。Theirdressandornamentshadnotatouchofthe\"come—and—find—me\"element。
EvenwithmyownEllador，mywife，whohadforatimeunveiledawoman’sheartandfacedthestrangenewhopeandjoyofdualparentage，sheafterwardwithdrewagainintothesamegoodcomradeshehadbeenatfirst。Theywerewomen，PLUS，andsomuchplusthatwhentheydidnotchoosetoletthewomannessappear，youcouldnotfinditanywhere。
Idon’tsayitwaseasyforme;itwasn’t。ButwhenImadeappealtohersympathiesIcameupagainstanotherimmovablewall。
Shewassorry，honestlysorry，formydistresses，andmadeallmannerofthoughtfulsuggestions，oftenquiteuseful，aswellasthewiseforesightIhavementionedabove，whichoftensavedalldifficultybeforeitarose;buthersympathydidnotalterherconvictions。
\"IfIthoughtitwasreallyrightandnecessary，Icouldperhapsbringmyselftoit，foryoursake，dear;butIdonotwantto——notatall。Youwouldnothaveameresubmission，wouldyou？
Thatisnotthekindofhighromanticloveyouspokeof，surely？
Itisapity，ofcourse，thatyoushouldhavetoadjustyourhighlyspecializedfacultiestoourunspecializedones。\"
Confoundit！Ihadn’tmarriedthenation，andItoldherso。
Butsheonlysmiledatherownlimitationsandexplainedthatshehadto\"thinkinwe’s。\"
Confounditagain！HereI’dhaveallmyenergiesfocusedononewish，andbeforeIknewitshe’dhavethemdissipatedinonedirectionoranother，somesubjectofdiscussionthatbeganjustatthepointIwastalkingaboutandendedmilesaway。
ItmustnotbeimaginedthatIwasjustrepelled，ignored，lefttocherishagrievance。Notatall。Myhappinesswasinthehandsofalarger，sweeterwomanhoodthanIhadeverimagined。Beforeourmarriagemyownardorhadperhapsblindedmetomuchofthis。
IwasmadlyinlovewithnotsomuchwhatwasthereaswithwhatIsupposedtobethere。NowIfoundanendlesslybeautifulundiscoveredcountrytoexplore，andinitthesweetestwisdomandunderstanding。ItwasasifIhadcometosomenewplaceandpeople，withadesiretoeatatallhours，andnootherinterestsinparticular;andasifmyhosts，insteadofmerelysaying，\"Youshallnoteat，\"hadpresentlyarousedinmealivelydesireformusic，forpictures，forgames，forexercise，forplayinginthewater，forrunningsomeingeniousmachine;and，inthemultitudeofmysatisfactions，Iforgottheonepointwhichwasnotsatisfied，andgotalongverywelluntilmealtime。
Oneofthecleverestandmostingeniousofthesetrickswasonlycleartomemanyyearsafter，whenweweresowhollyatoneonthissubjectthatIcouldlaughatmyownpredicamentthen。
Itwasthis：Yousee，withus，womenarekeptasdifferentaspossibleandasfeminineaspossible。Wemenhaveourownworld，withonlymeninit;wegettiredofourultra—malenessandturngladlytotheultra—femaleness。Also，inkeepingourwomenasfeminineaspossible，weseetoitthatwhenweturntothemwefindthethingwewantalwaysinevidence。Well，theatmosphereofthisplacewasanythingbutseductive。Theverynumbersofthesehumanwomen，alwaysinhumanrelation，madethemanythingbutalluring。When，inspiteofthis，myhereditaryinstinctsandrace—traditionsmademelongforthefeminineresponseinEllador，insteadofwithdrawingsothatIshouldwanthermore，shedeliberatelygavemealittletoomuchofhersociety。
——alwaysde—feminized，asitwere。Itwasawfullyfunny，really。
HerewasI，withanIdealinmind，forwhichIhotlylonged，andherewasshe，deliberatelyobtrudingintheforegroundofmyconsciousnessaFact——afactwhichIcoollyenjoyed，butwhichactuallyinterferedwithwhatIwanted。Iseenowclearlyenoughwhyacertainkindofman，likeSirAlmrothWright，resentstheprofessionaldevelopmentofwomen。Itgetsinthewayofthesexideal;ittemporarilycoversandexcludesfemininity。
Ofcourse，inthiscase，IwassofondofElladormyfriend，ofElladormyprofessionalcompanion，thatInecessarilyenjoyedhersocietyonanyterms。Only——whenIhadhadherwithmeinherde—femininecapacityforasixteen—hourday，Icouldgotomyownroomandsleepwithoutdreamingabouther。
Thewitch！Ifeveranybodyworkedtowooandwinandholdahumansoul，shedid，greatsuperwomanthatshewas。Icouldn’tthenhalfcomprehendtheskillofit，thewonder。ButthisIsoonbegantofind：thatunderallourcultivatedattitudeofmindtowardwomen，thereisanolder，deeper，more\"natural\"feeling，therestfulreverencewhichlooksuptotheMothersex。
Sowegrewtogetherinfriendshipandhappiness，ElladorandI，andsodidJeffandCelis。
WhenitcomestoTerry’spartofit，andAlima’s，I’msorry——
andI’mashamed。OfcourseIblamehersomewhat。Shewasn’tasfineapsychologistasEllador，andwhat’smore，Ithinkshehadafar—descendedatavistictraceofmoremarkedfemaleness，neverapparenttillTerrycalleditout。Butwhenallissaid，itdoesn’texcusehim。Ihadn’trealizedtothefullTerry’scharacter——Icouldn’t，beingaman。
Thepositionwasthesameaswithus，ofcourse，onlywiththesedistinctions。Alima，ashademorealluring，andseveralshadeslessableasapracticalpsychologist;Terry，ahundredfoldmoredemanding——andproportionatelylessreasonable。
Thingsgrewstrainedverysoonbetweenthem。Ifancyatfirst，whentheyweretogether，inhergreathopeofparentageandhiskeenjoyofconquest——thatTerrywasinconsiderate。Infact，Iknowit，fromthingshesaid。
\"Youneedn’ttalktome，\"hesnappedatJeffoneday，justbeforeourweddings。\"ThereneverwasawomanyetthatdidnotenjoybeingMASTERED。Allyourprettytalkdoesn’tamounttoahillo’beans——IKNOW。\"AndTerrywouldhum：
I’vetakenmyfunwhereIfoundit。
I’veroguedandI’verangedinmytime，andThethingsthatIlearnedfromtheyellowandblack，They’avehelpedmea’eapwiththewhite。
Jeffturnedsharplyandlefthimatthetime。Iwasabitdisquietedmyself。
PooroldTerry！Thethingshe’dlearneddidn’thelphimaheapinHerland。Hisideawastotake——hethoughtthatwastheway。
Hethought，hehonestlybelieved，thatwomenlikeit。NotthewomenofHerland！NotAlima！
Icanseehernow——onedayintheveryfirstweekoftheirmarriage，settingforthtoherday’sworkwithlongdeterminedstridesandhard—setmouth，andstickingclosetoEllador。
Shedidn’twishtobealonewithTerry——youcouldseethat。
Butthemoreshekeptawayfromhim，themorehewantedher——naturally。
Hemadeatremendousrowabouttheirseparateestablishments，triedtokeepherinhisrooms，triedtostayinhers。Butthereshedrewthelinesharply。
Hecameawayonenight，andstampedupanddownthemoonlitroad，swearingunderhisbreath。Iwastakingawalkthatnighttoo，butIwasn’tinhisstateofmind。Tohearhimrageyou’dnothavebelievedthathelovedAlimaatall——you’dhavethoughtthatshewassomequarryhewaspursuing，somethingtocatchandconquer。
Ithinkthat，owingtoallthosedifferencesIspokeof，theysoonlostthecommongroundtheyhadatfirst，andwereunabletomeetsanelyanddispassionately。Ifancytoo——thisispureconjecture——thathehadsucceededindrivingAlimabeyondherbestjudgment，herrealconscience，andthatafterthatherownsenseofshame，thereactionofthething，madeherbitterperhaps。
Theyquarreled，reallyquarreled，andaftermakingituponceortwice，theyseemedtocometoarealbreak——shewouldnotbealonewithhimatall。Andperhapsshewasabitnervous，Idon’tknow，butshegotMoadinetocomeandstaynextdoortoher。Also，shehadasturdyassistantdetailedtoaccompanyherinherwork。
Terryhadhisownideas，asI’vetriedtoshow。Idaresayhethoughthehadarighttodoashedid。Perhapsheevenconvincedhimselfthatitwouldbebetterforher。Anyhow，hehidhimselfinherbedroomonenight……
ThewomenofHerlandhavenofearofmen。Whyshouldtheyhave？Theyarenottimidinanysense。Theyarenotweak;
andtheyallhavestrongtrainedathleticbodies。OthellocouldnothaveextinguishedAlimawithapillow，asifshewereamouse。
Terryputinpracticehispetconvictionthatawomanlovestobemastered，andbysheerbruteforce，inalltheprideandpassionofhisintensemasculinity，hetriedtomasterthiswoman。
Itdidnotwork。IgotaprettyclearaccountofitlaterfromEllador，butwhatweheardatthetimewasthenoiseofatremendousstruggle，andAlimacallingtoMoadine。Moadinewasclosebyandcameatonce;oneortwomorestronggravewomenfollowed。
Terrydashedaboutlikeamadman;hewouldcheerfullyhavekilledthem——hetoldmethat，himself——buthecouldn’t。Whenheswungachairoverhisheadonesprangintheairandcaughtit，twothrewthemselvesbodilyuponhimandforcedhimtothefloor;
itwasonlytheworkofafewmomentstohavehimtiedhandandfoot，andthen，insheerpityforhisfutilerage，toanesthetizehim。
Alimawasinacoldfury。Shewantedhimkilled——actually。
TherewasatrialbeforethelocalOverMother，andthiswoman，whodidnotenjoybeingmastered，statedhercase。
Inacourtinourcountryhewouldhavebeenheldquite\"withinhisrights，\"ofcourse。Butthiswasnotourcountry;itwastheirs。Theyseemedtomeasuretheenormityoftheoffensebyitseffectuponapossiblefatherhood，andhescornedeventoreplytothiswayofputtingit。
Hedidlethimselfgoonce，andexplainedindefinitetermsthattheywereincapableofunderstandingaman’sneeds，aman’sdesires，aman’spointofview。Hecalledthemneuters，epicenes，bloodless，sexlesscreatures。Hesaidtheycouldofcoursekillhim——assomanyinsectscould——butthathedespisedthemnonetheless。
Andallthosesterngravemothersdidnotseemtomindhisdespisingthem，notintheleast。
Itwasalongtrial，andmanyinterestingpointswerebroughtoutastotheirviewsofourhabits，andafterawhileTerryhadhissentence。Hewaited，grimanddefiant。Thesentencewas：
\"Youmustgohome！\"
CHAPTER12
ExpelledWehadallmeanttogohomeagain。IndeedwehadNOTmeant——notbyanymeans——tostayaslongaswehad。Butwhenitcametobeingturnedout，dismissed，sentawayforbadconduct，wenoneofusreallylikedit。
Terrysaidhedid。Heprofessedgreatscornofthepenaltyandthetrial，aswellasalltheothercharacteristicsof\"thismiserablehalf—country。\"Butheknew，andweknew，thatinany\"whole\"
countryweshouldneverhavebeenasforgivinglytreatedaswehadbeenhere。
\"Ifthepeoplehadcomeafterusaccordingtothedirectionsweleft，there’dhavebeenquiteadifferentstory！\"saidTerry。
Wefoundoutlaterwhynoreservepartyhadarrived。Allourcarefuldirectionshadbeendestroyedinafire。Wemighthavealldiedthereandnooneathomehaveeverknownourwhereabouts。
Terrywasunderguardnow，allthetime，knownasunsafe，convictedofwhatwastothemanunpardonablesin。
Helaughedattheirchillhorror。\"Parcelofoldmaids！\"hecalledthem。\"They’realloldmaids——childrenornot。Theydon’tknowthefirstthingaboutSex。\"
WhenTerrysaidSEX，sexwithaverylarge_S_，hemeantthemalesex，naturally;itsspecialvalues，itsprofoundconvictionofbeing\"thelifeforce，\"itscheerfulignoringofthetruelifeprocess，anditsinterpretationoftheothersexsolelyfromitsownpointofview。
IhadlearnedtoseethesethingsverydifferentlysincelivingwithEllador;andasforJeff，hewassothoroughlyHerlandizedthathewasn’tfairtoTerry，whofrettedsharplyinhisnewrestraint。
Moadine，graveandstrong，assadlypatientasamotherwithadegeneratechild，keptsteadywatchonhim，withenoughotherwomencloseathandtopreventanoutbreak。Hehadnoweapons，andwellknewthatallhisstrengthwasofsmallavailagainstthosegrim，quietwomen。
Wewereallowedtovisithimfreely，buthehadonlyhisroom，andasmallhigh—walledgardentowalkin，whilethepreparationsforourdeparturewereunderway。
Threeofusweretogo：Terry，becausehemust;I，becausetwoweresaferforourflyer，andthelongboattriptothecoast;
Ellador，becauseshewouldnotletmegowithouther。
IfJeffhadelectedtoreturn，Celiswouldhavegonetoo——theywerethemostabsorbedoflovers;butJeffhadnodesirethatway。
\"WhyshouldIwanttogobacktoallournoiseanddirt，ourviceandcrime，ourdiseaseanddegeneracy？\"hedemandedofmeprivately。Weneverspokelikethatbeforethewomen。
\"Iwouldn’ttakeCelisthereforanythingonearth！\"heprotested。
\"She’ddie！She’ddieofhorrorandshametoseeourslumsandhospitals。HowcanyouriskitwithEllador？You’dbetterbreakittohergentlybeforeshereallymakesuphermind。\"
Jeffwasright。IoughttohavetoldhermorefullythanIdid，ofallthethingswehadtobeashamedof。Butitisveryhardtobridgethegulfofasdeepadifferenceasexistedbetweenourlifeandtheirs。Itriedto。
\"Lookhere，mydear，\"Isaidtoher。\"Ifyouarereallygoingtomycountrywithme，you’vegottobepreparedforagoodmanyshocks。It’snotasbeautifulasthis——thecities，Imean，thecivilizedparts——ofcoursethewildcountryis。\"
\"Ishallenjoyitall，\"shesaid，hereyesstarrywithhope。
\"Iunderstandit’snotlikeours。Icanseehowmonotonousourquietlifemustseemtoyou，howmuchmorestirringyoursmustbe。
Itmustbelikethebiologicalchangeyoutoldmeaboutwhenthesecondsexwasintroduced——afargreatermovement，constantchange，withnewpossibilitiesofgrowth。\"
Ihadtoldherofthelaterbiologicaltheoriesofsex，andshewasdeeplyconvincedofthesuperioradvantagesofhavingtwo，thesuperiorityofaworldwithmeninit。
\"Wehavedonewhatwecouldalone;perhapswehavesomethingsbetterinaquietway，butyouhavethewholeworld——allthepeopleofthedifferentnations——allthelongrichhistorybehindyou——allthewonderfulnewknowledge。Oh，Ijustcan’twaittoseeit！\"
WhatcouldIdo？Itoldherinsomanywordsthatwehadourunsolvedproblems，thatwehaddishonestyandcorruption，viceandcrime，diseaseandinsanity，prisonsandhospitals;anditmadenomoreimpressiononherthanitwouldtotellaSouthSeaIslanderaboutthetemperatureoftheArcticCircle。Shecouldintellectuallyseethatitwasbadtohavethosethings;butshecouldnotFEELit。
WehadquiteeasilycometoaccepttheHerlandlifeasnormal，becauseitwasnormal——noneofusmakeanyoutcryovermerehealthandpeaceandhappyindustry。Andtheabnormal，towhichweareallsosadlywellacclimated，shehadneverseen。
Thetwothingsshecaredmosttohearabout，andwantedmosttosee，werethese：thebeautifulrelationofmarriageandthelovelywomenwhoweremothersandnothingelse;beyondtheseherkeen，activemindhungeredeagerlyfortheworldlife。
\"I’malmostasanxioustogoasyouareyourself，\"sheinsisted，\"andyoumustbedesperatelyhomesick。\"
Iassuredherthatnoonecouldbehomesickinsuchaparadiseastheirs，butshewouldhavenoneofit。
\"Oh，yes——Iknow。It’slikethoselittletropicalislandsyou’vetoldmeabout，shininglikejewelsinthebigbluesea——Ican’twaittoseethesea！Thelittleislandmaybeasperfectasagarden，butyoualwayswanttogetbacktoyourownbigcountry，don’tyou？
Evenifitisbadinsomeways？\"
Elladorwasmorethanwilling。Buttheneareritcametoourreallygoing，andtomyhavingtotakeherbacktoour\"civilization，\"
afterthecleanpeaceandbeautyoftheirs，themoreIbegantodreadit，andthemoreItriedtoexplain。
OfcourseIhadbeenhomesickatfirst，whilewewereprisoners，beforeIhadEllador。AndofcourseIhad，atfirst，ratheridealizedmycountryanditsways，indescribingit。Also，Ihadalwaysacceptedcertainevilsasintegralpartsofourcivilizationandneverdweltonthematall。EvenwhenItriedtotellhertheworst，Ineverrememberedsomethings——which，whenshecametoseethem，impressedheratonce，astheyhadneverimpressedme。
Now，inmyeffortsatexplanation，IbegantoseebothwaysmorekeenlythanIhadbefore;toseethepainfuldefectsofmyownland，themarvelousgainsofthis。
Inmissingmenwethreevisitorshadnaturallymissedthelargerpartoflife，andhadunconsciouslyassumedthattheymustmissittoo。Ittookmealongtimetorealize——Terryneverdidrealize——howlittleitmeanttothem。WhenwesayMEN，MAN，MANLY，MANHOOD，andalltheothermasculinederivatives，wehaveinthebackgroundofourmindsahugevaguecrowdedpictureoftheworldandallitsactivities。Togrowupand\"beaman，\"
to\"actlikeaman\"——themeaningandconnotationiswideindeed。
Thatvastbackgroundisfullofmarchingcolumnsofmen，ofchanginglinesofmen，oflongprocessionsofmen;ofmensteeringtheirshipsintonewseas，exploringunknownmountains，breakinghorses，herdingcattle，ploughingandsowingandreaping，toilingattheforgeandfurnace，digginginthemine，buildingroadsandbridgesandhighcathedrals，managinggreatbusinesses，teachinginallthecolleges，preachinginallthechurches;
ofmeneverywhere，doingeverything——\"theworld。\"
AndwhenwesayWOMEN，wethinkFEMALE——thesex。
Buttothesewomen，intheunbrokensweepofthistwo—
thousand—year—oldfemininecivilization，thewordWOMANcalledupallthatbigbackground，sofarastheyhadgoneinsocialdevelopment;andthewordMANmeanttothemonlyMALE——thesex。
OfcoursewecouldTELLthemthatinourworldmendideverything;butthatdidnotalterthebackgroundoftheirminds。
Thatman，\"themale，\"didallthesethingswastothemastatement，makingnomorechangeinthepointofviewthanwasmadeinourswhenwefirstfacedtheastoundingfact——tous——thatinHerlandwomenwere\"theworld。\"
Wehadbeenlivingtheremorethanayear。Wehadlearnedtheirlimitedhistory，withitsstraight，smooth，upreachinglines，reachinghigherandgoingfasteruptothesmoothcomfortoftheirpresentlife。Wehadlearnedalittleoftheirpsychology，amuchwiderfieldthanthehistory，butherewecouldnotfollowsoreadily。Wewerenowwellusedtoseeingwomennotasfemalesbutaspeople;peopleofallsorts，doingeverykindofwork。
ThisoutbreakofTerry’s，andthestrongreactionagainstit，gaveusanewlightontheirgenuinefemininity。ThiswasgivenmewithgreatclearnessbybothElladorandSomel。Thefeelingwasthesame——sickrevulsionandhorror，suchaswouldbefeltatsomeclimacticblasphemy。
Theyhadnofaintestapproachtosuchathingintheirminds，knowingnothingofthecustomofmaritalindulgenceamongus。
Tothemtheonehighpurposeofmotherhoodhadbeenforsolongthegoverninglawoflife，andthecontributionofthefather，thoughknowntothem，sodistinctlyanothermethodtothesameend，thattheycouldnot，withalltheireffort，getthepointofviewofthemalecreaturewhosedesiresquiteignoreparentageandseekonlyforwhatweeuphoniouslyterm\"thejoysoflove。\"
WhenItriedtotellElladorthatwomentoofeltso，withus，shedrewawayfromme，andtriedhardtograspintellectuallywhatshecouldinnowaysympathizewith。
\"Youmean——thatwithyou——lovebetweenmanandwomanexpressesitselfinthatway——withoutregardtomotherhood？
Toparentage，Imean，\"sheaddedcarefully。
\"Yes，surely。Itislovewethinkof——thedeepsweetlovebetweentwo。Ofcoursewewantchildren，andchildrencome——
butthatisnotwhatwethinkabout。\"
\"But——but——itseemssoagainstnature！\"shesaid。\"Noneofthecreaturesweknowdothat。Dootheranimals——inyourcountry？\"
\"Wearenotanimals！\"Irepliedwithsomesharpness。
\"Atleastwearesomethingmore——somethinghigher。Thisisafarnoblerandmorebeautifulrelation，asIhaveexplainedbefore。
Yourviewseemstousrather——shallIsay，practical？Prosaic？
Merelyameanstoanend！Withus——oh，mydeargirl——cannotyousee？Cannotyoufeel？Itisthelast，sweetest，highestconsummationofmutuallove。\"
Shewasimpressedvisibly。Shetrembledinmyarms，asIheldherclose，kissingherhungrily。ButthereroseinhereyesthatlookIknewsowell，thatremoteclearlookasifshehadgonefarawayeventhoughIheldherbeautifulbodysoclose，andwasnowonsomesnowymountainregardingmefromadistance。
\"Ifeelitquiteclearly，\"shesaidtome。\"Itgivesmeadeepsympathywithwhatyoufeel，nodoubtmorestronglystill。ButwhatIfeel，evenwhatyoufeel，dearest，doesnotconvincemethatitisright。UntilIamsureofthat，ofcourseIcannotdoasyouwish。\"
Ellador，attimeslikethis，alwaysremindedmeofEpictetus。
\"Iwillputyouinprison！\"saidhismaster。\"Mybody，youmean，\"
repliedEpictetuscalmly。\"Iwillcutyourheadoff，\"saidhismaster。\"HaveIsaidthatmyheadcouldnotbecutoff？\"A
difficultperson，Epictetus。
Whatisthismiraclebywhichawoman，eveninyourarms，maywithdrawherself，utterlydisappeartillwhatyouholdisasinaccessibleasthefaceofacliff？
\"Bepatientwithme，dear，\"sheurgedsweetly。\"Iknowitishardforyou。AndIbegintosee——alittle——howTerrywassodriventocrime。\"
\"Oh，come，that’saprettyhardwordforit。Afterall，Alimawashiswife，youknow，\"Iurged，feelingatthemomentasuddenburstofsympathyforpoorTerry。Foramanofhistemperament——andhabits——itmusthavebeenanunbearablesituation。
ButEllador，forallherwideintellectualgrasp，andthebroadsympathyinwhichtheirreligiontrainedthem，couldnotmakeallowanceforsuch——toher——sacrilegiousbrutality。
Itwasthemoredifficulttoexplaintoher，becausewethree，inourconstanttalksandlecturesabouttherestoftheworld，hadnaturallyavoidedtheseamyside;notsomuchfromadesiretodeceive，butfromwishingtoputthebestfootforemostforourcivilization，inthefaceofthebeautyandcomfortoftheirs。Also，wereallythoughtsomethingswereright，oratleastunavoidable，whichwecouldreadilyseewouldberepugnanttothem，andthereforedidnotdiscuss。Againtherewasmuchofourworld’slifewhichwe，beingusedtoit，hadnotnoticedasanythingworthdescribing。Andstillfurther，therewasaboutthesewomenacolossalinnocenceuponwhichmanyofthethingswedidsayhadmadenoimpressionwhatever。
IamthusexplicitaboutitbecauseitshowshowunexpectedlystrongwastheimpressionmadeuponElladorwhensheatlastenteredourcivilization。
Sheurgedmetobepatient，andIwaspatient。Yousee，Ilovedhersomuchthateventherestrictionsshesofirmlyestablishedleftmemuchhappiness。Wewerelovers，andthereissurelydelightenoughinthat。
Donotimaginethattheseyoungwomenutterlyrefused\"theGreatNewHope，\"astheycalledit，thatofdualparentage。Forthattheyhadagreedtomarryus，thoughthemarryingpartofitwasaconcessiontoourprejudicesratherthantheirs。Tothemtheprocesswastheholything——andtheymeanttokeepitholy。
ButsofaronlyCelis，herblueeyesswimminginhappytears，herheartliftedwiththattideofrace—motherhoodwhichwastheirsupremepassion，couldwithineffablejoyandprideannouncethatshewastobeamother。\"TheNewMotherhood\"theycalledit，andthewholecountryknew。Therewasnopleasure，noservice，nohonorinallthelandthatCelismightnothavehad。Almostlikethebreathlessreverencewithwhich，twothousandyearsago，thatdwindlingbandofwomenhadwatchedthemiracleofvirginbirth，wasthedeepaweandwarmexpectancywithwhichtheygreetedthisnewmiracleofunion。
Allmothersinthatlandwereholy。Tothem，forlongages，theapproachtomotherhoodhasbeenbythemostintenseandexquisiteloveandlonging，bytheSupremeDesire，theovermasteringdemandforachild。Everythoughttheyheldinconnectionwiththeprocessesofmaternitywasopentotheday，simpleyetsacred。Everywomanofthemplacedmotherhoodnotonlyhigherthanotherduties，butsofarhigherthattherewerenootherduties，onemightalmostsay。
Alltheirwidemutuallove，allthesubtleinterplayofmutualfriendshipandservice，theurgeofprogressivethoughtandinvention，thedeepestreligiousemotion，everyfeelingandeveryactwasrelatedtothisgreatcentralPower，totheRiverofLifepouringthroughthem，whichmadethemthebearersoftheverySpiritofGod。
OfallthisIlearnedmoreandmore——fromtheirbooks，fromtalk，especiallyfromEllador。Shewasatfirst，forabriefmoment，enviousofherfriend——athoughtsheputawayfromheratonceandforever。
\"Itisbetter，\"shesaidtome。\"Itismuchbetterthatithasnotcometomeyet——tous，thatis。ForifIamtogowithyoutoyourcountry，wemayhave`adventuresbyseaandland，’asyousay[andasintruthwedid]，anditmightnotbeatallsafeforababy。
Sowewon’ttryagain，dear，tillitissafe——willwe？\"
Thiswasahardsayingforaverylovinghusband。
\"Unless，\"shewenton，\"ifoneiscoming，youwillleavemebehind。
Youcancomeback，youknow——andIshallhavethechild。\"
Thenthatdeepancientchillofmalejealousyofevenhisownprogenytouchedmyheart。
\"I’dratherhaveyou，Ellador，thanallthechildrenintheworld。
I’dratherhaveyouwithme——onyourownterms——thannottohaveyou。\"
Thiswasaverystupidsaying。OfcourseIwould！Forifshewasn’tthereIshouldwantallofherandhavenoneofher。Butifshewentalongasasortofsublimatedsister——onlymuchcloserandwarmerthanthat，really——whyIshouldhaveallofherbutthatonething。AndIwasbeginningtofindthatEllador’sfriendship，Ellador’scomradeship，Ellador’ssisterlyaffection，Ellador’sperfectlysincerelove——nonethelessdeepthatshehelditbackonadefinitelineofreserve——wereenoughtoliveonveryhappily。
Ifinditquitebeyondmetodescribewhatthiswomanwastome。Wetalkfinethingsaboutwomen，butinourheartsweknowthattheyareverylimitedbeings——mostofthem。
Wehonorthemfortheirfunctionalpowers，evenwhilewedishonorthembyouruseofit;wehonorthemfortheircarefullyenforcedvirtue，evenwhileweshowbyourownconducthowlittlewethinkofthatvirtue;wevaluethem，sincerely，forthepervertedmaternalactivitieswhichmakeourwivesthemostcomfortableofservants，boundtousforlifewiththewageswhollyatourowndecision，theirwholebusiness，outsideofthetemporarydutiesofsuchmotherhoodastheymayachieve，tomeetourneedsineveryway。Oh，wevaluethem，allright，\"intheirplace，\"
whichplaceisthehome，wheretheyperformthatmixtureofdutiessoablydescribedbyMrs。JosephineDodgeDaskamBacon，inwhichtheservicesof\"amistress\"arecarefullyspecified。
Sheisaveryclearwriter，Mrs。J。D。D。Bacon，andunderstandshersubject——fromherownpointofview。But——thatcombinationofindustries，whileconvenient，andinawayeconomical，doesnotarousethekindofemotioncommandedbythewomenofHerland。
Thesewerewomenonehadtolove\"up，\"veryhighup，insteadofdown。
Theywerenotpets。Theywerenotservants。Theywerenottimid，inexperienced，weak。
AfterIgotoverthejartomypride（whichJeff，Itrulythink，neverfelt——hewasabornworshipper，andwhichTerrynevergotover——hewasquiteclearinhisideasof\"thepositionofwomen\"），Ifoundthatloving\"up\"wasaverygoodsensationafterall。
Itgavemeaqueerfeeling，waydowndeep，asofthestirringofsomeancientdimprehistoricconsciousness，afeelingthattheywererightsomehow——thatthiswasthewaytofeel。Itwaslike——cominghometomother。Idon’tmeantheunderflannels—
and—doughnutsmother，thefussypersonthatwaitsonyouandspoilsyouanddoesn’treallyknowyou。Imeanthefeelingthataverylittlechildwouldhave，whohadbeenlost——foreversolong。Itwasasenseofgettinghome;ofbeingcleanandrested;
ofsafetyandyetfreedom;oflovethatwasalwaysthere，warmlikesunshineinMay，nothotlikeastoveorafeatherbed——alovethatdidn’tirritateanddidn’tsmother。
IlookedatElladorasifIhadn’tseenherbefore。\"Ifyouwon’tgo，\"Isaid，\"I’llgetTerrytothecoastandcomebackalone。
Youcanletmedownarope。Andifyouwillgo——whyyoublessedwonder—woman——Iwouldratherlivewithyouallmylife——likethis——thantohaveanyotherwomanIeversaw，oranynumberofthem，todoasIlikewith。Willyoucome？\"
Shewaskeenforcoming。Sotheplanswenton。She’dhavelikedtowaitforthatMarvelofCelis’s，butTerryhadnosuchdesire。
Hewascrazytobeoutofitall。Itmadehimsick，hesaid，SICK;
thiseverlastingmother—mother—mothering。Idon’tthinkTerryhadwhatthephrenologistscall\"thelumpofphiloprogenitiveness\"
atallwelldeveloped。
\"Morbidone—sidedcripples，\"hecalledthem，evenwhenfromhiswindowhecouldseetheirsplendidvigorandbeauty;
evenwhileMoadine，aspatientandfriendlyasifshehadneverhelpedAlimatoholdandbindhim，satthereintheroom，thepictureofwisdomandserenestrength。\"Sexless，epicene，undevelopedneuters！\"hewentonbitterly。HesoundedlikeSirAlmwrothWright。
Well——itwashard。HewasmadlyinlovewithAlima，really;
moresothanhehadeverbeenbefore，andtheirtempestuouscourtship，quarrels，andreconciliationshadfannedtheflame。
Andthenwhenhesoughtbythatsupremeconquestwhichseemssonaturalathingtothattypeofman，toforcehertolovehimashermaster——tohavethesturdyathleticfuriouswomanriseupandmasterhim——sheandherfriends——itwasnowonderheraged。
Cometothinkofit，Idonotrecallasimilarcaseinallhistoryorfiction。Womenhavekilledthemselvesratherthansubmittooutrage;theyhavekilledtheoutrager;theyhaveescaped;ortheyhavesubmitted——sometimesseemingtogetonverywellwiththevictorafterward。Therewasthatadventureof\"falseSextus，\"forinstance，who\"foundLucresecombingthefleece，underthemidnightlamp。\"Hethreatened，asIremember，thatifshedidnotsubmithewouldslayher，slayaslaveandplacehimbesideherandsayhefoundhimthere。Apoordevice，italwaysseemedtome。
IfMr。Lucretiushadaskedhimhowhecametobeinhiswife’sbedroomoverlookinghermorals，whatcouldhehavesaid？
ButthepointisLucresesubmitted，andAlimadidn’t。
\"Shekickedme，\"confidedtheembitteredprisoner——hehadtotalktosomeone。\"Iwasdoubledupwiththepain，ofcourse，andshejumpedonmeandyelledforthisoldharpy[Moadinecouldn’thearhim]andtheyhadmetrussedupinnotime。
IbelieveAlimacouldhavedoneitalone，\"headdedwithreluctantadmiration。\"She’sasstrongasahorse。Andofcourseaman’shelplesswhenyouhithimlikethat。Nowomanwithashadeofdecency——\"
Ihadtogrinatthat，andevenTerrydid，sourly。Hewasn’tgiventoreasoning，butitdidstrikehimthatanassaultlikehisratherwaivedconsiderationsofdecency。
\"I’dgiveayearofmylifetohaveheraloneagain，\"hesaidslowly，hishandsclenchedtilltheknuckleswerewhite。
Butheneverdid。Sheleftourendofthecountryentirely，wentupintothefir—forestonthehighestslopes，andstayedthere。
Beforewelefthequitedesperatelylongedtoseeher，butshewouldnotcomeandhecouldnotgo。Theywatchedhimlikelynxes。
（Dolynxeswatchanybetterthanmousingcats，Iwonder！）
Well——wehadtogettheflyerinorder，andbesuretherewasenoughfuelleft，thoughTerrysaidwecouldglideallright，downtothatlake，oncewegotstarted。We’dhavegonegladlyinaweek’stime，ofcourse，buttherewasagreatto—doalloverthecountryaboutEllador’sleavingthem。Shehadinterviewswithsomeoftheleadingethicists——wisewomenwithstilleyes，andwiththebestoftheteachers。Therewasastir，athrill，adeepexcitementeverywhere。
Ourteachingabouttherestoftheworldhasgiventhemallasenseofisolation，ofremoteness，ofbeingalittleoutlyingsampleofacountry，overlookedandforgottenamongthefamilyofnations。Wehadcalledit\"thefamilyofnations，\"andtheylikedthephraseimmensely。
Theyweredeeplyarousedonthesubjectofevolution;indeed，thewholefieldofnaturalsciencedrewthemirresistibly。
Anynumberofthemwouldhaveriskedeverythingtogotothestrangeunknownlandsandstudy;butwecouldtakeonlyone，andithadtobeEllador，naturally。
Weplannedgreatlyaboutcomingback，aboutestablishingaconnectingroutebywater;aboutpenetratingthosevastforestsandcivilizing——orexterminating——thedangeroussavages。
Thatis，wementalkedofthatlast——notwiththewomen。
Theyhadadefiniteaversiontokillingthings。
Butmeanwhiletherewashighcouncilbeingheldamongthewisestofthemall。Thestudentsandthinkerswhohadbeengatheringfactsfromusallthistime，collatingandrelatingthem，andmakinginferences，laidtheresultoftheirlaborsbeforethecouncil。
Littlehadwethoughtthatourcarefuleffortsatconcealmenthadbeensoeasilyseenthrough，withneverawordtoshowusthattheysaw。Theyhadfollowedupwordsofoursonthescienceofoptics，askedinnocentquestionsaboutglassesandthelike，andwereawareofthedefectiveeyesightsocommonamongus。
Withthelightesttouch，differentwomenaskingdifferentquestionsatdifferenttimes，andputtingallouranswerstogetherlikeapicturepuzzle，theyhadfiguredoutasortofskeletonchartastotheprevalenceofdiseaseamongus。Evenmoresubtlywithnoshowofhorrororcondemnation，theyhadgatheredsomething——farfromthetruth，butsomethingprettyclear——aboutpoverty，vice，andcrime。Theyevenhadagoodlynumberofourdangersallitemized，fromaskingusaboutinsuranceandinnocentthingslikethat。
Theywerewellpostedastothedifferentraces，beginningwiththeirpoison—arrownativesdownbelowandwideningouttothebroadracialdivisionswehadtoldthemabout。Neverashockedexpressionofthefaceorexclamationofrevolthadwarnedus;theyhadbeenextractingtheevidencewithoutourknowingitallthistime，andnowwerestudyingwiththemostdevoutearnestnessthemattertheyhadprepared。
Theresultwasratherdistressingtous。TheyfirstexplainedthematterfullytoEllador，asshewastheonewhopurposedvisitingtheRestoftheWorld。ToCelistheysaidnothing。Shemustnotbeinanywaydistressed，whilethewholenationwaitedonherGreatWork。
FinallyJeffandIwerecalledin。SomelandZavawerethere，andEllador，withmanyothersthatweknew。
Theyhadagreatglobe，quitefairlymappedoutfromthesmallsectionmapsinthatcompendiumofours。Theyhadthedifferentpeoplesoftheearthroughlyoutlined，andtheirstatusincivilizationindicated。Theyhadchartsandfiguresandestimates，basedonthefactsinthattraitorouslittlebookandwhattheyhadlearnedfromus。
Somelexplained：\"Wefindthatinallyourhistoricperiod，somuchlongerthanours，thatwithalltheinterplayofservices，theexchangeofinventionsanddiscoveries，andthewonderfulprogresswesoadmire，thatinthiswidespreadOtherWorldofyours，thereisstillmuchdisease，oftencontagious。\"
Weadmittedthisatonce。
\"Alsothereisstill，invaryingdegree，ignorance，withprejudiceandunbridledemotion。\"
Thistoowasadmitted。
\"Wefindalsothatinspiteoftheadvanceofdemocracyandtheincreaseofwealth，thatthereisstillunrestandsometimescombat。\"
Yes，yes，weadmitteditall。Wewereusedtothesethingsandsawnoreasonforsomuchseriousness。
\"Allthingsconsidered，\"theysaid，andtheydidnotsayahundredthpartofthethingstheywereconsidering，\"weareunwillingtoexposeourcountrytofreecommunicationwiththerestoftheworld——asyet。IfElladorcomesback，andweapproveherreport，itmaybedonelater——butnotyet。
\"Sowehavethistoaskofyougentlemen[theyknewthatwordwasheldatitleofhonorwithus]，thatyoupromisenotinanywaytobetraythelocationofthiscountryuntilpermission——afterEllador’sreturn。\"
Jeffwasperfectlysatisfied。Hethoughttheywerequiteright。
Healwaysdid。IneversawanalienbecomenaturalizedmorequicklythanthatmaninHerland。
Istudieditawhile，thinkingofthetimethey’dhaveifsomeofourcontagionsgotloosethere，andconcludedtheywereright。
SoIagreed。
Terrywastheobstacle。\"IndeedIwon’t！\"heprotested。\"ThefirstthingI’lldoistogetanexpeditionfixeduptoforceanentranceintoMa—land。\"
\"Then，\"theysaidquitecalmly，\"hemustremainanabsoluteprisoner，always。\"
\"Anesthesiawouldbekinder，\"urgedMoadine。
\"Andsafer，\"addedZava。
\"Hewillpromise，Ithink，\"saidEllador。
Andhedid。WithwhichagreementweatlastleftHerland。